#narcassist

It sucks when you knew; you knew they were selfish. You knew they were unreliable. You knew they were dismissive of your feelings in favor of their own and you knew they weren't loyal and you knew they would do it again and you knew they were manipulative and you knew they'd always side against you and you knew they'd talk behind your back and you knew they were narcissistic and self obsessed.

And yet there you stood, handing them your heart like a damn idiot because relationships aren't free, you have to pay to play and you paid with all of you because YOU CARED.

Even if they didn't care about you, you cared about them and you hoped that would be enough. God and everyone else told you it wouldn't be... and they were right.

They were right and so were you.

But it's harder to stay.

He keeps showing me who he is,

But I turn the other way.

I still have hope,

But he's not going to change.

Starting over is scary

Mia Goth

npd is a disorder. not something you can apply to every person you dont like or who is hurtful.

if you were to live with a condition that people only associate specific stigmatized negative traits to and only thought of those traits when they heard about your condition and hated you for it, you'd be upset and hurt by the misinformation and misunderstanding too. especially if it prevented you from getting the help and support you needed. thats what happens to us, to many people with all kinds of conditions.

people associate those things with us and immediately apply our term to anyone with those traits and deem them unworthy of help, making it harder for us to be deemed worthy of the help we need.

use different descriptors, theres tonnes of them.