#maps rambles

꒷꒦︶꒷ Caleb loves cumplay

Yeah, he loves making you wear it. So after Caleb’s done covering your tits, he’ll massage it in all slow and pull your shirt back down without wiping anything away. “For safekeeping~” he coos, giving your tits a lil squeeze “I’ll check how pretty you kept it when you get home later, so don’t clean up… go make gege proud today”

…cum layering. He cums on your pussy, pushes it inside with his fingers, fucks you again, pulls out and adds another load on top. By the third round you’re a sticky, dripping mess and Caleb spreads your folds just to watch it ooze out “…look at that…” he whispers almost in awe. “all mine… leaking everywhere… ’s… so pretty—” he slides his fingers through the mess and gives you a cheeky look “kinda wanna taste it… bury my face in you and eat my own mess… what? I made it. I get to taste it too”

He’ll cum on your tongue, then tell you not to swallow. He makes you open your mouth and show him while he slowly fucks you, using the sight of his cum pooled on your tongue to get hard again “yeah… just like that. Don’t swallow yet, baby. Lemme see it…” sometimes he leans down and kisses you messy so you both taste it, pulling back with a pout “awh… it’s all gone now… want seconds?”

They let me go a month and a half ago because the curve was flattening and everything was great.

I've been taking more anti depressants than ever. I've so much death in one shift than I ever would in my first year of residency. I saw two very dear friends of mine die in 10 days and all I could think about is them saying dont waste your time on me, I am too far gone to live. I witness 10 senior doctors who were so amazing, loving, full of joy and awesome teachers die while still helping the patients. I've seen 20 nurses fall ill and only 4 made it. I'd calles "time of death" 12 times in a shift of 12 hours...and in a shift of 24h the tripple.

I never thought I might have a neurosugeon fall into my orders because there were not enough doctors to cover the shift so he volunteered. That was crazy.

But now my govermet is opening when nobody is ready. We are on the second block already open and today for the first time on the pandemic crisis we have a of +1007 new infections in a day.

I am scared to go back to the hospital, there is not enough PPE, not enough meds, the staff is overworked, tired, hungry and there is not a single penny paid to them. They are starting to fall ill.

Im scared for my family and friends, because I know the time is coming and is so close to the point that the hospital is going to collapse and there will be no more beds. Im scared that my people will die on the streets like in Ecuador and Brazil. I had a huge hope that my country would not go to such extream but we are around the corner.

And also I am scared of going back and get infected and die without a bed. But duty calls and I spend hours upon end frying my brain to learn and save lives.

People are not scared of covid 19 anymore but if I could show those people what a warzone really is my ward they would get terrified of covid 19.

But again its just maps rambling.

Please stay safe and at home. This is just the begining to all countries and this is a very terrifying thing to see.

But as one of my favorite songs says

So Caleb recommended Night Flight (Vol de nuit) by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

… and obviously I had to go dig a little…and yeah… I regret to inform you this man is exactly as doomed as we thought *clears throat*

“𝐒𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐧’𝐬 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞, 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐝𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐦…”

Yeah. That’s him. That’s literally him. Soft, gentle, domestic… until he isn’t.

“𝐇𝐞 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐭 𝐚𝐧 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭… 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐟𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞.”

Tell me why this man would rather suffer than deviate even slightly from what he thinks he has to do.

“𝐖𝐞 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲… 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬… 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠.”

And this one just… hurts. Because Caleb would rather destroy himself than believe that everything he’s done for you meant nothing.

Caleb having to wear nipple covers because his nipnips get so sore when he’s out running

Picture him coming back from a morning jog, shirt sticking to his chest, breathing a little heavy. Clenching the hem of his shirt between his teeth and winces the second he peels the tape off. Mm… those pretty pink nipples all sensitive and puffy. He thinks you’re still asleep so he’s just standing there in the kitchen, rubbing them absentmindedly with two fingers while scrolling on his phone. And then you cough and he freezes, ears going bright red

“Did you—? …no, don’t say anything. Please just—”

Too late. He groans, covering his chest with one arm “they get sore, okay? My nipples are still human y’know”

You step closer, eyes sparkling.

“I caaaan~ …kiss ‘em better?”

A pathetic little whine slips out of him before he can stop it ooooopp~

Okay LISTEN. i had a shower thought and it’s spiraled out of control.

AU BUT MYTH EDITION. LI’S EDITION. EVERYONE’S A FUCKING LEGENDARY WHATEVER OKAY.

like. what if. EACH LI exists in the SAME MYTH UNIVERSE.

୨୧ Raf’s sea god AU???

Disney’s Little Mermaid but UNHINGED. Raf’s the main character obviously. But. The other LIs are his annoying mythical brothers.

Xav has a comb made of coral and Raf is literally doing his hair while Xav’s like “bro i have a WAR COUNCIL.”

Caleb tries to outswim Sylus and gets DUNKED every time.

Zayne doesn’t swim, he just sits on a rock and drinks saltwater espresso like “I’m watching the tides, leave me alone”

୨୧ AND THEN XAV’S MYTH AU

Raf? Zayne? Sylus? Caleb??? All his COURT MEMBERS.

Or even better—rival kingdoms turned allies under Xav’s morally complex rule.

Caleb is the wildcard bastard prince who wears his royal sash wrong on purpose.

Zayne is the general. Who is tired. All the time.

Sylus? Poison master.

