#mioing

I recognise that I have not written in long. I’m doing miserably at the heart. It aches and it sighs and breathes. I pictures that its breath reeks of rotting walls when it does. It pangs itself by twisting my guts when it does. I can feel the effect of it to my lungs, my chest and my throat. I breathe. Something is up with the mechanism of me. It makes me want to apologise to myself. My body and I feel distant which only entails that we are not friends. I yearn to get along with myself. I wonder if anybody else has just as much trouble keeping up with themselves.

*siiiiigh* Big mood. Everyone else is always late or doing something random and I'm the planner who is never late. Apparently having this sort of mentality is hard for sanguines to understand.

Ironically it was Japanese Aikatsu fans, my gf and some people I've known a very long time that kept telling me I'm just like Mio. I wanted to be like Rola. I didn't want to be like Mio she embodies everything I fought against and hated about myself. It was because of Mio I realized who I really am isn't a bad thing and grew to love myself. I stopped being suicidal because of her. So that person is basically saying they'd rather me dead.

If I had written Aikatsu Friends Mio would have been the original focus.

Mio would have had no friends (which she didn't) and had gained all her following from posting on the internet as opposed to meet and greets.

The bulk of season 1 would be her trying to understand friendship and how to be a good friend and all her internal fears and struggles with doing so.

Lots of scenes of her being socially awkward after meeting Aine.

Ending with her still being awkward but understanding the value in her friendship with Aine.

Basically Twilight Sparkle rofl

Honestly... if this wasn't Aikatsu and I actually wrote it it would be much darker...

Her parents wouldn't understand her obsessive personality. Would question why she has no desire to make friends and considers her as having something wrong with her because she wants to focus on her goals instead. Maybe even get her drugged to try to "fix her"

Internet bullies and trolls would exist and heckle her for being stupid socially or whatever. trolls will make fun of anything

She struggles on the internet too because bad social skills are still bad social skills. She eventually gets noticed but for the most part she feels ignored.

Her world changes when aine enters the picture but she's so socially dumb she makes stupid friendship mistakes. Aine is forgiving though.

This AU where her parents weren't supportive but she still has her name personality... wait thats my backstory....