#martban

so... my cat is getting put down tomorrow. it’s the best thing for him; he’s very very old, he’s blind and in pain and hasn’t been eating. but right now i’m lying in bed cuddling him while he sleeps and i wish he never had to leave me.

God I genuinely don't know what to do. Hopefully my grandma and i can just move into our own place but I kinda have my doubts so I'll be stuck living with my dad but I don't wanna have to move across the whole fucking country but the price of living in california is fucking insane and i won't be able to live on my own in this fucking state and living with my dad for over a few weeks is too much of a risk for me and my cat, who I can't just up and ditch for her own saftey. My dad has talked about potentially throwing her outside if she claws anything and if she's thrown out IN THE FUCKING CITY she'll fucking get killed. If my dad pulls any bullshit I won't forgive him. I wanna give him a chance, I really honestly do, but i already know that one way or another it'll end probably in a fight

that one shot of yellow and blue from the trial except its courier six and yes man