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Because I'm slowly losing count and need to organize. So, here's all my self-written metas or ones that I reblogged with my own added theories and commentary! In rainbow colours, naturally.
1 – Aziraphale, I love you. But you lied. And here's why.
My most lengthy and proudest meta about the Final Fifteen and why I think Aziraphale lied on purpose. (Also: The absolute darling @esthermitchell-author bravely fought their way through it and wrote up some more interesting points and different takes on what I came up with. If you want to go down a S2 rabbit hole with us, go read it here.)
2 – Why Aziraphale is an unreliable narrator (links below)
A three-part meta in which I try to analyse and explain that all of the minisodes in Season 2 are not objective narrations but actually Aziraphale's memories.
Part 1: The Story of Job
Part 2: The Story of wee Morag
Part 3: The Story of the Magic Show in 1941
3 – The Jane Austen Ball and why it was never about Nina and Maggie
A meta in which I go into unnecessarily great detail about how the Whickber Street Meeting Cotillion Ball was meant to be Aziraphale's confession to Crowley.
4 – Crowley & Aziraphale were never free (reblog)
A reblog of @baggvinshield's post in which I explain why miscommunication is the single biggest ineffable enemy in Season 2.
5 – In Defense of Aziraphale (double reblog)
A double try at explaining why I think Aziraphale's POV in the Final Fifteen is just as horrible as Crowley's and why I don't think him "choosing" to go back to Heaven was the only point of his character journey.
6 – The Art of Miscommunication: Ineffable Edition
A meta in which i once again explain why miscommunication is the single biggest ineffable enemy in Season 2.
7– Season 2 Bookshop Shot Meta
A meta where I briefly loose my mind because of a single bookshop frame in Season 2.
8 – What if it wasn't Aziraphale and Crowley who performed the 25 Lazarii miracle?
A mini-meta in which I propose the theory that Jimbriel helped with the miracle to hide himself away from Heaven & Hell.
9 – Things in Good Omens Season 2 I still find weird (reblog)
A reblog of @ok-sims and many other great OPs' thoughts on the weird loose strings in Season 2 and what unanswered questions I still have myself.
10 – The Deleted Bookshop Scene (reblog)
A reblog of @skirtdyke's video and @i-only-ever-asked-questions' smart thoughts on it, with my own overly-excited 'what that could have meant for the "It's too late" line'-theroy.
11 – The Bentley Handle Easter Egg
A meta I can proudly say has been liked by none other than Mr. Neil Gaiman himself about Crowley's Bentley handle that might have existed before the Bentley ever did.
12 – The F*cking Eccles Cakes
A meta where I briefly loose my mind because of a pastry. (Addendum: People said very smart things in the comments of the post!)
14 – Re: "You go too fast for me, Crowley"
A meta in which I make myself sad by connecting that infamous line to Aziraphale assuming Crowley wanted the Holy Water as a suicide pill.
13 – Trauma-Dumping on your plants: The Anthony J. Crowley Chronicles
A meta on why Crowley treats his plants the way that he does.
14 – Demonic Mental Health Awareness Post
In which I talk about why I want to get Crowley a therapy voucher.
15 – The Curious Incident of The Flaming Sword in Good Omens
A meta on why the Flaming Sword has no deeper meaning. Or does it? (Updated: here's a reblog from @queerfables who did a wonderfully exellent job at calmly explaining all the swordy questions I was yelling about! Consider this meta solved.)
16 – Ceci n'est pas une plume
A meta in which I'm a bit of a nerd for language and also explain why learning French and magic the human way says so much about Aziraphale as a character.
17 – The meaning of "I forgive you"
A meta in which I explain what both "I forgive you"s mean and why Aziraphale will always fight for what is right until he wins. Also, the lovely @sharksbeerr translated it to Chinese on Weibo!
18 – Memory, or the lack thereof, in Season 2
A little reblog on how memory is a big and unresolved, leaky-bucket theme in Season 2.
