summary: the pastorâs son fucks you in the back room of the church, promising godâs forgiveness while ruining your last shred of purity.
pairing: mark lee x fem!reader
genre: smut, religious corruption, dark romance.
warnings: explicit sexual content, anal virginity, church setting, religious guilt, oral (m receiving), squirting, degradation, sacreligious language, coercion under trust, creampie, overstimulation, power imbalance, aftercare (light), public risk, no vaginal penetration.
part. ii - part. iii
MDNI đ
you had always been the image of virtue. ever since you were little, your life had revolved around the churchâevery sunday service, every youth retreat, every choir practice and prayer circle. your mother made sure you were dressed modestly, always with your bible tucked in your bag and your heart turned toward god. everyone in town knew your name, whispered it in admirationâsuch a good girl, they said. so devoted. so pure.
and mark lee... well, he was supposed to be the same. the pastor's son, golden and clean, always sitting in the front pew with his fatherâs bible open on his lap, eyes closed in pretend prayer. he smiled with soft dimples and spoke in warm, respectful tones that made your mother adore him instantly. she liked to say god had placed him in your path for a reason. and maybe that was true. maybe god had placed him thereâto test you.
you hadnât meant for anything to happen. it started so small, just conversations after service, long looks shared across the chapel, the brush of fingers when you passed him a hymnal. he was gentle at first, careful not to cross a line, but each moment alone with him felt like gravity pulling you closer. and when he kissed you the first timeâbehind the fellowship hall after bible studyâyou felt like the world stopped. his lips were warm and soft and sinful.
when you first started sneaking around with mark, things were softer. more innocent. youâd meet behind the church after evening mass, hiding between the tall hedges where no one could see you. heâd press gentle kisses to your lips, hold your hand tightly, whisper sweet nothings against your ear as if you were the most precious thing in the world.
he never rushed youânot at first. heâd just touch you over your clothes, his hands resting respectfully on your waist, sliding up under your blouse only when you let him. and each time you let him go a little further, his praise would melt you. youâre so good for me, baby. so sweet. so perfect.
the first time he touched you under your skirt, you thought your heart would stop. his fingers were warm, slow, exploring the damp heat between your thighs through your panties while he kissed your neck. you were shaking the whole time, clutching his shoulders like a lifeline as he whispered filth in your ear in that low, reverent voice of his.
god made this body just for me, didnât he? you were meant to be mine.
the day you got on your knees for him was the day something shifted between you.
it was in the church parking lot, late at night, both of you hidden behind the youth ministry van. youâd been making out for too long, your thighs pressed together from the ache building inside you. his cock was hard against his jeans, and when he asked do you wanna try something new, baby?, you nodded without thinking.
he guided your hands to his zipper, helped you pull him outâlong, thick, flushed at the tip. your breath caught when you saw it, your mouth already watering.
âjust lick it for me,â he said softly, brushing your hair behind your ears. âjust a little. just the tip.â
but it wasnât just a little. not when you saw how much he wanted it, how his jaw clenched and his hands trembled when your lips wrapped around the head of his cock. you took him deeper, his praises growing filthier with every inch you swallowed. the taste of him was salt and skin, musky and intimate, and you moaned around him without meaning to.
he came down your throat that night, holding your head with both hands, whispering youâre so fucking perfect while you swallowed every drop. and afterward, he kissed you so gently you almost cried.
but stillâyou never let him go all the way.
youâd told him you were saving yourself for your husband. that youâd only give yourself completely after standing before god, in white, with a ring on your finger.
mark didnât push. not exactly. but his hands got more confident, his touches more persuasive. and every time he left you trembling, wet, begging quietly into his mouthâheâd whisper:
âgod will forgive you. he made you to want meâ
now you were here, months later, hidden away in the churchâs back room. it was where the choir robes were stored, a little room behind the altar with old wooden shelves and a dusty piano no one used anymore. you werenât supposed to be here, not alone with a boy, not with him. but your hands were already shaking as he kissed down your neck, one of his palms pressed to the small of your back, keeping you pinned to the edge of the table.
âyouâre so beautiful,â he whispered, lips brushing against your ear, âso perfect, baby. you know how crazy you make me?â
you whimpered, fingers curling in the sleeves of his shirt. âmark... we shouldnât. not here... not like this.â
his hands slid lower, gripping your hips. âwhy not? no oneâs gonna find us. besides... god will forgive us. he always forgives. he sees love in our hearts. donât you love me?â
you bit your lip, your whole body trembling with guilt and want. âi do... but i want to wait until weâre married. i want to give myself to my husband. i want god to bless it.â
his eyes darkened, not with anger but with something deeperâdesire. temptation. âthen marry me. i swear i will. youâre the only girl i want. but i want you now... please. just let me have a little more.â
âmark, i canât...â your voice cracked, shame pooling in your chest. âitâs a sin.â
âheâll cleanse us,â he whispered, kissing along your jaw, âhe knows your heart. youâre doing this out of love. and he knows youâre still pure... if we donâtâif i donât take you like that.â
you blinked at him, confused. âlike what?â
he leaned in, his lips ghosting over yours. âiâll still leave your virginity intact,â he murmured, hand slipping down between your thighs, pressing over your clothes, âyouâll still be untouched. we wonât do it the usual way. iâll just take you hereââ he kissed your cheek, âfrom behind.â
your breath caught.
âit wonât count,â he whispered, voice sweet like a prayer, âyouâll still be a virgin. still godâs perfect girl.â
you hesitated. the weight of every sermon youâd ever heard sat heavy on your shoulders. but his hands were on your body, and his mouth was on your throat, and your skin was burning. and deep down, there was something dark inside you that wanted it. something that pulsed every time he touched you, something that made your knees weak and your mind hazy.
âpromise me,â you whispered, voice barely audible. âpromise me youâll marry me.â
he pulled back just enough to look into your eyes. âi promise. iâll take you to the altar myself.â
and that was all it took.
your heart was pounding in your chest as he turned you around gently, his hands never leaving your body. the room was dim, lit only by the soft amber light that spilled through the stained glass near the door. you could hear your own breathing, shallow and fast, as mark guided you to lean over the wooden table. the old surface creaked under your weight, the air cool against your thighs as he slowly lifted the hem of your white sunday dress.
âlook at you,â he murmured, voice husky now, more raw, more real. âso innocent. so ready to sin for me.â
his fingers trailed up the back of your thighs, calloused and warm, until he reached the soft curve of your ass. your panties were white, lace-trimmedâmodest, sweet, something your mother had bought for you. but they were soaked through, and mark saw it right away.
âjesus,â he breathed, a smirk forming on his lips. âyouâre dripping already, baby.â
you whimpered as he tugged them down, the delicate fabric catching around your knees before sliding all the way to your ankles. your cheeks burned with shame and arousal, both twisting deep in your belly as you felt the cool air kiss your now-bare skin.
âbend down for me,â he whispered, pressing between your shoulders until you were fully bent over the table, your elbows resting on the worn wood, your ass presented to him like an offering.
you felt him drop to his knees behind you, felt his hands spread you open, exposing every trembling inch. he kissed along the inside of your thighs, soft and slow, his tongue flicking dangerously close to where you ached. you gasped when you felt him spit between your cheeks, fingers guiding the wetness to your tight entrance.
âitâll hurt a little,â he murmured, voice lower now, more dangerous. âbut you can take it. youâre a good girl, right? you want to make me feel good?â
you nodded, your eyes closing, your hands gripping the edge of the table so hard your knuckles went white. âyes⊠i want to be good.â
âthen stay just like that for me.â
he stood again, one hand gripping your waist as you heard the rustle of his belt, the soft clink of the buckle as he undid his pants. then his cock was pressing against you, thick and hot, the head teasing at your tightest spot.
you tensed.
ânghhâahhh, too muchâ!â
âshh,â he said softly, kissing your shoulder. ârelax for me, baby. let me in.â
he pushed slowly at first, and your breath caught in your throat as the stretch beganâhot and burning, unfamiliar and intense. tears pricked the corners of your eyes, and you whimpered, body trembling as he pushed further, inch by inch.
âm-markâ! it hurtsââ
âshh, quiet, baby. you donât want anyone hearing how much of a filthy little thing you are, do you?â once he was buried inside, he paused, letting you adjust, his fingers caressing your hips, your waist, whispering soft praises against your ear.
you could barely breathe as you felt every inch of him inside you, thick and pulsing, stretching you open in a way that made your entire body tense. your hands gripped the edge of the table so tightly that your wrists ached, your forehead pressed against the wood as your mouth hung open, panting through the pressure, through the sting. his hands were firm on your hips, thumbs digging into your skin as he stayed buried inside you, letting you feel the full weight of what youâd just done.
âfuck,â he whispered, voice reverent, almost in awe. âyouâre squeezing me so tight. you feel like fucking heaven.â
you whimpered, a mix of pain and pleasure blooming in your belly like a wildfire. his hips rolled just slightly, testing how much you could take, and the slow friction made your knees shake. it wasnât like anything youâd imagined. it wasnât sweet or softâit was raw and thick and full. your body fought to accommodate him, fluttering around the intrusion as he began to move in earnest.
âthis is what you wanted. iâm just giving you what that virgin pussy of yours was too scared to handle.â
âmmphâ! nghhâahhâ!â
âwhat was that? you like being stuffed full of my cock? like being my dirty little church whore?â
each thrust came a little deeper, a little harder, his pace increasing as the tightness began to melt into something warmer, wetter. you bit down on your lip, trying to stay quiet, but the sounds spilling from you betrayed how good it started to feel. shame pooled hot in your stomach, because it wasnât supposed to feel like this. you werenât supposed to like it.
âlook at you,â he groaned, slamming into you harder now, one hand sliding up your back to grab a fistful of your hair. âmoaning like a little slut while i fuck your virgin ass. does it feel good, baby? you gonna come for me like this?â
your mouth opened in a raw scream, half agony, half ecstasy, unable to hold back the flood of sound escaping you.
âoh my god, oh my god, itâs stretching me too muchâ!â
âjesus, youâre so fucking loudâshut up, baby, shut up.â he shoved your face down against the table, hand over your mouth again, his hips snapping harder.
âif anyone hears you, theyâll know how desperate you are to get fucked like this.â
you cried out as he pulled your head back, forcing your spine into a deep arch, making you feel every brutal thrust more sharply. the pain burned, yes, but under it was something more intenseâyour body trembling as a deep heat began to coil between your legs. your thighs were slick, your clit aching from how empty it felt, untouched but throbbing.
his balls slapped against you with each thrust, obscene sounds echoing in the small, sacred space of the church storage room. the smell of sweat and sex filled the air, mixing with the faint trace of incense that lingered on the choir robes stacked beside you. it was filthy. wrong. holy.
he let go of your hair and reached between your thighs, fingers finding your clit without hesitation. you sobbed as he rubbed fast, circles tight and relentless, and your hips started to jerk back against him on instinct, chasing something you didnât fully understand.
âyouâre gonna come,â he grunted, almost laughing, breath hot against your ear. âyouâre gonna come like this, with my cock in your ass, right here in godâs house. fuck, baby... youâre perfect.â
âm-markâi⊠i feel like iâm gonna peeââ
your vision blurred as your body locked up, tension snapping all at once in a flash of heat and shame and unbearable pleasure. your orgasm ripped through you like lightning, a violent gush exploding between your legs, spraying down your thighs and onto the floor with a loud, wet sound that shocked even you.
âjesus fucking christââ he gasped, faltering for the first time as your body clenched around him like a vice, milking him deeper.
markâs hips stuttered the moment he felt the rush of wetness pour out of you, his breath catching in his throat like he couldnât believe what just happened. your body was shaking beneath him, trembling and spasming uncontrollably as your release coated your thighs, dripping messily down onto the floor. he pulled back just slightly to look, to see the way you squirted for him, your slick glistening under the dim church light.
âfuck, babyâŠâ he groaned, sounding half-wrecked, half-awestruck. âyou justâfuckâi made you do that?â
he grabbed your hips tighter, almost possessively, and slammed back into you, still deep in the grip of his own rising climax. your body was so sensitive now, every thrust making you jolt forward, your muscles twitching from the overstimulation. but he didnât stopânot yet. he was chasing something now, something hot and desperate.
âyou came so fucking hard,â he growled against your neck, his thrusts getting sloppier, deeper. âyour little virgin body just squirted all over my cock⊠and you were so scared of sinning.â
you moaned weakly, your voice raw and broken, drool slipping from your lips as your cheek pressed flat against the table. your body felt like it was floating, skin hot and damp with sweat, your hole still stretched tight around him, sucking him in greedily every time he pulled back.
âmine,â he whispered like a prayer, fucking into you with final, brutal thrusts. âyouâre mine. god canât have you anymore. you belong to me.â
and then he came.
with a deep, guttural moan, mark buried himself inside you one last time and spilled everything into your assâhot and thick, ropes of cum filling you until you could feel it dripping back out around his cock. his hips jerked as he emptied himself, one hand sliding up to hold your waist while the other rubbed your lower back in shaky, soothing circles.
he stayed inside you for a moment, breathing hard, chest rising and falling against your back, sweat clinging to both your skins. the room was quiet except for the sound of your combined breaths and the faint ticking of an old wall clock above the door.
you blinked slowly, still dazed, still trembling. and for a brief second, you felt completely hollow and completely full at the same timeâruined, marked, and claimed.
he pulled out slowly, and you whimpered at the emptiness, at the sticky warmth leaking down the back of your thighs. your body sagged against the table, weak and used, your legs barely holding you up. you could feel his release slipping from your hole, thick and hot, a constant reminder of what youâd let him doâwhat youâd begged him to do.
