#nail biting

Anyway, so my friend sees me biting my cuticles (something I had mentioned I wished I didn't do), and says: "Stop eating yourself."

So of course we start cracking the fuck up. And I go: "What, like fucking, vore?"

And without missing a fucking beat, my friend says, in a stage whisper: "Auto-vore"

And we lose it again.

And I share all this because, goddammit, the memory of "Stop eating yourself" and "Auto-vore" is fucking working.

I've barely chewed on my fingers in the last week and a half. I'm so mad.

So if you too have an issue with biting your nails/fingers, please imagine a friend (imagine me even) coming up to you and saying:

"Stop eating yourself. Stop committing auto-vore." With a loving, yet shit-eating, grin.

I just got out of the bathroom again. As per usual, I bled again. I'm probably repeating myself, and I imagine I should probably take a break from posting. So I'll take a break for now. But I'll probably come back to posting later. I never seem to know what else to do, anyways.

My fingers are sore, largely because I kept biting at them. I can't help it, but I'm still unhappy about it. It's annoying to have to deal with all this.

I don't drink or smoke or nothing, but I compulsively bite my nails. They are a disaster zone. They occasionally bleed. But not often enough to be concerning. I never bite low enough to get me in hospital or nothing. I'm not that addicted. But I can't help biting. It's probably like an oral fixation or something for me. But it could be worse. To cope with my weakness, I use bandages compulsively. But that doesn't often affect me, so I'm okay.