19 – „It‘s always too late.“ (ft. Crowley‘s watch)
A short meta about that lines from Season 2 that won‘t leave my brain (and also Crowley‘s mysterious watch).
Addendum:
The one non-spoiler-y ask I could come up with about S2 that was actually answered by Neil, yay!
Also, this wholesome little post I added to that Mr. Gaiman also reblogged. :‘)
*** This is a work in progress and will get updated every time I post a new meta! ***
We're about at the time where a post like this makes sense. If you see any missing metas it's likely because I no longer (entirely) agree with either a premise or phrasing and I'd like to rework it at some point—or I forgot. Feel free to ask!
I've bolded metas which I believe to be the most sound or that present a perspective which is overlooked by most ASOIAF analysis I have read. I also use the tags #text and #gender-in-asoiaf.
The Starks and the North
how jon being a bastard shaped the relationships between ALL members of house stark
on the abuse debate
how jon snow internalized catelyn tully stark's ideals
jon snow's heroes: an evolution from AGOT to ADWD
on jon snow and the R+L=J reveal
on jon snow's attraction to men
on jon snow forgiving theon greyjoy
on jon snow weaponizing his own competence
jon snow & women at the Wall: the question of rape
sansa stark & foreshadowed false testimony
sansa and ned have a foil relationship to lyanna and rickard
arya IS like other girls
arya stark: death and balance
arya & jon underrated parallels
the textual significance of the arya/lyanna parallels
the importance of lyanna stark's crypt statue
how lyanna influenced ned's acts of love for his daughters
how ned stark would perceive daenerys targaryen
what would happen to ned if robert discovered R+L=J?
Daenerys Targaryen
every daenerys ever: how dany's claim of a throne is foreshadowed throughout house targaryen's history
on the healing power of fire
on the myth that daenerys targaryen ruined meereen's economy
on the myth of a diplomatic solution in meereen
daenerys & ser barristan selmy: found family!
daenerys & bran: putting the first/last chapters of AGOT in conversation
daenerys & tyrion: how their TWOW alliance may come about
House Targaryen
visenya the conqueror & the evolution of usurpation in house T
on rhaegar targaryen and the prophecy of TPTWP
on alysanne targaryen, and how viserra's betrothal/the aftermath unfolded
viserra, alysanne, & baelon: a web weaving
viserra & saera
Theon Greyjoy
theon's gender: always broken, always under construction
[NOTE: this is the meta on which all my other theon meta relies. If you read nothing else I have ever said about theon, please read this.]
roose bolton as (another) father figure to theon
why theon greyjoy did not go visit his mother
theon greyjoy and the myth of return
theon greyjoy and winterfell's mirroring in ADWD
House Lannister
jaime & tyrion's awareness of cersei being abused
cersei lannister's brothers rationalization of cersei as being complicit in her abusive relationship
on cersei lannister's idealization of rhaegar, & also her dysphoria
ASOIAF Misc
breakdown of the grand maester conspiracy
unreliable narrators (and why we NEED arianne martell POV)
jon connington's memory
Dance of the Dragons Era
rhaenyra targaryen's maladaptive relationships due to abuse
rhaenyra & daemon's gender troubles
on viserys naming (and keeping) rhaenyra as his heir
on the legality of claims of bastardry
alicent, criston, & daemon as rhaenyra's formative (abusive) influences
Blackfyre Rebellion Era
exploring shiera seastar & her tense love triangle with bloodraven and bittersteel
Hi there! It's about time I sorted out this blog and put all my Sandman posts in one place. If you're new here, I adore the Sandman in all its forms and my blog has become a bit of a love letter to this masterpiece of media lately. I mostly write meta analysis, love to discuss the work and the characters, and occassionally try my hand at running fandom events. My ask box is always open and I am always happy to answer any questions about Sandman so please do reach out to me if you like my meta :)
I welcome all fans of The Sandman here, though I can occassionally be NSFW so if that's not your jam make sure you have "NSFW" tag blacklisted. I'm a multishipper of the firm believe that Dream of the Endless should be passed around the other characters like a bowl of goth candy. I don't tolerate ship hate. It's all good here my loves.
