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Tuesday 15th June 2021

(Part One & Part Two)

Hello again everyone, as promised I'm back with another post - 3 blog posts from me this week, that's more than I did last week!! But anyway I'm going to review everything from Tuesday's episodes in this post.  

So without further ado, I'm going to begin with mentioning Ruby. The day after her second miscarriage, Martin is surprised to learn that once again she has every intention of going to work and forgetting about the events that have occurred. Martin tries his best to convince his wife to rest for the rest of the day but as Ruby tries to explain her reasons for wanting to go to work, she notices the screen on Martin's laptop, it shows that he's been looking up options for IVF.

Understandably, Martin is trying to help in any way he can to make sure he and his wife have they family they've been longing for. However Ruby makes the valid point that it's not the getting pregnant that's the problem, it's being able to stay pregnant. Martin tries to explain that if they really want to have a family they can consider other options available, but Ruby then drops the bombshell that after everything she's gone through she really can't bring herself to go through any more trauma and loss. She informs Martin that instead of trying to fight to have a family, she's going to embrace the family she already has.

However, later Ruby is seen alone, visiting the memorial that she and Martin created for their lost baby, she gently adds another stone to commemorate the second baby she has lost. As the camera spins we see that just across the patch of grass, Jean is sat on her own but as she turns around and notices Ruby, she joins her. Jean realises exactly what's happening and speaks softly to her. Informing Jean about the decision to not try for another baby and to accept the family she has, Jean makes a very touching statement - "You know what I see? I don't see a woman who's given up, I see a woman who's grieving, and I believe there's still a lot of fight in you!" - as beautiful as those words are, it completely hits Ruby to the core and she softly begins to cry, such a moving moment.

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The next thing I'm going to mention is Tiffany and Keegan. It's the day of their photoshoot and Tiffany is completely excited about the press and media attention. Wanting to get her name out there also, she informs Keegan that she's come up with a name for their joint business - Something along the lines of "ButcherBakerBeauty-Baps?" ... (I'm sure they'll come up with a better name eventually!) Suddenly when Tiffany sees herself in the mirror she's horrified to see that the day of their photoshoot she been graced with a spot on her chin, frantically she begins to flap, claiming that she needs to look good for their photoshoot - I have to be honest the main thought that was entering my mind at this point was "The photoshoot isn't even meant to be hers so why is she making such a fuss?" - without meaning to be mean, but I don't know I guess it just didn't sit right with me, she shouldn't be focusing on her and should be supporting her husband instead.

As Tiffany calls her friend in desperate need of some assistance, it seems that her friend manages to get someone round to do Tiffany's make-up. However when Tiffany compliments the stylist's skin, the lady informs her that she does cheat by using injections such as Botox and fillers. Realising that injecting herself with something could change her appearance to the way she wants, Tiffany urges the beautician to use the injections on her for her photoshoot - even though the beautician warns her it can be very pricey! Again, I have to be honest - as soon as I realised that Tiffany was going to ask for injections my mind just went racing - how much do you want to bet that Tiffany is going to become addicted to beauty injections?! It could be a possible new storyline for her which could end with serious consequences?

Even though she is thrilled with the end results, Tiffany is shocked to see the price she has to pay for the treatment and asks whether she can pay half now and pay the rest within in the next couple of days. Later as Keegan and Tiffany are enjoying the photoshoot - the photographer is keen on focusing on Keegan and asking him questions about his business. But when Keegan tries to turn their attention to Tiffany so she can promote her business/brand - you can see that the photographer is the least bit interested.

The next day, as everyone is gushing about the article in the newspaper about Keegan, Tiffany buys herself a newspaper hoping to see a whole page spread of herself and her husband in the newspaper. But she is visibly devastated when she realises that she hasn't even been mentioned and the whole article is about Keegan and his business. She later voices her annoyance and devastation to her friend Chloe, claiming that she has spent a fortune on injections for nothing! But worse still, how is her husband going to react when he finds out she's spending money on things she doesn't need!

Chloe then suggests that in a way to make as much money as she can so Keegan won't suspect anything is for her to flog diet pills. She claims she doesn't know how they work and has never used them but manages to sell them and get decent enough money for doing so. For a split moment I had hoped that Tiffany would know better than to sell some dodgy diet pills, but it looks as though she is very tempted. Later when she meets up with Bernie, she confides in her friend about the money she has spent on fillers to make herself look good for the photoshoot.

Of course Bernie is sympathetic towards her friends, but then suddenly Tiffany starts rummaging in her bag for something and empties out the contents of her bag, quickly Bernie notices the tubs of diet pills she's in possession of and asks where she got them from and whether they work, it's then that Bernie drops the bombshell that she needs to lose weight quickly, and Tiffany is a bit surprised by her choice of words, asking why "Quickly". It's then that finally Bernie feel able to tell someone about her plans and informs Tiffany that she's agreed to be Rainie and Stuart's surrogate, much to her best friend's shock. Tiffany warns Bernie to be careful where Rainie and Stuart are concerned because when she offered to be their surrogate she recalled that they didn't leave her alone. But Bernie is adamant that she needs the money for her family and claims that her Mum believes that she'll be getting a bonus from the call centre. Eventually she practically begs Tiff to allow her to use the diet pills, she claims she can be her guinea pig in a way and will pay her once she's made her money from the surrogacy. Tiffany looks really reluctant to do so but makes Bernie promise that she'll read the instructions before taking them.

Honestly, I fear this is going to be a massive downward spiral for the both of them. Tiffany getting hooked on beauty injections and then Bernadette getting addicted to diet pills and both making themselves ill. What do you guys think?! I'm really intrigued to hear your thoughts on this one!

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Elsewhere on the Square, Shirley is still reeling about the news of Linda's pregnancy, she still can't understand why she wasn't told much earlier on when she arrived back in Walford. She admits to Nancy and Frankie that she feels as though her family are shutting her out. I have to say though I loved the banter between the three of them in this scene. Nancy tries to swerve the conversation from her parents sex life to Shirley's own love life and happens to point out that she hasn't been with anyone since Buster!!!

Oh my goodness, do you guys remember Buster??? It was proven that he was in fact Mick's biological Dad, which makes him Nancy and Frankie's Grandad. Hearing that Frankie has a Grandad seemed to excite the girl, but she and Nancy still continue to make fun of Shirley - claiming that for her next birthday they're going to buy her a pair of slippers and a throw as they claim it's time for her to hang up her knee-high leather boots. I do love the jip that Shirley snaps back at them, it makes the whole scene much more comical and the dynamic between them all is just brilliant!

It's then they Frankie points to Terry sat on his own and urges Shirley to ask him for a drink, at first Shirley shows no interest but after being goaded by her Granddaughters, she eventually gets the courage to approach Terry and (in not so many words) informs him that he will be buying her a drink. The one thing that completely confused me though was that Terry called himself by the name "Rocky" as he introduced himself to Shirley, can anyone explain to me why? His name is Terry right? I don't understand where the "Rocky" came from? - Unless it's similar to Callum's name - Callum "Halfway" Highway?!

Meanwhile, as Terry agrees to have a quick drink with Shirley, Sonia is at home prepping a lovely roast dinner meal for herself and her Dad to celebrate and early Father's Day. But back in the pub, as Shirley and Terry begin to chat and get to know each other, Nancy and Frankie keep showering them with drinks. As the sisters notice that they appear to be getting on, Nancy places down another drink in front of them claiming it's on the house, while Frankie sneakily changes the time on the clock.

Terry is adamant he can only stay until 1pm as he has a lunch date with Sonia, but as he looks at clock to see he still has plenty of time, he continues to drink. Unfortunately though, both Frankie and Nancy reveal to each other that instead of giving them single vodka drinks, they've been serving them triple vodka's all shift. Eventually as things get a bit loud, Nancy and Frankie realise their mistake. Shirley and Terry are both drunkenly singing along to "Come On, Eileen!" and then eventually "I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)".

I have to admit, even though it was hilarious watching drunk Shirley singing along to the music and having a laugh with Terry, you do feel sorry for Sonia as you realise that Terry has accidentally stood her up for her meal. Arriving at the Vic and seeing the drunken state her Dad is in, she demands Terry to leave Walford and to never come back. Over the next day or so, Terry is desperate to make it up to his daughter and he appears to think that the only way he can do it is to roll out the red carpet in her house for her and make her a meal of her own and instead of calling it "Father's Day" makes it a "Daughter's Day".

