#month 3

on the bus staring at my hands because they actually look like MY hands. they’re rough and veiny and defined. and they’re mine :)

saw someone describe starting HRT as waking up from a bad dream. not straight up a nightmare, just generally a bad, unpleasant, upsetting dream. im just under 120 days on T. that couldn’t be more exact to how it feels. i haven’t even been up for that long, in the grand scheme of things.

thought maybe it was just summer but no. i sweat like a motherfucker now. it’s gross lowkey but hey more proof shit’s still happening.

Films watched this month: 43

Films watched since start of project: 148

Total DVDs/Blu-rays owned at start of project: 2318

Total DVDs/Blu-rays owned now: 2395

Unwatched DVDs and Blu-rays at start of project: 405

Unwatched DVDs and Blu-rays now: 322

A whole 7 of you now follow my little project, so thanks, and welcome! I hope you're enjoying it.

I'm still far from the end. As you see from the numbers above, this will likely be going on until the end of the year. After I'm done with the movies, I will be tackling the series in my collection - which I'll do in a separate blog - and this one will be posted on less regularly then as it will be for whenever I buy new DVDs or rewatch one from my collection.

Some housekeeping:

I started tagging a few genres: horror and documentary.

Now every time I discuss horror as a genre, people will argue over what is and isn't horror. So to be upfront: I'm an "everything is horror" person, and it's my favourite genre. I find horror to be a very versatile and very cross genre friendly.

Movies watched between the 2nd of May 2026 and the 2nd of June 2026:

Critters (1986), Stephen Herek

Critters 2 (1988), Mick Garris

Critters 3 (1991), Kristine Peterson

Critters 4 (1992), Rupert Harvey

The Pink Panther (2006), Shawn Levy

Fahrenheit 451 (1966), François Truffaut

The Wild Robot (2024), Chris Sanders

True Grit (1969), Henry Hathaway

Total Recall (2012), Len Wiseman

The Boat That Rocked (2009), Richard Curtis

The Wrestler (2008), Darren Aronofsky

Shall We Dance? (1996), Masayuki Suô

Beginners (2010), Mike Mills

Shoot 'Em Up (2007), Michael Davis

Amy (2015), Asif Kapadia

Visioneers (2008), Jared Drake

Magic (1978), Richard Attenborough

The Devil's Own (1997), Alan J. Pakula

L'Amant (1992), Jean-Jacques Annaud

The Jerk (1979), Carl Reiner

Gaslight (1940), Thorold Dickinson

The Nun (2018), Corin Hardy

Lust, Caution (2007), Ang Lee

A Clockwork Orange (1971), Stanley Kubrick

Pride (2014), Matthew Warchus

A Walk Among the Tombstones (2014), Scott Frank

Crimes of the Future (2022), David Cronenberg

Mr Blandings Builds His Dream House (1948), H.C Potter

To Catch a Thief (1955), Alfred Hitchcock

Jack Reacher: Never Go Back (2016), Edward Swick

Still Alice (2014), Wash Westmoreland and Richard Glatzer

Two Days in Paris (2007), Julie Delpy

Pixels (2015), Chris Columbus

Brooklyn (2015), John Crowley

Cold Storage (2026), Jonny Campbell

The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert (1994), Stephan Elliott

Peeping Tom (1960), Michael Powell

War for the Planet of the Apes (2017), Matt Reeves

Die Hard with a Vengeance (1995), John McTiernan

Much Ado About Nothing (2012), Joss Whedon

A Good Die Hard (2013), John Moore

Portrait de la Jeune Fille en Feu (2019), Céline Sciamma

happy pride!!!!!!!!!!! feeling gay feeling manly feeling queer as FUUUCK

don't think i posted about it yet but i shaved my face for the first time back on the 21st! it was cool and awesome and it took me a minute to get used to but i really like how i look clean-shaven :)

LOL two days late but i am officially three months on T!

big recap:

the acne is starting. got a few more pimples on my face, but a LOT more on my back. lowkey sucks ass but not the worst thing ever

i feel Bigger. like i feel taller, even though im not. definitely am more broad, and i gained some weight! not much, since my job definitely toned me down a bit, but hoping i see more gain in the next few months

hunger has tapered a bit but i think it’s because im not lifting shit constantly. hoping it comes back when i start working out next week o7

cannot sugarcoat or understate how horny ive been. feels weird to say so plainly but oh my god i want this to go away so bad. let me out of the building PLEASE

on that note bottom growth is very present. big man is still under 1” but he makes himself known

my hands Actually For Real This Time look different! my knuckles are more defined, and my palms feel more rough :D sick as shit

arms are still bigger than before, and now also veiny. that’s fucking awesome

tiiiiniest bit of redistribution i think. like i can’t prove it but. somethings different

my face & neck look wider if that makes sense? it’s not noticeable to anyone but me i think but i love it :)

facial hair growth! my buddy pointed it out. it’s hard to see in pics but it is there. got a stache going :) and some chin hair! letting it do its thing for a little longer before i shave for the first time. but oh man i am excited to shave my face for the first time :D

MY VOICE IS DEEPER AND BASSY AND I LOVE IT. I NEVER SHUT UP ONCE I START YAPPING. I SOUND LIKE ME. I CAN KEEP UP WITH MORE OF MY FAV MALE SINGERS AND RAPPERS. I LOVE IT AND I LOVE LIFE

my cycles might be gone. knock on wood. spotting stopped last month and i am currently 2.5 weeks late. so. hoping so so fucking hard i am out of that building

overall, mentally & emotionally great! have definitely had some tough days, but they’re tough DAYS. my other days are good. like not good “for me”, good. i didn’t know living could feel like this :)

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The other patrol was boring 😔