I have a fairly decent tagging system. I tag all ships, characters, fanart, meta discussions, fanfiction, etc. You can find the list of common tags below.
My Meta Analysis
Masterpost of Dreamling meta - this is an eight part highly detailed analysis of Dreamling in the show and how it differs from the comic and audiobook, with a focus on how queercoding was used to emphasise a deeper relationship between Dream and Hob.
Hob Gadling - A Queer Romantic - a meta about unreliable narrators, Jim/Peggy and Hob's queer potential.
The Problem with Thessaly - an opinion piece on this problematic comic character and how the show could solve this issue.
Lucienne/Lucien - How the Librarian Became the Chief - a thorough analysis of Lucienne's character in the show and how she differs from the comic and makes everything so much more hopeful.
Tales in the Sand/Men of Good Fortune - How a small swap in story placement can drastically change the tone, and foreshadowing.
Dream of the Endless - A Romantic Fool - a deep analysis about Dream and his love of romance
How to Adapt Orpheus - Theories and discussions about how the show can navigate that particular element of the comics.
How to Adapt Orpheus x 2 - definitely worth reading all the discussions on this one as well.
Shipping comic!Morpheus and merging characters in the show - can I hear it for Morpheus/Pharamond PLEASE!
A Collaborative Post about Morpheus as the villain of the story
Could Morpheus ever be content to be single?
Morpheus and Sex - an analytical point of view
Obsessive Desire - Their complex feelings for Dream - an answered ask about the siblings relationship. (I have a draft meta in the works elaborating on this that I can't wait to finish).
Fandom Events
#Death Appreciation Week - To celebrate the release of Dead Boy Detectives which guest stars Death of the Endless, I ran a Death Appreciation Week where anyone could submit fanworks focused on Death. Follow the tag on my blog which also includes a lot of reblogged older works of Death, or follow the main tumblr tag to see just that work created for the event.
#Sandtober2023 - For inktober 2023, I ran a Sandman themed inktober event which was a huge success and inspired hundreds of amazing Sandman art pieces. You can check out the Sandtober2023 main tumblr tag here. I am probably going to run this event again in October 2024 so watch this space nearer the time for that! :)
If you have any ideas for Sandman fandom events you would like to see please send me a DM.
General Blog Tags
I have a relatively consistent tagging system on my blog so to cover the main ones:
#The Sandman - literally every post about the Sandman will include this tag, so if you are a loyal mutual from fandoms past and you want to block this tag you won't see me cluttering up your feed with Sandman stuff (and thank you for still following me even if you're not a Sandman fan!)
#Dreamling - tag for the Morpheus x Hob Gadling fandom ship. I will tag all things Dreamling - fanart, fanfics, fan theories, crack posts, gifsets etc.
#Sandman Meta - any analysis about Sandman will be tagged with this. This includes both my own analysis and reblogged analysis.
#Sandman Comic Spoilers - I tag for any posts that include Sandman story information not yet revealled in the show. In case there is anyone left on Tumblr who hasn't already been spoiled for this 30 year old comic story.
Character Tags - I generally tag for any characters I reblog or post about. So if you ever want to search for posts about a specific character, you can just find the character tag in my blog. For example #Dream of the Endless or #Johanna Constantine
Ship tags - like with character tags, I always tag fandom ships. Usually by the most popular fandom name for them. #morphanna #Gaultienne
Other fandoms - I will also always tag other fandoms. I have a very long running #destiel tag, I also tag for #good omens and #ineffable husbands and I will always tag the show name, abbreviation, and ship names for any other fandoms.
Other tags - I do try to tag for content warnings where I can, but usually only extreme things. Then again, it is rare for me to post about triggering content. Even squicky content is unlikely to be found on my blog. If you ever come across something on my blog that you feel isn't tagged appropriately please just DM me and I will correct that.
