#mega rage

*20 mins later*

Mum: *walks in* *thinks I'm asleep* *turns music off*

Me: *Ultra Rage*

I just.... ahaha.. I don't even know how to describe how I feel right now. It's like this... slow growing burning anger that's just under the surface ready to SLAPPED a certain person in the face. Whether you agree with me or not that up to you and really it won't bother me. Just know that if you try to reason with this, I will not back down.

Basically, I was waiting for my brother to come pick me up from campus. I thought I buy lunch for the both of us, the least he could do is come pick me up. So I go and wait at the bus stop. Just so happens there was a girl there waiting for the bus. Please understand that there are about 6-7 different bus routes that go pass where we were standing at. She happened to exhaled an annoyed sigh and I happened to have here it and chuckled with her pain. Turns out that she was waiting for the particular bus route that I have to take to get to school. So we bonded over how unreliable that bus happens to be.

Anyways, my brother comes and I bid her farewell and off we go to our destination. He asked who she was and I said an acquaintance. It was technically true since we seemed to have been able to converse pretty well.

Anyways, he asked if I knew her name and I said I didn't asked. His mood changed after being all like "why didn't you? that was a missed oppurtunity... She was so cute too..." And here I was so INCREDIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT ALL THAT. I was just happy to talk to somebody, anybody really. I am so painfully shy that I'm always afraid that I was be a bother, so I went for the other(s) to initiate it. Basically I just let him say whatever he wants about it until he wants to move on.

He asked why I'm suddenly in a sour mood, I explain to him that he's "advice" didn't help at all but then gets all offended by telling me that he's the victum and that he didn't do anything. Told him to dropped it, it's fine he didn't do anything.

We get to the place to eat but while we were waiting he kept telling me how cute that girl that I didn't get her name was and stuff. Eventually he noticed my silence and asked me whats wrong. I told him that he mentioned her about 4 times already and asked if he could stop. He answer to that?

"She was cute it's not like you would understand what us males feel and like."

Excuse me?!?!?

EXCUSE ME!?!?!?!?!

.....

Whether I do or not doesn't GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO SAY A MISOGYNISTIC COMMENT LIKE THAT. He blatantly objectified the girl AND said a hurtful comment to me, his OLDER sister. He then has the balls to call me too sensitive and eyesore to the public.

Where you are born/how you were raised DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO SAY SUCH CONDENSENDING THOUGHTLESS HURTFUL RUDE NARCISSTIC THINGS TO ANYONE, AN-Y-ONE.

This is why it's a love/hate relationship with my brother and I. There will be days where he'll be the nicest guy you'd want to be friends with. But if it doesn't go his way? He is the worst type of guy you'd want to be around because everything that comes out of his mouth can and will hurt you and he'll never think twice about it.