#maryruby

not yet! i'm still in the phase where it comes out in bursts ever so often while my subconscious subconsciously ruminates on it and periodically decides to grant me the grace of its presence still in my head. i already do have a foundation of what the idea of this ship and what i want to explore with it is built on beyond the post i reblogged and first mentioned the ship in the tags of so here's some Required Reading for context:

samruby thesis: the grander scheme

samruby thesis

tags: samnmary intrapersonal mirroring

reply conversation: samnmary s4 vs s12

i already have ideas about what their dynamic Would Be Like based on the above linked posts as well as mary's characterisation in 4.03 in a Get Your Gas Mask On First, Ask Questions Later kind of way wrt mary's tendency to protect herself specifically to a degree that which she can find all the information, which is marginally different from both sam's hold back specifically to find all the information within both of their means-to-an-endisms and dean's shoot first ask questions later—both differences being on behalf of their heavily differently but binarily gendered existences; mary HAS to keep herself first and foremost and her twist his arm to ask questions Thing is part of it. which brings me to her relationship with ketch and how her sexuality is fundamental to the specific way that which she desecrates dean's idealised familial dynamic wherein, as patriarch and his classification of this as a betrayal, her expression of sexuality becomes conflated with her existence outside of the familial dynamic as well; much like sam season four with ruby (i, ii) and the fact that soulless!sam's promiscuity factors into his symptoms of soullessness, which becomes a monstrosity encroaching upon sam (and their relationship) that which dean has the authority to save sam from (through resurrection). the fact that 1) it'd be a lesbian relationship and 2) the intentionally 'subversive' (by supernatural's standards) nature of ruby's femininity as it relates to her status as a demon ally counts towards the framing of sexuality and its relevance here, especially since ruby's status as a women subversive in her gender on behalf of her monstrosity also eventually counts towards the conflation of her femininity within sam's perceived betrayal of dean and the familial dynamic by proxy—especially since she's dean's foil who is intentionally mirroring dean's role within his and sam's dynamic within her abusive dynamic with sam, which is a lot like ketch's status as dean's foil, particularly in the context of dean as mary's patriarch (patriarchal structure assigned role before it is a familial role) and is very much related to her perceived desecration of her idealised role. samnmary-rubynketch, but also sam: john vs azazel -> dean vs azazel -> dean vs ruby -> dean vs lucifer -> dean vs samuel and mary: samuel/john vs azazel -> john vs azazel -> dean vs ketch -> dean vs lucifer -> dean & aw!bobby. the ship concept is kind of like sammary, in the sense that there are a lot of dynamics that are able to be shadowed within it to build on top of the existing but largely unexplored canon relationship but with maryruby, it's like, taking the unexplored aspects of mary and azazel that do not get touched on but remain foundationally present in mary and ketch's and sam and mary's relationship, then bringing it forth in hot yuri that's dependent on the fact that it's yuri <3 i'm he/himming ruby also