A bit about me
If my blog intro hasn't covered it so far let me clarify here. I am an adult, in my 30s and have never stopped being a passionate fan about the things I love. You don't stop loving things when you hit a certain age, you just find you have less time to devote to your hobbies because of work. I am a professional with a full time job, I come here to relax and unwind. I have been in fandom far too long to be remotely interested in fandom drama. Ship wars do not interest me. Weird anti-sex anti-kink purity policing has no power here. I am fiercely anti-censorship. If I hear the word "proship" in a negative sense I will roll my eyes and assume you are a minor who has been horribly mislead by puritanicals. I don't tolerate hate, accusational bullshit, bullying behaviour, cult-like fandom worship, or any form of fandom policing. I have no time for "big name fans" and the culture around them. Been there, done that, got the t-shirt and the trauma. Learn your fandom history lest you be doomed to repeat it.
I do not engage in performative social justice. I have my beliefs, my politics, and they generally revolve around the concept that people should be fucking decent human beings and let people be free to live as they choose. Don't come at me for not yelling about the next big world ending event. The world is always ending, people are always dying, there is always a genocide happening, its fucking exhausting. Just do what you can in your actual lives, donate where you can manage, provide support to those in need, and vote out the bastards who fucked it all up.
If you've read this far and are still here welcome! I hope you love my blog and want to be fandom friends. Come send me an ask, a DM, reply to my posts, engage with my meta, and just generally scream at me about Sandman. I always love it when people scream at me about Sandman. :)
Inspired by a few people who have done this hi @wen-kexing-apologist and @justafriend-ql (and because I love organization):
Ranch's Thoughts
(aka, a meta roundup)
Meta 2023 Wrapped
GMMTV Multiverse
In which I attempt to untangle all the various universes in which GMMTV shows are set. An ongoing battle, so stay tuned for updates. My GMMTV multiverse posts can be found here, and my kissing chart posts can be found here.
Old Masterpost
Latest: The Multiverse so far, reorganized
Original GMMTV Multiverse Map post
Latest GMMTV Multiverse map
Kissing Multiverse: version 1, version 2, version 3
Latest Kissing Multiverse
ATOTS X Bad Buddy Our Skyy 2
Thinking about Snow White being the engineering play: parts 1, 2, and 3
Bad Buddy
Thinking about Bad Buddy and the (un)intentionality of seme/uke dynamics
Thoughts on genre, tropes, Bad Buddy, and My School President (aka, my Bad Buddy and MSP trope subversion thesis)
Wai as a faen fatale: a defense (in conversation with @chickenstrangers)
An analysis of the Baseball Mom shirt, Bad Buddy episode 5
Thinking of Pat and Pran, and genre awareness
Thinking about Bad Buddy, and prequels, and tragedies
An impassioned defense of the episode 5 rooftop kiss, aka the Rooftop Kiss and Dichotomies
Thinking about Pran's "Pat, you've got to stop doing this to me" (in conversation with @dudeyuri)
Pat, Pran, and pursuit (in conversation with @dudeyuri)
Thinking about Pat, Pran, and competition (in conversation with @dimplesandfierceeyes)
My School President
Thoughts on Tinn, his mother, and coming out
More thoughts on Tinn, his mother, and coming out
Thoughts on Tinn, music, Gun, and his mother
The Good Place and MSP: Pacing and Narrative Structure
Thinking about MSP and how it shows us that imagination and theory are not the same as real life
MSP and the relief of a sweet show
Thoughts on genre, tropes, Bad Buddy, and My School President (aka, my Bad Buddy and MSP trope subversion thesis)
Thoughts on the MSP ep.11 Chinzhilla fight scene
The Eighth Sense
The Eighth Sense and hazy cinematography
The Eighth Sense and missing pieces
The Eclipse
The Eclipse, repression, and self-knowledge
He's Coming to Me
"If you know how it's going to end, why start anything" as explored in HCTM and Bad Buddy (in conversation with @waitmyturtles)