As Sonia agrees to give him one final chance, they make it up by taking a selfie together. But when Terry leaves his phone on the table and Sonia takes a look at the picture, she begins to scroll through his phone and sees that there are other photos of houses on his phone. What could these mean? Is he planning on moving to Albert Square for good? OR is he in some kind of business where some of the local properties are going to be knocked down? Who knows?!

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The next thing I have to mention is Kat and Phil. Kat is completely excited to learn that things are on the move where her business with Phil is concerned. Phil has confirmed that he has bought the laundrette for their business opportunity and they're just waiting for the paperwork to go through. Only her happiness doesn't seem to last for long as when she enters the café and is confronted by Sharon, it seems that Sharon warns her that anything that Phil is involved in is never legit. Although Sharon's relationship with Phil was completely different compared to Kat's relationship with him, it seems that Sharon's words fill Kat's head with doubt. Eventually she takes it upon herself to confront Phil, claiming she wants to see the paperwork to make sure everything they're doing is legit. She claims that she has already been prison once and doesn't want to end up there again, she needs to be completely certain that going into business with Phil is the right thing to do. I think people are too easy to judge Phil, they should give him a break, he informs Kat that he shouldn't listen to a word that Sharon's said and to trust him, he wants to focus on their future and having something in place for both of their children, but more importantly if she is wanting this as much as he does, then she needs to learn to trust him. I still think that if all goes well for these two, Kat and Phil could potentially be the new power couple on the Square! What do you think?!

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Lastly, Callum is still appearing to struggle with the trauma of what happened with his partner. The one person he's been able to confide in is Whitney. After anxiously waiting to hear news about his partner's condition, he was completely relieved when Ash informs him that Fitzy's operation was a success and he should make a full recovery.

As he excitedly informs Whitney about the good news, Whitney reminds him that he should tell Ben now, considering that Fitzy is going to be okay. Callum kind of shuts that comment down and asks Whitney whether she'll accompany him to the hospital to see his partner. However, without their knowledge, Ben sees them from across the Square getting into a cab together, I have to say Ben & Callum's married life hasn't really started off well has it? They've come back from their honeymoon, Phil is still reluctant to talk to either Callum or Ben as he stills holds a grudge against Callum for going behind his back, and Callum has had to deal with the trauma of witnessing his partner being stabbed on the job.

But even though Callum maybe wants to tell Ben about his, Ben did at the start find it hard to accept Callum in the police and had the cheek to ask him to quit, but realising that he loves Callum for who he is and not is job, changes his mind and just requests that Callum never speaks about work to him. So of course, with that in mind, Callum must feel that he has no one else to talk to about recent events, which is why he has leaned on Whitney over the past couple of days. But when Ben sees them getting into that car together, you can tell he's beginning to speculate what they could be up to.

Unfortunately, after returning from seeing Fitzy in the hospital, it looks like it hasn't really helped Callum cope with it, he begins to fret and lash out claiming it was his fault that he's in hospital with wires all attached to him. Almost hurting himself on the garden gate, Whitney acknowledges that she has seen Callum this way before, and it's all down to his PTSD - (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) - we know that he went through it when he was in the army, but now it appears to be resurfacing. The one thing that crossed my mind was, is Ben aware about Callum's PTSD? Has that always been a thing that Ben has known about, I'm a bit unsure?

However, it seems that Whitney is eager for Callum to inform his husband now more so than ever that what's been happening. But when Callum arrives home and Ben asks him how his day at work was, Callum lies to him once again claiming he's had a really busy day and just wants to have a shower alone. Now Ben knows that Callum is lying about being in work, so obviously he's going to be wondering what else he's lying about or not telling him. As Callum makes his way into the shower, Ben grabs his opportunity to search his rucksack and it seems he's completely stunned to find an engagement ring - of course he's going to be completely clueless and wondering why his husband has an engagement ring, but we know that before Fitzy was rushed to hospital, Fitzy gave it to Callum to give to his girlfriend.

Tuesday 4th May 2021

Hello again everyone and good morning! I'm up bright and early today to make sure I get this post up! So in the previous post I recalled everything I had caught up on, and Monday's episode ended on a bit of a cliff-hanger. Now Callum has revealed everything to Ben, are they going to be able to move on from this?! I'm really looking forward to finding out, so without further ado, lets focus on the episode!

The first thing I'm going to mention of course is Ben & Callum! Ben appears to be seething after learning the truth about Callum's betrayal to his family. Even though we all know that Callum was blackmailed into going behind the Mitchell's back, he tries his absolute best to explain himself to Ben. But the one thing that Ben wants to know is who was behind it, as he slams the dining room table in anger he demands Callum tells him truth. Realising he's going to have to come clean, Callum admits that it was Thompson who was behind everything. Ben begins to panic, asking him what he actually knows or what he's been told. But Callum swears that Thompson knows nothing and he hasn't told them anything.

As things escalate, Callum tries to persuade Ben that if they still love each other they can both get through anything together, but for Ben there seems to be no way back from this. He can't seem to fathom that he's been sharing his bed with someone who has betrayed his family and basically become a grass. Later on, as Ben takes some time to breathe and digest what he's just learnt, he take a visit to his Mum's. Kathy can see that Ben isn't looking in the best of moods considering he's due to be married soon. As Ben makes a slight comment stating that she shouldn't have bothered collecting the wedding rings, Kathy sits beside her son and demands an explanation. Ben doesn't really tell her very much, only that Callum has lied to him about something, but Kathy finds that hard to believe and questions whether her own son is has played a guilty part in any way. She actually gives her son some good advice - Callum is the best thing that's ever happened to him, if he loves him he needs to sort things out before their wedding!

As Ben listens to his Mum, he returns to the Mitchell household where Callum is anxiously waiting for him. But this time, there is no raised voices and no arguing, Ben is more quiet this time. In my opinion, it looks as if Ben blames himself for the way Callum has become. He recalls that when they first met, Callum was sweet and honest and terrible liar, but since he's been with him, Ben seems to think that he's somehow turned his fiancé into something he's not. Callum shakes his head, not believing a word that's coming out of Ben's mouth. Ben still voices his concern of not being good enough for Callum, claiming that at some point in the future he will hurt Callum, possibly more than once - not that he'll ever mean to but at some point, Callum will end up hurt. Callum refuses to listen to his partner and asks him straight out whether he loves him or not. Even though Ben admits that he does love Callum, he announces that regardless of that - there isn't going to be a wedding! Could this really be the end of Ballum? Will Ben be able to forgive his partner and actually end up marrying the one person he truly loves?!

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The next thing I have to mention is Isaac, we saw that he flushed his medication down the drain - are things slowly taking a turn for Isaac now he's off his medication? Whilst he's sat in the Cafe, he seems to be staring at the missing poster of Bailey - but suddenly he begins to rip down every poster he finds as he realises that they've missed a digit on the phone number. Everyone seems shocked by this action, especially Lola. Even though Isaac explains why he's ripped down the posters, it looks as if Lola questions whether ripping them down was the best idea? He could've simply taken them down without ripping them or just simply penned in the missing digit?

As Keegan and Bernie continue searching the streets for Bailey, Keegan is saddened to see one of their posters ripped. Bernie tries to console Keegan by explaining that it could've been immature kids. But as they go off on their separate ways, Keegan witnesses Isaac ripping down more posters. As anger boils up inside him he rushes after him and confronts him about why he's ripping down their posters. Once again Isaac notifies him that he was doing them a favour because they missed a digit. As Keegan checks over the poster he realises his mistake, his anger evaporates and turns into worry, speculating that people might've been trying to call trying to notify them that Bailey had been seen or even found. As Keegan apologises for his outburst, Isaac is completely understanding saying that he would've reacted exactly the same way.

However as the day goes on, Lola decides to pay her boyfriend a visit, only as she walks in she can see that he's looked like he's not slept and is completely obsessed over finding Bailey. Could these small signs be the sign of a breakdown for Isaac? Lola pleads that her boyfriends gets some rest otherwise his meds won't work. However as soon as she mentions his medication, Isaac goes cold and she can see that he's hiding something from her. He realises that he can't keep this secret from her and informs her that he's stop taking his medication, but he's feeling fine! Lola seems shocked to hear this news and questions whether it's the right thing to do, to make sure that Isaac will be okay without his medication, she makes him promise to inform his doctor about coming off his meds. But even though Isaac promises, I've got the feeling that he has no intention about informing his doctor or even his parents that he's flushed his medication.

