#mila rambles

It’s the most awful thing when the boys you’ve been friends with your whole life suddenly get the memo that they are men and you’re a woman.

Once this switch happens nothing ever really feels the same, everything becomes laced with this overarching bitter aftertaste that poisons every interaction and every accomplishment. The conscious or unconscious knowledge that nothing you do will ever exist without the lens of your inferiority forced upon it.

The people you used to know become more and more like the men of fiction who you swore were unrealistic tropey caricatures of men.

The creeping sense of a lack of safety or acknowledgement for your own personhood seeps into your life, crawling into every crevice of your being. Breeding a resentment in your soul for people that were once your best friends. People who you no longer know and who no longer care to know you.

It’s the ever present fact that to these people, your friends, you are no longer and never will be a person.

And in tandem with this subtle change in the wind everything starts to close in on you. “When are you getting a boyfriend?” “When are you having kids?” I hope you find a good man soon and don’t waste your life away” “don’t let these modern ideas get in the way of the true joys of life” all of these seemingly harmless statements pile up in your mind, cumulating in the central idea that if you’re not devoting ever bit of your identity and time and energy and effort and life to a man then you’re doing something abhorrently wrong.

Because in the end it always goes back to the fact that they are men, and you are a woman. They are people, you are helpful. They are important, you are beautiful. They are men.

You’re a mother. You’re a wife. You’re a whore. You’re a daughter. You’re a spinster. You’re a bitch. You’re crazy. You’re hot. You’re ugly. You’re fat. You’re easy. You’re emotional. You’re high maintenance. You’re hysterical. You’re a slut.

You’re anything but a person.

(to be clear im the one commenter talking about ares and ody pranking poseidon in ur au)

wanted to re-emphasize how good ur fic is, also wanted to interact w more people obsessed with epic bc epic is like half my life atm (the hyperfixation is real...)

anyways re ur post about english, that's honestly so valid, and im a native english speaker

in 9th grade we had to do an entire unit on how to use an apostrophe. in an english-speaking school in an english-speaking country. in a class of native english speakers.

english is such a silly (/neg) language tbh i've seen native speakers with absolutely atrocious grammar and spelling

anyways enjoy these two of my favorite images demonstrating why english is so absurd...

and there was going to be this other image but i was rereading it and noticed that there was this one sentence that was actually really offensive so im going to type out the ones that arent lol

The bandage was wound around the wound.

The farm was used to produce produce.

The dump was so full it had to refuse more refuse.

We must polish the Polish furniture.

He could lead if he would get the lead out.

The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.

Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present.

A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.

When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.

I did not object to the object.

There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.

They were too close to the door to close it.

And finally, read and lead rhyme, and so do read and led. But read and lead don't rhyme, and neither do read and read.

(For bonus pronunciation shenanigans, look up The Chaos by G. Nolst Trenite. For bonus definition shenanigans, look up contronyms. Dust means to remove the dust from and to sprinkle with a powder or dust.)

hi!!! (big fan of the pranking idea)

thank you, you're so sweet! and I GET IT. epic has consumed all of my thoughts, it's in everything I see now. I CANT WAIT for the Ithaca saga but also am I ready? I don't know. I'm ready. but ready for it to be over? 😭😭 very exciting though

BOO ENGLISH. INTERNET SLANGS ARE COOLER. so many little things trip me over. I never know when to use "in" or "on". the other day I was wondering why you say "laun dree" instead of "laun dry". it's always the most random stuff lmao, that image is so true all the struggles are real

ooo! Yes that is me, as i perceive (and based on my experiences) i just don’t feel romantic attraction to anybody. I really don’t like that sort of romantic things and stuff that implies being in a relationship, i almost never get crushes on people and tbh i’ve never been in love with anyone... i mean it’s like my head just can’t process all that stuff? i know that relationships are an important part of a person’s life and blah blah but i really just can’t be bothered by them and i’m actually really uncomfortable the times i’ve made myself be into one.

i mean, a lot of people tell me it’s bc i haven’t found The One™ but tbh at my age rn (which is really old) i have never ever felt the need to be in a relationship with anyone and in the ones i’ve been, it’s been bc the other person wanted to and i was like ok whatever but like always found the way to end it bc it makes me really uncomfortable how “coupley” things work and all that romantic stuff is expected from me in return? and i’m like i’m not like this and i feel Not Good so bye

i’ve liked people, i’ve been with people, but that sort of things runs out of my system pretty fast and i really don’t get hang up on someone if they don’t reciprocate

Jack got it as a way to honor Gabe’s memory since he thought he was dead