#mlnb

what? youre in love? with me? you think of me like i think of you? my name crosses your mind when you hear lovesongs? your diary knows my name? really?

i miss my partner im not gonna see them before in 2 days...

love is such a weird concept. im not a lover, ive never loved, im a yearner. crushing on someone means daydreaming about them, thinking of oeverything you'd do if they knew your name. finding someone attractive is like a secret, a confession more than a statement, looking at someone from afar. loving means longing, staring at every detail of their face on a blurry picture, watching everything they do being mezmorized. every romantical thought of someone are for me and my diary, me and my poetry, love isnt something to speak up about, it never crosses my mind a single time to tell them how pretty they look. being in love with someone means mourning everything they do, missing them, yearning, longing, wishing for something you dont have, its something for me and not for an us. sexual attraction is a taboo, something private, finding something hot is between me and my dirty hands, being turned on is rather embarissing than suggestive, sexual, exiting. love were always a thing for only me to know, and how odd it is to tell someone everything i think about them, how devastatingly vulnerable it feels so stop hiding.

long distance is so fucking hard. i shouldnt be lying in bed crying because im not in the arms of the love of my life. i should be in the arms of the love of my life.

im developing a strange attachment to you i wish we met sooner i wish i were your first "i love you" but i can try to be your best i want you to consume my existence intertwine our lives forever you talk to me all day and i could listen to you speak forever i wanna give you love and a perfect ever after i love you with every bit of fate im born with if you ever need something to hold onto, im here if you asked me to stay id never let you go i want to love every imperfect bit of you i want to comfort you when you're down i wanna be there when the light breaks through your window if we were reborn as enemies and forced to hatred in every other universe id just be grateful to know your face i want to have you as my everyday i wanna get used to you i want to wake up every morning with you by my side i want to sit in silence most of the time and fall deeper and deeper in love with the quiet shadow of each other i wanna learn how to cook your favourite meal i wanna play you your favourite song i wanna make mixtapes with everything that sounds like you i want to kiss every part of your body worship every part of your skin hold every part of your sorrow i want you to love me i want to quietly watch you watch me i want to listen when you tell me im pretty i wanna hear all your thoughts i want you to feel my longing radiating through my skin i wanna show you how much i love you if loving you gets me to hell tear these holy wings off my back i dont want to believe in anything that doesnt believe in us i dont want heaven if it isnt you i want to run away with you we could travel over the nightsky and never look back i want to be careless and free and leave everything behind just know, i would as soon as you ask i'll ask the sun to shine on you everywhere you go and the moon to watch over you at night and you'll never have to be afraid in some way, ill always be by your side and with the blood on your hands ill hold you if im hated by the rest of the world knowing you love me is enough to not care about anything else i would start a war for you and i would stop one to bring you peace i know how you like it and i make sure everything's how it should be you're like a threat outside my window, a dangerous way out and id take any chances to end by your side prince on you white horse, beautiful boy i love your silver skin and if loving you takes a million tries id come back everytime with flowers and "im sorry" im gonna fight for your love like you deserve you're the one who holds me when im about to break you're there when i fall apart you celebrate my smallest victories you were the one who put me together i wouldnt say im fixed you just filled a part of me the gaping hole in my chest feels a little less empty when you're laying here and i can feel your heartbeat im not one to talk about soulmates but i think i believe in us

I wish my boyfriend could see my tail wag