Meanwhile as the Taylor's are still fretting about Bailey, Jack decides to inform them that another way of getting the word out there about Bailey's disappearance would be to do a TV appeal. Even though Karen agrees to do it, Mitch doesn't feel that it'll make much difference and hides himself away whilst Karen tries to come up with a speech. Will Bailey be found safe and well?!

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Now the last thing I have to mention of course is the Carter's. As Nancy prepares to open up the gym with Sharon and Zack, Frankie pays her visit trying to inform her half-sister that she completely understands Linda's worry, but also acknowledges that she's on Nancy's side. At the end of the day it's her body and she can do what she wants, she just wants to be the supportive sister. This act of kindness seems to really touch Nancy, she thanks her half-sister and invites her to take part in a trial run of the electric bike. This is the moment where I think Nancy realises that she'll always have a sister there to support her - which I found really sweet!

Only, without Nancy's knowledge, her Mum has gone behind her back and gone to the clinic and cancelled her appointment. Linda of course only thinks she's doing right by her daughter, but she needs to understand that it's not her body, she can't control Nancy's life. Only as Linda tries to explain herself to the doctor, she becomes a little light-headed and has to take a rest. As the doctor offers to check her over to make sure she's okay, Linda seems to realise what is actually happening to her - she seems to think she might be pregnant!

Returning back to the gym whilst Nancy and Frankie enjoy some sisterly bonding, Nancy receives a call and it looks as if it's not the best news. As everyone comes together back at the Vic, Nancy is raging with anger and explaining the phone call she has had to her Dad, she's learnt that her Mum has actually gone behind her back and cancelled her appointment. As Linda enters she tries to explain that she was only thinking of her daughter, but Nancy is furious, shouting at her Mum that she's the one who actually shouldn't be allowed kids! As Nancy walks out leaving Linda and Mick alone - Mick is also shocked to hear what his wife has done and claims that if it's something that Nancy really wants, hopefully she'll be able to rebook her operation.

Linda admits that all her life all she's tried to do was be the best Mum and support her children, but then she states "Maybe I'll get it right next time!" - Mick looks a bit confused and asks what she means by "Next time". But the pin suddenly drops and Mick realises that Linda is informing him that she's pregnant with her fifth child. Mick is completely over the moon, the look on his face is pure joy as he states that this is what the family has needed for a long time, a fresh start and a new little one in the family is just what they need, he joyously even thinks that Ollie would love having a little friend around, but then Linda drops the bombshell that she's actually in fact 5 months pregnant - if the dates add up correctly, it might mean that Mick isn't the father of the baby, and she could actually be pregnant with Max's child!

Monday 3rd May 2021

I'M BACK!!!!!!!! Hello again folks! I know it's been a super hot minute since I last posted! I've been working all the hours under the sun, but I'm back! I've actually binged watched a whole week's worth of EastEnders in an attempt to catch up - so instead of blogging about a whole week of stuff you've already watched I'm just going to list the main moments that have grabbed my attention:-

Martin and Whitney still grieving for Kush

The fact Kush's body will be transferred to Dubai / Whitney unable to hold a funeral for her fiancé

Isaac opening up to Patrick about his schizophrenia / learning about Paul

Amy trolling Janet online about her modelling

Gray and Whitney's plan to take down the Mitchell's

Isaac thinking he's been mis-diagnosed

Bernadette offering to be Rainie & Stuart's surrogate

Bailey over-hearing Karen & Mitch discussing money issues

Nancy & Tamwar are getting a divorce

Mila's Mum finding her

Ben & Callum's wedding venue going bust / getting married in two weeks time

Nancy choosing to be sterilized because she doesn't want children

Bailey running away!

Wow, a lot of drama and a lot of emotion! But now I've highlighted the main points of the previous week, I'm going to focus on Monday's episode! The first thing I am going to mention is the Taylors. All over the Square they have put up Missing posters of Bailey. The poor family are going out of their minds worrying where the little girl could've gone. Even though the family are searching the Square and further afield, Mitch gets the feeling that the police are starting to point the finger at him when they come knocking and demanding to search both Bailey's room and his own room. Jack tries their best to persuade Mitch and Karen that it's just precaution incase they might've missed anything - but after Keegan's past with the police, its seems that Mitch is starting to feel like the police are blaming him for his daughter's disappearance. One thing that does tip him over the edge though is when Jack asks him to go down to the station to make statement - to simply talk about anything which might've happened at home for Bailey to run away. Even though Mitch mentions that Bailey lost her Mum and her older sister within the space of a year, she's a strong, brave and smart child. But for a split moment, you see a look in Karen's eyes - knowing full well that the family are struggling with money issues at the moment, she thinks that maybe Mitch going to the station would help, but Mitch has none of it!

Later as he storms out of the apartment, both Keegan and Bernie are eager to help search for young Bailey, as well as putting new posters up. It seems that Mitch has informed Keegan about what's been happening at home, as when Keegan suggests that maybe going to the station might help the police in finding Bailey, Mitch raises his voice to his son informing that there's no way he'll be going to the police station. But then, little Amy approaches asking whether there has been any sign of Bailey, to which Mitch responds with negative emotion - claiming that if Bailey had been found, he wouldn't be on the streets handing out flyers. But realising he spoke to Amy in a horrible way, he apologies to the young girl and asks whether she might know anything, whether Bailey was having any trouble at school.

Interestingly, Amy happens to mention that she was getting laughed at by a boy at school because of her shoes, informing Mitch that she had tried to use glue to stick her shoes back together after falling apart. But then she also mentions that there was one lunchtime when Bailey spent it in the toilets crying because she couldn't afford to go the space camp. Thinking that Amy might be mistaken - he claims that Bailey had informed them that it was all expense paid. But Amy confirms that that isn't true, poor Mitch is absolutely devastated to learn that his daughter has lied, also realising that she actually never went to this school event, simply because her parents/guardians couldn't afford for her to go.

For some reason, I personally don't understand why Bailey has run away. She knows she's in a home where she is completely loved, does she feel that maybe her family would be better off without her? Does she feel guilty because she's wanted to do something which her family can't afford? Either way, I hope Bailey will be safe and she comes home soon, and eventually the Taylor's will get back on their feet!

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The next brief thing I have to mention is Bobby. We haven't seen him for a while, have we? We last saw him going on brief dates and trying to get himself out there to meet new people, but of course under a false name. Is Bobby now maybe thinking he wants to make a go of having a proper serious relationship with someone? Is he now ready to for a long lasting relationship? Even though Kathy questions whether he'll be bringing a plus one to Ben & Callum's wedding, Bobby informs her that he's just going to take it slow with the dating game - keep his options open. But then he interestingly admits he may sign up to Kim's dating agency, The Foxcatcher!

Kathy tries to reassure her Grandson that he doesn't need to join her dating agency, he's a good looking lad who can meet anyone anywhere if he really wanted. However, as Kim is sorting her flyers and her business in the Cafe, Bobby asks whether he's free to take one and asks whether it's worth him giving it a go. Kim tries her best to reassure him that as soon as he's filled all the leaflets in, she'll be able to find him someone who's a perfect match - but she does admit that maybe it would be best if he didn't mention he had been in prison, but in a way tries to remain positive by telling the teenager "It's good to have a bit of mystery!" … Will The Foxcatcher actually work for Bobby? I'm intrigued to see if he does eventually meet someone who'll accept him for who he is, regardless of his past.

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Meanwhile, in other areas of the Square, Linda is furious after learning that Nancy is wanting to be sterilized after announcing she doesn't want to have children. Linda can't seem to understand why he daughter can't just take contraception like every one else, I guess she kind of fears for her daughter that in a few years time she might change her mind about having children and regret what she's done. As Linda voices her concerns to Mick, she doesn't seem to realise that Nancy is listening to every word she's saying. As Nancy makes herself known, she decides to tell her Mum straight that she has an appointment in two weeks time to be sterilized and there's nothing they can do to stop her, at the end of the day, it's her body and it's her decision - even informing her Mum that the clinic she is going to is a legit clinic and she's not seeing some dodgy doctor off the internet, as she throws a leaflet on the dinner table.

