Wanda watches you like you were made of the stars themselves, the way you finally felt at ease, in the pool, feel the water ripple over every crease of your skin, whilst Nat kept jumping in and out of the pool with sunscreen and a sunhat from 1984.
"Come on just wear it."
"Nat, stop, I'm fine, I-" before you could even swim away Nat had the hat tight around your ears, squeezing your head to the point of popping.
You gazed up to Wanda, who was sat on the side, watching the shenanigans of her wife. Your big eyes pleading whilst you stood in the middle of pool, water up to your chest, with a hat that was far too tight around the middle of your ears, and Nat's fingers rubbing all over you with the sunscreen.
'Please.' You mouthed to the red head, whose legs where stretched out, dipped into the water below.
You loved them both.
You adored how protective they both could be, but since your mental health and plummeted a few months back...well Natasha had gotten a bee in her bonnet, and was over protective now.
More than over protective. It was over baring.
"Nat come on, leave the poor girl alone, she said a relaxing day, not a make me look like a bobble head day."
Nat scrunched up her face, eyebrows knitting together as if Wanda had told her that her pet spider had been killed.
The sun was hot on your back, glimmering in the water as Wanda and Nat seemed to be staring each other down.
Wanda tilted her head slightly, eyes more emerald than usual, from the gleaming sun, her finger tips sparking with red magic. She sighed deeply, placing her bookmark back inside what she was reading, and set it to the side.
She let her self slide gently int the water, like a mermaid, full of magic and intrigue.
"Natasha," Wanda giggled, her fingers pulling at the hat, one, two, three, and she tugged it free from your head "the poor girl was going to have a marshmallow for a brain with how tight this is." her knuckles came to your cheek, caressing your skin, nerves inside your body sparking like fairy dust.
Wanda's eyes glimmered under the midday day sun, following the way you avoided her gaze, your smile reaching your whole face, the need for you against her was clear, as was your need for her.
"Be a good girl, and swim away, I need to have a word with Nat alone." Wanda kissed your wet lips slowly, tongue exploring your mouth, your breath hitched, squeaked was more like it.
You breathed her in, every strand of hair that tickled your cheek, the scent of vanilla lingering, the way her fingers cupped your cheeks and her lips moved against yours.
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A/N: First chapter out of three!! I hope the royal language makes sense-
The conference room at the top of Avengers Tower had seen gods argue with soldiers, billionaires threaten monsters and the end of the world laid out across glass tables more times than anyone cared to count.
But tonight, the room felt different and that was the first warning. No voices overlapped or no one paced except Tony and even his restless movement felt muted, like the tower itself had decided to hold its breath. New York looked distant from up here, completely unaware that somewhere beyond the stars, something ancient and merciless was moving toward them.
The hologram above the table glowed blue. Visionâs face turned slowly within the projection, then his body, then the Mind Stone in his forehead. He was now a target, which meant..death sentence. A silence followed every rotation of the image. Steve stood with his arms crossed, jaw tight and Wanda sat beside Vision, her fingers wrapped around his hand as if physical touch alone could keep him anchored to the earth. Tony flicked his wrist and the hologram zoomed in on the Mind Stone.
âSo, weâre all agreed that letting the big purple grape collect the magic forehead jewelry is bad.â
No one laughed and Tonyâs mouth tightened. âRight. Tough crowd..â Shuri stood on the other side of the table with her arms folded and eyes bright with the kind of intelligence that made even Tony look like a man holding a candle beside a star.
âIt is not jewelry.â she said and Tony pointed at her without looking. âI am aware.â
âYou keep calling it jewelry.â
âI cope with world ending trauma through sarcasm. Itâs a system.â
âIt is a poor one.â Shuri stepped forward, tapping the holographic display. The image shifted, peeling back layers of Visionâs synthetic tissue and the luminous threads connecting the Stone to everything he was.
âThe Stone is not merely attached to him.â she said. âIt is integrated. Poorly, in some places but elegantly in others..and it can be removed.â
Wanda looked up. Visionâs expression softened, but there was fear beneath his composure. âHow long?â Steve asked.
Shuriâs gaze flickered briefly to her brother before returning to the projection. âLong enough that we would need a controlled environment. My lab and my equipment.â
âWakanda.â Natasha said.
TâChalla stood near the windows, he had been listening more than speaking. A king in a room full of warriors, letting others spend their panic first.
âYes.â he said. âWakanda.â
Tony exhaled, already moving to another screen. âOkay, good. We have a destination. We get Vision there, Shuri does her genius thing, we keep the Stone away from Thanos and maybe, for once, the apocalypse can make an appointment instead-â
âNo.â
The word did not come from TâChalla, it came from Shuri. Steveâs eyes narrowed. âNo?â
Shuri was looking at her brother now and he did not move, but something changed in his face. âWe need help.â he said quietly.
âNo.â she repeated, sharper this time. âDo not even think it.â
âWe may not have a choice.â
âWe always have a choice.â Shuri said. Her voice trembled, but not from weakness, but from the effort it took to hold something enormous back. âYou taught me that.â
âI taught you that kings choose for their people before they choose for themselves.â
âYou are not talking about Wakanda.â
âNo.â TâChalla said and the room seemed to grow colder. Natasha straightened from the wall. âWhat are you talking about?â
TâChalla was silent for a moment. He looked at Vision first, then Wanda, then Steve. âIf Thanos comes for the Stone..â TâChalla said, âhe will not come alone.â
âWe know.â Steve replied.
âNo.â TâChalla said and this time there was steel in it. âYou do not. Thanos does not conquer like men conquer. He does not send soldiers to claim land, or kings to demand surrender. He sends hunger and he sends teeth. He sends nightmares that do not understand mercy because mercy was never put into them.â Bruceâs face had gone pale because he had seen Thanos. He knew.
TâChalla continued, âWakanda is strong. Stronger than any nation your world believes exists. Our shields may hold. Our warriors may fight. Our weapons may cut down thousands. But if an army falls from the sky with no fear of death, no need for rest and no desire except slaughter, then strength alone will not be enough.â
Shuri turned away, her jaw clenched and Tony looked between them. âOkay, Iâm officially not loving the direction this is going.â
Steve stepped closer. âYou know someone who can help.â
TâChallaâs mouth pressed into a thin line. âI know of a people.â He turned slightly, looking out over the city as if what he was about to say did not belong under electric lights and glass ceilings. As if it belonged around a fire, under a red sky, spoken by men who had seen gods bleed. âThey live far from the world you know. Farther even than Wakanda, though not by distance alone. They are not on your maps and do not come to summits. They do not trade with presidents and they definitely do not ask permission to exist.â The room was utterly still.
âThey are a kingdom.â TâChalla said. âThough that word is too clean for them. They are bloodlines and banners..Ash and bone. They are a people built by war, shaped by it, fed by it.â
Wandaâs hand tightened around Visionâs and TâChalla looked at her, âFor centuries, they fought a war the rest of the earth never knew was being waged. Not for politics or for oil. Not for borders drawn by men in rooms. Their war was older than that. A war of oaths and prophecy. A war that swallowed generations.â
Bruce slowly lowered himself into a chair. âWho are they?â he whispered.
âTheir society is harsh.â he said. âLaw exists, but loyalty is stronger, blood..is stronger. A promise made before witnesses is worth more than paper and a cowardâs word is worth less than the dirt beneath a horseâs hoof.â
Natashaâs face remained unreadable, but something in her eyes changed. She knew societies like that. Not the horses, not the banners, perhaps not the myths. But fear as language? Obedience as survival? Children raised to become weapons before they understood the shape of their own names? Yes. She knew.
âTheir warriors wear their victories where all can see them. Long hair braided with rings of bone and metal. Battle trophies and proof of survival. Their riders are elite beyond anything I have seen outside Wakanda. They do not simply ride horses, they move like storms given bodies.â
Clint, who had been silent until now, frowned. âAnd you think theyâll fight Thanos?â
âI think..â TâChalla said, âthat if they choose to ride, even Thanos will hear them coming.â
The words lingered till Shuri spoke, âThey will not come for you.â Everyone looked at her. âThey do not fight because someone asks. They do not send armies because the world is in danger. The world has never cared about them and they have returned the sentiment generously.â
âThen why bring them up?â Tony asked.
Shuri looked at him. âBecause there is one person they would burn the world for.â
TâChalla closed his eyes for half a second, as if hearing the name before it was spoken.
Steveâs voice was careful. âTheir ruler?â
âNo..â Shuri said and TâChalla opened his eyes. âTheir king and queen still sit the throne.â
The word daughter should have softened the room..It did not. âAge means little among them. She ended the war her ancestors could not. She broke armies that had been bleeding her family for centuries. She took men who had known nothing but vengeance and made them kneel. Not with speeches, not with treaties. With victory.â
Natashaâs gaze did not leave TâChalla. âWhatâs her name?â Shuriâs head snapped toward her. âDo not.â
Natashaâs brow lifted slightly and Shuriâs voice dropped. âDo not ask that lightly.â
Tony gave a humorless laugh. âWeâre really doing the forbidden name thing now?â
TâChalla looked at him, and Tonyâs expression faltered, because the king of Wakanda did not look irritated. âIn their language, names have weight.â TâChalla said. âHers more than most.â
âWhat do they call her?â Steve asked and TâChallaâs eyes lowered. For the first time since he entered the room, the king looked reluctant. âKhaleesi.â
The word fell like a blade laid flat on the table. It was not a name, not exactly, it was a title. But even without understanding the language, the room felt the shape of it. Shuri looked away as if even hearing it here, in this glass tower in the heart of New York, was wrong.
âThey bow to her?â Rhodey asked and TâChallaâs mouth tightened. âEveryone bows to her.â
âTo the princess?â Sam asked.
âTo the victor. She is not first on the throne.â he continued. âNot yet. Their laws do not allow it while her father lives. Their family tree is old and cruel and tradition does not bend quickly, even for those who have earned more than a crown.â
âAnd yet?â Natasha asked.
âAnd yet..â TâChalla said, âher parents rise when she enters a hall.â That landed harder than anything before it. âHer brothers, cousins, generals, blood riders, priests, servants, enemies taken into chains, all of them lower their eyes. Not because she demands it, because they have seen what happens when she is opposed.â
Shuri looked back at the table, âThey treat her like a god.â she said and the blue glow of the Mind Stone projection flickered between them all.
âThey fear her.â TâChalla said. âThey love her. They would die for her. They would kill for her. And there are many among them who do not believe there is a difference.â
Steveâs voice was quiet. âThat kind of loyalty is dangerous.â
âYes.â
âCan she control it?â
TâChalla looked at him. âShe ended a war that had eaten centuries.â
âThatâs not an answer.â
âIt is the only answer that matters.â
Bruce was staring at nothing now, his mind clearly moving too fast, dragging old myths into new light. âYou said prophecy..â he murmured and TâChallaâs eyes shifted toward him.
âWhat myths?â Bruce asked. âWhat exactly are we talking about?â
Shuri inhaled. âDr. Banner-â
âNo.â Bruce stood suddenly, chair scraping against the floor. âNo, wait. Because there are stories. Old ones, not just Norse, not just Greek, not just the usual gods with bad parenting legends. There are expedition journals that were dismissed as fever dreams.â
Tony stared at him. âBanner.â
Bruce turned to TâChalla, stunned. âNo..â he said softly. âNo, thatâs impossible.â
TâChallaâs face did not change and Bruceâs voice thinned. âTheyâre stories. Childrenâs stories.â Bruce said. âMyths..Dragons are myths.â
The word struck the room like thunder and for a second, no one seemed to understand it. Then Sam let out a breath. âIâm sorry, did he just say dragons?â
Thor, standing near the back with his arms folded, âDragons are not so impossible.â
Tony turned on him. âYou do not get to normalize this.â
âMany realms have them.â
âThis is Earth.â
Bruce stepped away from the table, shaking his head. His eyes were wide with the horror of a scientist watching myth become evidence. âI thought they were symbolic.â he said. âI thought the fire was metaphor. The wings, the scales, the whole thing, I thought it was power exaggerated by people who didnât understand what they were seeing.â
TâChallaâs voice was very soft. âThey understood.â The room died around him. âThey were real?â Wanda whispered.
âThey are real.â
No one moved and Natasha felt the words settle beneath her skin. Not were..are.
âHow many?â
TâChalla looked at Shuri. She shook her head once, pleading without words, but he looked back at the Avengers. âOnce, the royal family had three.â
âThree.â Bruce repeated.
âBorn from a line older than any record I have ever seen. Not pets or weapons in the way men understand weapons. They were bound to the family through blood and fire, through rituals older than their kingdom. During the last years of their war, the dragons changed everything.â His eyes lowered. âAnd then the war took them too.â
Wandaâs voice was barely there. âThey died?â
âTwo did.â The number moved through the room like a living thing. But..one dragon is still alive. Still enough to make a king of Wakanda speak with caution.
âAnd the last one belongs to her..?â
TâChallaâs gaze lifted. âNo. She belongs to no one.â TâChalla said. âBut he follows her.â
Natasha pushed away from the wall at last. âYouâve seen it.â
TâChalla looked at her. âYes.â
Shuriâs expression tightened, but she said nothing now. The memory seemed to pull TâChalla somewhere far from the tower. âA few years ago..My father believed that Wakanda could not remain blind to the other hidden powers of this world. He took me beyond our borders, farther than our aircraft were tracked, farther than our maps marked with names.â
He paused. âTheir land is not like Wakanda. Wakanda hides beauty behind illusion. They hide brutality behind distance. I remember the first sound.â
His voice lowered, drawing the room with it. âThousands of them. The earth moved before they appeared. Then the riders came over the ridge, hair uncut and braided, blades curved, faces painted in ash and red clay. They did not slow when they saw us. They circled close enough that I could see the scars on their horses. Close enough that my guards reached for their spears.â
A faint, humorless smile touched his mouth. âMy father told them to stop and their king came, but none of them were the reason the riders parted.â The room waited. âShe was.â
Natashaâs fingers curled slightly at her sides. âI had heard the title before I saw her.â TâChalla said. âWhispered by men who did not whisper for anyone. She was young, but already riding a black horse with no saddle. Her hair was braided down her back with iron rings, each one marking a battle won. She wore no crown, she needed none. The riders lowered their weapons before she passed. Men twice her age touched their foreheads to the ground. Her own father stepped back to let her speak first.â
Shuri stared at the hologram, but her eyes were distant. âShe was seventeen then.â TâChalla said and Bruce made a quiet, disbelieving sound. âAt seventeen.â TâChalla said, âshe had already won the eastern war.â
TâChallaâs eyes remained fixed on the past. âI did not understand it then. The way they looked at her, like she was salvation and execution wearing the same skin. I thought it was fear, then one of their prisoners spat at her feet and she did not flinch.â TâChalla said. âShe did not raise her voice..only looked at him.â
âWhat happened?â Steve asked. TâChallaâs expression darkened. âThe entire field went silent and one of the shadows came.â TâChalla said. âAt first, I thought a storm had crossed the sun, but storms do not have wings. They do not blot out the sky with scales black as burnt metal. They do not breathe fire so hot that stone remembers it.â The room seemed to shrink around his words.
âOne of her dragon landed behind her and she did not turn. The beast lowered its head over her shoulder like a mountain bowing to a girl.â
His voice became almost reverent despite himself. âAnd then I understood.â
Natasha whispered, âUnderstood what?â
TâChalla looked at her. âWhy no one challenged her.â
For one bright instant, the tower windows reflected everyoneâs faces back at them: soldiers, spies, gods, kings, monsters in human shape, all gathered around the image of a dying man with a Stone in his head. And somewhere beyond all their maps, a woman with a forbidden title and a dragon that followed her waited in a kingdom built from war.
Tony broke the silence, but his voice had lost its edge. âOkay..â he said. âSo we ask dragon girl for help.â
Shuriâs head snapped up. âYou do not ask her like that!â
Tony lifted both hands. âNoted.â
âYou do not summon her!â Shuri said, voice hardening. âYou do not bargain with her as if she is one of your politicians. You do not lie. You do not threaten. You do not look at her people like they are savages, even if they frighten you. Especially if they frighten you.â
Natasha watched Shuri closely. There was not only fear there. âYouâve met her too. â Natasha said and Shuriâs jaw tightened. âYes.â
âAnd?â For once, Shuri did not answer quickly. âShe was kind to me.â she said at last. âShe showed me their healing tents. Their forges. Their histories carved into bone and stone because paper burns too easily. She asked questions about Wakandaâs technology and understood more than she should have.â
A small, unwilling smile appeared and vanished. âThen a man interrupted her and she had him dragged from the hall.â
Tony blinked. âFor interrupting?â
âFor forgetting where he was.â Shuri said. âFor forgetting who she was.â
âWhat kind of person are we inviting into this war?â he asked and TâChalla answered without hesitation. âThe kind who can win it.â
The honesty sat between them and Natasha looked back at the Mind Stone. A creature like Thanos was coming..A thing with no mercy, no doubt, no hesitation and TâChalla was speaking of a woman raised in a world where hesitation read as weakness, where loyalty was blood deep, where gods were not prayed to but obeyed when they entered a room.
Steve drew a slow breath. âWill she help us?â
TâChalla turned toward the windows again. âI donât know.â
Wandaâs voice was fragile âCan you reach her?â
âThere are ways.â he said. âOld ways. Wakanda has kept them secret for generations, but understands this before I send word. If she comes, she will not come as a soldier under our command.â
His gaze moved from face to face. âShe will come as Khaleesi. And where she goes..â TâChalla said, â..her people follow.â
Bruce sank back into his chair, stunned. âDragons..â he whispered, still trying to make the word fit inside the world he knew.
