#mehetrato

7 months pp a lot in my body and face changed, lalo na ilong ko di na bumalik or kung babalik pa ba haha. This is me barefaced, sweating and tired.

People often say that my son looks like me, and I usually agree because the first thing people notice about him is his eyes—the one feature he definitely got from me. His nose is more like his father's, and his face is rounder than mine. As for me, my nose is much smaller, or as we say, pango haha. pero overall, that’s it. they see his eyes before all of his facial features. I can see a little version of his father, especially masiyahin siyang baby like his Papa.

There might be changes in my body or appearance, my mood might frequently snap, i might forget or not serve you like how I used to (bcs we already have our own 'baby'), but please do not forget how I always misses and wanted to do the things we always did together and for each other.

I miss "us"

what if ako lang pala yung may gusto ng lahat nang nangyayaring ito?

kase, I say I loved you first. I am the one who admires him from afar, I said 'yes' without him asking.

I looked desperate, but I was so sure of him and me together.

while he, i don't know.

maybe bcs of his past and me having retroactive jealousy over that 9 years and 6 years relationship he had, even to that woman he admire so much.

<<<retroactive jealousy bcs I am the one who initiated, who wanted to have the relationship. >>>

I just don't know, despite of all the efforts and assurance i get, the thought of maybe this wouldn't lasts—just maybe he wanted this to work bcs of the child im bearing.

first mother’s day with the fam

this day was so tiring yet so beautiful 💗