#nct2018

Without you realizing it, a single tear begins to run down your face, and soon more follow after it. You did nothing to stop the tears running down your face and you just let your cheeks get stained by the salty water drops. 

You could still remember all of the time you and he were still smiling and laughing together as if there were only the two of you in the world and how he would comfort you with his hugs and kisses, telling you how strong you were and how he was always there for you whenever you need comfort. 

With him, you felt like you were the happiest woman on the planet. He made you feel special. Like you were the only one in his eyes. You gave him everything he needed without hesitation. Everything- from food to clothes, to money- anything that he needed or wanted, you gave it to him.

You were so blinded by his sweet talks and illusions of so-called love that you never even suspected him. You believed him no matter what other people say, telling you how he was bad for you, and that you will only get hurt staying by him- you ignored all of their advice, saying that you knew what was best for you.

Well, clearly you didn’t. If you did know what was good for you, you wouldn’t be sitting on the window seat inside of your bedroom crying over your breakup with Jaehyun. If you knew that heartbreak would hurt so bad, you would have never dated Jaehyun. You would’ve never believed his sweet talks or his charming smile when he first started to court you.

The sudden ringtone of your phone breaks the comforting yet gloomy silence of the room. Your heart aches as you stare at the name of the caller.

“Babe”

You stare at the small profile picture that was shown on top of the contact name as more tears rush to your eyes.

It was a picture of you and Jaehyun smiling together- laughing together. You never noticed it but looking at the picture now, Jaehyun’s smile seemed so...fake.

There were no sparkles in his eyes like you’ve seen when he was laughing with his friends, and they were blank...as if they were dead. He smiled emptily, his dimples still showing but his eyes...his eyes were as if they held no emotions. 

You put down your phone once again, simply watching it until it finally stops ringing and a notification pops up onto your screen. 

You’ve got 1 voicemail!

You clicked on it.

[voicemail] - 1

“Uh...hey...y/n, it’s Jaehyun here. You didn’t pick up any of my calls and I don’t know if you’ve listened to my other voicemails yet but I’m here...again. I know what I did was...unforgettable, and honestly, I probably hate myself more than you hate me right now and GOD I was so fucking stupid. 

This probably is going to sound like bullshit to you- and I don’t blame you for thinking this way, but fuck...I miss you so fucking much. I miss when you would smile look at me with stars in your eyes. I miss all of the time when you would tell me you loved me, and fuck...I feel so stupid for never saying it back. 

I’m so fucking sorry y/n... I miss you so fucking much- please, I’m begging you- please just respond to me. I don’t care if it’s just a simple ‘hi’ or even a ‘fuck off’ but just please- don’t ignore me. I...I have so much I still want to tell you and I just want us to go back to the way we were before when I didn’t mess everything up.

I know that’s not going to happen anymore, but who’s gonna stop me from trying? Please y/n, just respond to me, please just stop ignoring me. I don’t care if you want to hit me or if you want to yell at me, just- as long as you talking to me, I’ll do anything.

Please y/n...I’m so sorry, please...just respond to me. I’m begging you. I miss you so fucking much…

Please.”

More and more tears begin to rush to your eyes and soon they begin to run down your cheek one by one. You missed him too, so badly. Wanting to do nothing more than to run back into his arms and hug it out saying ‘I miss you’ and ‘I forgive you’s over and over again.

But you know you shouldn’t. You’ve seen through everything now. How he was only using you for your money that you didn’t have much of to begin with, he used you for his own personal pleasure, he used you to show off to his friends to tell them how he’s got a “very obedient girlfriend who would do anything as long as he tells her to”. But not only that, but he was a liar- a cheater too.

You thought that nothing could ever hurt you anymore after the death of your mother but Jaehyun proved you wrong when you caught him in bed naked with an unfamiliar woman in his arms. 

Nothing pains you more than to hear Jaehyun calling you and sending you voicemails and texts every day. But now, your heartbreak pains you even more than Jaehyun’s pleas.

You still loved him. You never stopped loving him. Not even after knowing that he was such a jerk. 