âstay still,â he murmured softly, voice gentler now, almost sweet. he reached for a folded choir robe from the shelf beside him, one of the ones no one ever used, and knelt behind you again. with quiet, careful hands, he cleaned the mess dripping down your thighs, the backs of your knees, and finally between your cheeks. he wiped away the cum from your entrance, his touch slow and reverent, like he was cleaning something sacred.
you flinched slightly, still too sensitive, and he pressed a kiss to your lower back. âiâve got you,â he whispered. âyou were perfect for me.â
when he was done, he helped you step back into your panties, tugging them up gently over your sore, sticky skin. he straightened your dress, smoothing out the wrinkles like he was tucking you back into your illusion of purity. then he kissed your cheek, your temple, your lipsâslow and soft and careful, like he hadnât just broken something inside you.
you both stood in silence for a moment, breathing slowly, the air still thick with the scent of sin and sweat.
and then he reached for his bible.
he tucked it under one arm and held out his other hand to you. you took it, fingers lacing with his, still trembling slightly. and together, you walked out of that little storage room, out into the bright white hallway of the church.
the front doors were open. sunlight poured in. a breeze moved through the sanctuary like nothing had happened.
as you stepped into the entryway, mark dipped his fingers into the small bowl of holy water near the door. he touched his forehead, chest, and shoulders, murmuring the sign of the cross with practiced grace. you followed suit, mimicking the motion, your fingers wet and cool against your burning skin.
no one would ever know.
you were still godâs children, still his favorites.
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pairing: mark lee x f!reader
genre: fantasy/supernatural, crime-action, fluff, angst, romance
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synopsis: a series of visions lead you to mark lee, a seemingly normal human boy with no ties to the world of the giftedâ your world. as such, you're concerned as to why you keep seeing him in your dreams, and the army of wraiths that just can't seem to leave him alone despite him being powerless... or so you thought. as he joins you at the academy, you learn that there may be more to this mark lee than you thought there was.
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You had no idea what Taekwondo was. At least, not until today.
According to Donghyuck, itâs a form of martial arts, similar to the combat training you go through at the academy every day. You werenât actually sure on whether to believe him or not considering Donghyuck is Donghyuck and his whole life before joining the academy sounded like a jumble of lies (you learnt not to trust him wholeheartedly after he convinced you that bananas were considered a delicacy in the outside world. He made you eat them with a knife and fork for a full week).
But now, as youâre sitting amongst the sea of heads in the stands overlooking the arena below, you think that Donghyuck might just be telling the truth this time.
You tug on the gloves that hug your hands and forearms, the latex that sticks uncomfortably to your skin not at all helping in easing your nerves. You rarely step foot outside the academyâ not like itâs ever been restricted; you know being in unfamiliar environments could potentially spike your elemental, and you didnât want to risk accidentally committing arson or anything like that. As much as you hate your gloves, you know they keep you safe, which is why you keep them on.
Weirdly enough, nobody seems to pay you any mind; not with your gloves, not even with the bulky silhouette of your hanbok-like uniform you knew you should have changed out of before coming here. Itâs as though youâre invisible, everyoneâs eyes fixed on the arena below.
âThe next match is about to begin. In the blue corner representing Blue Wave Taekwondo, here to show off his agility and skillâ letâs give it up for Jeno Lee!â
You startle when the people around you cheer loudly, and you slowly bring your own hands together to join in on the applause. You canât really make out the athleteâs face as he steps into the ring, most of his features blocked by the helmet he dons. Youâre curious, having never seen a sparring match that required this much gear beforeâ then again, you suppose that's just how it goes for an ordinary human sport.
âAnd in the red corner, known for his speed and precision, Kick It Dojangâs very own Mark Lee! Letâs give him a warm welcome!â
The buzz of the crowd fades into the background the moment your gaze lands on the boy decked in red and white, but you donât register it until a second laterâ not until he straightens his back after bowing to his opponent, and his eyes meet yours.
A sharp pain suddenly hits your temples, and you hiss as your head falls to your hands. Immediately, the world starts to warp.
Youâre looking at the boy from your visions, the boy you now know as Mark Lee. His head lies in your lap, lifeless, his skin pale and cold. Shadows swirl around you, whispering things you donât understand.
âMark,â you breathe, voice trembling. âWake up. I need you to wake up, please.â
But nothing.
The whispers grow louder, your own voice feeling like it's being drowned out by their presence. Your chest starts to tighten with the weight of the darknessâ
The vision cuts off abruptly, and youâre left breathless as your eyes refocus to the arena before you. Youâre not sure how much time has passed, but Mark is still in the ring, already in the midst of sparring with his opponent.
Your visions of him was what led you here in the first place, each one like fragments of a puzzle pulling you closer and closer. They're mostly brief, but you know they mean something, especially because of the shadows that would often surround him as they hiss with intent you couldn't decipher.
But this one was different.
For the first time, he had a name. For the first time, you saw him up closeâ vulnerable, his life resting in your hands as the wraiths closed in around you both.
It felt like the collision of two separate worlds that were never supposed to merge, and you know that this was no ordinary vision. Whatever it is that just happened... it was only the beginning.
And you knew you needed to let Mark know.
Mark bounces his head to the music blasting through his wired earpieces, his eyes trained on his scuffed Converses as he walks. He's been told it's a real bad habit, to not watch where he's going (especially when he couldn't even hear his surroundings most of the time), but he swears he's working on it. Plus, his headphones aren't even the noise-cancelling kind, so he's still able to hear what goes on around him, albeit only partly; like right now.
Mark stops in his tracks, pulling out one of the buds from his ears as he looks behind him.
Nothing.
It's been happening a lot recently, to get the sensation of someone whispering in his ear only for him to look up and realise that he's alone. He's tried brushing it off as a gust of windâ even a figment of his own imaginationâ but he knows better than to believe that, not when the night is too still, too quiet, and he's far from losing his mind.
He also knows better than to ask if anybody's thereâ he's seen enough horror movies to know how badly that would end for him.
Perhaps walking through the park at this hour wasn't his best idea in the first place.
Mark stares idly at the barely-lit pavement for a few seconds more before bringing his earbud back to his ear, turning back around to resume his walkâ only to be met with you.
He stumbles backwards with a startled gasp, his phone almost falling from his hand before he realises that no, you're not a ghost.
Youâre the girl from earlier.
Of course, Mark remembers you. How could he not, when you're the only one who stuck out like a sore thumb in a sea of spectators? It was odd enough as it is for him to be distracted right before a match, but there was just something about you that pulled him in; Mark couldn't pinpoint exactly what. Maybe it was your odd choice of attire, the traditional Korean-inspired silhouette of your all-black trench coat that cinched at your waist, or maybe it was the latex gloves that caught his attention first.
Either way, heâs feeling it again, that magnetic pull that renders him unable to look away, and it's not just because you're prettyâ it feels as though there's literally something weighing him down, pulling on his chest.
Before he could question it, he notices your eyes lose focus on him, settling on something behind him instead. Youâre the first one to break the silence.
"Duck."
Mark frowns. "What?"
In a split second, you're already ripping off your gloves, a flame roaring to life in your palm before you hurl the fire over his shoulder.
Markâs confusion morphs into a split-second horror as he instinctively ducks, stumbling over his own two feet as he hears the air behind him fill with an otherworldly screech. Still, he dares himself to look over his shoulder, just in time to see multiple shadowy figures burst into flames before dissolving into nothingness.
The sight only causes Mark to fall on his butt, his neck snapping back towards you.
âWhat the hell was that?â His voice cracks, barely above a whisper. âAnd- what- what did you just do?â
You let out a shaky breath, flicking your bare wrist before you put on your glove, almost nonchalantly. Almost like you didnât just shoot fire out of your hands.
Oh, maybe he is losing his mind.
âIâll explain later,â you say, glancing around the deserted park. âWe need to go. Itâs not safe here.â
âNo. No, no,â Mark stammers, breathless as he pushes himself off the ground with a shaky hand, his knees almost giving way. âThereâs no later. What the hell is going on? Was that- was that real? Did I just see you- what are you-â
His voice is rising now, panic clear in his tone, but you donât have the luxury of soothing him yetâ not with the danger still lingering. You sigh softly. âMark, just listen to me-â
âListen to what?â he cuts in, his voice shaking. âYou just threw fire. At a... at a thing I donât even have a name for! This- this isnât normal!â
You knew this wasnât going to end well if you donât act fast.
Clenching your jaw, you shut your eyes momentarily. âRenjun,â you mutter, almost in defeat. âA little help, please.â
Thereâs a moment of silence before the Chinese boy appears, stepping out from the shadows as if he had been waiting for his cue. His expression is calm, but his eyes narrow as he takes in the sceneâ Markâs pale, terrified face, along with your desperate one.
âReally?â Renjun raises a brow. âYou couldnât handle this on your own?â
âNot now," you hiss, glancing back at Mark who looks like heâs seconds away from collapsing.
Renjun sighs, muttering something under his breath before stepping closer. His hand glows a faint green as he grabs Markâs shoulder and reaches for you.
For the second time that night, Mark could barely register what was going onâ only this time, his world starts to spin, and the ground disappears beneath him.
Soon, everything turns to black.
Mark wakes up to a bare ceiling and a pounding headache, no sign of you or that other boy with the glowing hands whose name he could barely even remember.
He lets out a relieved exhale. So it was all just a bad dream.
âHuh. She didnât tell me you were hot.â
Mark startles at the new voice, almost falling off the bed as he sits up, his neck whipping to his left.
He doesnât recognise who heâs looking at. The boy looks to be around his age, maybe a little younger, with chestnut-brown hair that falls messily in his eyes. Heâs seated casually in a chair right next to the bed, leaning forward with an almost unnerving curiosity that makes Mark feel like heâs a rat in a lab experiment.
One thing that Mark does recognise, is the attire the boy dons, similar to the one he saw on you. Up close, he could make out the intricate design embossed in the silk material of his shirt, and it looks just like the top-half of a hanbok, except with a modern twist.
So it wasnât a dream. Everything that happened was real. Mark feels his head start to spin even more.
Where is he, and who are you people?
âYouâre at the academy. Weâre⊠uh, I donât really know how to answer your question without freaking you out even more, so Iâm probably just gonna leave that to someone else, but Iâm Donghyuck.â
âWhat?â Mark rasps, his eyes squinting in confusion. He didnât actually say that out loud, did he?
âOh, my bad,â Donghyuck quips, not really sounding all that apologetic as he leans back in his chair. âYou didnât, but I heard you anyway. Usually Iâd have to be touching your arm or something, but I guess this could happen too if the other personâs energy levels are like, skyrocketing through the roof. And my knee was kinda touching your blanket, so thereâs that. Youâre a nervous guy, arenât you, Mark? Huh, wait- that explains the crash course on personal spaceâŠâ
âHyuck.â
Donghyuck halts his rambling to glance over his shoulder, and Mark follows his gaze to see you.
In the midst of his confusion, heâs slightly relieved to see a familiar face. Even if said familiar face could shoot fire out of her palms and⊠well, killed whatever the hell that thing behind him was.
âWell, thatâs my cue to go. Duty calls!â Donghyuck sings, slapping his palms on his thighs as he stands up. âSee ya around, Bruce Lee.â
You spare Donghyuck a warning glance when he walks past you, and you know heâs ignoring you on purpose as he whistles his way out the door.
âSorry about that,â you mutter as you approach Mark, opting to stand at the foot of his bed. âHow are you feeling?â You ask tentatively.
âConfused. Sore. Mostly confused.â Mark shakes his head weakly, his dark hair falling in his eyes. âWhat the hell happened?â
âWell, you passed out, and rightfully so. Non-Gifted bodies arenât usually able to withstand the forces of teleportation, but seeing as you made it throughâŠâ you trail off before clearing your throat, telling him your name before you continue. âThis is the academy. Itâs a place for⊠people like me; people with abilities. And that thing you saw back thereâ theyâre Umbras. Wraiths that feed off energy. Theyâre dangerous, and they were after you.â
Markâs brows knit together. âMe? Why me? I donât have⊠abilities, or whatever it is youâre talking about. Iâm just a normal guy.â
You hesitate as you choose your next words carefully. âI thought so too. But Iâve been having visions of you for weeks, Mark, and it wasnât until today did I realise that my visions of the Umbras and you⊠theyâre all connected.â You start to pace around the room. âYou have to be possessing some sort of energy for them to be after you in the first place. Are you certain youâre powerless?â
You stop right in front of him, and Mark stares at you like youâre crazy.
âUm, Iâm pretty sure.â
You huff in frustration, running a hand through your hair. You know that it isnât his fault, but he isnât giving you anything to work with.
âSo, uh, the fire thing you did back there. That was your ability, right?â
You turn back to Mark, whoâs still looking at you. Heâs taking this surprisingly well, you think, though it does seem that heâs still recovering from shock.
âYes. Iâm a pyrokinetic. We all have different abilities here. Donghyuck's is psychometry, and if you remember Renjun, he teleports.â
Mark nods slowly. âSo youâre kinda like Elsa, huh? But with fire instead of ice? Wait, no- youâre Azula.â
You tilt your head in confusion. âWhoâs Azula?â
Mark parts his lips before he closes them, uttering a quiet nevermind under his breath. You notice the flush that creeps up his neck, and for some reason, the sight brings a warm sensation to your own cheeks.
He clears his throat. âSo, that explains the gloves?â
You glance down at your hands, fingers wringing one another before letting them fall to your sides. âWell, yes. They help to keep things under control. My ability can get a little unpredictable if Iâm not careful.â
âUnpredictable how?â
You hesitate, unsure of how much to reveal. You werenât even expecting for him to be asking this many questionsâ most people didnâtâ but you figure thatâs probably because something thatâs ordinary in your world must seem extraordinary in his. âFire isnât exactly forgiving. It doesnât listen well, and if I lose focus, it can spread. The gloves act as a barrier, like a safety net.â
Mark is a silent for a while. âDoes it hurt?â he asks, his voice quieter now.
