#mj's garbage

I did good today. I was able to successfully calm my partner down from a panic attack and make them feel better. I hope I was able to truly show how much I love them. I feel soft overall, happy I was finally able to help them. To make them feel better, wanted loved. I feel like cotton candy is melting in my chest sweet and stickly leaving the ache of pure love behind. I adore them in every sense of the word. I want them to be happy and comfortable at all times, I can't do that for them rn but I do what I can to help them, to soothe them. I was able to do that today and for now it is enough.

Lol I'm reading this back and I sound so melodramatic, I guess that's just how my thoughts are ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm glad I have at least this, I have no one to talk to abt this shit IRL. Everyone I know would freak the hell out if they knew I thought this way. I have already been inpatient once. I'm not going back again

Life with depression : YES! This random piece of of food will make me happy!!

Yo! I'm MJ owner of this blog, I have a normal tumblr but I don't really post feelings stuff on there. And iv found its good to get this shit outta my system sooooo. This. I don't expect anyone to follow but if ya want feel free. I don't mind if my emotions are a soap opera for other people, they are almost as dramatic anyway.