I guess Linda's reaction is understandable, she's worried for her daughter and wants her to do the right thing, however she can't seem to grasp that Nancy simply doesn't want to have children - ever! As Nancy disappears and she's left with Mick, she gushes about how she was looking forward to becoming a Grandparent and spoiling her Grandchildren - but then just because Nancy doesn't want children, doesn't mean she won't ever become a Grandparent! She then decides to plead to Mick to speak to their daughter, considering that Nancy has always been a "Daddy's Girl" - she might listen to what he has to say. Even though Mick agrees to speak to her, he makes to point out that he can't make any promises on her changing her mind, but he also mentions that he wants Linda to promise not to give Nancy any more agro, to which she reluctantly agrees to.

Later as Mick and Nancy are enjoying a drink together, Mick opens up to his daughter, claiming that he wants Nancy and Frankie to get along - even though I personally thought that they were, did you guys feel the same or have I missed something? Of course learning she had a half-sister must've been hard for Nancy, but since she's returned she seems to have been nice to Frankie, even acknowledging that Frankie isn't to blame for what happened to her Dad, technically they are both victims by the same woman. However, as the conversation carries on, he pleads his daughter to give her Mum one last chance. I also do have to admit that I love the fact that Mick mentioned that he's the only male living with a family of female's and, in all honestly he can't be living with all the emotion and hormones flying everywhere - typical man really isn't he?! But to keep the piece Nancy agrees to give her Mum one final chance, however whilst they're having this conversation - back at home, Linda appears to have called up the clinic portraying as Nancy - I have a horrible feeling that Linda is going to do something she really shouldn't! Is she going to jeopardise her relationship with her daughter?! (I know the majority of you have already seen Tuesday's episode, but I'm leaving that for tomorrow!)

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Finally the last thing I have to mention of course is Ballum! After trying to approach Whitney and try and be the supportive friend, Whitney still wants nothing to do with Callum. In her mind, he is marrying the person who basically killed her fiancé! (Deep down in my stomach I am screaming that she's got it all wrong!) Whitney claims that Callum needs to know who he's marrying and once he knows the truth, will he still go through with the wedding? Recalling about their own wedding, she claims that keeping secrets is the worst thing to do before getting married. Even though Callum tries to stick up for Ben claiming that he knows exactly who he is, it looks as if Whitney's words begin to play on his mind.

Later as Callum returns home, Ben appears to be heading out, eager to find out where he's going Callum questions his fiancé's plans, but the only piece of information that Ben will give him is that he has a meeting. He's not telling him where and not telling him with who, which of course makes Callum speculate even more that perhaps Whitney could be right?!

But unbeknown to Callum, Ben actually has a wonderful surprise in store for his fiancé. Both he and Stuart are seen preparing to meet someone, dressed in their fine clobber Stuart marks Ben 6 out of 10 for his efforts! Ben is looking nervous and it seems that the reason why soon bursts through the door of the cafe. The arrival of Stuart and Callum's Nan - Violet Highway! It made me giggle when she mistook Ben for someone who actually worked at the Cafe, bless poor Stuart had to remind his old Nan that Ben is actually the one marrying Callum. My first impression of Violet is that she seems friendly, very quirky and seems to be open-minded about her Grandson being homosexual, Ben also seems to have made a good impression on his Nan.

But as Ben attempts to surprise his fiancé' by bringing his Nan back home, Callum catches him completely off guard and questions him straight on whether had had anything to do with Kush's death. To be honest the look on Ben's face looks disappointed and completely heartbroken, he's completely stunned that he's even been asked that question. As the silence between them is immense, Violet pops her head around the door, acknowledging her Grandson. Of course, poor Callum realises his horrendous mistake and is absolutely mortified to even speculate that Ben would've been involved in Kush's death. Ben looks across the room at Callum with really hard-hitting disappointed eyes, to be honest, at this moment I really felt sorry for him.

Even though Callum is thrilled to see his Nan, it's clear that the tension between Callum and Ben becomes slightly obvious, as Violet asks whether there's trouble in paradise already. As Stuart realises that Ben and Callum need space, he suggests that he gives his Nan a tour of Walford. At this moment Ben is deeply hurt by Callum's doubts about him. He even reassures Callum that since he's been a part of his life, he has completely changed his ways, and he's gone through so many lengths to prove himself to him, mentioning that he's wanted to have a completely clean slate with him.

But then, as Callum realises that Ben is being truthful, he knows that he's going to have tell him some truths if they're going to get married. I didn't see this coming to be honest but it did have me worried - Callum admits that the slate isn't as clean as Ben might think it is. As Ben looks up in confusion, Callum begins to explain that he lied about being undercover a while back. Ben's face drops as he takes in everything his fiancé' is saying. Callum tries to defend himself claiming that he never had a choice and he only did it to protect Ben, but DI Thompson wasn't target, and in actual fact - it was Phil! The pure look of shock on Ben's face says it all really doesn't it?!

I do feel for Callum, but I do hope that Ben will be able to understand Callum's actions. Will he understand that Callum was in a way being blackmailed to do it? DI Thompson was really the ones out to get them, plus Callum went back on it all, didn't he? He did change his mind! I know guys might've seen it already, but I'm really looking forward to seeing the next episode - will Ballum survive and be able to pull through this?!

So before I end this blog post, I have to mention that EastEnders have announced that Harry Redknapp is going to have a cameo appearance in the soap! I have to be honest, I don't know how I feel about this news, I personally think it's a bit silly, but then again it might be pretty good? It is just for a small cameo role and as far as I know, he will be playing himself - although I've not seen anything mentioned otherwise. His appearance will happen during the European Championships in the summer. How do you guys feel about this celebrity appearance? I'm intrigued to hear your thoughts on this one! Maybe it won't be too bad? I guess we'll have to wait and see!

Monday 10th May 2021

Hello again folks! I'm back again with another post. I just want to recap on Thursday's and Friday's episode and applaud the phenomenal performance from Lorraine Stanley! Her portrayal of Karen Taylor has been absolutely stunning and powerful over the last few weeks during Bailey's disappearance and during the aftermath of her losing her job at the laundrette. I do also want to mention how the community and neighbours rallied round her to support their friend and neighbour in their time of need. I found completely touching and was overwhelmingly powerful.

But regarding this week, it's the week the majority of us have all been waiting for since Ben and Callum got engaged! This is the week of the highly anticipated Ballum wedding! Now the big question is, will Ben meet Callum at the alter after he's learnt the truth about him being a grass! (From what the new trailer is to go by, Ben does actually decide to marry Callum) - but oh my goodness, it looks like we're in for some super dramatic scenes this week! For those of you who haven't seen the trailer yet, where have you been? Gray is once manipulating Whitney in to believing that the Mitchell's (particularly Ben) are to blame for Kush's death.

But as Whitney’s grief gets the better of her, she takes it into her own hands to deal with the Mitchell's once and for all, taking a pair of keys, getting into a car and heading straight for them. As this is happening, Phil happens to have learnt the truth about Callum grassing up his family and is eager to have a confrontation with Callum himself, but as Kat tries her best to stop Phil from making a huge mistake - Phil, Callum, Ben and Kat all get caught in the headlights of Whitney's car - who will she hit? And will they be okay?! - I know a few are speculating that it could be Callum or Ben who gets hit, or even Whitney herself getting hurt, but honestly - my biggest fear is Phil getting hurt. Don't get me wrong I love all these characters to appear to be in the frame, but I would be immensely heartbroken if it was Phil to get hurt and possibly be killed off? Hopefully none of them will get killed off - but what are your predictions? I'd love to hear your thoughts on this one!

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So looking at Monday's episode and of course it's all about Ballum!!! But before we focus on the main event I'm going to mention Bailey. Sadly she is still sleeping rough after running away from home. The only company she has is her dog Banjo (who can I just say is the most adorable dog that EastEnders has had for a very long time!) It appears that the only bit of food she has available is a packet of biscuits and of course being a hungry puppo, Banjo longingly stares at Bailey for the biscuit she's about to eat. Bailey willingly gives Banjo the biscuit, but as she begins to gather her things together and move along, a bunch of youths rob her only bag of belongings. Being the hero, Banjo quickly chases after them as Bailey following along behind.