The question surprises you, and for a moment, youâre not sure how to respond. Youâve never had anyone ask you that before. âIt used to,â you admit. âBut Iâve trained for years to handle it. The pain doesnât really bother me anymore.â
Before he could respond, you clear your throat. âYou should, um, get some rest. Iâm sure Headmaster Kang would want to talk to you after this. Do you need anything else?â
âNo, no, Iâm good.â Mark finally glances away, letting out a slow exhale as he rests on the headboard behind him.
You nod before excusing yourself out of the room, your gloved hands instinctively rising to your cheeks. Theyâre still warm from beforeâ oddly warm. Itâs strange, because youâve always only been able to conjure heat with your palms, so youâre not sure if this is some new side effect⊠or something else entirely.
Youâre sure itâs the former. What else could it be?
Mark has never had that many friends growing up. Sure, heâs constantly surrounded by peopleâ an inevitability when his entire life is just training after training, and tournament after tournamentâ but even then, he still finds a way to keep to himself. Thereâs enough pressure trying to succumb to his own expectations of being the best athlete he could be, and the last thing he needs is the added weight of othersâ opinions or distractions that could potentially pull him off course.
That, and the fact that heâs been told that heâs far too awkward, but thatâs never been a problem for himâ at least, until now.
Donghyuck is chattering away at a speed Mark couldnât really comprehend, Renjun only nodding occasionally to show that heâs listening as he sips on his soup. You, on the other hand, donât even seem all that interested, barely even reacting to Donghyuck's story about how he accidentally overheard someoneâs entire dream during a nap the other day.
With both you and Renjunâs lack of reaction, heâs starting to think that this is just how Donghyuck is on a day-to-day basis.
âI swear, I wasnât even trying this time,â Donghyuck exclaims, gesturing wildly with his spoon. âOne minute, Iâm dreaming about ice cream, and the next, Iâm trapped in this weird universe about werewolves mating. Do you know how traumatising that is? What kind of fantasies is she having?â He visibly shudders. âUgh. Should I go through solar confinement so it stops?â
âHyuck, come on. Why would you want to put yourself through that?â You finally speak up, concern lacing your tone. âPlus, I doubt itâll do much to help with your⊠questionable dreams.â
âIt wasnât even my dream!â Donghyuck whines, and it is only when Mark notices the small upturn of your lips does he realise that you were just pulling your friendâs leg.
Itâs the first time heâs seen you smile. He thinks itâs kind of nice.
âWhatâs the solar confinement?â He finally asks, letting his curiosity get the best of him.
âOh, just this lovely punishment Headmaster Kang came up with." Donghyuck rolls his eyes. "You stand in the sun for hours, no shade, no escape. Supposedly it 'clears your head,' but I think itâs just a slow way to turn someone into a human oven. Huh, I think Iâll take werewolf dreams over that any day.â Donghyuck shudders again. âBut hey, speaking of the headmaster, have you met him yet?â
âYeah. Yesterday, actually.â Mark spares you a glance. âHe told me that itâd be better for me to stay until we figure out why the wraiths are after me. Itâs safer that way. Thatâs why Iâm still here, I guess,â he chuckles awkwardly.
After you left Mark at the infirmary yesterday, you went straight to Headmaster Kang to inform him what had happened. You brought Renjun along with you, mostly because you were terrified of being reprimanded for bringing in a Non-Gifted to the academy, but Headmaster Kang took it surprisingly well. You suppose it was the urgency of the entire situation; the Gifted and Non-Gifted are supposed to coexist in two separate worlds, and now that one is beginning to bleed into the other, there seemed to be only one way to contain it: by bringing Mark in.
âYeah, that makes sense. Donât worry about it, though. The Umbras wonât be able to get to you here,â Donghyuck assures. âBut seriously, your energy must have been super strong for them to reach you in the first place.â
âOh, Iâm not- Iâm not a Gifted,â Mark corrects him. âI mean, I donât know. Thatâs what weâre trying to figure out, I guess.â
âWoah, really? I kinda thought that was how I managed to read you yesterday without even touching you,â Donghyuck hums, curious. âMind if I read you now, Newbie? Maybe that could help in finding your elemental.â
âOh, uh- sure.â Mark outstretches his palm across the table hesitantly, and Donghyuck places his hand on top immediately. As much as Mark was expecting to feel somethingâ maybe a small jolt of static or any other kind of sensationâ itâs surprisingly painless, and Donghyuck withdraws his hand with knitted brows.
âWeird. Itâs all fuzzy. I canât see anything,â he mumbles. âI wonder what changed.â
âI have ADHD,â Mark admits. âMaybe that could be it?â
âAh, yeah!â Donghyuck clicks his tongue, snapping his fingers. âA lot of things going up there, huh? I get it. Iâm sure itâll come to you eventually. You know, I was a late bloomer, too. Got my abilities at twenty. I got admitted to the psych ward because people thought I was crazy, when the whole time I just had abilities. Headmaster Kang bailed me out-â
âHe didnât bail you out, Hyuck. It wasn't a prison.â
â-now here I am!â Donghyuck finishes off his speech, ignoring you.
You shake your head, scoffing in amusement, and the table is finally silent when everyone returns to their food.
If Mark wasnât aware of his surroundings then, he definitely is now.
The dining area isnât that big, housing only about twenty other people or soâ most of which are casting him less-than-subtle stares behind their bowls. He gets it, thoughâ in a school this small, word definitely would have gotten out fast. Heâs sure the students here wouldnât be too thrilled to learn that a Non-Gifted is among them, and the fact scares Mark by a little.
âIgnore them,â you mutter from beside him when Renjun and Donghyuck escalate into yet another argument. Mark knows you arenât referring to them.
He chuckles. âYou read minds too?â
âNo.â You snort. âYour face says it all. They just arenât used to seeing new people, is all. You have us, Mark. Youâll be fine.â
If it werenât for the smile you gave his way, Mark is sure he wouldâve had a hard time believing you.
⊠⊠âŠ
Scratch thatâ Mark doesnât think heâll be fine.
Seated uneasily in the headmasterâs office, he couldnât help but to feel out of place. The walls are lined with dark wood panels and rows of ancient books, the kind that seemed to know secrets no one dared to ask about. For some reason, he finds it difficult to tear his gaze away from them, specifically the one with the weathered, leather spine tucked away at the very end.
Mark has no idea why he's staring at it intentlyâ it could be because out of everything else in this room, that odd-looking book seems to be the most interesting. He must have been looking at it for too long, because for a fleeting moment, the book starts to glow, only for it to disappear after a blink.
Mark takes that as a sign to look away. His body must still be struggling to adapt to everything that's been happening in the last 48 hours to the point of him seeing things.
He had been called in right after breakfast, where he had to split ways with you, Donghyuck and Renjun as you carried on with your daily activities. The floor-length windows of the office gives him the perfect view of the academy grounds below, where students are scattered across the courtyard as they practice their respective abilities.
Instinctively, his eyes search for you, quickly spotting you alone at the edge of the training field. A flicker of fire ignites in your palm before it disappears completely.
âMark.â Headmaster Kangâs voice brings him back to the present. Mark looks away from the window. âLetâs go through your background again. Where did you say you were from?â
âSeoul, sir,â he answers stiffly. âBut, uh⊠I donât really know much about where I came from before that. I was adopted when I was a baby.â
The old man purses his lips in thought. âAnd your adoptive family? Were there any unusual experiences growing up? Any unexplained phenonema that could suggest why you might be a target for Umbras?â
âUmbras,â Mark repeats, the term still foreign on his tongue. He shakes his head. âNo, sir. At least, not that I know of. I mean, my parents have always joked that that I was⊠emotional, I guess? They said that I had this weird way of making everyone around me feel what I was feeling,â he laughed awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck. âBut I donât suppose that would explain why shadow demons are chasing after me now?â
Headmaster Kang smiles, the upward tug of his lips softening his otherwise hard features. Admittedly, the gesture helps in making Mark feel a little less jittery, though the sharp glint in his eyes remain stern.
âListen, Mark. The world of the Gifted is vast and enigmatic. Each of my students here possess their own unique abilities that sets them apart from the rest. While it is not common for abilities to manifest at your age, no one has ever ruled out that possibility.â He leans back in his chair, the leather creaking under his weight. âThe Gifted have existed for hundreds of years now, yet there are still so many things we canât explain due to the nature of our bodies. Theyâre constantly changing, evolving, defying the boundaries of what we think we know.â
The information is a lot to digest, so Mark doesnât say anything.
âYou can start off by looking into your biological family. See if they have any ties to our worldâ that might give more insight as to why these things are taking place. The library is free for you to visit, and if you have any questions, do not hesitate to ask me,â Headmaster Kang continues. âFor now, weâll focus on integrating you into the academy. Youâre going to need this-â
He pulls out a drawer, taking out a neatly folded fabric before setting it on the table. Mark recognises it instantly.
âI understand you practiced Taekwondo before coming here. Discipline and control are central to martial arts, qualities that align well with what we value here.â
Mark nods, unsure of how else to respond. âIâve been doing it for years. Itâs⊠grounding.â
âGood. Then that foundation will serve you well.â Another faint smile flickers on Headmaster Kangâs face as he nods towards the uniform. âYouâll begin training tomorrow. Even if your elemental remains dormant for now, itâs important to cultivate focus and discipline. Those qualities may unlock more than you realise.â
Mark nods slowly, picking up the silk material. The uniform is heavier than he expected, like it carries the weight of something much larger than himself.
âThank you,â he says softly. It feels strange to be grateful for something he didnât ask for.
The next couple of days seemed to pass by in a blur, at least for Mark.
Life had settled into a strange rhythm; he would spend his mornings in physical training, afternoon in power control (something he didnât even have, leaving him to do more physical training), and evenings sparring under the watchful eyes of the instructors. As gruelling as it was, it gave him less time to think about the wraiths that were after himâ or why he was even here in the first place.
The midday sun beats down on the training grounds as students gather to observe the mock battle that was about to begin. You spare Mark a glance, his face passive as he waits for your instructorâs signal, but you can feel itâ the sharp undercurrent of nervous energy radiating off him, and it prickles on your senses like electricity.
You blink, trying to shake it off, but itâs hard to ignore the sudden wave of unease that settles around you, almost like a weighted blanket that only grows heavier with each passing second.
Your force yourself to regulate your breathing, not realising that youâre on the verge of hyperventilating until you hear Mark calling your name.
âHey, you okay?â He turns to you, eyes wide with concern as he ducks slightly to look at your face. You can feel his fingers circle around your wrist even despite the latex barrier between your skin and his fingertips, but it doesnât do much to bring you comfort.
You part your lips to answer, but nothing comes out. âI-â
âMark and Younghyun, to the center of the ring,â your instructorâs voice calls out, causing Mark to inhale sharply as he reluctantly lets go of your hand. He casts Donghyuck beside you a look, who nods in understanding as he pulls you closer towards him.
âYou alright?â Donghyuck mutters quietly, his arm still around your shoulder.
You nod wordlessly as you exhale, the heaviness finally leaving your chest. With your vision refocusing, youâre only now realising that Mark is no longer beside you, already standing at the edge of the ring as he prepares himself for the first round. âJust- felt lightheaded all of a sudden.â
Donghyuck is silent for a while until he speaks up. âI felt it too, you know.â
You tense as you turn your head to face him, but his eyes are not on you, rather, on Mark. You didnât even notice how unusually grim Donghyuck is being, unlike his usual self, and that instantly tells you that something is wrong.
âI canât read you at all.â He finally looks at you, his hand tapping your shoulder before he drops it completely. âSame thing happened with him during breakfast the other day, remember?â
You swallow. âBut Mark said he had that- that thing. Itâs a condition, right?â
âYeah, but I literally managed to read him through his blanket on his first day. Could practically feel the nerves bouncing off the guy.â Donghyuck looks around before he exhales, dropping his voice. âI think his elemental has something to do with his emotions. You felt it, I felt it. And now that he left, the feelingâs gone. Donât you find it weird?â
âIâŠâ you trail off, shaking your head as you try to piece things together in your head. âItâs just, his energy shifts, right? Are you saying that itâs more than his emotions just affecting him⊠it affects everyone around him as well?â
âExactly. Itâs not easy to balance both your energy and emotions, especially when you donât know whatâs happening. Iâm betting thatâs why heâs been out of touch with his abilities.â Donghyuck nods towards the ongoing match, and you follow his gaze, looking at Mark and Younghyun as they circle the ring, waiting for the other to throw the first move.
This isnât the first time these two are sparring each other. You donât know Younghyun that well, nothing more than the fact that heâs a shadow manipulator, and that he has a particular habit of taunting Mark every chance he gets. Theyâre always subtle, but you can tell it gets under Markâs skin every timeâ including now, as you could tell based on the downturn of his lips.
âCome on, Lee,â Younghyun calls out, voice dripping with mockery. âThought youâd put up more of a fight. Or are you too scared to use your powers? Oh, wait,â he snickers to himself.
Markâs jaw tightens. The comment is meant to get a reactionâ and itâs working. Without warning, he throws the first punch, a straight fist aimed right towards Younghyunâs face.
The boy only barely manages to sidestep, the contact knocking him off-balance momentarily. The air starts to grow heavy, more volatile, and with the way Younghyunâs smirk drops slightly, you know he feels it too.
Donghyuck might just be right.
âNice try.â Younghyun recovers quickly. âBut youâre gonna have to do better than that,â he says lowly, stretching out his arms as he directs his own shadow towards Mark, the silhouette solidifying before it lurches foward and grabs a hold of Markâs limbs, pulling him down harshly. He loses his balance, the sound of him hitting the ground making you gasp.
âOh, câmon!â Younghyun laughs as he stands at Markâs feet. âAre you just gonna keep lying there like an injured lamb? Tsk. Powerless,â he taunts some more, garnering a few chuckles from the crowd.
Mark didnât seem to like that.
âShut the hell up,â he grits as he gets up. The air around him seems to hum, thick with unseen energy. The crowd falls silent, their laughter replaced by gasps of alarm, but Mark doesnât notice itâ until it happens.