Raf’s definitely the one who says things like “We don’t have time for war—we have a harvest festival next week.”

୨୧ ZAYNE’S MYTH AU?????

OLYMPUS-ASS MESS.

It’s divine. It’s dramatic. It’s everyone in togas.

Sylus is reclining on a chaise with a scroll like “This is why mortals fear us”

Raf’s feeding Caleb grapes. Caleb is choking on said grapes.

Xav is trying to spark a thunderstorm but it keeps raining in his room and no one will fix it. (zayne knows how to fix it btw)

୨୧ AND SYLUS. OH MY GOD SYLUS’ MYTH AU.

WE’RE OBVIOUSLY IN ANCIENT VAMPIRE COURT TERRITORY NO SHIT MAPS U UNCREATIVE TOAD BUT:

Oke twilight: new moon meets actual gothic horror.

Xavier. BRUH XAVIER. I’m sluuuurping. He wears velvet. He knows Latin. He hovers just slightly off the ground. Xav is definitely the oldest vampire. Has seen too much.

Caleb is the newly turned disaster vampire. Whimpering in the corner. Accidentally breaks a table. Zayne slaps him.

Raf shows up as the newborn vampire that’s feral and hungry and Sylus is like “okay, sweetheart, lesson one: no biting the clergy”

୨୧

I don’t know where this is going.

I don’t know how to stop it.

I think he’s started calling you into the bathroom when he takes a bath. Not to scrub his back, no no. He’ll be lounging in the tub and the second you walk in he’ll lift his hips just enough and go: “Pips, look! My balls are floating! They’re like little astronauts in zero gravity. Come here, come see—they’re waving at you!”

I also reckon he’s developed a habit of tracing the old scars on both your bodies. He turns every mark into a silly little bedtime story. That faint line on your shoulder? That’s from the time you fought off a pirate who tried to steal your favorite mug. He doesn’t run out of stories either, cause you’ve basically turned his body into a walking storybook from years of sinking your teeth into him. He learned the hard way that he has to ease in slower now so he doesn’t end up in the ICU for the hundredth time looking like a meatball with a raw dick asking for a tetanus shot. He’s kinda too old for that tomfoolery now. He doesn’t mind if it occasionally happens tho, but these days he prefers just rocking you in lotus, like he’s got all the time in the world.

He still gets teary-eyed when he cums. Not full sobbing, but his eyes go glassy. The cuddles after are still amazing, except he snores a tad louder than before and he sleeps a bit more awkwardly since he pulled a hamstring trying to fuck you filthy in doggy when he eventually got over-excited. He doesn’t mind that either. He’s a happy, weathered, 5 o’clock shadow man who has frequent appointments with his therapist. When he doesn’t cancel them last minute to go grocery shopping instead.

I skimmed like 185 pages of Caleb’s second book recommendation (Inflight Science: A Guide to the World from Your Airplane Window by Brian Clegg) so you don’t have to.

Listen. Caleb didn’t recommend a book. Caleb recommended a way to annoy you with facts forever.

Having said that, there’s a LOT of fun nerd shit in there. Like genuinely. Planes, physics, quantum stuff, lightning striking aircrafts, radiation exposure… you name it. It’s basically just Caleb yapping for hours.

BUT.

There was one part that absolutely sent me.

“𝐀𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞 𝐣𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞. 𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐧, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠.”

HELLO??? You’re telling me this man can just casually look at you after a mission and go:

“Maybe I should stop flying… wouldn’t want to end up calling you jiějie”

ANTI-AGING KING CONFIRMED. Like I’m sorry but this is so him-coded it hurts. All that science just to end up flexing that he’s technically younger by 0.00001 seconds but he can tease you EVERY time he comes back home lmao

Anyway yeah. Great book. Learned a lot… Mostly that I probably can’t read science without hearing Caleb in my head anymore.

Okay so I had to do a bit of research because people were saying Caleb didn’t call MC “princess” in the ENG kindled, while he apparently does in JP/CN/KOR.

To be clear. He actually uses ojōchan (お嬢ちゃん) in Japanese. So more like little lady/young miss

Romaji: Konna koto oshiete nai zo…… ojō-chan, kage o shiranai no ka? Translation: I didn’t teach you anything like this, y’know… little lady, don’t you know how to hold back/don’t you know when to stop? Or something like that at least, my Japanese is definitely not fluent

But what really got me was something else. Both MC and Caleb refer to him as Mahiru (マヒル) instead of using niisan/oniisan

And I dunno but… that just made me really happy? Because it feels like they’re just being themselves and leaning into that flirty banter… instead of falling back on (“past”) roles or honorifics. And maybe I’m reading into it since I play in English, but (from my understanding of Japanese) that kind of shift feels meaningful? Like you’re not “little sister”… you’re just… little lady winkwink mehe

It also made me think about my whole Caleb just wants to be accepted as Caleb but accepts that he has roles too theory (Wayward Wonderland) I could be brown, I could be blue, I could be vIOlET skYY… I can be anything you’d like (yes I AM singing Mika leave me alone)

Caleb adapts. He meets you where you are… or tries to in his own imperfect way. But when insecurity creeps in, he retreats into “gege” or “colonel” mode. One is comfort. The other is armor.

Underneath all of that… I think he just wants to be accepted as Caleb. Flaws, bumps, robo arm, roles, past, future… everything. The whole package

And finally… he’s comfortable enough to play around and tease you, young lady :3

At least that’s my take on it.