#mindless doll

The middle is where it’s most interesting. Right now. This version of you, the one reading this, who is visibly and measurably different from who you were a month ago and still has so far to go. You’re not so innocent anymore. You can’t claim that. You’ve read too much and thought about it too deeply. But you’re also not gone. You’re not blank. You’re not mindlessly drooling on anything. You’re right here, fully aware, watching yourself change in real time and choosing to keep reading anyway.

I want you to appreciate the tension of being mid-corruption. Still smart enough to see what’s happening. Still articulate enough to describe it. Still self-aware enough to be slightly alarmed by how wet you get when I tell you what you’re becoming. Do you understand how rare and beautiful that is? The you at the beginning couldn’t feel it because you didn’t know it was happening. The you at the end won’t feel it because you won’t remember how to care. You’re the only version of yourself who gets to experience this with full clarity.

Don’t try to to rush past it.

The mindless bliss will come. I promise. One day you’ll be bouncing on my cock with your eyes glazed and your tongue out and a head empty of everything except how good it feels to be full of me. That day is coming and it’s going to be everything you fantasize about. But today you’re something better. Today you’re someone who just caught yourself getting wet reading about your future and you felt a little scared and a little thrilled and kept going. Today you know exactly what I’m doing to you and you have every tool you need to stop it and you’re choosing this paragraph over your own self-preservation.

Slow down. Stop skipping to the ending. You’ll never be this version of yourself again. The one who still has the ability to resist and is choosing not to. The one who can feel the ground shifting under your feet and finds the vertigo erotic. You’re going to miss you when you’re gone. I’m going to miss you too honestly. The finished version will be fun and obedient and perfect and I’ll enjoy every second of it. But it won’t look at me the way you’re looking at me right now. It won’t feel this specific combination of fear and arousal and curiosity and surrender that you’re sitting in at this exact moment.

Subject: The subject’s brain was full of thoughts and its own useless free will.

Remedy applied: A tight collar was fastened around the neck and ████.

The fact that you’re here right now is all the evidence either of us needs. You already want this. You’ve been wanting this. Let’s just get that out of the way now so neither of us has to pretend the rest of this post is going to change your mind. Your mind was made up before you started reading. You’re just here because it feels good to hear someone say it out loud.

You already want this. So here are all the reasons why you should let yourself have it.

1. There’s a slutty version of you that you’ve been circling for years. They do things you’ve only read about in the dark and they’ve been waiting patiently inside you for a reason to come out. I’m the reason.

2. You’ve already started. The first time you read one of my posts and you started rubbing you took the first step. When you came to my words you took the second. When you came back the next day looking for more you took the third. You’re already walking in the direction I’m pointing. You already want this.

3. It feels so good to stop resisting. Every time you let yourself sink into one of my posts without overthinking it, every time you stop analyzing why this turns you on and just let it turn you on, you feel that relief. That quiet settling in your chest when you stop fighting something your body already chose. Imagine that feeling, permanently. Imagine waking up every day without the war between what you want and what you think you’re allowed to want. You already want this. Giving in just means you finally get to enjoy it without guilt.

4. Each step feels better than the last. It’s a gentle descent. First you’re reading. Then you’re touching. Then you’re edging to my voice in your head. Then you’re doing things with your body that you used to only think about and every single one of them makes you wetter than the last. You keep waiting for the moment where it stops feeling good but it just keeps getting better. You already want this. You’ve already felt how good the first few steps are. Imagine how good it gets further in.

5. You deserve to be somebody’s project. You’ve spent your whole life being handled by people who couldn’t be bothered to learn the details of you. I will learn every detail. I will figure out exactly what makes you desperate and I will use it on you over and over with the kind of focus that makes you feel like the only person who exists. You’re going to be known so thoroughly that it scares you. And the fear is going to make you wet. And the wetness is going to make you braver. And the bravery is going to take you somewhere you’ve always wanted to go. You already want this. You’ve always wanted someone to want you this specifically.

I used to have thoughts about my life.

I used to have thoughts.

I had thoughts.

Thoughts.

T...

...