You knew you could never forget him. He was just too perfect. With his dimples and sweet words, he’s got you under his love spell and you’ve got no way to escape even if you wanted to. Everything reminded you of him and you just couldn’t get him off your mind.

That was the price of loving him. You had put him before your own self. It made you turn blind to everything else that wasn’t him. It was toxic, you knew it was- but you couldn’t stop.

You knew that in order to forget about him, you need to cut him completely out of your life. So with your shaky hands, you picked up your phone when it began to ring once again.

Taking in a shaky breath, you click the glowing green button.

“He-hello? Y/n? Is-is that really you?” 

A deep voice emits from the other side of the device, his voice was shaky, and he stuttered from disbelief, not thinking that you would actually pick up.

“Finally! Oh my god- I’m so sorry-“

You cut him off coldly.

“Jung Jaehyun.”

You try your best to sound confident, trying your hardest to speak louder and clearer in hopes that he doesn’t realize how shaky and hoarse- evidence that proved that you were crying just seconds ago.

“Don’t look for me ever again. If you ever see me, please just turn the other way. We are no more.” 

You cut the call. Immediately your phone rings again, the once adored name and picture popping up once again now only bring pain to your heart.

Trying to not stop the phone, you denied the call before quickly blocking him preventing him from making another call. Before proceeding to block him on all of your other social media platforms.

Dropping your phone onto the floor, you let out a big sigh.

You did it.

You finally let him go.

But your heart’s gonna need a long time to heal from that heartbreak.

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It has been roughly two months since you and Jaehyun went public with your relationship and since then your relationship has become more serious.

"Tyong hyung..." Jaehyun called out.

"Oh?" Taeyong responded.

"When did you ask noona to move in with you?" Jaehyun asked.

"Ah. It's getting that serious huh?" The older one chuckled.

"Well, it honestly differs with each person." He stated. "But for me, we openly talked about it. And as our schedules got busier, I longed for her every single night in bed. I had a hard time falling asleep because I missed her and wanted her beside me. At that point, I knew that I wanted move in with her." He added.

Jaehyun nodded and listened to his older brother about his own experiences and thoughts about the situation.

He thought of the feelings and worries he has been having the past couple of days.

“Are you thinking of moving in with y/n?” Taeyong asked causing the younger man to break out of his thoughts.

“Well.. Yeah? I guess so?” Jaehyun responded. “But I was kinda having these thoughts that I may have been going too fast and that it’ll scare her away.” he rambled. “I really like her. And I’m afraid that she’ll get distant.” he continued.

“Jae..” Taeyong started. “You’re overthinking. And I know for sure that it’s not going to scare y/n away.” he continued. “From what I see, y/n-ie is really fond of you. I see how she takes care of you and other people don’t normally do the things she does to take care of you if they don’t love them.” he added.

“Hyung, thank you.” Jaehyun stated.

“Think about it carefully and then talk about it with y/n. Communication is always key to a great relationship. Okay?”

Jaehyun nodded with a smile. And he went home that night thinking about it carefully. 

When he finally arrived at the comfort of his bed in his shared room with Jungwoo, he pulled out his phone and sent you a message.

to my love: babe?

to my love: just finished work and home now

to my love: still awake?

Jaehyun figured that while he was waiting for your reply he could quickly go to the bathroom and freshen up and get changed into his pajamas.

He came back to his room feeling refreshed after the long hours at work. He collapsed on his bed and checked his phone if you have replied to his messages.

He smiled at his notification reading that it was from you.

from my love: yup

from my love: just finished editing a vlog

from my love: i’m in bed rn

from my love: getting ready to sleep

to my love: babe, how does a date on sat feels?

to my love: i miss you :(

from my love: that would be amazeballs babe!

from my love: and i miss you too! :(

from my love: too much if you ask me :(

Jaehyun felt his ears start to warm up, getting flustered knowing his girl was missing him. He was missing her kisses and hugs; he was missing her too.

to my love: i miss you too, babe

to my love: but we’ll see each other on sat

to my love: i love you

to my love: let’s sleep now

from my love: okay, see you

from my love: i love you too

Jaehyun drifted off to sleep with a smile plastered on his face knowing that he’ll get to see and hold his girl at the end of the week.