Kieta Hatsukoi
Thinking about Aoki and Ida and how differently they think (in conversation with @chickenstrangers)
I Told Sunset About You
Conversations in ITSAY that are about more than they seem: Teh and Oh-aew floating
ITSAY is about: noses, backs, knees, and chests
Only Friends
Going to collect some of the OF ephemerality/voyeurism/control/trust, etc. posts I have written here for my own easier reference
Thoughts on ephemerality, permanence, YOLO, and photography post Ep. 2 (additions on photography by @chickenstrangers and @lurkingshan)
Where we are headed post Ep. 3 (with surveillance and voyeurism additions by @lurkingshan, @waitmyturtles and @slayerkitty)
Photography and audio/video in the series, as of Ep. 3
Boston's Manipulations - a study of two scenes in Ep. 3
Manipulate, Mansplain, Manwhore, Manslaughter: Ray confronting Boston, ep. 6
The Mundanity of Meanness
My series cataloguing moments of ephemerality/permanence/YOLO/photography/voyeurism/control/hypocrisy/accountability etc. in Only Friends: ep. 3, ep. 4, ep. 5, ep. 6, ep. 7, ep. 8, ep. 9, ep. 10, ep. 11, ep. 12
and then of course the collection of everyone's thoughts, which got updated weekly.
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Hello Steph! Are there any metas about all the bombs that don't go off (TGG, TEH, TFP) and their potential meaning?
Hey Nonny!
Ahhhhhhhhhh, I don't have anything where they relate to each other, though a quick search gave me these meta about each individual part:
TGG
TGG META MASTERPOST (Aug 2019)
If John Wasn’t the Fifth Pip… Sherlock and Moriarty?
“So, anytime there's been a red target on someone in the show, could we assume it may be AGRA working for Moriarty?”
Was John Blinking in Morse?
TEH: TRAIN CAR SCENE
Sherlock Cries After Mentioning Mary
Why Did Sherlock Pretend to Not Know How to Fix The Bomb?
Where is the Character Development?
TFP
Girl on the Plane
Some People Actually Believe It’s Real
Molly is John’s Mirror
Why Was Sherlock Furious?
Pre-Episode: I Love You Trailer Comparison
Why Was Molly Having a Bad Day?
Just a Little More than Pissed Off (did they know what they were doing?)
What Does TFP Even mean? (Links to meta theories)
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I know there are meta about the explosion at 221B in TFP, just can't seem to find them. If anyone has something more specific for Nonny, since my recollection is a bit fuzzy these days, please do <3
edit: this post now contains a majority of my C2 metas! For C3 metas, I've started up a new tag #my meta, and will be using that to track, until i give in and make a meta masterpost for all campaigns.
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With the end of the campaign looming, I am giving in and making a deeply, deeply self indulgent post. And, assuming the readmore works and this doesn't screw up people's dashes, pinning it.
I present to you: a sorted list of some of my favorite metas that I've written over the course of the *second campaign.
This blog was started because I had Thoughts about Jester and her backstory and wanted to share them, and while recently I haven't been able to sit down and actually write any in depth meta for a hot minute, I'll be damned if I don't get to sit down and appreciate the campaign. And my roots. This is only the metas I wrote because a compilation of my favorite metas that other people wrote would be. Unreasonably long. (But maybe I should do it anyway?)
(My roots are: i have so many feelings and words about these wonderful characters and everyone is going to hear them whether they asked for them or not)
Sorted, under the cut, and random addendums about each because I couldn't resist. Please know that me not writing meta about characters doesn't mean I don't love them. I love all of them fiercely and aggressively, but can only find words for some of them.
JESTER
this blog started with jester meta and to stay true to that there's kind of a disproportionate amount of meta for her. Its fine though! Like I always say, Love Is Stored In The Jester.