However, meanwhile on the Square as Keegan and Bernie continue to search for Bailey and begin to discuss their concerns about where they're going to find her. Bernie tries to keep positive, informing her brother that Bailey will be found and eventually their luck will change. Of course Keegan is doubtful, but of course we know that Bernadette has offered to be Stuart & Rainie's surrogate, so eventually she will come into some money for the family, but it'll be interesting once her family find out. I'm intrigued on how Keegan is going to react - considering that it was his wife who originally agreed to be their surrogate, now it's his sister!

As Bernie takes her leave, the next thing we see is little Banjo running towards the Square, however the poor little doggo is covered in blood. Keegan understandably relieved to see Banjo, but as soon as he sees the blood coming from the family pet, he begins to question where Bailey is. As Bailey continues her search for her beloved dog, she stumbles across an elderly man named Reg claiming to be a friend of her parents, Mitch and Dinah. Could Bailey perhaps be in danger or is this gentleman genuinely who he says he is?!

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Elsewhere on the Square, Linda appears to be concerned for Nancy's whereabouts. She reveals that Nancy didn't come the previous evening, even though Mick seems more calmer about the situation, he tries to reassure Linda that Nancy had probably just stayed at a friend's house and would most likely be home by lunchtime, however unbeknown to them, poor Nancy had actually kipped in the gym overnight. It seems that things have gotten that bad between Nancy and her Mum, she could no longer bare to stay in the Vic overnight. As Sharon finds her as she opens up the gym, Nancy promises it's not going to be a long-term thing.

I guess Sharon kind of sympathises with Nancy as she too has felt the raff of Linda, but of course Sharon could be possibly using Nancy to get back into Linda's good books? She offers Nancy to use her shower back at her place and willingly gives her the keys to her apartment. Unfortunately, this is where Nancy once again passes ways with Zack and his awful flirtation. Sorry, but it is a bit cringe-worthy! Zack smooth talks his way with Nancy, claiming that once she's done in the shower he'll treat her to some breakfast!

I have to say I love Nancy's lack of enthusiasm, well I guess you could call it sarcasm also! Honestly though, how would you feel if Zack and Nancy were to become a new couple? I'm not sure how I'd feel about it, as much as I love Nancy, I haven't really made my mind up yet on Zack, I think we need to see a bit of him before I can make a decision. Anyway, they both end up in Ruby's club and Zack is once again flirtatious and eager to get a second date with Nancy, even though she even states that this is anything but a date! As she mentions how she's currently stuck in a ruckus with her Mum, she frets about not even being able to brush her teeth properly as she hasn't got a tooth brush, plus she wants to avoid going home to fetch her one and be confronted by her Mum yet again.

I think in an attempt to win Nancy round he promises that somehow, someway he will make all her problems disappear, but she scoffs at his claim and heads towards to the bar to grab some snacks. But while she's not looking Zack sneaks off and eventually finds himself in the Vic, nosing through all the Carter's belongings, is he simply just trying to find Nancy's toothbrush for her, or perhaps something else? Unfortunately his search doesn't last very long as he's walloped over the head with a frying pan by Linda! Almost like a scene from the Disney movie Tangled!

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Right focusing on the main story at hand, as Callum and Stuart prepare themselves for the wedding, Callum voices his concern as to whether Ben will truly show up to their wedding. Stuart also voices his concern as to whether his brother should actually go, he can't bare to picture his young brother being left stood up at the alter. But the interesting thing is on the other side of the Square, as Kathy and Phil are discussing the wedding and the fact that Ben would be making a huge mistake if he didn't turn up, Ben is sat on the stairs in the hallway listening to their every word.

Kathy is all dressed up in her wonderful wedding outfit and of course little Lexi looks beautiful in her bridesmaid dress, rehearsing her steps for the wedding ceremony. Phil informs Kathy that Ben is adamant that the wedding is off, but Kathy urges the Father of their son to talk Ben round and make him see sense! Eventually as everyone gathers in the Vic waiting for Ben to show his face, Phil appears all dressed up his suit and breaks the news that Ben has gone missing, he's simply left his suit on his bed and disappeared, much to the family's shock.

While all this chaos appears to be happening in the middle of the Square, poor Callum and Stuart have made it to the register's office and are waiting anxiously for Ben's arrival! As they hear someone bursting through the doors, they look with hope and desperation, but it appears to be Jay. But as much as Callum is happy to see him, Jay gives him the devastating news that Ben has gone AWOL and no one can find him anywhere. Eager to make sure that his brother marries the man he loves, Stuart takes it upon himself to go back to the Square and find Ben and bring him to Callum.

Although it appears that Phil has managed to find Ben before he can. Phil eventually finds his son in the Arches working away on a car, almost as if he's trying to avoid the day itself and carry on as normal. Phil tries once again to reassure his son that marrying Callum would be the best thing he's ever done, even admitting that it took him a long time to come round - this moment really touched me - but also claiming that if Ben was to marry Callum today, it would Phil the proudest he has ever been of his son. I have to say those words really moved me, and to be honest I think it moved Ben - almost to the point where it nearly broke him and he almost revealed what Callum had done.

Ben gets so overcome with emotion, tears are slowly falling from his eyes. He almost breaks as he informs his Dad that Callum had betrayed him, all of them! Phil looks to his son with confusion in his eyes. What does he mean, all of them? But Ben stops in his tracks and makes up the excuse that Callum actually cheated on him. Although it seems as though Phil doesn't believe this explanation, he takes it on the chin and leaves Ben to it. However, once he's back on the Square he comes face-to-face with Stuart ... now this is where everything goes completely wrong! Of course Stuart has no idea what's been happening on the Square, he's just concerned about his little brother waiting at the alter for the man he loves.

As they cross paths, Stuart pleads Phil to inform her where Ben has got to, but Phil seems eager to defend his son after the explanation he's been given, as soon as Phil mentions that he welcomed Callum into the family, Stuart completely gets the wrong end of the stick and reveals everything. Claiming that Callum never wanted to go undercover, claiming that all he did it for was for Ben, putting his career on the line for Ben, even if it meant going behind Phil's back and reporting everything to the police. But you can see from the look in Phil's face that this is all news to him and this is the first he's hearing about Callum's betrayal. Once Stuart realises his mistake he warns that if Phil ever lays a finger on Callum he will come back and kill him!

Returning to the Arches, Ben is once again alone with his thoughts, is he questioning himself whether he should marry Callum? But it seems like another visit from a little lady changes his mind. Lexi finds him in the Arches and comments that it's the same place she finds him every time when Ben decides to take some time on his own. Now this moment I absolutely loved, Lexi questions her Father about love, What does it mean? What's it all about? She claims that she doesn't believe in love, considering that her Mum has had 3 different boyfriends since she's been home and her Grandparents have been married "300 times!". Her exaggerations make Ben giggle, but he tries to reassure his daughter that she should believe in love, because it's the one thing in life that you can't describe the feeling of. It can hurt but it's also wonderful too to be in love. He claims that being with that one person who trusts you and believes in you is the best feeling in the world and with them by your side, you face the world together, forever. As he explains all this to his daughter, she then asks the very important question, "Then why aren't you marrying Callum?"

Listening to his own words and realising that it's been his daughter who's made him see sense, Ben rushes to the wedding reception. As the guests almost sit themselves up and get ready to leave as they believe Ben isn't showing up, Stuart arrives back at the wedding reception eager to inform his brother about what's happened on the Square between him and Phil. But before Stuart can begin to explain himself, both Lexi and Ben burst through the door just in time for the ceremony, to Callum's absolute happiness and relief.  

Only unbeknown to them, back at home, Phil is seen listening to a voice message from Kathy, informing him that the wedding appears to be back on. Ben has arrived at the wedding reception and she urges him to get there before he misses his son getting married. As the voice message ends, Phil notices a picture of Callum on the shelf, all dressed up smartly in his police uniform. Reeling from the news he's learnt from Stuart, he smashes Callum's picture to pieces. What is Phil going to do now?

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Weekly Catch Up

Monday 31st May - Friday 4th June 2021

Hello again folks, due to working hours all under the sun at my day job, I've only managed to find time to sit down and write my blog. The past couple of weeks have been full chocker for me - celebrating my partner's 30 birthday as well as trying to find a house, whilst also being at the day job and trying to find time to write notes down for my blog. Hopefully by next week I'll be a bit more organised and be able to post a few more than just 1 post in the week!