Hours later, the Quinjet waited like a black blade against the gray dawn. The city below was waking without knowing it had almost died in a conference room hours earlier. And high above them, the team boarded a ship that would take them toward a country that did not exist. No one said what they were thinking.
A century long war? A hidden kingdom? A royal family with dragons? A girl worshipped like a god? It was impossible and absurd. The kind of story told by dying men around fires. The kind of thing carved into old ruins and dismissed by scholars. The kind of thing people stopped believing in when the world invented satellites, missiles, news channels and men like Tony who could map half the planet from a screen.
And yet..No one had known about Wakanda. The world had seen a poor country with cloth markets, shepherds and dusty roads. It had not seen the mountains open like the mouth of a god. It had not seen vibranium woven into cities. It had not seen aircraft without wings, weapons without bullets, medicine that could humble death itself. So no one
Vision was helped aboard first, Wanda never leaving his side. He walked under his own power, calm as ever, but there was something too careful in his movements now. As if the Stone in his forehead had become heavier since they had spoken its fate aloud. Steve followed, carrying a shield he hoped he would not need and knew he would.
When TâChalla entered, everyone was looking at him. âWe have permission to enter their country.â The words landed like a sentence passed by a distant throne.
Steve gave a single nod. âThen we go.â
The sky changed from iron gray to pale blue, then to the molten gold of late afternoon, then to darkness so complete the windows became mirrors. Tony tried to track their route twice but the systems failed both times, as if the world beyond a certain point refused to be measured.
Inside the Quinjet, tension grew teeth. Natasha sat alone near the middle of the aircraft, she wanted to watch everyone else. That was how she survived, they was how she had always survived. Read the room and the breath before the lie and the fear before it became betrayal. And was full of fear. He sat hunched over, the old book open on his knees and Natasha watched him turn one page, then stop. âHey.â She slid into the seat across from him. âYouâve been staring at the same page for twenty minutes.â
He blinked, then looked down as if surprised to find the book there. âYeah.â he said softly. âI know.â
âThat bad?â A humorless laugh escaped him. âIâm not sure bad is the word.â
Natasha leaned back, crossing one leg over the other. âTry me.â
Bruce looked at her for a moment, then carefully turned the book so she could see. The leather cover was cracked and darkened by age, the corners reinforced with dull metal. The pages inside were thick, uneven, yellowed at the edges and covered in ink that had faded from black to brown. On the page Bruce showed her, was a drawing. A girl stood at the center of it and was lifted above a field of bodies, her hair flowing behind her like smoke, one hand outstretched, the other holding a curved blade slick with black ink meant to be blood. Around her, men knelt with their foreheads to the ground. Some still held weapons, some had dropped them. Behind her, wings spread wide enough to swallow the sky. The dragon in the drawing was monstrous. Its neck was long and armored in jagged scales, its horns swept back from its skull like broken crowns. Its mouth was open and the artist had drawn fire spilling from it in twisting lines that consumed towers, horses, men.
Natasha stared at it and Bruceâs voice was quiet when he spoke. âI was told about them when I was a student.â
Natasha did not look away from the page. âBy who?â
âA professor at Culver. He specialized in pre modern myth cycles. The kind of thing no one funded unless it could be tied to something famous. He used to talk about the hidden war, the fire line, blood riders and the last daughter.â
Natasha looked up at him. âThe last daughter?â
Bruce nodded. âThatâs what some of the older texts call her. Not because she was the only daughter, because prophecy loves making things sound dramatic and impossible to verify.â
âProphecy.â Natasha repeated.
âI know.â
âThatâs a dangerous word.â
âYeah.â Bruce tapped the page lightly, careful not to damage it. âThis book refers to her as the daughter of storm, smoke and slaughter. Which, you know, not exactly comforting.â
Natashaâs eyes returned to the drawing. âWhat does it say?â
Bruce hesitated. âBanner.â
He sighed, dragging a hand through his hair. âIt says that when the old war reaches its final winter, the daughter without a crown will call fire down from the sky. It says kings will kneel before she sits a throne. It says her enemies will speak her name only once.â
Natashaâs face did not change. âWhy only once?â
Bruce looked at her. âBecause after that, theyâre dead.â
The Quinjet hummed around them and Natasha studied the girl in the drawing. The artist had not made her look soft, that interested Natasha more than the dragon. Men loved turning dangerous women into either monsters or saints after the fact. They painted innocence over rage, beauty over violence, tragedy over choices. But whoever had drawn this girl had not softened her. Her face was young, almost painfully so, but her eyes were hard. A child drawn like an execution.
Bruce turned another page and there were more illustrations. Three dragons circling over burning siege towers. A young woman kneeling in mud with two massive dragon skulls behind her, her hands pressed to the earth, her mouth open in what might have been grief or might have been a scream.
âWhat happened to her?â
Bruce looked down. âI donât know all of it. The texts contradict each other. Some make her sound like a liberator. Some make her sound like a curse. Some say she was beloved. Some say she was never human at all.â
âSheâs still human.â Natasha said and Bruce looked at her. âPeople who are worshipped are always human underneath.â she said. âThatâs usually the problem.â
Bruce was silent for a moment till a voice spoke from behind them. âYou are right.â TâChalla stood in the aisle, he had moved silently despite the aircraftâs faint vibration.
Bruce shifted slightly. âYou recognize this?â
TâChalla nodded. âIt is a poor copy.â he said. âBut yes.â
Bruceâs face changed, the last thread of skepticism in him snapped. âSo itâs true..â
âYes.â
Natasha leaned back slowly. âAll of it?â
âNo.â TâChallaâs eyes hardened. âStories are never all true. They are shaped by fear and pride. By men who were not there and wished to sound as if they were.â
He touched the edge of the page, not quite making contact. âBefore the Great War..She was not what she is now. She was kind.â TâChalla continued. âThat is the first thing people forget because it frightens them less to believe she was born terrible.â
Shuriâs face softened, just barely and TâChalla saw it, then looked away. âShe was loved.â he said. âBy her people. By the riders. By servants who had no reason to love royalty except that she knew their names. By old warriors who had buried sons and still smiled when she passed. There are songs about her from before the war.â
Natasha looked again at the drawing of the girl surrounded by corpses. âEveryone wanted her so badly..â TâChalla said, âthat the royal house created a private unit to guard her before she ever commanded an army. Not because she was weak, because she was precious.â His voice lowered.
âThey called them the Silver Guard. Forty men and women sworn to her alone. Their oath was not to the king, not to the throne, but her breath.â
Steveâs jaw tightened, that kind of oath never ended cleanly. âWhen the Great War began, it did not begin with a battlefield.â TâChalla looked at the book, but it was clear he was seeing something else.
âAn alliance was offered, a union meant to end generations of bloodshed. Her family believed it would hold, so they came under guest right.â TâChalla said. âAnd when the horns began, the doors were barred from the outside.â The Quinjetâs engines filled the silence.
âThe Silver Guard died first, not because they were outmatched..Because they put their bodies between her and the blades. Forty sworn.â He paused. âForty dead.â
Bruce looked down and Natasha kept her face still, but something in her chest had gone tight and sharp. âHer loved one was killed in front of her. Her people were slaughtered around her. One of her dragons was chained in the courtyard and pierced with scorpion bolts until the stones ran black beneath it.â
Shuri turned her face toward the window. âThe second dragon broke its chains.â TâChalla said. âIt burned half the keep trying to reach her. It died over the gate hours later.â Wandaâs eyes filled with tears and Vision, gentle lowered his gaze.
âThe stories say she did not scream.â TâChalla said. âI do not know if that is true. I think perhaps men prefer women silent in grief because it makes legends easier to carve.â
Natasha looked at him then. There was a weight in his voice that had not been there before. âWhat I do know..â TâChalla said, âis that she survived and it changed her.â
Bruce whispered, âRage took over.â
TâChalla nodded once. âRage, grief..Duty. Perhaps all three became the same thing. She did not beg for justice. She did not wait for her fatherâs banners. She did not ask the old gods why they had allowed it. She walked out of the ashes with blood in her hair and called the last dragon.â
The words slipped through the Quinjet like smoke. âThe enemy army was still beyond the walls. Thousands of men and lords already dividing lands they had not yet conquered.â
He looked around the cabin. âAnd then the sky opened. Fire came down first on the siege towers. Then on the horses and on the men who ran.â
TâChallaâs voice did not flinch, but the image did. It filled the aircraft without needing a screen. Men clawing at burning armor, warhorses screaming and flesh splitting beneath heat.
âShe brought fire to the world.â TâChalla said. âNot in one night, not in one battle..That would have been mercy.â
His eyes grew harder. âShe hunted them. Every lord who broke guest right. Every commander who ordered the slaughter. Every house that hid them. Every man who swore he would hurt her, touch her, chain her, breed her, break her-â TâChalla stopped himself. âBy the end, those who had once promised to drag her through their streets were kneeling in the dirt, pressing their swords at her feet. Some begged forgiveness, some offered loyalty. Some called her chosen by the gods.â
âAnd she accepted?â Steve asked.
âShe accepted their surrender.â
Bruce looked down at the book again, at the prophecy, at the inked girl surrounded by men bowing and fire blooming behind her. âShe wasnât a myth.â he said.
âNo.â TâChalla replied. âShe was a warning.â
Natasha stared at the drawing. Before, the title had sounded distant. Exotic in the way all foreign titles sounded until you knew the blood behind them.
A few rows ahead, Wanda spoke softly. âWhat is her name? Her birth name?â
Shuri stiffened and TâChalla did not answer. Wanda lowered her eyes, understanding she had stepped too close to something sacred. âYou will hear it when she gives you leave to hear it.â
Tony looked toward the cockpit. âHow much longer?â
âA few hours.â
And the hours passed. The Quinjet flew through weather that did not behave like weather. Then TâChalla stood and everyoneâs attention snapped to him. âWe are entering now.â
Steve moved first, then Sam, Rhodey, Clint. Wanda helped Vision stand, though he did not need it. Tony came forward slowly, one hand braced against the ceiling. Bruce carried the book against his chest like a shield and Natasha rose last. They gathered behind the cockpit and ahead, there was nothing but cloud.
âThis is the border?â Sam asked and TâChalla nodded. The Quinjet entered the cloud and white consumed them. For several seconds, the world disappeared. There was no sky, no ground or direction. The windows showed only pale vapor rushing past like the breath of some sleeping giant.
Then the cloud broke and the world opened. Below them lay a country that should not have existed. Not hidden in poverty like Wakanda had once pretended to be. This land did not hide by shrinking itself..It hid by becoming too impossible to imagine. Mountains rose in vast black ridges, their peaks crowned in snow and gold sunlight. Valleys spilled between them, green and wild, crossed by rivers that flashed like silver wounds. Forests stretched farther than the eye could follow, deep and ancient, broken by roads of pale stone winding through the land like veins. To the east, the ocean struck cliffs so high the waves shattered into mist before reaching the top. Ships moved in the harbors below, their sails dark red and black, marked with symbols Natasha recognized from Bruceâs book.
Cities stood along the coast and hillsides, built of black stone, bronze roofs, white towers and bridges suspended over impossible drops. And ahead..the castle. It dominated the horizon. The fortress was carved into the side of a mountain and built outward as if the mountain itself had decided to grow teeth. Black walls rose in tiers, jagged and severe, banners streamed from every height, red and black against the wind.
Wanda stared down at the land, one hand pressed to the window. âAll this time..â she whispered and Visionâs eyes moved across the landscape. âHumanity has always been better at hiding wonders than preserving them.â
Before anyone could ask anything, something moved in the corner of Natashaâs vision. A shadow over the sun. At first, she thought it was cloud, but then the shadow curved. The Quinjetâs warning systems screamed and red lights flooded the cabin.
Tony jolted forward. âWhat the-â
A roar split the sky, it slammed into the aircraft hard enough to rattle the frame, hard enough that Wanda grabbed Vision, Sam cursed, and Bruce nearly dropped the book. The roar rolled through Natashaâs ribs and sank into something older than fear.
Outside, the clouds tore open and the dragon appeared beside them. For one impossible moment, it was all the world contained. A body longer than the Quinjet, larger than anything that should have been able to stay in the air. Wings stretched wide, the thin membrane between their bones scarred and dark, catching the sun in veins of deep red. Its neck curved with terrifying grace, armored plates overlapping like shields. Horns swept back from its skull, cracked in places, each fracture pale against the black.
The dragon flew beside them as if the Quinjet were no more than a strange bird allowed, temporarily, to live and its eye fixed on them through the glass. Natasha had been looked at by killers, by monsters and gods. This was so much different..This was not a creature deciding whether she was dangerous. This was a creature deciding whether she mattered.
Bruce made a small sound behind her. âOh my God..â Tonyâs hand hovered over the controls, frozen. For once in his life, he had no joke ready.
The dragonâs jaw parted, rows of teeth appeared, each one curved and long as a knife. A low growl rolled out first, vibrating through the Quinjetâs metal skin, then came the roar again. The windows trembled and a panel sparked overhead. Wanda flinched despite herself and Vision stepped slightly in front of her.
The dragonâs eye moved to him and to the Stone. For one terrible second, the creatureâs pupil narrowed and the cabin went cold. Then TâChalla lifted one hand and placed it flat against the glass. The dragonâs gaze shifted to him and recognition passed there.
TâChalla bowed his head and the dragon watched him. Then, with one powerful stroke of its wings, it rose above the Quinjet and the entire aircraft shuddered under the force of displaced air. Its tail swept past the window, ridged with spikes, close enough that Natasha saw old scars carved deep into its scales. Some were pale and healed, some were darker and newer. One jagged scar crossed the left side of its chest, a wound that looked like it should have killed even a creature born of fire.
Bruce stared at it, eyes wet behind his glasses. âThe second dragon died over the gate..â he whispered. âAnd this one survived.â
The dragon wheeled ahead of them, black against the sun, and dove toward the castle. Far below, horns began to sound, warning the kingdom and welcoming the guests. Or announcing them to something far more dangerous than a king.
âOkay..â he said. âI believe in dragons now.â
No one laughed, no one even looked at him. The Quinjet continued toward the castle, escorted by the shadow of wings and ahead, beyond walls blackened by history, beyond banners snapping like blood in the wind, beyond a kingdom that had survived by becoming legend, she was waiting.
The Quinjet descended through the last coils of cloud and from above, the fortress had looked impossible. The platform was vast enough to hold half a fleet, carved directly from dark volcanic rock and veined with metal that caught the dying light in dull red flashes. Massive chains hung from iron posts along the edges, each link larger than a manâs torso. Beyond the platform, the castle gates rose in layers and above it, banners snapped violently in the mountain wind.
No one moved when the Quinjet touched down and for a breath, the cabin remained silent except for the low cooling hum of the engines. Then the ramp lowered and it definitely smelled nothing like Wakanda or New York. Sam stepped closer to the ramp and his eyes narrowed against the wind. âThatâs a welcoming committee?â
Natasha followed his gaze and saw how soldiers waited on the platform. They stood in disciplined formations along both sides of the landing area, spears upright, curved blades at their hips, armor dark and matte beneath cloaks of red and black. Some wore helmets shaped like snarling beasts, others had their faces uncovered, revealing high cheekbones, scarred brows, dark eyes, pale eyes, brown skin, bronze skin, weather worn skin and hair braided with rings of iron and bone.
A man stood ahead of the soldiers, waiting at the center of the platform. He was older than most of the warriors, perhaps in his late fifties, though the harsh lines of his face made age difficult to measure. His eyes moved over the ramp as the Avengers began to descend. TâChalla went out first and the older manâs attention sharpened immediately. Then he bowed like a man recognizing another man of power under laws older than comfort.
âKing TâChalla of Wakanda.â he said in accented English, his voice carrying across the platform despite the wind. âYou return under guest right and old witness, your name is remembered.â
TâChalla inclined his head. âLord Vaelar.â
The manâs mouth twitched faintly. âYou remember mine.â
âMy father taught me that forgetting a manâs name at these gates is an insult best avoided.â
This time, there was nearly a smile. âYour father was wise.â
âHe often reminded me.â
Lord Vaelarâs eyes shifted to the others. Natasha felt every stare settle on them because she knew the sensation well. It was how predators looked at unfamiliar things before deciding whether they were food, threat, or weather. Steve stepped forward half a pace, but TâChalla lifted one hand slightly because he understood the rules here and everyone else would be safer letting him speak. âWe bring wounded need and grave warning.â
Lord Vaelarâs gaze flickered to Vision and for a second, something in his expression changed.