Jester is Fine (Spoiler She's Not) the one that started it all. Full mess of thoughts based on her talking about her childhood in episode 8.
Jester is Not A Damsel In Distress initially written after I watched the boat convo, then revisited after 93 (YES that 93).
Jester Doesn't Need To Be Saved bit of a redux of the damsel in distress one, written after the Traveler reveal and the way it shook her up.
Jester ISN'T fine omg a triumphant return to the first meta in light of the convo in 105 and also me being proud about having been right. Hell yeah.
Jester, trickster cleric just an incoherent, deeply emotional word-spew post The Cupcake
Jester, sunshine, godmaker just an incoherent, deeply emotional word-spew post the Artagan Reveal (what a wild three episodes)
what luck an incoherent deeply emotional word spew about the whole mess of the artagan jester fjord moonweaver clusterfuck in 108
Jester, choosing happiness. Jester's love is bright and bold and dangerous and a choice. Jester's love can make gods, and kill them. Kindness is a choice. Love is a choice. Happiness is a choice. And she chooses it, every time. edit: EPISODE 140 SPOILERS (written after That battle)
FJORD
the blog started for jester meta, but I think my Fjord metas were what really cemented it. A slow, meandering curiosity about Fjord suddenly snapped into clarity around episode 61 and I churned out some 3 metas about him during the whole "oh fuck im losing my powers oh god oh god" that cemented him as one of my favorite characters with an arc I am always going to hold near and dear to my heart. I love Fjord and his arc so, so very much. I have a very, very soft spot for the first few metas I wrote for him.
Disguise Self: some fjord meta episode 61, written in a shell shocked state after he first lost his powers
My Take On How Fjord Became An Orc of Many Masks perhaps one of my favorite metas. I won't claim that my read of Fjord is the Only Correct read of Fjord, but every time I read a post or meta about how far Fjord has come, I think about the Fjord described here. I love this half orc, dammit.
What do you want me to do here kind of more of a caleb/fjord study based on one of their conversations, but it always felt like it went hand in hand with the other two.
love near a pool of lava like the best follow up imaginable to the previous few metas, an emotional blurb after the ukatoa lava pool/accent drop/fjord dropping his masks, about fjord reaching his limits, dropping his walls and facades and waiting for the worst, only to be swept up in love instead.
i can give you 1 hit point because fjord by episode 90, 100, is so far from where he started that he is unafraid of incompetence, of being bad at healing, as long as he is supporting his friends. and aahhh <3
never have dignity again most of this is freckledmcree's meta, but some more Thoughts about fjord being unafraid of failure and why that means So Much, dammit.
yall gotta get out of here episode 123, fjord, however briefly, looking out across a field at his crew, thinking they should leave him, hoping that they wont.
BEAU
Most of my better Beau meta is about her relationships with others, but only because I love Beau very deeply and can't always find the right words to express that, dammit.
More On Beau mostly a piggyback off of Yfere's excellent meta about beau, but also some prime Thoughts about Beau and how hard she works to Listen to People, to Respect their humanity and thoughts in a way that people never did for her. good god beau you are lovely.
i hope they're angry some Thoughts after her attempted sacrifice in 93, about how i wanted the m9 to react because they Love Her and What The HELL Beau, We Love You, How Would That Have Been Okay
i have a permit for this rudeness short and sweet- beau being abrasive as part of her tactics. beau is great.
sending this is technically a fanfic and not a meta but I'm very proud of it so its going in here. beau thanks jester for her sendings, emotional talks are had, mud is thrown, yasha really doesn't get how sending works. epilogue spoilers, very vaguely.
BRJEAUS
the brjeaus are so good and i already have two extensive rambles about it,
So, the Brjeaus listen I watched that 32 minute compilation on the brjeaus and drunkenly slammed out a love letter to their friendship and it remains one of my favorite things. That's all I'll say.
Brjeau's (the sequel) a lovely anon gave me an excuse to gush MORE about the brjeau's and what was I gonna do? say no ????