So let's cover everything that's happened this week, it's been an eventful one that's for sure! I think the first thing I'm going to mention is The Carter's. It seems as if Linda is becoming more desperate to inform Nancy about her pregnancy, I think it's fair to say that she's hating having to keep it a secret from her own daughter, but Mick seems less than enthusiastic and convinces Linda that perhaps she should wait just a little bit longer until they tell Nancy the truth. Of the devastating thing for Mick is that his wife is pregnant with somebody else's baby, and not just anybody - Max Branning!

In a bid to take his mind off things he suggests putting together a Deaf Night for Frankie, where they'd celebrate the deaf community. Of course Linda is all for the idea but does also worry that Mick is maybe pushing her pregnancy under the carpet, as if he doesn't want to talk about it. Still noticing the tension between Nancy and Linda, Frankie takes it upon herself to approach Nancy and manages to convince her that really she and her Mum are both exactly alike and maybe she should reach out to her and just forgive her and move on, life is really too short. After listening to her sister and taking her advice, Nancy decides to build bridges with her Mum and offer her a one-to-one session at the gym to give them a chance to reconnect. Linda is all for it and is happy to spend some quality time with her daughter.

However after pushing herself a bit too hard on the exercise bike, Linda goes light-headed and eventually collapses, much to Nancy's worry. I know this a bit stupid for me to say, but being 5 months pregnant and going to the gym - perhaps it wasn't the best idea? (I mean, I don't know - do pregnant women still go the gym?) Luckily Sharon is there to witness the accident and quickly hurries to her friend's aid, as they all wait for an ambulance to arrive, Linda encourages her daughter to go back home and wait for her Dad to return home as well as trying to contact him in the meantime. As Nancy does as she's told, Linda informs Sharon that she's pregnant but she desperately doesn't want Nancy to know, especially not now considering her accident. Sharon respects Linda's wishes and accompanies her to the hospital, it's here where Linda also informs her friend that in fact the baby she's carrying is not Mick's but in fact Max's.

It looks as if the whole accident has completely overwhelmed Linda as she begins to get teary. She explains to Sharon that over the past couple of months she's began to feel the baby moving, and she's come to realise that over time she has begun to love the child she's carrying. But how on Earth will Mick feel when he finds out? Even though Mick has promised to face the pregnancy head on with his wife, something is telling me that when the child is born, he is going to really struggle to connect and bond with it, knowing that it's not even his child. However - could there be some kind of miscalculation? Will they maybe even take a DNA test just to be sure who the Father is? Who knows? There has been some speculation that Max will return after rumours of Linda contacting him about her pregnancy, but I'm not so sure that's going to happen - Max only left a couple of months ago and I'm sure I recall Jake Wood saying that he's interested in doing other things - could they convince him to return for this storyline? I'm unsure. What do you guys think? Could Mick even grow to love the child as his own? 

As the episode goes on, we see that Nancy grows suspicious that after her Mum's worrying fall, she's going round telling everyone that she's fine, and Peter even acknowledges that someone as healthy and fit as Linda could collapse after a couple of minutes on an exercise bike, maybe there's something more as to why she collapsed? Seeking the truth she eventually confronts her Mum, and realising that she's been bolted into a corner, Linda softly informs her daughter that she is now pregnant with her 5th child. At first Nancy seems thrilled to hear that her parents have come to create another life, but eventually it becomes clear to her that the child is not her Dad's, however Linda is quick to inform her that Mick knows and he's been fully supportive since he first found out. Nancy can't quite believe what she's hearing, but nevertheless she is thrilled to hear she'll be getting another sibling and that her parents are seriously "Couple Goals!".

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Another main issue which happened this week was that Mila was trying everything she can to stop her Mum from taking her little sister Kioni to a ceremony where she would be "Cut". As soon as her Mum arrives onto the Square you can sense the tension between Mila and her Mum. Even though Iqra is there to support Mila every step of the way as she tries to confront her Mum, the way her Mum speaks to her, she instantly feels as if she can't even stand up to her own Mum. Iqra eventually decides to intervene, suggesting to Kioni that she needs to experience McKlunky's chips - as a swift way for Mila to be alone with her Mum. 

As Mila takes the opportunity to open up to her Mum, she admits as to how what has been done to her has made her feel dirty and how she spends every single day in pain. Understandably she does not want her younger sister to go through what she has. The interesting thing which grabbed my attention though was that her Mum stated that it was because they were a part of a "Community" - I'm sorry, but which community allows these types of things to happen to young girls? Is it a religion thing? I'm not 100% sure, but Mila puts her Mum straight (as it were) that the only reason her Mum abandoned her was because of her sexuality - which is NOT a choice! Interestingly, Mila tries to get her Mum to open up about how she felt when she went through the traumatic experience that was "expected" of her. 

I have to be honest, this whole entire scene really moved me, Ruhtxjiah Bellenea is a fantastic actress and she completely moved me when she was describing how Mila felt during her experience and how much she pleaded not to let her Mum do it to Kioni! I'm thrilled that EastEnders have taken her on and I'm looking forward to seeing more from Mila. Meanwhile as Iqra is keeping Kioni away keeping an eye on her, Kim unfortunately interrupts Iqra and completely distracts her by asking her advice on Male Of The Month for her Foxcatcher promo and completely misses the moment that Kioni left her side and disappeared. Devastatingly, Kioni decides to head back to Kathy's - where she overhears Mila and her Mum talking about what was happening. After realising that she's been stood there, Kioni runs off and disappears out of sight, much to Mila's worry and concern. 

Frantically, Mila begins to search for her sister and Kathy decides to stay behind with their Mum. Poor Mila is desperate to try and find her sister, eventually she gets called back to the house only to see a police car being pulled up and her Mum being arrested. As much as Mila wanted her Mum to understand that what she was doing is wrong, she never wanted her Mum to go to prison. Iqra approaches Mila to try and calm her own, explaining that what her Mum was doing was a form of child abuse, but Mila is desperate to try and explain that her Mum is not a bad person and that she was just brought up with the wrong beliefs. She's deeply saddened to realise that her girlfriend has gone behind her back and called the police on her Mum, but then interestingly Kathy steps in and informs Mila that it was actually her who called the police. Iqra looks back at Kathy in amazement and subtly shakes her head - Kathy is taking the wrap for Iqra, I think because she understands that Mila needs Iqra more than ever right now and she can't lose her Mum, her sister and her girlfriend all at the same time. 

The next day as Mila tries to find the whereabouts of her sister, she learns that she's stayed at a friend's. She does eventually come home but when she does she is accompanied by her social worker. As much as Mila is eager to look after her sister, she's saddened to hear that she can not stay with her and she'll be instead be put with a foster family during the time her Mum is in prison. Mila is deeply saddened and pleads for them not to take her, but eventually it seems that she comes to terms with knowing that Kioni will be safe. I'm not 100% sure whether this will be the end of this storyline - Mila is yet to find out that it was Iqra who called the police on her Mum, so who knows. Is that the last we'll see of Kioni or will Mila be reunited with her sister permanently? Have we also seen the last of her Mum? I'm intrigued to see what will happen next. 

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Elsewhere on the Square, Suki is still not willing to accept that Kheerat's new woman is Sharon Watts. But in a bid to keep his Mother on side, Kheerat informs her that he's managed to find a way to keep Jags safe in prison, he managed to come up with the money to pay who needs to be paid and he's also managed to persuade Ben to contact people he knows in prison who could keep Jags safe. Even though Suki is relieved that her son is now safe, she's a bit sceptical that her son is now doing business with a Mitchell and warns him that he'd best stay in Ben's good books, otherwise things could really change for not just Jags, but the whole Panesar family. 

It seems that Kheerat then realises that if he's going to want to continue seeing Sharon, they're going to have to be sneaky about their little fling. If Ben was to find out that Kheerat was seeing Sharon, he probably would kick off - not that it's any of his business, as Sharon is no longer married to his Dad, what business of his is it who Sharon sees or sleeps with?! I don't understand why Ben would find it as a way of betrayal? Ben has even made it clear that his Dad has moved on - so why can't Sharon? And even if it is his business partner, who cares?! I genuinely don't see the problem, if you guys know then please enlighten me! 

