a pleasant night || pavellan || snippet of better left unsaid
Renan and Dorian have a long-overdue conversation.
When Josephine had first led Renan by the arm into the highest room of the tallest tower, gesturing to furs, Antivan rugs, plush seating, and the single largest bed he'd ever seen in his life, she'd called it cozy. Warm and intimate, she'd said. A place to relax.
Renan wouldn't use any of those words, himself. The space was... functional. Decently private at night, but the first place his advisors looked for him during the day. It was typically quiet, the whipping mountain winds drowning out commotions in the courtyards, and it was the only space in all of Skyhold in which he didn't have to behave as Inquisitor Lavellan. Most usefully, however, it gave him an excellent view of the sky on clear nights; tomorrow, the moon would rest and spare the night her vigil. Tonight, only the barest sliver of moonlight remained, the waning crescent so thin it could cut the sky.
So tonight, he bled.
His right arm rested over a small funneled basin, two half-circles notched from the cool ceramic edge to hold his wrist and elbow steady. Just beneath the bend of his arm, a small cut slowly but steadily wept, dripping into the bowl and trickling, one drop at a time, into a small vial below.
His left hand fiddled aimlessly with the pages of Genitivi's book, telling himself he'd use it to pass the time while he filled his last vial, but his eyes were fixed on the drops instead. He'd skimmed all of five or so pages for the information he sought before giving up, foot bouncing below the desk as his head ached and his skin took a chill. He swallowed thickly and rubbed his clammy forehead; bloodletting was always more difficult on the last moonlit night.
But after a few more drops, the vial was full enough to call it done. He sat back, lifting his arm from the bowl, and dragged his fingers through the warm dribble of blood, smearing it across the cut. With a whisper and a flash of static, the cut disappeared, knuckles throbbing and skin stinging as it knit itself back together. The new vial was nothing extraordinary; he held it to candlelight for a moment, watching blood cling to glass as he turned it over in his hand, and found nothing of note aside from his own trembling fingers.
Cleanup was more or less muscle memory by this point. Within a few minutes, the basin and lancet had been cleaned and stored away in the bottom left drawer alongside the vial rack, into which he slotted the fresh tube. He closed the drawer slowly, glass rattling gently against metal, and locked it tight.
The key trembled in his hand as he pocketed it, pulling a frown to his lips. He needed to get up; water and a fruit platter waited for him on his bedside table, an intentionally-placed beacon to tempt him somewhere softer. If he stayed where he was, hands shaking and brow sweaty, he'd fall asleep at his desk, and he was in no state to be inviting further joint pain upon himself. He just... needed to get up. That wouldn't be so hard. He rested his forehead in a palm — just for a moment, he told himself. Just to take a breath. His head was so heavy, all of a sudden, really. He wasn't going to pass out. He was not going to fall asleep here, not again, but —
A sudden scraping noise, something tic-tic-ticking across stone, and his eyes flew open, breath frozen in his lungs. Something was on his balcony.
In a breath, he was on his feet, snatching his staff from the wall and leaning his weight into it, head swimming as he padded through the open archway into the night. Pale stone tiles, carved railings, open doors. The wobble of candlelight across the floor, and distantly, the shimmer of stars. He blinked once, twice, rubbed his eyes, but everything seemed as it should be. He walked slowly to the corner, peering around the wall, but the balcony was... empty. He shook his head.
Damn this, he huffed, dragging his feet back towards his bed. He'd never started hearing things after bloodletting before, but... he leaned his staff against the wall, picked up an apple, and nearly collapsed onto his mattress, sinking his teeth into the fruit. It was possible that the stress was getting to him. He had been more on edge than usual, what with worrying over Dorian on top of playing Inquisitor. It was possible that he did, in fact, need to relax, as Varric and The Iron Bull often urged him, dragging him into their card games in thinly-veiled attempts to coax stories from him.
He grimaced and itched at his forehead, feeling the drying sweat there, and sighed.
It was possible that, for now, he should just... take a bath, read a book, and try, for once, to have a pleasant night.
