#mr x

I mean, Leon even took the time to give him a nickname, Trenchy.

Okay, maybe later in their relationship that would have remained as a nickname, while the Tyrant would adopt the name Trevor or something similar.

And T-103 is much more expressive. You know how many possibilities there are with fanart (NOT JUST SMUT, BUT ALSO EVERYDAY ACTS. THAT SHOULD BE THE CORE OF A TYRANT'S RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT AND CONSCIOUSNESS, EVEN THOUGH I THINK THEY WOULD STILL BE VERY HOT IN BED!). Obviously, just because he's expressive doesn't mean he'd be more emotionally available.

He can show his feelings further than his previous model in the original resident evil 2, but he still wouldn't understand the same things. And... he's taller than the original and remake variants... human doors wouldn't be for him. Not even tubs or showers. Or the bed.

I predict an obscene amount of back and neck pain.

Because, a being made as weapon would not have a body prepared for pregnancy and labor. Even with great pain tolerance, without a birth canal can be a really difficult birth, expecially go a body prepared for external damage (does not mean anything because labor is still traumatizing to most women).

Or I am rambling again and it was the fastest childbirth in history?

Anyway, I bet X was as protective as a dragon of the baby, after some time reflecting on the situation.

Oh trust me. I am a professional yapper so here we go. I have put way too much thought into this aspect. There's going to be a LOT of info being dumped all in one go.

TW for child birth/pregnancy and some descriptions related to child birth, fears of pregnancy/child birth

When you’re with someone for so long that makes you unhappy, you learn not to put your happiness in other people

Funny thing about psychological and emotional abuse is that it almost feels like they have trained you to be able to hold up to the next escalated things they will do to you, sometimes things they don’t even know they will end up doing

For him it was unhappy with him or unhappy without him, unhappy was just a result of my choice to be with him .. there was never escape from it once I chose him (and money and providing doesn’t take it away either)

The reason I’m making this post is that I was self reflecting, and wondering why it was I could still have joy, not constant happiness, but deep, rooted joy in the midst of the vengeful aftermath of the divorce

He used to have a saying “ I do what I want” and he would say it in this childlike voice, I’ve thought about that many times, that Child voice was the voice. He never had when he was a child, but he was allowed to have it as an adult and that’s where the narcissism I believe, began to grow

Not everybody manifests blatantly, and in his particular case, knowing his mother, he learned very early on how to do things quietly without being too much a bother to angry her, so any type of abuse would likewise not be for the most part demonstrative

But after I was thinking about how it is that I can still have this joy I was thinking about the verse that says I have learned to be content with or without, and that is basically true, I learned to be content whether abased or abounding, and he taught me that many years ago or I should say I learned it from the things that he did that made me feel very unhappy naturally, I learned how to keep my joy

Whatever version anyone else gets of him, will not be the same version that I got, yes, deep inside he is still the same person, but the version that they would get is the one where he knows he was extremely lucky to get the help that he did to hurt me so that he could continue to feel good about himself, seeing me with someone else happily he would not have been able to survive that, and I saw him at the end he would not have been able to, and so he got help to punish me and to hurt me so that he could continue on

That is the version they will get, the one that knows he was extremely lucky to have a second chance, extremely lucky to have the support from people who bought into his complete bullshit, extremely lucky that I dropped the charges so that our daughter could keep her health insurance for her diabetes, and also he knows that he can’t do to that other person what he did to me otherwise he would be found out by the people who chose to help him, so that is the version that someone else will get, the behaved one

Although I’m not quite so sure he’s behaving as he should, that’s why I denied him when he asked, he would literally have to rape me to have me again that’s how much I despise his actions, I forgive him, a part of me will always care about him, but what he did to me and what he has continued to allow to happen to me, it disgusts me and there’s no way I could ever tolerate him to touch me in that way