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the reason I’m not asleep...ISHIDA SENSEI!!!! I LOVE YOU!

My best friend for the past eight years passed away on Sept. 28, two weeks ago. Words cannot begin to express the emptiness I am feeling.. I loved her like my sister. She was my everything. My better half. The yin to my yang. I spent every single day with her. If there were a day we didn't see each other, the next time we did we would act like it had been years since we last saw each other. I thought she was crazy when we first met, but she shaped me to be who I am today. Throughout high school no matter if we hadn't talked in months, whenever we did it was like nothing had changed. We graduated together and we made the promise to be each others motivation in school and to carry on to achieve our dreams and goals together. We did everything together. We were inseparable. My parents loved her like one of her own and I don't think I could have ever thanked her for everything she did for me. She was so beautiful inside and out and all I ever wanted was to be by her side forever. I couldn't wait to move out and start our lives and grow old together. All of our memories are playing back in my head like a movie. I just can't believe I have to say bye like this. She was my everything and I would do anything to just be able to hug her one more time. Tell her how much I love her and see her smile. I love you so so so so much Malak. You'll always be my best friend.

It's been ten days since my best friend has passed away.. Empty is an understatement.