âThe royal family has been informed of your arrival.â he said. âYou and those under your protection will be housed tonight. Tomorrow, you will be brought before the throne and heard.â
âTomorrow?â Wandaâs voice cut across the platform before anyone could stop her. Her fingers tightened around Visionâs arm and red beginning to glow faintly at the tips. âWe do not have until tomorrow.â she said, stepping forward. âYou do not understand, something is coming. An army, a force you cannot imagine. He will come for Vision and if he gets what he wants, half the universe dies.â
Lord Vaelarâs face did not change but the soldiersâ hands shifted closer to their weapons. Shuri moved faster than anyone expected. âWanda.â
Wanda turned on her. âNo. I am tired of everyone speaking like we have time. He is being hunted and we came here because TâChalla said they could help and now we are supposed to wait for an audience?â
âEnough!â Shuri snapped and Wanda stared at her. Shuriâs eyes were fierce, âYou are afraid, I know. But you will not stand on their stones and speak to their blood speaker as if he is delaying you for sport! You will not make threats with your magic glowing in your hands! Not here..â
Wandaâs breath trembled till Vision touched her hand gently. âWanda.â
Her eyes flicked to him and the red faded. TâChalla turned back to Lord Vaelar, face composed, though Natasha could see the warning beneath his stillness. âForgive the breach. Fear speaks quickly when love is threatened.â
Lord Vaelar studied Wanda for a long moment. Then he gave a small nod. âFear is understandable.â
TâChalla continued, âThe matter is urgent. If there is any way we may be heard tonight-â
âNo.â Lord Vaelar said and Shuriâs shoulders tensed. Lord Vaelar did not look apologetic, âThe king and queen do not receive unsummoned pleas after moonrise when the heir of fire is beyond the walls.â
TâChallaâs expression shifted subtly. âShe is not within the castle?â
âNo.â
âWill she return tonight?â
âThat depends on the success of her..business.â Something about the way he said business made Natashaâs attention sharpen. It was a court word, a veil thrown over something everyone here understood and no outsider was meant to question.
Lord Vaelar continued, âUntil morning, you are guests and guest right protects you. You will be fed, housed and left untroubled so long as you do not trouble others.â
Sam muttered under his breath, âThat sounded friendly right up until it didnât.â
Rhodey murmured back, âThatâs kind of their brand..â
Lord Vaelar turned and the soldiers parted. The movement was perfect and the gates opened without a sound. The team followed and Natasha walked near the middle, her eyes moving everywhere. The entrance hall beyond the gates was large enough to swallow a cathedral and the floor was polished dark stone, worn slightly uneven by centuries of boots. Along the walls hung shields, banners, old weapons and enormous tapestries depicting battles in thread so vivid the red looked wet. Everywhere, people stopped to stare and children were peeking from behind pillars until older hands pulled them back but when TâChalla passed, several people lowered their heads, not in submission, but in recognition.
The castle was beautiful in a way Natasha distrusted. Built to awe and intimidate in equal measure and each arch was carved with flames. Each doorway was guarded by stone beasts with wings tucked close to their bodies. Bruce stopped once and Natasha stopped with him. He was staring at a mural stretching across one wall.
Three dragons flew above a battlefield, wings wide, mouths open, fire pouring down over towers and men. Beneath them, a young woman stood with her hair unbound and a blade in her hand. Lord Vaelar noticed but did not pause. âYour chambers are prepared in the eastern guest wing.â he said. âYou will find water, food and attendants should you require them.â
The guest wing was warmer than the halls, though no less imposing. Their chambers were large and high ceilinged, furnished with carved beds, thick furs, bronze basins, low tables and windows that opened toward the city below. Vision was given the largest chamber so Shuri could examine him in private and Wanda followed him inside and did not come out again.
Bruce did not sleep at all. Natasha found him later standing by one of the tall windows in the common chamber, both hands braced against the stone ledge, staring out at the darkening sky. The sun had gone down behind the mountains, leaving the city below lit by thousands of fires.
âYouâre going to burn holes in the glass.â Natasha said.
âThereâs no glass.â
She looked closer and he was right. The window was open to the air, protected only by a carved stone lattice and a drop that would kill anyone unfortunate enough to test it.
âThen youâre going to fall out.â
âI saw a dragon..â Bruce said and Natasha leaned one shoulder against the wall beside him. âI noticed.â
âNo, I meanâŠâ He laughed once, âI saw a dragon. A living, flying, breathing dragon. It looked at us..looked at me. The mass to wing ratio alone should be impossible unless its bone density is unlike anything on Earth.â
âMaybe it isnât.â
Bruce looked at her and Natasha shrugged. âOr maybe Earth has always been bigger than we thought.â
He looked back outside, expression softening into wonder edged with fear. âThatâs what scares me.â
Behind them, the common chamber was quiet. The team had scattered into uneasy rest, or something pretending to be rest. Natasha felt the walls pressing in despite their size and she looked down at the city again.
âIâm going out.â she said and Bruce finally turned. âOut where?â
âCity.â
His eyebrows rose. âNat.â
âWhat?â
âWe just got here.â
âIâm aware.â
âWhere we were specifically told not to trouble anyone.â
âIâm not planning to trouble anyone.â Bruce gave her a look that suggested he had known her too long to believe that. Natasha smiled faintly. âI want to see what kind of people worship a woman like that.â
Bruce glanced toward the door. âMaybe ask TâChalla first.â
âI wasnât asking permission.â
âNo.â TâChallaâs voice said from behind her. âBut you should listen to advice.â
Natasha turned and he stood in the doorway, still wearing the dark clothes he had traveled in, though he looked less like a guest now and more like a man remembering how to move in a place full of knives. Natasha raised an eyebrow. âYouâre getting quiet again.â
âI have always been quiet.â
âNot like that.â
His mouth almost curved. Then his gaze moved to the window, to the city below, and the amusement vanished. âYou should not go alone.â
âI can manage.â
âI know that.â TâChalla said. âThat is not the concern.â
Natasha folded her arms. âThen what is?â
âYou do not know the streets. You do not know the customs, know which houses are loyal to which bloodlines, which colors should not be worn after dark, which songs should not be requested in taverns, or which insults are insults until someone has already drawn a blade.â
âSounds like most cities.â
âNo.â TâChalla said. âIt does not.â
That gave her pause. âI just need some air.â she said and TâChalla studied her. He saw more than most people, that was one of the reasons Natasha liked him and one of the reasons she was careful around him.
After a moment, he sighed quietly. âIf you insist on going, cover your hair.â
Natasha frowned. âMy hair?â
âYes.â
Bruce blinked. âWhy?â
TâChallaâs eyes remained on Natasha. âRed hair will draw attention.â
âIt draws attention everywhere.â
âNot like here.â
Natasha touched a strand near her shoulder. âShould I be offended?â
âNo. You should be practical.â Shuri entered behind him carrying a folded length of dark cloth. âHe is right.â
Natasha looked between them. âIs red unlucky?â
âNo.â Shuri said. âRare and associated with old battle songs, foreign omens and women who appear in stories right before men do something stupid.â
She held out a cloth. It was fine, soft and dark enough to vanish in shadow and edged with subtle bronze embroidery. Natasha took it. âYou were prepared for this?â
âI assumed one of you would make a poor decision before morning.â Shuri said.
Sam poked his head out of a doorway. âMy money was on Stark!â
âSo was mine.â Shuri replied. Natasha wrapped the cloth over her hair with practiced ease. She had worn enough disguises in enough countries to understand the language of fabric. She tucked the red beneath it, adjusted the fall near her cheek, and watched TâChallaâs expression.
âBetter?â
He looked at her for a long second. âYes.â
Natashaâs smile softened into something more genuine. âIâll be careful, I promise.â
âI know.â TâChalla said. âBe more careful than that.â
The city took her in quietly, that was the first surprise. Natasha had expected noise, drunken shouting, brawls spilling from taverns, riders thundering through narrow streets, violence barely chained beneath torchlight. TâChallaâs warnings had painted a place where every wrong breath might invite blood.
Instead, the city at night felt controlled. The streets were paved in pale stone that glowed faintly beneath lanternlight. Buildings leaned close overhead, built of black brick, white plaster, carved wood, and bronze balconies draped with heavy fabrics. The soldiers were everywhere, they stood at corners, bridges, gates, watching without appearing to watch. Their presence explained the quiet more than any law could have. This was a city where violence existed, perhaps even thrived, but it had rules. It had places. It had consequences.
Natasha respected consequences. She wandered without seeming to wander, keeping to streets with enough people to disappear among but not enough to trap her. Eventually, she found a tavern, the sign above the door showed a black cup surrounded by painted flames.
Natasha went in and the room dipped in volume for half a second. That told her everything she needed to know. She crossed to the bar as if she belonged there. The bartender was a broad woman with gray hair braided over one shoulder and arms muscled from years of lifting barrels or bodies. Her eyes narrowed at Natashaâs clothes, her covered hair, her boots.
âYou drink?â the woman asked in English that was rough but understandable.
Natasha rested an elbow on the counter. âThat depends what youâre pouring.â
The womanâs mouth twitched. âForeign.â
âIs it that obvious?â
âYes.â
âThen give me what youâd give someone who wants to stop being obvious.â
The bartender stared at her and she laughed. It was not a friendly laugh, âYou want heavy?â
âI want to understand the local culture.â
âThen heavy.â the bartender decided and reached for a dark clay bottle from beneath the counter. The liquid she poured into a short bronze cup was nearly black, with a reddish sheen where the firelight caught it. It moved too slowly, clinging to the sides like syrup and the smell hit Natasha a second later.
Natasha picked up the cup, then someone crashed into her side. The drink spilled across both of them and Natasha reacted before thought. One hand caught the stranger by the waist to keep them from falling, the other steadied the cup, though far too late to save more than a mouthful. Dark liquid splashed down the front of Natashaâs borrowed tunic and across the strangerâs cloak.
The body against hers was warm and smaller than she expected, but strong beneath the layers. âIâm sorry.â Natasha said immediately, because apologies were cheaper than scenes and she had promised not to trouble anyone.
âNo, no!â The stranger pulled back with a breathless laugh. âThat was my fault. I was watching the door and not my feet, which is a very poor habit in a place with both furniture and witnesses.â
A young woman, her voice was low and smooth but threaded with amusement and Natasha looked at her and forgot, for one dangerous second, that she was supposed to be watching the room. The womanâs face was partially shadowed beneath a deep blue head covering, the fabric wrapped elegantly around her hair and throat, leaving only her face visible. But that was enough...more than enough. She had the kind of beauty men wrote wars around and then blamed on fate.
Her skin was pale beneath the tavern light, warmed by the gold of the flames. Her mouth was full and curved with the beginning of a smile and her cheekbones were sharp enough to make softness seem like a choice. Her eyes were dark at first glance, then not dark at all when she shifted beneath the light, but strange, luminous, somewhere between violet and gray and storm clouds before lightning. Natasha had seen beautiful people. She had been trained with beautiful people. She had used beauty, weaponized it, dismissed it, survived it. This was different.
The woman glanced down at the stain spreading across both of them. Then she touched two fingers to the wet fabric near her collarbone, lifted them to her mouth and tasted the drink. Natashaâs attention fixed briefly on her lips and the womanâs eyebrows rose. âYou were going to drink that?â
âThat was the plan.â
âWillingly?â
âI like to live dangerously.â
The womanâs smile widened. âThere are easier ways to die.â
Natasha leaned against the bar, letting her gaze move over the strangerâs covered hair, layered cloak, fine gloves and boots that looked too well made for someone trying not to be noticed. âAnd here I thought you were about to apologize.â
âI did apologize.â
âYou also insulted my drink.â
âI insulted your judgment.â the woman corrected. âThe drink is blameless. It does what it was made to do.â
âAnd what is that?â
âPunish arrogance.â
Natasha laughed softly despite herself and the womanâs eyes brightened. The woman turned to the bartender. âAnother.â Then she looked back at Natasha, âI spilled it, I replace it.â
âGenerous.â
âPractical. I dislike owing strangers.â
âThen weâre strangers?â
âFor the moment.â Natasha angled her body toward her. âAnd later?â
The womanâs smile turned slow enough to be dangerous. âThat depends on whether you survive the drink.â
The bartender set down a fresh cup. The woman picked it up before Natasha could and lifted it in a small toast. âTo poor footing.â
âAnd dangerous judgment.â Natasha replied.
The woman drank. The dark liquor disappeared past her lips and her expression did not change at all. No cough, no blink, no tightening around the eyes. Nothing. She lowered the cup and passed it to Natasha. The challenge was silent and Natasha accepted it. She had survived Russian vodka, contraband Balkan spirits, poison-laced champagne in Prague and something Fury had once called whiskey despite all evidence to the contrary.
She could handle a drink, so she took a mouthful and fire detonated behind her teeth. The taste was smoke and iron and pepper and old fruit left to ferment in a dragonâs throat. Heat punched down her throat, spread through her chest and tried to climb back out through her nose. Natasha turned slightly, because she refused to spit it across the bar, but a cough escaped her anyway.
The woman laughed, it was a beautiful sound and an infuriating one. Natasha set the cup down with great care while her eyes watered. The woman was still laughing when she reached for a pitcher, poured water into a plain cup, and offered it, âHere.â
Natasha took it, throat burning. âIâm..fine.â
âOf course.â
âI am.â
âYou look very fine.â
Natasha drank the water and the woman watched with undisguised delight. The woman leaned closer. âTake your time.â
There it was again, that confidence. Natasha was used to watching people respond to her. The shift in breathing or the moment they realized she was flirting with intent and keeping up with her, but this woman was not struggling to keep up. She was enjoying herself.
She was young, yes. Young enough that Natasha should have held the advantage through experience alone. But the stranger flirted like someone born in a court where language had always been a weapon and desire was simply another battlefield. She knew when to answer or to deflect. When to offer enough truth to make Natasha chase the rest. Natasha liked skill..she liked it too much.
âYouâre enjoying this.â Natasha said.
âI am.â
âAt least youâre honest.â Natasha lowered the cup and smiled. The womanâs laughter softened into something warmer, but her eyes remained sharp. She leaned one hip against the bar, close enough that Natasha could smell the night air on her cloak beneath the spilled liquor. âYou still havenât told me your name.â Natasha said.
âNeither have you.â
âMine is harder to earn?â
The womanâs smile turned wicked. âYou assume yours is the prize.â
Natasha nearly laughed and that actually caught her off guard. The stranger saw it and looked delighted. âThere.â
âWhat?â
âYou did not expect me to bite back.â
âI expected it.â
âNo.â The woman stepped closer until the edge of her sleeve brushed Natashaâs wrist. âYou hoped for it.â
Natashaâs expression did not change, but inside, something sharpened. This girl was good.
âMaybe.â Natasha said and the womanâs eyes dropped to her mouth again, âI hoped you would stay.â
Natashaâs answer came softer than she intended. âI havenât left.â
âNo..â the woman murmured. âYou have not.â
The tavern became smaller around them. The singerâs voice blurred into the warmth of the room and a chair scraped against stone. Somewhere behind Natasha, someone laughed, but it sounded far away. The space between her and the veiled stranger was suddenly the only place with heat. âSo what should I call you?â
âWhat do you call women whose names you do not know?â
âThat depends on what I want from them.â
The womanâs eyes flashed. âAnd what do you want from me?â
Natasha let the silence stretch and a slow smile touched her mouth. âI was going to start with conversation.â
âLiar.â
âWas I that obvious?â
âYou say that often.â
âI am right often.â
Natasha leaned in until her voice was just for her. âCareful. Confidence can be mistaken for arrogance.â
The woman did not retreat. âOnly by people too small to recognize it.â
Natasha stared at her. âYouâre trouble.â
âYes.â
âNo denial?â
âI thought honesty pleased you.â
âDepends how itâs used.â The womanâs fingers brushed the back of Natashaâs hand where it rested against the bar. A mistake if either of them wanted to pretend. âAnd this?â she asked.
Natasha looked down at the touch, then back up. âThat depends how itâs used.â
The strangerâs thumb moved once, barely there, over Natashaâs knuckle and Natashaâs breath stayed steady by training alone. The woman noticed anyway and her smile softened into something slow and victorious. âYou are easier to read than you pretend.â
Natasha turned her hand, catching the womanâs fingers before she could withdraw. âAnd you are enjoying pretending not to be.â
The woman looked at their joined hands, then at Natasha. âYou are very bold for a guest.â
Natashaâs eyes narrowed faintly. âHow do you know Iâm a guest?â
The woman did not miss the slip. âYou are not a merchant. Not a rider or temple sworn. Not court born. You entered under someoneâs protection or you would not have crossed the border at all.â
Natashaâs thumb traced once over the side of the womanâs finger. âThen you already knew I wasnât from here before I said anything.â
âYes.â
âAnd you still spilled my drink?â
The womanâs smile grew dangerous. âPerhaps I was curious too.â
Natasha should have pulled back. Instead, she moved closer. âHow curious?â
The woman looked at her as if weighing how much truth would make the game sweeter. âEnough to ruin your drink.â
âThat all?â
âNo.â
Natasha had to remind herself where she was. Hidden kingdom, strange laws and royal blood. Vision with a Stone in his head and Thanos somewhere beyond the sky. But then the womanâs fingers tightened lightly around hers and Natasha thought, one more minute. Just one.
The stranger tilted her head. âYou are thinking too much.â
âIâm usually praised for that.â
âNot by anyone trying to kiss you.â
Natashaâs smile was immediate, âThere it is.â
âWhat?â
âThe first honest thing youâve said all night.â
The woman leaned close enough that her breath touched Natashaâs cheek. âNo.â she said softly. âThe first honest thing was that I was interested.â
Natasha turned her face slightly and their mouths were close now. Too close for the tavern, but not close enough for Natasha. The womanâs eyes flicked down, then up again. She was waiting and she was letting Natasha feel the space and choose what to do with it.
Natasha respected restraint but respected temptation more. âYou do this often?â Natasha asked.
âAlmost kiss strangers in taverns?â
âMake them want to forget why they came.â
The woman smiled, but something darker moved beneath it. âNo. Do you?â
Natasha could have lied, instead, she said, âNot like this.â
For the first time, the stranger looked truly surprised. Then her expression changed as if Natasha had offered something more intimate than a name.
âGood.â she said and Natasha felt it like fingers at her throat. A man brushed past behind them, giving the veiled woman a wide berth despite the crowd. His shoulder nearly clipped Natashaâs but swerved at the last moment. He murmured something in the local language without looking up.
