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Seokjin

 You had decided to wait

BTS were the height of their careers when you got married and he still had military service left fulfil

A decision you regret as you stand hands entwined together in your bathroom 6 years into your marriage and another white stick showing a negative result

The doctors told you it be difficult but not impossible and that little shining thread was keeping you going

He pulls you in close and whispers the same affirmations as last time and the time before

He mostly just holds you so you can't see the tears in his eyes despite the fact you know they’re there

Yoongi

Baby number one came so easily

Your perfect little honeymoon baby born nine months to the day after your wedding

Around his 2nd birthday he asked for a baby brother or sister. You and Yoongi agreed it would be the right time to try again

But then his third birthday rolls around

Then his 4th

And his fifth

Still no joy

Luckily as he gained more friends he stopped asking but it didn't make you any less sad

Eventually doctors managed to find a complication they must have missed from your original pregnancy referring you to IVF or surrogacy

It hurts a little too much to think of someone else carrying your baby right now.

Hoseok

Hobi is the best at hiding his sad feelings

The first year and a half didn't even seem to dent him

Ever the optimist

He doesn't let you see the panic as he holds you close

You find the facility letter hidden in his desk while searching for a pen

It’s late when he comes home from practise you shower him with affection making him laugh and try to hold you at bay

He takes off his shoes and lets you lead him to his study

“Why didn't you tell me?”

“I didn't want to worry you”

“In sickness and in health Hobi.”

You open the letter together.

Jimin

Every negative is a challenge to Jimin

More research

New exercises

Food from old wives tales

Anything that could possibly have any effect

You draw a line at ice baths whole lemons trying to talk him down

It's only been 12 months and you’re young

You have time

You force him to relax.

You hide his books from him and turn the Wi-Fi off when he gets that look in his eyes.

Taehyung

Tae wants an army of his own

His own Vonn Trapp family production

And slowly he took you from two kids to four

Problem was you were struggling with one

The longer the negatives went on the more worried you got about not being able to give tae the only thing he'd ever asked you for

Your heart broke more every time he squeezed your hand and told you that you could just try again

You went to get checked without him

But he picked up the phone when they called with the results

He cried for a long time when you realised you were scared to tell him how worried you were

He spent ages reassuring you that just you are enough for him, and there were other options to have kids if you’re open to them, but he is happy staying just the two of you.

He was so busy trying to make you feel better, it slipped his mind for a little too long the doctor said you were medically fine.

Jungkook

Funny thing is for the first test you had been hoping for a negative result

You had been dating for two years and it was just after a world tour, and you’d forgotten to be careful.

It was the longest 2 minutes of your life but when it was over you weren't relieved

You turn to find JK with the same confused disappointment written all over his face

It's a long night of serious conversations that follows

Somehow landing on the decision that a mini you running around wouldn't be the worst idea

Sadly, the world had other plans

A year later you're engaged but still without child this was the last try before you went back onto birth control in order to set a wedding date that you could enjoy without pregnancy ruining the day

More than a little dismayed not to have your own little flower girl or page boy.

Tomorrow-ish Part 2