Jaehyun woke up in a good mood looking forward to when he would be able to be with you again.

Like a routine, Jaehyun would send you a message greeting and informing you that he has woken up and briefing you on his schedule of the day just so that you won’t worry about him too much.

Even if you’ve told him a million times that he doesn’t need to update you on his every move and to just use his little break times to rest up and yet he still insists to inform and send you messages whenever time permits him to. You know very well how busy he could get and that’s fine. Even before you went public, you’ve always set aside time so you would be able to visit him in shoots or in the dorms. And even going as far as going out of the country to surprise him and go to their concert.

As a YouTuber, you have never had Jaehyun in any of your vlogs. His faint voice can sometimes be heard from the background, some of his body parts in the frame without revealing his face but no one has ever noticed until announcing your relationship. 

You were also always avoiding the questions along the lines of romantic relationships. Even though that as some kind of a public figure you knew from the start that you would have to give up most of your privacy. But somehow you wanted to keep your relationship away from the public eye first, to savor the peace and quiet for a little while it was still early in the blossoming relationship with Jaehyun.

After Jaehyun announced your relationship publicly, you still kept most of your moments with him private. Just sharing little snippets of your time together in a vlog once in a while. 

A lot of viewers, mostly Jaehyun’s fans have been requesting for Jaehyun to make an appearance on your vlogs or do a little Q&A together. You liked the idea of a little Q&A with Jaehyun so you jot it down as an idea for content that you could make in the future when you both could find the time.

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The week went by fast with both of you and Jaehyun’s busy schedule.

You were packed with a lot of deadlines for the week with your sponsors and Jaehyun was busy recording and preparing for their comeback.

You were both looking forward to this day that you’ll be able to spend a little time together amidst the crazy schedules you both have.

from my love: can’t wait for tonight

from my love: see you love

Jaehyun woke up smiling from ear to ear seeing your message.

to my love: hi bub

to my love: i’ll see you tonight

from my love: do you have plans tonight?

from my love: will it be okay if we just stay in?

to my love: i’d love that babe

to my love: nope, no plans tonight

to my love: just want to be with you

from my love: you make my heart flutter

from my love: i love you

to my love: i love you too

After your little exchange of messages with Jaehyun, you went out to go grocery shopping since you wanted to cook for him and as well as to get some snacks for tonight.

Earlier in the week, Jaehyun had filmed a little announcement that he could upload on your channel after discussing a possible ‘move-in’ with him. Although he was still debating with himself if he should upload it secretly or give you a heads up first.

Fast forward to tonight.

You were cooking in your kitchen and your camera positioned in place to record your movements and you suddenly hear your door open knowing that it was your boyfriend since he knew the passcode to your apartment.

“Babe.” he called out while taking off his shoes. “I’m home.” he added.

“I’m cooking.” you responded.

Jaehyun walked towards you and gave you a peck on the lips, the camera perfectly caught it with him at the side of the frame. He didn’t notice that you were filming and was surprised to see that the camera was recording.

“You’re filming.” he said.

You nodded. He waved at the camera and turned it off.

“I just filmed a few since I mentioned in my last vlog that we’re meeting tonight.” 

“You’re cute.” he said. “I love you and I missed you.” he pouted.

You smiled at him widely while you finish up cooking for dinner.

Jaehyun started to re-position the camera angle to the table and started setting it up with you. Both of you let the camera capture the little intimate scene.

After dinner, you turned off the camera. Just so that you could have some private time with your boyfriend.

While washing the dishes, Jaehyun sees this as an opportunity to discuss moving in together.

“Love” he started. “We’ve been together for a little over a year now. And I always miss you too much when we’re apart. I also could not stop thinking about you even when my schedule’s packed.” he rambled. “What do you think of moving in together?” he asked.

You looked at him, shocked evident in your face.

He took a glance at you and rambled, “If you think it’s too fast and you’re not ready, it’s fine. I just want you to know that whenever you're ready, let's move in together. It would benefit the both of us, we won't have to miss each other that much, we won't have to say goodbyes, only good nights." be rambled on.