A burst of white light explodes outward as he lunges towards Younghyun, the energy radiating like a shockwave, causing the latter to fly backwards before landing on the ground with a loud thud. The air still crackles with tension as Mark stumbles back, his heart pounding fiercely in his chest as he looks at his hands, trembling with the unfamiliar power.
âWhat theâŠâ he whispers to himself, slowly looking back to his opponent who still lies unconscious, the only reassurance of him being alive the faint rise and fall of his chest. Relief washes over Mark for a moment, before itâs quickly overshadowed by the feeling of dread as the murmurs around him grow louder, the words âdangerousâ and âunstableâ cutting through the noise.
He looks around helplessly, before his eyes land on you, already looking at him with concern painted on your features. You step towards him, but Mark stumbles back, his stomach churning.
âMark,â you say softly, but he shakes his head, feeling his eyes burn with tears he knows he shouldnât let fall in front of you, so he does the next best thing:
He runs away.
⊠⊠âŠ
You find Mark in his room, his back turned to you as he frantically packs his bags.
âWha- are you leaving?â
Your voice causes him to stall before his hands fall in defeat, and he finally turns to you.
Based on the redness of his eyes, you know that heâs been crying, and the sight tugs on your heartstrings. Itâs a deep, unshakeable sadness that wells up in you, and you know it isnât his emotions bleeding into yours this timeâ itâs all yours.
âI shouldnât be here anymore,â he says weakly, his voice hoarse. âI canâtâ not if Iâm hurting people along the way. I didnât mean to hurt him-â
âI know. I know, Mark.â You step towards him slowly, and he lets you, though heâs quick to avoid your gaze as he looks at his shoes. âItâs not your fault.â
The lights in the room start to flicker as he takes in a shaky breath, the dim glow struggling to stay steady. With each passing second, the flickering intensifies, plunging the room into near darkness before the bulbs flare brightly.
âLook at me?â You plead, gently cupping his jaw to tilt his face towards you. His tear-filled eyes gaze longingly into yours, and you make sure he doesnât look away as you drop your arm, tugging the glove off your other hand.
Conjuring a small flame in your right palm, you raise back your hand, letting it hover steadily between the two of you. His eyes naturally follow the fire that dances in your palm, the orange hue reflecting in his glassy irises.
âBreathe,â you say gently. As the flame pulses and sways in a slow, rhythmic pattern, his breathing begins to match its cadence, each inhale and exhale drawing closer to the calm tempo youâve set for him, until the room eventually stops flickering and returns to normal.
âYour abilities donât make you a threat, Mark.â Your voice wavers, but you hold his gaze, feeling your own tears well in your eyes. In a way, Mark Lee reminds you of yourselfâ alone, misunderstood, burdened with a gift you never asked for. You understand his fear, because it mirrors your own; and itâs taken you years alone to realise that it doesnât define nor destroy you.
âIt can be tamed,â you continue softly, and the flame in your palm steadies, its gentle glow casting shadows across his pained features. You fight back the urge to hold him, to smoothen out the worry between his eyebrows, and tell him that itâs alright. So instead, you settle for a smile, hoping that your words are able to convey what actions couldnât.
âJust like mine.â
Youâre looking at Mark again, only this time, heâs standing at the other end of the room, far away from you. His features are illuminated by the moonlight breaking through the cracked window next to him, his fists glowing faintly with a power heâs only beginning to understand.
You try to call out for him, but your voice comes out as muffled. The towering shapes that surround the two of you feel vaguely familiar, along with the dust that swirls in the air and the faint smell of musty paper, but the way theyâre constantly twisting and blurring into nothingness makes it hard for you to pinpoint exactly where you are.
One by one, the Umbras start to appear, and you canât see Mark anymore with how quickly theyâve encircled him. The air is heavy, suffocating, and thatâs when you hear it; a familiar voice:
âEngulf him.â
The shadows start to hiss, the sharp noise growing louder and louder with each passing second. Instinctively, you bring your hands to your ears, only for pain to flare instantly as your skin burns on contact. With a gasp, you let your arms fall, and thatâs when you notice the absence of your gloves, your palms raw and red.
An estranged cry leaves your lips as the burning sensation starts to spread beneath your skin, causing you to fall to your knees. You want to call out for Mark, but you canât, your lips feeling as though theyâve been sewn shut so tightly that you canât do anything else but to stare helplessly as the Umbras consume him.
You jolt awake with a scream, clutching your arms as the phantom burn lingers. It was just a nightmare, but not just any ordinary oneâ it was another vision.
The sudden banging on your door causes you to jump out of your skin, and youâre hesitant to move from your bed, given the state of your own frantic self. It is only when you hear the familiar voice at the other side do you finally stumble to open it, and youâre instantly met with Renjunâs panicked face, his fists raised and glowing.
He sighs upon seeing you, dropping his hands. âGod, I was literally about to break into your room! What took you so lo- are you crying?â Renjun halts amidst his rambling when he takes in your tear-stricken face, something you didnât even realise until he pointed it out.
âI just, uh, had a bad dream,â you mutter, quickly wiping your eyes with your bandaged hands. You had switched from sleeping with your gloves on to wrapping them with gauze, something Donghyuck had taught you when he noticed how irritated your skin would get after wearing them for a full day. You still have yet to master wrapping them perfectly, the fabric currently falling apart at the seams, but at least they keep your palms covered.
Renjun shakes his head, as though snapping himself out of distraction. âListen, itâs Mark.â
Your heart drops upon hearing his name.
Renjun continues. âSomethingâs going on. I noticed his door was left ajar when I left my room to go to the washroom, so I knocked to see if he was okay, but he wasnât inside. I donât know where he is.â
You swallow hard, and it feels like bile has risen in your throat at the thought of your vision coming true. You shove past Renjun wordlessly, stumbling into the hallway.
âWhere are you going?â He calls out after you, but you donât respond, your feet carrying you towards the end of the corridor. Your steps only falter when you reach a junction, and you close your eyes as you try to steady your breathing. Thereâs a tug in your mind, like an invisible string thatâs pulling you towards the shadowy corners of the academy, and thatâs when it hits you: the cracked window. The dust. The smell of old paper.Â
âAre you seriously not gonna answer me?â Renjun pants when he catches up to you, clearly annoyed. âI know youâre worried, but running aimlessly wonât help you find-â
âI know where he is,â you cut him off, turning around.
Renjun frowns before his expression eases into one of realisation. âYour visionsâŠâ
You nod before taking off towards the east wing, not looking behind to check if he is following after you.
You donât remember the last time you visited the old libraryâ or anyone, for that matter. Since the fire that ravaged the east wing a few years back, the entire area was deemed unsafe, left to rot after the surviving books were moved to a newer wing.
But it wasnât just the fire that left the library abandoned; more so, the rumours that followed. The timing of the incident had been too coincidental, perfectly lining up to the time when your abilities first spiraled out of control. No one had ever outright accused you, but the rumours were enough to make you feel their suspicions.
Youâd avoided the place since, the unspoken blame too much of a weight for you to bear. But now, as you approach the charred doorway, your stomach churns at the thought of stepping back inside.
Taking in a shaky breath, you push the heavy door open, the hinges creaking as it reveals the forgotten library.
Itâs there, just like you envisioned earlier, which is why it doesnât take you long to spot Mark, standing in between the bookshelves as his eyes and fists glow a bright white. Dark shapes swirl around him like smoke, some darting towards him only to be repelled away at the last second, as though heâs being protected by an unseen force.
Now this, you didnât see in your vision.
âMark?â You call out, your voice trembling as you slowly inch towards him, but Renjun quickly catches your wrist.
You turn to meet his worried gaze. âI donât think- should I go call Headmaster Kang?â
You stall. âIf we tell him, Iâd have to explain how I know. You know he doesnât know about my visions,â you reply hesitantly, wriggling your hand out of his grasp. âI canât afford to do that right now.â
âYes, but-â Renjun is insistent before he lets out a frustrated sigh, knowing that nothing he could say would change your mind.
âI canât go back to confinement, Jun,â you say quietly, and Renjun looks away.
âI know,â he mutters. âAt least let me call Hyuck?â
You nod hesitantly, and Renjun gives you one last look before he raises his fists, conjuring a portal and disappearing.
You turn back to Mark, keeping your eyes on him as you unravel the bandages on your hands. You let them fall to the floor before you raise your arms, your palms heating up instantly.
As though sensing the shift in the air, the Umbras turn to you, and you barely notice Markâs protective barrier start to flicker uncertainly before the wraiths lunge towards you at full speed.
âNot today,â you mutter through gritted teeth as you flick your wrists, sending a jet of fire through them before they screech, eventually disappearing into nothingness.
It feels never-ending, and you know youâre growing tired as the heat of the flames intensify the more you attack. Still, you ignore the pain that sears your skin, letting the adrenaline take over until the last of the wraiths vanish with a hiss, and you finally allow yourself to drop your arms.
You pant heavily, only now registering the state of the charred library shrouded with smoke; as though the fire from years ago had come alive before your very eyes.
Your knees buckle, and despite the pain that seizes your entire body, you crawl towards Mark, shifting so his head could fall to your lap. His lips are pale, body unnervingly still, but heâs still breathing; albeit shallowly.
âMark,â you croak, your trembling hands hovering over his face as though youâre unsure of what to do with them. Your bandages are somewhere on the ground behind you, and you donât want to accidentally burn him by touching him. âWake up. I need you to wake up, please.â
This scene feels oddly familiar.
You fight back a choked sob, but it doesnât do much in stopping the tears that fall down your cheeks. They burn, like acid, and you quickly wipe them away with your sleeves.
You vaguely hear someone calling your name behind you, registering the familiar voice of Donghyuck before he skids to a crouch next to you. You tilt your chin to look at him, and his lips part in shock upon taking in your face.
âHelp him, please.â You cut Donghyuck off just as heâs about to say your name, and he swallows before nodding grimly, beckoning for Renjun to come over.
You scoot away to give the boys some space, and your eyes fall to your hands on your lap. The sleeves of your shirt partly obscure them, but the burns still peek through, a stark reminder of the flames you wielded, and a haunting proof of how your even visions arenât able to save Mark.
Mark thinks heâs going crazy.
He had woken up in the infirmary with no recollection of what had happened, the marks on his skin the only evidence that something did actually happen in the time he was unconscious, but that isnât even the worst part.
The worst part is that he hasnât seen you since he woke up, and neither Donghyuck nor Renjun is telling him where you disappeared off to.
He finds himself in Headmaster Kangâs office instead, and the downturn of the manâs lips tells Mark that he isnât here for a casual chat.
âSo tell me, Mark. How did you find yourself in the old library?â Headmaster Kang rests his elbows on his desk as he leans forward.
Mark swallows nervously, his head hanging low. âI- Iâm sorry, sir. I donât remember.â
Headmaster Kang nods. âI understand that youâre still trying to adapt to your abilities, which might explain why these things are happening. How has training been going for you? Good?â
âI-â Mark pauses. The answer is at the tip of his tongue, but he couldnât possibly admit that to the headmaster, can he? How could he say that no, nothing has been going well for him ever since discovering his abilities, that his life has turned to literal shit since the day he knocked that kid Younghyun off his feet?
Despite his struggle to answer, Headmaster Kang smiles, as though knowing exactly what it is he wanted to say. Mark wonders if the he could read minds like Donghyuck.
âWeâve never had an Umbra attack at the academy before. This is a first, and I reckon it has something to do with your emotional resonance. As you already know, these things feed off energy, which could explain how theyâve managed to break through the perimeter.â
Mark clears his throat. âIâm sorry.â
âNo, no. Donât be.â Headmaster Kang shakes his head. âThis is a school. An instituition. I never want my students to feel unsafe at the one place thatâs supposed to protect them.â
Mark nods, not really sure where the conversation is heading towards.
âThat said, a wraith attack is to be taken very seriously. It was fortunate that nobody else got hurt-â
Relief washes through Mark momentarily. That would mean that youâre okay, right?
â-but for the sake of ensuring the safety of the other students, Iâm afraid that Iâd have to take action to make sure this doesnât happen again. I hope you understand this isnât mean to be a punishment, Mark, more so a protective measure to help regulate your abilities.â The headmaster pauses, as though thinking of the next words heâs going to say.
âSolar confinement,â he finally says, leaning back in his chair. âA method designed to stabilise energy levels. Itâs been used in the past for students who needed time to regain control over your powers. In fact, your friends have gone through this as well, so Iâm sure you are familiar with it, yes?â
Mark stiffens, his fists curling on his lap. Of course, heâs familiar with itâ itâs the one thing Donghyuck wouldnât stop talking about ever since he joined this academy.
âYouâre isolating me,â he responds, his tone stiff but measured.
âNo, Mark. Helping,â the headmaster corrects. âThink of it as a period of rehabilitation. Youâd be surprised what four hours could do in stabilising your inner elemental.â
Mark inhales sharply, knowing that he isnât left with a choice. âI understand, sir.â
âGood. You can head down to the courtyard and start when the clock hits twelve. Iâll have someone check in on you hourly until itâs done. And Mark?â Headmaster Kangâs tone shifts, the gentleness replaced with a sharper edge. âDonât disappoint me.â
Mark could only afford to nod robotically before he leaves the office, each step heavier than the last. At the rate heâs going, heâs not sure if any type of confinement could help with the inner turmoil heâs feeling.
⊠⊠âŠ
The headmaster lied.
It only took one hour in for Mark to realise that no, nobody was going to check in on him as heâs standing in the middle of the courtyard, alone and on the verge of passing out under the intense summer heat.
Itâs also a weekend, which explains why the academy feels so desolateâ not like that would have helped in any way, whatsoever. Heâs convinced that this so-called ârehabilitationâ is nothing more but a thinly veiled punishment for luring the wraiths onto school grounds; as though he even meant to do it on purpose in the first place.