THE GREEN TEAM
i don't write a lot about veth individually, i think others do it much better. BUT the green team dynamic is one of my favorite things.
green team written fairly early on, back in ye olde days of texan fjord and goblin veth, but with just enough insight to find it funny why they got on each other's nerves.
green team (the sequel) again, a lovely anon gave me the excuse to gush about the green team, and getting to revisit the above meta, looking at it in light of how their relationship grew- and stayed the same. good stuff.
NOTT THE BEST DETECTIVE AGENCY
veth and jester love each other so fucking much. just in a clear, plain, deeply chaotic best friends kind of way that you don't find with any other pair, and i adore it.
do you ever think about nott and jester i don't remember what sparked this but I remember thinking so hard about it while walking back from work that i took a wrong turn. they're so good, yall.
the flask situation im always going to hold a small grudge against myself that i never sat down and wrote a meta about the resolution of the flask situation because I Really, Really Loved It. Instead we only have me being :( about the flask situation when it was a problem.
look they just love each other an anon gives me the chance to gush, you're damn right i will
EMPIRE SIBLINGS
i am now deeply, deeply perplexed because it seems despite my immense love for them i very, very rarely wrote out an actual meta for these two. what. thank goodness for the incredible empire siblings meta out there already. anyway let the record show: i love them. so goddamn much. there is an intention there, there is learned love, there is hands on shoulders and stilted apologies and "i have your back, you have mine" and gentle ribbing and holding each other accountable, learning each others edges. I love these two.
caleb telling beau oh my GOD i forgot this post existed, its a VERY early meta from when caleb first spills his backstory to beau and nott, and they were already incredible then. these two. these two.
siblings barely enough for me to qualify it as a meta, much less one i wrote, but, look how emotionally constipated they were at the start :')
dammit beau, no one leaves post the attempted hag deal. bit more of a speculation around the m9 as a whole but it stems from me being emotional about the empire sibs, ok
nerd corruption of all the people to read all the eyeball books, amirite
"have a lovely massage- C. W." me being unreasonably affected by the little note caleb left for the beauyasha date in 126
thank god it was them honestly not even a meta but just, thank god it was the two of them that got eyeballed, eh?
favorite platonic dynamics more of a juxtaposition of beau/Caleb and Beau/Fjord, but also touches on some of my favorite things about the empire sibs, so I'll leave it here. Written after 141, but isn't really spoilery.
edit: ok this is from during c3 but i like it so im putting it here. just more empire sib feels. learning to love. about hard won love. love as respect and pushback and hands on shoulders. yknow.
yet again, it is a CRIME that I don't have more meta for Caleb and Veth, but I think other people cover them beautifully. do i need to explain why their relationship is so, so deeply good? it is. its very good. forehead kisses and fraught, complicated love. bandaged hands and bolts through books. aah.
PARTNERS IN CRIME
you will always have a home here barely meta. short, sweet. full of meaning.
two birds on a wire again, not really a meta, but god this is an excellent amv
TEAM INTROVERT
yasha and caleb were both so quiet with so much guilt and grief and they both came so far. from coaching hugs to deep talks about redemption to spider scritches and a whole tower date. their friendship is so quiet and so lovely :')
thinking about team introvert and hard earned peace just a lotta feelings about yasha and caleb and their journey and them post campaign having quiet nights and gosh.
BLUE GALS
i love beau and jester an unreasonable amount- both together and separately. but apparently, i neglected to write meta for them until things had shifted some. dammit. let the record show that these two love each other. hands during dimension doors, "im a really good liar beau", late night roommate talks. dammit.
beau and jester, and where to go not very cheerful or lovey compared to most of the metas here, but. i still think about it sometimes. they love each other, dammit.
