31 now. Its crazy to feel the peace slowly warming my body from the inside. I am here and I will make the best of it. No longer beating myself up for existing.

Do you also struggle with letting things just be easy? Specifically when it comes to work or like anything that is a delegated task/responsibility to you work or not….

Like I feel like I have a way of creating difficulties or like making something more than it should be by trying to be… useful… excellent… orderly… End up overextending myself. Real bad…

Even when youre not the leader youre in close proximity, place yourself in the authority circle, or end up close/involved with leadership in whatever the context is because you have a way of seeing the dysfunction or kinks and want to support to fix or make better. Or you know who needs your support the most to gain their trust/respect in order to get the issues/things you see resolved that you might not have the OFFICIAL authority to implement the change.

For me I think it’s vain, because of my 6th house scorpio and venus… what I do is a reflection of me… like it makes me feel good when I can do things for people that actually helps and to THEM I am good or worthy or useful. Like I feel good when I feel like I am useful in people’s eyes. Maybe useful is not the right word…. APPRECIATED.

Everything I do is useful, period. But it is not always appreciated. That’s where burnout and frustration taps in. You feel like you are wasting valuable work ethic and energy on someone/thing/business/org that doesn’t deserve it.

Also take a shot every time I use “like”.

I do not accept.

I choose to transform. I choose to reshape my day, every day, until the day all of the little things that have built up all the bad thoughts are voided from my inner monologue. Replaced with the ability to affirm my inner light instead of dim.

Every day I am a smidge more happier, organized, motivated, and in tune with my true self ….

Authenticity. Confidence. Success. Love. Trust. Real Joy. Real Peace.

🧚🏾Is mine🧚🏾

Rising from that depressive depth…. A happy grief… grief to my old way of living… Scorpio 6th house profection year shit.

CAUTION… Castle under construction.

Like I understand my tropical western chart as my external projection and receiving of karma. How my karma plays out in this current lifetime and the way other peoples karma interacts with mine.

Vedic is like my true soul that I bring in every lifetime. The essence of my energy regardless of shell. Does that make sense?

Concept: Aquarius/Pisces

Venus | Mars | Moon

Moon: Misunderstood water aliens. Guiding Intuition. Go with the flow, their flow.

Mars: “My way or the highway ever flowing/aquatic carnage”

Venus: A retreat to the outerspace abyss.

I love life? Imma keep saying it until I feel it fr….

Morning astro thoughts…. 8th house moons will inherit the emotional state of the nurturer or whoever you looked to for nurturing (not just mom or dad, but whomever played/replaced/abandoned/filled in the “mom” like figure/role)

I mean, you can see how that 8th house moon will connect/aspect with other planets and houses for more details this is very general statement/overall energy for 8th house moons specifically TO ME. (Shout out to Scorpio moons too)

I think the moon brings a very distinct, powerful, and/or intuitive emotional inheritance to the individual when in the 8th house… Do other ppl think this too?

My 12th house Taurus Lilith is Trine my 8th house Capricorn Moon… to me this reads a very “dark” feminine experience, it is harmonious in nature. but I had to experience, see first hand, interact with a lot of a gender based emotional distress/violence as well personal trauma at the hands of women/girls.

I am able to accept and connect with the darkness of the feminine form from all walks of life and expression regardless of society expectations…