If it werenât for his recently-discovered abilitiesâ emotional resonance, or whateverâ heâs sure he wouldnât even be able to make it to the twenty minute mark, let alone a whole hour. And with three more to go, he doesnât think even his inner elemental could help him with that.
He doesnât notice Donghyuck walk up to him until the boy taps him on his shoulder, grimacing upon taking in his face.
âHeadmaster Kang told me to come tap you out,â he says cautiously.
Markâs hazy mind barely processes Donghyuckâs words. Heâs pretty sure itâs only been two and a half hours, but he couldnât find it in him to care. His body gives out immediately, collapsing under the weight of exhaustion. A wave of nausea hits him, and before he could stop it, the bile rises quickly in his throat before it spills all over the ground in a violent retch.
Donghyuck cringes, crouching hesitantly before handing him a bottle of water. âPretty rough, huh?â
âShut up,â he heaves, taking a mouthful of water before spitting it out. âHow come?â
âUm,â Donghyuck seems hesitant to continue, but he sighs eventually. âListen, Iâm not supposed to tell you this, so you didnât hear this from me! But, uh⊠a transaction, of sorts, has been made. Believe me, I was not on board with it at all, but she was just so fucking adamant-â
âWhat?â
Donghyuck glances around, as though to make sure nobody is listening. âSomeone, made a deal with the headmaster to let her do isolation instead of you doing the full four hours,â he says in a hushed whisper. âYou know, someone being-â
âYeah, I got it, Hyuck,â Mark answers gruffly, getting back to his feet unsteadily as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand. âWhere is she?â
âI-â Donghyuckâs jaw tightens before he swallows. âThe old library. When she heard that you were going to be put in solar confinement, she marched straight to the headmasterâs office to tell him to lighten your sentence and to give it to her instead. I donât- damn it,â he sighs, struggling to form his own words as he runs a hand through his hair in frustration. âSheâs been avoiding you. Blaming herself for the shit that went down. Itâs like she thinks her visions were promises that she broke, or something. I keep telling her that itâs not her fault, but she just wonât listen. Sheâs convinced that staying away from you is the only way to keep you safe.â
And suddenly, everything comes rushing down to him. The Umbras that surrounded him, the white light that blinded him. The sound of your sobs, the feeling of his head in your lap. The way your voice cracked when you whispered his name, filled with guilt and fear.
Mark lets out a shaky exhale before he moves past Donghyuck, but the boy stops him.
âNot now,â he grits through his teeth, his eyes flickering upward momentarily. Mark follows his gaze, seeing the headmasterâs shadow behind the glass window at the very top floor. âYouâre a walking target now, remember that. Donât do anything I wouldnât do.â
âDonât have to worry about that." Mark shrugs Donghyuckâs hand off his shoulder. "From now on, Iâll just do everything my way.â
You canât feel anything in your palms.
Youâve been trying to conjure fire for the past twenty minutes, the emptiness in your hands gnawing on the edges of your sanity. Itâs not just the absence of heatâ itâs the absence of you, and in the suffocating quiet of the old library, it seems that that part of you has been snuffed out.
But this is what you asked for, right?
Mark had gotten hurt because of you; went into solar confinement because of you. If isolating yourself means not crossing paths with him anymore, maybe you could stop feeling the guilt of failing. Maybe you wonât have to see Mark hurt again and know itâs because of you.
Maybe youâll finally have some peace.
Still, thereâs a nagging voice at the back of your head that refuses to be silenced. The voice you heard in your vision, commanding the army of Umbras to engulf Markâ you know it wasn't just another cruel trick of your mind; not when it's so familiar, so authoritative.
You didn't want to believe it, but in the cold, soulless library, the truth suddenly hits you with a sickening clarity. That voice you heard in your vision was the voice you hear every single day.
It was Headmaster Kang.
Your heart thumps wildly against your chest, and you almost miss the creak of the door behind you in the midst of your revelation, only frantically blinking your thoughts away when you see a white light illuminate the otherwise dark room. You donât need to turn around to know who it is.
âMark.â Your voice is hoarse from disuse. âYou shouldnât be here.â
He ignores you, stepping further into the room towards where you are in between the shelves. His gaze sweeps over the makeshift cot youâve been using, the scattered bandages, the faint scorch marks on the wallsâ your desperate attempts to summon even a spark.
You finally turn to him, and Mark inhales sharply upon taking in your features. Your eyes are swollen like youâve been crying, and the streaks on your cheeks are raw, angry, as though your tears carried the heat of your abilities, stinging your skin as they fell.
Your vision lands on the orb of light that hovers above his palm; small, but bright enough to light the space in between the both of you. âHow come?â
âI donât know,â he replies just as quietly. The light disappears as he puts down his hand, leaving the room basking in a dim light only illuminated by the moon outside. âGuess confinement didnât work for me.â
You nod stiffly, averting your gaze to the window to your left when Mark kneels before you. He doesnât miss the way you clench your fists tightly.
âLet me see,â he murmurs as he reaches towards your hands.
You hesitate at first, but you donât know what it is that makes you give in finallyâ whether itâs the weight of your own exhaustion, or the way your name so softly escapes his lips that prompts you to extend your arms towards him.
Mark gently takes your hands into his, the warmth of his touch grounding you despite the rawness of your skin. Pulling out a roll of fresh bandages from his pockets, he begins to wrap them.
âYou know,â he starts lightly. âI used to do this a lot in Taekwondo. Bandaging hands, I mean. Usually for someone who landed a bad punch.â He glances at you through his lashes, as though trying to gauge if his attempt at humour has landed. âThough I donât suppose you punched anyone, right?â
You chuckle softly, sniffing as you raise your free hand to dry your cheek. Mark gives you a lopsided smile before he continues, and the both of you settle into a silence.
âDoes the headmaster know youâre here?â You ask, just as heâs about to finish with your second hand. Mark replies with a hum.
âIâm sure he does. Heâs been watching me like a hawk the entire day. ListenâŠâ he trails off, his eyes fixed on your hand still in his. Heâs done with wrapping you up, but he doesnât let go, his fingers fumbling over yours as though heâs thinking of something. You donât mind.
âI know this is just how things go here, but do you really think that makes it right? Why does he keep throwing us into confinement instead of teaching us how to control our abilities?â He asks, frustration evident in his tone. Mark finally lets go of your hands, but his gaze lingers on them.
You part your lips to reply, but Mark beats you to it.
âAnd donât even get me started on you.â His voice drops as he meets your eyes. âDonghyuck told me what you did. What the hell were you thinking? Throwing yourself into confinement- do you have any idea how dangerous that is?â
You could feel your tears start to burn, but youâre fixed on not letting them fall as you look down on your lap. âI was just trying to protect you.â
âProtect me?â Mark laughs bitterly. âYou think isolating yourself, weakening yourself, is protecting me? You think Iâd want that?â
âIt wasnât just about you, Mark,â you argue, though your voice falters. âI just thought- if I stopped having visions, I could stop failing. Stop feeling-â You cut yourself off when you feel yourself getting choked up, and Markâs features soften.
âStop feeling guilty?â He completes your sentence for you, and you nod hesitantly.
âHeadmaster Kang doesnât know about my visions,â you admit. âI knew he was going to send me into confinement if I did, which is ironic because I ended up doing that to myself anyway. But itâs also because-â you hesitate. Mark watches you intently, waiting for you to continue.
âThereâs a prophecy,â you finally say, swallowing harshly. âI didnât understand it at first. I kept seeing someone surrounded by light and shadows, but the more you showed up, the more it started to make sense. You were the centre of it all.â
Markâs expression hardens. âA prophecy? What does it say?â
âI donât know,â you say quietly. âTheyâre all vague, like most prophecies are. But it talks about light and darkness⊠and someone being consumed by the other. I think- I think theyâre about you.â
Something flickers in his eyes. âAnd youâve been keeping this all to yourself?â
âI didnât know how to tell you, Mark,â you protest, almost pleadingly. âAnd itâs not just that- thereâs something else.â You stall, unsure if you should share the next part, but you push forward. âIn my last vision⊠there was a voice. It commanded the wraiths, telling them to find you. Someoneâs been controlling them, and I thinkâŠâ you exhale shakily. "I think that someone is the headmaster."
Mark stiffens, but you continue before he could say something. âThereâs a reason why Iâve been keeping this to myself. I donât know what he knows, but I knew I couldnât tell him. Or anyone, for that matter. Not until I find out why he's doing this.â
âSo, what? You decided to take this all in yourself? You thought you could just fix this on your own?â The anger in his voice has dissipated by now, replaced with a mix of desperation and concern.
You lower your head, the weight of his words pressing on you. âI just wanted to keep you safe. Keep everyone safe.â
âAnd what if I donât need saving?â He asks, his voice quieter now. âWhat if what I need, is for you to be there with me? To help me figure this shit out?â
âIâm sorry,â you choke, tears already spilling down your cheeks at his words. Your features crumple in pain, and Mark seems to notice as he quickly takes your face in his hands.
âNo, no. Iâm sorry. Donât cry,â Mark murmurs, his thumbs working in wiping the moisture away.
âMark, stop,â you croak as you try to push his hands away, knowing your tears would burn him the way it does you. But Mark is unyielding, his palms holding the sides of your head firmly as he urges you to look at him.
âListen to me,â he insists. âYou donât get to shoulder this all on your own. You donât get to punish yourself because things didnât go the way you thought it would. Whatever this prophecy means, and whatever happens next, we face it together. Got it?â
You finally look at him through your tears, and Mark offers you a soft, pained smile as he brushes a stray lock of hair from your face. Heâs looking at you so tenderly, like you arenât the monster youâve convinced yourself to be.Â
For the first time in forever, you feel a flicker of hope ignite inside you.
âOkay,â you whisper. âTogether.â
The door creaks open, and Donghyuck looks up from the paperback heâs holding, brows raising when he sees you and Mark.
âWell, well, well.â He shuts his book, settling it down on his lap before leaning back in his chair, making himself comfortable. âLook who decided to rejoin society. I didnât think Iâd see you until the next apocalypse.â
You shift uncomfortably under his gaze, your hands brushing against the bandages still wrapped around your palms. Weirdly enough, it brings you a sense of comfort; less like a remedy for your wounds, and more of a quiet reassurance.
âDonghyuck,â you say quietly, ignoring his quip. âWe need your help.â
The boy shakes his head as he stands up. âNuh-uh. Not until you tell me what the hell is going in that head of yours, little lady. Do you have any idea how worried Markâs been? How worried Iâve been? Seriously, I thought youâd buried yourself with the way you holed yourself up in there!â
Despite the tension in your body, you still find it in you to roll your eyes at your friendâs nagging. You know thatâs just how Donghyuck is; always one for the dramatics. Itâs his way of showing he cares, as much as it grates your nerves sometimes.
âEnough, man. Sheâs here now, and thatâs all that matters, alright?â Mark cuts in, and Donghyuck narrows his eyes at him.
âRight. So tell me-â He gestures between you and Mark. âWhatâd you do to get her out? Sweet talk her? Promise her eternal gratitude? Or, donât tell me!â Donghyuck gasps dramatically as he turns to you. âHe gave you some heartfelt speech about how youâre not alone and how devastated he would be if you wasted your days in there?â
Your cheeks heat up as you look away, and Mark clears his throat awkwardly. Donghyuck is snickering to himself, but quickly stops when he registers your reaction.
âNo way. He actually did that? I was kidding!â He scoffs, almost in disbelief. âYou gotta tell me what you said, Mark. I might need it someday.â
Mark only groans. You donât need to look at him to know that heâs just embarrassed as you; the subtle change in the air says it all. Based on the growing smirk on Donghyuckâs face, you know he feels it too.
âHyuck, will you just shut up and listen? We need your help. Itâs about the east wing.â
At the mention of the east wing, Donghyuckâs smile falters. âEast wing? What about it?â
Mark turns to look at you, and you know that heâs leaving it to you to explain. You take in a deep breath.
âWhen I was in isolation, I lost my abilities momentarily. But I donât think it was the isolation that caused that. It was the old library.âÂ
Donghyuckâs brows furrow. âWhat? But it works the same way as solar confinement, doesnât it? It weakens your abilities in general.â
âIt wasnât supposed to.â You shake your head. âSolar confinement targets your physical fatigueâ it drains you, making it harder to control your abilities. There was no reason for me to lose mine when all I did was coop myself up in a room alone. The energy in there, Hyuck⊠itâs different. It doesnât just drain me, it interferes with the connection to my abilities.â
You turn to Mark. âThatâs also how you were able to conjure light in the library, even though you went through confinement. All of this has something to do with the prophecy, Iâm sure.â
âWait- prophecy? What prophecy?â Donghyuck interrupts, confused.
You nod. âThrough my visions, I saw a prophecy-â you pause to gauge his reaction, but his silence prompts you to continue. âSomething involving light and darkness. We need to find out what it is and I think the old library has the answers we need. And Headmaster Kang-â You cut yourself off, his name sounding bitter on your lips. âI need to find out if heâs really behind all of this.â
Donghyuck stares at you for a long moment before he sighs, running a hand through his hair. âYou guys really know how to ruin a perfect evening, donât you?â He mutters, though the way heâs already putting on his jacket betrays his reluctance. âAnd for the record, Iâve always known there was something off about that guy.â
A small smile tugs at your lips, and Donghyuck squints his eyes at you. âDonât think youâre off the hook just yet. I canât believe you kept all this shit from me! Youâre explaining everything on the way. And you.â He turns to Mark, who raises a brow. âIf you hurt her, Iâll make it my mission to read every single embarrassing memory youâve ever had. Non-stop. For weeks.â
Mark laughs wryly. âYeah, alright. You canât even read me properly.â
âCocky now, arenât we?â Donghyuck wiggles his fingers ominously. âRemember, the more guilt you feel, the easier it is for you to be read. So tread lightly, lover boy.â
You try to suppress a snort as you shove past the two boys, stepping out into the hallway to mask your own burning cheeks. âYouâre insufferable, Hyuck.â
You donât see the way Markâs lips twitch into a faint smile as he watches you walk ahead, nor do you catch Donghyuck narrowing his eyes at him and mouthing, Iâm watching you, before stalking after you.
