If you love me right, then who knows? I might let you make me Juno. You know I just might. Let you lock me down tonight. One of me is cute, but two though? Give it to me, baby
đ đđ§đ«đ(đŹ): romance, smut, porn with a little plot
đđź(đŹ): non idol
đ°đšđ«đ đđšđźđ§đ: 2.6k
đ«đđđąđ§đ : mature, 18+
đđ«đąđ đ đđ« đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: mention of wanting children and getting knocked up
đŹđŠđźđ đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: unprotected sex, creampie, oral (fem rec), fingering, squirting, massive dick Mingyu, pussy stretching, dirty talk, needy reader, multiple positions (cowgirl, and missionary), breeding/impreg kink, the mc calls herself a slut (sheâs very sex positive), use of lube, mentions of using fuzzy handcuffs
nicknamed: baby, baby girl, darling, good girl (hers) baby (his)
đđ§: inspired by the song of the same name by Sabrina carpenter. I wanted to post this for Mingyuâs birthday. Thank you so much to @sluttyminghao and @mylovesstuffs for beta reading and helping me edit this!
Tall, gorgeous and handsome. The sight of him is absolutely mouth-watering. God bless his father for his genetics he was clearly gifted with.
Youâve been seeing Mingyu for three weeks and you are practically feral at the thought of throwing yourself at the beautiful man you are thirsting after.
As it turns out, Mingyu is a gentleman and requested you take things slow. He told you he wanted to wait until youâve been together for a month before you finally get down and nasty together.
Your three weeks together havenât been all sweet and innocent though. At the beginning of week two, after a late-night dinner, some heavy making out and dry humping led to him fingering you on the couch. Two nights later you found yourself with your hand in his sweatpants groping his very, very large cock. You practically begged him to let you blow him, but he said on your next date you could take the next step.
A couple of days ago was when you were finally blessed with the opportunity to suck the life out of Mingyu and his massive cock. You liked to think that you were pretty good at sucking dick, but nothing could truly prepare you for this experience. You couldnât fit his whole length in your mouth at first without gagging. After a few tries, you could finally take him in your throat. The praise he gave you as he used his hands as a makeshift hair tie, which left you wet.
Youâve been far from innocent for a while. You lost your good old-fashioned v-card a week into your sophomore year of college and never looked back. Some people might say youâre a little loose with who you sleep with or maybe a good old fashion âslutâ, but you donât see it that way. You always just say youâre sex positive; youâre all about embracing the sexual side of yourself.
The night you met Mingyu he informed you that heâs a reformed fuck boy. The reason he wants to take things slow with you is because he wants to fully build a connection. If thatâs what he wants, youâll follow his request.
Tonight, youâre three nights shy from a month together. You arenât sure you can make it through this date if you donât finally get the opportunity to ride him like your life depends on it.
The thing about Mingyu is that youâre pretty sure youâre going to fall in love. Itâs not just because of his perfect genetics and massive cock. Heâs, unfortunately, perfect. Maybe not unfortunatelyâfortunately for youâheâs perfect. Heâs a gentleman, heâs so kind, and he fucking cooks. Heâs everything a mother dreams about their daughter finding in a partner. You knew one day if you take him home, your mother is going to beg you to marry him. Sheâs going to take one look at him and tell you to make her some grandchildren.
Hell, your friends are all telling you to lock it fully down. The day after your first date, you showed them a photo of Mingyu, and they literally gave you a high five that you managed to bag him.
There is something about Mingyu that just makes you feel like youâre an absolute horny mess at all times. You havenât always been like this. Sure, youâre sex positive and love sex, but a normal man doesnât make you feel like all your hormones are out of whack. Maybe that's because when he smiles, he instantly gives you butterflies and makes you feel like youâre falling hard.
Standing outside the expensive restaurant he just took you to, youâre waiting for a cab. His arm is over your shoulder as you lean against him. Youâre desperately hoping that your matching red lingerie set with crotchless panties isnât going to go to waste tonight.
âMingyu?â
âYes, darling?â
âWhatâs the chance I get you to take me home and see whatâs under this dress?â
Biting his bottom lip, he holds back a smile. âYouâre going to be the death of me.â
âDeath by pussy doesnât sound like a terrible death.â You absolutely love teasing him.
âDeath by your pussy is how I personally prefer to die.â
âIs that a yes to finally riding you like my life depends on it?â
He canât help but let out a chuckle at your extremely blunt statement. Before he can even respond, the cab arrives. Mingyu pulls away long enough for you to slide into the back seat. He slides in next to you. His large hand rests on your exposed thigh. He gives the cab your address.
Slowly, he leans in close, brushing your hair away from your ear. âYes, you can do all things you have been dreaming about,â he whispers just loud enough for only you to hear. His hand stays firmly planted on your thigh, never moving.
The whole cab ride, you felt like it was taking everything in you not to crawl onto Mingyuâs lap and start kissing him like you need him to breathe. Fucking in the back of a cab probably isnât the best idea though. The last thing you need is to get arrested for public indecency.
The moment youâre out of the cab, you grab his hand and pull him towards your apartment. The walk to your apartment feels too long. The second your apartment opens, you shove him against the door. âSomeoneâs extra horny tonight.â He has no clue how much he turns you on with little to no effort.
âIâve been so patient with you. I just think I deserve a reward for being such a good girl.â
âOh, youâre a good girl?â He cocks his head to the side.
âIâm a good girl just for you.â You trail your fingers up his chest.
âWhat does my good girl want me to do tonight?â He leans down so his lips are closer to yours.
âI have some fuzzy pink handcuffs you could try out.â
âNaughty girl.â He pops his tongue and gives you a wicked grin.
âYou know I want you so bad. I donât think I have ever wanted someone like you.â
âAre you just saying that because you want me to fuck you?â
âNo. Iâm saying that because I like everything about you. Sure, youâre hot, and you make me so horny I feel like Iâm going crazy. Youâre honestly perfect for me. I have fallen so hard for you.â You might as well lay all your cards out on the table.
âOh, youâve fallen for me?â He raises his eyebrow.
âDoes that mean you havenât fallen for me?â Youâve fallen for him so hard, there is no way he hasnât fallen for you too.
âBaby girl, Iâm head over heels for you.â
âDo you like me enough to make me Juno?â
âLike the movie?â He lets out a laugh.
âYeah. Do you know one of me is cute? Could you imagine two?â
âDoes my pretty girl have a breeding kink?â âWhat, you donât want to knock me up?â You donât want him to knock you up just yet, but there is something thrilling about playing into a breeding kink that you both clearly have.
âDoes that mean no condoms tonight?â
Pressing your index finger into his chest, you look up at him and smile. âMake me fall in love tonight, big boy.â
Stepping around him, you head off towards your room, knowing heâs going to follow behind you. Opening the door, you have about ten seconds before Mingyu walks in behind you. Slipping off your high heels, you can feel his eyes burning into you. He is standing by the door, just watching as you go about slowly taking off parts of your outfit. Walking over to your dresser, you remove your jewelry. Looking into the mirror thatâs on top, you find Mingyu carefully watching.
Reaching back, you slowly start unzipping your dress. The red fabric pools at your feet. Your red lace lingerie set youâre wearing is fully sheer. Your body is fully on display.
âFuck-â he groans.
âLike what you see, big boy?â
He instantly starts unbuttoning his dress shirt. Reaching into the nightstand, you pull out a bottle of lube and those pink fuzzy handcuffs you had mentioned before. Twirling them around your finger, you watch as he strips down to nothing but his boxers that are doing nothing to hide his very large erection.
âYou know I want to blow you so badly, but I feel like I have been such a patient girl. I was hoping you could eat me out before I ride you.â
âCan your pretty lingerie stay on?â He steps closer to you.
âYou donât want to unwrap your present?â
âYou look too good in it for it just to end up on the floor.â
Crawling onto the bed, you lay back, propping yourself up on your pillows. You spread your legs to show him how wet you already are. Slowly, you dip your fingers through your wet folds. âOh.â You canât help but moan as you circle your sensitive clit. His eyes are locked on you, watching each of your movements.
âAre you going to make me do all the work?â You sigh.
He crawls onto the bed. Laying on his stomach, he takes one of your legs resting it over your shoulder. He kisses the delicate skin on your inner thigh.
âMingyu- please-â If he wants you to beg for him you absolutely will.
âAs you wish.â
His lips attach to your sensitive clit, sucking on it while he starts pumping one finger in you. Heâs large, so youâre well aware heâs going to have to stretch you out before you can properly take him without pain.
The fact that Mingyu is eager to eat you out is just another thing about him thatâs perfect. Heâs said he gets off on pleasing his partner. By the ways heâs practically making out with your pussy while he pumps two fingers in and out of you, you know heâs not lying. Judging by the size of Mingyu's extra large cock, you know two fingers probably arenât enough.
âAnother one, please.â You practically beg.
He chuckles against your core. His lips stay pressed against you. Another finger is added. The stretch feels so good. He has you moaning like a bitch in heat. To be quite honest you feel like youâre in heat, with how desperately you want the man between your legs.
His fingers start doing a come hither motion, causing a pressure in your stomach youâve never experienced.
âGyu-â His name is nothing more than a broken moan.
âWhat does my good girl want?â He pulls away from your pussy for the first time.
âOh- go-d-â Your entire body feels tense. Youâre starting to feel dizzy and your release is getting closer and closer to the edge.
His tongue starts flicking your clit at a fast rate. His long fingers are rubbing the spongy spot inside you.
âGyu-â You practically scream. A pressure breaks inside you. Your walls contract as your release squirts all over Mingyu's hand and face.
His fingers slowly pump inside you, helping you ride out your high as he pulls his face away from your core.
âBaby-â You canât form coherent words. Youâve never squirted before in your life. Youâve never had an orgasm that feels as if itâs left you brain dead.
âLuckily you didnât squirt on the bed. You just got my hand and face.â He lets out a laugh.
âIâve never done that before,â you sigh.
He sits on his knees between your spread legs. âIâm honored.â
Laying down on the bed next to you he pulls off his boxers. Heâs laying there naked with his large dick resting on his stomach. He taps his hip. âClimb aboard.â The cocky grin he sports gives you butterflies. He grabs the bottle of lube. Clicking the cap open he generously coats his length.
Slowly crawling onto his lips he wastes no time massaging your already wet core with lube.
Straddling his waist you grind against his large cock. Maybe one orgasm isnât enough to make it comfortable to take him.
âDid you want to try those fuzzy handcuffs on me?â you ask, reaching out and picking them up.
âOrgasm number three Iâll handcuff you. I want you to ride me, as you said like your life depends on it.â Biting your bottom lip, you canât help but smirk. âDo you need more lube?â His hand rubs your thigh.
âLet me try to take you, and if it hurts, we can use more.â
Lifting your hips he holds his length at your entrance. You take him slowly, inch by inch, giving yourself a chance to adjust to his massive size. It feels as if heâs splitting you open, but itâs absolutely delicious.
He fills you to the brim. There is no way heâs not bruising your cervix.
âFuck, youâre huge.â
âSorry, baby.â He sounds concerned. His large hand is gently rubbing your thigh.
âYouâre splitting me open, but it feels so good.â By the end of your sentence, heâs smiling up at you.
Thereâs no way in hell you could start with a quick pace. You start with a small bouncy pace. Only moving up an inch or two before sinking back down. His hands rest on your hips, helping you move.
Leaning forward your hands are resting on his chest. You slide your hips up further and further with each thrust. Sex with Mingyu feels like nothing youâve ever experienced before. The way heâs stretching you out makes you feel as if youâre close to the edge. The room is filled with wet sounds of you siding up and down his cock, your whiny moans, and his deep groans. It sounds like a porno, and you canât get enough of it.
Your release comes quicker than you expected. Your body is tense and your walls contract. Throwing your head back you moan his name. You still completely, your body is completely fucked out. You canât continue to ride him in your dazed state.
âDid I break you, baby?â He rubs your thigh gently, as if he isnât thrusting into you while your brain is completely broken.
âFuck- Gyu-â
âCan I flip you onto your back?â
âYes.â
With little to no effort, he flips you. He spreads your legs wide, giving him more access to your practically abused pussy. He sits on his knees. His pace is slow but firm.
âDid you want those fuzzy handcuffs now?â He teases you.
The idea of not being able to touch him now makes you want to cry.
âNo-â You whine.
He moves down, hovering over you. His pace picks up. His release is rapidly approaching. The way he moans your name is like music to your ears.
âCan I come inside you?â
âPle-ase.â Youâre cock drunk and can barely speak.
âDid you want me to get you pregnant?â
âYes.â You donât actually want to get pregnant, but having children with him one day would be a dream.
Slamming his hips into you, he fills you to the brim, painting your walls white with his salty release.
Collapsing on top of you, he tries not to put all his weight on you. He places a trail of wet kisses across your collarbone. âBaby do I need to get up and get you plan b?â
You canât help but laugh. Of course thatâs his first question after fucking you so good you canât even think straight
âNo, I'm on birth control.â
Your hand runs up and down his spine almost as if youâre trying to memorize how it feels.
âGive me two years and Iâll actually make you Juno. Youâre not wrong, one of you is cute. I couldnât even start to imagine two of you.â
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It was a Fridayâa perfect day to go outside, breathe in the fresh air, and maybe even touch some grass. But Wonwoo? He was planted in his chair, fingers flying over his keyboard, eyes locked on his screen as he dove deeper into his game. Sunlight streamed through his window, but he barely noticed. His entire focus was on his mission.
Then, of course, his phone rang.
The sudden vibration made him flinch, just in time for his in-game character to take a fatal hit. A sigh slipped past his lips, long and resigned, as the screen dimmed to black. Game over.
Annoyed, he reached for his phone without checking the caller ID. "What."
"Hey, Wonwoo!" Mingyu's voice rang through, far too cheerful for his liking. "You remember that money you owe me?"
Wonwoo leaned back in his chair, rubbing his temple. "I paid you back."
"I'll cancel the debt if you pick up my sister from her hagwon."
Wonwoo blinked. He could practically see Mingyu's smug face through the phone. "...Are you serious?"
"Dead serious. Think of it as a fair trade. You get out of debt, and I don't have to leave my photoshoot early. Win-win, right?"
Wonwoo exhaled sharply, glancing at the gaming laptop he had been saving up for. A hundred thousand won wasn't something he could just brush off. And really, what was so hard about picking someone up? He'd just drive there, wait, and drop her off. No big deal.
"Fine. Send me the details."
"Knew I could count on you!" Mingyu cackled before promptly hanging up.
Wonwoo stared at his phone, regretting everything.
Later that evening, Wonwoo pulled up in front of the hagwon (cram school), resting his arm on the window frame as he scrolled mindlessly through his phone. The street was packedâstudents flooding out, parents calling names, engines revving. He ignored all of it, his attention on the notifications lighting up his screen.
A knock on the window pulled him out of his trance. He looked up.
There you were, bright-eyed and smiling. Mingyu's sister. You had the same features as him, Mingyu was handsome, there was no second guessing you'd be really pretty as well.
It really runs on the family huh, but your energy was a complete contrast. Where Mingyu was overbearing, you seemed naturally lighthearted.
Wonwoo unlocked the door, watching as you slipped inside. "Hey, thanks for picking me up! I could've taken the bus, but this is definitely an upgrade."
He put his phone down and shifted into drive. "Mingyu made me."
"Obviously." You laughed, buckling your seatbelt. "If it were up to you, you'd rather be home playing some game, right?"
Wonwoo glanced at you briefly before focusing back on the road. "...Something like that."
You stretched out in the passenger seat, completely unfazed by his short responses. "Figures. My brother said you never leave your house unless it's life or death."
"He exaggerates. I go out when I need to."
"Mmm-hmm. Like now?"
"Like now."
You laughed again, shaking your head. "Unbelievable."
You both drove in silence for a bit, though it wasn't uncomfortable. You hummed softly to whatever song played on the radio, while Wonwoo kept his eyes on the road, appreciating the fact that you weren't forcing conversation.
Then, after a few minutes, you turned to him. "So, what's the real reason Mingyu couldn't pick me up?"
"I told you. Photoshoot."
You raised a brow. "And you believe that?"
Wonwoo hesitated, then shrugged. "Not really, but it's not my problem."
You grinned. "Smart man."
He smirked slightly but didn't comment.
When you pulled up in front of your house, you unbuckled your seatbelt and turned to him with an easygoing smile. "Thanks again, Wonwoo. I owe you one."
"No, you don't. Mingyu does."
You laughed. "True. But still, I appreciate it."
Wonwoo just gave a small nod. "It's fine."
As you stepped out of the car, you waved. "See you around!"
He didn't respond, but after you disappeared into the house, he lingered for a second longer than necessary before finally driving off.
Maybe the day hadn't been a total waste after all.
A couple of days later, Mingyu called Wonwoo again, but this time it wasn't for any money or favor. Instead, he was inviting him over to his apartment for a casual hangout.
"Yo, you coming? I'm having a few friends over tonight, including Joshua, Seungkwan, Vernon, and Minghao. It's nothing special, just wanted to hang out."
Wonwoo was about to declineâhe had a ton of work to doâbut then Mingyu dropped the one detail that made him reconsider.
"Oh, and my sister will be here too. She's staying with me for the weekend, so I figured you could catch up with her."
Wonwoo didn't immediately respond. It wasn't the idea of seeing Mingyu's sister that stopped himâit was more the fact that he wasn't entirely sure how to act around you yet. The two of you hadn't really had a chance to talk much after that brief car ride. He had no idea what you'd be like outside of that moment, and Mingyu always had a way of making everything a little awkward when it came to his little sister.
"...Fine," Wonwoo finally relented, rubbing the back of his neck. "I'll stop by."
When Wonwoo arrived at Mingyu's apartment, the atmosphere was relaxed. Joshua was already lounging on the couch, casually scrolling through his phone, and a few other friends were scattered around, chatting. Mingyu was in the kitchen, preparing snacksâprobably to feed his giant appetite. The usual loud energy that always accompanied Mingyu's presence was alive in the air.
But there was no sign of you.
Wonwoo made his way to the living room, greeting Joshua with a nod, but the silence between them was noticeable. Joshua shot him a playful glance, but before they could talk much more, Mingyu called out from the kitchen.
"Yo, Wonwoo! Help me with these drinks!"
Wonwoo reluctantly walked into the kitchen, but as soon as he stepped through the doorway, he froze.
There, standing at the counter, was youâcompletely at ease, casually chopping vegetables as if you'd been there the whole time. You looked up at him, your eyes lighting up in surprise.
"Oh, you're here!" you exclaimed with a smile, your hands still busy at the cutting board. "I didn't think you'd be the first one to show up."
Wonwoo blinked, a bit caught off guard. He hadn't expected to see you in the kitchen, especially not so comfortable.
"You're... here?" he said, unsure of how to react. "I thought you were... uh, I don't know... staying in your room or something."
You let out a small laugh, your eyes sparkling with amusement. "I was, but then Mingyu didn't have enough snacks. He asked me to help out." You gestured to the plates you had already prepped, your movements smooth and confident, as though you'd done this a thousand times. "I figured you'd all be hungry."
Wonwoo was honestly impressed. The last time he saw you, you were cheerful and talkative, but he didn't expect this... domestic side of you. He felt a little out of place in the kitchen, but he didn't want to act awkward.
"I'm sure Mingyu can handle it," he replied, trying to mask his surprise with a nonchalant tone.
You smirked, clearly catching onto his tone. "Yeah, but I'm sure he'll make a mess of it. You know how he is." You shook your head, looking back at your brother as Mingyu popped his head around the corner, grinning.
"I heard that!" Mingyu called, sticking his tongue out before retreating back to the living room.
You chuckled at his antics before focusing back on the food you were preparing. "Anyway, I'm glad you made it. I figured we'd finally have some time to talk," you said, your voice light and welcoming, making it clear you weren't bothered by the sudden interruption.
Wonwoo nodded, still trying to shake off the initial surprise. "Yeah, I guess we never really got to chat much." He leaned against the kitchen counter, unsure of where to go from there.
"You're a bit of a man of few words, huh?" you asked with a teasing grin, raising an eyebrow as you slid the plate of veggies aside. "Mingyu always talks about how you're so quiet, but I didn't realize it was this bad."
Wonwoo gave you a half-smile, feeling slightly embarrassed. "I don't talk much unless I have to," he said, his usual dry tone creeping through.
You just laughed, the sound easy and warm, making him feel less self-conscious. "Well, I'll make sure to fill the silence then," you said cheerfully, as if you were on a mission to make him feel comfortable. "You're kind of a hard nut to crack, but I think I can manage."
The tension that had been there earlier started to melt away, and Wonwoo found himself talking a little more than he usually did. You asked him questions, talked about school, and even joked about how overprotective Mingyu could be at times. As the minutes passed, he realized how much easier it was to talk to you than he initially thought.
By the time he moved back into the living room with the snacks, there was no awkwardness between the two of you anymore. You had succeeded in doing what few couldâmaking Wonwoo feel at ease.
A few days later, Wonwoo had stayed at Mingyu's apartment, slacking off on the sofa while playing some horror games on Mingyu's television.
"You're really bad at Identity V, Mingyu," Wonwoo teased, getting a little frustrated at how Mingyu had to be revived multiple times.
"Just switch the game already, this one's boring," Mingyu groaned, throwing the controller to the side.
Wonwoo just chuckled, not even pausing the game.
Then, the doorbell rang.
Mingyu groaned, dragging himself off the couch. "Ah, right. I forgotâmy sister was dropping off some kimchi from Mom before she heads to cram school."
When you stepped inside, you flashed Mingyu a quick smile before handing him the containers. "Mom said to eat it while it's fresh."
Mingyu took them with a nod, already peeking inside. "Smells good." Then, without looking up, he asked, "You want me to drop you off at cram school?"
You shook your head. "Nah, I'll just take the bus. It's not that far."
Wonwoo, who had been watching from the couch, found himself unexpectedly... disappointed? He wasn't sure why, but he had kind of looked forward to talking to you again. You were easy to be aroundâbubbly, charming, and not at all fazed by his quiet nature. Not many people could handle his silence so effortlessly.
Mingyu, meanwhile, was still leaning against the doorway, arms crossed. "You sure? It's getting late."
"I'll be fine," you insisted, adjusting your bag on your shoulder. "It's just cram school, not a different planet."
Wonwoo hesitated for a second before speaking up. "Hey."
You turned toward him, raising an eyebrow. "Yeah?"
He cleared his throat, feeling a little out of place but saying it anyway. "I can walk you."
You blinked, clearly surprised. "Oh? Why, so you can chat me up again?" you teased with a wink.
Mingyu snorted, looking between the two of you. "Since when do you offer to walk people places, Wonwoo?"
Wonwoo shot him a look but didn't bother responding. Instead, he turned back to you, waiting for your answer.
You grinned, clearly amused by the whole situation. "Alright, alright. But no awkward silences, got it?"
Wonwoo nodded, grabbing his jacket as he followed you out the door. Mingyu watched the two of you leave, shaking his head with a grin. "Well, that's new."
Mingyu leaned against the doorway, arms crossed, watching the scene with growing amusement. Wonwoo wasn't the type to jump at social interactions, especially not when it came to people outside their usual circle. And yet, here he was, offering to walk you to hagwon like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Mingyu's brows furrowed, suspicion creeping in.
No way. Does Wonwoo... like my sister?
The thought nearly made him laugh out loud. He knew Wonwoo wellâtoo well, in fact. His best friend wasn't the type to wear his emotions on his sleeve, let alone make some grand romantic gesture. But still, the way he lingered, the way his gaze flickered toward you, even the fact that he was putting in the effort to talkâsomething was definitely up.
Mingyu smirked, but he kept his mouth shut. For now.
"So," he drawled, pushing off the doorway, "you two gonna be alright?"
Wonwoo shot him a look, equal parts unimpressed and knowing. Meanwhile, you just rolled your eyes. "We'll survive, Gyu."
Mingyu chuckled. "Alright, alright. Have fun, lovebirds."
"Bye, Mingyu," you deadpanned, grabbing Wonwoo's wrist and tugging him down the hallway before your brother could say anything else. Wonwoo barely had time to process it before he was matching your pace, hands stuffed into his pockets.
The air between you was light, easy. You glanced up at him with a grin. "Didn't think I'd ever get you to walk me to hagwon. Kinda fun, huh?"
Wonwoo huffed out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. "Not what I expected to be doing today, that's for sure."
You nudged him lightly. "What, hanging out with me is that bad?"
He glanced at youâreally looked this time. You were different from Mingyu's usual crowd. Where his friends were loud and chaotic, you had this effortless energy that didn't demand anything from him. You just... talked, and somehow, he found himself talking back. It was weird, but not in a bad way.
"You're different," you mused, tilting your head. "I mean, I knew you were quiet, but you're not as... closed off as I thought you'd be."
Wonwoo smirked slightly, gaze forward. "I'm still quiet."
"Mm, not with me," you pointed out, eyes twinkling. "Why's that?"
Wonwoo hesitated, not because he didn't have an answer, but because he wasn't sure how to say it. Instead, he settled for the truth, plain and simple. "I don't feel like I have to try so hard with you."
Your steps slowed just slightly, your expression softening. "Huh. That's kinda nice."
He exhaled a small chuckle. "Guess you're a special case."
"Ooo, so I'm special?" you teased.
"Don't get ahead of yourself," he muttered, but the faint smile on his face gave him away.
The conversation drifted into easier topics, laughter and playful jabs exchanged as the hagwon came into view. Wonwoo still didn't know what exactly made him want to be around you, but he didn't mind figuring it out along the way.
Meanwhile, back at the apartment, Mingyu leaned against the window, watching the two of you disappear into the distance.
Yeah, something was definitely up.
And as your older brother, he was gonna keep an eye on it.
A few days after that walk, Wonwoo found himself running into you more often than he expected. At first, it was innocent enoughâquick encounters while he was out running errands or grabbing coffee with Mingyu. But soon, those moments stretched longer, turning into something he actually started looking forward to.
It didn't help that teasing you had become his new favorite pastime.
You'd be minding your own business, walking down the hallway in Mingyu's apartment building, when suddenly, you'd sense a presence behind you. Turning around, you'd find Wonwoo leaning against the wall, arms crossed, a smirk playing at his lips.
"Going somewhere, princess?"
The nickname never failed to make you flush, though you'd gotten better at rolling your eyes in response. Still, it was the way he said itâso effortlessly teasingâthat made your stomach flip, like you were missing the punchline to some inside joke.
At first, you chalked it up to friendly chatter. But the more it happened, the harder it became to tell if he was just being playful or if there was something else beneath it.
You were sitting with your friends, chatting about classes, when one of them suddenly perked up, nodding toward the entrance. "Hey, isn't that your boyfriend?"
You blinked in confusion, following their gazeâonly for your breath to catch slightly when you saw Wonwoo stepping inside, exuding that quiet, effortless confidence he always carried.
"What? No way," you sputtered, your voice catching as you waved off the idea.
Your friends exchanged knowing looks. "Come on, we've seen you two together all the time lately," one of them pointed out. "And let's be real, you'd make a cute couple."
Your face went hot. "He's not my boyfriend!"
"Then why do you look so guilty?" Another friend smirked.
Before you could form a coherent response, Wonwoo approached the table, sliding into the seat next to you as if he belonged there. "What's all this talk about me?" he asked, his deep voice laced with amusement.
"Nothing!" You nearly choked on the word, sitting up straighter.
Your friends weren't buying it. "We were just saying how cute you two look together," one of them supplied, grinning mischievously.
Wonwoo, the absolute menace, didn't even flinch. Instead, he leaned back lazily, his lips curving into that smirk that made your heart stutter. "Cute, huh?" he mused. Then, with a glance in your direction, he added, "She's already shy around me. You think she'd survive being my girlfriend?"
You gawked at him. "Wonwoo!"
He chuckled, clearly enjoying the way you flustered so easily. "Relax," he murmured, leaning in slightly, just enough to send your brain into overdrive. "I'm just helping you out. You should be thanking me for making you so popular."
You shot him a glare, but your friends were eating it up, laughing as they nudged each other. "Honestly, you two are like an old married couple already."
You groaned, burying your face in your hands, half-expecting the ground to swallow you whole. Meanwhile, Wonwoo looked way too pleased with himself, the playful glint in his eyes only growing stronger.
And from that day on, it only got worse.
Every time he ran into you, your friends' words echoed in your mind, making you hyperaware of every smirk, every lingering glance, every low chuckle. You weren't sure if it was all just a joke to him, but the real problem wasâyou were starting to hope it wasn't.
Because, teasing aside, there was something about the way he looked at you lately. Something softer, something unreadable. And that? That was the most confusing part of all.
Over the next few days, it became a patternâthese little run-ins, the teasing, the way Wonwoo always seemed to appear right when you thought you'd get a break from his smug remarks. If you were being honest, it was starting to feel less like coincidence and more like... something else.
Like right now.
You had just finished your class at the hagwon and were walking home when you heard footsteps behind you. At first, you didn't think much of it. But thenâ
"Hey, princess."
You nearly tripped over your own feet. Whipping around, you found Wonwoo standing there, hands in his pockets, looking entirely too smug.
"Seriously?" you huffed. "Do you have a tracker on me or something?"
He chuckled, falling into step beside you. "Nah. Just good timing."
"Suspicious timing," you muttered under your breath.
He grinned. "What, you don't like seeing me?"
You opened your mouth, ready to give a snarky reply, but the words stuck in your throat. Because, truthfully, you did like seeing him. You liked how he always managed to sneak into your day, turning normal moments into something elseâsomething charged with a kind of tension you weren't sure how to handle yet.
But you weren't about to admit that.
"Did you just happen to be in the area, or are you stalking me now?" you teased instead, nudging him lightly with your elbow.
Wonwoo made a thoughtful sound, tilting his head. "Hmm. I guess I should start charging for my services if I'm going to be your personal bodyguard."
You rolled your eyes. "Bodyguard? Please. What are you protecting me from? My own two feet?"
He smirked. "You almost tripped earlier. Maybe you do need me."
Your mouth opened, then closed. He had a point, but you weren't going to let him have the satisfaction of winning this round. Instead, you crossed your arms and shot him a playful glare.
"You're insufferable, you know that?"
"And yet, here we are," he mused, his voice low, almost amused. "Walking home together. Again."
You faltered. There was something about the way he said itâlike he was reminding you that these weren't just coincidences anymore. That maybe, just maybe, he was seeking you out just as much as you were looking forward to seeing him.
The thought made warmth creep up your neck.
The walk continued, the air between you shiftingâstill lighthearted, but tinged with something heavier, something unspoken. At some point, you felt the faintest brush of his hand against yours. It was barely anything, just a fleeting touch, but it sent a jolt up your spine.
You glanced at him, half-expecting him to be smirking at your reaction, but instead, Wonwoo was looking ahead, his expression unreadable.
The silence stretched between you for a beat too long.
"You're quieter than usual," you finally said, your voice softer now.
Wonwoo hummed, glancing at you. "Just thinking."
"About what?"
He hesitated, then shrugged. "You."
Your breath hitched. You blinked, caught completely off guard by the casual way he said itâlike it wasn't something that would send your heart into a tailspin.
He must've noticed your reaction because his lips twitched into something close to a smirk. "Surprised?"
You scoffed, desperate to regain some control over the conversation. "You say that like I should just expect it."
"Maybe you should," he said, voice smooth, teasing, but with a weight behind it that made your stomach flip.
And just like that, the game between you shifted. It wasn't just harmless teasing anymore. It was charged, loaded with something more than just playful.
You were in trouble.
And worse? You weren't sure you minded.
Wonwoo should've seen it coming.
He was halfway through his iced americano when Mingyuâwho had been rambling about his fantasy basketball team for the past fifteen minutesâsuddenly leaned forward with a serious look. The shift in his tone was so abrupt that Wonwoo nearly choked on his drink.
"Don't date my sister."
Wonwoo blinked. "...Huh?"
Mingyu crossed his arms, leveling him with a look that was rare for himâstern, like he wasn't just joking around. "I'm serious. I know how you are, Wonwoo."
Wonwoo raised an eyebrow, feigning nonchalance. "How am I?"
"You don't do relationships," Mingyu shot back. "You flirt, you have fun, and thenâpoofâyou're gone."
"That's not true," Wonwoo muttered, looking away.
"Dude. Jiwoo? Jiekyo? Mijin?" Mingyu listed off names, counting on his fingers. "You get bored too easily. My sister's not just some girl you can play around with."
That one stung.
Wonwoo clicked his tongue, tapping his fingers against his coffee cup. "You make me sound like some heartless asshole."
Mingyu exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck. "Look, I'm not saying you're a bad guy. I know you, Wonwoo. You just... don't take these things seriously. And I don't want her getting hurt because she thinks you do."
Wonwoo didn't answer. He could argueâsay that things were different this time, that maybe he didn't know why, but the usual rules didn't seem to apply whenever you were involved. But he also knew Mingyu had a point.
Did he even know what he was doing?
Mingyu must've taken his silence as agreement because he nodded, looking satisfied. "Good. I just wanted to clear that up."
And that should've been the end of it.
Except... you had other plans.
The problem was, you were very aware of Wonwoo's usual avoidance tactics. And yet, despite Mingyu's warning (which you totally overheard, thank you very much), you weren't about to back off. If anything, it made things more fun.
So, naturally, you decided to corner Wonwoo after one of his gym sessions.
You found him outside, sitting on a bench, scrolling through his phone like he wasn't sweating buckets from lifting weights for an hour.
"Hey," you greeted, plopping down beside him.
He glanced at you, then back at his phone. "Hey."
Silence.
You smirked. "You're avoiding me."
His thumb hovered over the screen. "No, I'm not."
"You so are." You leaned in, trying to peek at his phone. "What, are you texting my brother to report my suspicious activities?"
He sighed, locking his phone and shoving it into his pocket. "Your brother would kill me if he knew we were talking right now."
You tilted your head. "Funny, I don't see Mingyu around."
He shot you a flat look. "That's not the point."
"You're acting like he owns me or something," you teased, nudging his arm with your shoulder. "What, are you scared of him?"
Wonwoo exhaled sharply, rubbing his temples. "It's not about thatâ"
"Then what's it about?"
He paused.
You took the chance to scoot closer. "Let me guess," you hummed, tapping your chin dramatically. "You think you'll break my heart? That you'll flirt, we'll have fun, and then poofâyou're gone?"
Wonwoo visibly stiffened.
Bingo.
You grinned. "What if I told you I like a little risk?"
He groaned. "Don't say stuff like that."
"Why? Is it making things harder for you?"
He looked at you then, really looked at youâlike he was trying to figure out if you were messing with him or if you actually meant it. And that's when you knew you had him.
"Relax, Wonwoo," you said, leaning back with a smug smile. "I just wanna grab coffee. Not a wedding ring."
He exhaled, shaking his head, but you caught the small smirk tugging at his lips. "You're impossible."
"And you are running out of excuses."
He stared at you for another beat before groaning, rubbing his face like you were the biggest headache of his life. Thenâfinallyâhe let out a short laugh, shaking his head.
"Fine," he muttered. "One coffee."
Your grin widened. "I knew you liked me."
"Shut up."
And just like that, the game was back on.
You should've known.
One coffee turned into another. Then into late-night calls. Then into hanging out at Wonwoo's apartment, always under the pretense of studying or just chilling.
Which was a huge lie. Because, really, what kind of studying involved Wonwoo's knee pressed against yours, his fingers grazing yours every few minutes, and him murmuring things in that low voice that made your brain short-circuit?
The worst part? He knew what he was doing.
And the proof?
Right now.
You were hanging out at his place after a long day, claiming his couch like it was yours while he sat beside you. Some dumb multiplayer game was on the screen, and you were so sure you were winning.
Until Wonwoo conveniently lost at the very last second.
"You're so bad at this," you teased, laughing as you nudged his arm.
Wonwoo, who had been sitting back lazily just seconds ago, suddenly leaned forward. "You made me lose on purpose."
You gasped dramatically. "How dare you accuse meâ"
Before you could finish, he moved.
Fast.
One second you were playfully bickering, and the next? You were flat on your back, pressed against the couch, with Wonwoo hovering above youâhis hands trapping you on either side of your head.
Your brain short-circuited.
"W-Waitâ"
Wonwoo's knee nudged between your thighs, pressing down just enough to make you hyperaware of every single point of contact between you. The air shifted, playful teasing melting into something heavier.
Something that made your skin burn.
The way he looked at youâhalf-lidded eyes roaming over your face, his smirk growing as he took in your reactionâmade your stomach twist into knots.
The corner of his lips curled. "What's wrong?"
Your throat was so dry. "You'reâyou're too close."
He hummed, tilting his head slightly. "Am I?"
And thenâbecause this man had no mercyâhe dipped even lower, his nose brushing against yours as he whispered against your lips,
"You started this."
A second later, his lips crashed onto yours.
Soft but demanding, like he had been holding himself back for too long. His hands slipped down, gripping your waist, fingers digging into your sides as he pulled you impossibly close. The kiss was slow at firstâjust a gentle press of lipsâbut then Wonwoo tilted his head, deepening it, his mouth moving against yours with a languid, intoxicating rhythm.
You melted.
Your hands, which had been gripping onto his hoodie for dear life, moved on their ownâone slipping into his hair, tugging slightly. The groan he let out against your lips sent a shockwave down your spine.
Wonwoo's hands moved lower, resting on your thighs before effortlessly pulling you up onto his lap.
The sudden shift made you gasp, your hands flying to his shoulders to steady yourself. But before you could even think, his lips found yours again, this time more urgent, more needy.
And you?
You couldn't even pretend to fight it.
Because Wonwoo kissed like he meant it. Like he was making up for all the stolen glances, the teasing touches, the lingering tension that had built up between you for weeks.
And you let him.
Because, honestly?
You wanted it just as much.
From that night on, it was impossible to pretend you weren't completely wrapped around each other's fingers.
Sure, Mingyu didn't know yet, but Wonwoo made it really hard to act normal.
Like when he'd pick you up from hagwon (cram school) at night, leaning against his car like some effortlessly hot drama lead, hands in his pockets, waiting for you. And when you walked up, flustered and mumbling about how someone might see?
He'd just smirk and lean down, murmuring, "Let them."
Or when he'd help you study at the library but deliberately lean in too closeâhis breath warm against your ear as he whispered, "You're not focusing."
As if he was helping??
And the worst part? He loved seeing you flustered.
Like the time he casually pulled you into an empty library aisle, tilted your chin up, and kissed you right then and there.
"You keep getting distracted," he murmured against your lips, eyes gleaming with amusement.
And you?? You just stood there, clutching your book like your life depended on it.
But hey. What Mingyu doesn't know won't kill him, right?
...Right?
---
Honestly, you and Wonwoo had been too good at sneaking around.
The stolen kisses in empty library aisles. The late-night study sessions that turned into him pulling you onto his lap just to mess with you. The way he'd casually lean against his car outside your cram school, hands shoved into his hoodie, waiting like some effortlessly cool drama lead.
Y'all really thought you were slick.
Until one night.
You were saying your goodbyes outside your house, the streetlights casting a golden glow over the both of you. Wonwoo had driven you home like always, but this time, instead of the usual quick peck and see you later, he leaned in, his hands resting on your waist, his breath warm against your lips.
"You're so cute when you're nervous," he murmured before pressing a lingering kiss to your lips, tilting his head just right so you felt it all the way down to your toes.
And that was the moment your soul left your body.
Because the second Wonwoo pulled awayâboth of you breathless, smiling like lovesick idiotsâyou heard it.
A slow. Dramatic. Clap.
You froze. Wonwoo froze.
And thenâ
"Well, well, well. Look what we have here."
Your blood ran cold.
You turned around so slowly you swore time slowed down.
And there, standing in front of the house, arms crossed, wearing the most betrayed expression you'd ever seen, was Kim Mingyu.
"Oh, shit," Wonwoo muttered under his breath.
"OH SHIT IS RIGHT, JEON WONWOO," Mingyu roared, stalking forward like an older brother about to ruin your entire existence.
You instinctively stepped in front of Wonwoo like that was gonna protect him from the absolute storm that was about to hit. "Mingyu, listen, before you freak outâ"
"BEFORE I FREAK OUT???" Mingyu's voice cracked, eyes darting between you and Wonwoo. "YOU'RE KISSING MY BEST FRIEND ON OUR FRONT PORCH LIKE IT'S A K-DRAMA AND YOU WANT ME TO STAY CALM???"