The stranger caught Natasha catching it. âYou are important.â Natasha said and the woman withdrew her hand slowly, but not because she was embarrassed, but because the game had turned dangerous.
âMany people are important.â
âNot like that.â
âYou do not know what that was.â
âI know deference.â
The womanâs eyes sharpened. âAnd do you offer it?â
Natasha leaned against the bar, letting her gaze move over the hidden face, the elegant veil, the mouth that had already become a problem.
âDepends who earns it.â
That pleased the woman so much she looked almost angry about it. âYou would be difficult to command.â she said.
âIâve been called worse.â
âI did not say I dislike difficult things.â
Natasha laughed softly. âYou are young to sound so sure of yourself.â
The womanâs smile vanished with warning. âI am old enough to know what I want.â the woman said.
Natasha held her gaze. âAnd what do you want?â
The stranger stepped closer again. âYou.â
The answer struck harder than flirtation should have and Natasha did not move. For all her training, all her control, all the years she had spent using desire as tool, cover, weapon and shield, she found herself briefly, absurdly, without words.
The woman saw that too and a smile slowly returned to her face. âDid I steal your tongue?â she asked and Natasha recovered with a slow inhale. âNo.â
âNo?â
âI was deciding whether you meant it.â
âAnd?â
Natashaâs eyes dropped to her mouth. âYou meant it.â The womanâs voice softened. âYes.â
The honesty changed the air. Natasha felt the pull then, fully. Not curiosity anymore, not simple attraction, but something heavier, wrapped in risk and heat and the intoxicating knowledge that both of them were hiding almost everything except wanting.
The stranger turned slightly, looking toward the tavernâs side passage. âThere is a quieter place..â Natashaâs pulse shifted and TâChallaâs warnings came back. She looked at the woman, at the veil hiding her hair, at the eyes that knew too much. At the mouth still curved like it expected Natasha to follow and would be disappointed if she did not.
âYou invite strangers to quiet places often?â Natasha asked.
âNo.â
âShould I believe that?â
âNo.â
Natasha smiled and the womanâs smile answered. âBut it is true.â she added.
Natasha looked toward the door, then back to her. âAnd if I say no?â
The womanâs gaze moved over her face, lingering just enough to make Natasha feel it. âThen I finish my drink and wonder whether you are as disciplined as you pretend.â
Natasha laughed under her breath. âYou make saying no sound like losing.â
âIt would be.â
âFor who?â
The woman stepped in close enough that their sleeves brushed again. âFor both of us.â
Natasha knew, in that moment, that this woman had come into the tavern wanting distraction. Maybe amusement or power without ceremony. Maybe a night where no one bowed, no one feared, no one begged her for anything. Natasha did not know the shape of that truth, she only knew its shadow and she was already stepping into it.
âLead the way.â she said and the womanâs smile turned brilliant beneath the veil. And Natasha, who should have known better than to follow secrets into the dark, followed her anyway.
The woman led her deeper inside. Past the bar, past the crowded tables, past the hearth where the singerâs voice curled low and rough through the smoke. There was a side corridor half hidden behind a hanging curtain of dark beads and leather strips. No one stopped them when the woman pushed through it. No one even looked directly at them, though Natasha felt the awareness shift around the room.
Natasha followed close behind, close enough to see the elegant line of the womanâs neck beneath the veil, close enough to notice how she moved. She walked like someone used to doors opening before she reached them, like the world had always made space for her and she had grown bored of pretending not to expect it. But when she glanced back at Natasha, there was nothing cold in her eyes. Only amusement.
The sounds of the tavern dulled behind them, swallowed by heavy stone walls and thick rugs beneath their boots. Lanterns burned low in iron brackets and the air smelled of wine, smoke and something floral Natasha could not place. At the end of the corridor stood a dark wooden door carved with the same black horse that marked the tavern entrance. The woman took a key from inside her sleeve.
âPrivate room?â Natasha asked and the woman inserted the key without looking away from her. âDid you think I would take you somewhere public?â
âI was wondering how bold you were.â The lock clicked and the woman smiled. âStill wondering?â
Natasha stepped closer, close enough that the womanâs back almost touched the door. âNo.â
For a heartbeat, neither of them moved. The tavern was only a few steps away, but it felt distant now. The music had become a pulse through the walls and the firelight from the corridor touched the edge of the womanâs veil, the curve of her mouth, the sharp brightness of her eyes. Natasha should have thought. She should have slowed down. She should have remembered the mission, Vision, the Stone, TâChallaâs warnings, the impossible kingdom above them, the dragon somewhere in the sky.
Instead, the woman opened the door and backed inside and Natasha followed. The door closed behind them and they reached for each other at the same time. There was no careful beginning or slow approach. The tension from the tavern snapped the moment privacy wrapped around them. Natasha caught the woman by the waist and pressed her back against the door and the woman went willingly, laughing once against Natashaâs mouth before the laugh broke into a kiss.
The woman kissed like she did everything else: with confidence, control and a wicked awareness of exactly what she was offering. Her hands found Natashaâs jacket, fingers curling into the fabric and pulling her closer instead of pushing her away. Natasha felt the strength in her grip, the poise even in the rush of it, and it made something low in her stomach tighten. This girl was definitely not overwhelmed by her and that was the part that made Natasha burn.
The woman let Natasha lead her back from the door, but not because she was yielding. She allowed it with the grace of someone granting permission, step by step, mouth never leaving Natashaâs for long. When Natasha turned them and walked her backward toward the table, the woman followed the pressure of her hands easily, almost elegantly, her body answering without losing its own rhythm.
Natasha melted a little at that and hated that she did. The woman noticed and she pulled back just enough to breathe, lips parted, eyes bright beneath the shadow of the veil. âYou like being obeyed..â she murmured and Natashaâs fingers tightened at her waist.
âI like being understood.â
The woman smiled, âThen understand this.â She caught the front of Natashaâs jacket and pulled her back in and the kiss deepened. Natashaâs hands slid under the edge of the womanâs outer cloak, feeling warmth through layers of fine fabric. The cloak was loosened with a practiced tug and the woman let it fall from her shoulders, not breaking the kiss as it dropped to the floor. Natashaâs own jacket followed a moment later, pushed down her arms by impatient hands.
They stumbled toward the bed near the wall, though stumble was not the right word for the woman. Even half blinded by kissing, even breathless, she moved like a dancer who had once learned war instead of music. Natasha could not stop noticing her, the elegance and the danger under it. The way she let Natasha press her down onto the edge of the bed and still somehow made it feel like Natasha had been invited exactly where the woman wanted her.
Natasha kissed her again, slower now, one hand braced beside her shoulder, the other at her waist. The woman arched into her touch with a quiet sound that made Natashaâs thoughts scatter. Then Natashaâs fingers found the fastening near the womanâs throat and the veil shifted. TâChallaâs voice cut through the heat in her mind and Natasha froze. The woman felt it immediately and opened her eyes. âWhat is it?â
Natasha breathed once, steadying herself. Her hand was still near the veil. Too close to a truth she had no right to uncover without thinking. âI..canât.â Natasha said quietly. The womanâs expression changed, but not with offense. âCanât?â
Natasha pulled back enough to put space between them. Her own scarf had loosened during the kissing, but most of her red hair was still hidden beneath it.
âI was warned.â she said and the woman sat up slightly, âAbout me?â
Natasha gave a breathless little laugh. âAbout everyone.â
That earned the smallest smile, but it faded quickly. âWhat warning stopped you?â
Natasha touched the edge of her own scarf. âMy hair draws attention here.â The womanâs eyes dropped to the movement and Natasha hesitated. Then, slowly, she pulled the scarf away and red hair spilled loose around her shoulders. The woman stopped moving and for the first time since Natasha had met her, the stranger looked genuinely stunned. Her eyes moved through Natashaâs hair as if she had never seen anything quite like it. The silence stretched so long that Natasha, impossibly, felt almost self-conscious.
Then the woman reached out and stopped just before touching, asking without words, but Natasha allowed it. The woman took one strand between her fingers, âis it natural?â
Natasha blinked, then she smiled, That was new. People had called her hair beautiful, dangerous, pretty or a target. A disguise ruined by genetics. No one had ever asked with that kind of wonder. âYes.â Natasha said. âItâs natural.â
The woman looked up at her and the fascination had not faded. âIt looks like flame.â
Natashaâs smile softened despite herself. âThatâs what theyâre afraid of?â
The womanâs thumb brushed the red strand once before letting it slip free. âNo.â she said. âThat is what they would remember.â
The woman leaned closer again, but Natasha did not move yet. âYou said you were warned..â she murmured. âAnd now?â
Natashaâs gaze flicked toward the hidden veil. âNow Iâm wondering what youâre hiding.â
A slow smile returned to the womanâs mouth. âSomething less rare than yours.â
âI doubt that.â
The womanâs eyes glittered, then she reached up and loosened the pins beneath her veil. Layer by layer, the cloth slipped away and at first, Natasha saw only pale strands at the temple. Then more and all of it. Long snow white hair fell over the womanâs shoulders in a shining wave and Natasha stopped breathing. The room seemed to go silent around her, the tavern beyond the walls disappeared.
White.
Not silver, blond or gray. White as moonlight on fresh snow. It spilled down over the womanâs dark clothing, over her shoulders and chest, luminous in the low light, impossibly soft looking and impossibly striking. It changed the shape of her beauty into something almost unreal. Before, Natasha had thought her stunning. Now, with her face fully revealed and that white hair loose around her, she looked like something from the old tapestries in the castle. A girl from bloodlines people wrote laws around.
Natasha stared, she knew she was staring but couldnât stop. The woman watched her closely and this time there was no teasing in her expression. Natashaâs mind moved, because Natashaâs mind always moved, even when her body wanted to forget how to stand. TâChalla had said snow white hair belonged to royal blood. Royal blood, not only one woman..
Certain branches tied closely to it. Noblewomen wore veils, royal cousins wore veils. Court women moving quietly through the city without drawing the wrong eyes. And Lord Vaelor had said Khaleesi was not in the castle tonight. Surely that meant away from the city..Away from taverns and from private rooms with foreign spies. Surely the woman a whole kingdom lowered its eyes for would not be here alone, smiling beneath a veil, tasting spilled liquor from her own shirt, flirting like the world had never placed a crown shaped blade above her head.
Surely, if this woman were Khaleesi, someone would have bowed. Someone would have whispered or would have panicked. But no one had..People had given her space, yes, but that could mean noble or royal adjacent.
Not Khaleesi. Not the dragonâs chosen. Not the almost-queen they had crossed the world to beg for help.
Natasha let herself believe the simpler danger, because the other one was too impossible. The woman was looking at her now like she did not want to be recognized. She wanted to be wanted and Natasha wanted her.
âYouâre beautiful..â Natasha said before she could make the words clever. The womanâs expression shifted and for all her confidence, for all her sharpness, that seemed to reach her. âCareful..â she said softly. âYou sound honest.â
Natasha stepped closer. âI am.â
The woman looked at Natashaâs red hair, then back into her eyes. âThen I do not care about the warning.â
Natashaâs breath caught. âNo?â
âNo.â The womanâs hand rose, fingers slipping carefully into Natashaâs hair. âI like it.â
Natashaâs gaze dropped to the womanâs mouth. âAnd your hair?â The woman smiled faintly. âWill you run?â
Natasha lifted her hand and touched one white strand, letting it slide between her fingers like silk. âNo.â
âWill you kneel?â
Natashaâs eyes returned to hers. That question should have sounded playful, it did not..It sounded like something from a throne room, dragged into candlelight.
Natashaâs heart slammed against her ribs. She was older than this girl, had seen more wars, more beds, more ways desire could be used as both weapon and surrender and yet here she was, utterly undone by snow white hair and storm eyes that looked at her like she was something precious instead of dangerous. She wanted her. God, she wanted her. The kind of want that made every trained instinct short circuit.
Natasha sank to her knees without hesitation, the thick rug cushioning the fall. Respect and hunger twisted together until she couldnât tell them apart as she looked up, eyes dark with need. The womanâs breath caught, surprise flickering across that beautiful face before it melted into something warmer, almost tender. She leaned back slowly on the fur draped bed, white hair fanning out like moonlight, thighs parting in open invitation. âYouâŠchose that so easily for me?â
Natasha nodded once, crawling forward between those spread legs because she needed to be closer. âFor you.â she answered, voice rough. âOnly you.â
The womanâs smile softened, eyes glittering with delight and something deeper. She reached down and brushed her fingers through Natashaâs hair, not tugging, just stroking like she couldnât quite believe this was happening. âThen show me..â she whispered.
Those words snapped the last thread of Natashaâs restraint. She leaned in and pressed her mouth to the inside of one pale thigh, kissing reverently before dragging her tongue higher. When she reached the heated center, she licked a slow, hungry stripe up the glistening folds and moaned at the taste, sweet and warm and addictive.
The womanâs hips jerked, a surprised little gasp escaping her. Then the first real moan spilled out completely unguarded and Natashaâs mind went white..It hit Natasha like fire in her veins. Her self-control, the careful distance she always kept, the calculated moves, the older woman composure shattered completely. She was supposed to be the one in controlâŠbut right now all she could think was more. She needed more of that sound, needed to be the reason it kept happening.
She dove in like a woman possessed, her tongue circled the swollen clit with desperate hunger, sucking it gently between her lips before licking back down to push inside her. The womanâs fingers tightened in her red hair, not pulling, just holding on as another moan tore free, richer this time, longer, trembling at the edges.
âGodsâŠyou feel so good..â the woman breathed, voice already cracking with pleasure. She rolled her hips up to meet Natashaâs mouth, white hair spilling everywhere as her head fell back against the furs. Natasha lost herself completely. Every moan from those pretty lips made her spiral harder and licked and sucked with shameless need, tongue fucking into her in deep, wet strokes before pulling back to lavish attention on her clit again. Her own thighs pressed together, completely soaked and aching, but she didnât touch herself, this was all for the woman beneath her, all for those gorgeous sounds that kept ripping Natashaâs composure to shreds.
The womanâs hand trembled where it rested in Natashaâs hair, guiding her gently higher when the pleasure peaked. âRight there- yes..just like thatâŠâ Another moan broke free, louder, sweeter and Natasha whimpered against her slick heat, the vibration pulling an even prettier sound from the womanâs throat.
Natashaâs mind was pure heat and reverence this woman, this impossible, beautiful girl was moaning because of her. Because Natasha couldnât stop, couldnât slow down, couldnât do anything but worship with her tongue and fingers and every desperate breath. When Natasha slid two fingers inside her, curling them just right, the womanâs back arched clean off the bed with a moan so raw and beautiful it made Natashaâs head spin.
The womanâs voice cracked, amusement long gone, replaced by pure overwhelmed pleasure. Her fingers tightened gently in Natashaâs hair, guiding her rhythm without force, just need. âG-Gods, donât stop, Please..!â
Natasha definitely had no intention of stopping. Not when every moan made her lose another piece of herself to this woman..The womanâs moan cracked into a long, shuddering cry as she came hard on Natashaâs tongue and fingers. Her thighs clamped around Natashaâs head for one dizzying second, hips rolling helplessly through every wave of pleasure. Natasha didnât stop, she just couldnât licking her through it until the tremors finally eased and the woman melted back into the furs.
Natashaâs own pulse was thundering. She was soaked, aching, trembling with how badly she still wanted her. The taste of her was still on her tongue, the sound of those moans echoing in her skull like a drug she already needed more of. Without thinking, Natasha slid her hands under the womanâs hips firmly and turning her onto her stomach.
The woman made a soft, surprised sound and her cheek pressed into the dark furs, her body completely limp and glowing with aftershocks. Natasha crawled over her from behind, pressing her own body flush along the younger womanâs back. She was moaning quietly already, just from the heat of her skin and the way the womanâs ass fit perfectly against her hips. Natasha slipped two fingers back inside her without warning and womanâs eyes flew open, âF-Fuck..I..canât-!â
âYou can..â Natashaâs mouth was right at her ear now. She twisted her fingers just right on every thrust, grinding her own soaked core against the womanâs ass in time with it. âCome for me again. Let me see your face when you do.â
The womanâs moan broke into something higher, sweeter, completely undone. Her hands fisted the furs, back arched beautifully under Natashaâs chest, white hair pulled taut in Natashaâs grip like silk ropes. Every thrust drew another gorgeous sound from her, breathy, helpless, overwhelmed and Natasha was losing her mind at the sight, âYouâre so beautiful..â
The womanâs thighs started trembling. Her moans turned into broken little cries, face flushed and open and devastatingly beautiful as Natasha kept fucking her through it. âCome on..â Natasha breathed against her neck, âLet me feel you. I need it..I need you..â
The woman came with a long, shattered moan that echoed off the stone walls, clenching hard around Natashaâs fingers, back bowing as pleasure crashed through her all over again. Her eyes squeezed shut, mouth open, white hair glowing against the dark furs while Natasha watched every second of it, chest pressed tight to her back and heart hammering like it wanted to climb out and give itself to this girl.
Natasha didnât pull her fingers out right away. She kept them buried deep, stroking her gently through the aftershocks, face still hidden in that soft neck, breathing her in like she was the only thing keeping her alive. Natasha smiled against her skin, pressing a slow, open mouthed kiss to the pulse fluttering under her lips. âIâm not finished with you yet.â
What followed was hours of heat and hunger that blurred the edges of time. The woman repaid every single second Natasha had spent worshipping her. She rolled them over with surprising strength, pinning Natasha gently beneath her, white hair falling like a curtain around them both. Her mouth was everywhere, kissing down Natashaâs throat, sucking marks into the older womanâs collarbone, then lower, until she settled between Natashaâs thighs like she belonged there. The first slow drag of her tongue had Natashaâs back arching clean off the bed with a broken moan of her own.