⊠⊠âŠ
The stillness of the night is almost unnatural, but you feel strangely at ease. You wonder if it has anything to do with Mark in front of you, his shoulders loose and pace steady. The air around him is calm, no longer weighed down by the tension that used to betray his every thought. It seems that heâs gotten better at keeping his emotions in check, and for once, it doesnât feel like youâre walking on eggshells around him.
He stops before the entrance of the old library, glancing behind his shoulder to look at you and Donghyuck. The latter is weirdly quiet, but you donât blame him one bit. As far as you know, Donghyuck has never stepped foot into the east wing before, the fire having happened way before he even enrolled in the academy. The weight of having to use his abilities tonight must be daunting as it is unsettling.
He steps forward, eyeing the melted doorknob before placing his hand on it gingerly. You hold your breath as he does so, only to gasp quickly afterwards when you take in his reaction.
Donghyuck tenses immediately, his limbs locking as though heâs being struck by an unseen force. It looks like heâs trapped in a trance with the way his eyes roll to the back of his eyelids, chin tilted to the ceiling. Youâve never seen him react this way before, and you know it isnât normal.
âHyuck!â You step towards him, only for Mark to pull you back by your wrist. He shakes his head at you, as though to signal you not to interfere just yet. His free hand glows with a soft, white light when he raises it, ready for what might come next.
You gnaw on your bottom lip nervously as you wait for the situation to play out, opting to put your trust in Mark for now. The seconds stretch on unbearably, and you soon notice the faint trickle of blood from Donghyuckâs nose. Before you could react, Mark beats you to it, quickly placing his hand over Donghyuckâs.
The contact immediately breaks him from the trance he was in, and Donghyuck stumbles back with a gasp, eyes wide with fear and confusion.
âHyuck, you alright?â You ask, your arms already stretched out in case you needed to catch him. âDid you see something?â
âSmoke,â he mumbles, his eyes unfocused as though still in a daze. âBlack smoke. And⊠Umbras. Lots of them.â Donghyuck shakes his head, his brown hair falling into his eyes as he wipes his nose with the back of his sleeve. âThis has never happened before.â
âI know. Iâm sorry,â you say apologetically. âDo you want to sit down?â
âNo. You were right.â Donghyuck meets your gaze. âSomething definitely went down in here. I saw a book.â
Mark perks from beside you. âA book?â
âYeah. I could feel that itâs ancient. Enchanted. The problem is⊠it looked like any other leather-bound book in the ancient section of the library. How the hell are we supposed to find it? I mean, we could probably head over and I could touch each individual one-â
âNo, donât. Thatâs too much for you to handle, Hyuck. We donât want a repeat of whatever this was.â You shake your head as you gnaw on your bottom lip, the gears in your head turning as you think of another option.
âWe wouldnât have to do that anyway,â Mark suddenly murmurs from beside you, and you turn to him in confusion.
He isnât looking at you, his eyes distant as though heâs deep in thought. Mark swallows before he finally meets your eyes.
âBecause itâs in his office. I saw it.â
Donghyuck scoffs. âOf course. Thatâs such an amateur villain thing to do! Hiding a literal weapon out in the open?â
âHow did you know it was the one?â You ignore Donghyuck, prompting Mark to continue.
âAt first, I couldnât stop staring at it. Like there was some sort of unseen force pulling at me. But then, it started to glow,â Mark recounts before taking in a sharp inhale. âMy abilities werenât awakened yet, so I brushed it off. I thought I was seeing things. Guess I was wrong.â
Silence stretches between the three of you as Markâs confession hangs in the air, and Donghyuck is the first to break the silence.
âSo⊠what now?â He voices cautiously.
You donât need to look at Mark to see the glint of determination in his eyes, the shift in the air telling you all you need to know.
âWe pay the headmaster a little visit.â
In hindsight, you should have known that things were bound to go awry the moment it started being too good to be true.
Youâre situated in the ancient section of the new library with Donghyuck and Renjun, a mountain of books stacked on the floor around you as you rapidly skim through each one.
Renjun groaned loudly. âRemind me what weâre looking for again? You know I canât help you guys if I donât know what weâre doing, right?â
âSomething. Anything,â Donghyuck muttered distractedly. He seemed to be considerably more productive than you, only needing to graze his palm across the surface of each book before moving on to the next one. Then again, youâre not a psychometrist.
âAnything you can find on Markâs biological family, or the history behind his abilities. Or maybe something likeâŠâ you trailed off when your eyes catch the body of text in the book youâre currently holding, and your breath caught in your throat. âThis.â
The Lee Clan of Jeonju â Rulers of the Resonant Throne êł”ëȘ ìììą
The boys were by your side in an instant, peering over your shoulders to read through the page.
âThe Lee Clan was once a dynasty of empathic rulers, believed to govern not with force, but with resonanceâ the ability to weave emotions into powerâŠâ Renjun murmured.
âThis has to be it, right?â Donghyuck blurted. âLook here. The remaining Lee descendants scattered, their bloodline diluted over the generations, and now believed to have ceased to exist. Yet, an ancient prophecy speaks of a final descendantâ one who will either restore the throne or silence it forever.â
The air around you stilled, none of you daring to say anything as you slowly registered the newfound information you just learned.
Mark is a descendant of a royal bloodlineâ that had to count for something, right?
The double doors barges open suddenly, startling you from your thoughts. Speak of the Devil, and he shall appearâ itâs Mark, with a leatherback book in his hands.
âI got it,â he says, slightly out of breath as he approaches the table next to you. Youâre quick to abandon the books on the floor as you stand up to move next to him, Donghyuck and Renjun following suit.
âThank God youâre alive! We almost thought youâd triggered a booby trap or something with how long you took. I told you, you should have let one of us tag along!â Donghyuck chides.
âThere was no booby trap, and Iâm here now, arenât I?â Mark answers wryly, setting the book on the wooden surface with a soft thump. There was no reason for him to involve you, or any of the boys in taking the book from the headmasterâs office. Not when the stakes were too high, and especially not when the wrong move could cost you everything.
He glances towards you, and youâre already looking at him with a look he couldnât exactly decipher. Mark hopes itâs not his own nerves thatâs youâre mirroringâ he believes he has gotten better at controlling them. Then again, heâs pretty sure heâs still awful at concealing just how much he cares for you.
âSo, what are we waiting for? Open the book,â Renjun demands impatiently.
With a deep breath, Mark flips the heavy cover open to the first page, only to revealâŠ
Nothing.
âWhat?â He exhales in confusion, quickly flipping to the other pages, each turn more frantic than the last. âItâs empty? Why the hell is it empty?â
âLet me try.â Donghyuck steps forward, all humour gone from his voice as he rests his palm on the yellowed pages, closing his eyes at the same time.
âShitâŠâ he mutters after a few seconds, his irises glazed the moment he opens them. âI got nothing. Are you sure you took the right book?â
âYes, Hyuck, seeing as it was the only one that was glowing, Iâd say Iâm pretty damn sure.â
âOkay, calm down, you guys,â you step in, inhaling sharply. âLook, why donât we all go back to his office and see what else we can find? And Mark, about your family-â
Your words are cut off by a sharp creak from the doorway. You spin around, your breath catching in your throat when you see Headmaster Kang standing in the entrance, his dark gaze sweeping over all of you.
âWell, well.â His voice is calm, but there's a chilling edge to it. âI suppose I should have expected this.â
âGet out of the way, Kang,â Mark says lowly, stepping forward as he blocks your path.
Headmaster Kang just smirks, stepping into the room slowly. âI donât think I will. You should have stayed out of this, all of you. This is bigger than any of you can understand.â
Before anyone could react, he raises a hand, and suddenly, a rush of air fills the room. With a sharp gesture, he sends a wave of energy towards you, knocking everyone back into the shelves. You barely even register the pain that sears through your bones, quickly getting back to your feet with your hands at the ready for whatever comes next.
âIâve been patient, Mark, but this little game youâve been playing ends now. Tell me whatâs in the book.â
Markâs jaw clenches. âNo.â His clenched fists already a glowing white, but you know heâs holding backâ holding you back from stepping in as he relaxes his fingers behind his back, signalling you not to do anything.Â
Headmaster Kangâs lips curl into a thin smile, but thereâs no warmth in it. âYou think you have a choice in this?â
With a sharp movement, he raises his arms, instantly unleashing an army of Umbras which come barrelling straight towards you and your friends. Youâre quick to conjure the flames in your palms, but Mark is much quicker as he summons a massive shield, just in time to deflect the attackâ but not for long.
Markâs shield pulses and flickers as he struggles to keep it steady, and you know it would only be a matter of time before it breaks. Your lips part. âMark-â
âTake the book, and go,â he grunts through gritted teeth, glancing at Renjun. âConjure a portal and get out of here.â
âAre you crazy? Heâs going to fucking kill you!â Donghyuck cries.
âHe doesnât know that I canât read the book. So long as I can keep him distracted, I can buy you guys some time,â Mark pants, ignoring the youngerâs claim. He finally turns to you, and your heart drops at the sight of his paling lipsâ his shield is weakening, and you know it wonât last much longer. âGo.â
You want to argue, but you donât. You know what heâs asking; the risk heâs taking for you to figure things out.
So you settle for a nod, already feeling the tears burn in your eyes as you grab the book from the table. You barely hear the headmasterâs furious shout before Renjunâs portal opens up, and you step inside.
The last thing you see is Markâs smileâ a tired one, but one that makes your heart swell tenfold nonetheless.
You find yourself in the courtyard of the academy. From the outside, the building looks as unassuming as ever, untouched by the havoc unraveling within. As though it isnât infested with evil; as though Mark isnât still inside, holding the line with everything he has.
Itâs silent, save the laboured breaths coming from you, Renjun and Donghyuck. Youâre still hugging the book tightly against your chest, and you finally loosen your grip as you let you arms fall to your lap.
If you werenât already staring at it so intently, you would have missed itâ the amber glow that seems to emit from within, through the gaps in the pages. Your skin tingles before it quickly starts to hurt, the contact between the hardback cover and your hands burning you in a way youâve never felt before.Â
You release the book with a startled gasp, even kicking it away in the midst of your panic. You vaguely hear the boys calling for you, but you donât turn to them, your eyes trained solely on the book, now glowing amber.
You let out a shaky exhale before swallowing harshly, pushing yourself off the ground to reach for it once more.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â Renjun asks.
You ignore him, hastily flipping the book open to a random page. Surprisingly, it doesnât burn you anymore, and what greets you instead are the once-blank pages that start to fill slowly, bodies of anxient texts and symbols swirling before your very eyes.
âWhat the fuck?â Donghyuck murmurs from beside you, proving that you arenât the only one seeing this.
âThe prophecy,â you whisper shakily as the words begin to form across the pages, loud and bold.
When the bearer of light and the flame that defies the abyss stand as one, the veil shall break and fate will awaken. By nature's decree, only the fittest shall endure, and balance will be restored.
Silence.
âSo youâre the final descendant of the Lee clan? What the fuck? Does that mean youâre related to Mark?â
âNo, you idiot!â Renjun smacks the back of Donghyuckâs head, the latter crying dramatically in return. âIt means-â
â-that I need to go back in there.â You finish his sentence for him, finally looking at your two friends. âThis is why Iâve been getting those visions. Mark isnât supposed to fulfil the prophecy alone-â you pause. âItâs because Iâm supposed to fulfil it with him.â
⊠⊠âŠ
Mark could taste copper on his tongue.
His vision is starting to swim and his limbs are heavy, but he forces himself to push through. He couldnât give in nowâ not when the Umbras are still barelling towards him at a hundred miles per hour; not when Kang is still alive and breathing.
His shield flickers weakly in front of him, the toll of every attack weighing down on his bones. The old library is engulfed in darkness, the light he emits not bright enough, making it difficult for him to tell between wraith and shadow, and his blind attacks arenât doing much to ease his fatigue.
That is, until he feels a shift in the air; a warmth cutting through the cold.
Of course. Of course, youâre here. As much as he had been counting on you to stay outside, he couldnât say heâs surprised that youâre back.
âMark, listen to me!â Your estranged yell cuts through the loud hissing of the wraiths as they burst into flames at your constant fireballs. âI need you to stop channelling!â
The white glow emitting from his palms falter slightly at your words, but Mark doesnât turn to you. âWhat?â He rasps as he continues to unleash orb after orb. âAre you- no! Itâs too dangerous!â
âTrust me, please,â you urge. âI saw the prophecy. You have to trust me!â
Mark glances at youâ just for a split secondâ but a split second is more than enough; enough for you to know that he hears you.
He trusts you not just with his life, but with the parts of himself heâs never dared to give away. And maybe thatâs what scares him the most. Not the battle, not the prophecy, but just how much you mean to him.
Which is why he decides to let go.
He relaxes his hands, and the white light that surrounds him fractures like glass. You see the power leaving not just his fingertips, but his entire being, and you lunge towards him to keep him from falling.
With his shield gone, you conjure your own, the wraiths around you bursting into flames instantly.
âMark,â you whisper, squeezing your eyes shut as you feel your muscles begin to strain with the weight of your shield. You donât hesitate to take his hands into your shaky ones even despite the absence of your gloves, knowing now that your abilities wonât hurt him. If anything, itâs necessary.
âWhen the bearer of light and the flame that defies the abyss stand as one,â you say through clenched teeth, feeling your chest grow heavy with each word that escapes your lips. The air around you starts to shift, but you press on.
âBy natureâs decree, only the fittest shall endure...â
Your ears are ringing at this point, and you could barely hear yourself with the shrill hissing of the restless Umbras around you. Headmaster Kangâs strained yell cuts through the noise, and even though you canât see him, you know heâs getting weaker.
