#negative tw

((I think about how we, as a society, are heading into a downwards spiral and no matter how much we do it will crash and I have a feeling it will happen in my lifetime. Maybe in 10 years or sooner I think. I worry about my younger sister and her generation because they will never ever get to experience my childhood, how I grew up and how the internet is. Steadily being reliant on AI and everyone growing dumber and dumber and I'm really scared that by the time my sister graduates high school...I'm just scared for my younger sister and her generation. Constantly thinking about how we're living while multiple genocides are happening and children and men and women screaming and yelling and begging for help and I think about how my parents are growing older and one day they will die and my grandma will die and how eventually everything ends.

I think about how parents these days are careless with their children; today i had to hear at least three children crying and screaming for their parents' attention and how they want this and that and how their parents don't bother to take care of them. I think about how etiquette and common sense are dead. I think about how people never pick up after themselves and how romance is mostly dead in real life and how I'll never feel safe around people and how I'm treated compared to my brother PRIMARILY because I'm AFAB and how angry that makes me but I lost my will to yell and scream and I can't even cry now I think I lost all of that.

I think about a lot of things. I don't know if I'll put them in the correct way or with the correct words. I think I lost all of my writing skills. I miss being able to write without being in pain. Sometimes I feel like my thoughts are extremely shallow and they don't deserve to be said outloud. I don't think my thoughts matter to a lot of people.