You opened your mouth. Closed it. Looked at Wonwoo for help.
Wonwoo: đŹ
You: đ
Mingyu let out a deep sigh, pinching the bridge of his nose before turning to Wonwoo with the deadliest glare known to man.
"You. Follow me. NOW."
Wonwoo shot you a lookâpart this is it, I'm gonna die and part I regret nothing. And then he followed Mingyu inside like a man walking to his execution.
You just stood there, hands on your head, wondering if you should start preparing a eulogy.
Because one thing was certain.
Kim Mingyu was about to ruin your entire love life.
You had never paced so much in your entire life.
Standing outside your front door, you tried to listen inâtried being the keyword. But Mingyu's voice was booming from inside the house, and you could already tell from his tone that he was about to make Wonwoo regret all his life choices.
You pressed your ear against the door.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
Oop. You winced. That was not a good start.
"Mingyu, calm downâ"Â Wonwoo started, but Mingyu was having NONE of it.
"CALM DOWN? OH, SORRY, SHOULD I THROW YOU A PARTY INSTEAD? CONGRATS, YOU'RE DATING MY BABY SISTER??? BRO, I TRUSTED YOU!"
There was a pause. A deep sigh. Then:
"I told you to break up with her."
WHAT.
You slammed the door open so hard it bounced off the wall.
"EXCUSE ME??"
Both of them turned to you like deer caught in headlights.
"YOU WHAT???" you yelled, pointing at Mingyu like he'd just confessed to murder.
Mingyu blinked at you like he just realized what he said. "Uhâwait. No, that's not what Iâ"
Wonwoo was dying. You could see it. He was looking between the two of you, lips pressed together, trying so hard not to laugh.
You turned to Wonwoo, still pointing at Mingyu. "DID YOU KNOW THIS?"
Wonwoo immediately held his hands up. "Nope. No idea. But honestly, this is the best plot twist I've ever witnessed."
"Mingyu," you hissed, grinning like an absolute menace. "Wonwoo's a great guy. Make him break up with me and I'll never talk to you again."
Mingyu let out the loudest groan, dragging his hands down his face. "I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT. I meantâI don't know! I just didn't want you dating Wonwoo of all people!"
Mingyu whirled on him. "I'M SORRY, BUT DO YOU KNOW YOUR OWN HISTORY? YOU'RE A HEARTBREAKER, BRO. I'M NOT LETTING YOU BREAK MY SISTER'S HEART."
Wonwoo's face immediately darkened. "Mingyu," he said, voice low.
And just like that, the room shifted.
Because that tone? That was not Wonwoo the sarcastic asshole. That was Wonwoo the serious guy who doesn't mess around when it comes to things that matter.
Mingyu must've felt it too, because his whole demeanor changed.
"I'm not playing around with her," Wonwoo said, steady and clear. "I'm not screwing this up." His gaze flickered to youâsoft, almost apologetic, like he hated that this conversation was happening in front of you.
"I like her," he continued, voice quieter now. "A lot. More than I probably should." He exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck. "And I get it. You're looking out for her. But Mingyu, you have to knowâI wouldn't start something with her if I wasn't serious about it."
...
DEAD. SILENCE.
You held your breath, watching Mingyu's expression shift.
He looked at you. Then back at Wonwoo.
Then back at you.
And thenâhe sighed the biggest sigh of his life.
"Ugh. Fine." He dragged a hand through his hair, groaning. "Fine. If you two wanna make out and be disgusting, whatever. But," he said, suddenly deadly serious, "if you hurt her, Wonwoo, I swear on my lifeâ"
"I know," Wonwoo cut in, smirking. "You'll kill me."
"No," Mingyu said. "I'll make you wish I did."
WELL.
You weren't sure whether to be relieved or terrified.
But at least you and Wonwoo weren't hiding anymore.
And the best part?
Mingyu would never find out just how much sneaking around you two had already done.
Mingyu had no idea what he had just unleashed.
Because the second he begrudgingly gave his approval, Wonwoo had decided on a new mission in life:
Make. You. Flustered.
And he was very good at it.
---
EXHIBIT A: THE COUCH INCIDENT
Mingyu was in the kitchen, completely unaware of what was happening in the living room.
You were sitting cross-legged on the couch, a controller in hand, fully focused on the gameâor at least, you were trying to be.
Wonwoo, on the other hand?
Oh, he was definitely not focused on the game.
He was watching you. Studying you like a predator stalking its prey.
And the moment you made a mistake in the game, he pounced.
"HAHâGOTCHA," he laughed, tackling you onto the couch.
You yelped, the controller flying out of your hands as Wonwoo pinned you down, his arms caging you in.
"W-Wonwooâ!" you stammered, wide-eyed.
"Cheaters don't deserve to win," he teased, leaning closer. His weight was warm, his cologne intoxicating, and his smirk was nothing short of sinful.
And just when you were about to absolutely combust, he dipped his headâ
And kissed you.
Deep. Slow. Lingering.
Your hands fisted his hoodie, a helpless whimper slipping from your lips as he tilted his head, kissing you deeper.
His lips moved against yours like he had all the time in the world. Like this was something he'd wanted to do for so, so long.
And thenâ
"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUâ"
MINGYU.
Mingyu. Was. Here.
You froze.
Wonwoo froze.
Mingyu's scream could have shattered glass.
"WONWOO, GET YOUR FILTHY HANDS OFF MY SISTER RIGHT NOW."
But Wonwoo?
Wonwoo smirked.
And he didn't move.
Instead, he pressed another slow, deliberate kiss to your lipsâjust to spite Mingyu.
"OH MY GOD, YOUâYOUâ"
You didn't even know who moved firstâWonwoo scrambling off you or Mingyu lunging at him like a wild animal.
All you knew was you were absolutely dying of embarrassment.
EXHIBIT B: THE STUDY SESSION FROM HELL
You should've known studying with Wonwoo was a terrible idea.
Not because he wasn't helpfulâhe was. Very helpful.
But his idea of helping you study was apparently making you flustered as hell.
You sat across from each other in the library, a pile of textbooks between you. Wonwoo was supposed to be quizzing you, but insteadâ
Instead, his foot nudged yours under the table.
You ignored it.
Then his foot slid up your calf.
Your breath hitched.
And when you finally looked up at him, the bastard was smirking.
"W-what?" you stammered, gripping your pen so tight you thought it would snap.
Wonwoo propped his chin on his hand, voice low and teasing.
"Nothing," he murmured. "Just wondering how long you can focus before I distract you."
Oh. Oh.
You gulped.
And thenâyou felt a shadow loom over you.
MINGYU.
Again. AGAIN.
His arms were crossed. His expression? A mix of pure disgust and betrayal.
"...Am I interrupting something?" he asked flatly.
You and Wonwoo both jumped apart like you'd been electrocuted.
"N-no!" you squeaked.
Mingyu's eyes narrowed.
"...Are you two seriously making out in the LIBRARY???"
Wonwoo, without missing a beat: "Wouldn't be the first time."
Mingyu died on the spot.
Mingyu was 100% sure he was living in his own personal hell.
Because every time he turned around, Wonwoo was doing something to make his little sister blush like crazy.
A hand on her waist. A whisper in her ear. A kiss on the cheek.
AND IT WAS DRIVING MINGYU INSANE.
He started setting rules.
"NO KISSING IN FRONT OF ME."
But then, Wonwoo would smirk and kiss you on the forehead instead.
"NO TOUCHING."
So Wonwoo would lace your fingers together behind his back, out of Mingyu's sight.
"NO SECRET GLANCESâOH MY GOD, I SAW THAT, YOU THINK I CAN'T SEE YOU TWO STARING AT EACH OTHER??? STOP IT. STOP IT RIGHT NOW."
Wonwoo, grinning like a menace: "I don't know what you're talking about."
Mingyu was this close to throwing himself off a cliff.
The moment Wonwoo got you alone in his apartment, there was no hesitation. The second the door clicked shut, his hands were already on youâwarm, firm, desperate in a way that sent shivers up your spine. His fingers trailed along your waist, pulling you flush against him before he backed you up against the kitchen counter, his dark eyes locked onto yours, filled with something dangerousâsomething hungry.
"Do you have any idea what you do to me?" he murmured, voice low and rough, the heat of his breath fanning over your lips.
Before you could answer, his lips crashed onto yours, devouring, claiming, stealing every last ounce of air from your lungs. His hands roamed, fingers sliding down the curve of your back, gripping, exploring, pulling you closer until there was no space left between your bodies. Your knees nearly buckled from the intensity, the sheer heat of it all, but Wonwoo held you firm, like he'd never let you go.
His lips trailed down, pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses along your jaw, your neck, sucking lightly until you whimperedâuntil he had you melting for him, hands gripping onto his shirt like you needed something to hold onto or else you'd fall apart.
"Wonwoo," you gasped when he suddenly hoisted you up onto the counter with ease, spreading your thighs so he could step between them, his hands sliding under your dress, fingers tracing the sensitive skin along the inside of your thighs.
You barely had time to react before he tilted your chin up with his fingers, his lips brushing yours as he whispered, "Tell me to stop."
But you didn't.
You couldn't.
Instead, you pulled him in, kissing him with all the desperation you felt in your body.
He groaned into your mouth, deep and guttural, and suddenly, the warmth of his hands was goneâbut only so he could hook his fingers around your dress and unzip it, painfully slow.
The fabric slid off your shoulders, pooling around your waist as Wonwoo's eyes darkened. His fingers traced down your bare skin, mapping out every inch of you, as if memorizing the way you shivered under his touch.
Then, in one swift motion, he lifted you off the counter with ease, his lips never leaving yours as he carried you through the apartmentâstraight to his neatly arranged bedroom.
You barely had time to take in your surroundings before Wonwoo pinned you onto the bed, hovering over you, his weight pressing you into the mattress, his eyes burning into yours.
"You have no idea how long I've wanted this," he muttered against your lips before kissing you senselessâ deep, slow, and thorough, like he was savoring every second.
His lips trailed lower, down your neck, your collarbone, his hands exploring, teasing, making you squirm under his touch.
He was taking his time, driving you insane, and when his fingers finally dipped lower, teasing at the edge of your underwear, you let out a shaky breath.
"Wonwoo," you pleaded.
He smirked, dragging his lips back up to your ear. "Patience, princess."
But patience was the last thing on your mind when he finally, finally touched you.
The second his fingers slipped past the band of your underwear, featherlight but deliberate, you shivered beneath him. Wonwoo took his time, tracing along your soaked heat with the slightest pressureâjust enough to make you tremble, but not enough to satisfy the aching need building in your core.
He was cruel like that.
His lips brushed against your ear, his voice low, deep, and intoxicating.
"Look at you..." he murmured, dragging a single finger down your slick folds before circling your entranceâjust barely pushing in. "So wet already. Is this all for me?"
Your breath hitched, your fingers tightening in his shirt.
"Wonwoo, pleaseâ"
A sharp gasp left your lips when he suddenly pushed in one finger, slow and deliberate, letting you feel every inch before curling it just right, pressing against that sensitive spot inside you.
"Please what, baby?" His smirk was dangerous, his movements even more so as he added a second finger, stretching you, filling you, setting an excruciatingly slow rhythm that made you feel helplessly desperate.
Your hips bucked instinctively, seeking more, but Wonwoo only chuckled, his free hand pressing you down against the mattress.
"Needy little thing," he muttered before dipping down to kiss you again, swallowing every whimper, every broken moan as his fingers moved fasterâdeeper.
You were barely holding onto reality at this point. The heat, the pleasure, the way his voice sent shivers through your spineâit was too much and not enough all at once.
Then suddenly, he was gone.
You whined at the loss, blinking up at him in frustration, but Wonwoo only chuckled as he pulled his shirt over his headârevealing his lean, toned body, his sharp jaw, his intense gaze locked onto yours like you were the only thing he could see.
"Relax, baby," he whispered, crawling back over you, caging you in beneath him. "I'm not done with you yet."
His lips trailed lower, down your neck, your chest, your stomachâ his tongue and lips teasing, tasting, claiming every inch of your skin until you were gasping beneath him.
By the time he reached your soaked heat, you were already a messâwhimpering, squirming, aching for more.
And when he lowered his head between your thighs, his dark eyes flickering up to meet yours just before his tongue flicked against your most sensitive spotâ
You swore you saw stars.
The first stroke of his tongue sent a full-body shudder through you, your fingers immediately tangling in his hair as he dragged the flat of his tongue along your soaked heat.
Wonwoo hummed at the taste, his hands gripping your thighs to keep you still as he set a slow, torturous rhythmâkissing, licking, suckingâhis tongue swirling around your sensitive bud before flicking against it in teasing little strokes that left you gasping for air.
Your thighs trembled, threatening to close around his head, but he only chuckled against you, the vibrations sending another wave of pleasure through your already overwhelmed body.
"Already shaking, baby?" he murmured, lips brushing against your core, voice dripping with amusement and hunger. "Thought you wanted more?"
You barely had time to answer before his tongue plunged inside you, and that was itâyour head fell back against the pillow, your back arching off the bed, your grip in his hair tightening as he ate you like he was starving.
Deep, slow strokes.
Messy, wet kisses.
His nose brushing against your clit just right.
It was filthy. It was heaven.
Wonwoo knew exactly what he was doing, and he was doing it so well it had you a whimpering, moaning mess beneath him, your legs trembling as he took his sweet time ruining you.
The heat in your stomach coiled tighter and tighter, your thighs twitching with every sinful movement of his mouth, untilâ
"WonwooâI'mâ"
He didn't stop. If anything, he devoured you harder, one hand reaching up to lace his fingers with yours while the other pinned you down as you cried out, your orgasm crashing over you so hard your vision went white.
Your whole body tensed, shook, melted all at once as he licked you through it, riding out your high until you were twitching from oversensitivity.
Only then did he finally pull away, lips and chin glistening, looking up at you with dark, satisfied eyes.
"You taste so fucking good," he muttered, crawling back up, his body hot and solid against yours as he captured your lips in a messy, heated kissâletting you taste yourself on his tongue.
And just when you thought you couldn't handle any more, you felt it.
The hard press of his cock against your thigh.
Heavy. Hot. Desperate.
Wonwoo groaned against your lips, his hips grinding against you in slow, torturous drags.
"I need you, baby," he whispered against your lips, his voice wrecked with hunger, want, need.
He reached down, gripping himself, lining up against your still-throbbing heatâ
"Tell me you want this."
His voice was gravelly, deep, wrecked, his forehead resting against yours, his breath hot against your lips.
You exhaled, still dizzy, still trembling, but you knew exactly what you wanted.
"Wonwoo..." You cupped his face, brushing your lips against his, meeting his dark, burning gaze.
"I want you. All of you."
That was all he needed.
With a low, guttural groan, he pushed inâ
The stretch of him had you gaspingâa slow, deliberate push that filled you inch by inch, his cock dragging along your walls so deep, so hot that your nails dug into his shoulders.
Wonwoo groaned against your throat, his breath ragged as he stilled inside you for a momentâhis fingers gripping your thighs tightly, almost trembling.
"Fuckâyou're so tight, baby," he muttered, voice wrecked, strained, pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses along your neck as he bottomed out.
The feeling was overwhelming. The stretch. The heat. The way his hips were pressed flush against yours, his cock pulsing inside you.
"You okay?" he whispered, kissing your jaw, your cheek, your lips.
You barely had time to answer before he rolled his hips, dragging himself out before pushing back in with a slow, deep thrust that had you moaning into his mouth.
And then he did it again. And again.
Slow. Deep. Hard.
His hands gripped your hips tightly, pulling you against him with every thrust, burying himself so deep you felt him everywhere.
"You feel so fucking good," he groaned, forehead pressed against yours as his pace quickened, the slow drag of his cock turning into harder, deeper strokes.
Your body arched beneath him, chasing the friction, your legs wrapping around his waist as you gasped, whimpered, moaned, nails raking down his back as he thrust into you harder.
The room was filled with the sound of skin against skin, of breathless gasps, of desperate moans.
The pleasure built fast and hot, your body tightening around him, your thighs trembling as his movements turned desperate, hungry.
"Wonwooâ" you moaned his name, voice wrecked, needy, broken.
His pace stuttered at thatâhis grip on your hips tightening as he buried himself deeper, faster, harder, hips snapping against yours in deep, punishing thrusts.
"Say it again," he growled against your lips, his hand slipping between your bodies, fingers pressing against your sensitive clit, rubbing tight, slow circles.
"Wonwooâoh my godâ"
The heat coiled tighter, your body tensing, trembling, shatteringâ
And then you were falling apart.
Your orgasm crashed over you in waves, your body tightening around him as you cried out, gasping his name, trembling beneath him.
Wonwoo groaned, cursing under his breath, his thrusts turning erratic, deeper, rougher as he chased his own highâuntil with one final, deep thrust, he buried himself inside you, his body shuddering as he came, moaning your name against your lips.
For a moment, the room was silent, heavy with heat, with breathless gasps, with the aftershocks of pleasure still running through both of you.
Then, slowly, he pulled out, pressing a lazy, lingering kiss to your lips, his hands still holding your body so close, so tight.
You were dazed, boneless, completely ruined.
And so was he.
Wonwoo chuckled, breathless, tucking your hair behind your ear as he smirked down at you.
"Think Mingyu's gonna kill me if he finds out?"
You groaned, shoving him playfully, but he only laughed, kissing you again, slower this time, softer.
"You're mine now, you know that, right?"
And with the way he was looking at you, you knew there was no going back.
The aftermath was warm, quiet, and dangerously comfortable. Wonwoo was still half on top of you, his body radiating heat, his breath slow and steady against your shoulder. His arm was firm around your waist, keeping you close, like he wasn't ready to let go.
"You good?" he murmured, his voice deep, low, still wrecked from what just happened.
You hummed, nuzzling closer, feeling the soft press of his lips against your forehead.
This was nice.
Too nice.
And then your phone vibrated.
Wonwoo groaned, burying his face in your neck. "Don't answer it."
But you had to. Because when you reached for it, Mingyu's name was staring back at you.
Shit.
You shot up so fast that Wonwoo barely had time to react before you were scrambling for your clothes, your heart pounding.
Wonwoo, still half-naked and looking so effortlessly wrecked, just lay there, watching you in pure amusement.
"Relax," he said, grinning like a menace. "He doesn't know you're here."
You shot him a glare, still clutching your phone like it was a ticking bomb.
"He will if I don't answer," you hissed, and before Wonwoo could make another smart remark, you swiped to pick up the call.
"Mingyu?"
"Where the hell are you?"
You froze. Shit.
Wonwoo was watching you closely now, eyes dark with amusement, but he didn't moveâjust propped himself up on one elbow, looking like sin itself.
You cleared your throat, desperately trying to sound normal. "IâI'm at the library."
Wonwoo bit his lip, shaking his head.
Liar.
"The library?" Mingyu sounded skeptical. "You never stay this late."
Think. Think.
"Uh, yeah, wellâWonwoo said he'd help me study," you blurted out before you could stop yourself.
The silence on the other end was deafening.
Wonwoo raised an eyebrow.
"Mingyu?" you tried again.
"You're with Wonwoo?"
Your stomach dropped.
Wonwoo, the absolute devil that he was, just grinned, running a hand through his messy hair like he wasn't literally in bed with you.
"Youâ" Mingyu let out a sharp exhale. "I swear to god, if that bastard tries anythingâ"
"Relax!" you cut in quickly, forcing out a laugh. "It's just studying."
Wonwoo snorted.
Mingyu sighed. "I don't trust him."
"Gee, thanks, Gyu," Wonwoo said loudly, just to be annoying.
You glared at him, mouthing 'shut up' before turning back to the call. "I'll be home soon, okay?"
Mingyu grumbled something under his breath but eventually let you go.
The moment you hung up, you turned to Wonwoo, scowling.
"You were not helpful."
Wonwoo only smirked, sitting up, the sheets sliding down his torso, revealing even more of his very distracting body.
"Studying, huh?" he teased.
You threw a pillow at him.
"Shut up."
Sneaking around was thrilling.
Maybe it was the risk of getting caught, or maybe it was the way Wonwoo would sneak touches when no one was lookingâhis fingers grazing your waist, his lips brushing your ear just to whisper the most unnecessary things.
"Gyu," he greeted casually, stealing a fry from Mingyu's plate.
Mingyu narrowed his eyes. "What are you doing here?"
Wonwoo just shrugged, unfazed. "Saw you two and thought I'd join."
Liar.
You knew for a fact that he had been waiting outside the whole time, texting you the filthiest things under the table, just to watch you squirm.
Now, he was acting innocent.
And he was way too close.
So close that you could feel the heat of his thigh against yours, the brush of his fingers as he reached for another fry.
Mingyu was still watching him suspiciously.
And then Wonwoo did it.
His hand, sneaky as hell, slid under the table.
Onto your thigh.
You froze.
Your breath caught in your throat as his fingers pressed against your bare skin, teasing, stroking, inching higher.
You shot him a warning look, trying not to choke on your drink.
He only smirked, looking way too entertained.
Mingyu, completely unaware, was rambling about somethingâbasketball? A movie? You weren't even listening. Because Wonwoo was dragging his fingers along the hem of your skirt, toying with it, barely slipping underneath.
You squeezed your legs shut, but it only trapped his hand there.
His gaze flickered to yours, dark, teasing.
'Relax,' his eyes seemed to say. 'Unless you want him to notice.'
You bit your lip so hard it almost hurt.
Mingyu frowned. "Why do you look weird?"
Shit.
You cleared your throat, forcing a smile. "IâI don't?"
Mingyu narrowed his eyes.
Wonwoo, the absolute menace, just chuckled and leaned back, finally pulling his hand away.
"You should eat more, princess," he murmured, just loud enough for you to hear.
Your entire face burned.
And Mingyu? Oblivious.
For now.
Your voice was barely a whisper, heart pounding as you felt Wonwoo's breath against your ear.
"That's what makes it fun," he murmured, voice low, teasing.
This was dangerous. Reckless, even. But you couldn't stop yourself.
It started as a simple study session. Wonwoo had picked you up after hagwon, claiming he'd "help" you with your assignments.
Total bullshit.
Because now?
You were pressed up against the library bookshelf, the dim glow of the emergency exit light barely illuminating the mischief in his eyes.
Your breath hitched as his lips brushed over your jaw, slow, calculated. "You're so easy to mess with, princess."
You swallowed, trying to act indifferent, but your body betrayed you.
Because his hands were already on your waist, sneaking under your oversized hoodie, fingertips grazing your skin, making you shiver.
"Wonwoo," you warned, voice wobbly. "Someone might seeâ"
He kissed you.
Cut you off completely, swallowing any argument you might've had. It was deep, consuming, with just enough desperation to make your knees buckle.
And he knew.
He gripped your thighs, lifting you effortlessly, pressing you harder against the shelves. You gasped, wrapping your legs around his waist instinctively.
His lips traveled down to your neck, kissing, suckingâleaving marks in places only he would see.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging slightly, earning a low groan from him.
"You're gonna be the death of me," he murmured against your skin, his voice sending heat straight to your core.
And then, his hand slipped under your skirt.
You gasped, back arching as he dragged his fingers along your soaked panties, teasing.
"Already wet for me?" he whispered, grinning when you squirmed in his grip.
"Wonwoo," you hissed.
"Shh," he hushed, lips finding yours again, muffling your soft whimpers. "Unless you want someone to catch us."
Fuck.
This was so, so wrong.
But god, it felt too good to stop.
His fingers moved against you, slow, deliberate, applying just enough pressure to make you tremble.
And thenâ
"Hello? Is someone there?"
A voice.
Somewhere in the library.
You froze.
Wonwoo, however?
He didn't stop.
His fingers kept moving, rubbing slow, lazy circles against your clothed heat.
"Wonwoo," you pleaded, voice barely a breath.
He just smirked.
The footsteps got closer.
Your heart pounded as Wonwoo kissed you again, swallowing your gasps as he slipped his fingers past the fabric, stroking your bare heat.
And thenâ
The footsteps faded.
Whoever it was, they were gone.
And you were falling apart in Wonwoo's arms.
He didn't stop until your body was trembling, until your head fell against his shoulder, until you were gripping onto his sweater like it was the only thing grounding you.
And then, finally, he pulled back.
He grinned, watching you struggle to catch your breath. His fingersâstill wet from youâslid up your thigh, leaving a teasing trail.
"You were so loud, princess," he whispered against your ear. "I almost thought you wanted to get caught."
FUCK.
---
There were no fancy words, no grand declarations.
But when Wonwoo loved, he showed it in every little thing he did.
It was the way he kept your water bottle filled when you were too busy studying. The way he brought you warm meals when you forgot to eat. The way he let you borrow his headphones, knowing you liked his playlists better than yours.
Even now, as he sat in his gaming chair, his fingers absentmindedly traced circles on your bare thigh, pulling you closer onto his lap.
"You're too busy for me," you pouted, resting your chin on his shoulder as he adjusted his headset.
Wonwoo smirked, clicking a button on his keyboard. "I just spent two hours helping you study, princess. What do you mean?"
You huffed, nuzzling into his neck. "I mean, you're always playing games or working. I miss you."
His fingers paused on the keyboard.
A moment later, he let out a sigh and removed his headset, turning to face you.
"You're clingy," he teased, but the way his hands slid up your arms, the way his thumb brushed your cheek, said otherwise.
"You like it," you shot back.
He chuckled, pulling you in for a soft kiss. It was lazy, unhurried, like he had all the time in the world for you.
Maybe he did.
Because after that, he turned off his PC.
You blinked. "You're done?"
"Yeah." He stood, effortlessly carrying you to the bed. "I'd rather spend time with you."
Your heart melted.
"But your gameâ"
"It's just a game," he murmured, pressing a kiss to your temple. "You're more important."
Fuck.
That did things to you.
You clung to him tighter, burying your face in his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
Wonwoo wasn't the type to say 'I love you' a hundred times a day.
But he showed it. In the way he adjusted your blanket at night. In the way he massaged your shoulders after a long study session. In the way he never let you walk on the side of the road.
And in moments like this, where he'd drop everything just to hold you.
"You don't need anything but me, right?" he whispered against your hair, voice warm, teasing.
You smiled, pulling him closer.
"Right."
You were curled up on the couch, drowning in an oversized hoodie thatâsurprise, surpriseâsmelled like Wonwoo. The weight of your laptop sat in your lap, screen glowing with the absolute horror that was your unfinished assignment.
Two thousand words. Due tomorrow. You had written ten.
A dramatic sigh left your lips as you flopped onto the cushions, staring at the ceiling like it held the answers to life.
Wonwoo, who had been watching you from his desk, barely glanced up from his monitor. "You're sulking."
"You're ignoring me," you shot back, hugging a pillow.
"I'm working," he replied, but there was a teasing lilt in his voice. "And you should be too."
You groaned into the fabric. "I can't. I have no motivation."
Finally, he turned his chair around, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose as he studied you. His dark eyes flickered with something unreadableâfond amusement, exasperation, love, all tangled into one.
"You're acting like a baby," he murmured, but the way he got up and walked toward you said otherwise.
And thenâbefore you could process itâhe was lifting your legs and settling himself between them, pulling you into his lap with ease.
"W-Wonwoo?" you stammered, hands instinctively gripping his shoulders.
"You don't have to ask, princess," he said, voice soft, low, knowing. "I already know what you need."
Your breath hitched.
And then his lips were on your foreheadâone slow, lingering kiss.
Then another on your cheek.
Then your temple.
Then your nose.
The kind of kisses that weren't just physical, but something deeper. Like he was pouring everything he felt into them without saying a single word.
Your heart felt like it would burst.
"W-Wonwoo," you whispered again, but this time, it came out softer, more delicate.
"Mm?" He hummed, resting his chin on top of your head.
You swallowed. "You're distracting me."
He let out a soft chuckle. "Good."
You wanted to be mad, but how could you be?
Especially when he wrapped his arms around you tighter, rocking you slightly, like he was trying to comfort you without even realizing it.
Like you were his whole world.
---
Wonwoo didn't like extravagant gestures.
But spoiling you? That was different.
He'd do anything to make your life easier.
Which is why, when you walked into your apartment after a long day, you stopped in your tracks at the sight of takeout containers neatly placed on the table.
Your favorite food. From your favorite restaurant.
And beside themâa brand new necklace, delicate and subtle, but undeniably expensive.
You blinked.
"Wonwoo?"
From the couch, he looked up from his book. "Yeah?"
You pointed at the table. "What is this?"
"Food," he deadpanned. "And a gift."
You narrowed your eyes, crossing your arms. "Why?"
He shrugged. "You had a long day."
Your heart faltered.
You took a slow step forward, staring at him. "Wonwoo, I told you not to keep buying me things."
"And I told you to stop acting like you don't love it," he murmured, flipping a page.
You huffed, but your face was already burning. "That's not the point!"
"You're so spoiled, you know that?" he said, tilting his head. "If I don't do this, you sulk."
"I do not."
"You do," he smirked, and before you could argue, he was standing up, taking slow steps toward you.
Your breath caught.
"You like being taken care of," he murmured, stopping just inches away. "And I like taking care of you."
Fuck.
Your pulse skyrocketed.
"Wonwoo," you whispered, and his hands slid up your arms, featherlight, teasing.
"Mm?"
"You're not being fair."
He leaned in, lips brushing your jaw, sending shivers down your spine.
"Neither are you," he whispered, pressing a kiss to the corner of your mouth.
And just like that, you melted.
Wonwoo wasn't a morning person.
But when he woke up to the empty space beside him, his eyes narrowed instantly.
You were supposed to be asleep in his arms, tangled in his sheets, where he could keep you safe and warm.
Insteadâ
He blinked blearily, pushing the covers off. The faint glow from your laptop illuminated your silhouette, hunched over at the desk.
"Baby?" His voice was gravelly, hoarse from sleep.
You turned, blinking at him. "Did I wake you?"
Wonwoo ran a hand through his hair, eyes flickering between you and the glowing screen.
He didn't say anything. Just stood up, walked over, and gently closed your laptop.
You gasped. "Wonwoo, I need to finishâ"
"Later," he murmured, voice low, commanding. Not angry, not strict. Just firm.
You opened your mouth to protest, but thenâhe was lifting you effortlessly, carrying you back to bed.
"W-Waitâ"
"Shh," he whispered, tucking you back under the sheets before crawling in beside you.
Then his arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you against his bare chest, his lips grazing your shoulder.
"Come back to bed," he murmured.
You shivered. "Butâ"
"You can finish in the morning," he whispered, pressing a soft, open-mouthed kiss to your neck. "Just stay with me right now."
And really, how could you say no to that?
"You're exhausted. Just sleep, princess."
The dull ache in your shoulders was killing you.
It had been a long-ass day, and all you wanted to do was collapse.
But your laptop blinked back at you, merciless and taunting, deadlines creeping closer.
Wonwoo watched you silently from across the room, arms crossed, brows furrowed. You could feel his stare, heavy and knowing.
"You need to sleep," he finally murmured.
You didn't even look at him. "I'll sleep after this."
A beat of silence.
Thenâbefore you could reactâarms wrapped around you from behind, lifting you with ease.
"W-Wonwoo?! Put me downâ!"
"No." Deadpan. Unbothered.
And just like that, you were in bed.
He pressed you into the pillows, throwing the blanket over you like tucking in a child.
"W-Waitâ"
"You're exhausted," he muttered, climbing in beside you. "Just sleep, princess."
You tried to fight it. You really did.
But thenâhis arms tightened around you, his lips ghosted over your forehead, and his warmth melted into your body.
And suddenly... your eyelids were too heavy to keep open.
Damn him.
"Give me your bag, princess."
College was draining you.
You had just finished a three-hour lecture, your brain barely functioning, your bag heavy as hell.
And thenâthere he was.
Waiting outside, tall and gorgeous in a black hoodie and sweats, hands in his pockets, eyes softening the second he saw you.
Wonwoo, your personal chauffeur.
You sighed in relief, grateful for his presence alone.
Untilâhe took one look at your slouched shoulders and frowned.
"Give me your bag."
You blinked. "Huh?"
He nodded at your shoulder. "Your bag. Give it."
You clutched it instinctively. "It's not that heavyâ"
Wonwoo didn't even let you finish.
He gently pried it from your grip, slinging it over his own shoulder like it weighed nothing.
"Wonwooâ"
"You looked tired, princess," he murmured, taking your hand. "Let me take care of you."
Your heart skipped a beat.
...Yeah. You weren't arguing with that.
"Sit still, princess. Let me take care of you."
You sighed in bliss, eyes fluttering shut as Wonwoo's fingers worked through your damp hair, massaging your scalp.
God, he was good at this.
His touch was gentle, slow, firmâsoothing every little knot of tension you didn't even know you had.
"You're going to fall asleep," he murmured, amused.
"Mm," you hummed, barely awake, tilting your head into his hands.
He chuckled softly, pressing a kiss to your temple. "You're so easy to please."
You smiled, eyes still closed. "Only when it's you."
Wonwoo paused.
And thenâyou felt his lips on your neck, slow and deliberate, his voice dropping into that low, teasing drawl.
"I like the way that sounds, princess."
Shit.
Suddenly, you weren't sleepy anymore.
"Stop looking at me like that, princess, or I'll take you right here."
Wonwoo knew what he was doing.
The man had zero shame when it came to making you blush, and he thrived off of it.
Which is whyâwhen you were in the middle of a crowded restaurant, surrounded by peopleâhe had the audacity to run his hands up your thighs under the table.
Your breath hitched.
"W-Wonwooâ"
He smirked, taking a casual sip of his drink. "Something wrong, princess?"
You shot him a glare, but your face was burning.
"I hate you," you muttered under your breath.
"Liar," he whispered back, his fingers tracing slow, lazy circles on your skin.
You gulped, shifting in your seat. "We're in public."
He leaned in, lips brushing your ear.
"Stop looking at me like that, princess," he murmured, voice deep, teasing. "Or I'll take you right here."
Your breath caught.
And the worst part? You knew he meant it.
"I missed you, princess."
The night was quiet, the air cool, the city lights glowing softly through the window.
Wonwoo had been away for a few daysâa work trip, nothing majorâbut God, you had missed him.
And apparentlyâhe had missed you too.
Because the second he got back, he grabbed you by the waist, pulled you into his lap, and buried his face in your neck.
"You good?" you laughed, wrapping your arms around his shoulders.
He didn't answer.
Just... held you.
Long. Deep. Like he was soaking in your warmth, grounding himself in your presence.
And then, after a few momentsâhe whispered against your skin, voice low, hoarse.
"I missed you, princess."
Your heart melted.
You pressed a kiss to his temple. "I missed you too."
His arms tightened around you.
"I know."
"Stay close to me, princess."
Crowds were overwhelming.
Wonwoo didn't care about them muchâhe was good at blending into the background, unbothered.
But you? You were a whole different story. One talk with a stranger, you'd be friends with them almost too immediately.
Which is whyâhis arm was always around your waist, keeping you pressed firmly against him.
"Wonwoo, I can walk by myself, you know," you teased, looking up at him.
He just hummed, pulling you closer. "I know."
You rolled your eyes, but secretly?
You loved it.
Because as long as he was there, holding you like this, you never had to worry.
Not about getting lost.
Not about anything.
The night was warm, suffocating with tension, electric with something neither of you could fight.
It started innocent enough.
A late-night drive. The city lights flashing past. His hand on your thigh, firm, possessive, always touching.
You had been teasing him all night. Unintentionally, of course.
Or maybe not.
Because when you leaned in, whispered something soft, something sweetâ
He snapped.
Before you could react, he pulled into a secluded parking lot, turned off the engine, and turned to you with dark, burning eyes.
"Out," he ordered, voice low, rough.
Your breath hitched. "Wonwooâ"
"Now, princess."
You gulped. Obeyed.
The second you stepped outside, he was on you.
He pinned you against the car, one hand in your hair, the other gripping your waist, his lips crashing into yoursâhot, desperate, consuming.
"You drive me insane," he growled against your mouth, pressing his body against yours, forcing you to feel just how much you affected him.
Your fingers curled into his hoodie, tugging him closer, chasing his warmth, his touch, his everything.
"I need you," you breathed, and that was all it took.
The world disappeared.
Nothing existed except himâthe way his hands roamed your body, the way his lips marked your skin, the way he whispered, 'Mine. All mine.'
And when he finallyâfinallyâgave you what you both needed, it wasn't just lust.
It was love.
Raw. Overwhelming. Unshakable.
And as he held you close, forehead pressed to yours, breath uneven but laced with affectionâ
You knew.
You would never belong to anyone else.
And neither would he.
Your back hit the cool metal of the car. Wonwoo's body pressed against yours, solid, burning, intoxicating.
"You've been teasing me all night," he murmured, trailing kisses down your jaw, his breath hot against your skin.
Your lips parted, a shaky breath escaping when his hands slipped under your dress, fingers skimming up your thighs.
"I wasn't teasing," you whispered, but your voice betrayed you.
Wonwoo chuckled darkly. "Liar."
His fingers dipped between your legs, pressing against the heat that had been building all night.
You squirmed, gripping his hoodie, your body arching into his touch.
"Wonwooâ"
He swallowed your plea with a kiss, deep and desperate, his tongue sliding against yours, stealing every thought from your head.
"Tell me how much you want me."
Your breath hitched as he pushed your panties aside, his fingers stroking slow, deliberate circles that made your knees buckle.
"Iâ" You gasped, gripping his shoulders. "I want you. Please."
That was all he needed.
With one swift movement, he spun you around, pressing your front against the car, his hands exploring, teasing, making you beg.
"You love being touched like this, don't you?" he whispered, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. "Needy little thing."
You could barely breathe, let alone answer.
And when he finallyâfilled you, stretching you with a slow, deep thrustâ
You shattered.
Your nails scraped against the car's surface, your moans mixing with the night air, his name falling from your lips like a prayer.
Wonwoo didn't stop.
Didn't slow down.
Didn't let you come down from the high before pulling you back against his chest, one hand gripping your jaw, forcing you to look at him.
"Open your mouth," he murmured.
You obeyed without thinkingâand he kissed you, deep and messy, swallowing your moans as he drove you to the edge again.
"Mine."
His voice was a growl, his arms tightening around you, his thrusts turning erratic, desperate.
And when you finally fell apart with him, gasping, trembling, completely undoneâ
He didn't let you go.
He held you close, pressed kisses against your skin, whispered against your lipsâ
"I love you."
And for the first time, you realizedâthis wasn't just desire.
This was obsession.
This was forever.
The night was warm, suffocating with tension, electric with something neither of you could fight.
It started innocent enough.
A late-night drive. The city lights flashing past. His hand on your thigh, firm, possessive, always touching.
You had been teasing him all night. Unintentionally, of course.
Or maybe not.
Because when you leaned in, whispered something soft, something sweetâ
He snapped.
Before you could react, he pulled into a secluded parking lot, turned off the engine, and turned to you with dark, burning eyes.
"Out," he ordered, voice low, rough.
Your breath hitched. "Wonwooâ"
"Now, princess."
You gulped. Obeyed.
The second you stepped outside, he was on you.
He pinned you against the car, one hand in your hair, the other gripping your waist, his lips crashing into yoursâhot, desperate, consuming.
"You drive me insane," he growled against your mouth, pressing his body against yours, forcing you to feel just how much you affected him.
Your fingers curled into his hoodie, tugging him closer, chasing his warmth, his touch, his everything.
"I need you," you breathed, and that was all it took.
The world disappeared.
Nothing existed except himâthe way his hands roamed your body, the way his lips marked your skin, the way he whispered, 'Mine. All mine.'
And when he finallyâfinallyâgave you what you both needed, it wasn't just lust.
It was love.
Raw. Overwhelming. Unshakable.
And as he held you close, forehead pressed to yours, breath uneven but laced with affectionâ
You knew.
You would never belong to anyone else.
And neither would he.
Your back hit the cool metal of the car. Wonwoo's body pressed against yours, solid, burning, intoxicating.
"You've been teasing me all night," he murmured, trailing kisses down your jaw, his breath hot against your skin.
Your lips parted, a shaky breath escaping when his hands slipped under your dress, fingers skimming up your thighs.
"I wasn't teasing," you whispered, but your voice betrayed you.
Wonwoo chuckled darkly. "Liar."
His fingers dipped between your legs, pressing against the heat that had been building all night.