-- So it looks as if "Fat Elvis" has invited Mo away on a cruise, but it seems that she is reluctant to go and interestingly it turns out that once Jean is made away of Mo's offer, Mo informs her that the only reason she's not going to go is because of her. She's known for months now that something isn't right with Jean and she's not going to rest until she knows what it is. Of course we all know that Jean is hiding the devastating truth that her cancer has returned and that this time it could be terminal. Jean has decided to not have treatment this time around, but it seems as every day that goes by - her family around her seem to be going away. Stacey is now prison, Kat has been spending so much time with Phil now their relationship has been made public, her Grandchildren are living over the road with Martin and Ruby - and now Mo could potentially be leaving on a cruise! I think Jean is going to feel so lonely that eventually things just may get a bit too much for her and she will eventually break. I'm absolutely baffled that even Kat has no idea about her illness. 

I think, for a split moment Jean did consider telling Mo the truth, claiming that she has had a bit of a wobble since Stacey was sent to prison, but Mo isn't stupid - she knows there's something else going on, she knows when Jean is lying. Jean then claims that life is far too short and she should grab the opportunity to go for a cruise while she can. Later there's a scene between Kat and Jean as they're stood in the middle of the market and Kat is asking very suspicious questions regarding Mo and Jean, Jean seems to swerve the topic onto Mo, informing Kat about her proposition, as Kat walks away and the camera fades out you see Jean standing alone outside the Minute Mart - this is pretty important as I'll explain in the next paragraph. 

As Jean returns home, once again she's confronted by Mo - you think that Jean is going to tell her truth, but instead she states "I'll just show you!" and empties the contents of her bag onto the kitchen table. Dozes of chocolate bars flood the table and Mo isn't the least bit floored to learn that Jean has been shoplifting. Jean lies, claiming that she's become hooked to minor shoplifting and can't seem to kick the buzz. Mo seems to find it pretty laughable, Jean understandably would be the last person you'd expect to shop lift! Although she does admit she's relieved as she claims she was concerned Jean was going to tell her she was actually dying - if only she realised how right she actually is!!! The look on Jean's face was devastating!!!

I have to say though, the scene where all the Slater ladies are giving Mo a party to celebrate her cruise, seeing Kat dancing to Aga-doo was bloody brilliant! We haven't seen a fun clip like that for a while I think! As the day finally arrives for Mo to leave Walford and go on her cruise trip, she seems to acting fairly suspicious as she secretly locks the garage door. What is she hiding in there? You could say that Mo has always been up to dodgy dealings, she's as cunning as Phil sometimes! Ha! Jean manages to confront Mo before she leaves and admits that she told her her secret, now it's her turn to tell her her's, but it seems that Jean is less than impressed and informs Mo that what she's doing is criminal! But what exactly could it be? Later as everyone gathers to see Mo off on her travels, Jean is solemn to see Mo leave and whispers that she might not even be here when Mo returns.

As soon as she said that Zack picks up on it instantly. As people wave her goodbye, Mo leaves Walford in the back of a limo, what better why for her to exit! Will you miss Mo? As Jean's word continue to play on his mind, he questions Martin about Jean and whether she's alright. But Martin seems to inform him that you can never really tell when it comes to Jean, considering she has bipolar. But he does seem to speculate that maybe she's feeling lonely as everyone around her seems to be leaving. It's then that Zack seems to offer Jean his friendship, informing her that he's just next door if she ever needed anything. But suddenly Jean seems to take him on his offer ever so quickly and informs him that he could help her with a little something. 

It's then we get to see what Mo was hiding in the garage. Weed!!!!!! The garage was full of weed plants and Jean is desperate to get rid of them. Zack later reassures her that he has a friend who can wheel it all away for a decent price, at first Jean is adamant she doesn't want to deal with it that way but it turns out to be her only option as she's worried the police may come knocking. She eventually agrees for Zack's "mate" to shift the weed. But after visiting Honey in the Minute Mart and learning that Suki has left lettuce in the dark and it's all wilted, Jean comes of another way to get rid of the drug plant. She returns to the garage and unplugs the heat lamp so all the plants are left in the dark to die. But my next thought it, what happens after they die? Will it be easier for her to just chuck them? I guess we'll have to wait and see! 

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Finally the last thing I have to mention is Ben and Callum, they have returned from their honeymoon and they both seem a bit sad to be returning to some form of normality after a lovely time away together. They both return home to learn that Callum's Nan, Violet, has decided to stay in Walford. I did think it was slightly funny when Violet kind of insulted Ben, claiming he had put on a bit of weight since he had been away - but I have to be honest, I feel like I haven't seen much of Violet to have a proper opinion on her, I haven't really made my mind up yet. What are you opinions on Violet Highway? 

Ben then decides to make himself scarce and attempts to visit his Dad to clear the air. Before he and Callum left on their honeymoon, Phil learnt that Callum was working with the police against him and it looks as if Phil can't overcome the fact that he was living with a grass. He personally feels betrayed by Callum after welcoming him into the family and he can't find himself to forgive him - regardless now whether he's his Son-In-Law or not. Ben thanks Phil for paying for the honeymoon but also tries to persuade his Dad to forgive Callum, but Phil simply has none of it. In his eyes, Ben has made his choice. 

Later in the week, it seems that Phil is feeling miserable but as he begins to get closer to Kat's children Bert and Ernie, he confides in Kat that he's actually missing Ben. But he also happens to mention that he's feeling low because he feels like he's lost all his children. Louise has left with his Granddaughter, he isn't talking to Ben and his young song Raymond is living over the road and he never gets to see him. Sympathising with him, Kat suggests that he has a word with Denise, regardless of his past - Phil has always been a good Dad and has always focused on his family. Kat happens to mention that the children have a "Bring You Dad To School Day" but she can't bring to inform the children that Alfie won't be there to take them, it's then that Phil agrees to take them instead.

As Phil arrives to school with the twin boys, even though he's happy to help Kat with her kids, you can see his heart sinks as he sees Raymond arrive with Jack. Phil calls out to his young son but the little boy completely ignores him, but in all fairness the little boy probably has no idea who he really is. I remember AGES ago Denise allowed Phil to see him one or twice or week, but it seemed that changed due to more of Phil's dodgy dealings. Jack is more than happy to rub it in Phil's face when he gives his presentation, claiming that the children always need to be ready to fight the real baddies! But when Phil is asked to give his talk, Phil acknowledges that he's not Bert and Ernie's biological Father or Grandfather and that he wasn't aware he had to give a talk. Jack gives him a slight smirk but Phil holds his ground and informs the teacher that he is a local business man - to be fair, he's not wrong. (In all honesty, I was expecting him to say he was a mechanic - he does work with cars in the Arches after all!) 

However, later on taking Kat's advice, Phil decides to visit Denise and states that he wants to help with Raymond as much as he can, give him a proper education and make sure he's able to attend after school clubs etc. But Denise she can't afford it, but Phil is adamant that he can help pay for it as he wants to help provide for his son, but Denise doesn't want to know, claiming that his money is "Dirty Money" and she wants it no where near Raymond. Meanwhile though, as Phil and Denise are having this confrontation - poor Kat finds herself being mugged in the middle of the Square. Two youths threaten her with a knife and take off with her handbag and shopping. 

Clearly after being hit by a car, this is the last thing Kat needs. In a stunned state she walks back to the Square where she finds Callum and informs him what's just happened. As Callum tries to reassure her that if she makes a statement the youths will be found. But of course, Suki overhears the commotion and claims that she's not surprised after getting involved with a Mitchell. But Kat is quick to defend Phil, claiming that she knows him so much better than she does and she has no right to make sly comments on who she sees. Returning home she tries to inform Phil about her mugging, but Phil seems to be a more irate after Denise's harsh words, Kat doesn't get a chance to explain to him what's happened. Seeing red, she storms out claiming that maybe everyone else was right about Phil and she was wrong. Poor Phil has no idea what he's seemed to have done wrong, but will Denise's words maybe make him think about changing his ways so he can give Raymond a better life and for Denise allow him to see him?

Meanwhile Ben is acting slightly jealous, I thought, not being able to spend time with his husband on his day off. Callum instead spends the day with a colleague from the police station. Ben takes it upon himself to let off some steam and decides to socialise with Kheerat. As Kheerat tries to fish for information as why Ben is feeling low, Ben claims that he can't stand anyone who lies to him - how can there be trust in a business or personal relationship when there seems to be lots of lies? Eventually Ben comes to the realisation that he needs to ask Callum something really important, as he arrives home, he's surprised to see that Callum has gone all out to make the romantic gesture of a couples night in - not wanting to honeymoon to end so soon. But Ben informs him that even though he loves him, he needs to ask him the biggest thing of all and that he leaves the police force! 