The woman was relentless in the softest way possible. She licked and sucked like she was savoring every sound Natasha made, fingers sliding deep inside her and curling just right while her tongue worked her clit in slow, devastating circles. Natasha came the first time with a sharp cry, thighs trembling around the womanâs shoulders, fingers tangled in that impossible snow white hair. But the young woman didnât stop either. She kept going, murmuring soft praises against slick skin, âYou taste so goodâŠlet me hear you againâ until Natasha came a second time, harder, hips bucking helplessly as pleasure crashed through her in waves.
They switched again and again, bodies sliding together in the low lantern light. Hours passed like that and the tavern outside had long since gone quiet. The only sounds in the private room were gasps, moans and the wet slide of bodies moving together in the dark. Eventually they collapsed, utterly spent.
The woman lay on her back, chest heaving, one arm draped lazily over Natashaâs waist. Natasha was on her side, red hair sticking to her damp forehead, body boneless and glowing with the kind of satisfaction she hadnât felt in years. She couldnât remember the last time sex had been this good..this raw, this endless, this right. Every nerve in her body still hummed with it. She felt wrecked in the best possible way, like the younger woman had reached inside her and pulled out every hidden piece of want sheâd been carrying.
Natasha turned her head slowly, still breathless, and justâŠlooked at her. The girl beside her was flushed and glowing, lips kiss swollen, eyes half closed in pure bliss. She looked unreal..like something carved out of moonlight and fire and every impossible story Natasha had ever heard. Natashaâs voice came out hoarse, barely above a whisper. âSoâŠWhatâs your name?â
The woman turned her head, a slow, sated smile curving her lips. Her eyes met Natashaâs with something soft and open and a little amused, like sheâd been waiting for the question all night. âY/n.â she said simply.
The name settled between them like a secret finally shared and Natasha stared at her, heart still pounding, the weight of everything theyâd just done sinking in deeper with every second. And for the first time since sheâd stepped into this hidden kingdom, she had no idea what came next.
Can you have Nat having a bad day or something, and she accidentally takes it out on Reader and yells at her and says something mean. The gag is, this time, Reader actually wasnât even doing anything wrong. Reader gets all sad and shuts down, since it was Nat that yelled at her. Natasha has to make it better đ„č
TW: Natasha yelling, insecurities, closed off reader, vaping, self doubt, angst, mentions of ED tendencies.
It wasnât often that Natasha had bad days, but when she did, everyone knew not to piss her off. Sheâd walk into the room, expression cold and shoulders rigid. She was sharper with her words and even deadlier with her eyes. Fury had called her in for a meeting about unorganised files and missing reports that she had run way past the due date. Yeah it was an awful morning, itâs never nice to be on the receiving end of a lecture from your boss who had no leeway for answers.
Her boots echoed around the compound as she walked into the common room, Steve, Bucky and Tony in the kitchen arguing over what the better topping was on pancakes. The minute Natasha walked in Steve gave her a friendly smile but it faded as he was met with a sharp stare. âWoke up on the wrong side of the bed Romanoff?â Tony snarked and she stabbed his pancake with a fork nearby. âWell goddamn Widowâ he mumbled and dragged himself over to the living room, opting to eat breakfast there. Buckyâs and Steve followed Tony closely, not wanting to be in the firing line. Smart move.
Natasha grabbed one of her shakes out of the fridge and retreated to her office with a determined strut. Sheâs got a shit load of paperwork to do and the sooner she started the better. One file after the other, multiple coffee breaks, no interruptions. In fact, no one had seen her all day. That is until you went to go find her. Youâd been out with Kate and Yelena all day so you had no idea what was going on in the compound. If you had known, you wouldnât have bothered her.
âHey there you are, oh my god, you wouldnât believe what Yel-â you started cheerfully but got cut off when she huffed frustratedly and turned towards you sharply. âFucking hell leave me alone! I donât care! You know some people take their work seriously and donât just bludge around all day! Maybe one day youâll realise that this job is more than just Tonyâs perks and free time to fuck around! Being an Avenger actually means something to some people! Now if you donât mind, Iâve got paperwork to do because unlike you, I do my job like a real Avengerâ she finished with a glare and you shrunk down. âUh, yeah okay sure sorry um Iâll see myself out sorryâ you stammered and she rolled her eyes, turning back around to her paperwork.
She didnât see the way your hands trembled slightly, or how you bit your lip to try and hide the building tears. With one last look, you walked out, closing the door softly and took a deep breath in. Was this a constant thought she had about you? Itâs no secret that youâre new to the team, only being properly engaged in mission from about two months ago but still? Did she not see you as a real Avenger? Did she think you werenât good enough? Did she hate you? Were you not good enough for her?
That night you skipped dinner, not unusual but not something Natasha would like. Whether it was a jab at her or justified by anxiety no one knows and no one asked. If you werenât good enough for Natasha, you werenât good enough for anyone. The tears came freely this time as you lay in bed that night. Natashaâs hoodie that you usually slept in, thrown on the floor near the door. You didnât deserve it. Not if you werenât good enough. A quiet broken hiccup escaped your lips as you heard Wanda and Natasha speak behind your door.
âDidnât come down for dinner Nat, sheâs been in her room since she came back pretty muchâ Wandaâs voice was heavy with her accent and you heard Natasha sigh. âIâll talk to her tomorrow, thanks Wandsâ you squeezed your eyes shut as you heard the door open. You evened out your breathing as best you could when she slipped in the bed behind you, âYou were doing so wellâ she mumbled and sighed against the back of your neck. You stayed silent, tense but silent and Natasha must have been utterly exhausted because not long after she was fast asleep. For a spy who can literally tell if youâre lying with her eyes closed, she didnât pick up at all that you were well and truly awake. She really didnât care for you anymore. She wasnât paying attention anymore. You really werenât good enough for her.
Morning came and sure enough, you were met with an empty bed. It shouldnât be a surprise to you, youâve been forgotten, disregarded and made to feel like an outsider your whole life. But it still hurt. The one person who you thought truly saw you for you and not some screw up had finally realised youâre nothing but a waste of time. Yeah, it hurt big time. You sighed as you slipped on a loose pair of sweats and a hoodie, grabbing your vape (yes still hidden from Natasha) and heading straight to the doors leading to the fields outside the compound.
You knew a spot not far from the building, a little into the woods but quite pretty. There was a big oak tree that youâd climb every now and then when you wanted to breathe or just think, so with nothing but your vape and phone you set out towards it. It didnât take you long, 17 minutes to be exact and you sighed at the tree in the distance. Why was it always you who ruins everything? The relationship with your parents, people at college, high school and now the new family you thought you created within the Avengers. The common denominator was you.
You climbed the tree with ease, sitting on one of the higher sturdier branched and tilted your head back against the trunk. It was quiet, it was peaceful and the nicotine from the vape was soothing the mental struggle like a saint. It was pretty much the only thing you could control right now. You were out for hours, no one had come to look for you, no one had realised you were gone. Itâs not like you went far, but still, the thought of no one caring weighed heavy in your chest. The silent tears came to you at full force as more and more hours went by.
âI thought I locked that upâ an unamused voice caught you by surprise as you choked on the vape. Natasha was standing at the bottom of the tree with her arms crossed and her brows raised. âSorryâ you mumbled automatically and pocketed it. You didnât come down and she didnât climb up. What now? âWanna tell me why youâre up there?â She sat on the ground observing you. You couldnât speak, words were choked up and tears were desperately trying to stay at bay. From Natashaâs position in the grass, all she could see was your knees to your chest and the smallest fraction of your face between the leaves above.
She was about to ask again when your voice cracked, âyou yelled at me.â A painful whimper managed to escape and you heard her sigh. You were too busy trying to regulate yourself enough to talk to her that you didnât hear or see her scale the tree like it was nothing. âYou yelled at me Nat, you said that- oh youâre right there sorry- you said that I wasnât good enough to be a real Avenger. I know it sounds stupid to cry over and Iâm just being a baby and youâre right I do need to take it more seriously cause otherwise thereâs no point in being here at the compound and being an Avenger. Iâm sorry Iâm not good enough yet, I promise Iâll do better, I promise Iâm sorryâ you were openly sobbing now and Natasha was frozen.
She didnât realise just how far she set you back into your own insecurities and anxieties. You were doing exceptionally well in your mental health and she just wrote it off in the blink of an eye. âHey no, look at me. Iâm sorry for yelling at you. Fury had me do all this paperwork and he stressed me out and I ended up lashing out and I know it doesnât justify what I did or said to you. But I need you to understand that you are an Avenger, you earned that spot just like we all did. Iâm sorry I set you back in a spiral. Iâm so sorry detkaâ Natasha sighed as she pulled you in for a calculated hug. Keep in mind all this is happening in a goddamn oak tree and she didnât want either of you falling from the height you were at.
You werenât perfect and neither was she, but in this moment, Natasha made a silent promise to herself to never let you get this deep in your thoughts. She couldnât afford to lose someone so perfect for her.
a small drabble following a friendship that feels like something more, pt. 3 (jealous reader version)
Too close.Â
Bruce has looked at Natasha four times already. Glanced her way, shifted towards her, whatever. He was just too close to her â and youâve noticed it.Â
He was reserved, shy, introspective, and his crush on Natasha way too noticeable. She had to notice it too, right? You knew she did notice those things â the glances, the shaky hands, the lack of eye contact, and how posture changed when she walked into a room. Natasha is observant, and she must have noticed the signs. Surely.Â
âAre you going to drink that tea or...?â Wanda murmured your way, leaning towards you. You blinked, looking down to find youâve been stirring the already cold tea for... quite a few minutes. Â
âIâll...â with a soft sigh, you got up from the kitchen stool. âIâll just have tea later.â It was obvious, almost comical how you excused yourself and disposed of the untouched cup of tea before leaving the kitchen. Escaping breakfast would be considered better wording, maybe.Â
The team must have noticed the way Bruce was acting; it was right in front of them. Your mind replayed the situation with insistent disbelief over and over as you made your way to the common room. And Natasha did nothing to stop it. Usually, she would throw a snarky remark, a smirk or even show an ounce of amusement towards such a clear display of attraction.Â
The common room was quieter than the kitchen, sunlight stretched lazily across the floor. You sank into the edge of the couch, stared at nothing in particular... trying to name the feeling coiling in your chest.Â
It wasnât anger; that was way too easy to pinpoint. It was sharper than that. Displacement, maybe â the sudden realization that something you never claimed might not be yours to lose.Â
Your introspection was interrupted by footsteps approaching. You didnât have to look up to know who it was. Your body recognized her before your eyes could. She stopped within your space, not touching.Â
âYou left breakfast early,â Natasha said smoothly, sitting down next to you.Â
A soft hum of acknowledgment left your lips. âWasnât hungry,â a lie. A poor one.Â
You could feel her assessing you. The tension in your shoulders, the way your jaw fought against clenching. Why couldnât she do exactly that with Bruce?Â
She didnât miss the way your fingers curled into the fabric of the couch cushion either. Or how you were staring at a fixed point on the wall instead of her. âYouâre upset,â she observed quietly.Â
âIâm fine,â you muttered, sinking into the couch a bit more. Natasha fought back a chuckle. Oh, you were so obvious sometimes. You refused to look at her, youâd be giving something away if you did. Â
âThatâs interesting,â she finally offered, a quiet exhale leaving her lips. Almost amused.Â
âWhat is?â you couldnât help the frown on your face.Â
âYouâre avoiding eye contact. Avoiding me.â Her words settled somewhere too deep. Silence stretched â not awkward, not comfortable either. Dense.Â
You hated how much she noticed. You shifted on the couch, aware of how close she was. Finally, your eyes met hers. âIâm not,â you quietly whispered. âIâm sorry, I just didnât want to be there.â That earned a raised eyebrow. Â
Before she could say anything, you continued âdid you know Bruce has a crush on you?â The question hung there, fragile but sharp.Â
For a moment, Natasha didnât offer any words. She simply watched you â steady, calm. âYes,â she said at last. The word uncomplicated. Of course she knew. You nodded absentmindedly. Her head tilted slightly, âis that why you didnât want to be there?â Â
You hesitated just a fraction too long, and she noticed. As always. âI just...â you looked away again, jaw tightening. âIt was obvious, Nat. He couldnât stop staring, he was too close.âÂ
âAnd that bothered you,â she gently countered. Not an accusation.Â
A soft, humorless breath left your lips. âIt was obvious,â you weakly insisted. You hated it â the way she could peel back layers, the way she cornered you with gentleness. âI just thought youâd say something,â you admitted.Â
âLike what?âÂ
âA joke,â you said immediately. âA comment. Anything.â Her gaze sharpened slightly.Â
âWhy?â Natasha pressed gently. It wouldâve meant something if sheâd smirked, if sheâd brushed him off. If sheâd made it clear she wasnât interested. You didnât say any of that.Â
Instead, âitâs what you usually do,â left your lips. âYou usually shut that kind of thing down before it starts.âÂ
âI canât control what he feels,â your chest tightened at her words. âYou donât have to leave a room because someone looks at me,â she said quietly. Her voice wasnât dismissive. It wasnât annoyed.Â
âI know...â you sighed, defeated. âI didnât leave because of him.â Her head tilted slightly.Â
âThen why?â She asked. You exhaled softly through your nose, searching for a version of the truth that wouldnât shatter the fragile balance between you.Â
âItâs just...â your jaw tightened again. âItâs different when itâs you.âÂ
Something flickered across her expression â subtle, gone too quickly to name. âDifferent how?âÂ
You almost laughed. âYouâre really not going to let this go, are you?âÂ
âNo.â There it was again â that softness, that gentleness edged with precision. She wasnât interrogating you. She was trying to understand. And that made it worse.Â
âYou usually donât entertain it,â you avoided before you could stop yourself.Â
âI wasnât entertaining it.âÂ
âIt didnât look that way.â That seemed to land. Not as an accusation, but something heavier.Â
Natasha shifted her weight. This time when her knee brushed yours, it lingered. Neither of you moved. âYouâre reading too much into something that isnât there,â she said quietly. âYou donât have to leave a room because someone looks at me,â she repeated, softer this time.Â
You searched her face. âAnd if I canât help it?âÂ
Her hand lifted slightly, hesitated, then settled against your arm. Not possessive. Not bold. Just there. âThen donât,â she said.Â
The simplicity of it made your chest ache. Neither of you said the thing that trembled on the edge of both your tongues. But the distance between you had never felt smaller.
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summary: after your new 'friend' has been avoiding you and ignoring your texts for weeks, papers switch.
warnings: twilight au/crossover, please keep in mind there's an in between w talk to me and this!! reading the text messages will make sm more sense... GHOSTING, confronting, nat being kind of a looser (cute), reader chasing nat and viceversa, coming out, hints of homophobia (sorry), kissing, 3k words or so, Edward mentions, usual TWs
from Crimson hymn (twilight x yellowjackets au)
Two weeks.
That's all it took for Natalie to get back to avoiding you. Right after that coffee date meet up and finishing that stupid project over the next week, (it was perfect and beautiful, of course,) she hadn't hesitated when it came to walking past you. It wasn't just the fact that she didn't even speak that bothered you, but now she also didn't even dare to look at you. Why? You had no clue.
And that pissed you off more than you cared to admit. Because, at this point, it wasn't just 'a cute girl' ignoring you. No, it was someone you'd actually talked to every single day, about the project but being honest that had just turned into an excuse. You'd text and call each other every chance you got, ramble on the hallways about the stupidest things, share each others notes.
And now nothing.
Radio silence. And fuck it hurt.
Either way, you tug at the sleeves of your pink braided sweater, seeking for some of the warmth that Antartiforks (you're still working on the name, let's not judgeâŠ) deprives you from. A sigh leaves your lips as music flows from your crappy headphones. As you make your way into the school's decorated hallways, you end up walking behind her, as if something stronger, more powerful than you was pulling you two together. Such a great thing to feel towards a girl that ignores you, hehâŠ
But you didn't mean it in a creepy way! In your defense, she had been ignoring you for whatâ weeks? days, really, but that's not important.
What's important is that you're here, and so is she. Now staring right back at you with her dark brows arched before she goes back to looking down at the sink.
"Seriously?" She looks back up, meeting your eyes for a second. "Did I do something?"
"W-what? no!"
"Then why are you ignoring me?" She stutters some nonsense, the usual 'i'm not ignoring you' she's been preaching for the last weeks. "Natalie, please. Just be honest."
Finally, she looks at you. Her eyes take you in fully, and her pupils dilatate and contract as she takes in your features; your tired expression, the dark stains under your now darkened gaze, your swollen eyes, probably from so much crying, and overly, how exhausted you look. Over her. Over this. Over chasing her into this nonsense.
"What? is it 'cause you've found out?" you mutter, aiming for the worst.
Her brows furrow in confusion, head slightly tilting to the side. "Found out about what?"
Your lips part, but really, nothing comes out of them. Fuck. She didn't know? or maybe she did, and was just playing coy?, but it now feels like it's already too late, and like your dad always says, 'cat's outta the bag', so might as well just go for it.
"That I like girls." It comes out in a mumbled whisper, and Natalie can palp your fear, the way your body is tensing, so fucking scared of her reaction. But it's the truth. And you've been here before. You've seen your best friend's expression harden when you told her in middle school, the rejection and disgust that filled her face, the way your heart sunk. You weren't even into Emma, you just wanted support, to talk about girls the same way she talked to you about boys.