You squirmed, gripping his hoodie, your body arching into his touch.
"Wonwooâ"
He swallowed your plea with a kiss, deep and desperate, his tongue sliding against yours, stealing every thought from your head.
"Tell me how much you want me."
Your breath hitched as he pushed your panties aside, his fingers stroking slow, deliberate circles that made your knees buckle.
"Iâ" You gasped, gripping his shoulders. "I want you. Please."
That was all he needed.
With one swift movement, he spun you around, pressing your front against the car, his hands exploring, teasing, making you beg.
"You love being touched like this, don't you?" he whispered, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. "Needy little thing."
You could barely breathe, let alone answer.
And when he finallyâfilled you, stretching you with a slow, deep thrustâ
You shattered.
Your nails scraped against the car's surface, your moans mixing with the night air, his name falling from your lips like a prayer.
Wonwoo didn't stop.
Didn't slow down.
Didn't let you come down from the high before pulling you back against his chest, one hand gripping your jaw, forcing you to look at him.
"Open your mouth," he murmured.
You obeyed without thinkingâand he kissed you, deep and messy, swallowing your moans as he drove you to the edge again.
"Mine."
His voice was a growl, his arms tightening around you, his thrusts turning erratic, desperate.
And when you finally fell apart with him, gasping, trembling, completely undoneâ
He didn't let you go.
He held you close, pressed kisses against your skin, whispered against your lipsâ
"I love you."
And for the first time, you realizedâthis wasn't just desire.
This was obsession.
This was forever.
a/n: aeya here ! BELATED HAPPY VALENTINE'S EVERYONE ! i hoped y'all like this because if you did, i already have the part two ready. it's march, and i hope this fanfiction will make up for the long stop i've been. i'm back to being a stranger ig, but hey, count this as a celebration for my 500+ followers. i love yall sm please never stop expressing yourselves from supporting me. also, I PROMISE i will eventually get to y'alls reqs because i love yall too much mwuahhh
The Admirer Was Right in Front of You â Kim Mingyu
Mingyuâs been in love with you forever but youâve never seen him that way, or so he thinks. So he writes you anonymous letters, sends gifts, leaves cluesâseven days of hope that youâll catch on without him spelling it out for you. But every time you get close, you guess everyone but him.Â
Genre: Non-idol au, college au, romance (?), comedy, modern au (no specific setting, but contemporary vibe), slice of life and light-hearted mysteryÂ
Pairing: Mingyu Ă fem!reader
Content: Secret admirer, friends-to-lovers, slow burn (?), miscommunication, amnesia (in terms of realizationâreader doesnât realize Mingyuâs feelings), investigative humor, gift-giving (anonymous), letters (anonymous), silly investigation, mingyuâs subtle hints, light drama (misunderstandings and comedy), emotionally constipated Mingyu, orange juice, lavender, hidden camera, fake love ringtone trauma, laughter and fun with friends (Jeonghan, Soonyoung, Woozi, Seungkwan, Vernon and Dino), dramatic!seungkwan, over-invested! soonyoung, smug!jeonghan, unspoken yearning, heart-thumping hugs, romantic confession.
Warnings: None for explicit content, just mild comedic frustration and tension related to the investigation. potential light anxiety (reader overanalyzes and stresses about figuring out the admirer), occasional bout of existential romantic confusion.
Word count: 20,620 words
A/N: HIT TEXT BLOCK LIMIT SO EXCUSE ME. this was my rushed valentineâs day fic; written in a fog of sleep deprivation and caffeine, desperately trying to meet the deadline [14th Feb] before tumblr decided to glitch its entire draft-saving system into oblivion. to this day, it still wonât let me fix it [dear tumblr devs: once i get my degree, iâm coming for your job. and then iâm resigning on the spot after fixing my own problem âșïž] if wanted to post this,, life, exhaustion, and tumblrâs war crimes said no because to post it, i would've had to sit down and format it from scratch for HOURS because drafts wouldn't worl. it took me until few weeks into the issue [Feb] to realize i could cheat the system with scheduled posts [which is still a cursed gamble when you're handling 3k+ words]. i reread this recently and cringed so hard i nearly vaporized. this is so metallic and roboticthis⊠it truly contains all the side effects of first-draft. but at the time, i gave this thing my everything. sleep was sacrificed. blood, sweat, and tears [real] were involved. i was running on loneliness too. this may be posting now, but like I said earlier, it was written a long time ago. the fics that will come after this are recent. so, theyâre better and youâll see the difference. iâm not the same writer anymore, and thatâs something iâm low-key proud of bc i see improvements lolllll. massive, massive thanks to K @cheers-to-you-th Calli @hhaechansmoless and Tiya @gyubakeries for resurrecting this from the grave; you three deserve hazard pay for beta-reading this without losing braincells. also to Kae @studioeisa, who was quite literally the only person i spoke to while writing this. thank you for letting me talk about this ficâs summary
inspired by the golden age of secret admirer tropes and that one friend whoâs always been right in front of you, but you were too blind to believe it could be him. much love to GoSe for fueling Seungkwan and Soonyoungâs idiocy. also, Jeonghanâs smirk deserves a credits roll
to the readers: you deserve better than this first draft. but thank you for reading it anyway à° ââżâ à°
Youâre not expecting a package when you step outside your apartment door.
You're not expecting an online orderâmaybe the overpriced serum you panic-bought at 2 a.m. last week because TikTok convinced you your skincare routine was trash, but instead, thereâs a neatly wrapped gift box on your doormat, and right on top of it, an envelope with your name on it.
Your first mistake is thinking this is a normal day. Your second mistake is opening the letter in front of your friends.
"It could be anything," you say, though the neatly written name on the envelope suggests otherwise.
"No, no, no," Soonyoung cuts in, already reaching for the letter. "We have to open this together. For the sake of the investigation."
"What investigation?"
"The one where we figure out who is in love with you, obviously."
Before you can argue, Jeonghan, sitting across from you, gestures toward the envelope. "Just open it. If you drop dead from embarrassment, at least weâll have entertainment."
P.S. Youâre really bad at locking your phone screen. I already know your new favorite flower.â
The silence that follows is deafening.
"WHAT?!"
"NO WAY."
"Wait, wait, WAITâwho sent this?!"
Mingyu chokes on his drink. "Huh?"
You yanked the letter back, heart hammering.Â
Jeonghan, lounging across from you, smirked. "Looks like youâve got a secret admirer."
Seungkwan is already on his feet, "You have a secret admirer?! Iâthis isâwhatâWHO?!" And adds, "How come I donât get secret admirers?!"
"Maybe because you announce every five minutes that youâre single and desperate." Jihoon deadpans.
"That is NOTâokay, but thatâs beside the point!" Seungkwan huffed before rounding on you. "Who do you think it is?"
That was the question, wasnât it? Your fingers traced the ink absently, brow furrowing. You wonder: Who, among them, is listening just a little too carefully? You steal a glance at your friends, Jeonghan is still smirking. Vernon and Chan are whispering to each other. Jihoon looks entirely uninterested, already focusing on his phone. Mingyu stays relaxed with that big smile in place. Soonyoung, who already struggles to sit still on a normal day, is practically vibrating in his seat.
"It has to be someone we know," you mutter, narrowing your eyes. "Someone who knows me really well."
Soonyoung gasped. "Wait. What if itâs Jihoon?"
Jihoon doesnât even look up. "Do I look like the type to write love letters?"
Fair point.
Seungkwan ignores him. "No, no, no, think about it. The handwriting, itâs too neat, too precise. And look at this phrasingâ'I see you'? Thatâs some poetic, brooding nonsense right there."
"Thatâs definitely not Jihoon," Vernon mutters, taking a spoonful of rice into his mouth.
"Okay, but who else could it be?" Chan muses.
"It has to be someone we know," you murmur, rereading the letter. The words are too personal. This isnât some random admirer. This is someone who knows your habits, your quirks and stays with you a lot of the time.
"Maybe⊠Jeonghan?" Chan suggests.
Jeonghan raises an eyebrow. "Me? Thatâs cute, but if I were her admirer, she'd know. Iâm not subtle."
Okay. Not him either. Your mind whirls, piecing together possibilities. "So then who?" you ask, exasperated.
Soonyoung slams a fist on the table. "We investigate."
Seungkwan nods, solemn. "Operation: Whoâs In Love With Y/N begins now."
Mingyu exhales, but no one notices. No one sees the way his shoulders drop, the barely-there shift in his posture, releasing something he was holding onto too tightly. No one catches the way Jeonghan glances at him from the side, a smirk playing on his lips like this is the most entertainment heâs had all week, and you obviously don't notice him either. Because youâsweet, oblivious, you have already ruled him out. Because of course Mingyu couldnât be the one. The thought is too absurd, too ridiculous. How could he ever be into you? You don't even have the confidence to suspect him aloud. Mingyu, who walks into every room like he owns it, who grins too easily and makes everyone feel like they belong. Mingyu, who could have anyone if he wanted. And youâre just⊠you. It makes no sense. It has to be someone else, someone who wouldn't make your heart stutter in your chest just by standing too close. But if you really looked at him, youâd see it. His ears are pink, fingers drum against his knee, the way he looks at you when youâre not looking at him; but you donât.
Youâre too busy strategizing.
One thing thatâs as clear as day now is that, you're suspecting your own friend group. While he wanted to stay anonymous with the letters, he had deliberately altered his handwriting hoping to throw you off but ironically in doing so, he somehow ended up mimicking Jihoonâs handwriting accidentally. And now, Jihoon is your prime suspect.
-
You, Soonyoung, Seungkwan, Jeonghan, and Mingyu are lounging in the library, passing time when Seungkwan starts scribbling something on a piece of paper, lips pressed together in deep concentration as he taps the pen twice against the table before declaring, âSoonyoung is out.â
âHey!â
âAnd Seungkwan,â you add.
âExcuse me?â
âBe honest,â you deadpan, tilting your head slightly. âYou canât keep a secret for five minutes, let alone one day.â
Seungkwan opens his mouth to argue, but then stops, visibly deflating. Soonyoung, still grumbling about the injustice of it all, leans over to peer at the list Seungkwan has been working on. After a lot of back-and-forth (and Seungkwan rejecting some of Soonyoungâs wilder theories, like what if itâs a ghost?), the three of you narrow down the list of suspects. Jihoon, Vernon, and Chan remain, with Jihoon being the prime suspect because, as Seungkwan pointed out, his handwriting is suspiciously similar to the letter.
Across the table, Jeonghan and Mingyu stay silent throughout the discussion. Jeonghan watches, bemused, while Mingyu leans back in his chair, arms crossed loosely over his chest. Neither of them bother to chime in, letting the three of you spin as you, Soonyoung and Seungkwan plot to set a trap when the time is right.Â
Now, Chan and Vernon, for some reason, being one of the suspects⊠Mingyu absolutely cannot wrap his head around it. Why those two? What about anything in that letter screamed them? Why is it so easy for you to entertain the idea that either of them could be your secret admirer, but not him when heâs right here breathing the same air as you? When the admirer is right in front of you? He can literally just straight up confess, but no, he has to wait. He has to hold himself back. After all, it hasn't even been a day since you received his first letter. He can be patient. Heâs more calculated than people give him credit for. Sure, he might not seem like the type to plan things out, but when it comes to you, heâs meticulous. His friends know it, even you know it, but youâre too caught up in the role of being his friend to acknowledge that heâs more than just a guy who trips over thin air, that his intelligence is just as attractive as everything else about him.
Mingyuâs original plan was simpleâhe wanted you to figure it out. He thought that by leaving letters and gifts, youâd naturally start paying closer attention to the people around you. He assumed it would be obvious, that youâd pick up on the little details: how he knows things about you that only someone truly paying attention would, how each gift is something heâs seen you admire before. He expected you to connect the dots, to turn around, to look at him, and to realize. But instead, youâre sitting there, hunched over a notebook with Seungkwan and Soonyoung, listing off suspects like this is some kind of whodunnit mystery game.
Two
February 8th.
Walking up to your locker with Vernon, you sip the orange juice that Mingyu handed you just a few minutes ago. As you reach your locker, you pass the juice to Vernon and dig into your jacket pocket, searching for your keys. Your fingers brush against something unexpected, a small, rectangular object. You pull it out and take a closer look. Itâs a bookmark, delicately pressed with a lavender flowerâyour favorite. Attached to it is a tiny note:
âIt reminded me of you.â
Your eyebrows lift in surprise. Turning to Vernon, you hold up the bookmark, but before you can say anything, you catch him sipping from your juice.
âYah! Thatâs mine!â you exclaim, narrowing your eyes.
Vernon simply shrugs. âRightâŠâ he says, unfazed, taking another sip.
Rolling your eyes, you shove the bookmark in his direction. âAre you sure you didnât slip this into my pocket when I wasnât looking?â
Vernon scoffs, shaking his head. âI swear, Y/N, it's not me. I mean, I like you, but not enough to be your secret admirer.â
You huff but decide to let it go. Shaking your head, you turn back to your locker and start gathering your things, your books, a notebook, and a pen before shutting the door with a soft click.
Slipping your bag over your shoulder, you glance at Vernon, who still is sipping your juice. Letting out a sigh, you wave him off. âSee you later, thief.â
âEnjoy finding your secret admirer.â
Rolling your eyes, you turn on your heel and make your way toward the park near the college library. The crisp breeze brushes against your face as you walk, the bookmark still tucked safely in your grasp. As you reach the park, you spot Seungkwan and Soonyoung sitting on the swings, chatting animatedly. A smile tugs at your lips as you pick up your pace, ready to execute your usual routine, which is pushing Seungkwan off his swing and claiming it for yourself.
Just as you lunge forward to shove him away, Seungkwan, having caught sight of you from the corner of his eye, expertly stands up and moves aside at the last second. Caught off guard, your hands swipe through thin air instead of meeting his shoulder and the momentum sends you tumbling forward. Instead of landing smoothly on the swing, your foot catches on the ground, and you face-plant onto the seat before slipping off and landing in the most ungraceful heap.
Soonyoung bursts into laughter, clutching his stomach as he doubles over, his giggles echoing through the park. The scene now resembles a group of drunk boys fumbling around with a soccer ball, except the only thing truly injured is your pride.
Groaning, you lift your head just enough to mutter, âThe earth is full of selfish people.â
Seungkwan scoffs, arms crossed. âAs if.â
Soonyoung is still wheezing. Like, fully doubled over, hands on his knees as Seungkwan rolls his eyes before sighing. Eventually after much suffering, he and Soonyoung each grab an arm and help you back to your feet. Dusting yourself off, you all make your way toward the bench in front of the swings, settling down.
Seungkwan disappears for a bit with a, âIâll go get us something to drink,â and comes back with three drinks and, bless him, some ice wrapped in a napkin for your mishap from earlier. âHere,â he says, plopping down next to you, âfor your bruised dignity.â
You roll your eyes but accept the ice anyway, pressing it against your arm where you had landed a little too hard. Itâs a little embarrassing how much it helps. âAnyway,â you say, setting down your drink and pulling something out of your pocket. âI got another gift from the admirer today. Vernon was with me when I found it in my jacketâs pocket.â You hold up the bookmark along with the note.
Seungkwan squints at it. âYou sure itâs not Vernon?â
âHe denies it,â you say, taking a sip of your drink. âBut heâs still sus.â
At that, the two of them launch into a theorizing session, their ideas getting more ridiculous by the second. Youâre pretty sure they're just saying words now. Seungkwan adds fuel to the fire, and before you know it, theyâve spun a whole conspiracy web involving secret codes. Itâs a little concerning how quickly they came up with all this. âYou guys are so stupid.â
âBut seriously,â Seungkwan says, âhow many gifts or letters have you gotten so far?â
âYesterday, I got a letter which you both saw, and a small plant so in total, one letter and two gifts including today's bookmark.â
Last night, when you got back to your dorm, there was a box sitting neatly in front of your door. No note on the outside, no sign of who left it. You glanced up and down the hallway but nope, no secret admirer lurked in the shadows, just the usual dorm silence. So you brought the box inside, set it on your desk, and opened it. Inside was a small, neatly potted plant with a tiny note tucked beside it. The note read:
âTake care of it well.â
Thatâs it. No name, no signature, just that.
Soonyoung immediately decides itâs finally the time for drastic measures. âItâs time to set a trap.â
âYes, it is,â Soonyoung insists. âWe need cameras, motion sensors, maybe even a decoy packageââ
Seungkwan holds up a hand. âOkay, first of all, youâre not rich enough to have motion sensors.â
âFine, but we can record the next delivery,â Soonyoung counters. âWe set up a camera, catch them in the act.â
Seungkwan hums, considering. âActually⊠that could work.â
And so the plan is set. The three of you head to Soonyoungâs place, which is always a good idea. Not just because he always somehow manages to convince his sister to lend him something after only minimal begging (or a taekwondo match), but because his mom recently visited, which means homemade food. And if thereâs one universal truth, itâs that Soonyoungâs momâs cooking has the power to make you forget all your problems. So while Soonyoung is off on his mission to beg or fight, you and Seungkwan shamelessly take advantage of the situation by helping yourselves to an absolutely unnecessary amount of food. Every bite is warm and ridiculously comforting, enough to make you forget youâre literally in the middle of an undercover investigation.
By the time Soonyoung returns, looking victorious with the tiny camera in hand, youâre full, satisfied and only mildly guilty about eating half his momâs cooking. He doesnât seem to notice, though, too focused on phase two of Operation: Whoâs In Love With Y/N. Soon, you all make your way back to your dorm, and upon arrival, you scout for the perfect spot to set up the device, ultimately deciding on a corner of the corridor wall just out of plain sight but with a clear view of your door. Now comes the tricky part: actually installing the camera.
With no ladder, no proper tools, and absolutely no sense of self-preservation, youâre left to your own devices, meaning an unsteady, completely improvised method of reaching the higher spot. This is how you end up watching one of the most questionable stunts in history unfold.
Seungkwan, grumbling under his breath about always being dragged into Soonyoungâs ridiculous ideas, crouches on a chair to add some height. âI swear, I donât get paid enough for this.â
âYou donât get paid at all,â you remind him helpfully.
âExactly! Thatâs the problem!â
Then, after a brief, heated argument over whether this was a terrible idea (which Seungkwan insists it was), Soonyoung climbs onto Seungkwanâs back, steadying himself by pressing a hand against the wall.
Soonyoung stretches up, muttering instructions that Seungkwan has absolutely zero patience for. âHold still,â Soonyoung hisses, wobbling slightly as he raises the camera in one hand and secures it in place.
âI am holding still!â Seungkwan retorts, voice strained from supporting Soonyoungâs weight.
âThen why do I feel like Iâm on a boat in the middle of a storm?â
"Maybe because you're as heavy as a sack of rice!"
You, being entirely unhelpful, are doubled over in silent laughter, barely holding back tears.
Despite the constant bickering, Soonyoung manages to attach the camera securely without knocking anything over or causing a disaster which is an impressive feat in itself, given the circumstances. Once he's satisfied with the placement, he carefully climbs down, having only one near-death slip, but he catches himself just in time.
With the camera now rolling, the three of you retreat into your dorm, hoping that today might bring another letter. You settle in, playing a few rounds of UNO to pass the time while keeping an ear out for any sounds outside. However, as the hours tick by, no new delivery arrives. Eventually, as the clock edges past 8 PM, Soonyoung and Seungkwan decide to call it a day.
âWell,â Soonyoung sighs, stretching his arms above his head, âI guess we check the footage tomorrow.â
âOr,â Seungkwan grumbles, rubbing his sore shoulders, âthis was all just an excuse for Soonyoung to climb on my back.â
You laugh, walking them to the door. âThanks for helping out, though. See you guys tomorrow.â
With a final wave, they head off leaving you alone in the dorm. But as you glance at the door one last time before heading to your bedroom, a thought scratches at the back of your mind relentlessly: What if the admirer knows theyâre being watched?
You shake your head, trying to push the thought away. Nowâs not the time to get paranoid. You have other things to focus on, like your studies. After spending most of your day fooling around, itâs about time you catch up. With a sigh, you open your books and begin to study. Your eyes scan the page, absorbing formulas and theoremsâpolynomials, integrals, trigonometric identities, limits. Itâs pure maths which always seems to make sense when youâre in the right mindset. You scribble through some practice problems, your pen moving quickly across the paper as you tackle linear algebra and calculus, but your focus doesnât last long. After an hour of studying, the temptation to check your phone becomes unbearable. Just a quick break, you think. So you open Instagram and start mindlessly scrolling through reels, watching endless edits of SEVENTEEN. As the adrenaline from watching them starts to course through your veins, you stand up, feeling a little too hot and giddy from the rush. You need to walk it off so you head to the kitchen and grab a glass of water trying to cool down and calm your racing thoughts. But as youâre pouring the water, your eyes naturally drift toward the front door. And thatâs when you see it.
A letter. Slipped under the crack of the door.
Your heart skips a beat, and afraid to move. Itâs from the secret admirer. The thought sends a shockwave through you. The thought that the hidden camera set up by you, Seungkwan, and Soonyoung might have actually caught the admirer in the act fills your mind, making your pulse quicken. Your hands are slightly trembling as you set the cold glass down, then without thinking twice, you rush over, bending down to pick it up. The envelope is unmarked, your fingers linger on it for a moment as a weird mix of excitement and nerves bubble in your chest. Slowly, you rip the top open and pull the letter out, unfolding it carefully.
âI saw you laughing today, and it made me stop for a second. Youâve been on my mind for a while now and if Iâm being honest, I donât think a single day passes without me thinking of you at least once. Itâs strange, isnât it? How someone can become a part of your thoughts without even trying. Anyway, I hope you liked the bookmark, thought you might like the lavender on that. It's nothing too fancy, but I hope it makes you smile. And before you ask â no, I wonât tell you who I am yet. Youâll figure it out when the time is right. Or maybe Iâll have to be the one to tell you. See you later.â
You place the letter on your desk and take a deep breath. Part of you just feels this strange comfort from the letter, but another part of you is still buzzing with excitement, wondering who the camera caught.
You decide against checking the camera right now, knowing full well that if you watch the footage without Seungkwan and Soonyoung, theyâll throw a fit and sulk for days. And dealing with their pouts and sighs isnât worth it. Theyâd probably demand some sort of grand apology, maybe treating them to a big buffet or approving one of Soonyoungâs ridiculous ideas as compensation. Yeah, no thanks. With that in mind, you push aside your curiosity and decide to wait until tomorrow to watch it together.
Three
February 9th.
âHey, have you been sleeping well? You always pretend youâre fine, but I know you havenât been getting enough rest. Donât think I havenât noticed you rubbing your eyes or you zoning out when youâre supposed to be paying attention. I know you have a lot on your mind. Maybe even too much. If I could take some of that weight off your shoulders, I would. But for now, all I can do is remind you to please, take care of yourself.
Also, I know youâre probably looking everywhere for answers, but sometimes youâre too focused on finding them that you miss the simple ones. Take a breath. Relax. Not everything is a mystery â sometimes, the answer is right in front of you, waiting for you to notice.
Anyway, I saw you trip earlier. That was funny.â
-
You stand, dumbfounded, gripping both last nightâs and todayâs letters while Seungkwan struggles to restrain himself from launching a punch at Soonyoung. The excitement of finally discovering your secret admirer had kept you patient, waiting for the two boys so you could watch the footage together. Now, the three of you stand in a loose circle in your dorm room, Seungkwan holding the mini camera in one hand, his grip tight enough to crack plastic.
Soonyoung, your beloved and apparently utterly incompetent partner in crime, forgot to check the camera battery. Which meant that after a measly thirty minutes of recording, the camera died. Which meant it captured absolutely nothing. Which meant your admirer had narrowly avoided being caught, not because of their own cunning but because Soonyoung was an idiot.
A heavy collective sigh fills the room, a habit the three of you have apparently perfected at this point. Thereâs no point in dwelling on it now. Shoulders slumping in defeat, you all grab your bags and head toward the stairs, making your way to campus.
Seungkwan, however, is not letting it go. He insists that this is a catastrophe, that youâve all officially lost your credibility as investigators, that Soonyoung should be banned from handling equipment ever again. âThis is ridiculous. This is a disaster. This is an embarrassment.â Heâs been nagging nonstop, words tumbling out at breakneck speed as he waves his hands. âHow did we mess up something this simple? How does anyone forget to check the battery? We are so unseriousââ
You groan, throwing a hand in front of his face, forcing him to stop mid-rant. âSeungkwan, shut the fuck up and watch where youâre walking before you trip over your own ego.â Although heâs not wrong, he was just as invested in this as you and Soonyoung were, so he really has no right to act this self-righteous.
He gasps, but to his credit, he actually shuts up, though you can feel the pout radiating off of him.
Itâs not the worst idea. After all, you, Seungkwan, and Soonyoung did come up with a list of potential admirers. And since Jihoon, Vernon, and Chan were still blissfully unaware of their suspect status on the list, it wouldnât hurt to gather more intel.
âThen we go to class before you actually flunk out of college,â you interrupt, already dragging Seungkwan toward the lecture hall.
âPfft. Rude.â Soonyoung huffs but waves you off. âIâll see you later!â
As you and Seungkwan slip into your usual seats, you let your eyes drift over the letters once more, fingers tracing the words. If Soonyoung hadnât messed up, would you have already known the answer? Probably, but stillâŠ
Instead of paying attention to whatever your lecturer is droning on aboutâsomething about algorithms, efficiency, and real-world applicationsâyou and Seungkwan huddle together whispering over your list of suspects one last time. Jihoon, Vernon, and Chan. The same three names.
âWe need a proper plan,â Seungkwan mutters, tapping his pen against his notebook.
You nod in agreement. âWe canât just corner them randomly without knowing what to ask.â
So, while the rest of the class focuses on things that actually matter like, say, the lecture thatâs apparently worth half of your grade, you and Seungkwan draft an interrogation script. Questions, strategies, ways to subtly (or not-so-subtly) catch the culprit slipping. Once it's done, Seungkwan sends the script to Soonyoung and without hesitation, drops a message in the group chat:
Just as he hits send, "Seungkwan," your lecturer calls, voice heavy with disapproval.
You barely suppress a wince as Seungkwan slowly looks up, caught red-handed with his phone still in his grip. The lecturer pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose, unimpressed. "Would you like to share whatâs so important that youâd rather text in the middle of my very crucial, very grade-determining lecture?" (He says that every lecture. At this point, youâre convinced itâs just a scare tactic.)
Seungkwan, without missing a beat, gives the lecturer the most withering, unimpressed side-eye youâve ever seen, one that he definitely doesnât notice, too busy shifting his focus onto another poor student. With a sigh, Seungkwan stands up, gathers his things, and exits the room like a man facing exile.
On the way, you pass by Chanâs lecture hall. Heâs just stepping out when Soonyoung with no warning or whatsoever, hooks an arm around his neck and steers him in your direction. âWhere are we going?â Dino asks, confused but not resisting.
âWeâre here to interrogate Jihoon, Vernon, and Chan,â he announces, placing the list in the center of the table. âNo questions about why theyâre on the list. No complaints. We have our reasons.â
Mingyu watches all of this unfold, barely holding back a sigh. Theyâre never going to figure it out at this rate. He was never worried about Seungkwan and Soonyoung actually catching him. Those two could be geniuses in their own fields but when it came to deduction, they were absolute fools. Itâs amusing how confident Seungkwan and Soonyoung are in their so-called investigation. He wants to scoff, wants to roll his eyes, but he keeps himself in check. You, on the other hand⊠youâre smart, but Mingyu is starting to think that your partnership with Seungkwan and Soonyoung might be lowering your IQ. Still, he lets it play out, keeping quiet as the interrogations begin.
Suspect Interrogations
â Jihoon goes first. He looks downright offended that his name is even on the list, crossing his arms over his chest as he scowls at you and Seungkwan. "Why would I do something so cheesy?" he demands. "I've told you already, it's not me!"
Seungkwan doesnât miss a beat. He leans forward squinting at Jihoon, "Thatâs exactly what a guilty person would say!"
Jihoon visibly clenches his jaw, looking like heâs one second away from launching his drink at Seungkwanâs head. You almost want to stop him but youâd be lying if you said you didnât want to see it happen.
â Vernon is next. He stares at you, eyes blinking slowly, looking about as confused as a man whoâs been woken up mid-dream. "I donât even write notes for myself, why would I write one for you?" he asks. "And I think I've told you many times, it's not me!"
You and Soonyoung exchange looks, still very suspicious of him for some reason.
â Chan goes last. He doesnât even pretend to take this seriously, instead, he just laughs, "If I liked you, Iâd just tell you," he says.
Itâs a fair point. A good point. But then⊠he keeps talking. He starts adding unnecessary details, rambling about hypotheticalsâthe âwhat-ifsâ and âmaybesâ that no innocent person would feel the need to explain. Heâs digging a deeper hole with every word, and you can practically see Seungkwanâs brain short-circuiting beside you.
Then, all at once, Seungkwan slams a hand on the table and leans forward, "That sounds like something the real admirer would say to throw us off."
Chan looks so betrayed.
Jeonghan crosses his arms as he observes the mess of notes and theories sprawled out before him. "You're not going to get them to confess, you know," he says. "They want to stay anonymous. No amount of begging or interrogation is going to change that."
You narrow your eyes at him. "Then what do you suggest, Sherlock?"
Jeonghan smirks. "Simple. If you canât catch them in the act, make them come to you."
He lays out his ideas: each one realistic, logical, and frustratingly effective. He insists that if the admirer is really in your friend group, they'll never slip up under pressure. They've already been careful and their goal isn't to get caught. It's to wait until they're ready.
But for the first time, Jeonghan is wrong.
Mingyu doesnât want to stay anonymous because he isnât ready. Heâs been ready for as long as he can remember. Heâs been in love with you since forever. The only thing stopping him from confessing outright is that he wants you to see it first. To realize, without anyone spelling it out for you that your admirer has been right in front of you this entire time. That itâs him.
Jeonghan keeps talking, giving you, Seungkwan, and Soonyoung ideas on how to lure out the admirer. You nod along, jotting down notes with Seungkwan, completely oblivious to the way Mingyu shifts in his seat, playing idly with the rings on his fingers, memorizing all of your plans. Jeonghanâs part is done, and now he just leans back, chatting lazily with Mingyu, who barely hears a word. Mingyu knows youâre not getting anywhere with this approach, not as long as you keep treating this like some detective novel. So, he decides to leave some hints of his own. Letting you catch him staring. Letting his fingers brush against yours just a second too long.Â
A waiter approaches the table, setting down a glass of orange juice in front of you, along with a small hand warmer wrapped in soft fabric. A tiny note is attached, folded neatly under the band.
You blink, frowning. "I didnât order this."
The waiter only smiles. "It was ordered anonymously. For you."
Before you can even process what that means, Seungkwan moves at the speed of 3Ă10âž m/s, snatching the orange juice off the table. "We are not letting her drink something from an unknown sender," he announces before he downs it in one go.
"You mean my secret admirer," you correct, deadpan, reaching for the note instead.
"So you say," he mutters.
Mingyu leans back in his seat, watching your reaction carefully as you unfold the tiny slip of paper. The words are simple yet enough to make your stomach flip:
âKeep your hands warm. Iâll take care of the rest.â
Seungkwan doesnât even notice your momentary daze because heâs too busy sulking over his lack of a second drink. "That was good," he mutters, smacking his lips. "Would be nice if someone ordered one for me, though.â
Mingyu, cool, calm, and completely unbothered, raises a hand and calls the waiter over again. "Seven more orange juices, please," he says and then throws a pointed look at Seungkwan. "For everyone except him."
Seungkwan gasps. "What! Why not me?"
Mingyu smirks, propping his chin on his hand. "You already stole hers. No take-backs."
Seungkwan glares at him, indignant. âOh, so now weâre playing favorites? Unbelievable.â
Mingyu only pokes his tongue out teasingly before leaning back in his chair, satisfied with the laughter echoing around the table. Soonyoung bursts into laughter first, quickly followed by the others. Mingyu just smiles to himself, but soon enough, you clear your throat, drawing everyone's attention. "So," you start, your voice slightly exasperated, "I was this close to catching the admirer in the act." You proceed to recount the series of events from yesterday and today, explaining how Soonyoung and Seungkwan had set up a hidden camera in your dormâs corridor, only for the idiotic Soonyoung to forget to check the battery, causing it to die before it could record anything.
Mingyu who had been listening intently, releases a relieved breath, knowing how close he came to being discovered. The thought of you catching him in the act sends a shiver down his spine. He silently makes a mental note to be more careful with these anonymous deliveries. After all, he wants you to discover the admirer is him, but on your own time. Mingyu doesnât want it to be forced.
Before he leaves, Mingyu stands up, making his way toward you. He gives you a hug and in that moment, it feels different unlike other times. His arms wrap around you with purpose, his chest pressing lightly against yours. The warmth of his body and the familiar scent of him, fresh and lightly musky with a hint of wood, lingers in your senses. You can feel the gentle pressure of his arms around you, and to not exaggerate, it feels like time had slowed down. Your heart stumbles over itself, a foolish, reckless thing, drunk on the way he feels against you. Itâs ridiculous how a simple hug can make your head spin, how the warmth of his arms feels like something you shouldnât crave, but do anyway. You press your lips together, willing yourself to breathe normally, to not let it show just how much this moment is unraveling you from the inside out. But itâs stupid. So, so stupid. Because this isnât how youâre supposed to feel when your heart should be occupied with the mystery of your secret admirerâthe person leaving you letters, the person who sees you in a way no one else does. You shouldnât be aching for more, shouldnât be selfishly lingering in Mingyuâs embrace, wishing heâd never let go. You shouldnât want him to hold you like this again, and again, and again. But you do. And it feels wrong, because Mingyu isnât the one writing you those lettersâŠ
He pulls back slightly, still holding you for a moment longer than usual as if trying to convey something without words. You notice how his touch lingers; the light yet deliberate way he lets you feel his presence though you don't fully catch onto his intentions. Meanwhile, Jeonghan raises an eyebrow at the hug. The others donât really notice, as itâs not uncommon for the eight of you to hug, but something about this seems different even if they don't quite pinpoint it.
Mingyu pulls away, his smile still staying as he bids everyone goodbye, claiming he has another class in the afternoon that he canât afford to miss.
His first idea is a rotating heart-shaped candle made of light pink wax, its design featuring ribbed layers that spiral upward giving it a unique 3D sort of effect. The second candle will be more playful, a rubik's cube made of hearts. It's a square candle and each side is covered in a grid of tiny hearts, all in varying shades of pink. The design is neat and the colors blend really well which makes the candle appear soft but striking at the same time.
Mingyu carefully selects the wax, something soft yet durable, perfect for the designs he has in mind and the colors, choosing soft shades of pink, each one different but complementing the others. He picks out the scents: a lavender with hints of vanilla. The instructor walks him through the remaining details, ensuring everything is perfect for the candles heâs about to create. Mingyuâs thoughts briefly drift back to you, wondering how youâll react once you see the candles. But he has no time to waste anymore, so Mingyu rolls up his sleeves as the instructor prepares the workspace, laying out all the necessary materials. Heâs focused, the idea of creating something special for you igniting a sense of excitement and purpose within him. The sound of the instructorâs instructions makes Mingyu feel like heâs entering a different world, one where he can focus solely on his vision.
Step 1: Preparing the Wax
The instructor starts by showing Mingyu how to melt the wax to the perfect consistency. Mingyu, fully engaged, watches carefully as the wax turns from solid to a glassy liquid. He chooses a light pink wax, the base for both candles, and pours it into a large mixing container, ready to be heated. The wax glows softly under the warm light and Mingyu smiles at how it resembles the color he envisions for the heart-shaped candle.
Step 2: Crafting the Heart Candle
Mingyu takes a special mold, shaped like a heart, and begins carefully pouring the melted wax into the mold. He does this slowly, ensuring there are no air bubbles and that the wax is evenly spread. As it fills the mold, he adds layers, letting each one cool slightly before pouring the next to create the ribbed, spiraled effect he wanted. With each layer, the heart shape begins to come to life, the design slowly becoming more intricate, giving it that soft, rotating effect heâd envisioned.
Once the mold is filled, Mingyu lets it cool. He then checks the temperature of the wax again, then chooses a faint vanilla scent to add, mixing it in thoroughly. He waits patiently, allowing the wax to solidify into the form of a delicate rotating heart.
Step 3: Crafting the Rubik's Cube Candle
Next, Mingyu turns his attention to the Rubikâs cube candle. He chooses a square mold, knowing itâll be a bit trickier to get all the sides even but heâs determined. He melts a darker shade of pink wax, then carefully pours it into the mold, covering each side evenly. As the wax cools slightly, Mingyu presses tiny heart-shaped stamps into each side, ensuring each one is uniform but with slight variations in the shade of pink. Some hearts are light, some darker, creating a neat grid-like pattern.
Before he finishes, he adds the scent, a hint of lavender to the candle for a calming, refreshing scent that contrasts but compliments the soft vanilla in the heart-shaped candle. He doesnât know why, but something about it feels just right.
Step 4: Setting Them to Cool
Mingyu carefully places both candles on the cooling racks, watching as they begin to set. Heâs exhausted but satisfied, a small smile playing on his lips as he imagines you receiving them. He doesnât need to say it but these candles are more than just gifts, they are symbols. Symbols of his feelings, wrapped up in a soft pink glow waiting for you to figure out that the admirer was always right in front of you.
As the wax cools and the candles solidify, Mingyuâs heart races just a little faster. Heâs ready, heâs more than ready. He just needs you to realize it too.
Four
February 10th.
You carefully lift the velvet black box, a silk material cradling the delicate necklace inside. Your fingers brush against the golden chain as the lavender gemstone catches the light. The oval shape of the gemstone adds a timeless quality to it, and the way the facets reflect the light gives it an ethereal, almost magical quality. The chain is fine and delicate, emphasizing the dainty, feminine look of the necklace, which, in all its understated elegance, somehow feels like it was meant only for you. You can feel your heart race, knowing that someone took the time to pick out something that you also had your eyes on.Â
Then your eyes fall on the note attached to the box, and you carefully read the words:
âI remember you mentioning this the other day. Couldnât resist.â
Your heart skips a beat as the memory floods back. You remember the moment so clearly now. It was maybe an offhand comment but you had mentioned how much you adored that lavender gemstone necklace you saw during window-shopping. You had daydreamed about having it in your hands, imagining how beautiful it would be to wear and how it would make you feel. You'd been chatting with the others, and as you recall, the only ones who were around that day were Jeonghan, Jihoon, Mingyu, Seungkwan, and Chan. Your mind races as you quickly start to piece things together. It was one of them, wasnât it? Vernon is out now but one of them had been paying attention and had remembered that fleeting wish.Â
You set the necklace aside for a moment, turning your attention to the next gift. As you open the small package, your eyes widen in surprise. It's a keychainâa cute, round Doraemon keychain, the little blue robot cat you used to love watching as a kid. You can actually hear the theme song in your mind as you hold it in your hand.
You step into your room, carefully setting both gifts on your desk. Itâs officially the fourth day since you found out about your secret admirer. Each day without fail you've received a gift along with a letter. But today, thereâs been no letter yet. Which means it could arrive any moment. And that means this is your another chance. If you time things right, if you plan well enough, you might just catch them in the act. Your mind immediately goes to Seungkwan and Soonyoung. You need to meet up with them as soon as possible to strategize. Jeonghanâs advice had logic behind it, if thereâs any hope of luring out the admirer, youâll have to be smart about this.
With a deep breath, you check your phone to see the time andâHoly shit. You're late. Like, really late.
Your eyes widen as you scramble to grab your things. Soonyoung and Seungkwan are definitely going to scold you for making them wait. You donât even have time to dwell on the gifts anymore, your priority is getting out of here now.
You rush to your closet, throwing on a gray oversized hoodie. Itâs comfortable, and most importantly, easy to move in. You quickly pair it with high-waisted black wide-leg pants that you found hanging right in front of you. Slipping into your sneakers, you grab your black quilted tote bag, sliding it over your shoulder in one swift motion. Before heading out, you catch one last glimpse of yourself in the mirror, quickly applying a soft burgundy lipstick just enough to add some color to your face. Your Sony headphones settle around your neck as you practically bolt for the door.Â
You can already imagine Seungkwanâs sigh and Soonyoungâs exaggerated disappointment. You are so not ready for this.
