#miscellaneous rambles

Shout out to Adderall, tho. The love-hate relationship of my life.

was listening to a podcast (5-4) about the Supreme Court case that overturned Colorado's ban on conversion therapy and the SC basically argued/agreed that practicing conversion therapy is a free speech issue, which is a fundamental misunderstanding of what therapy and mental health services are?? like they were heavily implying that therapy is just chitchat when it is actually HEALTHCARE. this is equivalent to saying licensed doctors should be able to tell patients to kill themselves as a substitute for providing treatment; conversion therapy is actively harmful and literally does increase suicide risk. but lgbtq+ issues aside it's fucking insane how many people still see mental health care as optional-- as a non essential privelage solely for those who can afford it-- and therapy as a non serious fun little hobby. it fundamentally miscategorizes mental illness as a silly little quirk instead of a potentially life threatening illness that is part of a person's health. anyway.

when your hyperfixtation randomly spikes like a beam of light for NO reason for a fandom with literally ONE singular fanfic. (a blessed, fantastic, wonderful fanfic) and now you want to assist and write more fanfic because apparently drawing is not enough for you anymore and you need to express your love for it in more ways then one. but then you're randomly hit with a beam of the godforsaken WRITERS BLOCK because apparently the universe wants you to struggle and the series you want to write for has only the FIRST BOOK out with like 50 cliffhangers and a million questions to answer and wtf do you even write about. hahaha i'm losing my mind this is becoming obnoxious send help

Never underestimate your ability to understand a language you don't speak through ttrpg, context clues, and shitty auto subs!!!

UGH I thought my dietitian session was today instead of tomorrow and i had intentionally scheduled less lab work today so I would have time and now im basically fucked