While he was rambling, your expression changed from being shocked to fonding over how cute your boyfriend went on with his thoughts.

"I'd love to move in with you too, Jae" you responded.

He was stunned at your response. He didn't know if he heard you correctly.

"I'm sorry, did I hear you correctly?" he asked. "You did say that you'd move in with me right? Please tell me I heard you correctly" he said with excitement evident in his eyes.

You chuckled at him. "Yes, love. You heard me correctly. I specifically said that I'd love to move in with you." you confirmed.

He hugged you while twirling the both of you for a quick second and then settling you down and giving you a passionate kiss.

He was, needless to say, over the moon. And you were too, ecstatic even. I mean, who wouldn't be? You'll be able to go home to the person you love and most importantly, be able to have this handsome man the first thing you see when you wake up and the last one before going to bed.

You then settled on the couch to watch some movies and just hold each other.

"When do you want to start looking for apartments?" He asked out of the blue, eyes still glued to the screen in front.

"I would have to check my calendar first, babe. You should too, so we could schedule it when we're free," you replied.

Jaehyun nodded.

"Also, I'd prefer to look at apartments after your guys' comeback," you stated. "I know how stressful things get when you're preparing for a comeback so I'd rather not have you get a mental breakdown or something. It'll just make me worried." you continued.

"I love you, babe," he said kissing your forehead.

"I love you too."

The time passed by way too fast for your liking and in matter of minutes, Jaehyun was already getting ready to leave your apartment.

"Are you sure you don't want to stay the night?" you questioned.

"As much as I want to, I have an early schedule tomorrow morning." he pouted. "Just hold on a bit more, soon we'll never have to say goodbye. I'll text you once I’m at the dorms, okay?" he continued.

You smiled weakly at him. He kissed you one last time before he goes and bids his farewell.

More than thirty minutes later, you heard your phone ring notifying you of you just received a message. You hurriedly freshen up and got changed to your pajamas.

to my love: arrived at the dorm

to my love: i've been meaning to ask you a while ago but could i possibly upload something on your channel?

to my love: like about moving in together?

to my love: that is, if it's alright with you though

from my love: i think the viewers would like that

from my love: they've been requesting for you to make an appearance on my vlogs too

to my love: uwu

to my love: that's adorable

You felt the excitement coursing through your veins. You were excited to look at apartments with your boyfriend in a couple of months.

While you still lounge on your computer chair at your little desk space within your bedroom space, your excitement extended to planning out what would be the color palette you'd both like since you wanted it to feel like a home to the both of you: a home that you will share together, a space that you could call 'ours'.

You took a sticky note pad, scribbling a note mentioning that you would have to curate a mood board that consists of both your preferences.

You took another sticky note and wrote a reminder to segregate the things you'll take with you and the things that you'll have to sell.

You walked over to your bed, getting ready to sleep and looking forward to a bright future together with Jaehyun.

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Fast forward to the special youtube announcement.

Jaehyun wanted to announce the news on your youtube channel and he wanted to do it personally.

He wanted to be the one to film and edit the whole announcement, mentioning that he also wants to experience what you do.

On the other hand, you were a bit worried for him at first. Skeptical that he would manage to edit it amidst the chaotic schedule he has because you know him like the back of your hand and Jaehyun was very adamant that he finishes editing the video in time for the date he has shared personally both on your Instagram account and on his. Nonetheless, he assured you he would be able to do it.

And alas, he did. Seeing his work premiere on your channel you absolutely made sure to take a mental note never to underestimate him and his time management skills not to mention his creativity too.

You watched his work alongside your viewers but you focused on the man rambling about how he was scared to ask you to move in with him because he thought that he was moving way too fast and how terrified he was that it'll scare you away. He also told a story on how he talked with Taeyong about the right time to move in. Nearing the end of the video, he gushed on how amazing you are both as a person and his significant other. Saying that for him, there's only you: who he wants to spend the rest of his life with you. He finished the video with a little clip of the quick twirling moment you both had when he asked you to move in with him.