You burst into the library slightly out of breath, scanning the room until your eyes land on them sitting at one of the corner tables. Soonyoung is slouched over, lazily flipping through a book while Seungkwan looks far too unimpressed, arms crossed and foot tapping impatiently.
The second you reach them, Seungkwan wastes no time. "Youâre so late," he huffs, grabbing your wrist before you can even attempt an apology.
âWait, Iââ you start, but itâs useless.
Before you can even process what's happening, Seungkwan bolts out of the library with you in tow, dragging you behind him. You barely manage to throw Soonyoung an apologetic look but he just waves lazily, muttering something about meeting up later.
Seungkwan doesnât stop until youâre both speed-walking through the hallway toward your class. âYou seriously need to start checking the time,â he scolds though his grip on your wrist loosens once he sees you struggling to keep up.
âYeah, yeah, I know,â you say between breaths, deciding to distract him before he starts a full-on lecture. âAnywayâoh my god, you wonât believe how noisy my neighbors have been lately.â
That catches his attention. âHow noisy?â
âLoud loud,â you emphasize, lowering your voice as you both slip into the classroom and find your seats. âLike, I swear theyâre either throwing a party every other night or filming some very questionable action scenes.â
Seungkwan gasps, already invested. âThatâs insane. You have to spill everything later. But waitâŠâ he pauses, turning to you, â...did you get anything from your secret admirer today?â
You nod, pulling your tote bag closer. âYeah, actually. A keychain and a necklace.â
Seungkwan raises an eyebrow, intrigued. âNecklace? Okay, thatâs new.â
âYeah, yeah, but focus,â you whisper, nudging him as the professor enters. âWeâll talk about it later when Soonyoungâs here too.â
Seungkwan sighs but leans back in his seat, finally quieting down as class begins. You let out a relieved breath, glad you managed to avoid more nagging.
-
The plan was supposed to be foolproof. Simple, yet effective. You, Seungkwan, and Soonyoung had spent nearly an hour or two in the library piecing together the perfect strategy. Since the admirer delivered gifts and letters at completely random times, catching them in the act had been next to impossible. But then, Seungkwan had a moment of genius enlightenment or at least, thatâs what he called it.
âYou pretend to leave,â he had explained. âTurn off the lights, make some noise like you're walking away⊠but in reality, you're just hiding somewhere nearby, waiting to see who sneaks in.â
âI think itâs perfect!â Soonyoung grinned, clapping his hands together.
You werenât as sure. On one hand, you wanted to catch him. On the other, you secretly hoped heâd be smart enough to avoid the trap. You didnât want a dumb admirer, but you also desperately wanted to know who it was.Â
And so it was set, you pretended to leave your dorm, deliberately shutting the door a little louder than necessary. The lights were turned off, and your footsteps echoed down the hallway only for you to quickly slip into a hiding spot right around the corner, out of direct sight but close enough to see anyone who entered.
Seungkwan and Soonyoung were stationed at different vantage points: Soonyoung crouched behind a vending machine down the hall, and Seungkwan, well⊠he was supposed to be hiding behind the stairwell.
Except he was the one who completely blew the mission.
You were barely five minutes into waiting when your phone suddenly blasted at full volumeâ
I'M SO SICK OF THIS FAKE LOVE~ FAKE LOVE~ FAKE LOVE~
Your heart stopped. Seungkwan was calling you.
You fumbled with your phone, fingers scrambling to hit decline as fast as humanly possible, but the damage was already done. From the dim light of the hallway, you saw a figure, tall, broad-shouldered frozen in place. There was a brief pause, and then⊠an unmistakable snort. Your admirer had just laughed at you.
Your mortification reached new heights as you caught a glimpse of movement just as Mingyu took a step back, blending into the shadows with alarming ease. But before he disappeared entirely, he let something slip from his fingers. A single envelope fluttered down to the floor. Then, just like that, he was gone. Mission failed.
The timing had been perfect. You had expected to wait for at least an hour, maybe two, or even five before the admirer would finally make a move. But no, he had shown up almost immediately after you hid. It should have been a victory. You had been so, so close, and yetâŠit still ended up failing. Your disappointment is immeasurable.
The one time you had a chance to catch him and Seungkwan of all people had to blow it. You donât even want to look in his direction right now. Instead, you stare down at the envelope on the floor, left behind in his quick escape. You take a shaky breath before stepping forward, crouching down to pick it up. Your fingers brush against the smooth paper. Itâs slightly warm, maybe from being held just moments ago. He was right in front of you and you missed him.
-
Mingyu sighs, his arm draped around your shoulders, patting you just below your shoulder blade. You lean into him, still fuming while Seungkwan sits stiffly across from you, avoiding eye contact. Soonyoung is usually the loudest one in the group but remains eerily quiet, the guilt probably eating him alive too.
You groan, burying your face against Mingyuâs chest. âI was so close! Like, insanely close. But no, of course, the universe had to humiliate me instead. The admirer didnât just escapeâhe snorted at me. Snorted! He found it funny that I got caught!â You lift your head, eyes blazing with frustration. âYou guys donât understand. We had one job. One job! And we failed.â
Mingyuâs lips twitch, a mix of amusement and fondness. Heâs enjoying this even as he strokes your arm absentmindedly, pretending to be the supportive friend. Jeonghan, on the other hand, actually smirks. âTo be fair, I did tell you to be discreet.â
You shoot him a glare. âDonât. Even. Start.â
Mingyu watches you closely and expectantly. Maybe youâll finally piece it together now, maybe youâll notice the way heâs been around you, the way the gifts are so him, the way his words always hold an extra layer of meaning. But no. Instead, you start throwing out the most ridiculous theories. âWhat if heâs not from our group? What if itâs some random stranger whoâs been stalking me this entire time?â
Mingyu sighs deeply.
âWhat if itâs a professor?â
Mingyu groans.
âWhat if itâsââ
âStop.â
You blink as he turns you toward him, his hands suddenly cupping your face. His palms are warm against your cheeks, thumbs brushing over your skin. Your eyes widen at the sudden closeness, at the way his gaze locks onto yours. For just a second he wonders if youâll finally see it. If youâll notice the way his eyes soften when he looks at you. If youâll catch onto the warmth in his voice when he speaks. If youâll recognize the way his hands feel so familiar, because heâs been by your side all along. But instead, you just stare at him puzzled.
Mingyu exhales sharply, pressing his forehead against yours for a moment before pulling back. âDonât overthink it,â he says. âThe admirer will still admire you even after knowing you were spying on him without his consent. He has no reason not to.â
You blink at him. âThatâs⊠oddly reassuring?â
Jeonghan watches the entire thing unfold, his smirk deepening. Of course, he picked it up. Mingyu releases you by shaking his head. Heâs this close to just spelling it out for you, but no, you have to figure it out yourself. His fingers twitch slightly as he slips two candies into the pocket of your hoodie. Youâre sharp and he knows that better than anyone. Always observing, always analyzing but right now, you seem lost in thought, your brows furrowed just slightly, lips pressed together as if deep in contemplation and he wonders who are you thinking about? Who are you suspecting? Because he's right here. He's always been right here but do you see him?
He leans back slightly, now one arm slung over the back of your chair, watching the way your fingers idly trace patterns on the wooden table. He wonders if you realize how much of yourself you give away. The way your shoulders relax ever so slightly when youâre comfortable. The way your fingers tense when youâre overthinking. The way your lips part just the tiniest bit when a thought clicks into place. And right now⊠youâre thinking hard.Â
Meanwhile, his mind flashes back to earlier.
When your ringtone screamed Fake Love, he didn't panic but his body reacted on instinct, stepping back into the shadows, keeping his composure. And honestly, he had expected you to pull a stunt like this. Ever since he heard you setting up the hidden camera last time, he knew youâd try something even bolder next. Thatâs why he had prepared for it, why he was ten times more careful now especially since youâd taken Jeonghanâs advice. But the real problem was that you were so cute.
The way you hunched down, scrambling to decline the call, eyes darting around like a guilty child caught sneaking snacks before dinner. From the corner of his eye, he had watched you, heart clenching in the most endearing way. He wanted to stay longer just to see you try harder, to watch the determination in your eyes. But he had slipped the letter onto the floor and disappeared before you could catch him.Â
-
At night, when you canât get the gifts out of your head, the theories keep spinning, running faster than your thoughts. You pull out your phone, without even thinking about it. You tap his contact in your phone reflexively. He is the only person you can call for this, the only one who doesnât mind when you ramble, who lets you spill every ridiculous and half-formed thought without ever making you feel like youâre too much. Heâs the only one you trust to catch your words when they come tumbling out. But does he ever do the same? Does he ever pick up his phone in the middle of the night, scroll past contacts, and land on your name? When things get too loud in his head, when he feels too much, does he think about calling you the way you think about calling him?
The sound of the dial tone fills the silence in your room, your pulse quickening as you wait for him to pick up. It rings once, twiceâuntil finally, he answers.
"Hello?" His voice is deep and groggy like youâve just pulled him out of deep sleep.
"Hey," you say, your words spilling out all at once. "I think itâs Jihoon. His handwriting, I swear, it's obvious. And about that keychain, it could be Chan too, maybe he remembered that necklaceâŠ."
There's a moment of silence on the other end, and youâre too wrapped up in your thoughts to hear the shift in his voice. Itâs a bit of a sigh like heâs holding back something. "Hmm," Mingyu murmurs, dragging the word out. "You think itâs Jihoon or Chan? I mean, I guess it could be them." But you donât hear the tension in his tone.
You launch into another theory, oblivious to his discomfort. "Or it could be Jeonghan? I know he's blunt all the time but I only talked about the necklace with him, Chan, you, Jihoon and SeungkwanâŠso it has to be one of them, right?"
He chuckles softly though the sound feels strained, and you can almost picture him running a hand through his hair. "I donât know. Maybe you should just⊠let it be for a little while. Think about it in the morning, yeah?"
"Iâm not letting it go, Mingyu. I need to figure this out. Itâs driving me crazy!"
You hear his deep exhale on the other end. Heâs not chuckling anymore. "Okay, okay," he says, voice slightly more clipped. "But get some sleep, alright?"
You roll your eyes, but youâre not listening. Youâre too focused on unraveling it. "Iâll sleep when I have answers. Thanks anyway, Mingyu."
By the time you glance at the clock, itâs already 2 a.m., and youâre still awake, thinking about everything.
-
âYou seemed deep in thought today. I wonder what you were thinking about. Or rather⊠who. Youâre sharp, you know. Always paying attention, always observing. I wonder if you realize how much of yourself you give away when youâre lost in your own head. Youâre looking for answers right now, arenât you? Thatâs okay. Just donât get so caught up in looking that you forget to see whatâs right in front of you.
I hope you liked todayâs gift. I thought it suited you.â
Five
February 11th.
Another day, another failure. You, Soonyoung, and Seungkwan are officially verified stupid.
The three of you sit slumped against the dorm room wall staring at the ceiling in sheer defeat. The plan was foolproof but you didn't account for one crucial factor. You live in a building with other students. You guys decided to install a motion alarm. Too many false alarms. A passing student, a delivery guy, a gust of wind. Each time the alarm went off, you three sprang into action only to find a confused neighbor or an empty hallway. By the third false alarm, Seungkwan was done.
"I'm quitting." He declared, standing up immediately. "I can't do this anymore. I might commit a crime."
"But you want to find out, right?" Soonyoung asked.
"I do. But not like this..." Seungkwan rubbed his temples, looking at you for support.
You didn't understand him. At all. "We were so close this time, though!" you argued, but even you were starting to doubt that.
Soonyoung groaned, flopping onto the floor. "I thought this would be the oneâŠ"
"Well, it wasn't. And I need a break before I actually start throwing hands." Seungkwan warns.
You sighed, sinking deeper into the floor. The admirer was winning. Again. And you were running out of ideas.
Somewhere out there, Mingyu was definitely laughing.
A knock echoed through the room. Your heart jumped. Reaching for the door, you find another letter. Your stomach twisted. The admirer had already delivered it. He knew, he must have waited until you were distracted, until you were busy sulking over another failed plan before sneaking in and leaving this behind. You clenched your jaw. He was taunting you.
Seungkwan sighed, flopping onto the couch. "We lost again."
But you werenât ready to admit defeat. You slowly opened the letter, your fingers brushing over the familiar handwriting.
âItâs interesting watching you try to figure this out. I wonder if youâll ever catch on or if Iâll have to spell it out for you one day. You looked frustrated earlier. I know you hate it when things donât make sense, but sometimes, not knowing is part of the fun. Not everything has to be a puzzle to solve, maybe I'm right in front of you. Still, Iâm curiousâhowâs the investigation going? I guess I already know.â
-
The note says:
"Your favourite, hope you aren't mad anymore. Oh and to remind you, donât finish this in one go. I know how much you love it but eating it all in one day might just lead to a cold! I won't be able to bear to see you sniffle with a red nose, especially when you're already so adorable. Take care of yourself, okay? Iâm sure you donât want to be caught with a runny nose.â
There you stand holding the tub of half baked Ben & Jerryâs ice-cream. The combination of chocolate and vanilla ice cream with cookie dough and brownie chunks, your absolute favorite. You take a deep breath, a little smile tugging at your lips, but the mystery of the admirer still weighs heavy on your chest.
You stride over to the kitchen, grabbing a spoon from the drawer and making your way to the couch. You plop down, the tub in your lap and start digging in. The cold ice cream melts quickly on your tongue, soothing some of your earlier frustration. You scoop up another generous bite and let the flavors settle as you think.
Then, you grab your phone, typing away in the group chat. You snap a quick selfie, spoon still in your mouth, with the ice cream tub beside you. With a smirk, you send it out to the group chat:
Y/N: "Whoever got me this, thanks! But I'm still angry. If you donât reveal yourself soon⊠you might just regret it."
Six
February 12th.
"Youâve been looking everywhere, hahah. Searching, questioning, analyzing... but sometimes, the answer is closer than you think. Itâs easy to overlook the obvious when youâre searching too hard. But I donât mind, I like watching you figure things out even if youâre terribly off track. Donât forget to rest, okay? Also, I know you skip meals when youâre too busy, donât do that. Take care of yourself, because someone out there cares enough to remind you every day."
-
"It's been six days!" he groans. "And still no clue who this admirer is?"
Seungkwan sighs, peering over his shoulder. "At this point, Iâm starting to consider Soonyoung's idea that weâre dealing with a ghost."
Mingyu and Chan lean in, trying to catch a glimpse of the note. Mingyuâs heart beats faster not just from curiosity but from something else entirely.
Then, something clicks in your mind. Without a word, you dive into your bag shuffling through its contents in a frenzy. The others watch with curiosity as you pull out all six letters, carefully laying them side by side across the table.
Mingyu watches as your eyes scan each letter, analyzing every word, every phrase. His pulse quickens. Are you finally piecing it together? Are you about to turn to him, grab his collar and pull him in and kiss? Will you tell him youâve known all along, that youâve felt the same way, that heâs been in your heart just as youâve been in his? He inches closer slowly, hoping to make it easier for you to reach for him when you want to pull him in. And then you gasp loudly.
Soonyoung jumps forward. âWhat? What is it?â
Your eyes widen, mouth agape in disbelief. âIâI think I know who it is.â
The room goes silent. Mingyu barely breathes.
You turn to the group, your expression resolute. âItâs Jeonghan.â
Mingyuâs heart stops. A crushing weight settles in his chest as his two-minute fantasy shatters in an instant. The imagined confession, the kiss, the overwhelming relief of finally being known is now gone.
"Jeonghan?" Seungkwan echoes, stunned.
You nod, âThink about it! The letters keep hinting that the answer is closer than I think, that Iâm overlooking something obvious. And I completely dismissed Jeonghan before because I figured heâd be too lazy to go through all this effort.â
Soonyoung frowns. âThat still seems like a stretch.â
âNo, listen! Jeonghan was the one who told us the admirer isnât ready to reveal himself yet, which means he knows who it is, because it's him! He was also there when I talked about the necklace. The admirer sent me one a few days later. Thatâs not a coincidence!â The group exchanges glances, mulling over your logic. âAnd,â you continue, âthe letters keep saying Iâm terribly off track. Who else could it be but the one person I never seriously considered?â
Mingyu stays quiet, watching as you piece together a puzzle with the wrong pieces. He clenches his jaw as you match all the clues to Jeonghan, not realizing that in your eagerness to connect the dots, you missed the most obvious thing of all. It's HIM that you never considered. Not even once.
He was the one listening when you spoke about the necklace. He was the one who spent hours writing each letter. He was the one who paid attention to every detail. He was the one who knew you so well he could predict your reactions before you even had them. He was the one who had been right in front of you all along. He was the one watching you search, waiting for the moment your eyes would finally land on him, but instead, youâve drawn the wrong conclusion. Was he that unimportant? That invisible to you?
His heart sinks lower and lower as you present your case, completely unaware of the storm raging inside him. What will you do when you realize the truth? When you finally see whatâs been in front of you this entire time? Will it be too late?
Seungkwan and Soonyoung looked at each other before nodding in agreement. âYou know what? That actually makes sense,â Seungkwan says, arms crossed. âIt has to be Jeonghan.â
Soonyoung says, âHonestly, the more I think about it, the more obvious it seems. Heâs been here the whole time, just messing with us like always.â
Chan, who had been nervously eyeing the letters earlier, exhales in relief. âWell, at least that means itâs not me.â He mutters, sinking into his seat, visibly relaxed now that heâs off the suspect list.
Everyoneâs looking at you, and in their eyes, you see the same thing. Certainty. Youâve convinced them. The mystery is nearly solved.
âYouâre 100% sure?â Mingyu finally speaks, his voice light.
âNo. 99. I just need to be 1% more sure.â
But for a moment you feel a strange hesitation, a small voice in the back of your mind reminding you that you havenât even considered how you feel about Jeonghan being your admirer. You were too caught up in the thrill of the mystery, in chasing after the truth that you forgot it involved real emotions. That someone out there has been writing to you with real feelings, with intention. Do you even want to know? What if the truth doesnât match the version of the story youâve built in your head? What if itâs not who you expect, not who you secretly hoped for? What if itâs not Jeonghan? Or what if it is? And what does it say about you that the thought makes your stomach twist? That, deep down, some foolish part of you already knows whose name you wish to see at the end of those letters? Not Jeonghan. Not Jihoon. Not Vernon. Not Chan. Not anyone youâve guessed so far. What if the one person you want it to be is the same person youâve already ruled out? The one whoâs always felt just a little out of reach. The one youâve spent years convincing yourself is too much, too good, too impossible, because the thought of him being your secret admirer is too absurd. Too ridiculous. Right? But you shake the thought away and turn to Mingyu, your most trusted ally in this.
âYouâre close with Jeonghan,â you say, eyes locking onto his. âOut of everyone, heâll lower his guard around you the most. Can you help me fish him out?â
Mingyu stiffens for a fraction of a second, but no one notices. His heart sinks at how easily you place your trust in him, at how confidently you believe in something so wrong. But he doesnât know how to say no to you. He never has. So he forces a small smile, nodding even as his chest tightens. âYeah⊠sure. Iâll help.â
He doesnât know what heâs supposed to fish out of Jeonghan when the admirer youâre searching for is him.
He forces himself to keep a neutral expression as Seungkwan and Soonyoung excitedly discuss possible ways to corner Jeonghan into confessing. Chan listens with mild amusement, occasionally throwing in a comment but Mingyu barely hears any of it. His thoughts are drowning in the bitter irony of the situation.
This was supposed to be his moment. A dull ache settles in his chest, an uncomfortable tightness that wonât go away. Had he been so careful, so subtle, that you never even considered him? He swallows down the lump in his throat, gripping the edge of the table as he grounds himself.Â
âMingyu?â
He blinks, snapping out of his thoughts only to find you looking at him expectantly. âYou okay?â you ask, brows slightly furrowed.
He should say something. Laugh, tease, pretend everything is fine, but all he can manage is a weak nod. âYeah,â he lies. âJust⊠thinking.â
Seungkwan snorts. âThinking too hard. Come on, we need you on this. You know Jeonghan best.â
Mingyu forces a smile. Yeah, he knows Jeonghan well but more than that, he knows you and right now, he knows that youâre chasing the wrong person. And worst of all, he has to help you do it.
-
The air carries a faint warmth of the afternoon sun, but it does nothing to ease the cold ache settling in Mingyuâs chest. He nudges Chan and looks at you, âItâs getting late. We should head home.â
You nod, stretching slightly before gathering your things. âYeah, letâs go.â
As you, Mingyu, and Soonyoung step out onto the streets, the golden light catches in your hair, turning it into something almost ethereal. Mingyu sees it but his heart feels heavy, weighed down by the thoughts swirling in his mind. The moment you confidently said Jeonghanâs name, the moment you smiled as if you had solved the puzzle, it had been like a dull knife sinking into his chest. A slow, dragging pain that refused to go away. It hurts. Really, really hurts. But he doesnât say anything. He doesnât let it show. Instead, he walks beside you, nodding and responding when necessary, pretending everything is fine.
By the time he drops you off at your dorm, his emotions are stretched thin, barely holding together. You wrap an arm around him, pressing yourself into his side in a casual hug. His breath hitches, but he forces himself to stay still. The warmth of your body against his should be comforting but it only reminds him of how far away you actually are.
âDonât forget to talk to Jeonghan, okay?â you remind him, looking up at him with those bright, expectant eyes. âLet me know what he says.â
âI will.â
You disappear behind your door, and just like that, youâre gone.
Mingyu bids Soonyoung bye and stands there for a moment before turning on his heel and walking away. But he doesnât go home.
Instead, he finds himself by the river, the city hums softly in the distance but here, itâs quieter, just the occasional ripple of water, the faint rustling of leaves. The soju bottle in his hand is already half-empty but the bitterness of it barely registers on his tongue.
He doesnât know what heâs supposed to tell you when you inevitably ask about Jeonghan. He doesnât know how to fake a conversation that never happened. He doesnât know how to face you, knowing that you had every clue and still, still didnât see him. He had waited; waited patiently, watched you go through your theories, your excitement, your endless blabbering about clues. He never snapped, never broke character, because he truly believed you would figure it out. That at the end of this little fun, you would finally turn to him and say his name with certainty. But you never did, and thatâs what hurts the most. Not that Jeonghan, who was completely uninvolved, was about to be wrongfully accused. But that when you looked for the one who adored you, the one who knew you inside and out, the one who had spent every day thinking of ways to make you smileâyou didnât recognize him.
Still, if nothing else, at least he gave you something exciting. At least, for a few days, he gave you a mystery to solve, a thrill to chase. Even if in the end, he was the one left behind.
-
The almost-emptied bottle is plucked from Mingyuâs loose grip. He blinks, sluggish from both the alcohol and the weight pressing down on his heart and looks up to find Jeonghan standing over him. The older man wears his usual smile, one that could mean a hundred different things but his eyes tell another story, one that sees right through Mingyuâs poor attempt at pretending heâs fine.
Mingyu doesnât say anything. He just turns his gaze back to the river, watching the water ripple under the dim glow of streetlights. Jeonghan exhales softly, before sitting down beside him. He doesnât speak, or pry. He simply stays, settling Mingyu in a way that only a longtime friend can.
For a while, the only sound between them was the distant buzz of the city, and the lapping of the river against the banks.
Then, Mingyu finally breaks the silence. âShe thinks itâs you,â his voice hoarse, the weight of the evening settling deeper into his bones. âShe really, really thinks itâs you.â He lets out a hollow laugh, shaking his head. âWhen the answer was right in front of her the whole time.âÂ
Jeonghan remains quiet, just listening.
âIâm not mad,â Mingyu continues, âI shouldnât be mad. Iâm just⊠a little hurt.â He pauses, gripping his knees. âNo, actually⊠I am hurt.â His throat tightens. âI donât even know why it hurts this much, butâŠâ
He trails off, exhaling sharply before looking down at his hands.
âI thought sheâd get there eventually. I really thought she would.â His voice drops to hissed tone âI waited. I watched her figure out her little theories, set up her stupid traps, get all excited over the mystery⊠and I was patient. I thought, âAny day now, sheâll turn around, sheâll realize, sheâll see me.ââ Mingyu swallows, âBut she never did.â
He doesnât know why itâs so easy to say these things to Jeonghan, maybe because Jeonghan is good at keeping secrets, at holding things close without judgment. Maybe because Jeonghan doesnât rush to give meaningless comfort but just stays.
Mingyu drags a hand down his face, exhaling bitterly. âI donât know what Iâm supposed to do tomorrow. She wants me to ask you about the admirerâto âfishâ something out of you.â He lets out a dry laugh. âWhat the hell am I supposed to fish out of you, Jeonghan?â
Jeonghan finally speaks, his voice calm but softer, something that understands. âWell, I could always confess to being her secret admirer. She's not bad.â
Despite himself, Mingyu snorts, shaking his head. âNot funny.â
Jeonghan leans back on his palms, looking up at the night sky. âYouâre hurting because you care. Because you love her and you wanted her to see you without you having to say it outright.â He tilts his head toward Mingyu. âBut love doesnât always work like that, you know?â Mingyu doesnât answer. Jeonghan sighs. "If it's hurting this much, then maybe you should ask yourself why you're still holding on."
Mingyu stays silent for a long moment before finally admitting, âI wanted to make it exciting. I wanted it to be something sheâd remember.â He clenches his fists. âBut it all just went wrong.â
âSheâll figure it out eventually,â Jeonghan says a little too knowingly.
Mingyu huffs, unconvinced. âWhat if she doesnât?â
Jeonghan shrugs. âThen maybe itâs time you stop waiting for her to find you and let her see you instead.â
Mingyu doesnât respond. He just looks out at the river again, letting Jeonghanâs words sink in.Â
He simply lets the silence stretch out and finally after what feels like hours, Jeonghan stands up, brushing off his pants, âIf you need to talk, you know where to find me.â His voice is soft, the teasing edge absent for the moment.
Mingyu nods, not trusting himself to speak. He watches Jeonghan walk away, the older manâs figure swallowed by the night, before his gaze drifts back to the river. He takes a deep breath trying to clear his mind but nothing seems to work. His heart still aches for you, for the way youâll probably look at him tomorrow, expecting him to just play along, asking questions he has no answers to.
Seven
February 13th
âI wonder if youâll figure it out or if Iâll have to spell it out for you. You looked happy yesterday. I hope it stays that way. I hope whoever I am to you, whoever I will be, gets to see that happiness every day. Maybe this whole thing was ridiculous. Maybe I shouldâve just told you from the start. But I guess I wanted to see. To know if youâd ever look my way without me having to say it first.
See you soon.â
-
The elevator doors slide open and you step in, jabbing the button for the sixth floor with more force than necessary. The doors close, but your mind is still racing, still stuck on the morningâs events.
Jeonghan had shown up at your dorm today, standing at your door with his usual lazy smile, but soft eyes. âI heard you think itâs me,â he had said, stepping inside without waiting for an invitation.
You had opened your mouth to defend yourself, to explain the logic, to lay out all the pieces that led you to him, the way all the clues lined up in your head but before you could get a word out, he had sighed, shaking his head saying it's not him and just like that, everything crumbled. Because he wasnât lying. You could hear it in his voice, see it in the way he looked at you, not with amusement, not with mischief, but with something almost like pity.
âYouâre hurting him, you know,â he had added, too softly, like he hadnât meant to say it out loud.
You had stiffened at that. âWhat?â
Jeonghan had just sighed again, then pulled you into a quick hug, arms warm around you, like he knew you needed the comfort. Then he had sat you down, looked you in the eye and said, âYouâre misdirected, miserably so.â
You had thought you were getting closer, thought you were connecting the dots but you were connecting the wrong ones. Seven days. Seven days of chasing a ghost and you were nowhere.
It felt like you had been running in circles, grasping at shadows, only to be led astray at every turn. It wasnât that you were upset Jeonghan wasnât the secret admirer. No, that wasnât what frustrated you. It was the fact that despite everything, you still couldnât figure it out. You had failed. And then failed again.
After hearing Jeonghan out, you should have let it go, let your mind rest but something wouldnât let you. Mingyu. You needed to hear what he had to say too. Jeonghan had been honest with you, and you believed him, but you still wanted to hear it from Mingyuâs mouth. What had he talked about with Jeonghan yesterday? Did he come to the same conclusion? Did he know Jeonghan wasnât the admirer?
You werenât sure why it mattered. Maybe it was because you trusted them both, maybe it was because you were still desperately searching for a lead, even if it meant going over the same conversation twice.
So now, here you are, frustrated and restless, storming into Mingyuâs apartment without so much as a knock, letting the door swing shut behind you. Mingyu, who had been standing by the kitchen counter, blinks in surprise as you march past him and collapse onto his couch.
âI canât figure it out,â you groan, covering your face with your hands. âSeven days, and Iâve gotten nothing.â
Mingyu doesnât say anything at first, just watches you as he grabs a glass, pouring you some orange juice before walking over and setting it in front of you. You peek at him through your fingers. He's too quiet. Still, you sit up, grabbing the glass but barely paying attention to it. âJeonghan came over this morning,â you start, swirling the juice in your hands. âHe told me itâs not him.â
Mingyu hums, lowering himself onto the couch beside you but not too close like before; after what happened yesterday.
You exhale sharply, shaking your head. âI mean, it makes sense now. My whole theory was just coincidence. But if itâs not him, then who?â You run a hand through your hair. âItâs like Iâm playing Mafia game but worseâno real clues, no real strategy, just me failing over and over again.â
Mingyu swallows, looking away. Failing? No. Just blind. You donât notice the way his fingers tighten around his knees, his shoulders curling in just slightly. You donât notice him. âYou trust Jeonghan, right?â he asks finally, his voice careful, controlled.
You nod. âYeah, of course.â
âThen why are you here?â His voice is steady but thereâs something just barely restrained underneath. âWhat do you need from me?â
You hesitate, tilting your head. âI just⊠I wanted to hear what you talked about with Jeonghan yesterday.â You let out a breath. âI trust you both, but I wanted to see if you came to the same conclusion.â
Mingyuâs heart sinks after knowing youâre here for that. He nods slowly, fingers curling into fists against his legs. âRight.â
You donât notice his jaw tightening, his expression flickering for half a second before smoothing over. You donât see how the very person youâve been searching for is sitting right beside you, falling apart. And Mingyu just listens because what else can he do?
The deeper hurt comes from the fact that he still loves you, and he's been waiting for you to realize it, but instead, youâve been focused on other possibilities. Heâs trying his best to stay supportive and patient, but itâs hard for him to keep his distance while youâre upset and trying to figure things out. There's a sense of loneliness in how heâs been handling everything on his own, even though heâs surrounded by people who care about him. He feels like he's been the quiet one in the background hoping youâd see him, but you havenât. Now, hearing you rant about your failed attempts and frustrations, he feels both comforted and hurtâcomforted that you trust him enough to vent to him, but hurt that, despite his feelings, youâre still unsure of him as the person whoâs been giving you all those gifts and letters. Heâs torn between wanting to confess his feelings, but knowing how much it would hurt to be rejected or overlooked again. He wants to be the one you turn to, the one you lean on when things get hard so in this moment, he's just there for you, listening, because that's what friends do, even when their heart is breaking.
-
Your voice is sharp with frustration as you pace around Mingyuâs apartment, fists clenched at your sides.âI just donât get it,â you say, shaking your head. âWho would go through all this effort?â
Mingyu, watching you from where he sits on the couch, his heart aching, simply mutters, âI would.â
But it slips past you. Youâre too caught up in your thoughts, too wrapped up in your own confusion to hear the weight behind his words. He watches as you continue to storm around, biting the inside of his cheek to keep himself from saying anything more.
Then something shifts. Maybe itâs the way he remains so still while youâre falling apart or maybe itâs the way his presence has always felt steady. But whatever it is, it pushes something inside you to snap.
"Why arenât you saying anything?" You turn on him suddenly, as you throw another jab that Mingyu doesnât deserve. He sits there, the heart inside him breaking. "You always have something to say, Mingyu. Always. But now, when I actually need someone to help me figure this out, youâre just sitting there looking at me like Iâm missing something obvious!"
Mingyu exhales sharply, his jaw tightening. Heâs been patient. So patient. But this is agony, watching you fight for an answer when heâs been in front of you the whole time. Watching you tear yourself apart over this, over something that was meant to be a confession of love. "Maybe because you are missing something obvious," he finally says, voice measured, but thereâs an edge to it now.
Your brows furrow as you take a step toward him, your heart pounding for a reason you donât understand. "Then tell me, Mingyu! What am I missing?"
His gaze hardens, but beneath the frustration, it's more vulnerable than ever. "You really want me to spell it out for you?"
"Yes!"
And suddenly, it hits you like a freight train crashing into your chest. Mingyu.
Itâs always been him. You love him. Not in the way you love your friends. Not in the way you once thought love was supposed to feel. But in the way that makes your chest ache, in the way that makes your heart race even when youâre angry. You donât care who the secret admirer is. You donât need to figure it out anymore. Because it doesnât matter. It never did. Because you love Mingyu. And you always have. Itâs not that you never considered him, itâs that you forced yourself not to. Mingyu was too kind, too good, too perfect. He was the type of person every girl wanted, and you were just lucky enough to call him one of your closest friends. It was easier to pretend, easier to ignore your feelings than to face the possibility of rejection. Because the truth was, if you had acknowledged your feelings, it would have hurt too much to know he didnât feel the same way. But now, as you really look at him, you realize just how foolish youâve been. You love him.
Even now, as you lash out at him unfairly, he stays patient. Even though your words are cutting, he doesnât push you away. He listens, endures, and understands, and thatâs what hurts the most. "WaitâŠ" Your voice comes out quieter now, your anger dissipating into something raw. "Do you⊠do you know something?"
Mingyu stares at you, disbelieving. His patience, his restraint, it all crumbles in an instant. "âŠSeriously?"
He grabs a piece of paper from the table, scrawls something quickly, and thrusts it into your hands. You look down.
âItâs me, dummy.â
The world stills.
Your breath catches as you read the words over and over again, the realization crashes into you like a wave, sweeping away every doubt, every misdirection, every foolish assumption youâve made in the past week. It was always Mingyu. Your fingers tighten around the paper as your heart pounds against your ribs. You lift your gaze, meeting his, and suddenly everything makes sense; the lingering stares, the way he was always there, how he looked at you like you hung the stars in his sky. The sadness in his eyes earlier wasnât just frustration; it was heartbreak. And you had been the one breaking him all along.
Mingyu watches you, his eyes holding everything. The years of waiting, the longing, the pain of standing so close yet feeling miles away. His confession wasnât grand, wasnât how he planned. It was raw, impulsive, torn from him in a moment of breaking. And now, he waits. For you to understand, for you to say something, for anything.
Your lips part but no words come because how do you speak when your heart is in your throat, when the very foundation of what you thought you knew has shifted beneath your feet? It was always Mingyu. The notes. The gifts. The presence. And you had spent all this time searching for someone who had never been lost.
âMingyuâŠâ Your voice is barely above a whisper, but he hears it. He always hears you.
His hands clench at his sides, bracing himself for whatever comes next. You can see it in the tension coiling just below his cheekbone, his breathing is just a little unsteady. Heâs terrified, because now that you know, you could break him all over again.
But you don't want to break him this time. You've already broken him enough.
You simply step closer, so close he can feel the warmth radiating from you. His body stiffens when you reach for a piece of paper behind him, taking it from the table. Without a word, you flip it over, your fingers moving as you scribble something down. The tension of the past week melting into something softer, and new.
Then, before he can process it, you step in even closer reaching toward him, slipping the folded paper into the pocket of his hoodie. Your fingers brush against the fabric, barely grazing him but itâs enough to send a shiver down his spine. Mingyu blinks, startled, his hand instinctively reaching into his pocket as you take a step back. His fingers find the note, unfolding it with a mix of hesitation and urgency. His eyes scan the words, and his breath hitches.
"Tomorrow, dinner at 7? My treat, Secret Admirer."
For the first time in what feels like forever, a slow stunned smile tugs at the corners of his lips. He looks up at you, hope flickering in his eyes, searching for confirmation. And when you finally meet his gaze, your own lips curling into the softest, most knowing smile Mingyu knows.
A disbelieving laugh escapes him as he runs a hand through his hair, his shoulders sagging with relief. The tension that had been weighing on him for weeks, even years, unravels all at once, âyouâre serious?âÂ
You tilt your head, your smile growing just a little. âWould I offer to pay if I wasnât?â
Mingyu lets out a full, genuine laugh this time, shaking his head as he folds the note carefully, tucking it back into his pocket. âTomorrow at seven,â he repeats, savoring the words.
But as soon as the weight of everything settles in, what just happened and what it means, you suddenly feel the overwhelming urge to run. Your heart is racing, your palms are clammy, and you donât trust yourself to speak without making a fool of yourself. So, without thinking, you turn on your heel, ready to flee. But you donât get far.
Mingyuâs hand wraps around your wrist in an instant, stopping you mid-step and before you can process it, youâre spun around, your momentum pulling you straight into him. You gasp as your body collides with his chest, the warmth of him, the solidness of him, momentarily knocking the breath out of you. His other hand finds its way to your waist instinctively, and your brain short-circuits.
His fingers glide up, brushing against your cheek, his touch so gentle it sends a shiver down your spine. You force yourself to look up at him, only to be met with the most breathtaking sight; Mingyu gazing down at you with that smile. Not just any smile, a smile that steals your breath, that makes the whole world blur at the edges. His slightly tousled hair falls over his forehead, the soft strands brushing against his brows making him look effortlessly perfect in a way that shouldnât be fair. Your heart slams against your ribs.
Mingyu tilts his head slightly as he murmurs, âNow you can run away.â His lips curl into that signature mixture of a smile and smirk, teasing yet affectionate, like he knows exactly what heâs doing to you. âOh, and donât forgetâyou have a class to attend.âÂ
Your eyes widen slightly as the reminder crashes into you but Mingyu simply chuckles, finally letting go of your waist but not before leaning in just slightly, just enough to fluster you even more. The absence of his touch is almost immediate, leaving behind a warmth that lingers.
Mingyu now steps back, grinning as he watches your flustered expression unfold and as you stumble over your words, scrambling for any semblance of composure, he just stands there looking entirely too pleased with himself. He's already looking forward to tomorrow.
-
The sight in front of you is nothing short of chaos.
Seungkwan's grip on his iced Americano slips as he processes the revelation, and without thinking, you reach out, catching the cup just before it crashes to the floor. A few drops spill onto your hand, the cold seeping into your skin, but you're too preoccupied to see it.
Seungkwan looks utterly defeated. Soonyoung, however, isn't faring any better. His mouth hangs open, his entire body frozen and his brain is still buffering.
"You mean to tell meâ" Seungkwan starts, his voice high-pitched, "Mingyu?! Clumsy-ass, canât-lie-to-save-his-life, trips-over-air Mingyu?!"
You nod.
They had too dismissed the possibility at first, thinking there was no way he could pull off something so sly. Not when his entire history was filled with clumsy mistakes and awkward cover-ups. The Mingyu they knew was many things, but a master of deception? Not a chance. And yet, here you three were, blindsided.
They had spent the entire morning preparing themselves to comfort you, fully expecting you to be in shambles after your 99% certainty that Jeonghan was your secret admirer turned out to be 100% wrong. When Jeonghan had told you in the morning that he wasn't the one, they thought you'd either be breaking down in devastation or burning something down in frustration (which, technically, you were). But they definitely hadnât expected you to walk in with the revelation of your secret admirer.
Eight
February 14th
The moment you step out of your apartment, Mingyuâs breath catches in his throat.
He was supposed to have dinner with you at night for your first Valentineâs Day date, but he insisted on spending the day together before dinner. And now, here you are, standing in front of him with your hair down, looking confident and stylish in your new boots and skirt.
The delicate lavender gemstone around your neck catches the morning sunlight, its golden chain resting just above your collarbone on top of your sweater. Youâre wearing the necklaceâthe one he gave you. And now, seeing it on you, knowing you chose to wear it today of all days, something warm and undeniable unfurls in his chest.
He clears his throat, trying to focus as he hands you a bouquet of lavender flowers nestled between soft pink roses. âFor you,â he murmurs, watching closely for your reaction.
Your lips part as your fingers gently trace the petals. âLavenderâŠâ you whisper, your gaze lifting to meet his.
Mingyu grins, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah. And roses, becauseâŠwell, itâs Valentineâs Day.â
Something tugs at your heart but before you can dwell on it, heâs taking your hand, leading you toward the day heâs planned just for you. Mingyu decides to take you everywhere.