ââŠand balance will be restored.â
Your shield breaks, and when you finally open your eyes, youâre met with a blinding lightâ white and amber, burning side by side but never merging. You look at your hands, still intertwined with Markâs, the glow mirroring the colours you see above you. The Umbras are no longer coming towards you; instead, they surge towards Headmaster Kang like moths to a flame.
Shadows coil around him, clawing and tearing as he thrashes, until his screams are eventually swallowed by darkness and his form unravels into nothingness.
As quickly as they came, the Umbras vanish, leaving only silence and emptiness in their wake.
You let out a breath you didnât know you had been holding, your eyes instantly blurring with tears.
Itâs over. Itâs finally over.
You look down at Mark, his head still in your lap, and youâre surprised to see that heâs already awake and looking at you, a weak smile on his lips.
âYou did it,â he says quietly, the awe in his voice stirring something in you. He reaches for your face, his thumb carressing your cheek softly to wipe the moisture from your skin. âSâproud of you. My Azula.â
Despite yourself, you find yourself laughing. You still donât know who or what an Azula is, but his usage of my made you so giddy, you donât let yourself think twice before lowering your head and crashing your lips against his.
Mark meets you halfway, and the way he smiles into the kiss tells you everything you need to know.
Despite the steady stream of people coming and going on the academy grounds, you stay seated on the floor of the courtyard, far too exhausted to move a limb. All around you, students carry boxes and bags, their footsteps quick and voices a blur of confused questions and hurried farewells. You canât find the energy in you to go back inside to pack your belongings, even if itâs to leave this place for goodâ not after everything that had just unfolded.
âSoâŠâ Donghyuck exhales. âWhat now?â
âItâs gonna take a while for the ministry to rebuild the school. Even then, I donât think thereâs any use in waiting,â Renjun sighs, his head lolling against his hand as his elbow rests on his knee. âShould I go back to China?â
âCan I come with you?â
âFuck no. Youâre a liability. I canât risk getting stuck at customs because you decided to read the airport staff during security checks,â Renjun mutters.
âI told you, that was one time!â
You let their bickering blur into the background, not really wanting to get involved despite how amusing you think it is. You glance to your left to see Mark, staring into the distance with a content smile on his lips.
âSo,â you start. âWhat are you gonna do after this? Are you going back to your dojang?â
âNaaahâŠâ Mark shrugs, resting his weight on his palms as he leans backwards. He finally turns to you, his boyish grin growing wider at the sight of your face. You donât miss the pink hue that paints his cheeks.
âI was thinking, um,â he stalls as he tries to find his words. You stay silent, prompting him to continue. âI was thinking of going to Jeonju. You know, find out more about my biological family, and all that.â
You nod in understanding. It only makes sense, seeing as you had only managed to tell him briefly about his ancestors earlier. You make a mental note to pick up the book from earlier later after packing your items.
âDo you wanna come with me?â
His question causes your eyes to widen, and Markâs smile turns bashful. He chuckles nervously.
âI mean, you donât have to if you donât want to, of course,â he hurriedly explains. âSeoulâs your home. Iâd understand if you donât wanna-â
âYes, Mark,â you cut him off with a beam. âYes. Iâd love to.â
Mark exhales, a mixture of a relief sigh and laughter. âYeah?â
You nod, and Mark brings a hand to cup your cheek as he smiles at you softly. You lean into his touch, savouring his warmth.
This is it, you think. As the sun rises above the academy and casts a golden glow over the ruins of the past, you know that whatever comes next, youâll face it together.
pairing: mark lee x f!reader
genre: fantasy/supernatural au, crime-action, angst, romance
preview wc: 1.2k (actual wc: tbc)
synopsis: a series of visions lead you to mark lee, a seemingly normal human boy with no ties to the world of the giftedâ your world. as such, you're concerned as to why you keep seeing him in your dreams, and the army of wraiths that just can't seem to leave him alone despite him being powerless... or so you thought. as he joins you at the academy, you learn that there may be more to this mark lee than you thought there was.
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You had no idea what Taekwondo was. At least, not until today.
According to Donghyuck, itâs a form of martial arts, similar to the combat training you go through at the academy every day. You werenât actually sure on whether to believe him or not considering Donghyuck is Donghyuck and his whole life before joining the academy sounded like a jumble of lies (you learnt not to trust him wholeheartedly after he convinced you that bananas were considered a delicacy in the outside world. He made you eat them with a knife and fork for a full week).
But now, as youâre sitting amongst the sea of heads in the stands overlooking the arena below, you think that Donghyuck might just be telling the truth this time.
You tug on the gloves that hug your hands and forearms, the latex that sticks uncomfortably to your skin not at all helping in easing your nerves. You rarely step foot outside the academyâ not like itâs ever been restricted; you know being in unfamiliar environments could potentially spike your elemental, and you didnât want to risk accidentally committing arson, or anything like that. As much as you hate your gloves, you know they keep you safe, which is why you keep them on.
Weirdly enough, nobody seems to pay you any mind; not with your gloves, not even with the bulky silhouette of your hanbok-like uniform you knew you should have changed out of before coming here. Itâs as though youâre invisible, everyoneâs eyes fixed on the arena below.
âThe next match is about to begin. In the blue corner representing Blue Wave Taekwondo, here to show off his agility and skillâ letâs give it up for Jeno Lee!â
You startle when the people around you cheer loudly, and you slowly bring your own hands together to join in on the applause. You canât really make out the athleteâs face as he steps into the ring, most of his features blocked by the helmet he dons. Youâre curious, having never seen a sparring match that required this much gear beforeâ then again, you suppose that's just how it goes for an ordinary human sport.
âAnd in the red corner, known for his speed and precision, Kick It Dojangâs very own Mark Lee! Letâs give him a warm welcome!â
The buzz of the crowd fades into the background the moment your gaze lands on the boy decked in red and white, but you donât register it until a second laterâ not until he straightens his back after bowing to his opponent, and his eyes meet yours.
A sharp pain suddenly hits your temples, and you hiss as your head falls to your hands. Immediately, the world starts to warp.
Youâre looking at the boy from your visions, the boy you now know as Mark Lee. His head lies in your lap, lifeless, his skin pale and cold. Shadows swirl around you, whispering things you donât understand.
âMark,â you breathe, voice trembling. âWake up. I need you to wake up, please.â
But nothing.
The whispers grow louder, your own voice feeling like it's being drowned out by their presence. Your chest starts to tighten with the weight of the darkness-
The vision cuts off abruptly, and youâre left breathless as your eyes refocus to the arena before you. Youâre not sure how much time has passed, but Mark is still in the ring, already in the midst of sparring with his opponent.
Your visions of him were what led you here in the first place, each one like fragments of a puzzle pulling you closer and closer. They're mostly brief, but you know they mean something, especially because of the shadows that would often surround him as they hiss with intent you couldn't decipher.
But this one was different.
For the first time, he had a name. For the first time, you saw him up closeâ vulnerable, his life resting in your hands as the wraiths closed in around you both.
It felt like the collision of two separate worlds that were never supposed to merge, and you know that this was no ordinary vision. Whatever it is that just happened... it was only the beginning.
And you knew you needed to let Mark know.
Mark bounces his head to the music blasting through his wired earpieces, his eyes trained on his scuffed Converses as he walks. He's been told it's a real bad habit, to not watch where he's going (especially when he couldn't even hear his surroundings most of the time), but he swears he's working on it. Plus, his headphones aren't even the noise-cancelling kind, so he's still able to hear what goes on around him, albeit only partly; like right now.
Mark stops in his tracks, pulling out one of the buds from his ears as he looks behind him.
Nothing.
It's been happening a lot recently, to get the sensation of someone whispering in his ear only for him to look up and realise that he's alone. He's tried brushing it off as a gust of windâ even a figment of his own imaginationâ but he knows better than to believe that, not when the night is too still, too quiet, and he's far from losing his mind.
He also knows better than to ask if anybody's thereâ he's seen enough horror movies to know how badly that would end for him.
Perhaps walking through the park at this hour wasn't his best idea in the first place.
Mark stares idly at the barely-lit pavement for a few seconds more before bringing his earbud back to his ear, turning back around to resume his walkâ only to be met with you.
He stumbles backwards with a startled gasp, his phone almost falling from his hand before he realises that no, you're not a ghost.
Youâre the girl from earlier.
Of course, Mark remembers you. How could he not, when you're the only one who stuck out like a sore thumb in a sea of spectators? It was odd enough as it is for him to be distracted right before a match, but there was just something about you that pulled him in; Mark couldn't pinpoint exactly what. Maybe it was your odd choice of attire, the traditional Korean-inspired silhouette of your all-black trench coat that cinched at your waist, or maybe it was the latex gloves that caught his attention first.
Either way, heâs feeling it again, that magnetic pull that renders him unable to look away, and it's not just because you're prettyâ it feels as though there's literally something weighing him down, pulling on his chest.
Before he could question it, he notices your eyes lose focus on him, settling on something behind him instead. Youâre the first one to break the silence.
"Duck."
Mark frowns. "What?"
In a split second, you're already ripping off your gloves, a flame roaring to life in your palm before you hurl the fire over his shoulder.
Markâs confusion morphs into a split-second horror as he instinctively ducks, stumbling over his own two feet as he hears the air behind him fill with an otherworldly screech. Still, he dares himself to look over his shoulder, just in time to see multiple shadowy figures burst into flames before dissolving into nothingness.
The sight only causes Mark to fall on his butt, his neck snapping back towards you.
âWhat the hell was that?â His voice cracks, barely above a whisper. âAnd- what- what did you just do?â
You let out a shaky breath, flicking your bare wrist before you put on your glove, almost nonchalantly. Almost like you didnât just shoot fire out of your hands.
For a month it went on like your phone call. It was flowers and rainbows, except that you had no label. âOh my gosh, shut up.â Yunseul gasps happily as you tell her and Euna about your recent date with Mark. This time, he baked chocolate chip cookies from scratch before coming over. Youâre sitting on your bed in your dorm just like all the other times you had conversations like this. Youâre perched on the end of your bed, with Euna on the janky wooden floor. Yunseul is opposite of her, leaning against Eunaâs bed and your leg. You grip the duvet to avoid different displays of embarrassing behaviorâlike giggling. âThis is so crazy. Iâm jealous.â She hits your arm playfully and almost kicks her feet herself. You can feel your cheeks redden, and Euna notices.
âAnd youâre still not dating?!â Euna is smiley and asks you in disbelief.
âIâm waiting for him to say something! Iâm too scared to tell him straight. Haechan asked you to date right away! I donât know whatâs wrong with him.â You complain. âI always say I love open communicationâand I doâbut Iâm really bad at it.â You groan and rest your chin in your hand. âWhat do you think?â You turn your head to ask advice from your girls.
âGo for it! If he doesnât like you, love isnât real.â Euna states confidently.
Yunseul proposes another possibility, âHe might just be scared? You should seriously reach out to him, though. To me, you seem to be pretty good where you are right now if it helps.â People like Yunseul like the chase, and theyâre fine with no label. You, on the other hand, are like Euna. You two like organization and clear boundaries with what you are and arenât, and right now you donât know. When youâre with him everything feels perfect, but when youâre alone you canât help but wonder how he really feels. Does he think about you?
That night, you lie awake. Yunseul has gone off to a party, and Euna is asleep across the room from you. Youâre jealous of Eunaâs peaceful sleep, signified by her quiet, peaceful snores. Haechan confessed to her immediately. What makes him and Mark so different? Theyâve gotten closer since youâve started talking to Mark, and you figure Haechan wouldâve been giving him advice at some point. Truthfully, Yunseulâs words weigh on you. Why arenât you dating? Youâve âtalkedâ to plenty of people without too many issues, but what makes this different is how sweet he is to you. If you were to strike up a conversation about labels and end up getting told heâs ânot ready for a relationshipâ or that he âdidnât think it was that deep,â you donât know if youâd be able to take the hit.Â
No oneâs ever been like heâs been to you.Â
No one has been as easy to talk to.Â
No one has ever made you home in such an unfamiliar place.Â
Your curtain flutters just as you feel hot, salty tears begin to well behind your eyes. As you shift to sleep on your right, you can feel a wet stain begin to form under your right eye. You resist the urge to pick up your phone and call the only person who would make it better, but then youâd have to expose all of how you feel and face the crossroads of his response.Â
You know that youâre already at a crossroads, though. On the left is distancing yourself, a foggy mist that lacks clarity. On the right is making the choice to face the answer to your anguish, whether it be good or bad. You have just enough anxiety to tell you heâd reject you, but just enough self-awareness to feel foolish about it.
When the sun rises and the first peeks of morning light greet you through your linen curtains, you feel apathetic. Yunseul is passed out on the mini-couch, and youâre jealous of her too. Youâre jealous of the freedom she feels without a label, and for a minute, you wish it was you. During your shared morning routine, Euna notices your indifference. Unfortunately, she can read you like a book.Â
She pulls you aside after you brush your teeth with the mint toothpaste that makes your mouth burn. âTell me if Iâm wrong about what Iâm about to say, but if this is Markââ Sheâs not even done with her sentence and you let out a passive nod, ââitâs either you call him or I do.â She threatens. You understand immediately what sheâs saying. Euna knows that you two are more similar than different, and sheâs forcing you to communicate. You sink into her and, after a second of processing, she wraps her comforting arms around you. You make a half-hearted effort to do the same. A reassuring hand thumbs through your hair.
âIâll call him.â You snivel. âI know Iâm overreacting, Iâm just scared that heâs treating this way less seriously than I am.â You mumble into her pink cardigan and you canât help but wonder if what youâre saying is even audible.
âNo, no. It makes sense. Iâm sorry for even bringing it up, I didnât know how you felt.â She apologizes, even though it isnât her fault for your reaction.