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mLavellan is one of those origins that seems to get very little love (not as badly as Cadashes and Adaars, but still), so I figured I’d list some nice mods for your male Lavellan. These are really just hair and outfit mods, but they’re still some nice ones.
(obvs if there’s any interest, ill do a collection for others who get v little love, too)
TO START, SOME MISC
These are mods that are otherwise usable by other races (cadash/trevelyan) but will help in making a good looking Lavellan
Eyebrows 4 Men/Cirian Face Texture: Because the eyebrow presets are kinda ugly
Shantia’s Eyebrows: again, vanilla brows bad. works for m and f.
Nethras Complexion
MaleNova Complexion
Koric Makeup Tweaks
This and That
Calpernia for EM
Ghostspires DAI Complexions
HAIR
SK Hair Pack: Several nice styles for EM. My favorite is the messy swept back hair.
Skara’s Tapatalk mods: Includes Mystic hair, Arlen’s new and old hairdos, Ellesar’s hair, outerwear retex, Ardent Circlet and several more
Koric’s Small Hairpack: Several nice hairstyles for EM in this one as well. The cropped hair is my favorite.
Illias Long hair: not just EM, a very good look
Lion’s Mane for All
Disheveled Sidebraid for Male Elves
Lavellan Hair Pack: has a nice, Noctis inspired style for mLavellan
EM Medium Short Hair
Simple Hair for EM
Mohawke Braid
Low Ponytail
Assorted Hairstyles
Warrior Mohawk Series
Shaved Sidebraid
Brushed Back Hair for Elves
Long Tresses for Male Elf
Ponytail With and Without Fringe
Telani’s Hair
Norse Style Braid
OUTFITS
Most can pair with the Custom Body Model, which has several nice EM options, though some of these alter meshes so be forewarned.
Thranduil Inspired Skyhold Outfit: A retexture/remesh of the skyhold beige PJs that fancies up your elf lad while still keeping it nicely elven.
Winter Palace Outfit Retexture: Not necessarily just EM, but very nice, Dalish themed Winter Palace retextures.
HM EM Outerwear Retexture: A retexture for the EM scarf outerwear, HM also an option!
Skyhold Pajamas Retexture for Male Elves: Really nice black retexture of the Skyhold pajamas
Skyhold Outfit for Elf Males: Mesh and texture edits of the PJs, in a few lovely versions
Dalish Elf Skyhold Outfits: For your elfy elf Inquisitor
Keeper of the Lost Lore Robes: Lovely retextures of the male keeper robes. Pair with this for PJ or Skyhold replacer and this for prologue replacer.
A Lovely-an Lavellan: more Dalish goodness for your Inquisitor
Pride of the Inquisitor: Fancy retextures of the pjs
Fenris PJ Retexture: Looks more or less exactly like Fenris’ armor
Fenris Inspired Skyhold PJs: a fancier, classier version of Fenris’ outfit for mLavellan
Warden PJ Retexture: Retextures the PJs to look like DA2 Warden armor
Live Like Solas/Equip Like Solas: Allows your mLavellan to equip Solas’ armor. Might be mage only.
Solas Trespasser Armor for mLavellan: be your own egg
Mixed Mods: retextures for Solas’ wolf armor.
Wardrobe Retex and Tints
Robes of the Inquisitor: not necessarily Lavellan exclusive, but still v nice
Jammas of the Kadan: for your bullmancing Lavellan 8)
SLIDERS AND SAVEGAMES
Inquisitor Sliders: for an unnamed male Lavellan, and a lovely Lavellan named Ren.
Koric Sliders: Includes sliders for some gorgeous Lavellans including Eli, Nu’Si and Thelum.
Mahanon Lavellan Rogue Savegame: savegame before and after recruiting the mages in Redcliffe
Completed Sidequests EM
Fenris Sliders
Cullenites Characters: includes a lavellan named Damien
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Elf-son finally in HD without all the crappy phone photos of a tv screen with ps3 quality graphics! (:’D)
Yes Quen actually has facial scars. They are kinda faint because they are over a decade old. Should remember to put it in my drawings of him from now on.