Monday 8th February 2021

Hello again folks! Hope you're having a good week so far. Once again, I have some very exciting news to share with you. EastEnders announced and confirmed that Maddy Hill will be reprising her role as Nancy Carter and will be returning to Walford later in the Spring! It's been 5 years since Nancy left the Square with boyfriend Tamwar Masood and ended getting married in New Zealand. However Nancy will be returning alone. What will bring her back to Walford?! After everything that's happened with the Carter family over the past few months, we've seen Lee appear briefly in regards to Mick's storyline, but as far as we are aware, Nancy hasn't been informed about recent events regarding her Dad. It's fair to say she will have huge questions to ask ... Oh my god, just think how amazing it's going to be to have scenes between Nancy and Frankie?! How is she going to react when she learns she has a half-sister?! THAT I am excited for!! Oooo I don't know about you guys, but I am really excited to see Nancy return to Albert Square!

Now following Monday's episode, I apologise this post is late, but there is quite a bit to follow up on let's focus firstly on Max. He appears to be struggling recently, coming to terms with the fact that Linda chose her husband Mick over him. Even people seem to be surprised over his outburst in the Vic, outing Sharon as Ian's attacker. We know Max is going to be leaving Walford soon, his exit is slowly creeping upon us, in this episode - I kind of feel sorry for him in a way. Truthfully, what is really keeping Max on the Square? The only thing I can think of, his Granddaughter Abi - who was such a little star in this episode! Max lashes out at his niece, Amy, when she scurries past him, causing him to drop his phone and have it smash on the concrete, he appears devastated as he acknowledges the amount of pictures and memories he had on his phone of his daughter Abi. Rainie informs him that people are gossiping about him behind his back, commenting on how he appears to be losing the plot. Honestly, I don't think he is - I think he's more lonely than anything. If you think about it, all of his children have either passed away or left the Square, he's had many failed relationships. The only things that are remaining on the Square for him are his brother and his granddaughter. After drawing with little Abi, he notices that the piece of paper he's drawn on is actually an advert for a psychic medium. Will he find comfort in perhaps hearing from his children from the spirit world? Who knows, maybe this will the beginning of Max's exit storyline? 

The second thing that I think I need to briefly mention is that Kush has accepted to take the room in Whitney and Dotty's apartment. Of course, Martin tries to stop his best mate from leaving as he's his "Gaming buddy!" - but I think deep down, everyone knows that it's not suitable. Having Martin and his pregnant wife and his best mate living all under the same roof. Even Kush can see the downside, but to be honest, after everything Ruby has put him through, I'm not surprised he's jumped at the chance to move out. But interestingly, did anyone appear to see the annoyance and jealousy on Gray's face as she laughs and jokes with Kush?! We also know that Kush is meant to be leaving the Square, please don't tell me that Kush is going to be his next victim, just because he likes Whitney?! What do you guys think?! 

Speaking of Gray, he is slowly losing control of his situation I think. Everyone around him is determined to find Tina and now it looks as if Shirley is going to be on his case. As Shirley returns home from doing a job for Phil, Mick drops the bombshell and informs her that it was actually Sharon and Phil who were behind Ian's attack. This news clearly devastates Shirley, as she storms over to see Phil, she acknowledges how loyal she has been to him over the years, and yet he stabs her in the back by letting her little sister take the rap for something she never did. It's clear she must be feeling huge betrayal from him, even though he assures her Gray is going to do everything he can to find her. But something really doesn't sit right with Shirley, eventually she catches up with Gray and confronts him also! At this moment, I did fear for Shirley. She has always been a woman who can fight for herself and stand up to people, of course she's going to act exactly the same way when it comes to Gray. As she's laying into him you can see the anger boiling inside of him, he is completely out of his depth and is angry at the fact she's insulted him, in his own house, "after everything he's done for her!". For a split moment, I did think he was going to attack Shirley, instead he storms out of the house in a rage of anger. BUT what happens next really confuses me and has left me asking so many questions! As he leaves the house and heads down the road in the darkness, a young homeless female asks politely whether he can spare any change, at first he's spats out "Get a job!" - but something suddenly clicks in his head ... what on Earth is he planning? He reaches out a handful of cash and informs the girl to follow him! - WAIT!!!!!!! Oh my goodness ... is he going to disguise the girl as Tina and instruct her to shoplift?! And that's what causes the police to think they've seen a sighting of her?! Oh my god, how low can you get???!!! It all makes perfect sense now!!! Holy moly!!! Maybe Tina is dead after all?! Oooo I so hope Gray gets sussed out and all his lies come to light eventually, how awful to be doing this to the Carter family! It's going to be so explosive when everything get's revealed, I really can't wait to see that happen! 

So the final thing I have to talk about is Denise and Chelsea. Clearly after Denise going missing, Jack is still frantic on trying to find her. Poor Denise has been captured be an unknown figure and left in a dark cold room, as she sits alone she is sobbing her poor heart out whilst her family worry about her whereabouts. Understandably, everyone is pointing the finger at Lucas, he did this before and it turns out he could've done it again. Regardless of them agreeing that Lucas is behind Denise's disappearance, Patrick and Chelsea are both feeling guilty, instructing her to let Lucas back into her life, knowing full well how dangerous he is. But in the midst of everyone's worrying and blaming, Chelsea gets a call from an unknown person, at first I have every reason to believe it's her Dad, she agrees to meet the unknown caller. Eventually we see her arrive at Ruby's club and honestly, I'm surprised by who is sat waiting for her ... it's not Lucas as suspected, but Caleb! Caleb has kidnapped Denise to get Chelsea's attention! Now everything regarding Chelsea is all making sense, the debt she owes him is to transfer drugs over to Ibiza, and because Chelsea failed to get Lucas involved in her plan, Caleb retaliated. She begs him not to harm her Mum, because plain and simply, she has no involvement in their situation and there's no reason for her to be going through this kind of trauma. Caleb states that the only way Chelsea can pay her debt is to make sure the drugs he gave her, go to their final destination in Ibiza. She promises to find a way. Thankfully, Caleb releases Denise, we know this as Denise is seen walking through the street, clearly visibly shaken by her ordeal. Chelsea hurries to her Mum, but Denise informs her that she is okay. Interestingly they go and have a little heart-to-heart, and it's here when Chelsea reveals everything to her Mum. Denise recalls how scared she was being in that horrible situation again, worrying about her family, but then she asks Chelsea a very interesting question - "Who is that man, Chelsea?" - she knew it wasn't Lucas who kidnapped her!! It's then that Chelsea reveals everything, who he is and why she's in debt to him. Honestly, it sounds like a devastating, worrying story, she simply found herself a guy who treated her well but yet had a dark side she never knew about and unfortunately, she ended up witnessing something she never should've done, which is now Caleb is holding her to her debt and once that debt is paid, she's free to go. As they both return home, Jack and Kim and visibly relieved to see Denise home and safe, but of course they begin to ask her very awkward questions which unfortunately Chelsea stops her from answering. They constantly ask where Lucas is and what happened - but before Denise can say anything, Chelsea states that her parents initially had an argument and Denise stayed away and slept a friend's for a few days. Obviously neither Jack or Kim are convinced with the story, poor Kim seems more angry with her sister than anything. In her opinion, if that was the case, how could she have put her family through so much worry, especially Patrick?! It's perfectly clear that Chelsea doesn't want the family knowing about her situation. The one thing that is crossing my mind now though is, obviously if Lucas wasn't behind Denise's capture, then - where is he now? Where has he disappeared to? Has he simply left the Square again after being confronted by Jack?! Later on the evening, Denise is sat alone, Chelsea slowly walks in, apologising for being the reason that her Mum suffered this horrific ordeal. she explains that the only way to get Caleb off their backs is if she does what she's been instructed to do. With Lucas gone and her plan falling through, there's no one else to send the drugs over to Ibiza other than Chelsea herself, but of course her Mum refuses to let her do it, she wouldn't want her daughter taking a huge risk and potentially end up in prison! This is where Denise comes up with an idea, if she can persuade Lucas to come back to the Square, they can set him up and make sure he gets on that plane with the drugs to Ibiza!