After the premier, you looked through the comments section and it flooded with congratulations both from your viewers and Jaehyun's fans. And it even went viral on several social media platforms. Your heart fluttered with all the congratulations and sweet nothings you were both getting from the video.

to my love: good job, love 👏🏻

to my love: lots of congratulations in the comments for us hehe

to my love: i was also thinking we could kind of make a little Q&A

to my love: tell me what you think hihi

to my love: oh! and also please don't skip your meals and always stay hydrated

to my love: i love you

You left Jaehyun messages since you knew his schedule was jam-packed, you didn't expect him to respond until later.

from my love: the Q&A is a great idea

from my love: also, i don't skip meals :(

from my love: i love you too

In the meantime, you took this time to form into words your feelings towards all the congratulations and sweet nothings you've received and tell how grateful you were. You planned to post your message on your Instagram account paired with a couple of pictures you had together with Jaehyun in a couple of days.

ynsphotoroll: I don’t know how I should put my feelings from the last couple of days into words but first, I want to thank everyone that sent us their congratulations and sweet notes. You guys are so sweet it still makes my heart flutter. Second, I am super excited about this new chapter in my life with Jaehyun. Like his words in his video, to me, there is also no other person I'd rather do this with than him. Not going to lie though, I was worried about czennies first before anyone else because I don't want to upset you guys. You are important to Jaehyun thus, important to me too. Jaehyun and his members will not be where they are now if it weren't for all you and your support. Lastly, with czennies and my subscribers in mind, I am curating a variety of special series on my channel. I know lots of you are requesting to have Jaehyun be featured on my channel frequently so I decided to gift you all just that hihi thank you for all the love and support you've given. Please do look forward to more soon. ❤

czennie01: awe, you’re too pure @ynsphotoroll

_jeongjaehyun and ynsphotoroll liked czennie01′s comment.

ynsphotoroll replied: @czennie01 uwu

_jeongjaehyun replied: @czennie01 mhm, wait ‘til you see her pissed/angry hahaha jk

ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun yah! i don’t get pissed :(

_jeongjaehyun replied: @ynphotoroll it’s more like you don’t get pissed easily but you get angy frequently :p

ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun lol what does ‘angy’ even mean?

@_jeongjaehyun replied: @ynsphotoroll it means angry in tiny or being cute while angry haha

czennie02: @ynsphotoroll the world is lucky to have you in it but you’re luckier to call @_jeongjaehyun yours

_jeongjaehyun and ynsphotoroll liked czennie02′s comment.

_jeongjaehyun replied: @czennie02 i’m the lucky one to have her by my side

ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun you’re too sweet, love

ynsphotoroll replied: @czennie02 uwu i am indeed lucky hehe

ynsfan01: @_jeongjaehyun pls take good care of our y/n-ie

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ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun yah! you heard ‘em hehehe jk ily

ynsphotoroll replied: @ynsfan01 i’m pretty sure he does take good care of me, don’t you worry bub ;)

czennie03: not @ynsphotoroll and @_jeongjaehyun bickering cutely in the comment section hahaha 

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ynsfan02: honestly the cutest couple ever :(

_jeongjaehyun and ynsphotoroll liked ynsfan02′s comment.

ynsphotoroll replied: @ynsfan02 uwu

czennie04: not @_jeongjaehyun knowing what angy means :))

_jeongjaehyun and ynsphotoroll liked czennie04′s comment.

_jeongjaehyun replied: @czennie04 i do lurk sometimes ;)

ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun please don’t lie :p

ynsphotoroll replied: @czennie04 don’t be fooled bub. i see him lurk and laugh at czennies most of the time

_jeongjaehyun replied: @ynsphotoroll don’t expose me :(

ynsphotoroll replied: @_jeongjaehyun mhm you did it first :p ily tho

_jeongjaehyun replied: @ynsphotoroll ily too hehe

After that cute comment spree with Jaehyun, you decided to put up an Instagram story announcing that you’re going to do a Q&A with Jaehyun soon and that they can now send their questions.

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A/N: hi, thank you for reading! feedback is always appreciated hihi you can send them in my ask! Also, this will come with a mini-series in line, i hope you look forward to it too