But before Natalie can form a thought or a solid answer, the bathroom door swings open and a group of girls comes in, voices chipping and gossiping filling the tiled bathroom doors. So you do what Natalie does best; run. Sliding through the bodies with tiny sorry's and excuse me's, you get back to the sea of people drowning the hallways, and you disappear.
It's crazy how papers switch.
Ever since your hit and run (or coming out and running), Natalie has been almost practically chasing you. And you've done what she has on the last weeks, avoiding and ignoring.
Funnily enough, the blonde hates to be in your position, and lasts way less than you did. After only four days and about a hundred texts coming from her, (yes, she's been the one texting you, crazy, right?) three calls and multiple encounters and lingering eye contact from across the cafeteria, Natalie finally catches you.
It's on friday, when you're skipping class. You hate chem, and chem hates you. It's a fact, but it still pisses you off because you hate feeling dumb. Besides, it's just one hour, so you just have to wait for Bella to get off so you can two drive back home together.
Your pencil is scratching the thick paper of your sketchbook, pressure deflecting on the intensity of the strokes, the woody landscape beggining to form on the palm of your hand.
"Nice work there," your head turns at the sudden voice, and Natalie seems visibly nerveous. So do you. Looking away from her, you start stuffing your bag back up, clumsy hands stumbling with your pencil case.
"Waitâ" Her hand reaches your biceps, and a shiver rinds down your spine. Natalie notices, and instantly lets go. "Iâ can we just talk? please? I- I promise I'll be quick."
Your lips part and you feel your lip quiver. "Don't say anything." Natalie looks confused, and you just might wanna punch some sense into her. "About what I said the other day in the bathroom, don't say anything to anyone. I- I'm fine with you going back to ignoring me if you don't."
"What? No! I'm- I'm not gonna say anything-"
"I'm serious Nat. If anyone finds out I'm fucked, like knee deep fucked-"
"I'm not gonna-"
"It already sucked in Phoenyx and it wasn't a shoebox of a town like this shitshow so imagine what it'll be like here, with all Forks looking at me like a fucking weirdo-"
"Hey-"
"What about my dad? How do you think he will take it? He's gonna freak out. It's gonna be terrible, and I can't even get back home because my mom is too busy with her new husband and I-"
"I like girls too, okay?!"
Silence. Both of your breaths ragged, eyes hesitant, surprised with what's just come out of her rosy lips. I like girls too. Natalie seems even more taken back than you, even if she's the one who just said it. Birds chip in the background, the soft cold breeze whispers to your face and Natalie is still there. Standing in front you, worn-out black leather jacket, one of her stupid band tees and that dumb expression in her face you can't help but love.
"What the fuck?" An incredulous mumble unclogs your throat. "You've liked girls all along?"
"Y-yeah"
"Liked me?"
Quiet.
"Oh so thats what this all about?" Your face is no longer scared, but slightly angry and still surprised.
"I-"
"You've been avoiding me cause you're into me?" Natalie opens and closes her mouth a couple of times, but ends up saying nothing but a 'Something like that'. "You gotta be fuckin' kidding me," you grumble turning to sit resting your worn out converse on the bench spot. You feel her shift, the squicky sound of her jacket following her moves. "I'm sorry." She whispers almost in your ear. It makes a shiver run through your spine, but you try to keep it cool. Hope she doesn't hear how fast your heart is racing. How hard is it to breathe right now. Fuck.
"Does it have anything to do with the whole 'you-should-stay-away-from-me' thing you and your siblings got going on?" You mumble, looking down at her not so shiny boots.
"âŠyes."
"Why am I supposed to stay away from you?"
Natalie doesn't respond right back, waiting instead for your eyes to find hers. When you do, she tries to hold back, to keep looking at you, but ends up glancing away with a swallow. "BecauseâŠ" Because because. She doesn't say anything else, as if she's trying to find an excuse, to make something up just to get you to stop. But she doesn't want to. She doesn't want to stay away from you. She wants you to call her, to text her, she wants to see you in school, to sit beside you after you save the seat for her, to see your smile, to try your obnoxious scented lip glosses, to listen to your laughter, to catch your scent before she even sees you. "I dunno." Is all she manages to mumble.
"Wow. And they say Plato's is dead." that makes her laugh, but your instant glare quiets her down. "I'm really sorry." She says again.
"I don't want your sorry's if you're not gonna explain shit."
She sighs, shifting uncomfortable in her seat. Her hands come up to rub her face and grasp her hair, and even if you're unbeliveably hurt and pissed, you still hate seeing her like this. You gently cup her elbow, not wanting to do too much but also show here you're listening. She looks at you through her bleached mane, and you think you catch a glossy layer over her emeralds. "Hey- Nat," you start, making her groan as her thumbs attampt (failing) to rub the upcoming tears off. "HeyâŠ" Your arm comes to wrap over her back, hand gently caressing her shoulder in a lame attempt to soothe her.
"I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry. I'm an asshole, and I was scared and I didn't know how to- and you just- I've made you suffer so much-"
"Wow, okayâ suffer is a big word," She laughs and sniffs through her hair. "Is it cause your brother doesn't want you hanging with a dyke like me?" Your tone is playful, harmless even, just a stupid attempt to get her to stop cryingâ "Joke, joke," you mumble as her head lifts to look at you in a defenetly not laughing expression. You reach into her jacket's pocket, taking off a pack of cigarettes and a lighter with The iconic image of a Rosie the Riveter with a bicep flexed, wearing a red polka-dot bandana and blue work shirt, Jersey girls get shit done instead of the iconic 'We can do it!'.
"How did you-?" She stutters, confused. "I stare, remember?" Now, she finally smiles. She takes one and offers you another, and with both of your lips pursed around a cigarette, the metally click of the used lighter pulls you closer, tobacco tips tipping against each other as the flame licks them both. You look at each other all the way. Not even paying attention to the burning sensation of holding the smoke for too long, your hand reaches to her cheek, watching as she let's you wipe a rebel tear before it rolls down her cheek. It feels oddly romantic. You slowly pull apart, the burning sensation being too much to hold as you watch Natalie's pupils dilatate. At your touch, because of me, you think, and the word Delusional flods your mind.
"âŠCan't we just go back to hanging out and shit-talking everyone?" You offer, letting out your third puff.
"Yes please." She blurts out fast, faster and more desperate than she'd like to admit. "I- I mean, y-yeah, that'd be⊠cool to⊠hang out again." You turn your head to her in disbelief. "You're unbelievable." Your murmur. "How can you avoid me for two weeks and be so needy?"
"I'm not needy!-" you cut her with a huffed 'oh fuck yes you are' "I'm not! I just- I just-"
"Just what?"
"I just missed you!" Now it's your turn to be stunned, smoke dancing with silence between the both of you. "God, you really are gay."
"Oh shut up-" she mumbles embarassed as she nudges you.
It was good to have her back.
You could spot Natalie's pale complexion from a mile away. And this wasn't gonna be the exception. She was wearing a striped shirt (god she had an obsession with fucking stripes), ripped jeans and her usual doc martens. And oh, ofcourse, the leather jacket.
Nat
You're staring again
You
You wish
After you two made up, Natalie finally agreed on hanging out like the two normal 'friends' you were. And you say 'friends' because you seem to feel everything but friendly feelings towards her, and it seemed to be the same thing for her, soâŠ
Regardless of the elephant in the room, she had agreed on taking you on a 'town tour' so you could finally know your way around. Wich, to be fair, you already knew, given the countless times Jessica and Angela had dragged both you and Bella on shopping sprees, but Natalie didn't need to know all that. Besides, she seemed more confident when she thought she was in control, and you weren't about to take that away from her.
You cross the sidewalk, getting closer to where she's already waiting for you, arm perched on her waist silly grin on her lips. "Looking good, huh." Natalie hums, making you raise a brow. "What?"
"'Looking good?' God you're worse than Mike-" You murmur as a grin spreads on your lips.
She makes an exaggerated offended face, scoffs and you can sense how nerveous she is. "I'm not!"
"Yes it is. Horrible pick up line."
"I wasn't trying to pick you up," she doesn't seem very convinced when she says so.
"Oh, so you just get incredibly nervous when you're around me." You start walking, leaving her behind standing like a statue. "I don't," She catches up quickly, crimson to her cheeks.
"Oh but you do," you hum smiley, her brows furrowing at your comeback, "ohh Natty s' okay, I get it. Pretty girls make me nervous too." You'd think the reason for her now twisted face is caused because she understood you meant she was the pretty girl you were talking about, as if she'd finally got it. Weeks and weeks of flirting finally coming to her understanding. But really, it was because of the nickname. Not because it was the first time she'd ever been called that, but because it had been a long time since she'd last heard it. Last time she did, it didn't come with a sweet tone like yours; laced with interest and leaving a honey-like taste on her throat. No. It came from her father, almost fourteen years ago, a couple of years before she had even been converted.
That last argument.
That last Natty.
That last ounce of hatred he'd finally left her with, a sour memory of the father he'd never really been.
And now there was you. Giving that burried name a whole new meaning, reviving something Natalie had left for dead before she even realized.
But all she did was huff a laugh, roll her eyes and tell you to just shut up and follow her around town.
Just a stupid nickname, right?
"Okay, so, serious questionâ" the lollipop makes a satisfying 'pop' sound when it leaves your now shiny lips, "rumcoke or vodka lemon?"
It's been hours since you two got home. After all, spending all afternoon walking around a almost deserted town gets exhausting, and neither Bella nor Charlie were home that day. So there was nothing wrong with inviting a friend over, right? 'If it's a girl, I don't care,' your dad had said after all, unaware of how 'just girls' made a lot more things to you than just gossip and manicures.
"Beer." You instantly lift up from the bed to look down to Natalie's cold body. She's laying on top of your pink fluffy carpet, courtesy of your father (thanks, Charlie). Her box blonde strands of hair twirl between the flakes of pink fur. Her forest green eyes find yours, and she instantly smiles at your reaction. "Beer?" you repeat, a funny grin spreading on your face. She nods. "Seriously? No vodka lemon, no cocktails�"
"It's too sweet," She hums, making your head tilt. "Too sweet?" She nods, "Then why do you keep using my Victoria's secret Cherry bomb lipgloss?" Color erupts from her cheeks and her eyes drift away from yours as she stutters, suddenly seeming very interested on the papered walls and the fairy lights.
"Uh- because it's umâ great. Hydration. And pigment. Yeah." You stare at her for a moment and then burst into laughing. "Stop laughing! I'm serious," you don't. "Stop!" It's more of an embarassed stop, and the more you lean on the edge of the bed, the more she sits up.
"Oh I can't take you seriously when you blush like that," you hum smiley, her face closer than you realized it was. She doesn't either. Realize until now, you mean. Chewing her bottom lip in a nerveous habit, eyes flicking back at yours. "Can't help it." She whispers back.
Your breaths mix as your eyes chase each other, nervous, confused, hopeful. Who knows.
You lean in a bit, making her breath get ragged and her throat bob as she swallows. "We shouldn't."
"Says who?"
"Says- common sense." She's really trying to look away, but you keep hunting her eyes, sweet breath caressing her skin.
"Is common sense's name Edward?" You tease. Because of course he is! He's always in the middle of fucking everything, telling everyone what to doâ both for Nat, and apparently now Bella.
"N-no." Stuttering, as per usual. So cute. Your smile grows wider, "I don't buy that,"
"I-" She tries to speak, failing in a sputter of mumbles.
"Just fucking kiss me already."
Natalie's eyes flicker down to your lips.
Once.
Twice.
Like she's trying not to, like she's losing (because really, she is,) and for a second, she just stares. For once, she doesn't look smug, or teasing. Just straight up... Terrified.
You see it then, hidden under all the sarcasm and nervous stuttering; the fear. Raw and ugly and desperate. Like kissing you would mean crossing a line she wouldn't be able to uncross. But why was it that much of a problem? Kissing you, you mean. Why did Edward care so fucking much? Was he such a homophobe?
Her voice comes out in a quiet "You don't know what you're asking for" and you almost laugh.
"Nat, we're seventeen, not in a Shakespeare tragedy."
That actually pulls a breathy huff out of her, but it dies quickly. Her hand twitches against your carpet like she wants to reach for you, but stops herself halfway.
"You make me wanna do stupid shit." she whispers.
Your chest tightens embarrassingly fast. God you're a mess for this girl--
"Maybe I like stupid shit."
"Yeah, that's kinda the problem."
You roll your eyes softly, but your heartbeat's going insane. She can probably hear it. Actuallyâ considering Natalieâ she definitely can, but you don't know that yet. Instead, you lean closer.
Close enough to smell cigarettes and vanilla again, enough that her breathing stutters.
"You know," you murmur softly, eyes dropping to her lips for a second, "for someone who wanted me to stay away from her, you spend a lotta time in my bedroom."
Natalie lets out another quiet laugh through her nose, head dipping slightly. Then, her hand finally reaches for you.
Cold fingers.
Gentle.
Her knuckles brush your cheek first, hesitant, almost asking for permission even after you practically begged her to kiss you.
"You have no self preservation instincts." she mumbles.
You huff. "And you talk too much."
That earns you a tiny smile.
A real one.
And then she kisses you.
Like she's starving.
But trying very, very hard not to bite. It's soft at first, almost painfully careful; her lips feel cold moving against yours while her hand cups your jaw like you're something fragile, something precious she shouldn't play with.
Your fingers immediately tangle into the collar of her shirt, pulling her closer with a breathy sound that makes her freeze for half a second.
Then she kisses you again.
Deeper.
Needier.
Like those weeks without you finally cracked something open inside her. The kiss tastes faintly like tobacco and cherry chapstick, and you think you could get addicted to it.
Her other hand braces against the edge of your mattress, caging you in without crushing you, and when your lips part slightly against hers, Natalie makes this low sound in the back of her throat that nearly kills you on the spot.
Holy shit.
You barely notice yourself shifting closer until she's practically between your knees, (how did she get there so quick?) your bedroom glowing pink and gold around her pale skin.
And for the first time in weeks, she isn't pulling away. When you finally separate, both of you breathing harder than before, Natalie rests her forehead against yours, eyes still closed.
"...Edward's gonna kill me."
You burst out laughing.
And Natalie thinks it's the prettiest sound she's heard in almost a century.
YAAAAYYY finally bringing this!!! I've been working on this for soooo long im soso happy to bring it to you guys!!!
â„ïž author's note: itâs been too long since iâve written for my gf⊠btw am i the only one whoâs been getting those âiâm a virginâ edits that always end up with nat đ
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you leaned back against the hood of the car, your arms crossed in front of your chest as you watched your girlfriend walk out of the police station, her hand deep in the pockets of her worn-out leather jacket. when she spotted you, the brows that had been furrowed in displeasure easing up, the wrinkle between them vanishing as you lifted your hand to wave at her, the small frown on her plump lips turning into a small grin as she lifted up her middle finger at you.
once she reached you, though, natalie's arms snaked around your waist, pulling you into her as her lips crashed into yours with fervor, the woman pushing you onto the car of the hood, tongue circling your mouth, the taste of cigarettes still present in her mouth, the woman clad in fully black such a contrast to the soft colors you were wearing, showing just different you were from her.
natalie pulled back from the kiss with a small grin on her lips and you were unable to tell your heavy breaths apart from hers, the dark-haired woman tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear, "did you bring my cigs?" she asked with a lazy grin, and you rolled your eyes, gently punching her chest as you dug out her carton of cigarettes from your purse and opened it, holding it out to her, "you're not even gonna give me a 'hello'? not even an 'i missed you'? just 'gimme a cig'."
"well, what i just did kinda was my way of saying 'hello' and 'i missed you'." natalie said in a sultry tone, taking one of the cigarettes and placing it between her lips as you dug around the bag for the lighter with the carving 'N.S' flicking it open as she brought her mouth closer to the flickering flame of the lighter, your eyes on the way the cigarette caught aflame, the filter starting to turn brown at the end.
"but if you really want me to, i guess i could take you in the backseat and show you how much i really missed you." natalie grinned stepping back from you, the cigarette between her pointer finger and her middle finger, the black paint you'd applied to her nails chipping, the woman taking in a deep inhale before blowing the smoke away from you. "maybe you should."
and she did; you ended up in the backseat of the car natalie had stolen months ago, her head between your legs as your hands were tangled in her long, brown hair, pulling her closer to your core as she lapped at your cunt, the scent of your arousal filling the small car. your skirt was bunched up on your waist, and your favorite pair of panties were in the backpocket of natalie's scuffed black jeans.
one of her hands were greedily kneading your brest while the other was pumping in and out of you, the long, ringed digits scissoring inside of you as your lewd moans filled the car.
her tongue darted out to circle your clit teasingly until her lips sucked the sensitive bud into her mouth, your pussy arching into her mouth as if out of instinct, as if chasing all the sensations she was making you feel.
"god, nat..." you whined, the woman letting out a cocky chuckle into your pussy, each tiny drag of her tongue causing shivers to run up your spine, the sensations in your abdomen building up every time her fingers met with that sweet spongy spot inside of you, with every moan and whine natalie drug out.
you let out a loud moan of her name when you felt the band in your stomach snap, your walls clenching around her fingers so tightly the woman could barely move them, her lips easing up slightly, letting go of your clit with a small, wet pop! giving your clit small kitten licks to help you come down from your orgasm.
when you finally stopped clenching around her fingers, natalie pulled her fingers out of you, splaying her hand on your stomach, as she looked up at you, "did that show you just how much i missed you?" she asked, cocking her brow.