CALEB
I've always liked other people's meta for Caleb better than mine (and the same goes for Veth, Caduceus, and Yasha tbh). Caleb, you wonderful nerdy, orange themed, mischevious wizard. You've come so damn far.
don't want your pockets to be too heavy some thoughts after caleb read cali's letter, in a very family-heavy episode.
YASHA
Unfortunately the height of my love for yasha peaked after I had fallen out of writing meta. But the rage and flowers intertwined with her character are one of my favorite things.
you should reconsider your past decisions emotion dump based on the exchange she has with thoreau in episode 92. get FUckt thoreau.
left behind erm i wrote this after episode 69 and uh sorry sorry sorry sorry
okay, but, kamordah a follow up to the above after the "i fell in love with you in kamordah". technically equally beau and yasha, but. still a good follow up, i think.
VETH
loving and letting go a short meta written after her zuala dream in 105, about yasha and loving and losing and letting go
yasha i just found this one! its nice. nice.
veth is fantastic and powerful and i don't write for her very often because i don't think i'll ever have a grasp on her the way i'd like to, but good god. full of love and protectiveness and teasing and "us vs them" and sideways grins and unapologetic weirdness and a tendency to downplay abilities crossed with a fierce, overwhelming sense of self. gooooooooood shit.
empire sisters technically equally beau and veth, but a good touch on veth nonetheless, i think.
i think travellercon is it some thoughts from post-travelercon when we all didn't know if veth was going to leave
CADUCEUS
i don't really have caduceus meta, and i am appalled. I think I was always waiting for me to have some good words about it, and dammit I waited too long. Other people absolutely have a better read on him and I love reading meta about him, but I cannot, for the life of me, produce it. As a peace offering: some metas I liked for caddy can be found here.
arms length some short and random thoughts on Caduceus when he was still trying to be a wise older mentor to the m9 while Clearly Handling Some Issues, dammit Caduceus.
AND NOW
THE GRAND FINALE
THE MIGHTY NEIN
you weren't prepared for us the m9, as the force of nature that we understand them to be.
true facts some emotions from rumblecusp, because once upon a time they didn't know anything about each other, didn't trust enough to share anything about themselves, and then they were in a circle, relying on each other to remember true facts, saying "if i lose my memory, you know me enough to tell this to me".
spoken support these nerds learning how to ask for things from each other
found family a spread of thoughts from the rumblecusp arc about the Mighty Nein and how, after everything, all their growth they are irrevocably, irreversibly family. in a way that is thoughtless and full of love and meaning, in a way where if you lost all your memories and looked at these people surrounding you in a circle, listing their parents and their names, you would know that they loved you.
final wishes because the mighty nein sharing jokes about their last wishes but also very, very much meaning it, trusting each other to carry things on.
also, for funsies, my found family tag. :)
jk this is the actual finale: two, deeply sappy, deeply emotional posts about love within critical role as a whole. what a wonderful ride. may we all go on it again in campaign 3.
thinking about love in critical role some emotional thoughts during rumblecusp
a date night emotional and sappy after the tower date- not just about beau and yasha, but caleb and beau, and just the love and care through it all.
that's it. allegedly. i've definitely missed some, and if i tried to make a post about all the meta i've read from others that i loved, this would be miles and miles longer. if you made it all the way down here, congrats! I'm flattered. I'm not really expecting anyone to because this is very much a post for me, so i can find my own metas and feelings and love on demand (tumblr why is your search function so inexplicably terrible), but if you are here, let me say that: the CR fandom is the first and possibly only time I'd ever gotten INTO a fandom- producing things, interacting with people, sharing out all the Feelz and Thoughts, and it has been a goddamn gift.
Don't Forget To Love Each Other, hey?
EDIT: new final post from thoughts from the final battle, about love and anger and strength.
love will not always perform miracles, (but sometimes it will). and sometimes the miracle is just you, still standing. thats a miracle too.
EDIT 2.0: im full of emotions after 141 here you go
happy endings technically a meta about happy endings but mostly little vignettes of the mighty nein making space and time for each other in the close and distant future, because of course they will