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The smell of warm pastries fills the air as you both settle into a booth. Mingyu insists you try his favorite pancakes. Theyâre stacked high, topped with whipped cream, and drizzled with syrup. You raise an eyebrow, skeptically eyeing the enormous portion.
âOkay, you have to try these,â he insists, pushing a plate of pancakes toward you.Â
âAre you sure these are as good as you say?â
âTrust me, theyâre life-changing,â Mingyu says practically bouncing in his seat, eager for you to try them.
You take a bite, and the fluffiness, the sweetness, the perfect amount of syrup, all of it hits your taste buds in a rush. You pause, eyes wide in surprise. âOkay, okay, I admit it. Theyâre that good.â
âSee? I told you!â Mingyu grins. âNow, pass me the last bite.â You hold your fork up, about to take the last piece of pancake for yourself, when Mingyu leans across the table, âIâm not letting you have it that easily.â
âOh, itâs on,â you smirk, holding the bite just out of reach. You raise an eyebrow, giving him a challenging look. âYou want this last bite? Youâre gonna have to work for it.â
He laughs, his voice full of amusement. âYouâre really gonna make me fight for it?â
âAbsolutely,â you say, digging in your heels and preparing for the battle.
And so begins the great pancake fight. You both fall into an exaggerated tug-of-war with the last piece of pancake. Mingyuâs laughter rings out, the sound infectious. Finally, you make a show of pretending to âfightâ for the last bite, your fork and his clashing in the air, until you grab it and pop it in your mouth. He glares at you mockingly, then laughs again, shrugging good-naturedly.
âIâll get you next time,â he promises, and you roll your eyes.
After wiping syrup off your chin with a napkin, Mingyu stands up with a contented sigh, stretching his arms above his head. He looks down at you with a grin. "Alright, time to burn off all that sugar," he says, picking up the check and tossing a few bills onto the table. "Next stopâarcade!"
When you reach the entrance, Mingyu holds the door open for you with a flourish. "After you," he says with a grin.
You step inside, greeted by the flashing lights and the vibrant sounds of the arcade. Itâs a bit overwhelming at first but then you hear Mingyuâs voice over the noise, full of enthusiasm.
âLetâs see if you can keep up!â Mingyuâs eyes light up the moment he sees a game heâs good at. You follow him, amused, and find yourself standing in front of a claw machine. The giant stuffed animals inside stare down at you, their big eyes unblinking. âIâm warning you now,â Mingyu says, his tone smug. âIâve got a 100% success rate with these things.â
You roll your eyes. "Is that so? Well, Iâm about to prove you wrong."
He grins and hands you some coins. âSure, but donât get too upset when I win.â
You laugh, stepping up to the claw machine and starting your attempt. The claw moves clumsily, completely missing the prize.
âSee? Told you,â Mingyu teases, already stepping up to take his turn. His fingers hover over the controls, his focus making his brow furrow in concentration. "Watch and learn," he says, as he carefully maneuvers the claw. You can see the way heâs calculating every move, adjusting his grip with precision. With one smooth motion, the claw sinks perfectly into the plush bear's fur, and with a satisfying click, it hoists the stuffed animal up.
Youâre left speechless for a moment as Mingyu snatches it from the prize chute, a self-satisfied smirk on his face. He holds it out to you, the oversized bear almost comically larger than his own chest.
âHere,â he says, clearly too pleased with himself. âTold you Iâd win.â
You take the bear, grinning in defeat. âFine, you win this round. But Iâm getting you back.â
âIâm not worried. Letâs see how you do in the next game.â
The competition continues, the two of you moving from machine to machine. Every game brings another round of teasing, laughter, and playful banter. Mingyu gets so competitive that his voice rises in exaggerated frustration when he loses and you can't help but giggle at how seriously he takes everything. At one point you're both doubled over in laughter, unable to breathe as Mingyu pretends to âfallâ into a virtual race car, his arms flailing as he crashes into the walls of the game.
By the end of it, youâre both out of breath and giggling uncontrollably, each sporting a ridiculous grin. You look at the stuffed animal still tucked under your arm and then back at Mingyu. âGuess itâs mine after all,â you say with a sigh, not bothering to hide the smile on your face.
Mingyu just laughs, his arm slipping around your shoulders. âOf course it is. You should know better by now.â
The sun is now setting as you both arrive at the park, the golden hour light casting everything in a warm, soft glow. Mingyu's carrying a wicker basket in one hand, the other brushing through his hair as he looks for the perfect spot and you just follow, taking in the peaceful scenery.
He drops the basket beside a large, checkered blanket heâs already laid out, smoothing it down with care. Thereâs something so domestic about the whole setup, so surprisingly perfect. He places a few cushions on the blanket, pulling everything into place as if heâs done this a thousand times before.
As you sit down beside him, he smiles, a little shy. âOkay, hereâs the moment of truth.â He opens the basket, revealing containers filled with food like homemade sandwiches, fresh fruit, a small salad, and a few pastries wrapped up neatly. It all looks perfectly arranged, the kind of meal youâd expect from someone who knows what theyâre doing.
"You made all this?"
Mingyu nods proudly though there's a trace of nervousness in his expression. âYep. Every single thing. I might not be a professional, but I can follow a recipe.â
You chuckle, âWell, weâll see if itâs as good as they look.â
Without hesitation, you grab one of the sandwiches taking a big bite. The flavors hit you immediatelyâfresh, savory, and not so surprisingly, delicious. Your eyes widen as you chew, momentarily lost in the taste.
Mingyu watches you with a grin, anticipating your reaction. He bites his lip nervously, fingers drumming against the basket as he waits for your verdict.
The bread is perfectly toasted, the filling is perfectly seasoned, and itâs just... good. No surprise there. Youâve had his cooking many, many times by now and every time he manages to make even the simplest things taste like a five-star meal.
You glance up at him as you chew. âNot bad,â you say with a teasing smile though itâs a compliment disguised as a joke. âIâm actually kind of impressed. This is, what, your fiftieth time making me lunch?â
He laughs, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. âWell, Iâve got to keep you on your toes, right?â He looks at you with a mix of pride and that shy smile thatâs too endearing. âI mean, itâs not that surprising, is it? Iâve been cooking for years.â
A small smile tugging at your lips. "True. You've always been the one to get way too competitive in the kitchen. But really, it's good. It's⊠annoyingly good, as usual."
He beams pleased by your reaction, âIâm glad you think so,â he says, his voice low and warm. He watches you take another bite before reaching for a small container of fruit. You can see the glint in his eyes like heâs genuinely happy to share something heâs put effort into with you.
Time melts away, the day slipping through your fingers like golden sunlight filtering through the trees. And then, as the sky deepens into hues of pink and orange, Mingyu, reaches into his bag, pulling out a box. He hands it to you, eyes soft but filled. âOne more gift,â he says, his voice lower now, savoring this moment just as much as you are.
You carefully lift the lid of the box, your curiosity piqued. Inside are two candles, one shaped like a rotating heart, the other a Rubikâs cube, but with tiny hearts as the pieces. You look at them then up at him, your heart suddenly skipping a beat.Â
âI made these,â his fingers fidgeting with the edge of the box. âThe heart one⊠it reminded me of you. And the cube, wellâŠâ He lets out a soft chuckle, rubbing his thumb nervously over the boxâs edge. âIt felt like something I could make, something fun.â
Youâre silent for a moment, taking in everything. Thereâs something about the care heâs put into every detail, the choices he made, the way he looked at you all day, it all makes your heart ache in the best way possible. âYou made these?â you ask, your fingers brushing over the smooth surface of the candles, studying the intricate designs. Thereâs so much attention to detail, so much of him in every inch of them.
Mingyu nods, the corners of his lips curling upward as he watches your reaction. âYeah. Picked the scents, the colors⊠everything.â You notice how his fingers twitch at his side, a nervous habit he doesnât even realize heâs doing. âDo you like them?â
You donât answer with words instead, you step closer, the soft rustling of the grass beneath barely registering as you close the distance between the two of you. Without a second thought, you wrap your arms around his waist, pressing your cheek softly against his chest.
Thereâs a brief stillness. You feel his breath catch, his heartbeat thumping in the space between you. His arms hesitate for a fraction of a second but, he pulls you closer. His hands find your back, his embrace steady, warm, like it was meant for this moment. He exhales slowly, the tension that had built throughout the day is finally melting away. âThank you,â you say.
âYouâre welcome,â he whispers into your hair, his voice barely a murmur, but full of all the unsaid things between you. His arms tighten around you, and you let yourself sink deeper into his embrace, savoring the quiet, the stillness, and the feeling of being exactly where youâre meant to be.
As the evening unfolds, the last stop of your day is quickly approaching: dinner. But before you can indulge in a fancy meal, Mingyu takes a slight detour.
He glances at you as you both drive toward your dorm. "Letâs stop by your place first. You need to drop off those stuffed animals," he says with a grin, glancing over at the pile of plush toys filling the backseat.
You chuckle, nodding. "Good idea. Iâm not sure how much more my arms can handle."
When you arrive, you grab the stuffed animals one by one, making your way into the dorm. Mingyu follows, standing by the door as you carefully place each one in its spot. Thereâs a chuckle in the air as you look at the growing collection. "You know," you say with a smile, "Iâm going to need a bigger bed at this point."
"I'll help you make room," Mingyu says easily, his voice light as he stands in the doorway, watching you.Â
Once the stuffed animals are safely tucked away, you both head back to the car, driving to the destination. Arriving at the restaurant, Mingyu opens the door for you, his presence is as attentive as ever. The place is just as elegant as you remembered when you booked it, soft candlelight, a cozy ambiance, and the murmur of other patrons creating the perfect atmosphere for an unforgettable night.
Dinner is everything you couldâve hoped for. The food is exquisite, the conversation flowing naturally between the two of you as if this was just another evening together. Thereâs no need for pretension, no need to try too hard. Everything feels easy, comfortable, and perfect.
When the check arrives, you reach for your wallet instinctively but Mingyu is already one step ahead. "Nope," he says firmly, his smile still warm and gentle as he pushes your hand away. "I insist. Iâm treating you tonight."
You give him a mock pout, raising an eyebrow. "But I was supposed to pay! Remember our deal?"
"I know," he says, his voice a little playful, a little serious. "But youâve already made this day so special. Let me do this, okay?" His smile grows as he sees the look in your eyes that says, Youâre not getting out of this one.
Sighing dramatically but with a fond smile, you relent. "Fine. But next time, itâs on me."
He nods, a satisfied smile tugging at his lips as he settles the bill. As the two of you leave the restaurant, the night feels like itâs already wrapped in a perfect little bow.
By the time you arrive to his place, it feels as if the day has come full circle, every moment leading to this one, this next step, whatever it may be.
Mingyu pulls into the parking spot and without a word, he opens the door for you, his hand brushing yours as you both step out. Thereâs something about the way heâs looking at you that makes your heart flutter.
As the door closes behind you both, Mingyu sets his suit jacket down, now left only in his black button-down shirt. You, on the other hand, sink into the couch, not sure what to do or say next. Itâs 9 p.m., and youâve got an hour left before you have to return to your dorm. The day has been filled with so much laughter and moments that have made your heart race and now here you are, in his cozy apartment, not quite ready for it to end.
As you sit there lost in your thoughts, you donât expect what happens next. Mingyu extends his hand toward you, his fingers beckoning in the soft glow of the room inviting you into his space, into his arms. You donât hesitate for a second, your hand finding his without a second thought, letting him pull you up to your feet. And then he naturally begins to guide you into a slow dance. The music in the background is soft, almost a whisper, but it doesnât matter as itâs the rhythm of your hearts that sets the pace now.
You take a step forward, your chest brushing gently against his. Mingyu stays perfectly still, like heâs holding his breath, as if afraid to break the spell. Thereâs a delicate tension between you, a space between your lips thatâs filled only with the moment.
Your fingers glide along the collar of his shirt, drawn to him by some unseen force and you lean in just slightly, âYou never really told me why you chose lavender.â
Mingyuâs eyes flicker to yours, his gaze soft, intense and filled with a sincerity that makes your heart race a little faster. His hands find their place on your waist but he hesitates for a fraction of a second before pulling you even closer, the heat from his palms burning through the fabric of your sweater, leaving a trace of his warmth on your skin.
His breath is warm against your ear as he speaks, his voice low, almost a whisper. âBecause,â he says, his lips grazing your ear, âit reminds me of you⊠and it's your favouriteâ
Your breath catches in your throat, your heart stuttering in your chest. You didnât expect him to say something like this, leaving you speechless for a moment. You can feel the room closing in around you, the mood lights casting soft shadows that only make the space between you two feel even more intimate. The world outside feels distant now, irrelevant. All that matters is the way Mingyu holds you, the way he makes everything feel right.
Then in a surprising and tender move, Mingyu slowly sinks to one knee, his gaze never leaving yours. His hands still linger on your waist, steadying himself as he looks up at you with a soft, genuine smile. âIâve had the best day with you, and I canât imagine my days without you anymore,â he says, his voice filled, his heart in his eyes. âSo... I need to ask you, officially⊠will you be my girlfriend?â
The room feels even smaller now, the moment so heavy with emotion that itâs almost suffocating in the best way possible. Your breath catches in your throat, your pulse quickening as his words settle in your mind. Your heart swells with joy as you look down at him, knowing that youâve both come this far, knowing that this is more than just a question.Â
âYes.â The word escapes your lips and as soon as itâs out, Mingyuâs smile stretches wide, that same smile that makes everything around you fade into the background. His eyes sparkle with joy, and you swear itâs like heâs glowing. You can feel a warmth fill your chest, overwhelming.
He stands up, his grin still never faltering and leans in, resting his forehead against yours. Thereâs no need for words now; the silence between you is thick with meaning, with a thousand unspoken things that only the two of you understand.Â
But as the joy of the moment settles in, a sudden realization makes your heart tighten and it feels heavy in your chest. A thought flashes through your mind that makes your throat close up and your chest ache.
You think about how you never really noticed Mingyu. How you were blind to him, how you failed to see him for what he was to you. How, all along, he was there, patient and constant, while you kept pushing him away, thinking he was just a friend. He was the secret admirer you never even considered and he had carried all that weight on his own. He never lashed out. He never got angry. Instead, he waited. He never gave up on you, never turned away, even when you hurt him again and again with your obliviousness. A rush of guilt floods through you. The thought of how much you put him through, how you always doubted yourself thinking he was too good for you, never giving him the chance to show you how much he cared, it makes your heart ache in a way you canât explain.
âMingyu,â you murmur, pulling back just slightly so you can look into his eyes, searching for the words to say, whatâs been buried inside you for so long. âI need to tell you something.â
He tilts his head, his smile softening as he waits, already knowing something heavy is coming.
âI always liked you,â you admit, the words trembling on your lips, finally finding their way into the open air. âBut I never came to terms with it, because I was scared. I was scared that if I let myself believe it, it would only end in disappointment. Youâre⊠youâre so out of my league, Mingyu. Youâre the kind of person every woman dreams of. And me? Iâm just lucky to be one of your closest friends. I didnât want to push my luck, to ask for more.â You take a breath, âI never thought youâd choose me. I never thought I could be more than just your friend. But then you were always so kind, so patient with me even when I didnât see it. You carried all of that on your own and Iâm sorry for that. I shouldâve seen it. I shouldâve known what was right in front of me. And if you never confessed, I mightâve never been able to say this to you⊠but I like you, Mingyu. I like you more than Iâve ever liked anyone.â
The moment you finish, everything feels still. His eyes widen, his lips part slightly but he doesnât speak and neither do you. Itâs like time has frozen and all you can do is stand there, your heart racing, waiting for him to process what youâve said. The silence is deafening and yet itâs comforting, because it feels like this is the most real thing youâve ever said.
Mingyu stands still for a moment, his hand still resting lightly on your waist and then slowly, his expression changes. âI donât want you to ever doubt yourself,â he finally says. âYouâre everything I could ever want, and more. I didnât care about being the man of every womanâs dreams, because all I ever wanted was you.â He lifts his hand to cup your face, his thumb brushing softly over your cheek. âI waited because I knew it would be worth it,â he adds, his eyes never leaving yours. âAnd now, Iâm just⊠so glad I did.â
Tears prick at your eyes as the full weight of his words hits you, and before you can stop them, a tear slips down your cheek. Mingyu wipes it away kindly, his smile full of so much love that it nearly breaks you.
âYou never hurt me, you know,â he says lovingly, âbecause I knew weâd get here eventually. And now, all I want is for you to know that Iâm here. Always here for you no matter what happens.â
Mingyu doesn't like you, but loves you, more than you ever thought possible. He'd never needed anyone else because all along, you were enough. No one else could compare to you in his eyes. The thought of being with anyone else never crossed his mind, because it was always you.
You tiptoe and press a soft kiss on his lips, an apology for the past misunderstandings, a rush of emotions fills your chest. You pull away but before you can even fully pull back, his hands are already on your waist, drawing you back to him. His lips find yours again, this time with a hunger that makes your stomach flip, a desperation that feels almost uncontainable. His kiss is deep, slow, and deliberate and the weight of it is enough to knock the breath out of you. "Mingyu..." you murmur against his lips, your body melting into his warmth. His grip tightens ever so slightly, his body stiffening in worry. He pulls away, chest heaving with shallow breaths. His voice is laced with uncertainty though it trembles with desire.
"Tell me to stop," he says, low and unsteady, "And I will."
For a moment you just look at him, searching his eyes for any sign of doubt. But there's nothing. His love for you is written in every inch of him, in the way his fingers gently graze your cheek, in the way his breath catches when you shift closer.
You lean in again, closing the space between you. The moment your lips meet, he kisses you slow, deep and it makes your heart race. His hand moves from your cheek to your back, pulling you flush against him and you can feel every beat of his heart against yours. There's nothing hurried about it, just slow, careful movements that send sparks flying in your veins making you feel like you're floating. Everything is perfectly, wonderfully right.
He knows that this time, you see him. This time you see the admirer is right in front of you.
-
âTo the one who has always been right in front of me,
I used to write these letters with the hope that one day, youâd realize it was me. That somehow, my words would reach you before I had to say them out loud. But today, I donât need to hide behind words anymore.
You know me nowânot just as the admirer, but as Mingyu. And I know you, not as someone I can only love from afar, but as someone who chose me back. Still, I wanted to write thisâone last letter, not as a confession, but as a promise. A promise that Iâll keep looking at you the way I always have. That Iâll love you not just in grand gestures, but in the small moments too, the ones where love isnât loud, but itâs there, steady and certain.
So here. This time, Iâm not slipping it into a locker or leaving it on a table. Iâm giving it to you with my own hands, looking right at you, so you knowâthis has always been real.
Yours, always.
â Mingyuâ
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Been mine for a while nowâŠ
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Did you just ditch us for THIS ?ÂĄ?%&!?Â
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Finally!!!!
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where is @horang_m_a_n ?? crying in the corner because the investigation flopped?
â | member â assistant!joshua x boss!fem reader
â | genre â smut, office au, coworkers, (fake) affair au
â | word count â 1.7k
â | synopsis â your assistant joshua is beloved by everyone in the office. but little do they know, you've already got him wrapped around your finger.
â | warnings â descriptions of female anatomy, semi-public sex (in a storage closet), cheating roleplay, established relationship, workplace power imbalance, name-calling (slut/whore), switch!reader, kinda bratty!reader
â | notes â i'm very hesitant to say that i'm back but .. for now, here i am! i can't promise i won't disappear again but i do have some things planned - still in the works but i'm trying my best :P thanks always to the wonderful @onlymingyus not just for proofreading but for encouraging me every day not to give up. the only reason that i'm still here and that you're reading this fic right now is because of her <3 if you enjoy this fic, please reblog and tell me your thoughts in the tags!! reblogs are super important to tumblr and it lets me know you want more like this :)
âyou want that promotion or not? i said, fuck me harder.â
joshua groans, his fingers digging into your waist as he holds you in place, but you can feel the difference as he begins to snap his hips into you with more force. âthat better? is that hard enough for you, ma'am?â
he's teasing you and you know it, but you're not about to let him have the edge over you, not yet at least. âdo you want the whole office to hear you, hong? want everybody to know that you're sleeping your way to the top? i should let somebody else have the position instead, if you're gonna be so damn cocky about it.â
the look on his face makes your walls squeeze tighter around him, and you grin triumphantly when he lets out a stifled whimper in return. it takes him a second to recover but he just grunts at you without a reply, and that's how you know you've got him exactly where you want him.
you like this. you love the push and pull that exists between you two, the taunting and teasing that makes this kind of sex feel so good, so dangerous. you're addicted to the way he never lets you have anything too easily, and he can't get enough of the way you never let him have it either. it's the perfect arrangement for the both of you; you get your needs satisfied (and you really do mean satisfied), and he gets to climb the corporate ladder or whatever it is that men want.
it started, of course, how any affair starts: stolen glances, you brushing against his shoulder whenever you walk past his desk, him lingering in your office long after your business together should have finished. you never thought you'd ever risk your career and your reputation in such a blatantly foolish way, but at this point in your life you know exactly what you want, and it's a risk you're willing to take. over and over, taking it again and again and againâ
that's how you've found yourself here now, sitting on top of a table, knees bent with your high heels up in the air as he fucks into you, your usually-neat grey pencil skirt bunched hastily around your hips. it feels like the setup of a bad porn movie, but the way he buries his cock so deep into you is anything but bad.
your ankles rest on joshua's broad shoulders in a way you're definitely not flexible enough to hold for very long, but somehow he makes it work. the empty storage closet is plenty big for the both of you, but where's the fun in that? the way he's got you crammed up against a wall, rutting into you desperately, makes your heart race with excitement. he knows you get off on the danger, the thrill of being caught in such a vulnerable position with one of your employees, because so does he.
âyour husband know you get fucked like this?â joshua says suddenly through gritted teeth. the fire in his eyes while he speaks is what makes everything about this feel so much better. it's wrong and you both know it, but how can it be wrong if it makes you feel like this? âdo you think he'll be able to tell, once you get home tonight and you let him make love to you, that you've been nothing but a whore for your secretary all day long? does he even know that his beautiful little slut doesn't wear panties to work anymore?â
âdoes your wife know?â you bite back at him, your voice just a little bit breathier than before. he knows he's starting to get to you, saying all the right things to have you a trembling mess in front of him, laid out for him like a fine meal on a silver platter.
he just scoffs, dragging you by your hips farther down the table to get a better angle. you don't have time to try to hide the yelp that escapes you when he starts hitting even deeper than before, bracing both hands flat behind you for support.Â
âshe knows that she'll keep her pretty mouth shut if she knows what's good for herâŠâ he murmurs as he leans closer to you, pushing your knees to your chest and practically folding you in half, â⊠and keep taking this cock like a good girl. isn't that right?â
you whine and let your head fall backwards, finally conceding. you can feel the way his dick curves up into you, brushing against that spot that makes your toes curl. âjosh, pleaseââ
âoh, so it's âjoshâ now, is it?â he smirks. his hips never let up, and you can already tell you're gonna be feeling this later. âall it takes to break you is getting some good dick for once, huh?â
you don't reply, too busy fighting to keep yourself focused on breathing and thinking clearly. his pace nearly makes you dizzy, trying to keep up with the relentless way he snaps into you.
âhm, but i think i prefer âmr. hongâ. or âsirâ.â he pulls out almost all the way, letting his length drag against your walls before driving back in even deeper than before.Â
âlike hell i'm calling you that. you better hurry up, before someone catches us in here and then i have to have you fired. nepotism, or whatever.â
âi don't think that word means what you think it means, babe.â
âi don't fuckinâ care, justââ
but before you can finish he cuts you off with an especially rough thrust that leaves you whimpering. you can feel yourself climbing higher and higher, and your hand flies up to grip his shoulder in a weak attempt to stabilize yourself.
âyou look so cute when you've gone all stupid on my cock, though. maybe i'll let you sit under my desk and suck me off, once i get that promotion and i've got a corner office all to myself. doesn't that sound like a much better use of your time, ma'am?â
you would've loved to have a snarky comeback prepared for that, but with another powerful thrust he's already pushing you over the edge, and all you can do is moan his name and struggle to stay as quiet as you can. the force of your orgasm sends your legs sliding off his shoulders, but he guides them to wrap around his waist instead, the plastic of your heels clacking together as they lock in place behind his back.
âthat's it, keep cumming on my cock,â he groans, squeezing your hips tighter. he leans down to kiss the top of your breasts spilling out of your bra, moaning against your soft skin as he coaxes you through your high. âgonna make you feel so good, just let it all out for me.â
before you've even finished coming down he slips one hand between your legs to rub at your clit and it nearly makes you shout, your back arching towards him. you're getting overstimulated fast and he knows it, but you can tell he's getting close, too. little beads of sweat have begun to form along his hairline, normally perfectly styled but now flat and sticky with perspiration. his voice comes out broken, a low murmur stuck in his throat. âsay my name, baby. say my name and tell me how much you love this.â
âl-love your cock, shua,â you gasp breathlessly, your walls fluttering around him. âdon't stopâ don't stop, please.â
he pulls out suddenly, barely managing to aim away from you before he cums and just narrowly misses your clothes. he curses under his breath, his hand wrapped tightly around his shaft. his eyes are squinted shut and his brows are furrowed in concentration as he squeezes out the last few drops, his lips parted and glossy with spit.
the look on your face almost seems disappointed, glancing down at the ropes of white now splattered on the surface of the table before you look back up at him. âcould've finished in my mouth or something,â you mutter as you fold your arms over your chest, only half pretending to pout.
âdidn't have time. it came on too fast,â he says, panting as he tucks himself back into his slacks and does up the zipper with a heavy exhale. without hesitating he leans in to kiss you, a simple peck that makes your stomach flip the same way it has for years. âbesides, you don't wanna ruin your appetite. i took out chicken for dinner later, gonna make those tacos you like.â
âew, gross. but fine.â you scoff and roll your eyes at him, but you can't hide the happy little way your lip quirks up into a smile.
he offers his hand to help you to your feet but you swat it away, smoothing your skirt before you automatically reach up to straighten his tie.
"i'll leave first," you hum, running your fingers through his hair in an attempt to make it not look like he just got done railing you in a closet. "so when everybody sees you leaving alone, they'll think you were just jerking off in here like a weirdo. nobody will ever suspect."
joshua just laughs and gently wraps his large hand around your wrist, pulling you back towards him to fix the buttons on your blouse. âi hate to be the one to break it to you, baby, but most of them were at our wedding. might be a little too late for that, i think.âÂ
his lips brush against your ear as he speaks, his voice low and teasing, and it sends a shiver down your spine. you pull away from him with a huff just as he finishes the last button, feeling your cheeks heating up. he grins as he watches you try to smooth your skirt down one last time, pointedly looking away from him in an attempt to hide how flushed you are. god, it's cute. not a day goes by that he ever regrets making you his wife, despite the fact that pretending you're not is one of your favorite things to do.
"whatever. now, clean this up and get back to work, before i divorce you.â
he just laughs again, leaning against the edge of the table as he affectionately watches you wobble towards the door. âmhm, sure. see you at home, baby.â
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pairing: jeon wonwoo x f!reader | wc: 4.0k
genre: fluff, electrical engineering student wonwoo (pulled out my textbooks for this)
warnings: loserboy core
a/n: for all my fellow left-brained girlies who have never really understood feelings. sometimes, all you have to do is feel // now playing: when he sees me // thank u kae @ylangelegy for the song suggestion and betaing ily muah!
summary: Wonwoo has always been comfortable in the world of logic. But his crush on you? A catastrophic anomaly in his otherwise perfectly functioning system.
Wonwoo has always been comfortable in the world of logic. Numbers are predictable, formulas are consistent, and circuits behave exactly as theyâre supposed to. But his crush on you? A catastrophic anomaly in his otherwise perfectly functioning system.
Itâs not like he planned for this. (Wonwoo plans for everything.) He planned how to tackle his midterms, down to how much coffee heâd need for optimal brain function. He planned his study schedule for finals week with a level of precision that could rival NASAâs launch timelines. But he didnât plan for youâdidnât account for how youâd waltz into his life, smiling like it was easy, and throw every variable heâd ever known into disarray.
Take last week, for instance. Youâd borrowed his notes in Signals class after the professorâs lecture turned into a chaotic sprint of equations, leaving most of the class scrambling to catch up. Wonwooâs notes, as always, were pristineâstraight lines, perfect margins, not a single smudge or scribble.
âThese are amazing,â youâd said, eyes scanning the page before handing them back. âYour designs are so clean.â
Simple, right? A harmless comment. But by the time heâs back at his desk, staring at his notebook, the words replay in his mind like an unsolved equation. Somewhere between âcleanâ and the way you smiled, his brain spins out of control, dragging him into an entirely unnecessary analysis.
By the time the clock strikes midnight, heâs halfway through a list of possible interpretations for the word clean.
Did you mean clean as in technically proficient?
Or was it a general observation, like, âOh, clean lines, nice workâ?
Was it just a filler compliment?
Wait, what if you didnât care about the project at all and were just being polite?
âŠOr were you flirting?
By the end of the day, the list has ballooned to 27 points, each item meticulously numbered and annotated with follow-up questions. Heâs considered:
The tone of your voice (friendly, teasing, or something else entirely?).
The duration of eye contact (exactly 2.3 secondsâlong enough to register intent?).
The statistical likelihood of romantic interest based on casual interactions in a shared academic setting.
He even creates a small flowchart titled âCompliment Probability Breakdownâ in the margins, complete with arrows leading to various outcomes: âCasual commentâ â âFriendly dispositionâ â âNo further analysis needed.â Except, of course, he does further analyze. He always further analyzes.
Mingyu finds him later that night, still hunched over the notebook with a pencil tucked behind his ear. âWonwoo, what are you doing? Itâs a compliment, man. Just take it.â
Wonwoo glares up at him, a little defensive. âCompliments can have layers.â
âCompliments are not onions, dude. Sometimes people just say stuff because they mean it.â Mingyu grabs the notebook, flipping through pages of scribbled notes and diagrams. âWait, are you seriously tracking eye contact now?â
Wonwoo snatches it back with a huff. âItâs for clarity.â
âClarity,â Mingyu repeats, shaking his head. âOkay, listen: not everything needs a breakdown. Maybe she just thinks youâre good at this stuff.â
The suggestion should feel reassuring, but it only creates more questions. Do you think heâs good at this stuff? Wonwooâs chest tightens as the overanalysis starts up again, his brain racing to decode every minor interaction between you two.
And for the first time in his life, he wonders if thereâs a problem even logic canât solve.
The first time Wonwoo realizes he might have a crush on you is during a Circuits lab. The task is simple: build an EKG circuit. The professorâs voice echoes in the background, laying out the steps, but Wonwoo doesnât need instructionsâheâs already ahead, mentally piecing together the circuit in his mind like a jigsaw puzzle.
You, him, and Soonyoung are grouped together. Soonyoung, true to form, spends more time spinning a pen between his fingers and accidentally dropping it than actually contributing. âWhatâs a diode again?â he whispers, squinting at the diagram. Wonwoo doesnât bother answering. Heâs focused on soldering the components, the familiar rhythm of it calming.
Then you lean closer. Close enough that he catches the faint scent of your shampooâsomething floral, light, completely unexpected.
âWow, youâre fast,â you say as Wonwoo expertly attaches a capacitor to the circuit. Thereâs a trace of genuine admiration in your voice, enough to make him falter. âIâd probably still be looking for the resistor.â
The comment shouldnât faze him. Itâs just a compliment, nothing extraordinary. He glances at you, briefly, before immediately looking back at the board. It feels safer not to meet your eyes for too long. âUh, itâs color-coded,â he manages, his voice steady but quieter than usual. âYou just⊠follow the stripes.â
You laugh softly, the sound threading its way into his chest like a loose wire connecting where it shouldnât. âYeah, but itâs not that simple for everyone,â you say, brushing a stray hair out of your face as you turn your attention to the circuit.
The way you say it makes his chest feel strangely tightâlike youâve taken something as mundane as resistors and turned it into a compliment, like youâre saying heâs not simple either. Itâs a ridiculous thought, and yet it roots itself in his mind.
Wonwooâs hand, soldering iron poised mid-air, doesnât move. His brain, which usually fires on all cylinders, freezes like an overloaded processor. The soldering iron hovers dangerously close to the board, but all he can focus on is the way your hair catches the light, the way your fingers curl around the resistor as you inspect it. Wonwoo doesnât mean to notice, but suddenly he canât stop noticingâthe way the fluorescent light reflects in your eyes, the faint trace of soap on your hands when you adjust a wire, the warmth radiating from your voice when you hum quietly in thought.
Itâs not until Soonyoung gently clears his throat that he realizes his brain has completely stopped functioning. His usually razor-sharp focus is now cluttered with incoherent static.Â
âWonwoo?â you ask, leaning back slightly to meet his eyes. Thereâs a hint of concern in your voice. âYou good?â
He panics. âUh. 100 ohms.â
Your brow furrows. âWhat?â
âUhâ100 ohms,â he repeats, gesturing vaguely at the resistor in your hand like it explains anything. âThatâs⊠its resistance.â
Thereâs a beat of silence, thick and awkward. You blink at him, clearly trying to piece together whatever heâs just said. Then you burst out laughing, shaking your head as you turn back to the project. âOkay, resistor boy. Whatever you say.â
The sound of your laughter leaves his chest feeling tight, like someoneâs replaced his heart with a capacitor about to blow.
Soonyoung, whoâs been watching the exchange with far too much interest, smirks. He leans over the table, stage-whispering, âWhat was that?â
âWhat was what?â Wonwoo mutters, focusing on the soldering again, as if he can undo the entire exchange by sheer force of will.
âYouâre usually all cool and robotic,â Soonyoung teases, wagging his pen like itâs some kind of magic wand. âThat was⊠weird.â
Wonwoo shakes his head quickly, but the heat creeping up the back of his neck says otherwise. âI donât know,â he mumbles, the words barely audible over the hum of the soldering iron. âI think I glitched.â
âUh, yeah. Glitched hard.â Soonyoung grins, nudging him in the ribs. âMan, this is going to be fun to watch.â
Wonwoo groans, his ears burning. The circuit in front of him makes perfect senseâthe resistors, the capacitors, the impedance of the op-ampâbut nothing about you fits into a neat schematic. And for the first time in his life, that terrifies him.
Now, weeks later, Wonwoo is in his room, utterly consumed by the mess on his desk. Itâs an anomaly in itselfâWonwoo is meticulous, his workspace usually a shrine to organization (he always says: clean desk, clean mind). But now, papers are scattered like fallen leaves, covered in scribbles, equations, and bullet points that grow increasingly frantic as they spread across the desk.
The centerpiece of this chaos? A flowchart spanning two pages, taped together like some sort of grand engineering blueprint. Itâs titled, in block letters: âSigns She Might Like Me Back.â
Wonwoo taps his pen against the paper, staring at the branching lines as if sheer focus might make them reveal the answer heâs been agonizing over. Beneath the title are subcategories labeled âPhysical Cues,â âVerbal Indicators,â and, his personal favorite, âAmbiguous Behavior That Could Go Either Way.â
Under âPhysical Cues,â heâs written:
Smiles when she sees me.
Leans closer during conversation (but what if itâs because of background noise?).
Touches my arm (happened once, inconclusive).
Under âVerbal Indicators,â thereâs a bullet that reads:
Complimented my handwriting. Significance unclear.
Heâs in the middle of adding a new branchââInitiates conversation (specific or casual?)ââwhen the door bursts open without warning.
âWonwoo, what the hell are you doing? Itâs 3 AM.â Mingyu strides in, holding a bowl of instant ramen and a look of mild concern. His gaze lands on the desk, and his expression shifts to outright amusement. âWait⊠what is this?â
Wonwoo freezes like heâs been caught committing a federal crime. He instinctively moves to cover the flowchart with both arms, but itâs far too late. Mingyu steps closer, craning his neck to read the edges of the paper that Wonwoo couldnât shield in time.
ââCompliments: Genuine or Politeâ?â Mingyu reads aloud, his voice rising in barely-contained glee. He sets the ramen down and leans over the desk. ââSmiles frequentlyâfriendly or flirty?â WonwooâŠâ He looks at his friend, wide-eyed and grinning. âAre you seriously trying to analyze feelings right now?â
âNo,â Wonwoo lies, far too quickly. âItâs⊠theoretical.â
Mingyu snorts, dropping into the chair beside him and spinning it halfway around before leaning forward. âTheoretical? Dude, this looks like the final project for your psych elective. Come on, whatâs the problem? Spill.â
Wonwoo hesitates, gripping his pen like itâs the only thing tethering him to reality. But the weight of weeks of overthinking finally tips the scale, and he lets out a long sigh, setting the pen down.
âI just donât⊠get it,â he admits, gesturing vaguely to the papers. âFeelings are so inconsistent. They donât follow any rules. Thereâs no formula to predict intent, no way to be certain what someone means. How do people know if someoneâs interested in them? How do you know when to⊠I donât know, do something about it?â
Mingyu leans back in the chair, arms crossed as he considers the question. âEasy,â he says after a beat. âYou stop thinking about it so much and just ask them out.â
Wonwoo blinks at him, utterly horrified. âThatâs⊠illogical. Thatâs guessing. Thatâs like building a circuit without testing the components first. What if the whole thing explodes?â
âYeah, well, feelings arenât supposed to be logical,â Mingyu says with a shrug, grabbing the bowl of ramen and slurping a mouthful. He claps Wonwoo on the shoulder with his free hand, grinning around his chopsticks. âFace it, man. Youâre screwed.â
Wonwoo stares at him, expression blank but mind racing at a million miles an hour. âThereâs got to be a better way than just⊠guessing.â
âGood luck finding it,â Mingyu says, standing up and taking his ramen with him. âBut if you donât make a move soon, she might just think youâre not interested. So, you know⊠keep that in mind.â
Wonwoo sits in silence long after Mingyu leaves, staring down at his flowchart. His pen hovers over the paper, but he doesnât write anything. For once, the calculations feel insufficient.
And maybe, just maybe, Mingyuâs right.
The thing is, you keep throwing off his system. Wonwooâs world is built on rules, a place where inputs lead to predictable outputs. But you? Youâre the glitch in his perfectly functioning program, an anomaly he canât solve no matter how many late nights he spends overanalyzing.
The way you laugh at his deadpan jokesâitâs too loud for the library but not loud enough to draw attention, just enough to pull his gaze toward you. It doesnât matter that youâve already heard that joke during last weekâs study session; you laugh anyway, and the sound is unreasonably addictive. The way you ask for help even when he knows you donât need it. Like last week, when you slid your notebook toward him with a confused pout.
âCan you help me with this? I donât get it.â
He barely glanced at the equation. âYouâre way too smart to not understand this.â
And then you laughed, a soft, warm sound that curled around his chest and lodged itself there. That laugh earned a solid 15 points on his internal âPossible Signs of Interestâ checklist, though he later downgraded it to 10 because he couldnât account for external variables like your naturally kind disposition.
Itâs infuriating. Why do feelings refuse to conform to logic?
He tries analyzing every interaction, mapping out probabilities and outcomes in the quiet corners of his mind. Heâs drawn tables, diagrams, even flowcharts in an attempt to parse out the truth.
Was the way you leaned closer during study group last week a sign of interest? Or were you just trying to hear him better? Did the way you laughed at his dumb, offhand comment in class mean something? Or do you just laugh like that at everything?
Take today, for example: You brushed past him on your way to class, smiling and throwing over your shoulder, âSee you at study group later!â That brief moment derailed his entire afternoon.
Did you linger when your arm touched his? Or was that just an accidental graze? Was your smile just friendly, or something more?
And why does he care so much?
Wonwoo spends the rest of the day distracted, his mind looping through possibilities like an endless algorithm stuck in an infinite while-loop. Whatâs worse is that he doesnât even know what he wants the answer to be. A part of him craves certainty, some definitive sign that he should act on these feelings. But another partâa quieter, more cautious partâfears the idea of ruining the tenuous balance between you two.
Because what if heâs wrong? What if youâre just like this with everyone? What if he makes his move and you pull away, looking at him like heâs a problem to be solved instead of someone you enjoy spending time with?
By the time the study session rolls around, heâs teetering on the edge of complete disarray, not that heâd ever let it show.
Or so he thinks.
