#medstudentproblems

So, let’s get started!

I haven’t posted in a while but I hope to get some motivation boost from it because I was an idiot and took on four exams in three days and I feel now that it’s too much, but if I changed it it would be a mess so I gotta try...

So I need to study forensic medicine, health care economics (I have no idea why they force us to study this shit), otorhinolaryngology, and ophthalmology...

(Exams are on Monday Tuesday and Wednesday so I have about 38 hours till the first one 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️😭)

Going full on digital this pandemic with my studying was the best decision I ever made hands down.

How i feel after the test: 

I wish every day could be blue skies and sunshine with pancakes and a side of bacon. Unfortunately, we don’t always get what we wish for. Or maybe fortunately, cause if I ate bacon every day I’d probably have multiple co-morbidities already. 

Recently, I have been doubting my decision to move 10,000 miles away from home and my capability to become a doctor. Not because I don’t have a passion for medicine because I do. And not because I don’t love Sydney because I do. I doubt myself because a lot of the time I am unhappy as a medical student. I’m constantly stressed about not being able to answer the registrar/consultants questions on rounds or about not being able to make it through the next set of exams or about the financial strain I’m putting on my parents. I doubt myself because I am alone here even when there’s people surrounding me everyday I feel alone at times. Some days I come home exhausted and drained and all I want is the comforting smell of my Granny’s cooking, her warm cuddle and cheeky smile.

But today a simple phone call to my best friend allowed me to learn two things. One: I should not invalidate my own physical and mental health. Because in order for me to be able to provide great care to my patients in the future, I must myself be happy and healthy. Two: I am not alone. 

I am so grateful that I can always count on her to cheer me up with her embarrassing flatus stories. 

Gluten Free Banana Pancakes

1 med ripe banana (mashed), 1.5 cups rice flour, 1 cup almond milk, 1 egg, 2tsp baking powder, 1tsp cinnamon, pinch of salt

Combine the dry ingredients in a bowl and mix well. Then whisk the egg and mashed banana into the milk. Slowly poor the wet ingredients into the dry ingredients mixing well as you go. Make sure it’s all combined thoroughly and you get a smooth(ish) batter. Cook the batter on a non-stick pan as you would normally with pancakes. 

15/03/17

Finally revived after a long hiatus!