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|| Sorry that I had suddenly gone poof from tumblr! I honestly haven't been online much at all, including on discord. Admittedly, some personal family health things had come up, to myself and a few other family members and that's kept me pretty occupied and also tbh, kinda feeling a bit bummed out!

I'm okay tho for the most part, I am also on some new medication to help with my weight ( which dkjcsd lowkey makes me nauseous at times but is manageable ), but I have to do more scans, blood tests and surgeon consultations, cause one surgeon wants me to remove the majority of my parathyroids, and I have to see another one concerning my pancreas, which might have something going on- idk yet tbh but I'll get info on that during my consult this week.

I wouldn't be surprised if there is something up with my pancreas tho, since I've recently learned I have the Men1 gene, so I'm predisposed to issues with my endocrine glands and stuff like that. Being diagnosed with that did at least make a lot of sense of why I've had these hormone related issues and other ailments that have affected my health, so at least knowing is some semblance of relief, since it means I can have a better grasp on how to manage it or keep on top of it.

While that's all going on, couple of my close cousins ended up in hospital as well. One is now fine and well, but he gave us a bit of a scare initially. My other cousin unfortunately is not doing too good, and it has my family and I pretty shook. I'm going to make efforts to fly over to see her and her sister more throughout the year, since my cousin will be going through a really arduous journey for treatment and I want to be there for her, and her twin as a means of support. I may consider re-opening my commissions again to go towards flight tickets :> xckxj tho I haven't been drawing at all lately so I feel a bit out of practice pftt

But anyway, that's kinda sdfgddjk a bit of a damper I know, but I am safe and okay and just kinda going through the motions. Focusing on work and family, but I do need to pick myself back up again and talk to ya'll again rather than isolate. I'll try do better about that but appreciate people's patience a whole bunch 💕

People are going to blame the fans, but this hate and anger stemmed from an accumulation of frustrations about the incompetence of the company in areas regarding main story, optimisation, content, resource gathering and etc.

I think the fans are also fucked up, first of all.

Sending funeral flowers and all that. Harassing people online, harassing the company. Boycotting etc. etc. They had valid complaints at the start but the way they went about is so wrong and messed up. Parasocial to a degree, in fact. Acting like it's the end of the world if Valko gets released and things like that.

As someone who has been pushing for changes even... I just feel like the message was clear but not at all how it should be translated to the devs.

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However...

I also feel like personally, Infold should not have announced the decision to remove Valko but rather, postpone his debut. The other points in their official announcement have already been highlighted in the latest 6.0 stream. Regardless or not, the stories for Syl.us and C.aleb and the features of the housing system are STILL going to be released either way. And you guys still have to wait for months still.

This company is NOT promising you guys anything extra and are not giving any transparency about it either. They're removing Valko because it seemed like the 'easiest' way, or the most 'right' way. The choice that will get celebrated by the noisy fans while everyone else cries.

The message that they're giving us is this:

My game is controlled by finance and profit, by majority of CN fans basically. I will bend the knee and get bossed around. Fuck artistic integrity and fuck everyone who worked so hard on this character / loved this character.

And that is so messed up.