#myjohn

Scott Ryder || Human Pathfinder || Scrapper || ❤ Cora Harper

John Shepard || Spectre || Earthborn Sole Survivor || ❤ Kaidan & Ashley

---

Made these for two of my Dragon Age characters earlier so figured I should make some quick ones for my Mass Effect boys too~ Might do ones for Sara and Dex too but these were already tricky enough to get just right. Happy with the results though, especially Scott’s~

There's a sad sort of clanging from the clock in the hall

And the bells in the steeple too

And up in the nursery an absurd little bird

Is popping out to say, "Cuckoo"

Cuckoo, cuckoo

Regretfully they tell us cuckoo, cuckoo

But firmly they compel us

To say, "Goodbye", to you

So long, farewell, Goodbye

I know we always tell each other not to count the days but instead, make the days count.

But you know... I can’t help but think of the day that he’ll be leaving again to work far away from me...

Actually he just went home few hours ago but sepanx is already hitting me a bit. I miss him so much. It’s only in Cavite nyan ha.

But yeeaaahhh it’s inevitable and I have to deal with it. I am more than willing to support him on his career and see him achieve his personal and career growth.

It’s just that.. it’s sooo hard to get used to do things together.. get used to anything with him. Hirap masanay.

Just the thought of him leaving, nakakapanghina.

We´re actually now on the first week of March.. and a lot has happened to me already. I am thankful for everything that´s happening in my life right now. Actually, I´m still very far from achieving all my dreams. But, as per the book that my Marketing Head gave me, ´´You can never be too small to dream big´´. :)

I always believed that a person never stops dreaming. Just like me. I have so much in my mind.. sometimes it´s frustrating that everything is still unclear on how am I suppose to achieve those one by one. BUT it will always be His will to be done and not mine. yet, I am still doing my best and looking for ways to make my dreams come true. For now, things are going accordingly and I know, it will continuously be good. Especially now that I wanted to be the best for this one person who thought me and encouraged me to always do what I want.

He´s the main reason that even it´s not easy to step out of my comfort zone, I did it. He always remind me ¨Kung anong makakapagpasaya sayo, yun ang gawin mo¨ without him knowing that he´s my happiness, my motivation and inspiration to keep going.

Without you, I won´t be able to do those things. It´s like I found my reason to dream again.. because I always want you to be proud of me. Hopefully, someday... I can make you proud. I want to give you nothing but the best and I can´t imagine losing you because i wasn´t enough. A lot out there are far better than me. More established, more of what I have become.. sometimes, I feel like you don´t deserve me... I feel so small. but I can´t just self pity. If I don´t wanna lose you, I need to step up too.. Sometimes, it´s frustrating and puts me under pressure cos there were times like I feel like I´m doing my best but still nothing is happening with my life. Lol. 

I’m feeling a bit emotional. Some things didn’t happen the way I wanted them to be BUT I still feel so grateful for everything. I won’t take it as a rejection but a redirection. Maybe God really has other plans for me and I’m simply letting His will be done.

Also, I feel excited for next year because.....

My John’s coming home.

I am sooooo excited to finally be so close to him. I am looking forward to seeing him again. I miss him sooooo much and nothing compares to the happiness I feel when we’re together.

You know sometimes the feeling na sana may nalalambing rin ako hahahah or sana he’s with me at some special moments or sana I can hug him after a long tiring day.

It’s all now so close to happen. 💓

I miss you so much..

no words can tell how i feel. not even i, can explain. Have you ever missed someone so much that even the thought of them made you burst into tears? Yeah, like that.

Sometimes I just wish you were here so I could tell you how much I need you and how days have been without you.

yet, I’m so much grateful for all the efforts exerted just to make me feel loved and happy.. I feel so blessed for having a kind hearted young man who loves me so much.

082719

How can I be your happiness when you say I’m the reason why you’re sad?

How can you tell me you’re still happy when you feel different from when we start?

If I could just take away all the pain.

If I could just fly towards you and wipe all those tears away.

If I could just turn all your fears to trust.

How I wish I can still really make you happy.

but if I’m not an enough reason to be,