#mentalinventory

Only you can change your mindset, put in the work that needs to be done and love every inch of you.

Growing up I had the worst mindset. I was privileged enough to have everything I ever needed but it was never enough. I was an entitled little girl who thought she knew everything about life (boy, was I wrong btw).  I hated being me, I hated being alone with my thoughts and I hated the image I had of the world and everyone in it. I filled my nights with booze and drugs so my days would be spent trying to survive rather than actually live.  I gave people access to special parts of me without so much of a second thought, all because I craved the attention and the feeling of fullness.

Now that I have grown, started the work that needs to be done and got sober; my mind finally feels clear enough to see through all the bullshit I was feeding myself on a silver platter.

I work hard, everyday. Whether it be at work for a paycheck so I can pay my bills and barely get by. Or at the gym trying to stay healthy and rid my myself of any negativity. Or at home when I’ve had a bad mental health day and I have to now sit with myself, let myself feel everything that I once used to tuck away into the dark corners of my soul. 

I now know this is a lifelong journey, there is no final destination when it comes to loving yourself and living an honest life.