"hmm." you pursed your lips, narrowing your brows as if deep in thought, "i think i'm gonna need some more proof for your claims." she grinned, tilting her head to the side, "yes, ma'am." she nodded, before diving back between your legs.
Summary: The one that died on Vormir was Clint and not Natasha. Sheâs been dealing with the guilt by throwing herself into work and consistently risking her life. Itâs put her marriage in a tough spot. Back from her latest mission Natasha senses her wife is tired of her running. Marriage troubles and jealousy follow.
Warning:
Angst.
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When Natasha met Y/N on that mission all those years ago, she couldâve never have imagined how much sheâd come to love her. When she married her, she wouldâve never predicted how much her love would still continue to grow for her everyday.
Natasha would have never predicted though also, that fighting with her wife would be so awful.
Itâs awful. Itâs been happening for weeks. Natasha knows a lot of it is her fault. Sheâs just recently come back from a mission abroad that had taken her two months. A risky uncover mission she knows, even without you having said, that you never wanted her to go on.
Before even that though Natasha was constantly taking part in risky missions, leaving for a week or weeks at a time, going MIA on you, and essentially abandoning you. After what happened on Vormir a year and a half ago nowâŠNatasha feels like she has a lot to prove to not only the world, but Clint and his family. She should have won, and she would have if she couldâve just let go of all she had to lose.
She couldnât. Sheâs glad sheâs alive, but thereâs so much guilt in that too. To have lived, and to be happy about it, there are nights where Natasha canât sleep thinking about itâfeeling it consume her.
Steve was so close to pairing her and you on that mission. It was Clint that asked to be put with her instead. Natasha thinks about it all of the time.
She misses him. Sheâs consumed with guilt. So she leaves. She leaves to try and be the hero she was supposed to have been a year and a half ago. Sheâs trying to make up for it.
Itâs ruining her marriage.
Sheâs back from her mission abroad, and the second she returned you asked Steve to place you on a mission. Natasha wonders if sheâs reading into things, but she knows the tension she feels with you isnât in her head.
Itâs been there for a year, but never this heavy. She feels like her own wife is avoiding her.
Natasha sits up in her seat, you ignore her but you tense at what she says next; âIâm coming too.â
Her eyes meet yours. Youâre her wife, and sheâs always been able to read you just as well as sheâs been able to read herselfâŠexcept for right now. For the first time in 7 years she doesnât know whatâs going through your head.
Itâs terrifying. âYou literally just came back Nat-â
âThanks for the concern, Nick. But Iâm going.â
He sighs simply, knowing her well enough by now to not argue. âOkay.â
â-
Natasha feels betrayed, and angry, and self righteous and a million other things.
The mission. The mission had gone awfully. What was supposed to be an uncover mission for youâto get intelâquickly turned into something sexual.
That wasnât new. Natasha of all people knew that sometimes, especially when you sense someone is already interested, you have to use your sensuality to get what you need.
You did that. You did it well. You even maintained the connection for the future by the end of it, giving Nick more opportunity to suck all the intel he can from her. From Evelyn.
But as Natasha was watching from the sidelines, watching and hearing her wife flirt, kiss, and makeout with the target, like the both of you sometimes are required to do, she had a sense that this time was different from all the others.
Not for her, but for you. It felt more genuine. Especially when she overheard you in the ship talking to Kate about it on the phone. âShe was hot,â you gushed. Natasha had felt sick to her stomach and left, but when she returned later she heard you talking about how you wouldâve like to know her outside of work.
Immediately she told Fury that heâd get an update on his intel tomorrow and hung up. Then she told their pilot to redirect from the tower to her home.
He obeyed, and as soon as the ship landed Natasha practically you dragged you by the wrist into your shared home, and forced you into a chair.
Your eyes are dark with something Natasha knows very well. Even when youâre furious with Natasha she knows well that youâre never really able to resist.
Itâs why sheâs surprised that even with your eyes darkened in lust, you try and stand up and move away.
Natasha doesnât let you. She grabs you by the chin and by the jaw, tilting your head up and holding it there forcefully. She uses just enough pressure to keep you there but not hurt you.
Your eyes dark with lust turn dark with a silent fury. âWhen I try and stand up, you let me. I donât want to have se-â
Youâve got lipstick smudged at the corner of your lips and it fuels Natashaâs anger more. She knows how hard it is to smudge this particular brand from experience. Why were you kissing the target like that?
Why were you kissing the target like you kissed your wife?
Natasha feels her heart beat quicken.
âI heard you and Kate Bishop talking about the mission,â Natasha says her full name, just like Yelena would. While Yelena does it to be a tease, Natasha does it with betrayal. âYou like her.â She accuses. âSeriously? You forget this is work. That youâre married.â
Once you realize what this is about, Natasha can more than feelâbut see the way you shut off. âThe one forgetting this is work is you,â you growl, pushing Natashaâs hand away forcefully and crossing your legs.
She knows you well enough to know that moveâcrossing your legs is you trying to regain power. When you lean back casually then, she has a sense that youâve grown tired of this conversation.
She knows itâs an act of indifference, but it upsets her more.
âI just thought in another life. We couldâv been friends. Thatâs what I was saying,â you continue, elbow on table and head leaning against fist.
âSheâs a murderer.â
âSo are we.â At Natashaâs scowl you backtrack with a roll of her eyes. It stings somewhere deep. âIâm not talking about that Natâ you know what I mean.â
âAll I know is that youâre here defending murder because of a pathetic little crush you have.â
âI donât have a crush, Natasha, youâre being ridiculous,â you sigh, standing up.
âYou called her hot.â
âClearly, if you had listened further, you wouldâve known that I started that conversation talking about you.â
Natasha doesnât believe you, for the first time in her relationship with you. Also though sheâs sensing right now that you donât want her to believe you. Sheâs smart enough to know that much.
You must sense it in her, because you let out a small laugh under your breath and walk right by Natasha, going towards the kitchen. Natasha turns around and follows, watching silently as you fill up a glass with wine.
âWant some?â You ask casually.
âYou canât go on the next mission. Not any one with Evelyn. Make sure nick knows tomorrow youâll be dropping out,â Natasha says lowly. Even as she says it, she feels a layer of disgust. What is she doing?
The glass gets put down roughly. The first and only sign of your anger. Then, another laugh, this one disbelieving. âLast I checked, youâre not my manager, Natasha.â
âIâm not telling you as a coworker, Iâm asking as your wife,â the words leave her lips emotionlessly, and to her own ears they donât even sound like her.
Sheâs just so angry. She wants a reaction out of you now. Some sort of sign that you care.
She knows that your absence of care is an act, but when did you have to put on an act with her?
Y/N gets more angry, and itâs just what Natasha wanted and not what she wanted at all. âWeâre heroes Natasha. Youâre allowed to join the riskiest missions The Avengers has to offer, missions that take you away for months, but Iâm not allowed to kiss a girl for intel? Make it make sense. This is no different from all the other times weâve done this.â
It stings. It hurts, and in some important ways you have a point. Natasha doesnât care about your points though, not right now.
In this argument Natashaâs arguing about more than just this Eveyln. Sheâs pushing it because itâs more than that. Itâs her trying to get attention from you after so long without it, and she has a feeling that this argument is that for you too.
Her skin feels alive.
âYou like her. Thatâs whats different. So now you have a choice to make. Drop the missionââ
âOr what, Natasha? Youâll force me, or youâll divorce me?â As soon as the words leave your lips both you and Natasha freeze. Your eyes widen as if the words that had escaped, escaped without your permission. Suddenly it felt like everything had gone too far. Your eyes fill with tears, Natasha feels like sheâs in shock.
Divorce?
Natashaâs eyes water. Her stomach feels like itâs just dropped. Like the wind was pushed out of her. Your tears make her want to cry. She hadnât meant to push you, she just wanted to talk and didnât know how to ask for it any other way than this.
âYouâ you are so frustrating,â you force out, voice trembling , and then you move to leave. Straight towards the front door. Natasha moves to stand in front of you.â
âIâll see you at tomorrows mission,â You growl out. Tears are falling from your eyes, but they are hard and unrelenting.
âDonât go to thatââ
You release a choked laugh. âGod, Natasha. You donât trust me at all.â Natasha hadnât meant it like thatâŠshe just meant that neither of you should go. You should stay and talk. âOr are you that insecure?â You ask, suddenly stalking forward and getting into Natashaâs face.
It hurts, because itâs true, but also because the two of you donât do this, not unless itâs training or itâs sex, you both donât go for the throat.
âY/N,â Natasha begs.
âYou left me. You leave me all of the time. What on earth gives you the right to be scared Iâll leave you? All I do is wait patiently for the infamous Black Widow to decide Iâm worth her time,â you rush out angrily, grabbing a fistful of the t-shirt Natasha had changed into in your rage. Your hands are shaking with a fury Natasha only ever sees directed at people you hate.
âThe one that should be lacking trust is me,â you shout, voice trembling with a level of devastation Natasha almost canât believe. How much hurt has she been causing you without realizing? âAnd believe me I do,â you continue much more lowly, letting Natasha go to rub at your face. âbut I swear to god Natasha, If tomorrow Fury either tells me you left to go on another mission, or Iâm off the mission with Evelyn; weâre over.â
âY/N,â Natasha whispers.
âNo. Natasha. Just no.â Youâre sobbing. Full on sobbing. Thereâs something about the distance between you and Natasha right now that makes her realize your loneliness.
Natasha stands. She trembles.
âIâm leaving,â you rasp out, finally moving pass. Natasha doesnât even have time to offer to leave instead before youâre gone.
She moves to sit on the couch as soon as the door slams shut.
And then she cries, and cries, and cries.
â
Yelena comes at 2am. She says simply, in her accent thatâs still so much stronger than Natasha; âYour Wifâ Y/N sent me. She said you were alone and could probably use your sister.â
Yelena doesnât notice sheâs crying, or probably doesnât care because she says next; âI told her she sounded like she needed her wife, she hung up, but not after the most devastating âyeahâ I ever heard. So I assume this is your fault? And instead of going to her youâre moping?â
Yep. Confirmed doesnât care.
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As harsh as Yelena was when she first walked in, she ended up distracting Natasha with an hour or two of insisted baking. Crying around a Yelena that pretends itâs not happening is strangely comforting. Yelena stays with Natasha all night, and even puts more of the blanket over Natasha when theyâre watching a movie.
Thatâs how Natasha knows sheâs fucked. Yelena is willingly giving her more blanket.
â
Natasha hasnât had a moment to really see you. You didnât show up to the tower until it was time to leave on the ship, and when you both entered the ship you locked yourself away.
Itâs when youâre commed up waiting at the bar that Natasha finally has a moment to speak with you. âCan you hear me?â Natasha asks into her mic, making sure one last time.
She sees you take a sip from your drink and doesnât see the way your lips move. âYes.â
Itâs for a mission, but still having you respond to Natasha makes her heart both soar and hurt. She realizes sheâs being pathetic. She misses you so much. Has missed you since bringing the world back.
âY/NâŠâ You must be able to tell what sheâs going to say because you respond quickly.
âBlack widow. This server is not private. Focus on the mission or ask Agent Liam to swap positions with you.â
Natashaâs both impressed by how unsuspicious you look lecturing her, and hurt by the suggestion of a position swap. A desk agent could never keep you safe like she could.
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The mission is going well. By well, Natasha means worse. Sheâs on field this time, in person because the intel youâre trying to draw from Evelyn today is more sensitive and things could quickly go sideways quickly if Evelyn becomes suspicious.
She doesnât seem to be. Her hand is on your thigh. Your hand is playing with her ring in way that appears subconscious, but Natasha knows isnât. Natasha plays with hers too. âSoâŠâ Evelyn drawls, âwhat youâre getting at is youâre apart of an organization that wants to kill my boss and youâre trying to collect intel?â
Honesty. Itâs a risky strategy. Really risky. As soon as you had started confessing to Evelyn about your goals Natasha had felt uneasy.
âBasically,â you confirm casually, taking a long sip of wine.
âStop drinking so much,â Natasha whispers into the mic, at the same time that Evelyn takes your glass from you, setting it aside.
âWhat do I get out of that?â Evelyn muses, taking your chin in her hand.
Your breath hitches in a very real way. The mic catches up on it. You must know the mic catches it because you whisper seductively, âyou surprised me,â and Natasha knows that was for her. To stop Natasha from walking up there right now and pulling Evelyn away from you.
âYou get to know youâre helping some good fellows stop a very bad man,â you continue on. Pulling Eveyln closer by her wrist. Your lips are inches from hers when you whisper; âpretend like that doesnât matter to you, Eveyln, but we will both know it does. You are smarter than that man, more talented, wherever you go youâll survive and you know that.â
Natasha bristles. Downs a glass of whiskey and bristles some more. She says nothing though, not when Evelyn gently pushes your hair back, not when she leans forward and kisses you softly.
It hurts more when itâs soft, but the softness of your kiss with Evelyn gets rough quickly, until you pull away.
âWeâre trying to make a deal,â you breathe, breathless. Natashaâs heart quickens. She knows youâre pulling away for her. She can sense the anxiety in your words, and she wonders if Evelyn does too.
If she does she doesnât let it show, instead she pulls you back in with one hand, the other reaching into her pocket, Natasha tenses, tenses and puts her hand on her gun, until she sees Evelyn put some cash on the table.
âWeâll do it later,â Evelyn mumbles dismissively, going back to kissing you. âLetâs get out of here.â
You pause for long enough that Natasha knows youâre considering all your options. In the same instant Natasha is too.
This could be a test. Evelyn seems genuinely interested in you and if she thinks itâs all a charade about getting intel she might feel betrayed. Rightfully so. But still.
âOh donât look at me like that, Y/N, â Evelyn sighs, patting your cheek. âIâm smart enough to know when a women uses her body to get what she wants. So use it,â Evelyn urges. Natasha can see the mischievous sparkle in her eye from across the room. âUse it for one night. Iâm interested in you. I think you could be interested in me.â
This is a game to her. Natasha canât tell if sheâs being playful or sadistic.
âEvelynâ â
Natasha knows what youâre going to say. She thinks briefly about the people dying every second Evelyn doesnât share information about her boss. She thinks about her possibly knowing his location.
It hurts so deeply that none of what Natasha is feeling is important in the face of lives being loss. Having sex on a mission, thatâs something neither you or Natasha have decided to do since getting together. It was an unspoken decision because thereâs always another way of getting what you need. But whatâs the fastest way right now?
And does that matter? If The Avengers donât go about doing good in a just way, does that negate so much of the good?
Natasha grits her teeth. âI trust you, Y/N. Do what you feel you need to do.â
âAre you asking me to trade my body for your information?â You ask bluntly. Natasha hadnât been expecting that. You trust Evelyn too much. Itâs growing apparent.
Evelyn narrows her eyes, then she smirks. âIf little Jonnyâs boy kingdom falls, Iâll use the scraps of it to build a new one. It was always my hope someone with enough balls would come and destroy him,â Evelyn explains, swirling around the umbrella in her cocktail. She looks at you with consideration over the top of her glass.
Natasha sees you straighten in your seat, and wonders if thatâs apart of the act. Looking as if youâre regaining composure to pretend you lost it. Or maybe you dropped the act a long time ago.
âSo speak to me,â You urge, and though Natasha is far she can imagine in detail the way youâre looking at Evelyn now. With begging eyes and a pouting lip. All three of you know whats at stake right now.
Evelyn seems to take joy in the power she holds over you. âYouâre strong, Y/N,â her hands run down the front of your body, settling on your thigh, âand youâre smart.â
When Natasha sees the abrupt way you stand and drag Evelyn with you she grows very alarmed. âWhere are you going?â Natasha barks. âRemember to not leave the site without sending anyone your location. We can leave too, come back tomorrow, we donât need to rush thisââ
âYes we do,â Natasha hears softly in the intercom, softly enough that Evelyn canât hear. âThe ally we scoped the other day.â
Natasha gets up and follows.
â
Evelyn is pushed up against a wall when Natasha manages to get a good vantage point of the two of you again. It had taken her only two minutes. Two minutes full of moaning.
Seeing it is worse though. One of Evelynâs legs are hooked on your hip, her hand is tangled in your hair, your hand is inching up her thigh.
Natasha no longer thinks sheâs strong enough for this.
âYou want us to know youâre powerfulâ you want me to know, but I already do,â you breathe out, lips hovering over Evelyns neck. âIf you think fucking me will take the power out of me though, you have another thing coming.â You kiss her again, roughly, and Evelyn moans into it. Then you pull away completely, leaving her breathless against the wall and trying to regain her breath.
âIâm not going to fuck you, Evelyn, but you can give me power and I promise you right now, it wonât end up hurting you.â You assure gently. âWeâre only after your boss,â
Natasha lets out the breath she was holding and it comes out loudly. She hadnât realized how long she was holding her breath.
Evelyn laughs, throwing her head back, and then sends you a very soft smile. âI like you, Y/N, you play dirtyâbut I trust you,â Evelyn says, âI donât trust many people so if you betray me rest assured itâs three bullets into your head.â
The grin that gets out of you is completely not fitting for the situation.
â/
The two of you got the information and now youâre headed back to the tower. Youâve just gotten off a phone call with Fury telling him he needs to assure Evelynâs safety or no ones getting the information you gathered.
Natasha sat next to you silently. When itâs done, she asks gently, with a lot of vulnerability, âDo you like her, Y/N? PleaseâŠI donât want to fight I just feelââ
Vulnerable and insecure.
Whatâs stopping you from leaving when all Natasha has given you the past year and a half is breadcrumbs of a relationship.