Because two hours in, he miscalculates an integral. An integral. Wonwoo never miscalculates anything.
You catch it immediately, tilting your head as you lean closer. He can feel the heat radiating off your skin, the soft rustle of your notebook as you shift it toward him.
âAre you okay, Wonwoo? Youâre usually so precise,â you say, your voice light but with an edge of curiosity.
His ears burn. âJust tired,â he mumbles, avoiding your gaze as he corrects the mistake. He doesnât add that itâs your proximity short-circuiting his brain, or that the way your hair falls over your shoulder is infinitely more distracting than any differential equation.
Your smirk lingers in his periphery, and he wonders if you can tell just how fast his heart is beating. He wonders if you feel the same strange, unexplainable pull that he does.
The study session stretches late into the evening. Most of the group has already packed up, and youâre the last one still typing away at your laptop when Wonwooâs caffeine miscalculation finally catches up to him.
He doesnât remember falling asleepâjust the faint hum of your keyboard and the warm glow of the desk lamp. When he stirs slightly, he feels a ghosting touch against his face.
Your fingers are gentle as you slide his glasses off, careful not to wake him. He feels the cool metal leave his skin, followed by the soft brush of your thumb near the mark his nose pad left.
His heart lurches, and he has to force himself to keep his breathing even. A dozen thoughts rush through his mind all at once:
Is she doing this because she likes me?No, sheâs just being considerate.But sheâs touching my face.What does that mean? What does it mean if sheâs touching my face?
He clenches his fists against the urge to open his eyes, to meet your gaze and demand answers. Instead, he forces himself to focus on the momentâthe sound of your quiet breaths, the occasional click of your mouse, and the warmth that radiates from your side of the table.
For a fleeting moment, he thinks: Maybe emotions donât always need to make sense. Maybe, just this once, he can let go of the need to understand everything.
Maybe, just this once, he can let himself feel.
Wonwoo doesnât know how itâs come to this. One moment, he was perfectly content at home, considering a quiet evening spent debugging code or reorganizing his bookshelves. The next, Mingyu and Soonyoung were in his room, looming like conspirators with matching grins.
âYou have to come,â Mingyu had said, tugging at the sleeves of Wonwooâs sweatshirt. âItâs social interaction, itâs good for you. Youâll thank us later.â
âNo, I wonât,â Wonwoo deadpanned, crossing his arms.
Soonyoung leaned in, holding up his phone with a smug look. âYou sure about that? Because I might have accidentally taken a picture of that Venn diagram you made the other day.â
Wonwoo froze, his blood running cold. âYou wouldnât.â
âOh, but I would.â Soonyoungâs grin widened. âAnd I bet someone would find it very⊠interesting.â
That was how he found himself lacing up his sneakers with a grim expression, muttering under his breath about betrayal and bad friends.
Now, standing awkwardly at the edge of a crowded house party, Wonwoo is reminded why he hates these things. The music is too loud, the lights are too dim, and there are far too many people moving unpredictably around him. Heâs already considering texting Mingyu and Soonyoung to demand their exact location when he spots you.
Youâre standing by the makeshift bar, laughing at something someone said, your smile so effortless it lights up the room in a way the cheap string lights never could. Wonwoo doesnât mean to stare, but his feet move before his brain can catch up. He tells himself itâs because youâre familiar, a safe point of contact in an otherwise chaotic environment.
But deep down, he knows better.
âWonwoo?â you call out, your eyes lighting up as you notice him approaching from the edge of the room.
He halts mid-step, caught somewhere between relief and apprehension, and forces out a casual, âHey.â His hands disappear into his pockets, his fingers fidgeting with loose threads, unsure what else to do.
You grin, leaning one elbow against the counter, your drink swaying lazily in your other hand. âYou donât seem like the party type,â you tease, tilting your head to study him.
âI was... coerced,â he replies flatly, and the corner of your mouth quirks up as you laugh.
âOh, let me guess.â You raise an eyebrow, pretending to think hard. âMingyu? No, noâSoonyoung. Or both? Definitely both.â
âTheyâre... relentless,â Wonwoo admits, almost sounding offended, but thereâs a faint twitch of a smile at the edges of his lips.
âWow. Dragged out of your hobbit hole just to stand here and glare at people? They mustâve bribed you with something really good.â
He looks away, almost sheepishly. âSomething like that.â
Your laugh rings out again, easy and unforced, and Wonwoo feels a little lighter despite himself. âPoor you,â you say, your voice dripping with mock sympathy. âDo you need a drink to cope? A strong one?â
He snorts. âIâm fine, thanks.â
âWell, you made it out of the house, so I guess thatâs something,â you say, stepping closer. âThough you do look like youâre two minutes away from bolting.â
He shrugs, his gaze flickering between you and the crowd. âItâs not my scene.â
âAnd yet, here you are,â you point out, your tone playful. âIs it for Mingyu? Or Soonyoung? OrâŠâ You pause, a slow smile spreading across your face. â...someone else?â
His brain short-circuits at your words, but he does his best to play it cool. âI think they just wanted to ruin my night.â
âAm I supposed to thank you for that?â he asks dryly, and you grin.
The two of you ease into conversation, the party blurring into background noise as you chat. Wonwoo listens intently, hanging onto your every word as if your voice alone could drown out the overwhelming din around him. Heâs not even sure how much time has passed when you lean a little closer, the shift in your tone catching his attention.
âSo,â you say, a conspiratorial grin tugging at your lips. âDo you have anyone youâre crushing on?â
He freezes. The words settle in his chest like a sudden, unsteady weight.
Does he? Of course, he doesâyou. But his brain stalls, caught between the truth and the absolute terror of saying it out loud. Instead of answering, he scrambles for somethingâanythingâto say.
âIâm going to make an app,â he blurts out, the words tumbling from his mouth before he can stop them.
You blink, tilting your head. âAn app?â
He nods, trying to steady his voice even though his heart feels like itâs about to burst. âFeelings confuse me. So Iâm taking all the data Iâve collected and making an app to tell if someoneâs interested. Algorithms are easier for me to understand, anyway.â
Your expression flickers between confusion and amusement before a slow smirk spreads across your face. âWhat data, Wonwoo?â you ask, setting your drink down and stepping closer.
His throat goes dry. âIâI didnât meanââ
âBecause if youâve been collecting data,â you continue, your voice teasing as you close the distance between you, âIâd love to hear about it. What have you noticed?â
His pulse skyrockets as you reach for his hands, gently guiding them to rest on your waist. The warmth of your touch sends his mind spiraling, and for a moment, he forgets how to breathe. Your hands slide behind his neck, your fingers brushing against the sensitive skin there, and he feels like heâs standing on the edge of a cliff.
âI donât know how much more obvious I could have been,â you murmur, your teasing tone softening into something warmer, more certain.
His mind blanks. He should say somethingâanythingâbut all he can do is stare at you, completely undone.
Then you lean in, your lips brushing against his, tentative at first, as if waiting for him to meet you halfway. And when he doesâhesitant but earnestâyou smile into the kiss, your fingers tangling gently in his hair, and it feels like the world stops spinning.
For Wonwoo, everything finally clicks.
Itâs not a Venn diagram or a flowchart, and it doesnât follow any logical formula, but it makes sense in a way he canât explain. The way your hands fit behind his neck, the warmth of your body against his, the soft sigh that escapes you when his hands tighten on your waistâitâs all the proof he needs.
When you pull back, his head is spinning, but youâre still close, your breath mingling with his.
âSo,â you say, your tone light but your eyes impossibly warm. âDo you still need that app?â
He chuckles softly, the sound unsteady but genuine. âNo,â he admits, a small, shy smile tugging at his lips. âI think Iâve got all the data I need.â
You laugh, and the sound is music to his ears. For the first time in weeksâmonths, evenâWonwoo feels like he can stop overthinking, stop analyzing every little detail. He doesnât need an algorithm, a chart, or a diagram to tell him whatâs in front of him. Because some things donât need to be solved.
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Author: bratzkoo
Pairing: gamer! wonwoo x game analyst! y/n
Genre: angst, fluff, fake dating
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 9.5k~
Warnings/note: eck.
summary: fake dating. it's stupid, really, wonwoo thought it might save you from the embarrassment your asshole ex has been saying in the media.
seventeen masterlist
Wonwoo's POV
I always thought SEVENTH HEAVEN was loud enough without outside interference.
People see the highlight reels and think weâre this cool, clean, icy âtop 1 in the leagueâ machine. What they donât see is Seungkwan screaming at Mingyu because he missed one peel (âYOU LET ME DIE LIKE A FARMING KRUG, YOU MENACEâ), Vernon quietly typing notes about ward timers like some vision-obsessed librarian, Mingyu throwing himself at me every time his ganks work, and Seungcheol conducting all of us like weâre his personal orchestra and heâs both the conductor and the guy who built the concert hall.
We were chaos. Controlled, competitive chaos.
And then Y/N entered our orbit and the volume dial didnât just go up.
It snapped clean off.
The first time I ever heard her say my name, she didnât know I was listening.
We were in the team lounge at 1 AM, which is pro player for âweâre tired, stubborn, and pretending we donât have scrims in the morning.â
I was eating instant noodles, trying not to think about the last VOD we watched. Seungkwan was on the couch, yelling at a random montage.
âThat is NOT a good trade,â he shouted at the TV. âWHO EDITED THIS? JAIL. LIFE SENTENCE. THROW THE WHOLE BOT LANE AWAY.â
Vernon rolled over with the remote. âOkay, okay, letâs watch something that doesnât raise your blood pressure.â
He flicked through channels, then opened YouTube on the console.
That thumbnail was already familiar to me.
Bright colors. A stylized League map behind her. Her logo in the corner.
Hextech Hot Takes w/ Y/N âTHIS DRAFT HURT MY SOUL (LITERALLY)â
My chest did a weird little stutter.
âAYO, CLICK THAT,â Seungkwan demanded, jabbing a finger at the screen. âMOTHER.â
Vernon clicked.
She appeared on the screen, headset on, hair pulled into a messy bun, eyeliner sharp enough to be classified as a weapon. In the background was her streaming setup: LED lights, a floating âDONâT FF AT 15â sign, shelves crammed with champ figurines and a giant stuffed poro in the corner.
âOkay,â she said, grinning at the camera, eyes bright. âWe need to talk about this draft, because I donât know what the coach was smoking, but it wasnât vision control.â
Her chat flew past on the side.
Mingyu perked up from the floor, half-buried in a beanbag. âOH, THIS ONE,â he said. âShe roasted the hell out of that team for locking four melee tops.â
âShe did what?â Seungkwan asked, instantly invested, already sitting up.
âFour melee tops,â Vernon confirmed. âIn pro play.â
âQueue the funeral,â someone muttered. Mightâve been me.
Footsteps padded in and Seungcheol joined us, steaming mug in one hand. âWho are we flaming?â he asked.
âNot us,â Vernon said.
âSadly,â Seungkwan added, clutching a pillow.
I tried not to look too eager. Tried and failed.
She broke down the game, frame by frame. Pulled up drafts, painted over the screen with her words.
âHereâs the thing,â she said, circling champions with her cursor. âAggressive drafts are hot. We love to see it. But this is not aggression, this is self-harm with extra steps.â
The team cackled.
I watched her more than the game. The way her mouth curled when she found a particularly bad decision. The way her eyes sharpened when she talked about vision. The way she kept dragging the analysis back to playersâ mental and burnout like it mattered more than views.
And then the screen switched.
A screenshot of SEVENTH HEAVEN appeared.
She paused the frame, zoomed in.
On me.
My heart did something stupid.
âThis is Jeon Wonwoo,â she said, tone shifting into that dangerous blend of fond and forensic. âMid laner for SEVENTH HEAVEN. Mechanically cracked. Probably knows every jungle path in this region by heart. Emotionally? Iâve seen turrets with clearer expressions. If he ever smiles on stage, Iâll host a charity stream.â
Seungkwan screamed. Actually screamed.
âNO WAY SHE SAID THATâPLAY IT AGAIN, PLAY IT AGAIN, IâM CLIPPING THIS IN MY SOUL.â
Mingyu practically folded in half. âBRO, SHE READ YOUR SOUL AND YOUR TAX RECORDS.â
Vernon side-eyed me. ââŠyou are kind of stiff sometimes.â
I slurped noodles and pretended my ears werenât burning. Judging by how hot they felt, I was failing.
Y/N kept talking.
Her voice was warm, but it never softened the truth.
âSEVENTH HEAVEN has insane potential,â she said. âEspecially their mid. When he commits, he looks unstoppable. But if he freezes, even for a second, everything collapses around him. He needs to stop second-guessing his reads in mid-game.â
Seungkwan gasped like sheâd just leaked state secrets. âNOT HER READING YOUR ANXIETY ON MAIN.â
âShut up,â I muttered.
âSheâs not wrong,â Seungcheol murmured, taking a sip of tea.
I watched myself on screen, frozen mid-replay, and I had that weird, dizzy feeling of being seen and dissected and⊠understood, all at once.
It felt invasive.
It felt accurate.
It felt⊠good.
Which was annoying.
I remembered that game: the slight hesitation at a dragon fight, the way I didnât take a flank I knew was right because I was too busy calculating what would happen if I was wrong.
Apparently, she caught that in one VOD.
âSheâs kind of terrifying,â Mingyu said, sounding impressed.
Later that night, lying awake with my phone dimmed, I searched her channel, found the video, and watched it again.
And again.
I told myself it was for âreview.â
I was lying.
Two months later, I knew too much about her.
Not personal things. Not gossip.
The important things.
Her channel schedule. Her analysis style. How sheâd call a coach âboldâ and somehow make it sound like both an insult and a compliment. How she defended rookies from chat pileups. How she always ended her videos with:
âRemember: draft wins games, wards save lives. Go drink water.â
Every time SEVENTH HEAVEN played a big match, I checked if she covered it.
Not for the clout.
For the review.
For the way she could take my messiest mid-game and say something like, âHe panicked. Thatâs not bad mechanics, thatâs fear.â And somehow, instead of feeling exposed, I felt⊠relieved. Like someone had given the mess in my head a name.
Mingyu insisted they had the âbest instant ramyun in the city.â
He mightâve been right.
We were mid-cupâme, Mingyu, Vernonâwhen the bell over the door rang.
She walked in.
No headset, no overlays, no chat exploding on the side.
Just a hoodie, jeans, laptop bag slung over one shoulder. Hair down this time, curling a bit at the ends. She looked softer and somehow more dangerous without the armor of production.
She stepped up to the counter, ordered an iced americano, thanked the barista with a small smile that hit me harder than it had any right to, and scanned the room.
Her eyes lingered for a second on the row of PCs where we sat. I ducked my head instinctively, like an idiot, even though there was no way sheâd pick me out from this distance.
âIs thatâŠ?â Mingyu whispered.
âYes,â I muttered.
âThatâs Y/N,â he hissed, eyes wide. âBro. Say hi.â
âNo.â
âWhy not?â
Because you already watch her videos at 2 AM. Because she already peeled a layer off your brain in a ten-minute analysis. Because if she looks at you in person the way she looks at drafts, sheâll see right through you.
âBecause no,â I said.
âThatâs not a reason,â he protested.
âItâs my reason.â
Vernon glanced between us and then at her. âShe looks smaller in person,â he observed. âStill scary though.â
âSexy scary,â Seungkwanâs voice popped in from behind us; heâd just returned from the counter with bread. âLike sheâs going to ruin your draft and then your life.â
âThatâs enough out of you,â I muttered.
She chose a table by the window. Sat down. Opened her laptop. Pulled out a tiny notebook, full of scribbles and little color-coded tabs.
I watched her flip to a page with âMETA â SUPPORT BUFFS?â written in too-neat handwriting and a tiny doodle of a ward in the corner.
âBro, youâre staring,â Seungkwan said around a mouthful of bread. âDo you want me to go ask for her autograph? Or her hand in marriage? I can do either.â
âPlay your game,â I said.
âI am playing,â he replied. âItâs called âare you going to talk to your YouTube crush or not.ââ
I queued a game. And another. And another.
Every time I told myself, after this one, Iâd get up, walk over, and say something normal, like, âHi, I like your breakdown on jungle pathing,â and not something insane, like, âYou live rent-free in my VOD review mind palace.â
Every time I ended a game, she frowned a little at something on her screen, bit the end of her pen, scribbled another note. Her concentration was so complete it felt like a shield. I didnât want to break it.
So I stayed put.
She packed up eventually. Slid her laptop back into her bag. Slipped her notebook into the side pocket. Wrapped her fingers around her iced americano, now mostly melted.
The air in the room is heavy with lights and bad perfume. Thereâs a stage at the front, branded backdrop behind the table, rows of chairs for reporters and analysts and camera operators. Microphones everywhere. Noise everywhere.
Weâre seated in a line.
Seungcheol in the middle: perfect posture, steady gaze, captain aura turned to 11.
To his right, Seungkwan and Vernon: bot lane chaos incarnate.
To his left, Mingyu and me: jungle and mid, the so-called âbrainâ of SEVENTH HEAVEN, which is terrifying when you think about how often our brains decide to do stupid things.
The host runs through the usual questions.
âHow do you feel about finals?â
âWhat does SEVENTH HEAVEN mean to you?â
âAre you preparing anything special against Silver Aegis?â
We answer on autopilot. Iâve done enough of these that my mouth moves while my mind drifts.
Then, from the corner of my eye, I spot her.
Y/N.
Press badge hanging from her neck. Tablet in one hand, stylus in the other. Glasses today. Simple ponytail, a few strands falling loose around her face. No LED lights, no animated overlays, but she still looks like sheâs in 1080p when the rest of the room is stuck in 480.
She looks⊠serious. More serious than she does on stream. The easy banter is gone; in its place is a sharp, focused stillness.
She taps something on her tablet, glances up, assesses us like weâre another draft sheâs about to tear apart or defend to the death, depending on how stupid we are.
My heart does that weird, too-fast thing again.
Next to me, Seungkwan follows my line of sight. I can feel his grin without even looking.
âOhhh,â he hums under his breath. âMother has arrived.â
âDonât call her that,â I mutter.
He ignores me. âYouâre staring,â he whispers. âShould I wave? Iâll wave.â
âDonâtââ
He waves. Big, stupid, enthusiastic.
To my horror, she sees it. She raises a brow, then gives a small, polite nod. Her gaze flickers past him. Lingers on me for half a second longer than it needs to.
My pulse spikes.
She looks back down at her tablet.
âAnd weâre blushing,â Seungkwan sings quietly. âLadies and gentlemen, we got him.â
âFocus,â Seungcheol says mildly, eyes still on the reporters.
I drag my attention back to the front.
Then thereâs him.
Her ex.
Manager of Silver Aegis, king of inflated self-image. Hair too slick, smile too wide, voice too loud. Heâs laughing with someone near the back, gesturing theatrically with his hands like heâs narrating a movie where heâs the main character and the plot.
Heâs positioned himself just close enough to her that he can pretend any interaction is âcoincidental.â
My jaw tightens.
The host asks something about âbiased coverage in the scene.â
âSome fans feel that certain analysts are harsher on specific orgs,â a reporter says. âAny thoughts on that?â
Someoneâs gaze flickers briefly to Y/N.
Of course it does.
Seungcheol keeps his tone neutral. âAnalysts are free to do their jobs. We focus on ours.â
Textbook answer. Good captain. Nothing to clip out of context.
We get through the rest.
We stand, bow, exit the stage. The lights feel too bright; the air feels too thick.
Thatâs when I hear it.
âSheâs still obsessed with me,â he says to a nearby journalist, intentionally too loud. âYou can hear it in the way she talks about my team. Itâs sad, honestly.â
My jaw tightens so hard it hurts.
Across the room, Y/Nâs back goes a fraction straighter. Her shoulders rise and fall once, controlled.
She doesnât turn toward him.
She keeps typing.
âSheâs really living in his head rent-free, huh,â Vernon mutters beside me.
âYeah, but heâs trying to convince everyone itâs the other way around,â Seungkwan says. âDelulu is the solulu, I guess.â
âPlease never say that again,â I say.
When the press conference clears out, weâre filing toward the side exit in a loose line when I see him angle his body and step right into her path in the hallway.
She stops short, forced to look up at him.
âDoing another âAegis is trashâ segment?â he asks smoothly. âYou know, people are starting to notice how bitter you sound.â
She looks at him like heâs a bug she canât believe she still has to deal with.
âI literally praised your early game yesterday,â she says calmly. âI flamed your Baron call because it was a grief. Thatâs not bitterness. Thatâs accuracy.â
He laughs. Too loud. Fake.
âOh, come on. Youâre so sensiââ
His hand lifts like he might touch her arm.
I move.
So does the rest of SEVENTH HEAVEN.
Seungcheol gets there firstârock-solid, expression cool, not even bothering with words yet. He doesnât have to. He stands just close enough that the manager would have to physically acknowledge himâphysically step around our captainâto keep going. A wall without saying âIâm a wall.â
Mingyu drifts to Y/Nâs other side, hands in pockets, smile gone. Vernon hangs back a bit, but his eyes are ice.
Seungkwan stands just behind them, arms crossed, jaw clenched, expression somewhere between âI will tweet about thisâ and âI will commit arson.â
Y/N doesnât step back.
She steps closer.
âTouch me,â she says quietly, but every syllable lands like a hammer. âGo ahead. I dare you. Then my next upload wonât be analysisâitâll be evidence.â
His hand freezes mid-air.
Her expression doesnât change.
She tilts her head, gives him a smile so bright itâs almost cruel. âTell your friends I love the drama if you want,â she says. âBut stop using my name for views. Itâs embarrassing.â
She turns.
Walks away.
Doesnât look back.
The hallway temperature drops.
Seungkwan exhales like heâs seen God. âQueen,â he whispers. âAbsolute queen behavior. Thatâs my mid laner-in-law right there.â
âStop,â I say automatically.
âI will not stop,â he says. âIf you donât marry her, Iâm unsubscribing from our own team channel.â
âI run the YouTube backend, I can actually see that,â Vernon adds, deadpan.
âIâm in love,â Mingyu mutters, staring after her.
I look at him sharply.
âWITH HER BRAVERY,â he adds quickly. âRespectfully. Very respectfully.â
We start walking again.
I glance down the hall where she disappeared. My body is still buzzing from the way she said, âItâs embarrassing,â like it was the final nail in a coffin heâd built for himself.
âEverything okay?â Seungcheol asks quietly, catching my look.
âYes,â I say.
No, I think.
Two days later, sheâs buried in work and slander.
Not âbusy.â
Not âbooked and blessed.â
Buried.
Livestream clips. Tweets. Reddit threads twisting her analysis into âemotional bias.â Random dudes with anime icons calling her obsessed. Thinkpieces by people who have clearly never watched an entire Hextech Hot Takes episode, much less the ones where sheâs bent over backwards to be fair to teams that donât deserve it.
Her ex is clearly feeding it. Little âsources sayâ mentions, vague subtweets, liking posts that paint her as âunhingedâ and âstill hung up.â
I see it all.
Iâd like to uninstall the internet.
I find her at a folding table in a quiet backstage corner, tucked behind a stack of promo boxes and a dying plant. Thereâs a cluster of half-empty coffee cups around her like a ritual circle. Notes spread everywhere. Her laptop is open with emails, her tablet shows a half-finished script, and her phone face-down keeps buzzing every thirty seconds.
âWhatâs the crisis?â I ask, gripping a spare chair and dragging it over.
She doesnât look up. âOrg wants a âbalancedâ segment,â she says, air-quoting with one hand without pausing her typing. âSilver Aegis doesnât want me covering them at all. My subscribers are fighting each other in the comments. And a fourteen-year-old in my DMs told me Iâm âruining esports.â You know. Thursday.â
Her tone is flippant. Her shoulders are tight.
I grip the back of the empty chair opposite hers a little harder. âYou know itâs all bullshit, right?â
âI know,â she sighs, eyes still on the screen. âKnowing doesnât make it less loud.â
Her voice dips on that last word.
Loud.
I donât think sheâs just talking about notifications.
I stare at her for a moment. At the tightness in her jaw. The faint shadows under her eyes. The way her legâs bouncing under the table, restless, like sheâs holding herself together by motion alone.
Whatever filter usually exists in my brain fails.
âI could help,â I say.
She finally looks up, eyes wary and curious. âHelp how?â she says. âAre you going to become my emotional support jungler?â
âNo.â
âHack the algorithm?â
âNo.â
â1v1 my ex?â
âYes,â I start, already picturing it, then abort. âNo. I mean. Donât tempt me.â
Her mouth quirks, some of the tension in her face easing for the first time today.
âCareful,â she says. âHeâd probably leak your DMs and call it âevidence.ââ
âI donât DM clowns,â I mutter. âIâm talking about helping the narrative.â
She raises both brows. âGo on, mid king.â
I take a breath. My heart does an unnecessary little crit in my chest.
âIf we were⊠publicly together,â I say, choosing each word like itâs a skillshot, âpeople would stop buying the narrative that youâre still thinking about him.â
Silence.
She blinks once.
Twice.
Then she laughs.
Actually laughs. A short, sharp burst that startles both of us, her shoulders shaking slightly as she drops her head for a second.
âWonwoo,â she says, wiping the corner of her eye with her thumb. âYou want to pretend-date me to fix PR?â
When she says it out loud, it sounds incredibly stupid.
I shift my weight from one foot to the other. âWhen you say it out loud, it sounds stupid.â
âThatâs because it is stupid,â she says.
âI know.â
Thereâs a beat where I can feel the idea hovering between us like a dangerous buff.
Her gaze turns thoughtful. She leans back, studying my face like sheâs trying to see if Iâll flinch.
âYouâd do that?â she asks. âKnowing how your fans are? Knowing SEVENTH HEAVENâs brand? Knowing my channel is literally built on me talking shit about drafts for money?â
âYes,â I say. Too fast. Too sure.
Her eyes search my face. I hold still.
âYouâd deal with our comments section?â
âI already do,â I say. âI see everything people tag us in.â
She snorts softly. âCondolences.â
âYouâd let me flame you if you grief lane?â she pushes.
âYou already do that too,â I say. âYou called my Azir pick âan act of spiritual warfareâ last split.â
She huffs a laugh. âIt was.â
We look at each other.
Both of us know this is insane.
Both of us also know it might work.
âGround rules,â she says finally, sitting up straighter, business mode snapping into place. âNo real feelings. Public-facing only. We control the narrative; they react to us. The second it stops being useful or comfortable, we stop.â
Thereâs a weird pinch in my chest at âno real feelings.â
I ignore it.
Like an idiot.
âObviously,â I say.
We shake on it.
Her hand is warm. Steady. Like sheâs shaking on a contract she intends to honor, not a joke.
I walk away telling myself itâs just a strategy patch. A meta adjustment. A tool.
Deep down, something knows Iâm lying.
The fake dating meta drops Week 1.
We take one backstage picture. One.
Itâs after a scrim. Everyoneâs half-dead, hair damp, jerseys wrinkled. Iâm mid-sip from a water bottle, tilting it back. Y/Nâs next to me, half-laughing at something Mingyu said off-frame, body angled slightly toward me like weâre in our own little pocket of the hallway.
She snaps it, barely looks at it, and posts it to her story.
Caption:
âCarried by my mid laner. Again.â
Tagged: @7th_wonwoo
My phone buzzes once. Twice. Then becomes a grenade.
I donât even have to look at the team to know whatâs happening.
âYAAAAAAAAH!â Seungkwan screams from across the room, waving his phone over his head like itâs on fire. âYOUâRE DONE. ITâS OVER FOR YOU. RIP MID KING. WE HAD A GOOD RUN.â
Mingyu barrels into me full force, nearly knocking the bottle from my hand. He grabs my shoulders and shakes me like a malfunctioning monitor. âCAN I BE YOUR FLOWER BOY AT THE WEDDING? I HAVE THE TALENT. I HAVE THE RANGE.â
Vernon glances up from his screen, calm as ever. âYouâre going to get clipped in every compilation for the next decade,â he says. âTry not to look constipated.â
From the corner, Seungcheol: âTF is this.â
Our manager appears at the door, eyes wide. âWhy is our engagement rate spikingââ
I want to sink into the floor.
Instead, I unlock my phone, open her story, double-tap it, and repost with one simple caption:
âAnalyst diff.â
If Iâm going down, Iâm going down clean.
The comments go feral within minutes.
âPARENTS?????â
âTHIS IS MY NEW FAVORITE SHIP I DONâT CARE IF ITâS REAL OR NOT.â
âNO ONE TALK TO ME IâM BUSY SOBBING OVER THIS.â
âHE SMILED. Y/N WE EATING GOOD TONIGHT.â
Theyâre not wrong. I am smiling a little. Which is rude of my face.
In the corner of the room, I hear furious tapping.
âGroup chat time,â Seungkwan mutters. âThis is emergency content.â
He makes a new GC right in front of me. I can see the name over his shoulder.
[GC: WONWOO & HIS WIFE (NO INPUT FROM HIM)]
Members:
â Seungkwan
â Mingyu
â Vernon
â Seungcheol (added against his will)
He starts spamming screenshots of the story and my repost.
Seungkwan: MID KING IS A LOVER BOY CONFIRMED
Mingyu: I CALLED IT. ENERGY NEVER LIES
Vernon: ship name ideas?
Seungkwan: WONY/N. Y/NWOO. IâM WORKSHOPPING IT
Seungcheol: Please focus
Seungkwan: FOCUS ON THE FACT THAT OUR MID HAS A GIRLFRIEND
I mute the chat.
They add me back in.
I mute it again.
We do a short interview for a regional channel later.
The host smiles too wide. âSo, fans are wonderingââ he says, turning the mic toward us, âare you two⊠actually dating?â
Y/N crosses one leg over the other and smiles sweetly, like sheâs about to ruin someone on air.
âDefine dating,â she says.
I choke on my own breath.
She continues smoothly. âWe spend time together,â she says. âWe talk about drafts. He listens when I say his mid-game is scuffed. Thatâs commitment.â
The host laughs awkwardly. âSo⊠youâre⊠official?â
She leans just a bit closer to my shoulder. I feel the warmth of her, the faint brush of her sleeve against my arm. âWeâre in the same patch,â she says. âThatâs all youâre getting from me.â
Back at the base, the segment gets clipped, edited, put to dramatic music and heart emojis. SEVENTH HEAVENâs social media manager is one meltdown away from a nervous breakdown. Our metrics skyrocket.
I catch her watching the clip later, smirking at the comments.
âYouâre trending,â I say.
âWeâre trending,â she corrects. âCongratulations, boyfriend.â
My brain error codes for a full three seconds at the word.
Later, she releases a thirty-minute video titled:
âTEACHING MY âBOYFRIENDâ HOW TO EXPRESS HUMAN EMOTION (NO, SERIOUSLY)â
The thumbnail is me looking confused while she points at a whiteboard that says:
âFEELINGS â FF @15â
She plays old interviews of me.
âThere,â she says, pausing one, zooming in on my deadpan expression. âThatâs a man who just answered a perfectly normal question like someone asked him to confess tax fraud.â
Her chat spams laughing emotes, crying emotes, hearts.
She adds, âIn his defense, heâs very good at League and very bad at eye contact. Weâre working on it.â
I watch the video.
I should be embarrassed.
Instead, my stupid heart feels⊠lighter.
Like the weight of being âMVP,â âstone-faced mid king,â âemotionless robotâ has been turned into a bit weâre both in on, instead of a cage Iâm stuck in.
Week 2, she starts coming to scrims.
âFor content,â she tells Seungcheol.
âFor intel,â she tells me with a smirk.
âFor drama,â Seungkwan whispers loudly.
She sits behind us with her tablet and a notebook, jotting down timestamps and notes. Sometimes she mutters to herself. Sometimes she mutters about us to herself.
âThe way you said âmuttersâ is hurtful,â she comments once without looking up.
Iâm not sure if she read my face or my soul.
The first time she speaks up during review, weâre watching one of our messier games. One of those scrims where we win, but ugly.
âPause,â she says from behind me.
Our analyst hits spacebar immediately. Heâs as curious as we are now; no one ignores a Y/N âpause.â
She walks up, stands beside me, close enough that I can feel the brush of her hoodie against my arm, and points at the minimap. Her perfume is faintâvanilla, something warm.
âYou had priority mid and bot,â she says, âbut you drifted toward river, hesitated, then backed off. Why?â
I follow her finger on the screen.
âIf I hard-commit, their jungler can flash in from fog,â I say. âI didnât have vision on top river, and TP advantage was theirs. We couldâve gotten collapsed on and lost the whole fight.â
âSo you backed for vision?â
âI backed because the risk wasnât worth the reward yet,â I say. âRenekton had item spike. If we throw there, we lose tempo and they get dragon for free.â
She studies the screen. Then me.
âThe casters said you played scared there,â she says. âThey were wrong. You played patient. Youâre not a coin-flip mid.â
I blink.
Behind us, Seungkwan makes a soft offended sound. âAND WHAT ABOUT MEââ
âYouâre a casino, you donât get to talk,â she says, without looking at him.
He gasps theatrically. âIâM SENDING THAT TO MY THERAPIST.â
Everyone laughs.
The review moves on. I try to pay attention, but part of my mind replays one line on a loop:
âYouâre not a coin-flip mid.â
It shouldnât hit as hard as it does.
It does anyway.
Later, in the hallway, I hear her ex talking to another manager.
âI mean, of course sheâd hype him,â he scoffs. âSheâs clinging to the âgenius midâ narrative to stay relevant. She always attaches herself to someone.â
I feel my hands curl into fists.
I donât confront him.
Yet.
But the jealousy is a hot, unpleasant knot in my chest. Not because I think she likes him.
Because he still dares to talk about her like that. And because I hate that part of her career is constantly cleaning up after his ego.
The almost-kiss happens at the end of Week 2.
Everyone else has gone home. The building is quiet in that echoing, late-night way where you can hear your own thoughts too clearly.
We stay back to review one more VOD because I asked, and she said yes too quickly.
Sheâs beside me, both of us standing in front of the projected screen, the room lit only by the bluish light from the replay. Itâs one of our better games this time, but she pauses at a mid-game fight anyway.
âHere,â she says. âThis moment. You know youâre stronger. You know you win if you go in. You hesitate anyway.â
I squint at my tiny champion on the screen. Hesitating. Stutter-stepping around the edge of a fight I could have blown open.
âI was tracking flank TP,â I say. âIf I go too early and they collapse, we lose.â
âYou were also tracking Seungkwanâs position,â she says. âYou hesitated because you were waiting to see if he survived. You always hesitate when youâre protecting someone.â
I go silent.
She glances up at me, eyes reflecting map colors. Closer than I realized. Little pixels of blue and purple flicker over her skin.
âItâs not a bad thing,â she says, softer now. âIt just means you care.â
My throat feels tight.
The projector hums.
My pulse feels louder than the fan.
Then the timer on the projector hits whatever mark it was set to and shuts off with an audible click.
The room is plunged into dim dark.
Weâre still standing close.
I can just barely see her silhouette, the faint outline of her face, the glimmer of her glasses catching the exit signâs glow. Her perfume is subtle but suddenly itâs the only thing I can smell.
âGuess thatâs our cue,â she says quietly.
She doesnât move.
Neither do I.
My brain runs calculations I donât have names for.
Risk vs reward.
Game vs everything else.
Do I step back?
Turn on the projector?
Say goodnight?
Or do I lean in?
âDo you want the lights back on?â I ask, voice lower than I expect.
âDo you?â she echoes.
I donât.
I turn slightly, facing her fully. She tilts her head up in the dark, like sheâs meeting me halfway already.
The air between us feels thin.
I lean in.
She leans in too.
Her breath brushes my lips.
Her hand moves, reaching, fingers just barely brushing my wrist in a touch so light it makes my skin sparkâ
The door slams open.
âYo, I brought raââ
Vernon stops dead.
He stands there in the doorway with two convenience-store ramen cups and the haunted look of a man who opened the wrong door in a horror game.
We freeze.
He freezes.
The silence is so heavy I can hear the boiling broth in those cups.
Vernon makes the slowest, most respectful retreat Iâve ever seen, backing out and closing the door as gently as he can like if he moves too fast, reality will notice.
Silence crashes back down.
My face is on fire.
Hers is a shadow, but I can hear the way her breath catches, then steadies.
âWe should⊠review pathing tomorrow,â she says, voice very carefully neutral, like the last thirty seconds didnât just detonate both our nervous systems.
âYeah.â
We leave together.
We donât talk about it.
But when I get home and check the team GC, thereâs one new message from Vernon:
Vernon: I almost died tonight
No context.
I throw my phone on the bed and stare at the ceiling.
I think about it constantly.
Week 3 is when everything fractures.
Her ex escalates. Of course he does.
He files a formal complaint to the league, saying sheâs âtoo emotionally involvedâ to cover our matches and his fairly. Claims sheâs âcompromised.â Uses big words and bigger lies. Drops words like âconflict of interestâ and âunprofessional attachment,â conveniently leaving out the part where heâs the one who canât move on.
I hear about it from our manager first. From the legal team second. From chat third.
From her last.
By the time I find her, sheâs half-sitting on a crate backstage, one leg bouncing, scrolling through emails with a blank face that I now recognize as âone millimeter away from snapping and still holding it together.â
âIs it true?â I ask.
âThat my ex is weaponizing professionalism to try to silence me?â she says dryly, eyes still on the screen. âYeah.â
âYouâre notââ I search for the word, ââfurious?â
She exhales slowly.
âIâm tired,â she says. âFury is expensive.â
Something in my chest twists.
I stand there in front of her, helpless, hands hanging uselessly by my sides.
âWe can say something,â I blurt. âSEVENTH HEAVEN. We can back you publicly. Or I can. I can talk in interviews. I canââ
âWonwoo,â she cuts in gently. âFinals are in three days.â
âAnd youâre being attacked now,â I snap.
She finally looks up.
Her gaze is sharp at firstâdefensive, tired. Then it softens. Just barely.
âI appreciate it,â she says. âI do. But if you throw your focus away on my battles, then he wins twice. He gets to mess with me and ruin your season. Iâm not giving him that.â
She stands, stretching her legs, rolling her shoulders like sheâs easing armor into place.
âFor once in my life, I want my presence near a team to be the reason they succeed,â she says quietly. âNot the excuse for why they fell apart.â
That hits me harder than anything sheâs said on stream.
Because I get it. Too well.
How many times have analysts blamed âoutside noiseâ when a team chokes? How many times have they implied it was a girlfriend, a fight, a distraction? How many times would people love to blame her for any mistake we make because itâs easier than admitting we messed up alone?
âIâm notââ I start.
âPlease,â she says.
Just that.
Please.
I shut my mouth.
She walks off. Back straight. Shoulders squared.
I feel like I failed some hidden objective.
In the GC, a few hours later:
Seungkwan: I WILL BITE THAT MAN
Mingyu: which man
Seungkwan: PICK ONE
Vernon: donât get banned
Seungcheol: Practice in 10. Be on time.
Seungkwan: YES DAD
My gameplay dips.
Not spectacularly. Not enough for the average viewer to notice.
But Seungcheol notices.
He always does.
He pulls me into the review room after one particularly messy scrim.
No one else. Just us, the glowing screen, and too many paused replays.
He queues up a series of clips, mid-game moments where I shouldâve taken an angle and didnât. Fights where I played too safe. Calls I didnât make.
âWhatâs this?â he asks.
âCaution,â I say.
âFear,â he corrects.
I fold my arms. âItâs finals. Iâm allowed to be careful.â
âThis isnât careful,â he says. âThis is you trying to play two games at once. One on stage, one in your head.â
He looks at me steadily. âIs this still fake?â
The question hangs there.
The correct answer is âyes.â
I donât give it.
I say nothing.
He sighs, but itâs not annoyed. Itâs more like heâs adjusting a strap thatâs digging in.
âYou care about her,â he says. âFine. Good. Thatâs not a weakness. But you donât trust her right now.â
âThatâs not true,â I say sharply.
âIf you did, you wouldnât be playing like sheâll break the second you stop looking,â he says. âSheâs not glass. Sheâs probably stronger than half the orgs in this region.â
Heâs right.
Of course heâs right.
âShe doesnât need you to fall apart to prove you care,â he says more softly. âShe needs you to win. If you love how sheâs always honest, then be honest with yourself too.â
The word love hangs in the air like a bugged tooltip Iâm not ready to click on.
I look away.
