i have a story. it won’t be good and i’ll have to replace the name of the oc i have with y/n but i can upload it.

i literally spent all day today daydreaming, writing and rewriting this and idek what brought it on 😭 it’s literally 2 am rn. but i love it and at the end of the day that’s what matters.

it’s felix x idol/actor!reader. not necessarily sex, more just dirty talk. like HEAVY dirty talk. maybe slight exhibitionism? long story short he’s dangerously loose lipped on stage.

i’ve always been under the impression Felix has got a filthy mouth, especially in bed. So i made this based on that.

soooo should i post it? thinking emoji?

i want to write a story that's not my own

so i can parce out what in the story

Like im finding out that I do (or did) have a very strict set of routines I follow that I didn’t really notice before

especially the small stuff like getting a hairbrush, just sitting down somewhere, looking in the mirror before I go out the door and putting my phone down to charge, this is all very much still stuff I can do but it’s in different rooms now and I still go to the place where I’ve been doing those things for years out of habit and then it’s not there and it completely throws me off every time

That’s probably pretty normal tbf but it probably shouldn’t be impacting me to the point where I just walked into the kitchen to get a snack exept we’d already emptied out all of the cupboards so I need to go to the pantry instead and I actually started crying, I’m genuinely constantly on edge while I’m inside because it’s my home but also it’s very much not

Feeling very uncomfortable in my own home rn and it’s gonna be a month of this :D

has anyone noticed this? that maybe scratch was trying to extend his life after he was diagnosed with brain cancer, and the circus’ intention was to be a way to upload your brain and become immortal?

first off, the people in the circus can’t die.

second, when it cuts to the muffin that’s in half, it might be symbolizing the separation of the mind of the body when one’s brain is uploaded to the circus. also, the sprinkles are red and blue. biblically, blue represents heaven/ the soul/ divinity and red represents earthliness/ mortality. this may also be representative of separating from and transcending the mortal plane.

and for the cherry on top, caine’s name is biblical and he considers himself to be a god.

i think, since scratch knew he was going to die, he programmed himself a heaven where his consciousness could live on forever.

Ryan Gosling in space is peak though