#movedon

In their eyes, you left. It was easy for you. You replaced them. It was easy for you. You didn’t cry. It was easy for you. You moved on. It was easy for you.

I cried when you left.

I cried when you didn’t seem to care.

I cried knowing this would end.

Eventually. I moved on whilst with you. It wasn’t easy, it was heartbreaking and painful. But if you do not listen to when I wanted to speak to you, then do not be surprised if at the very end I’ll leave. I already left before you knew it. Because, you didn’t listen. You didn’t care. Because it was easy for you.

You’re so wrapped up in yourself, you forget you have a relationship with someone. And that means, you have something to work on.

Communication is the key. I didn’t expect a reply. I expected you to listen. Listen to what others say. Then you’ll learn. When to and when not to act. When to and when not to believe. When to and when not to conclude.

you seem so innocent, peering over the latest fad novel you just picked up

your eyes seem to pass by mine, not noticing the familiarity they once had to you

i think about walking over to you but my body stands still

replaying the last moments we shared together in my head over and over again

a time of hope and budding forgiveness

since then so much has changed

my ego demanding that i’m in the right

but is there a winner when you’ve both lost something so precious?

time we seemingly wasted away, energy put into a hopeless cause

i turn away hoping to save face, praying i won’t hear my name from a surprised voice

i brace myself for an awkward exchange, but nothing

silence.

i think to myself ‘why is no one speaking’

‘wasn’t this meant to mend itself eventually?’

did my dream of time machines manifest itself into something real?

our eyes meet and for a brief second i think, ‘it’s finally happening’

i replay all the reasons it shouldn’t and everything i put myself through to never think that way about you again

and in this moment i’m completely confused, but completely sure of what to do

but there is a sense of peace

my nod is met with an understanding smile that things will never be the same again

and finally things seem fine