Back in 12th Grade, there was a time period that my undiagnosed ADHD had gotten so bad that my struggles with school got significantly worse that it started to affect my usually high grades so one time, I was struggling to focus so bad that I ended up doing this entire page on my b5 notebook where I just kept writing "focus" over and over again with different colored pens I owned and I thought it'd be really cool to put a giant red one at the center. The whole thing took up maybe quarter or half the class period but I also ended up surprisingly attentive the whole 2-hour lecture.
After shit really hit the fan with my adhd problems (specifically I ended up constantly rereading a paragraph on a national exam and I still couldn't understand it to the point that it left me sobbing after the rest was over) I went over to our guidance counselor to beg for help to get an adhd diagnosis which I was hesitant to do because my other guidance counselor at 8th grade dismissed my concerns and told me I was just an "understimulated gifted child" and at one of our conversations, I showed her the page and she looked at me with extreme concern and I just couldn't forget her face that day and it still makes me laugh although worryingly somewhat.
Anyway, I was cleaning out my old notebooks to see which ones I haven't actually used so I can actually use them now that I'm returning to college and I actually found the page!
It's exactly as I remember it and although it still looks pretty cool to me, I get why my counselor would look at me worried if I came to her talking about how desperate I am to get my focus back.