#messyrelationships

My Dear Upper East Readers, When you think you've healed from something, the universe tests you by throwing itself at you, if you pass, you pass, and if you fail, well, good luck trying again and again until you do. I hadn't realized this back then when I had come out of my second or rather my first real relationship, I had taken some time to gather myself again, pick up my pieces, and find out where exactly I started falling apart. I was doing pretty good, of course, until he showed up.

I would've given him a name but I honestly don't think he's worth all that trouble, taylor swift writes songs about the horrid things men have done, and I write about it. It all started when I was on my way home from college and he came up to me to ask me and I remember his exact words, "Hey, do I know you from somewhere?", I should've known, my intuition was telling me he was bad news, I felt very nervous to be approached by him and yet I choose to ignore it all, I was still smart enough to evade him and say "nope! bye!" and hid in the bathroom for a while.  As I was walking, I realized he was right ahead of me, meaning we'd probably live in the same area. Hence, I couldn't avoid him, so I did the one thing I knew I was amazing at, hurriedly walking ahead of him as I was running to go home. Still, he got the better of me and he striked up a conversation again, I didn't know how else to avoid him so I just bared through it until I reached my place. I realized he was actually a pretty sweet guy, he knew a lot of my interests, he read me like an open book ( which frankly should've scared me considering this was the first time we ever met) and he was pretty charming and a way with his words. 

Now that I'm writing about it, I realize I had so many chances to realize he was a major red flag, but we're all colorblind to selective men, aren't we? we exchanged ids' and had a lot of conversations, I started to realize he was super clingy and wanted to meet every other day, I don't mind clingy-ness but my college was having this huge event and I was actually quite busy to make time for a situationship. Granted he did ask me out the next day (over text might I add) and his words were "hey you seem really interesting, do you wanna go out?" and I was like "oh my gosh, a guy is taking the time out of his day to talk to me and ask me out?? how blessed am I??" Well clearly, a lot considering the lesson you are about to learn.

Alas, it didn't really work out because of our hectic schedules and both of us taking equally long to reply to each other's texts, so we decided to cut it off, or rather, I decided to end it by blocking him. But we live in the same area, our colleges are in the same area, how could I not run into him again? And this time, I was taught a lesson I will never ever forget in my entire life, never go anywhere with a man without letting anyone know your location or whereabouts.

As always, it was lovely writing to you, my dear Upper East reader.

Until next time,

stay chic and candy,