âIâll call him.â You affirm. As you look up at her you lock eyes and she gives you an empathetic smile. Even though itâs her cornering that made you make the decision to reach out, you know reaching out is for the best because you know that Euna is forever on your side.
Euna talks you through your fragility, and you finally feel stable enough to pick up the phone. The slight nervous tremor in your hands makes it harder to type, but with your constant cheerleader, you manage to send the forbidden text.Â
ramble: that i didn't want interrupting the mood of the story: originally i had the ending of the angst plotline but it was like way over 1k words which was too long for this series so i split it in 2!! this one doesn't resolve, so you'll have to wait for the next part! i'll update the links when it comes out dw. also im toying with the aesthetics of my posts.
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« Remind me where youâre going again? » your boyfriend says. you were trying your best to contain your irritation as you probably told him like fifteen times already.Â
« Mark, you know where Iâm going, why do you keep asking me? » you answer getting up from the couch where you guys were sitting watching a movie as you needed to get ready
« just to make sure that you were really going to your high school reunion where the guy you spent your whole high school years being in love with is also there, only handsomer and richer and also just really into you. » your boyfriend says as you sigh.Â
Yes, your unrequited high school crush was going to be there, yes, he had a glow up, yes he asked you out not long ago so he is into you. But all of that did not matter, you were sure Mark was the absolute love of your life. It frustrated you that he did not understand that whether your old crush was there or not did not matter. you were only going there in hopes to rekindle friendships that youâre grown out of during the past few yearsÂ
« look, instead of spending your whole evening overthinking what I could possibly be doing there just come with me? Iâve already offered you to come, hell mark I want you to come! I donât understand why you refuse to tag along but complain about god knows what I might be doing with some random guy I havenât thought of in years » you say. you probably asked him ten times already over the past two days if he wanted to come but he kept on saying no for some reason
« I donât wanna be the only guy not from your high school there, I donât want to feel like the odd one out. » your boyfriend says, is that why he didnât want to come??Â
« Mark, literally everybody thatâs in a relationship is bringing their partner, which I thought Iâd do too because I also want to show you off, like yea thatâs my man not yours stay mad you know? » you reply as you hear your boyfriend sigh out of relief « no go get ready I donât want to be late, Iâll tell you all you need to know about everyone on the way. » you say as mark heads upstairs to get ready whilst cheering because you guys were going to be gossipingÂ
« oh my god y/nnnnnn itâs been a while how are you?? you look so good oh my god definitely had a glow up there » of course. it was typical of meghan (donât ask just coming up with random names) to give you passive aggressive comments like those, you quickly look at your boyfriend who just gives you a weird look in return « meghan, yea itâs been a while are you still with that one boyfriend of yours or was he also not the one? » you ask. good thing you had grown a backbone throughout the years. it was kind of funny seeing the confusion leave your boyfriendâs face after you said her name, you had mentioned meghan during the debrief and how she wasnât always the nicest.
« hi y/n, hi Mark itâs great to see you guys, y/n you look as good as I had remembered, Mark I like your shoes. » your old crush, jack (again, random names sorry) saysÂ
« oh thanks, Mark helped me get ready thatâs why I look extra good, itâs cause he made this outfit with love. » you say in a lighthearted tone. you wanted jack to understand his place as well as give Mark reassurance but you wanted to do that without animosity. I mean you guys just got there.Â
as you were getting up to refill your cup you looked at Mark smiling at how he was getting along with some people you only recall positive memories of. it was nice seeing your boyfriend mix with the people that represent your childhood. it makes it feel like heâs always been there, and itâs always been Mark and you against the world.Â
« you look happy » you hear a voice say, as you turn around you see jack (you presumed he also went to refill his cup)Â
« M am. so much » you reply smiling to yourself knowing damn well that the man whoâs currently chatting with your past is the reason for this happinessÂ
« Iâm sorry by the way, if I made you feel uneasy, I swear that when I asked you out I didnât know you were in a relationship. Had I known, I wouldâve never asked, Iâm not like that you know » he says, you can see him fidgeting awaiting your responseÂ
« Honestly itâs no biggie, when I turned you down you were really respectful about it, thereâs nothing to blame your behaviour was impeccable, I mean it » you say as you hear him sigh out of reliefÂ
« what do you want to drink? I assume you were heading here to fill your cup « he says reaching his hand out for you to give him your cupÂ
« honestly, whatever youâre drinking is fine » you say as youâre handing out your cupÂ
« what have you been to? we havenât talked in ages » you say trying to make conversation (plus you were genuinely curious as to what heâs been up to)Â
« I went to law school and graduated early so Iâm actually a full-time lawyer at Kirkland & Ellis, itâs been⊠stressful but fun so far » he answersÂ
« holy shit Kirkland & Ellis?? did you graduate from Harvard?? how the fuck did you get in such a big firm » you ask, this was no small achievementÂ
« Stanford, actually yea I couldnât believe it either when I got the acceptance letter » he says, you could see him get shy at the praises you were throwing at himÂ
« woah Stanford okay my bad.. righttt I remember now you graduated high school early, oh my god remember when ryan got so mad at you because his girlfriend was really into you so he poured dirty mop water all over you?? that was crazy » you say laughing. you still remember it as if it happened yesterday, it was THE drama of the whole year, people were gossiping non-stop
« dude donât remind me I had to ride the bus and I stank so bad.. the smell was foul and when I came home my mom yelled at me so much I wanted to die of embarrassment » he says as you guys are both laughing slowly heading back to the group of people (and your man, of course)
You were all smiles and giggles being happy that the situation with jack was sorted out, and you were excited to reassure Mark that he had nothing to worry about because jack was a good man who wonât ever cross your boundaries. That excitement was cut short when you sat back down next to Mark who seemed⊠off? he wasnât smiling. And honestly, it looked as if he was pissed but he couldnât be because there was no reason toâŠright?Â
« Mark, jack graduated from Stanford can you believe it?? he even works at like the biggest law firm ever, isnât it cool? » you say hoping to ease the tension
« yea. thatâs cool. congrats » Mark says as jack looks at you and you look back apologetically, why was he acting like that?
« Hey, is something wrong? Did I piss you off or something» you whisper in your boyfriendâs ear
« no. weâre fine. Iâm fine » Mark says not even looking at you. Oh. You definitely pissed him off. you decided to sit back and shut up, you didnât want to piss him off more. what the fuck did you do to piss him off in the first place though?Â
A couple of hours later, you decided it was time to leave, even though you were having fun Mark wasnât and you didnât want him to stay like this. you also hoped you could talk to him if you guys were alone because you still couldnât figure out why he had been acting so cold with you. if you were completely honest it hurt your feelings and also kind of humiliated you having your boyfriend act like this in front of so many people (that you hadnât seen in a long time too) when you were gushing about him the whole eveningÂ
You guys were on the highway when you decided to break the silence « Alright Mark, whatâs up with you? What did I do » you ask facing himÂ
« I donât know why donât you ask jack? » your boyfriend saysÂ
« huh? What is that supposed to mean? » you say
« I donât know, I think I might be referring to you laughing your ass off with him in the kitchen or to his fingers lingering on yours for too long as you were handing your cup or even to the âMark jack is so much smarter and richer and heâs so impressive woahâ but I might not be referring to that at all too, who knows man, maybe jack? »Â
« first of all, donât talk to me as if Iâm stupid. Second of all, just so you know we were talking about how happy you make me and he apologized for asking me out when Iâm in a relationship. but you obviously couldnât know because you preferred to act like a dick towards me basically showing everyone how unhappy you were to not only be here but be with me, but yea youâre right maybe Iâll ask jack » you say turning your back to him facing the window.Â
you couldnât believe him. Sure, he was allowed to feel jealous but acting like an ass even though youâve done nothing to anger him? you were upset at how he treated youÂ
« fuck, you shouldâve told me earlier now jack is going to think Iâm the biggest asshole ever, I went up to him before he left and basically told him to fuck off » you hear your boyfriend say. Man, he was worried about jack right now??? no fucking wayÂ
« right because it makes so much sense to be worried about what a man, that you wonât ever see again by the way, might think of you. » you say hoping the sarcasm is enough to make him realize how stupidly heâs acting right nowÂ
« Iâm sorry » he answers to which you only reply ok, he was pissing you offÂ
as you guys were coming in the house, Mark decided to break the silence again « Iâm really sorry, I didnât mean to project whatever I was feeling onto you » he saysÂ
« I understand Mark. The issue doesnât lie in the fact that you were jealous itâs because of the tone you take whenever you explain to me whatever I did to piss you off. Iâm not a child, Iâm also not stupid. Weâre both grown adults and you have to respect me a little more because hearing your condescending tone pisses me off. I really donât care if youâre jealous, thatâs a boundary Iâll have to respect in the future because I donât want to make you uncomfortable but our relationship will only work if you put in efforts as well. except of course, if you donât want it to work » you say.Â
During the rest of the car trip you had calmed down. you thought about the whole thing and decided to just explain your feelings because even though it kinda was a recurring argument, you reminded yourself that despite how perfect he is, Mark is a man, and he forgets.Â
« I know and Iâm sorry. I know I say this every time but I really mean it, I promise Iâll work on my issues with jealousy because man, it gets so bad, like tonight, you werenât doing anything and I got pissed. so Iâm sorry. And Iâll watch my tone. I know I have an issue with communicating my feelings when Iâm mad and so I use that tone for it to hurt less but you donât deserve this. And itâs a personal issue I need to fix instead of putting it onto you. Iâm really sorry. I understand if you want me to sleep on the couch for tonight » you boyfriend says apologetically.Â
You had planned to stay mad at him for like an extra two hours but how could you with this?? It was kind of annoying how he could persuade you so easily. You basically didnât have any choice but to forgive him right now. It sucked to be in a relationship with a good man.Â
« Mark I forgive you, itâs really no big deal just watch your tone. Also donât think Iâll forget tho, when this happens again Iâll beat you up » you say warning him. Yes, you were forgiving him this time but you meant it when youâll say youâll beat him up if it happens again, because, itâs kinda crazy the audacity this man has.Â
« it wonât happen again though, I swear Iâll really work on myself. Soooooo⊠no couch for me tonight? » your boyfriend asks you while coming closerÂ
« no couch for you tonight. » you answer whilst being engulfed in a hug coming from said man.Â
Maybe forgiving him was extra easy because you like him so much. Either way, it felt good to be okay with the love of your life.Â
teu sorriso iluminando o ambiente como num dia ensolarado. a pele calorosa brilhando extraordinariamente ainda que refletisse a luz artificial e fria do escritório. teus cabelos abraçavam as bochechas coradas, e a tua voz fazia o coração do lee querer pular do peito.
vocĂȘ, num tom amigĂĄvel, perguntou se era the smiths o que ele estava escutando, e mark teve o prazer de te fazer repetir a pergunta simplesmente pelo prazer de escutar novamente a voz que tanto apreciava, admirado.
e os ouvidos do lee logo foram ainda mais agraciados quando vocĂȘ começou a cantarolar a mĂșsica. o teu sorriso marcante sempre no rosto. tua lĂngua pronunciando carinhosamente cada palavra. mark se deleitava com aquilo.
e ali, naquele momento, com a tua voz se misturando a do cantor favorito, na canção que tanto adorava, podia dizer que gostava ainda mais de vocĂȘ â caso fosse possĂvel.
a partir dali estavam sempre juntos. um fazendo companhia ao outro. os dois coraçÔes batendo juntos numa mesma melodia.
vocĂȘ ia ao pequeno apartamento do lee todos os dias. jogavam e assistiam a filmes juntos sem se preocupar com o horĂĄrio de ir ao trabalho no prĂłximo dia. visitam lojas de discos. iam a cinemas e fliperamas.
afundava o rosto na curva do teu pescoço, a boca fazendo seu trabalho enquanto o nariz era esfregado ali, louco para sentir teu cheiro gostoso. queria ficar embriagado com o teu perfume.
desejava guarda-lo eternamente na memĂłria.
vocĂȘs dormiam juntos no sofĂĄ, no chĂŁo, no tapete ou em qualquer lugar o mais prĂłximo possĂvel da porta de entrada. depois de um longo dia de trabalho, sĂł queriam praticidade.
como se vocĂȘs sempre tivessem pertencido um ao outro.
escovavam os dentes trocando olhares apaixonados e, quando a espuma da pasta de dente caĂa em seus dedĂ”es, o banheiro era preenchido por risadas escandalosas.
estavam indo rĂĄpido demais, vocĂȘ achava, sem pensar nas consequĂȘncias de um relacionamento repentino.
vocĂȘ nĂŁo estava pronta para amĂĄ-lo, e havia dito isso corajosamente para o lee antes de sumir totalmente de sua vida como uma covarde.
de um dia para o outro, vocĂȘ desapareceu, nem ao trabalho foi.
e quando mark chegou em casa outra vez, os lençóis continuavam bagunçados, ainda com o teu cheiro no travesseiro.
a louça ainda estava na pia: dois pratos, dois copos, dois talheres.
as almofadas fundas, amassadas perfeitamente com o formato do teu corpo.
tudo estava exatamente do jeito que vocĂȘ havia deixado
menos o pobre coração do lee.
e agora, no primeiro dia de verão, mark lee podia falar com todas as letras que odiava essa estação.
odiava a sensação que aquele maldito tempo trazia, como se estivesse envolvido num abraço ardente e eterno com a tua pele em brasa, que queimava dolorosamente cada parte de seu corpo.
a mesma pele que um dia ele havia beijado tĂŁo dedicadamente. teu calor acalentando os lĂĄbios devotos.
odiava os fleches de sol invadindo o seu rosto, fazendo com que nĂŁo pudesse enxergar mais nada ao redor, nem mesmo os malditos chicletes que insistiam em grudar na sola de seu sapato.
eles o cegavam da mesma maneira que aquele teu sorriso miserĂĄvel fazia.