He claps me on the shoulder. âFix it,â he says simply.
I try.
It goes⊠medium.
The fake break-up happens the day before finals.
Our PR teams coordinate. Statements approved, wording checked, timings synced.
We both post the same thingâclean, polite, distant.
âWith finals and projects coming up, we decided itâs best to focus on our careers right now. We still respect and support each other. Please donât send hate.â
Fans wail.
âMY PARENTS BROKE UP đâ
âI KNEW IT WAS PR BUT IT STILL HURTSâ
âHOLD ON I NEED TO LOG OFF AND TOUCH GRASSâ
In the GC, itâs worse.
Seungkwan: IâM AT THE DIVORCE OF THE CENTURY
Mingyu: I feel like I should get visiting rights
Vernon: joint custody of the streams
Seungcheol: All of you. Enough.
In person, itâs not clean at all.
We meet in a quiet corridor, just out of view of the main staircase, away from cameras and mics and anyone who might turn this into content.
Sheâs in a simple black hoodie, hair in a low ponytail. No glasses. No makeup beyond a hint of eyeliner. She looks tired. And beautiful. And tired again.
âThis is probably for the best,â she says, arms folded loosely in front of her. Her voice is steady. Her eyes are not.
âYeah,â I say. âFor focus.â
Her mouth twists faintly. âRight. Focus.â
Thereâs an ache under my ribs I donât have a name for.
I want to say, I donât actually want to break up with you, even pretend-wise.
I donât say it.
âGood luck,â she offers instead, forcing a small smile. âIâll still roast your draft if itâs bad.â
âIâd be disappointed if you didnât,â I say.
She smiles at that. Small. Real. A flicker of what we had when this was just a joke and not a line weâre both suddenly scared to cross.
Then she nods once and walks past me.
She smells faintly of coffee and vanilla.
I stand there in the empty corridor, phone buzzing in my pocket with notifications about a breakup that isnât even real, and try to breathe around the stupid, heavy feeling in my chest.
For something fake, it feels a lot like getting dumped.
Finals.
The arena is a riot of noise and light.
SEVENTH HEAVEN vs Silver Aegis.
Storylines stacked on storylines: revenge matches, redemption arcs, narratives about discipline vs ego, about âboys vs men,â about âthis might be their last run with this roster.â
I sit at my PC. Adjust my mouse. Flex my fingers. The keyboard is familiar and foreign at once.
I should only be thinking about one thing: the game.
But sheâs in my head.
Not him.
Her.
The way her voice sounded last night in that video.
âThe Truth About This âNarrativeâ | My Story.â
She didnât use his name in the title. She didnât need to.
I watched it alone at my desk, lights off, hood up like I could hide from how hard it hit.
She laid it all out. Calm. Precise. No theatrics.
Screenshots. Emails. A timeline of behavior that went from âbarely acceptableâ to âyou need a lawyerâ so gradually that you could almost miss how bad it got unless you saw it stitched together like that.
She added context. Admitted where she stayed longer than she should have. Never painted herself as perfect. Never weaponized tears.
She didnât rant. Didnât drag. Didnât perform.
âThis isnât about a breakup,â sheâd said, looking straight into the camera. âIâve made mistakes. Iâve stayed where I shouldnât. But this is about professionalism. About boundaries. About weaponizing narratives to silence criticism. If you want to say you donât like my analysis, say that. Donât rewrite history to make me your villain.â
At the end, sheâd looked almost tired. But steady.
âIâm not thinking about you,â sheâd said. âYouâre the one telling that story. Iâm done being part of it.â
Sheâd posted it. Turned off monetization. Pinned it.
Then gone to sleep.
By morning, it was #1 on trending.
The league announced an investigation. Silver Aegis rushed out a statement about âtaking allegations seriously.â His socials went suspiciously quiet.
She still went to work. Still showed up as an analyst for the finals.
Of course she did.
So now Iâm here, on stage, hands hovering over my keyboard, with her words lodged somewhere under my ribs like a new, sharp truth.
We draft.
We load in.
For the first fifteen minutes, the game feels like synchronicity.
Mingyuâs pathing is clean, sneaking vision deep where they donât expect it. Vernonâs roams are surgical. Seungcheol absorbs pressure top like he was born under a turret. Seungkwan positions aggressively but controlled, that thin line between âcarryâ and âthrowâ walked with terrifying elegance.
I track everything.
Timers. Lane states. Summoners. Flashes. Ult CDs. Enemy mental.
And then, during a short lull in action, the broadcast cuts to the analyst and press section.
I see her.
Headset on. Professional outfit. Tablet in hand. Eyes glued to the screens in front of her. She looks composed, clean-lined, like the Y/N that first burned herself into my brain through a monitor.
Then I see him.
He shouldnât even be near her. The league told him to keep his distance until the investigation wraps. But there he is, hovering just behind the analyst row, leaning on fake casualness like itâs a crutch.
He moves behind her chair. Too close.
He leans down, says something near her ear. I canât hear it, but I can see his mouth curl on one side.
Her shoulders stiffen. She leans slightly away.
Just a little.
Like sheâs refusing to give him more of a reaction than that.
My hand forgets to move.
My champion takes an unnecessary hit.
âWonwoo,â Seungcheolâs voice snaps in my ears. âFocus.â
I blink, jarred, and re-center myself. We recover the play. Barely.
The crowd doesnât know what happened. The casters chalk it up to âa rare misstep from the mid laner.â
I know exactly why it happened.
I want to get up and drag him away from her by the collar.
Instead, I kite a wave and call for a reset.
Time-out is called a few minutes later for a tech issue. A reset request from their side.
We head backstage.
The second our headsets are off, I feel a hand clamp onto my arm and drag me to the side.
âWhat was that?â Seungcheol says, eyes sharp. Not angry. Focused.
I rub the back of my neck. âHe was in her space.â
âAnd?â he says.
âAnd Iââ I stop. Try again. âI hate it.â
âYeah,â he says. âSo does she.â
He looks me dead in the eye.
âShe can handle him,â he says. âShe has been handling him this whole time. You not trusting that? Thatâs the real insult.â
I go quiet.
He lets that land, then pushes once more.
âYou donât get to turn her into something fragile just because you care,â he adds. âSheâs not your early-game lane to babysit. Sheâs her own late-game monster.â
A sharp, unwilling laugh punches out of me. âThatâs one way to put it.â
âItâs the true way,â he says. âYou want to help her? Win. Make sure the story tonight is âSEVENTH HEAVEN stompedâ and not âY/N ruined them.â She already set fire to his narrative with that video. Donât burn your own for free.â
Heâs right.
Of course heâs right.
Again.
I inhale slowly. Exhale.
âOkay,â I say.
In the corner, Mingyu is pacing.
âHeâs so dead, bro,â he mutters. âDid you watch the video? That was a clean 3â0 callout. Heâs gonna come back with a Notes app apology.â
Seungkwan is leaning against a water cooler, phone in hand, reading comments. âChat calling him âgaslight gank mainâ is sending me,â he says. âAlso, someone edited your face over her shoulder in the thumbnail. Not sure how to feel about that.â
Vernon looks up from his own phone. âVideo hit ten million views,â he says. âMostly support. Some trolls. But the narrative flipped.â
âGood,â I say.
âAlso,â he adds, âyour name is in the top ten related searches now.â
I grimace.
âCelebrity boyfriend era,â Seungkwan sings. âYou better not fumble.â
âCan we focus?â I say.
Seungcheol claps his hands once. âAll right,â he cuts through. âReset. We fix the early mistakes, punish their overconfidence, and we finish this. Got it?â
âGot it,â we chorus.
We go back on stage.
This time, when the broadcast cuts to her, I donât flinch.
I see her, headset on, posture straight, eyes sharp. A quick graphic flashes on screen:
âSpecial Analyst: Y/N â Hextech Hot Takesâ
Itâs surreal seeing her brand under the league logo.
She looks calm. Untouchable.
In my chest, the jealousy cools down, turned into something else: pride.
Game three starts.
This time, my hands donât shake.
I stop thinking about whatâs happening off-stage.
I think about the game.
Our comp.
My reads.
My team.
We play clean.
We play mean.
We play like SEVENTH HEAVEN.
Mingyu secures every crucial objective like a man possessed. He steals one Baron with a Q-Smite combo so disgusting even the opposing crowd groans.
Vernon hits impossible engages that crack their comp open. Twice he finds their ADC through fog, and I follow up without thinking.
Seungkwan turns into a pentakill waiting to happen. He doesnât get it, but every fight feels like itâs three autos and one crit away.
Seungcheol leads calls like a general. Calm, firm, exact. âWe donât need to chase. Take tower. Reset. Breathe.â
I see the windows, and I donât hesitate.
I go.
I trust myself.
I trust them.
I trust her too, weirdly, even though sheâs not in the game. I trust that while Iâm doing my job here, sheâs doing hers out there, and I donât have to fix her world for her. Weâre playing different maps, but weâre on the same side.
We win.
The nexus explodes in a bloom of color.
Our logo flashes across the screen.
The crowd detonates into shouting, confetti, songs, chants.
Weâre champions.
People are hugging me.
Someoneâs yelling in my ear.
Mingyuâs got me in a headlock, yelling something incoherent about âWORLD BUFFSâ and âFIRST ROUND MY TREAT.â
Seungkwan is sobbing into a SEVENTH HEAVEN flag, tears mixing with glitter. âWE DID IT, YOU EMOTIONALLY REPRESSED KING!â he bawls. âYOU DESERVE LOVE AND A GOOD SLEEP SCHEDULE!â
Vernon is laughing, breathless, eyes crinkled. âWe actually did it,â he keeps repeating like he doesnât believe it.
Seungcheol has that rare, almost private smile on his face, the one he only lets slip when something truly lands. âGood work,â he says, pulling us into a group hug whether we want it or not.
Through all of it, a thought cuts through the noise like a clean objective ping.
Find her.
I scan every visible corner of the stadium. The analyst desk. The press section. The green room door.
I donât see her.
âGo,â Mingyu says suddenly, releasing me and giving me a shove towards the tunnel.
I stumble. âWhat?â
âGo find her,â he says. âWeâll stall.â
âI have mediaââ
âWeâll tell them youâre overheating,â Vernon says.
âYou are overheating,â Seungkwan adds, fanning me with a towel. âYour ears are the color of infernal drake. Also, if you donât go, I will.â
âIâll bench you,â Seungcheol says mildly.
Itâs unclear who heâs talking to.
Probably all of us.
I donât wait to find out.
I run.
The city outside is cooler, quieter, but my head is loud.
I donât check my phone. I donât check socials.
The little one with the wobbly chairs and too-strong ramyun. Where I first saw her in person and did nothing.
I spot her through the window first.
Same corner table by the glass. Laptop open. Hoodie on. Hair down, half-tucked behind one ear. A half-finished drink next to her, condensation dripping slowly down the plastic.
Her expression is relaxed for the first time in weeks. Thereâs still a faint tightness around her eyes, but she looks more like herself.
I push the door open.
The bell chimes.
She looks up.
For a moment, we just stare at each other.
âYouâre supposed to be on a stage somewhere covered in confetti,â she says.
âI did that already,â I say, stepping closer. âConfettiâs overrated.â
She huffs a little laugh. âHow does it feel? Champion?â
âStrange,â I say honestly. âGood. Loud. AlsoâŠâ
I trail off.
She waits.
âIncomplete,â I finish.
Her brows lift. âIncomplete?â
I sit down across from her. The chair wobbles a little. I steady it with my foot.
âThereâs something I didnât say,â I tell her. âAnd if I donât say it now, Iâm going to be thinking about it during every interview, every stream, every solo queue game until I lose my mind.â
She closes her laptop halfway, her full attention switching to me.
âAll right,â she says softly. âSay it.â
I take a breath.
âThe fake dating,â I start, âstopped being fake for me a long time ago.â
Her fingers still on the edge of the laptop.
âAt first, it was strategy,â I say. âSmart. Clean. Efficient. It helped kill the narrative and boosted both our platforms. It was about controlling the story.â
I swallow, throat dry.
âThen you started coming to scrims,â I continue. âSitting behind me in review. Roasting my interviews with love, not content. Watching my VODs and seeing things in my play that even I hadnât fully articulated.â
Her eyes stay locked on mine.
âLast night, I watched you post a video that couldâve blown up your career,â I say. âYou told the truth anyway. You chose clarity over comfort. Thatâs⊠who you are. You donât weaponize the narrative. You straighten it.â
The words come easier now.
âI like you,â I say. âNot the idea of you. You. The way your brain works. The way you refuse to punch down. The way you tell the truth even when it hurts. The way you looked at me on that VOD and said, âYouâre not a coin flip.â I havenât been able to stop thinking about that since.â
A breath, shaky.
âI thought I could keep it fake,â I admit. âI was wrong.â
Silence.
For a second, I think Iâve misplayed my entire life.
Then she exhales, very softly.
âGood,â she says.
I blink. ââŠgood?â
âYouâre finally caught up,â she says.
My confusion must be obvious, because she smilesâsmall and a bit disbelieving, like sheâs surprised sheâs saying this out loud.
âI wasnât thinking about him,â she says. âNot once. Not really.â
My chest tightens.
âEveryone kept asking if I was bitter, obsessed, out for revenge,â she goes on. âBut I was thinking about you. About SEVENTH HEAVEN. About how this mess would bleed into your games, your focus, your mental. About how it would feel for you to have my entire drama pinned to your name, when all you ever did was exist near me.â
I stare at her.
âYou cared more about my mental than his storyline,â I say quietly.
âObviously,â she scoffs. âHe doesnât have any mental to protect.â
It makes me laugh, sharp and helpless, some tight knot finally loosening.
She leans forward, elbows on the table.
âI like you too, you idiot,â she says. âHave you not noticed me risking my subscriber base to publicly thirst over your gameplay?â
I blink. âYouâwhat?â
âI literally called your flanks âartâ in my last analysis,â she says. âDo you know how feral my chat gets when I praise you? I had to delete four edits. Four.â
Something in my chest expands, painful and light all at once.
I stand.
She does too.
We meet halfway around the table, space between us suddenly small, charged in a new way thatâs not pretend, not scripted, not for anyone else.
Up close, I can see the faint smudges under her eyes, the way her lips tilt when sheâs trying not to grin too wide.
My hand hovers for a second.
âCan I?â I ask.
âYou better,â she says.
Thatâs all the permission I need.
I cup her jaw gently.
She slides her hands up my hoodie, fingers curling at the back of my neck.
We kiss.
Itâs not cinematic. Our noses bump. Someone in the back snorts. My heart is beating so loud Iâm pretty sure she can feel it through my chest.
But itâs real.
Warm and steady and grounding in a way no win, no trophy, no title has ever been.
When we pull back, weâre both slightly breathless.
âTell Seungkwan heâs not allowed to monetize this,â she murmurs.
âHe already has,â I say. âIn his mind. There are probably emotes.â
She laughs, the sound soft and bright and alive.
âLet him,â she says. âAs long as we get to write the patch notes.â
âDeal,â I say.
She brushes a thumb over the corner of my mouth, gaze dropping to my lips again.
âCome here, champion,â she says.
I do.
And for once, Iâm not thinking about the game.
Just⊠us.
Finally.
A few weeks later, she sets a camera down on the table between us and says, âOkay. No backing out. Weâre doing this.â
âHey guys,â she says, voice slipping into that familiar intro cadence, but softer somehow. âWelcome back to Hextech Hot Takes, but todayâs episode is⊠different.â
She glances at me, grin tugging at her mouth.
âToday,â she announces, âIâm finally filming my FIRST REAL DATE VLOG.â
She flips the viewfinder so weâre both in frame. I raise a hand in a small, awkward wave.
âHi,â I say. Smooth as always.
âThis is Jeon Wonwoo,â she tells the camera. âMid laner for SEVENTH HEAVEN. Previously known as my âfake boyfriendâ slash shield against nonsense narratives.â
âAnd currently?â I ask.
She bumps her shoulder into mine. âCurrently known as my real boyfriend,â she says. âWho is going to let me interview him on this date and not run away.â
âI agreed to this under duress,â I inform the lens.
âYou agreed to this because you love me,â she corrects.
My ears heat up. âDonât say that on camera.â
âToo late,â she chirps. âClip it, chat.â
There is no chat, but I know there will be later.
We film.
She asks me stupid questions like, âWhen did you realize you liked me?â (I lie and say âsomewhere around Week 2,â not âthe first time you roasted my Azir on YouTube.â)
I ask her questions like, âWhen did you realize you liked me?â (She says, âWhen you didnât argue with me calling your draft grief, you just said âIâll do better.â That was hot.â I have no response to that.)
We eat. We tease. She makes me rate the ramen like itâs a champion skin. I call it âLegendary-tier.â She dabs broth off my chin with a napkin while the cameraâs still rolling.
Later, she edits the footage with her usual chaotic precision. Cuts away right as Iâm about to say something too soft. Adds dumb captions over my face like:
âMID KING, SOFT BOY EDITIONâ
The video goes up on her channel a few days after that.
âFIRST REAL DATE VLOG (ft. SEVENTH HEAVENâS MID LANER)â
The views climb fast.
I scroll through the comments, half-dreading, half-curious.
Fan edits. Capslocked screaming. People saying things like âTHERAPY IS CURED.â
And pinned at the very top, with a little blue check next to the username:
SEVENTH HEAVEN â SEUNGKWAN:
âhe better treat u right queen đ€ if he doesnât iâll steal him and treat BOTH of us rightâ
Vernon replied under it:
âthis is a threat and a promiseâ
Mingyu added:
âi was the flower boy in this relationship from the startâ
And from the official team account, clearly hijacked by our captain for thirty seconds:
SEVENTH HEAVEN â OFFICIAL:
âAs long as both of you are happy and we still win, this is captain-approved.â â S.Coups
She screenshots the comments and sends them to me with:
âyour team is insane.â
I reply:
âyeah. but they were right about one thing.â
âwhat?â
âi really do have to treat you right.â
âgood answer, mid king.â
The next time she hits record, thereâs no fake label to hide behind. No âpretend.â No âfor the narrative.â
Everybody thought that you and Kwon Soonyoung were a foregone conclusion, but then he had to go and change the ending. Six years after the breakup, he decides to come home for the holidaysâ and now, youâre stuck between your pride, his dreams, and the road not taken. âTis the damn season, indeed.
àšà§ pairing: dance studio ceo!soonyoung x lawyer!f!reader.
àšà§ genre/warnings: hurt/comfort, angst, romance. alternate universe: non-idol. mentions of food, alcohol consumption, swearing/cussing. post-breakup dynamics and quarter-life crises. high school lovers to exes. law terms. spiteful reader. rated T for languages and themes. title and synopsis shamelessly reference taylor swift's t'is the damn season.
àšà§ word count: 16.6k
àšà§ footnotes: this is part of @camandemstudios's winter with you collaboration! ÂŽâĄ` thank you so much for trusting me with soonyoung. also eternally grateful to @shinwonderful and @biniaiahs for beta reading. may revisit this to do edits in the future, but for now, we settle.
in the words of a, i am the 'harbringer of doom and angst.' happy holidays, everyone! + tag list in the comments.
âË đđËâ winter with you masterlist â my masterlist â the official babe for the weekend playlist.
This has to be the universeâs idea of a joke.Â
Itâs like the time your professor refused to round up your grade in college and you almost got set back a semester. Or that one day at work, where the forecast said it would be sunnyâ only for you to get caught in a downpour on your way home.Â
The universe had to be an aspiring amateur comedian, because why else would Kwon Soonyoung be in front of you right now?Â
âWhat?â Soonyoung chirps. âNo âhelloâ for your favorite ex?âÂ
Six years. Itâs been six years since you last saw each other, and those are the opening words he decides to go with.Â
Youâre torn between smacking him upside on the head and strangling him. Maybe both, you muse, as you survey the ways heâs changed over time.Â
His hair is blonde now. His once-pale skin is a little more tan. Andâ as much as you loathe to admit itâ he looks more fit. You can vaguely make out the muscles straining underneath his casual wear.
Dancerâs build, you begrudgingly concede.
When Soonyoung calls you out in a bid to snap you out of your daydream, you physically flinch. Your name still rolls right off his tongue like honey. You donât have the right to call me that, a small, bitter voice says in the back of your mind. You donât have the right to talk to me at all.Â
âHellooo,â he sing-songs, waving one of his palms inches away from your face. âDid you have a stroke or something?âÂ
That prompts you to speak.
After all that time, your first words to Soonyoung in six years are cold and curt: âGet out.âÂ
A corner of Soonyoungâs mouth twitches upward. The infuriating bastard. He probably anticipated a reaction like this from you.Â
He straightens until he can shove his hands into the pockets of his winter coat. âI donât see any signs that say Iâm not allowed to be here,â he says. âDid I miss it?âÂ
He makes a whole show of looking around your familyâs restaurant. A part of you is grateful that youâre the only one on todayâs shift; your parents wouldâve undoubtedly had over-the-top reactions to Soonyoungâs sudden reappearance. Itâs only through years of conditioning that youâve learned to keep your reactions under control, even when the world throws you curveballs such as these.Â
Your expression is perfectly blank as you dryly note, âThereâs a sign out on the front, actually.âÂ
âOh? Really?âÂ
âYeah. No strays allowed.âÂ
Soonyoung shakes his head. âBrutal,â he says, but thereâs still that hint of a smile on his face. Â
If you strained your ears, you might hear the trace of affection in his tone. The thought of itâ of Soonyoung holding any sort of fondness for youâ makes you want to scream.Â
You manage to tamp that urge in favor of jerking your head towards the front door of the restaurant. âOut,â you repeat, your gaze briefly flickering to the CCTV in the corner of the store.Â
Your father would probably kill you if he found out you were turning someone away. A supposed family friend, at that. But this wasnât just a customer, and you werenât sure if you could still call Soonyoung a friend, and itâs been six years, damn it.
âIs that any way to treat a customer?â Soonyoung goads.
âYouâre not a customer.âÂ
âYou havenât given me the chance to be.âÂ
âThatâs because youâre not welcome here.âÂ
âItâs pretty bad for business thatââÂ
That wasnât going to fly. You werenât about to take business advice from Kwon Soonyoung of all people.Â
One minute, youâre behind the counter with your hands clenched into fists. The next, youâve closed the space between you and Soonyoung. He falters as you approach, looking almost like heâs holding his breath.Â
Itâs not a slap that greets him. Most definitely not a hug, either.Â
Instead, one of your hands dart out until youâve got a firm grip on his ear.
Soonyoung is still taller than you, but he folds over at your rough tug. âOw, ow, ow!â he screeches, his own hands flying out of his pockets in a futile attempt to either push you off or shield himself.Â
In his split second of indecision, you manage to haul him back over to the entrance. Because you had been manning the fort, you hadnât even noticed that it had started to snow. The first of the year.Â
You donât have the time to appreciate it. Your focus is entirely on channeling your energy to shove Soonyoung out of the restaurant. He stumbles out on the sidewalk where he rubs his offended ear with a scandalized expression on his face.
A lesser man might have snapped back, might have demanded an explanation for being manhandled so shamelessly. To your sheer annoyance, Soonyoung only laughs.Â
Itâs a full-bodied sound, one that practically bounces off the street. He laughs, and he laughs, and he laughs, clutching at his stomach like this is the funniest thing in the world.Â
Remember how, earlier, you thought you might scream? Now, you truly almost do. Because the years have passedâ but Soonyoung still laughs exactly the same.Â
You donât stick around to find out if you do end up yelling. Instead, you march right back into the restaurant with your chin jut up in a show of confidence. You can hear him trying to choke out words between his laughing fit, something akin to, âHey, waitâ,â but youâre not about to hear him out.Â
Not today, not ever.Â
Itâs the most satisfying feeling in the world, getting to slam the door in his face.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âI got hungry.â
--
â â tried to give me business advice! Me, business advice!âÂ
You punctuate your exclamation with a slap to your office table. Jihoon and Wonwoo are a little too familiar with your fits of passion to be surprised; Wonwoo barely looks up from his round of Block Blast, while Jihoon only shakes his head.Â
âSounds like something he would do,â Jihoon offers empathetically.
You lean back into your chair, your expression contorted into one of utter frustration. The three of you rarely meet in your office, but you had called a DEFCON 1 situation in light of recent events. Jihoon and Wonwoo lounged leisurely in front of you as you ranted your heart away for the past thirty or so minutes.Â
âWho does he think he is?â you seethe. âShowing up here unannounced!âÂ
Wonwoo pipes up. âIt wasnât unannounced.â
Jihoon silences Wonwoo with a warning glare. You can only glance between the two boys before Jihoon heaves out a sigh and admits, âWe knew that he was coming back to visit.âÂ
The look of betrayal on your face must be clear as day, because Wonwoo guiltily pauses his game to flash you a sheepish grin. âWe met up with himâ yesterday, was it?âÂ
Yesterday. âAnd you didnât tell me?!â Your voice is a little shrill and a whole lot incredulous.
Ever the pragmatic one, Jihoon quips, âYouâve always said that you want nothing to do with him. I presumed that involved knowing whether or not he was coming home.â
Damn it. Jihoon got you there.Â
Youâre not sure what you wouldâve even done, really, if youâd been given a heads up. Would you have boarded up the doors to your home? Would you have sought him out yourself in a prideful bid to maintain some twisted sort of upper hand?Â
Youâre still mulling it over when Wonwoo delicately says, âLook at the bright side. You probably wonât run into him again.â
Jihoon attempts to distract you by getting you to talk about your most recent clientâ a stubborn chicken shop significantly behind on mortgage payments. You give in, if only because you want so very badly to believe in Wonwooâs words.Â
--
You shouldâve known better, really, because of course your friends would lie to you.Â
Thatâs the only thought on your mind as you keep your eyes firmly ahead and away from the smirking blonde in your peripheral vision. Already, youâre contemplating the bodily harm youâll cause Jihoon and Wonwoo for leaving out this vital piece of information.Â
But you canât be wrathful. Not in front of the kids.Â
The gaggle of twenty-something elementary students sit cross-legged on the floor, their gazes all trained on the newcomer. Theyâre whispering excitedly among themselves, so much so that Teacher Kang has to clap more than thrice to recapture their attention.Â
âNow, everyone,â Teacher Kang announces. âDo you remember what I said about having a very special guest for today?âÂ
A high-pitched chorus of âYes, Teacher Kang,â resounds throughout the auditorium.Â
âVery good. Can we please give a warm welcome to Teacher Kangâs friend, Soonyoung?âÂ
Soonyoung makes his way to the front of the gaggle with an easy grin and a relaxed gait, like he belongs here. And maybe a part of him does. This was his turf once, too.Â
ââSoonyoungâ is a bit long, isnât it?â he says, speaking to both Teacher Kang and the kids in front of them. Itâs a small grace that he isnât calling you out just yet, though you wouldnât put him past it.Â
âEverybody!â Soonyoung proclaims. Thereâs a bit of a flourish in how he moves, how he looks down at the awe-stricken kids with a bright, wide smile. He puts up one hand to his face and bends his fingers in an imitation of a paw. âYou can call me Hoshi!â
The kids echo it back to himâ âTeacher Hoshi!â âHello, Mr. Hoshi!â âWhatâs a Hoshi?ââ while Teacher Kang only smiles fondly. For your part, you keep your expression perfectly controlled, even though youâre telepathically trying to get Soonyoung to combust.Â
Itâs one thing for him to waltz back into your life like itâs nothing. Itâs another thing for him to come around and introduce himself with the pet name you used to have for him.Â
Suddenly, youâre teenagers again, visiting the zoo on a field trip. The two of you had tried so hard to hide from your chaperones that you were holding hands in the pockets of your winter coats. In hindsight, it had been the most obvious thing in the world.Â
Soonyoung had excitedly pointed out the Bengal tigers lounging in their enclosure, and you joked about how similar he looked to them. ížëìŽì ìì . Horangi-ui siseon, the tigerâs gaze.Â
Soon after, you took to calling him Hoshi when he was on stage, when the two of you were arguing over something petty, when you wanted to be affectionate. Hoshi, letâs get ice cream today. Hoshi, take me to the library. Hoshi, I love you!
Something that was once yours alone was now everybody elseâs, too. It bothers you more than you care to admit.Â
Youâre so caught up in reminiscing that you almost miss Teacher Kang saying, âSoonyoungâ er, Hoshiâ is going to help us with the Christmas showcase. Heâs a very popular dancer in Seoul, so weâre happy to have him here.âÂ
The betrayal that rises up within you is sharp albeit short-lived. Teacher Kang didnât owe you a warning the same way that, say, Jihoon or Wonwoo mightâve. But still. Any indication at all would have been nice.Â
One of the younger studentsâ an absolute sweetheart by the name of Iseulâ tugs at your pant leg. You lean down so she can cup her little hand over your ear.Â
âDo you know Mr. Hoshi?â she whispers conspiratorially.Â
How fitting, for a five-year-old to pose the million-won question. Itâs a loaded gun of a query even though thereâs technically no right or wrong answer.Â
Of course you knew âMr. Hoshiâ. Your mothers were best friends. The two of you were in the same classes. You dated him throughout high school. You knew him well, like the back of your hand.Â
That was before he got up and left without so much of a glance over his shoulder, though.Â
You give Iseul a tight-lipped smile. âI knew him once,â you answer. Itâs not quite the truth, but it will have to do for now.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âTook a wrong turn and ended up here.âÂ
--
âAre you going to ignore me the whole time, orâŠ?âÂ
You answer Soonyoungâs prodding by ignoring him.Â
The past week has been largely uneventful, sans Soonyoungâs occasional effort to poke his nose into your business. He at least had the decency to not show up at your familyâs restaurant again, and whether or not he knows of your office is yet to be seen.Â
Your interactions with him have been largely limited to the one-hour a day that youâve dedicated to Yangjeong Elementary School.Â
Yangjeong was yet another thing that the two of you shared. You were once a pig-tailed menace who outran all the boys on the playground, and Soonyoung was your snot-nosed partner-in-crime.Â
Planning Yangjeongâs Christmas showcase has been your yearly commitment for as long as you can remember. Even when you were off at college, you had made it a point to set aside time for it. Volunteers have come and gone throughout the past, though this yearâs volunteer was undeniably one of the more annoying ones.Â
âYouâre going to have to talk to me eventually, you know.â Soonyoung practically flops himself onto the desk in front of you, the sudden weight of him making the table creak. As you turn your face away, you catch sight of the pout beginning to form on his lips.Â
You almost snipe at him, something along the lines of stop that or grow up or that doesnât work on me anymore. You hold your tongue, in favor of wordlessly getting up to move to a different chair.
Soonyoung is right. You will have to talk to him soon enough.
But as you sit as far away from him as possible, readying yourself for the day ahead, you can at least decide that today will not be that day.Â
Preparations for the showcase involve discussing the program with the teachers and readying the students for their performances. Itâs never anything spectacularâ just your run-of-the-mill rotation of tone-deaf singing and middling dancesâ but the townâs overzealous parents are always more than happy to indulge the show.Â
Today, you and Soonyoung are set to meet with Teacher Kang to discuss the showcaseâs overarching theme.Â
The sixty-something-year-old woman had been your teacher as well, and so itâs understandable why sheâs eyeing the pair of you with poorly concealed amusement. Thereâs a palpable tension between you and Soonyoung, though a significant majority of the awkwardness is likely from your end.Â
âHave the two of you not kept in touch?â Teacher Kang asks as she sets down two mugsâ coffee for you, hot chocolate for Soonyoung.Â
âNo,â the two of you say simultaneously.Â
Soonyoung steals an all-too obvious glance. You keep your eyes on the coffee in front of you.Â
Teacher Kangâ bless her heartâ decides not to push it. She settles in her own seat, her hands wrapped around a cup of tea.Â
âThe principal wants all the kids to do a number. Nothing too flashy, but something that will give everyone a chance to be on stage.â The elderly teacher sips at her drink before going on. âThatâs why I called you in, Soonyoung.âÂ
âIâm the reinforcements,â he jokes.Â
Teacher Kang gives a short laugh in response. âSomething like that.âÂ
She turns to you, then, with that same motherly simper that youâve never been able to say ânoâ to. You wonder if sheâs doing this on purposeâ pulling all the stops to get you to agree to what sheâs going to say next.Â
âI know your hands are going to be full with the program and the staffing,â she starts. âBut youâll work with Soonyoung, wonât you?âÂ
What kind of person would you be if you said ânoâ? If you threw a fit and demanded for Soonyoung to be thrown out?
âOf course,â you say, the word gritted out through your teeth.Â
At your side, Soonyoung lets out a loud cough to disguise his grumble of âbullshitâ. You fight the urge to kick him in the shins.
The beguiling expression on Teacher Kangâs face is merciless. At this point, sheâs no longer hiding the way that sheâs watching you and Soonyoungâs heatless bickering. And when she comments on it, when she says âYou two havenât changed,â you almost walk out then and there.Â
Iâve changed, you want to insist. Heâs changed. Weâre both changed; we had to.
Otherwise, it wouldnât have been worth it. The breakup, the distance, all of it.Â
Soonyoung recovers before you do.Â
âAh, before I forget!â He digs for something in his pants pocket, which he eventually holds out for Teacher Kang. âYou asked me for this, the last time we saw each other.âÂ
Despite yourself, you canât help but try and crane your neck to catch sight of what had been handed over. Soonyoung catches the small shift and huffs out a laugh.Â
âYou could just ask, you know,â he says, reaching back into his pocket.Â
Your protest of âI donâtââ is cut off by him shoving the same thing in your hand. Your fingers close around the calling card bearing the illustration of a tiger and a string of unfamiliar numbers.Â
Hoshi, A.K.A Kwon Soonyoung, it also says. Chief Executive Officer, Eye of the Tiger Dance Studio. B1, 47, Dogok-ro 27-Gil, Gangnam-Gu, Seoul.Â
âSo you know where to find me,â he says with the worldâs most obnoxious smirk.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âI forgot something.âÂ
âFrom six years ago?âÂ
âFrom six years ago.âÂ
--
Everybody thought that you and Soonyoung were a foregone conclusion.Â
It had been your stereotypical small town romance. You were kids together and then you were teenagers together. Some might have blamed it on forced proximity, but you like to think that the attraction and affection was real. That it wasnât a matter of not having any other choice.Â
You had chosen Soonyoung happily. He had chosen you right back.
After an awkward dance of âwill-they-wonât-they,â the two of you started dating in your freshman year of high school. It was the type of thing that had everybodyâ your respective families, your mutual friendsâ breathing a sigh of relief. Something akin to finally.Â
For nearly four years, Soonyoung was it for you.Â
He was the one walking you home, the one you messed around with behind the library building. The two of you shared nearly every first that mattered. Every first that a high schooler could afford, anyway.Â
First date.
First kiss.Â
And, so it goesâ first heartbreak.
Soonyoung had worn his heart on his sleeve; it was abundantly clear to everyone what he cared about. Two things in particular defined him: You, and dancing.
If you really tried, you can still remember the first time that Soonyoung had choreographed a dance himself. He had been young, scrappy, hungryâ all the qualities that made it possible for him to tear up the stage and leave the rest of you in awe.Â
He went on to be president of your schoolâs modern dance club. He went on to compete, both in groups and by himself, and win.Â
You picked up on it, too, if only to indulge him. The two of you had your fair share of semi-viral dance covers and podium finishes at local contests. It was yet another testament to your partnership, to what everyone presumed would spell out endgame.Â
Except you only loved to dance, while Soonyoung lived for it.Â
âCome with me,â he had invited you the night before your high school graduation.Â
The two of you were supposed to be in bed, but your phone buzzed underneath your pillow and you couldnât resist one last act of rebellion. You climbed out your window and met up with Soonyoung at your typical halfway pointâ the derelict playground the two of you have long since grown out of.Â
âTo where?â you asked, your sandaled feet dragging through the sand beneath the swing. Uncharacteristically, Soonyoung hadnât kicked off at all, instead opting to remain still.Â
His fingers had been tightly clenched around the rusting chain of the dated swing. You remember that much. In hindsight, he looked nervous.Â
There is a timeline where he might have proposed to you that night, might have asked for an early hand in marriage, with how on edge he was acting.Â
But, instead, you had prompted, âHave you finally decided on a uni?â
A beat.Â
His voiceâ soft and vulnerableâ broke the silence of the February evening. âIâm not going to uni.âÂ
You should have stopped swinging, then. Should have ground to a halt and grabbed Soonyoung by the shoulders. Should have called him crazy, insane.
Maybe you should have asked him to reconsider. That might have changed things.Â
Except you only kept on pushing. Back, forth. Back, forth. Like this was just a normal conversation and not a relationship-defining, life-altering moment for the two of you.
âIâm going to Seoul,â he elaborated, desperate to fill your silence. âIâm going to try and be a dancer. Youâ you could, too.âÂ
Your answer was immediate. âIâm not as good as you.âÂ
âYou are,â he argued. A muscle in his jaw jumped, then. Youâd known him for long enough to recognize his little tells and ticks, and that had been one of them. An indicator of a lie.Â
âIâm not.â You kept swinging, kept your face angled away from your boyfriend who was slipping through your fingers. âIâm going to uni, Soonyoung.âÂ
âButââ
âBut what?âÂ
Youâll never admit this, but you had been cruel back then. You know that now.
There are things you would have done differently. You wouldnât have snapped. You would have looked at him.Â
You were young, though, and angry. Your heart had been shattering in your chest and the only thing you could do was go back and forth on that creaking swing as Soonyoung tried to get through to you.Â
It hadnât been that much of a surprise. Soonyoungâs general disinterest in college applicationsâ and his constant rumblings about city lifeâ had given you some idea of what his plans might be.Â
You just thought you would be more involved in it. That you wouldnât be simply handed the decision, as if it were something you would have to accept.
Young, angry, and selfish to boot.Â
âNothing.â Soonyoung eventually said. His words sounded like a concession, like some form of twisted acceptance. âYouâll go to uni.âÂ
âAnd youâll go to Seoul.â
In your peripheral vision, you had seen Soonyoung tilt his head away as if trying to hide his face from you. Six years is a long time ago. You canât tell if he had cried, or maybe youâve chosen to erase that from your memory.Â
âIâll go,â Soonyoung repeated, an edge of defeat in his tone.Â
You swung, and swung, and swung, like it was the only thing keeping you tethered.Â
Back, forth. Back, forth.Â
The quiet had stretched, giving you a chance, an opportunity. To convince him otherwise. To change your own mind.Â
ButâÂ
âAnd Iâll stay,â you had responded.Â
Thatâs the thing about endings: Theyâre susceptible to change.Â
--
The first civil words you utter to Soonyoung are âYeah, I think the kids will enjoy Santa Claus Is Coming to Town.âÂ
Heâd been spewing out prospects for the showcaseâs group dance, though each idea had to be delicately shot down by Teacher Kang. Jingle Bell Rock? Performed three years ago. Baby, Itâs Cold Outside? Perhaps not the most appropriate for children.Â
You can see from a mile away, the signs of Soonyoungâs growing frustrationâ the downturn of his lips, the furrow of his brows. When he recommends the Maria Carey classic, you throw him a bone. Just to try and wipe that look off his face.
You immediately regret your kindness, because Soonyoungâs head whips around and he looks at you with the most disbelieving, wide-eyed expression. You return the overreaction with a half-hearted glare.Â
âWhat?â you ask defensively.Â
âItâsââ He pauses, his eyes flicking to Teacher Kang. âNothing, nothing.âÂ
His jaw ticks. All that time apart and heâs still never learned how to get better at lying.Â
You donât have to poke and prod to know whatâs coming. Once your little meeting draws to a closeâ Teacher Kang eventually agreeing with Santa Claus Is Coming to Townâ Soonyoung makes a beeline for your side, his excitement barely concealed.Â
âIs the world ending?â he asks you.
