#narssisist

At my worst I weighed 425lbs now I weigh 350lbs. It still hurts to move, my knees will never recover, and I still look like an animated sack of lard. I'm going to spend the rest of my 20s trying to recover from the cards I was dealt in my teens. But for the first time in my life, I want to wake up tomorrow

Enchanting Eyes 👀 This @narsissist mini Wanted eyeshadow palette is super gorgeous, the pigments are beautiful, even the matte one isn’t flat it still has some dimension to it. The metallics and glitters are absolutely AMAZING! They glide on, I often use fingers instead of brushes for speed and last all day too #eyeshadows #nars #narscosmetics #narssisist #narswantedeyeshadowpalette #narsminiwanted #eyeshadowpalette #makeup #eyemakeup #eyes #accentuateyoureyes #glitter #shimmer #matte #shadow #shadowpalette (at Witney, Oxfordshire) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoJxXBkoiY5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Enchanting Eyes 👀 This @narsissist mini Wanted eyeshadow palette is super gorgeous, the pigments are beautiful, even the matte one isn’t flat it still has some dimension to it. The metallics and glitters are absolutely AMAZING! They glide on, I often use fingers instead of brushes for speed and last all day too #eyeshadows #nars #narscosmetics #narssisist #narswantedeyeshadowpalette #narsminiwanted #eyeshadowpalette #makeup #eyemakeup #eyes #accentuateyoureyes #glitter #shimmer #matte #shadow #shadowpalette (at Witney, Oxfordshire) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoJxD_ootJ0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Is it because Indonesia is a develop country that admiring west countries and their's cultures? Have an insecurity and hoping someday they would be like them too, and mentioned by outsiders is a special treatment for us.

(A line from my notes - The psyche of a Narcissist.)