The ship whirls. Youâre silent.
Natasha feels like crying all over again. Sheâs not really the emotional type, not towards anything that doesnât have to do with you. She feels her heart breaking
Then you glance over at her. Where you were all spikes and ridgidy before, itâs like you immediately go soft at the sight of Natashas emotion. Guard down, mask down, when a second ago you looked ready to fight.
âYes,â you admit softly. âBut nothing beyond a platonic feeling of kinship.â Your hand cups Natashaâs cheek from beside her, urging Natasha to stay looking at you. âI canât possibly feel anything more when Iâm fiercely in love with someone else.â
Natashaâs jaw trembles, you drop your hand and look away. The mask is going up, Natasha sees. Getting to look behind it though, reminds Natasha there is a behind it.
âCan I kiss you?â Natasha asks quietly, eyeing your still smudged lipstick and the love bites on your neck. You meet her eyes again, yours are calculating and unsure, but then slowly, you nod.
âJust for right now.â Itâs a boundary. A way for you to still feel in control of the things that are about to happen between you.
Natasha takes it and doesnât allow it to sting. She gently moves her hand into yours, urging you to come and sit on her lap. You do, quietly sitting down and straddling her.
Natasha feels her heart quicken just at this. At the pressure of you on her lap, the feel of you against her. She cups your face, the same way you had earlier, and draws you down for a kiss.
She canât remember the last time sheâs kissed you, but she can remember the bazillion of times she wanted to.
You mold against her, Natashaâs tongue brushes against your lip, and then her tongue brushes against yours, and then youâre moaning. For real this time. Not the bullshit you gave Evelyn. Natasha moans just at the sound of you.
You smell so good. Vanilla and home, and Natasha aches for it all so desperately. Her hand brushes against your stomach where your shirt had ridden up, causing you to shiver.
Natashaâs hands are cold, she knows that, but she also knows thatâs not why you shivered. She smiles, heartbeat picking up. Her mouth moves down from your lips to your neck. Natasha canât help but suck roughly on all the spots Evelyn had, and then on the spot she knows is most sensitive for you.
Youâre grinding into her now, trying to relieve some kind of pressure, and Natasha feels this sudden urge to either cry or pray. She missed this. Missed you. The privilege she feels with you vulnerable on top of her is unmatched.
She grips your thighs. You tangle your hand in the red of her hair and tug gently. Natasha moans, this time against your neck, and then into your mouth again. âBaby,â you breathe shakily, and Natasha groans.
âGods, Iâve missed you,â Natasha husks out. Then as soon as it had started its over. You slide back into your seat effortlessly, chest still heaving up and down, and Natasha blinks, at a loss.
She turns towards you and watches silently as you adjust your shirt back down. She watches as you wipe your mouth on the back of your hand, as you try and fix your hair. âY/N.â
âWeâre back at the tower,â you say quietly, but you arenât looking at her and Natasha doubts thatâs what had you scrawling away from her so fast.
She says nothing.
ââ
When itâs time for the both of you to head home, you call another uber. When Natasha enters the home she shares with her wife, you arenât there.
She sits in it for approximately two hours before she calls you.
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The person you are dialing is currently not availableâŠ
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âY/N, itâs Natasha. Well, obviously itâs NatashaâŠjust call me backâŠwhen you can.â
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Leave a message after the beepâŠ
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âItâs me again. I know itâs lateâŠor early I guessâŠ.Iânever mindâŠjust text me.
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Beep
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âWill you text, please.â
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Not available
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âCome home.â
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After the
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âIâm sorry.
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BEEP
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Natasha wakes up to the sound of her alarm blaring.
She had nightmares all night of Evelyn fucking you.
âââ-
She listens to the auto recordings over and over again. All of it, from both of the two days. She hears the way you laugh at Evelyn, how you tease her, and what she feels isnât jealousy over Evelynâinstead she feels so incredibly deeply that she misses you.
She misses you.
âââ-
That night, Natasha gets a call from Fury that youâve been kidnapped.
Natasha wastes no timeâ none at all. She hops on her bike and heads straight towards Evelynâs home.
Fury had an agentâbefore you or Natasha were even on this missionâtrace Eveyln all day. The address sheâs headed to now is what was estimated to be Evelynâs apartment. It doesnât sound confident, or sure, but Natasha has not much else to go on, so when she asks where Evelyn lives and gets a response, she just runs with it.
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She doesnât wait even a second knocking, just barges in violently. Natasha knows this isnât âprotocolâ. She also doesnât care. Canât, when her body feels like itâs gone entirely numb and yet her heart still beats like itâs going to beat out of her chest.
(She texts Yelena though, on the way to Evelynâs. A simple; âY/N is missing. Kidnapped. Hereâs where Iâm atâ, and completely forgets about everything else not having to do with you.)
Her eyes scan the apartment, but itâs not her eyes that catch Evelyn, itâs her ears.
She hears movement from a room somewhere else in the home and immediately strides over, gun pointed. Her head and mind are completely empty. All that feels real is this feeling inside of her.
Sheâs mad, and absolutely terrified. A bone deep type of fear. Sheâs panicking, but she doesnât look like it. Sheâs not thinking. Just acting instinctively.
When she barges into the door, sees Evelyn, and points a gun at her head she knows that couldnât be more apparent.
Evelyn might have nothing to do with this. Threatening her after she agreed to help could put their whole operation at risk. Yet, thankfully, Natasha gets the feeling that that isnât the case.
Evelyn looks at her like a part of her had been expecting her. Her bedroom looks ransacked, and thereâs a duffle bag in front of her full of a bunch of things.
Sheâs trying to pack her things and run.
Well, sheâs too late.
âWell hello, Black Widow, funny to see you here.â
Natasha breathes heavily, tries to get a hold of herself so she doesnât shoot Evelyn right here right now. Her hands shake. How could Evelyn hurt you when all you have done is help and trust her?
Natasha puts the safety on her gun and shoves it into her hoister. It causes Evelyn to relax but thats a mistake because as soon as she does, Natasha shoves her violently into the wall.
âWhereâs Y/N.â Natasha asks roughly, her voice bristling with resentment.
Evelynâs smiles at her through her wince, but Natasha can see the guilt in her eyes. Can hear it when Evelyn speaks. âI donât know.â
âYou donât know?â Natasha repeats, her grip on her collar going tighter. Sheâs breathing heavily, and Evelyn looks down, not even bothering to fight Natasha off.
She must know it wonât end well, and trying might land her in a worse position. Itâs a survival instinct Natasha appreciates, until Evelyn opens her mouth next; âWell,â Evelyn continues quietly, âsheâs probably dead.â
Natashaâs ears ring. Dead?
She mustâve said it out loud because Evelyn nods, looking like she wants to apologize. âJonny had been following me. When he saw me with Y/N at the bar, he wasnât suspicious. Her name isnât nearly as out there as yours,â Evelyn tilts her head, âitâs only yesterday that even I found out that sheâs a spy for the Avengers. Which I guess for a spy, that makes sense.â
Natasha shakes. âDid you tell him?â She asks, sure that she wonât have the strength to not kill Evelyn if she did. Natasha doesnât care about Evelyn, but the fact that you hadâ it makes her feel the betrayal for you.
âNo,â Evelyn scoffs. âWhy in the world would I do that? His spy saw you. I told him I was just going on dates, but the fact that the only time you were around was when she was around was enough for Jonny to decide she was suspicious and needed to be gone.â
Natasha didnât think she had it in her heart for it to drop even further. âThen why are you here?â She asks, as if that was the crack in Evelynâs story to make Natasha sure it wasnât true.
âHe thought I was being hoaxed and I didnât know you were there, or that she was an Avenger,â Evelyn explains. âWhich is true. If I had known I wouldâve told her how stupid it is to have you there. Anyone watching knows who you are.â
Natasha just hadnât thought Evelyn was important or not trusted enough to be watched. She just hadnât thought.
To link Natasha to youâŠthatâs also a stretch she hadnât predicted heâd make.
It feels immensely like itâs her fault. Like all of this is her fault. She wonders why they hadnât gone for her instead, but already knows why. People underestimate who they donât know. Natasha is known to not be underestimated. She was probably deemed too challenging to get to. They clearly have no idea who her wife is.
A loud sound of breaking glass comes from the window, catching both her and Evelyn off guard. Evelyn tenses up, looking at Natasha with wide eyes. Natasha immediately flips her around so her back is against Natashaâs front, one of Natashaâs arms go around her neck, the other points a gun at the door.
Tap, tap tap
The safety goes off.
Yelena opens the door.
Her hands are raised like she expected Natasha to be pointing a gun at her, she leans casually against the door. A small smirk on her lips. âFound your wife.â
âWife?â Evelyn gawks.
Natasha, for the first time since that moment with you on the ship, allows herself to feel hope.
ââ
Yelena crushes it very quickly. She says she doesnât know if youâre alive, but she knows where you were taken.
Apparently youâve been staying at Yelenaâs every time you arenât home. Yelena says her home looked like a tornado hit it. That fighting mustâve happened. That there was massive amounts of blood dragged across her apartment.
She also says that she noticed that the only thing missing was luckyâs spare collar. That she knows you know that thereâs a tracker in that collar. So she tracked it. It shows to be popping up in some abandoned storage unit.
Very original.
Natasha and Yelena head there now. Evelyn wanted to comeâasked to come, but Natasha had denied her.
Natasha doesnât trust her. Apart of that comes from her Jealousy. Comes from the way Evelyn had repeated, looking at Natasha a little differently; wife?, another part comes from the simple fact that coming with Natasha would endanger Evelyn greatly. A traitor has a target on their back greater than an enemy.
When the two arrive on site Kate Bishop is already there. Kate, Spiderman, and Bucky. Itâs an odd Assembly of people but Natasha will take it.
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It doesnât end well for Jonny. Less force would have come to end his operation if he hadnât taken you. If he hadnât made it so personal.
He had though, and because of it he jeopardized everything. Even giving up the location of his headquarters.
âŠBucky had found you first. Natasha finds Jonny.
She kills him. Itâs the simplest thing in the world for her to do, and she hears your voice in her head as she does it, remembering the way you responded when she called Evelyn a murderer. So are we. You said.
Natasha will take murderer any day over Widow.
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When she sees you youâre asleep, covered in blankets that are stained with your fresh blood. You smell like flowers, freshly washed clothes, and blood, and Natasha aches. Aches with it. With her failure to protect you.
Sheâs so busy trying to save the world she forgets about her wife. Her wife that suffers for her, aches for her just as Natasha does you. Her wife thatâs lonely and worried, and sad more than she ever ought to be.
Clint sacrificed himself for Natasha, yet still sheâs dying, and why must it have to work like that? The life that he wanted her to live, why does she insist on ruining it?
When Natasha steps close, itâs with not a small amount of reverence. And itâs with not a small amount of humility and guilt that she brushes her knuckles against your cheek. She doesnât expect your eyes to open, not one bit, the others already warned her you loss a lot of blood, and yet your eyes do. Theyâre blurred, foggy, and Natasha doubts you can see her clearly, but theyâre open. Theyâre open, and you smile.
Small, barely perceivable. âWeâŠdid itâŠdidnât we NatâŠtheyâre safe?â You ask, voice hoarse and delirious.
Natasha feels tears come to her eyes but attempts to blink them down. She distracts herself by pushing your hard blood soaked hair out of your face but it doesnât work all too well. Youâve never been so injured on a mission. Natasha wants to throw up. âMy beautiful, beautiful girl,â Natasha whispers, trying to suppress the crack in her voice but clearly failing, âwe did it.â
You let out a huff Natasha assumes is a laugh and then your eyes fall shut again. As soon as yours do Natasha shakes, shouts for Kateâwho was the one assigned to take them to the hospital and who has been quietly speeding and clearly trying to act deafâto go even faster.
Kate jumps and does.
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When the three of you arrive at the hospital and youâre taken away Natasha and Kate get a call from the others; telling them the whole base has been either killed, taken hostage for information, or in the process of getting arrested. The rest of the SHIELDS agents are abstracting the rest of the evidence. But the six of them are officially done.
Bucky makes an innocent comment on the phone, says that if you survive then they can all go ahead and consider the mission a success, and Kate has to bravely stop Natasha from threatening his life.
And what irony it isâto be stuck with Kate Bishop. Hawkeyes prodigy. Your best friend. After Natashas outburst they sit quietly, and then, never one to let intimidation stop her from rambling, Kate speaks up.
Natasha understood partially before why Hawkeye and Yelena liked this girl, but now itâs beginning to escape her.
âShe was talking about youâŠyâknow. That day on the phone. When she was talking about someone being hot. She was telling me about how she missed you and how she hates that youâre still so hot,â Kate pauses, frowns at herself, âher words not mine. You know I prefer the otherââ
âStop talking, bishop.â
âRight. Yep. I will.â
Silence. Kates face is beat red. Her head tucked into her scarf. Sheâs muttering something under her breath, something about Natasha being even scarier than her sister. Someone is sobbing just behind them. Sobs that echo throughout the emergency room. Natasha feels so emotional, like she wants to scream, cry, shoot someoneâshoot everyoneâbut her body is still. Even as her head and heart scream at her.
Kate peaks at her. Sighs. Then seems to muster up enough courage to speak again. âYou donât owe Clint anything, you donât owe the world anything, and you donât owe his family anything either. But you owe your wife a whole lot.â She peaks at her again, continues, âClint saved you because he loved you, not because he wanted to be a hero, not because he thought you were a better Avenger, or could save more lives than he could, or anything. You werenât Black Widow to him. You werenât his coworker. You were his friend, Natasha and he wanted you to live. Really live. Not whatever youâre doing now.â
Natasha knows that. She knows it. Hearing it come from Kate Bishop means something though. Means something in a way that only Kate saying it to her could. Kate Bishop who is trying so hard now to fill Hawkeyes shoes. Trying so hard to be worthy of carrying on his legacy. Kate who has become a hero of her own choice, her own selflessness, and gains nothing for it. Kate who Clint loved like a daughter.
This kidâwell, not a kid anymore, Natasha supposes, was the right choice. Natashas about to thank her and apologize before Kates speaks up again.
Rambling. âAnyways, just thought I should say that. I know it wasnât my place or anything but I know what itâs like I guess to feel like you have to fill Clints shoes and then someâor somethingâ and Y/N and I are closeâobviously not as close as you are to her, and I know itâs not my relationship so maybe I shouldnât have said anything, but maybe I guess I feel like I owe it to them. But maybe thatâs a little presumptuousââ
âWoah there Kate Bishop! Breathe youâre gonna give yourself a heart attack!â
Itâs Yelena. Natashaâs been saved.
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The doctors let Natasha see you.
You look worse, somehow, than you did in the van on the way here. But Natasha knows that youâre stable now in a way you hadnât been before.
When you see Nat you look away, out the window, saying nothing, and she pulls up a chair to sit right next to you.
âIâm sorryâ Natasha says. Head buried in her hands. âIâm so sorry. For the jealousy and accusations, and for everything I said, but more than that. Iâm sorry I never came back from that cliff side. Iâm sorry I was there but I wasnât there, Iâm sorry I abandoned you,â sheâs sobbing now, as you look over her on a hospital bed with wide eyes, but Natasha doesnât let it stop her.
Sheâs so sorry. The guilt eats away at her, and she needs you to knowâto believe it. âIâm sorry for not seeing it before. Iâm sorry I wasnât even around enough for us to have a proper conversation about it. Iâm sorry Iâve been risking our life together for a year and a half now because of this guilt. This guilt that has never been more important than you,â Natasha sobs, shaking with emotion sheâs just now letting herself come loose after the day she had, after the year, after seeing you pale and bloodied in that van, after her conversation with Kate. âIâm sorry Iâve been so selfish. I left you alone. I risked everything, Iâm sorry. Iâm sorry Iâm doing this now, as youâre lying in a hospital bed because of the consequences of my actions.â Natasha reaches for your hand and holds it gently, pressing it against her temple. âIâve been lonely, too. Scared. Iâve missed you desperately. All of the time. Alwaysâ this past year and a halfâeven as I pushed you away. I survived and I made you feel the consequence of it, and Iâm sorry.â
You smile at Natasha, your wife, so gently, with so much grief and love, running a bandaged hand through her hair. âI forgive you,â you say, and Natasha stands from her chair and enters the arms of her wife.
âIâm sorry too,â you whisper, tears coming to your eyes as you rub Natashaâs back, and Natasha, despite the circumstances, despite that fact that sheâs apologized and you have forgiven her but the works not done yet, despite the fact that youâre in a hospital bed, despite the fact that Clintâs gone and he sacrificed himself for herâŠdespite it all.
She feels so relieved. So much like sheâs going to be okay. So much like she belongs. In her wifeâs arms, finally letting her in after a year and a half, she feels so happy. She hasnât even earned it yet, after everything sheâs done, and yet you love and forgive her anyways.
âI know youâve been suffering baby, Iâve seen it. Iâm so sorry about what happened to Clint. Iâm sorry you feel responsible. Iâm sorry youâve convinced yourself you have to do and be all these things to be worth his sacrifice, itâs not true. Iâm sorry I havenât told you all these things before. Iâm sorry I let things get so ugly. That I didnât realize and push to have this conversation much earlier. Iâm sorry I let you get so far away from me, so aloneâ
Natasha kisses you. Softly, just to shut you up. âDonât apologize. Please. Itâs not your fault.â
You smile, and repeat to her, softly, âItâs not your fault,â and Natasha hides her face in your neck. Soaks you in. Her love, her life, her wife.