#mickey rambles

When I say taking a step back from fandoms as a whole has done a fuckton of good to my mental health in all aspects, I mean it. I cannot stress it enough how good it is to take a step back.

Instead of trying so badly to force a creation, to force a fic or a comic or art or anything, trying to force yourself to love a piece of media that means so much, it backfires in such a blaze of glory that, for me at least, it went from loving something to resenting it. I got angry and upset and frustrated that something I tried to keep up, something I kept saying I loved was just not. Hitting. It was like trying to keep a dying ember going and all the sticks I have are covered in water and won't burn.

That was until I stepped back. Put it to the side. Tried something new. And oops, there was that old spark I missed so badly. The one that made me think for days on end, wanting to explore more about the character, wanting to learn all the secrets and even giving it a scary shot of writing what I learned and so on. Hell, even just wanting to know more without this absolute need to do anything was there.

I have been having so much fun in this new territory that it sparked not one, not two, but three new comic ideas - all original, I might add!

Add the whole "permanently stepping back from social media" thing I implemented on myself back in 2024, and suddenly I feel... lighter. Yeah, of course I'm gonna hope people will like my new stories, one that have nothing to do with the old medias but very clearly and obviously inspired by it, but the weight of fandoms? And all that entails? Out the window.

Now this is not by any stretch me saying "abandon the old and dead! it's boring and done and lame and cringe!" Far from it, I still think about things like Monkey Island or King's Quest and the such from time to time and even have silly thoughts of what to draw or write, I still have stories for 3ADV I want and will share because it feels too important not to (which hi, yes, Act 9 is still in production as well as a few short gags cause I have to bully at least one of them thoroughly for pissing me the fuck off, I just need a vacation from the trio for a hot minute), but I am definitely saying that if anyone feels that burnout, that frustration and anger and grievance of something not working: Step back.

It's okay.

I am the first one to say that it's okay to take a break from a fandom, from a game, show, or whatever you've dedicated your time into.

I've been very low activity for the past couple of months but good news! I'm still alive but now I have a degree, a new place and I have aged once again.

I'm trying to get a job rn since we've moved to a different state but I may open up commissions to help get some sort of money coming in on my end until I get stable work, I'll update my commission sheet to show off some of my work

I know it’s been a while but here are a few things to update all of you on!

Over the past few months when I was away, I started another story called Graceful Sorrow. It all started as some little scribble I did here on Tumblr over this post I found. But Graceful Sorrow turned into a fully fledged story that will most definitely break your heart, maybe even more than PI. It’s a story that honestly became really close to my own heart and I’ve come to love it just as much as I love PI.

It talks about a universe where Kara and Lena are married but Kara is unfortunately dead. She was killed by Lillian and the story follows Lena's journey into coming into terms with her grief, sinking in denial, and obsessed with getting her revenge. The story has helped with some of my own demons and I've gotten several comments and asks from people claiming that it has helped them too. So, if you’re interested in some really really angsty self-sabotaging Lena on the path of destruction (but will eventually redeem herself and learn how to cope in a healthy way) then go check Graceful Sorrow out. Also, side note, this is a spoiler so you don’t have to read the next sentence but some people were concerned about the Kara being dead part. Weeeellll.................... Yeah, she comes back. I had to do a lot of research and come up with sciency stuff to bring her back from the dead but rest assured she wakes up in the latest chapter I posted.

I still haven’t finished the next chapter of GS. It will take me another week before I could give you an answer of where I’m at with the chapter. I’m currently working on Chapter 40 of PI which...........

Drumroll, please!

Drrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Will be posted this weekend!

I know, that’s bloody impossible! <-- is what you lot are probably thinkin! Ya’ll really thought I was abandoning my baby didn’t ya! I would never! Next chapter is written and is being edited by yours truly on the subway over the weekend. 

However, I know it’s been quite a long time since I’ve posted a chapter, so I’m sure many of you have forgotten a few details here and there or where the story was left at. So, you’ve got three days to brush up on PI before I post the next one. Or maybe we could do a group brush up here on Tumblr. Or if any of you would care to explain this complicated story to those who have forgotten. I dunno! We’ll figure something out!

Now! Moving on to all the Portuguese-speaking fans of PI (Which from what I gathered, there are more of you guys than there is of anyone else), there’s a special surprise for all of you!

Paranoia Incarnated has officially been translated into Portuguese!

I know, right???!!!!! It’s mind blowing is what it is! It’s all thanks to the brilliantly talented @yesmandsilv99 . She took it upon herself to bring PI to you in a whole other language. I myself got so excited that I went and checked it out and was able to read the first sentence before I remembered I couldn’t read Portuguese!! It really warms my heart that people out there who weren’t able to read it in English can now read it in their own language. It put the biggest smile on my face and for that I thank Amanda for doing so :)

So go on to the links below to read it in your language and enjoy yourselves! And don’t forget to send some love and gratitude towards Amanda who worked really hard on it.

Read it on Spirit Fanfics

Read it on Wattpad 

*Feel free to tag anyone you know who either is not able to read stories in English or would enjoy reading in Portuguese or simply looking for a fic to read and would like to a change from English.