#nctsad

Y/n POV

As I sat on the ledge of the window staring into the starry night, I begin to shiver, the thoughts of the past week haunted me. I pulled my leg into my chest  still looking out the window. The emptiness devouring me in. That’s when I saw it, it was like I was being stabbed in the chest a million times. It felt as if someone was pulling my heart out. The pain I went through to see him with someone else. Seeing him laugh, smile and kissing someone else. I couldn’t take it anymore. I just broke down, not caring the the tears on my my face would sting more and more. I closed my eyes and remembered the happy days.

*flashback*

“ Baby I love you, I love you so much. You mean so much to me, I could never do anything to hurt you, I could never do anything to make you cry. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to hug you so tight that you tell me you can’t breath. I want to be under the sheets with you for a life time. Will you be my girlfriend?” Jaehyun said taking my hands in his

“Yes, yes, I love you too” I said as I jumped into his arms

“ I promise I won’t hurt you.” He said

*end of flashback*

My thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging  opening.

I got up from the ledge and went straight to him.

“WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING WITH ANOTHER GIRL?” I yelled as I pulled his shirt to face me

“What do you mean?” He said laughing

“Are serious? You don’t need to lie anymore Jaehyun. I know you were out with a girl.” I said

“So what if I was? I can hang out with people. Your so clingy.” He said, his words like a sword driving through me with ease. It was like this meant nothing to him.

“ if you weren’t happy with me then you should have just told me som-

“ THATS RIGHT I’M NOT HAPPY WITH YOU ANYMORE, IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR CAUSE I CAN SAY IT AGAIN.” He said yelling at me, at that moment my anger took control over my body. My hand clashing onto his face as I slapped him.

“Your such a jerk, you promised me, you said-

“Said wha? I’ll stay with you forever, I’ll love you forever, I want to be with you? DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT SHIT.” He said, I couldn’t take it anymore I started to hit him harder and harder my fist driving into his arms as he tried to defend himself.

“You know what, I HATE YOU I want you out of my life, I never want to see you anymore at least those other girls don’t expect much.” He said, my tears now pouring out of my eyes. I didn’t say anything but stare at him, I took my keys and wallet and walked out on him.

How could we end up like this?

Jaehyun POV

As I saw y/n’s silhouette disappear into the dark abyss, that was when I realized how much I had lost. There was no winning in this, no matter what I did, no matter how I looked at it I would have lost y/n in the end. I was a jerk, I was an idiot, I was an asshole. I ran out of the apartment to look for y/n, but they were gone, there was no way to come back from the things I did, the things I said. They were out of my grasp, the scent of their hair no longer lingered in my head. The way their soft lips would touch mine every morning I could no longer recall. Everything about them forgotten, because of me, and my idiotic decisions.

“Please come back.... I need you.”

I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.. please, please

I still want you. Come back to me.