You attempt to shoulder past him, but he only follows you out of the classroom, sticking to your side. âYou said we would have to talk eventually,â you point out. âHereâs your âeventuallyâ. Donât be too happy about it.âÂ
âBut I am happy about it,â he responds, his tone almost like that of a whining puppy. âNot too much. Just an appropriate amount.âÂ
So help me, God.Â
You keep your gaze ahead as you walk out of the school. Soonyoung matches your pace, humming underneath his breath. You better watch out, you better not cry. You better not pout, Iâm tellinâ you why.Â
Once the two of you are out the front doors of the school, youâre greeted to a light dusting of snow on Namyangjuâs sidewalks.Â
âSo,â Soonyoung says casually as you pull out your phone to check the weather for the rest of the day. âYou donât work full-time at your parentsâ restaurant, do you?âÂ
Involuntarily, a derisive snort of laughter escapes you. âSmall talk? Really?âÂ
Thereâs a boyish grin on Soonyoungâs face. âGotta take advantage of you being chatty,â he shoots back, which only prompts you to shake your head.Â
You could ignore him, like you always have. You probably should. That had always been Soonyoungâs style.Â
Give him an inch and heâll take a mile.Â
And yetâ
âNo,â you grumble, your eyes still absentmindedly scanning your weather app. âI only work at the restaurant part-time.âÂ
âThe rest of the time?âÂ
âI didnât realize this was going to be a talk show.âÂ
âHavenât you heard? Iâm primetimeâs most charming hostââÂ
âLaw. I work at a law firm.â
The answer is ripped from you in a bid to avoid Soonyoungâs theatrics, and you find yourself blinking with mild surprise, like you hadnât prepared to divulge the detail at all. Soonyoung notices, and his lips curl in a smug smirk.Â
âI know,â he says simply. âJihoon told me.âÂ
You make a mental note to berate your mutual friend as you exasperatedly say, âWhy did you ask, then?âÂ
âBecause I wanted to hear it from you.âÂ
Soonyoung lets his words hang, linger, before he goes on. Itâs just four words, what he utters next, but it still threatens to tilt your world on its axis.Â
âIâm proud of you,â he says, like itâs the most natural thing in the world.Â
Youâve heard your fair share of the platitude throughout the years. From Jihoon and Wonwoo, when you first got into law school. From your parents, when you passed the bar exam. From Teacher Kang, every December, when the Christmas showcase is pulled off.Â
This is something entirely different. This has you shoving your phone back into your bag, just to hide the way your hand had begun to twitch at the words.Â
âYou canât say stuff like that to your ex,â you snap.Â
Soonyoungâs answer comes without a momentâs hesitation. âWhy? Being exes doesnât take away the fact that Iâm proud of you.âÂ
Too much, too much, too much. Itâs too much for your pride, your emotions, your heart. You wish you could take this for what it isâ a compliment, some kindnessâ but the history goes deep, and the words feel like a scab being picked.Â
You do what you do best. You turn on your heel and begin to walk away.Â
Thankfully, Soonyoung doesnât follow you. But heâs nothing if not vexatious, so he squeezes in a sing-song cry of âByeee, attorney!â as you leave.Â
You quicken your pace just a little bit more.Â
--
Jihoon has the tendency to look like a kicked puppy when heâs being told off.Â
He doesnât pout, no, but the expression on his face is a close thing as you give him grief over telling Soonyoung about you. Wonwoo, stuck in the middle as per usual, only calmly cuts into his lunch.Â
âWhy did you have to tell Soonyoung about my work, huh?â you demand as you slice a little too forcefully into your bulgogi. âGiving him free ammunition or something?âÂ
Jihoon finally gets a word in edgewise. âItâs because he asks about you,â he deadpans.Â
The thought of it is so insane that you bark out a laugh. The retortâ bullshit!â is right on the tip of your tongue, but it dies out when Wonwoo bobs his head up and down.
Wonwoo has always been the less likely of the two to lie to you. Youâre still a bit baffled even as the bespectacled man confirms, âYeah. He asks me, too.âÂ
âAsks what?âÂ
âHow youâre doing.â Wonwoo is so nonchalant about the whole affair that youâre tempted to call him out, too, but the lack of teasing in his tone gives you some sense of where his head is at. âWhat youâre up to. Stuff like that.âÂ
Kwon Soonyoung has kept tabs on you.Â
In the years that youâve tried to bury the memory of your friendship, of your relationship, Kwon Soonyoung has kept tabs.Â
âHeââ You clear your throat when your voice comes out a little more high-pitched than usual. If Jihoon and Wonwoo notice, they mercifully donât call you out.Â
You manage, âHe could have just reached out to me.â
Jihoon, who had taken advantage of the reprieve to shovel some spoonfuls of rice into his mouth, swallows hard before speaking.Â
âWould you have answered?â he inquires, one eyebrow arched upward.Â
The truthâ rarely plain, never simpleâ lies in a single, two-lettered word. No. No, you probably wouldnât have answered. And even though you want to defend yourself, to claim otherwise, both Jihoon and Wonwoo would only do what you had wanted to do earlier. Call bullshit.Â
You let out a groan of defeat, slumping forward until your forehead has planted on the table in front of you.
âNo further questions, Your Honor,â Wonwoo chirps, and though you canât see him, you can already imagine the smirk that heâs sporting.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âI thought there would be a high school reunion. I think I got the date wrong.âÂ
--
The abundance of existing routines for Santa Claus Is Coming to Town makes it somewhat easier for you and Soonyoung to dumb it down for the kids.Â
You spend the next week keeping the students in line as Soonyoung teaches them how to shimmy, how to slide, how to do jazz hands. Every so often, you catch him at a lossâ like when one of the younger boys tries to eat a crayon, or when the kids go into a scream-filled debate about the existence of Santa Claus.Â
These are things youâre used to. These are things you can handle.Â
Taking the crayons away or assuring the kids that Santa Claus is real is far, far easier than being in forced proximity with the one that got away. Youâre reminded of that, now, as Soonyoung taps out for a breather and you sub in to go over the routine with the kids once more.Â
Theyâre more prone to listening to you, and so you easily get one run of the song down without a hitch. In the years that youâve voluntarily choreographed for the showcase, youâve never thought too much about the technicalities of your skill. You danced well enough to teach, to pull off a decent, child-appropriate routine. That had been enough.Â
But with the scrutinizing eyes of dance studio CEO âHoshiâ following your every move, you feel that simmer of competitiveness in your stomach.Â
After three more runs of the number with the children, you let them go. As you go to catch your breath over one of the auditoriumâs bleachers, youâre surprised by a hand holding out a Cool Blue Raspberry Gatorade.Â
âIs this still your poison?â Soonyoung asks with a hint of amusement as he settles into the space next to you.Â
You donât answer. Briefly, your mind goes to those daysâ the salsa competitions, the random play dance events. How Soonyoungâs backpack always had his Game Boy Color, a change of clothes, and a blue Gatorade. The last one, always for you.Â
You uncork the drink, tilt your head back, and take a long swig. Itâs as close to a confirmation that youâre going to give him.Â
The two of you sit in silence as the children begin to file out of the auditorium. Once the only two of you are left, Soonyoung speaks up, the words far too quiet in the otherwise empty room.Â
âYou really are good, you know.âÂ
It takes you a beat too long to realize that heâs talking about your dancing. If the two of you were on better terms, you might have teased him about that night on the playground, many years ago, when he had fibbed about you being as good of a dancer as he is.
As it is, you can only respond with an equally soft, âThanks.â
Being the bigger person lasts for all of fifty seconds, though, because Soonyoungâs next words prickle.Â
âCouldâve been much bigger.âÂ
âExcuse me?â
He freezes, an oh shit type of expression crossing his face. Even so, he doubles down. âI'm just saying,â he starts, his tone growing slightly more defensive. âYou could have done much moreââÂ
Your words are cold as your fingers close tighter around the half-empty bottle of Gatorade. âAm I not doing much where I am right now?âÂ
âYouâre twisting my words,â he shoots back.
âThose are exactly your words,â you fume.Â
Itâs an old wound, one that Soonyoung poked with something sharp the second he returned home and made his presence known. Youâve done everything you can to ignore it, to keep the ache and the bitterness at bay, but you canât help the way that it rises in your throat like bile. Something acidic, and foul, and unwelcome.Â
You get to your feet, leaving the offered Gatorade on the bleacher. âSorry not all of us moved to the city and had a big break, Kwon,â you say as you begin to gather your things.
âJesus Christ.â Soonyoungâs cuss is punctuated with a laugh, but itâs not like any of the laughs youâre used to from him. The sound is annoyed, pained. Almost hurt, even, though you try not to dwell on that.Â
Your relationship, your breakup, is an old wound that hasnât completely healed. Itâs been on the edge of festering ever since you lost contact with him.Â
And, now, as you leave him stewing in his emotions, you figure that itâs only going to fester some more.Â
--
Back then, the two of you had dubbed each other The Great Pretenders.Â
Dating in high school required a certain level of delicadeza. While your relationship was largely accepted and acknowledged, there were still a number of things you had to hide from your families and friends. Tear-stained faces after petty arguments. Hickies under the collars of your school uniforms.Â
Itâs been years, but The Great Pretenders makes a reappearance when the pair of you have to face Teacher Kang the next day.
It goes unspoken that whatever the hell is going on between you two shouldnât affect the showcase, shouldnât be obvious to anyone that matters. And so the two of you update her on the kidsâ progress, and sip the warm drinks that she offers, without any indication of having had a spat.Â
The check-in winds to a close after a couple of polite exchanges. Teacher Kang seems pleased with preparations so far, though she looks even more happy about you and Soonyoungâs perceived civility, which damn near bowls you over.Â
âBy the way, Soonyoung,â Teacher Kang says conversationally as the three of you pack up for the afternoon. âHowâs the studio?âÂ
âAll good.â He pauses, like he realized he hadnât given that sufficient of an answer. âWeâre usually busy around this time of year, but I have one of my staff keeping watch while Iâm here. I plan to head back once the holiday season is over.âÂ
You shouldâve seen it coming, but something beneath your rib cage still twinges at the thought. You ignore the feeling in favor of shouldering your backpack.Â
âYou shouldnât wait so long before coming back again,â Teacher Kang half-jokes.
Soonyoungâs chuckleâ a dry, unconvincing huff of ha-haâ is chased with the cool delivery of âIâll try to make it a more regular thing.â
In the corner of your eye, you catch what Teacher Kang misses. The most imperceptible tick in Soonyoungâs jaw.Â
Liar, you think. Liar, liar, liar.Â
You and Soonyoung had mastered the art of pretending, sure, but you could never quite get away from each other.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âIâd forgotten the sound of my motherâs voice.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
--
The snow returns with a vengeance.Â
Itâs that time of winter where the streets are blanketed with white, where the sleet and rain makes conditions horrendous. You have no choice but to soldier through the soft hail as you make your way to the school, which youâre committed to reach come rain or shine.
Except when you get to the front doors, youâre greeted by a bemused-looking Soonyoung.Â
You pat down your snow-clad clothes as you look him up and down. âWhere are you going?âÂ
He answers your question with one of his own. âHavenât you heard?â He holds up his phone. âPractice is cancelled today. Everybodyâs snowed in.âÂ
You were rarely the type to walk and text, so your phone has been sitting pretty in your pocket this whole time. When you go to check it, you find messages from Teacher Kang. Canceling showcase preparations in lieu of the weather. Stay safe and dry.Â
âI just found out myself,â Soonyoung says delicately.Â
Ah. That explained why he was the only other person around.Â
Disgruntled, you glance at your surroundings. Thereâs barely anyone present, and the snow is only seeming to fall heavier with each passing minute. Youâd be lucky to get a cab at this rateâ
âOr I could just drive you.âÂ
You jump a bit. At what point had you started saying that last thought out loud?Â
âThatâs not necessary,â you start to say, but Soonyoung is already fishing for his car keys in his jacket pocket.Â
âI know you hate my ass,â he responds bluntly. âBut that hatred isnât worth freezing to death over, no?âÂ
His face is turned away from you, so thereâs no way for you to tell what expression heâs sporting. Itâs a small grace. Even though you dread the thought of being stuck in a small space with nothing but your thoughts and an old ghost to keep your company, you do hate the prospect of hypothermia even more.Â
Thatâs how you end up in the passenger seat of Soonyoungâs beat-up Hyundai Pony, which stutters and bucks every time he has to take a turn. Itâs the very same car that you both learned to drive in, though itâs looking significantly worse for wear.Â
While nostalgia has proven to be a bitch, you canât resist the jab on the tip of your tongue. âJesus,â you breathe, your fingers tightening around your seatbelt as Soonyoung barely makes a corner. âI canât believe this thingâs still alive.âÂ
âThat makes two of us,â he quips with a grimace.Â
Once the car miraculously makes its way past a snowed-out road, Soonyoung notes, âRemember when my dad first taught us how to get through rain?â
The memory brings the flicker of a smile to your face. âYou were so scared you might run a squirrel over,â you say.Â
âYou swore up and down that youâd never drive on a wet road,â Soonyoung shoots back. Â
âI still donât,â you respond, glancing out the window for the lack of a better thing to look at. âI ask my dad to drive whenever itâs raining.âÂ
Soonyoungâs next words make you pause. âYour dad hated me,â he huffs.Â
You let out a snort of laughter. âThatâs not true. He really liked you.âÂ
âHe always left the room whenever I came in,â Soonyoung argues.Â
âHe wanted to give us privacy.â You canât help the sigh that slides past your lips, the sound edged with annoyance. âReally, youâve got to stop blaming other people for why we didnât work out.â
The words hang heavy in the din of the car. You wonder, for a second, if youâd been too callous, but thereâs something like a rueful smile that tugs at Soonyoungâs face.Â
âSorry. Coping mechanism,â he responds, and you donât push any further.Â
An awkward couple of moments follow. Unfortunately for you, Soonyoung has never learned the art of tactâ always pushing it just a little bit, right to the point where the tension is drawn like a rubber band.Â
âYou know, my mom has been asking about you,â Soonyoung says conversationally as he turns into your neighborhood. âSays I should invite you over for lunch.âÂ
Your grasp on the seatbelt is white-knuckled. It wasnât like you were actively avoiding the Kwons; you were perfectly polite when you saw them in public, when you ran into them in the supermarket or at church. But itâs been years since you last stepped foot in their house, and for obvious reasons, too.Â
âIâm not ready for that,â you answer tersely.Â
Soonyoung is either oblivious to your agitation or ignorant of it. Regardless of which, he goes on, âI said the same thing. I guess she still thinksââÂ
âLetâs not go there.â Your tone is just cutting enough to give Soonyoung pause, to have him stammer to a halt as he pulls to a stop in front of your house. âIâm hot having this conversation with you, Soonyoung.âÂ
He doesnât apologize, though he does back down. âRight,â he mumbles as he parks. âRight.âÂ
You unbuckle your seatbelt, careful to keep your gaze trained away from Soonyoung. âThanks for the ride.â
Soonyoung is graciously quiet as you step out of his car, though that lasts for all of ten secondsâ just enough for you to almost close the door on himâ when he speaks up.Â
âHey. For the record,â he starts, leaning over the center console to get in the last word. âI donât blame anyone else for our breakup. I know whose fault it is.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow. He throws you an infuriating grin before reaching over to pull the door close himself.Â
Soonyoung peels away, once again leaving you with more questions than answers.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âItâs cold in the city, during the winter.âÂ
--
You and Soonyoung find yourselves doubling your efforts as the date of the showcase looms.
You spend more of your time with Teacher Kang. You extend a little more patience to the kids. You danceâ dance the routines, dance with Soonyoung, dance around the truth.Â
But when the elephant in the room is as big as it is, ignorance is not an option. And Soonyoung never did learn how to keep his mouth shut.Â
Itâs late in the evening, the two of you having pulled extra hours to work on decor. Youâd felt like it was going a little too well with the way that the two of you were uncharacteristically cordial throughout the afternoon. But of course that was too good to be true, because just as you were packing up for the night, Soonyoung had to go and sayâÂ
âAre you happy here?âÂ
You freeze midway into packing away the multi-colored, Christmas tree-shaped banners. That familiar flash of frustration, that inkling that heâs looking down on you, rises up again.Â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â you say, and heâs immediately prickly.Â
âItâs nothing.â He shoves some of the props behind the stage, hasty in his pursuit to end the conversation as fast as possible. âForget I said anything.âÂ
âCome on,â you bristle. All the while, youâre also putting things back in placeâ your movements just a little more forceful than necessary. âSpit it out. You started it.âÂ
âI was just asking.âÂ
âYouâre never âjust askingâ. Go on, say it.âÂ
âYouââÂ
The two of you are glaring at each other, now, your face red and Soonyoungâs fists balled at his side. When you speak, itâs with a tone that could cut through ice.Â
âJust because I chose to stay,â you say. âIt doesnât mean my dreams are smaller than yours.âÂ
Soonyoung looks dumbstruck. His voice is impossibly tight; his words, reverberating in the otherwise empty hall.Â
âI wasnât going to say your dreams are small. Itâs just⊠Weââ He backtracks, like the pronoun had been a scalding slip of the tongue. âYou couldâve sold out auditoriums.âÂ
Your answer is immediate, if not a little strained.Â
âA sold out auditorium doesnât matter if the one person you want isnât at the recital,â you say. âSome people find happiness right where they are, and this is mine.âÂ
And thatâs always been the crux of it, hasnât it? Soonyoung has tried to make a name for himself in cities, in rooms full of people cheering his name. His definition of success was only achievable in quantity, in scale. Yours was different, and he could never really quite accept that.Â
Thereâs a moment where Soonyoung doesnât say anything, just looks at you with a pinched expression on his face. He opens his mouth like he might say somethingâÂ
âOi! You two!â
You and Soonyoung jump, the tension that had been simmering between you two disappearing at the interruption. The schoolâs ancient janitor lingers by the door, squinting at you two.Â
âWhaddya think yer still doinâ here?â the old man croaks, wielding his broom in a fashion that still makes you recoil. âItâs past curfew! Geddout!âÂ
Never mind the fact you and Soonyoung were now in your late twenties and long out of high school. The two of you still cower and meekly mumble, âSorry, Mr. Cho.âÂ
Itâs snowing again when the two of you step out. Soonyoungâs face is set in stone as he mumbles, âGet in my car.âÂ
Right. Like that was going to happen.Â
With a wordless huff, you begin to march in the opposite direction to him. âHey,â he calls out. âWhere are you going?âÂ
âHome!âÂ
âIn thisâ hey, itâs snowing!â
âThatâs what happens during the winter!âÂ
Youâd be a little more conscious about having a screaming match in the streets if it wasnât nearly midnight. Something about the incessant snowfall and the cloak of darkness gives you just a little more courage to speak your mind, to toe that line that the two of you have so haphazardly drawn.Â
Soonyoung marches after you, his own misgivings about the weather momentarily forgotten. Heâs raring to fight, and it shows in the way he stomps through the snow like an overgrown child.Â
âSo thatâs it, then?â he hollers from a couple of paces behind you. âYouâre just going to stay here for the rest of your life, playing it safe? Work at the family restaurant because of filial piety? Marryâ I donât fucking knowâ guy-next-door Joshua Hong, and have babies, andââÂ
âWhat is your problem?!â you snap, rounding on Soonyoung. He skids to a halt, stopping himself from completely barreling into you. âWhy are you acting like you know me?âÂ
âBecause I do!â His voice cracks on the last word. âI know you!â
âNo, you donât.âÂ
âI know you very well.âÂ
âFrom what? Jihoon and Wonwooâs stories?â Thereâs a muscle straining in your neck from the way youâve raised your voice, but you canât find it in yourself to back down. âThink thatâs enough to fill a six-year gap?âÂ
That seems to get Soonyoung. âYou never reached out to me! Not once!â he seethes.Â
âWell, neither did you!â
âI didnât thinkââ His breath catches. He pushes on. âI didnât think youâd want to hear from me.âÂ
âThatâs a bullshit excuse and you know it.âÂ
âWhatâs your excuse, then?â he shoots back. âCome on. Iâm dying to hear it.âÂ
Whatâs your excuse, heâs asking. Why havenât you reached out? If you were so angry and upset about the radio silence, why did you do nothing about it?Â
Several answers occur to you at once. There was Soonyoungâs own flimsy reasoning. I didnât think youâd want to hear from me.
There was something close to the truth, something a little too vulnerable to be spoken out loud. I was mad at you. I hated you for a bit. I think I still hate you even now.Â
There was the whisper of something treacherous, something damning. I was scared that I would only end up asking for you to come back.Â
None of those words come out. You stay standing across from Soonyoung in the wake of his challenge, your face flushed, your gaze narrow. He glares right back at you, unyielding in his pride and his pain.Â
The silence stretches. It becomes an answer in itself.Â
âExactly,â Soonyoung says with a heavy exhale. Thereâs a spark of flint in his eyes, a flicker of something that could almost be likened to hurt. âIt takes two people to break up. You always seem to forget that.âÂ
As he begins to stalk away, youâre overcome with that feeling again. That heavy weight in your chest, put there whenever you know he got the last word, whenever he turned out to be right. Soonyoung has only taken about three steps away before youâre bending down and cupping some snow in your hands.Â
The hastily-made snowball hits Soonyoung on the back of his head. It splatters against his hair, leaving tiny, glistening flakes tangled in his blonde strands.Â
He freezes, but only for a moment. In the blink of an eye, Soonyoung is already crouching down to retaliate. Heâs quicker and much more savage, and his revenge soars through the end to land squarely in your chest.Â
You stagger backward, the gasp catching in your throat. Oh, itâs on.
What ensues is the most ruthless snowball fight that your small town has seen. Snowballs are hurled with reckless abandon, the ice crystals getting everywhere from your clothes to your socks. Neither of you even bother to try and hide from the onslaught. The two of you take each otherâs attacks, every hit punctuated with heatless insults that have simmered too long.Â
âYou never calledââ Soonyoung screeches, sending a cold sphere against your shoulder.Â
âYou didnât visitââ you shriek as you shape ammunition in your gloved hands.Â
âYou deleted every photo of me off your Facebookââ A snowball to your side.Â
âYou talked to Jihoon and Wonwoo, but not meââ Another square hit to Soonyoungâs chest, sending a puff of powdery snow up into his face.
âCoward!â
âAsshole!â
It feels like hours before the two of you let up.Â
The two of you are covered in snow from head to toe; your chests heaving from exertion, your cheeks ruddy from the cold. The heat of the exchange leaves you both puffing breaths that cloud the air between you.Â
Thereâs a hint of something in your stances. Something that feels like it belongs to another timeâ before the breakup, before the distance.Â
Quietly, Soonyoung starts to laugh.Â
His hands are on his hips and his head is tilted back. The flakes catch on his eyelashes, his hair, but he keeps his face upturned to the sky as he laughs, and laughs, and laughs.Â
That old, familiar sound. The one that warms you up from the inside, whether or not you care to admit it. Youâre doubled over, your hands on your knees, as you watch him look more and more like the boy you loved and lost.Â
âI hate you,â you choke out, though a corner of your mouth has twitched upward.Â
He doesnât even look at you as he responds.
âYeah,â he breathes. âMissed you, too.âÂ
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âAm I not allowed to?âÂ
--
âSoonyoung says you two kissed and made up.âÂ
You shoot Jihoon an unamused glare.Â
From across you, he raises his hand in a defensive gesture. âI didnât believe him, of course,â he insists, though you donât miss the way he and Wonwoo try to discreetly exchange money under the table.Â
Wonwoo catches your suspicious expression and gives you an apologetic grin in return.Â
âMade a bet,â he says.Â
âYou two suck,â you groan.Â
Your threeâs weekly lunch has gone mostly swimmingly up to the point that Jihoon had brought up Soonyoung. Now, though, with the topic broached, neither of your friends see the need to be discreet about it.Â
âI do wonder why Soonie decided to come home now, after all these years,â Wonwoo muses aloud, toying with his chopsticks as he speaks. âSeems a bit out of the blue, doesnât it?âÂ
âHe came home because Teacher Kang asked him,â you point out.Â
One of Jihoonâs eyebrows cocks upward. âTeacher Kang has asked him every year for the past couple of years,â he says. âSo itâs not just that, Iâm sure.âÂ
Wonwoo chimes in with, âMust be something real important, then.âÂ
Jihoon nearly smirks. âOr someone.âÂ
What feels like your nth groan of the evening escapes you. âPut a sock in it, you two,â you grumble, drawing snickers from your friends.
Jihoon mouths something to Wonwoo. You canât make it out for certain, but it looks suspiciously like a wordless grumble of Betâs still on.Â
--
Civility is a rare thing to share with Soonyoung.Â
With the showcase mere days away, itâs a welcome development. At least itâs easier for the two of you to iron out the chinks in the routines, to ensure the program is up to par with the schoolâs standards.
But with civility comes an even more fragile thingâ hope.Â
Itâs in the way Soonyoung will hold open doors for you or haul the heavier props on your behalf, much to your chagrin and to Teacher Kangâs amusement.Â
Itâs in the way Soonyoung starts to make small talk about everything from your day job to your parents, never minding much that heâs the one who has to carry half the conversations.Â
Itâs in the way Soonyoung tries to make you laugh, and how, one afternoon, he finally succeeds.
You canât even remember what it was. Some terrible joke about the kids, maybe. All you know is that a snort of laughter had slid out of you, the sound not quite the derisive giggles youâd been giving him the past couple of weeks.Â
Youâre still chuckling when you see Soonyoungâs face.Â
Immediately, you sober up. âWhat?â you ask, because heâs staring at you with his jaw slack and his eyes slightly wide.Â
He tries to rearrange his expression into something more acceptable; itâs too late, given that youâve already caught him. Soonyoung may have not always been honest, but he was expressive.Â
You glare at him, indicating that heâs not about to escape, and he huffs out a defeated sigh.Â
âItâs justâ I forgot, okay?âÂ
âForgot what?âÂ
âHow good happiness looks on you.âÂ
Who the hell says something like that on a random Thursday?Â
Soonyoung still has that vaguely dazed look in his eyes, even though youâve begun to stare at him like heâs insane. As he walks away to go and refill his water bottle, he nearly collides with one of the auditoriumâs poles, drawing raucous laughter from the kids.Â
You shush them, the tips of your ears beginning to flame.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âIt was about time.âÂ
--
Itâs nothing short of a miracle, how you, Jihoon, Soonyoung, and Wonwoo all end up at the same table at Taco Joeâs.Â
Jihoon had been the one who proposed the idea. So casually, too, like he was readying himself for one of your infamous tirades or a flurry of your punches. Soonyoung wants to grab drinks with all of us.
To Jihoon and Wonwooâs surprise, you had only responded with, âWhen?âÂ
Neither boys want to look a gift horse in the mouth, so theyâre extra careful in playing their cards right. Wonwoo vows to be the designated driver. Jihoon holds back on making any jokes about the whole affair. And, Soonyoungâ well, heâs just happy to be there.Â
âThis place really hasnât changed, huh?â Soonyoung snickers as he sips at his beer.Â
Thereâs not a lot of bars to choose from in your small town, making Taco Joeâs something of an institution. Its low lights, Top 50âs playlist, and cheap drinks attract more of the mid-twenties crowd, though there had been a time in your teenage years when youâd all tried and failed to sneak in.Â
âJoe threatened to ban us for life when we first stepped foot in here,â Jihoon reminisces.Â
Wonwoo pushes his glasses up his face by the bridge of his nose. âWorse,â he says. âHe said he would tell our parents.âÂ
Simultaneously, the four of you shudder. A small smile tugs at your lips as you extend your cocktail for the boys to cheers with.Â
âTo vindication,â you announce.Â
Thereâs a ripple of laughter among your friends.Â
âVindication,â they echo, clinking their bottles and glasses with yours.Â
A part of you is suspicious at how pleasant the night is going. The conversation is easy, if not a little on the safe side. The drinks are good. The music is more often a hit instead of a miss. Itâs shaping up to be a decent evening, though there are a handful of interruptions here and there.Â
Kwon Soonyoung is a bit of a local celebrity, after all.Â
Everybody and their mother knows about his swanky dance studio in the city, about the idols and celebrities heâs met in his line of work. Every so often, someone will stop by to greet him, to exchange a word or two with him.Â
Soonyoung is perfectly amicable to all of them. His smile, practiced; his words, cool and smooth. After the fourth or so person has come up to say hello to the Hoshi, Jihoon voices out what youâve all been thinking.Â
âItâs so exhausting hanging out with you,â Jihoon says dryly.
Soonyoung giggles mid-swig of his alcohol. âCanât help it.â He fakes a tired sigh, his shoulders rising in a shrug. âEverybody wants a piece of me.âÂ
âIâll tear you to pieces if anyone else comes up to us,â Wonwoo warns.Â
Your gaze flicks over Wonwooâs shoulder, towards someone approaching your corner table. âGet those claws ready, Wonu,â you say.
When Joshua Hong saunters up to your groupâs table, though, his greeting for Soonyoung is cursory at best.Â
âNice to see you back, Kwon,â the man says politely before turning his attention to you. âHey, you.âÂ
You straighten in your seat. Jihoon and Wonwoo exchange a look. Soonyoungâs eyes narrow ever so slightly as he gives a grumbled âhelloâ to Joshuaâs lackluster greeting.Â
Itâs apparent that Joshua isnât there for him, because Joshua is instead smiling at you. âHey,â you respond in kind. âWhatâs up?âÂ
Joshua had been an upperclassman during your school days, part of the infamous trio featuring troublemaker Yoon Jeonghan and varsity captain Choi Seungcheol. But Joshua was more on the mild side, known for his volunteer work at the local choir. He wasnât any less unattainable, though, and youâre reminded of why Soonyoung so callously threw his name out during your more recent spat.Â
Prior to dating Soonyoung, you did have a raging crush on Joshua, after all. Youâre briefly reminded of it as he flashes you a warm smile. âI was hoping I could buy you a drink,â he says. âFor⊠you know.âÂ
Thereâs absolutely nothing coy in Joshuaâs words. Heâs not suggestive, not trying to come on to you. All the same, the three boys at your table react like Joshua had just proposed.Â
Jihoon bites back a grin. Wonwoo cocks his head to one side. Soonyoung shoots back a quarter of his beer.Â
For⊠you know, Joshua is saying, and you know exactly what he means even though the rest arenât privy to it. Youâre already getting to your feet before you can register it. âYeah,â you say, nodding towards the bar. âLetâs go.âÂ
None of your friends say a thing as you step away with Joshua, but you can feel their eyes on your back. You know youâre going to get hell for it laterâ but, for now, you focus on the small talk that Joshua has to offer.Â
He lets you pick out your cocktail of choice. As the bartender goes to make it, Joshua smiles down at you. There had been a time where you mightâve keened over at the sight of it; now, though, it only makes your heart flutter a bit.Â
His voice is just loud enough to be heard over the thumping music, but low enough that itâs just for the two of you.Â
âThank you for your help,â he says. âReally. Youâre a life-saver.âÂ
Your expression softens underneath the lights of the bar. âHowâs your dad?âÂ
Joshuaâs smile is a little tight, but not any less sincere. âBetter,â he responds. âItâs rough, of course, but heâs coping.âÂ
Earlier in the year, Joshuaâs father had been one of your firmâs clients. It had been a lot more challenging than you thought, working with someone you personally knew. The arduous process had involved unsecured debts, scarred credit scores, and seized collaterals, but you were ultimately able to help the Hongs in closing down their music school.Â
âIâm glad.â You pause, as if realizing thatâs not quite the right thing to say. âIâm not glad about what happenedââÂ
Joshuaâs laughter cuts through your tirade. Your shoulders ease when you realize itâs not a particularly mean laugh. More of an amused sound at your panic.Â
âDonât worry, I get it,â he reassures as the bartender slides your drinks to you. Joshua gives the other man a nod and a mumbled promise of tipping later.
âI donât want to keep you,â Joshua says. âJust wanted to show my appreciation.âÂ
âYou didnât have to.â Your fingers wrap around the drink he brought you. âBut thank you, anyway.âÂ
Joshua nods, grins. The lines are clear as day. Heâs not flirting, not trying to get in your pants or anything. The drink is exactly that: A show of gratitude. Nothing more, nothing less.Â
Some old version of you might have been disappointed. Tonight, you are only oddly relieved. The two of you talk a little moreâ about things that are neither here nor thereâ before Joshua lets you go.Â
Upon your return to your table, youâre greeted with a sight for sore eyes.Â
Somehow, in the fifteen or so minutes that you were gone, Soonyoung had already shot back his first bottle of beer. As you slide back into your seat next to Wonwoo, your bespectacled friend quietly divulges, âThatâs his third one.âÂ
âThird?â You glance toward Soonyoung, your eyebrows raised quizzically. âAre you trying to get alcohol poisoning or something?âÂ
Soonyoung only flashes you a grin before taking another swig. He ignores your question in favor of chatting Jihoonâs ear off; the latter throws you a bemused look before going back to his conversation with Soonyoung.Â
You huff out a sigh as you go to nurse the cocktail that Joshua got you.Â
âI wonder whatâs gotten into him,â Wonwoo says, his tone just a little too smug for his own good.Â
You shoot him a sideways glare. He sinks his teeth into his lower lip, hiding his blooming smile behind a sip of his soda.Â
As the night wears on, you begin to feel that familiar buzz in your system. The telltale signs of your tipsiness leave you pleasantly satedâ your laughter a little less restrained, your brain a lot more empty. So when Soonyoung leans across the table to yell at you, âLetâs dance!â, your first instinct is not to say Fuck off.Â
The words that come out instead are âTo what song?âÂ
Soonyoung is already standing up and moving around the table to get to your side. An intoxicated Jihoon and sober Wonwoo only watch on, spectators to this impending dumpster fire, as Soonyoung reaches out to tug you out of your seat.Â
âAny song,â he breathes. His face is flushed a deep shade of red, but his eyes are as bright as ever. âAnything you want.âÂ
Thereâs a right thing to do in this situation.
The right thing to do would be to let Soonyoung down politely. To tell him no, youâre not interested in dancing. Youâre happy to drink with him and your friends, but youâre not about to indulge him with the thing that once made the two of you so close. You donât think your heart can take it.Â
But youâre two cocktails in. The music is good. And Soonyoung is looking at you with that absolutely incandescent expression, faring not any better than you in the game of sobriety. How could you deny him?Â
You let him pull you to your feet. His hand stays wrapped around your wrist as he drags you out onto the dance floor, as he leans over to the DJ and yells, âDo you have any GD?!â
The current track transitions into the unmistakable beats of Good Boy. Soonyoungâs face lights up like a firework.Â
Youâre drunk enough to laugh at him, with him, as you easily fall into the decade-old dance routine. No matter how long itâs been, it seems like your body still remembers every step, every hand movement.Â
Youâre drunk enough to not care that Wonwoo is not-so discreetly filming the two of you, that Jihoon is wearing a knowing smirk. Come tomorrow, your friends will have a lot to say about this moment. But, right now, itâs all inconsequential.Â
Youâre drunk enough to dance. To dance in a way that isnât simply for Christmas showcase purposes. To dance and remember why you loved it so much in the first place.Â
To dance with the boy who got you into it in the first place.Â
Good Boy spins into Home Sweet Home, then Fantastic Baby, then Gee. You and Soonyoung dance through it all. Honestly, youâre no longer built for this the same way that you once were, and youâre certainly not up to par with Soonyoung.
His drunkenness does nothing to dampen his energy or his dancing skills. He moves across the floor with the practiced ease of a professional, putting everyone to shame without even trying. His toothy smile never leaves his face as the two of you swing and pop and glide.Â
By the time the DJ starts to play more modern pop, you call for a time-out. Soonyoung stumbles after you and the two of you collapse onto a nearby couch, boneless from the non-stop dancing.Â
Wonwoo is off to one side, chatting with a girl, while Jihoon is nowhere to be found. You wouldnât hold it past the latter to be on a smoke break of some sorts; nights out always tended to drain him, after all.Â
âInsane,â Soonyoung croaks out. Blonde strands of his hair stick to his face due to sweat. You resist the urge to fix it.
âI havenât danced like that in ages,â you say, rolling your shoulders to fight off the growing ache in your body.Â
Soonyoung tries to laugh. The sound comes out more like a wheeze. His next words are mumbled in between attempts to catch his breath. âYouâre good, babe.âÂ
Come Back Home is thumping through the speakers. You try to focus on that instead of Soonyoungâs Freudian slip; you fail miserably, and it must show on your face because Soonyoung sucks in some air through his teeth.Â
âSorry.â Heâs laughing, but the sound is a bit rough around the edges. âMoment of weakness.âÂ
A beat. âWanna dance some more?â he prompts.Â
Whether itâs a desperate bid to run from his words or a sincere offer by a man who simply lives to dance, you donât question it. âYeah,â you say a little too quickly. âLetâs dance.âÂ
You dance until you feel like your feet are going to fall off. Soonyoung matches your pace, never missing a beat. When he needs to take a break, he drinks some moreâ an endless cycle of dance floor shenanigans and drawn-out sips of beer.Â
Itâs probably why heâs swaying by the time that youâre all calling it a night. Wonwoo and Jihoon flank Soonyoung on either side, the blonde still somehow having the tenacity to chatter while dragging his feet. Heâs talking out of his ass about one thing or another, like music these days ânot being as good as the OGs,â and you can sense Wonwooâs exasperation over the whole thing.Â
âLiving in Seoul has done absolutely nothing for your tolerance,â Wonwoo grumbles, prompting Soonyoung to go into a long-winded rant about the cultural differences in drinking culture.Â
The relief on Wonwooâs face is palpable as he shoves Soonyoung into the backseat of his car.Â
Jihoon gives a nod of his own. âYouâll be good to drive?â he asks Wonwoo. Â
âDidnât drink a drop,â Wonwoo chirps. âYou?âÂ
âSobered up, like, two hours ago,â Jihoon says wryly. He gives you a vicious side eyeâ wordlessly blaming you for not being able to go home any earlier, since he was your designated driverâ and you raise your shoulders in a half-shrug.Â
âYou were the one who invited me out to drink.â Your voice is hoarse from all the alcohol, from the physical exertion of non-stop dancing.Â
Youâre somehow lucid enough to register that Soonyoung is calling for you. Thereâs a slight pout on his face, like heâs upset to be missing out on the conversation. Heâs bracing himself against the frame of the car door, his legs swung over the seat, as you gingerly approach.
âWhat?â you ask. Â
This close, you can smell his faint cologne, mingling with the scent of alcohol and sweat.Â
This close, you can see the way his eyes are slightly unfocused; his mouth, still bearing the hint of a glowing smile.Â
âYouââ he croaks out.Â
His gaze darts to your lips. Itâs a blink-and-youâll-miss-it moment. You donât miss it.
Your breath stills in your chest, and Soonyoung is looking up at your face like heâs searching for something. Denial? Reciprocity?Â
He must not have found what he was looking for, because the words he grumbles are, âIâm going to hurl.âÂ
Wonwooâs panicked shriek cuts through the otherwise quiet parking lot.Â
âNot in my fucking car, asswipe!âÂ
--
Soonyoungâs hangover the next day is comical.Â
You canât help but snicker as he rolls up to the showcaseâs dry run with shades over his eyes and a large cup of coffee in his shaking hands.Â
âYou suck,â he hisses to you as he slides on to the bench next to you. Teacher Kang is busy heralding the students, getting them into their costumes and places, so the two of you have a minute alone before the hubbub strikes up.Â
âYouâre the one who canât hold down his alcohol,â you respond, eyeing his slumped form with amusement.Â
Soonyoung mumbles some incoherent cusses, his free hand reaching up to rub at his temples.Â
âGod, my last memory was Hong coming up to the table,â he grouses.Â
Youâre reminded of the inordinate amount of alcohol he downed in your brief absence. I wonder whatâs gotten into him, Wonwoo had said.Â
âThat clears,â you say sympathetically.Â
Thereâs a momentâs pause before Soonyoung tentatively asks, âDid the two of you everâŠ?âÂ
You donât immediately register what heâs asking about Joshua. When it hits you, though, you find a startled laugh sliding past your lips. Because thereâs Wonwooâs answer, even though you donât recognize it then and there.Â
âHong? No, no.â For reasons you canât quite explain, you feel compelled to tack on, âI havenât really had the time to date.âÂ
âOh.â It kills you, how Soonyoung almost sounds relieved. âMe, too. I meanâ me neither.âÂ
âAh.âÂ
âRunning a dance studio is a lot of work.âÂ
âRight.âÂ
âAnd Iâm sureâ law school, right? That was a lot of work, too.âÂ
âRight, yeah.âÂ
Itâs a stilted conversation, one heavy in its implications. The real things that the two of you want to say, want to address, linger on the surface, but neither of you seem to want to break that ice.Â
You settle, instead, for this moment. For the negligible distance between the two of you on the bleachers and how it closes, slow but steady, like the ticking hands of a clock.Â
Your shoulder just barely presses against Soonyoungâs.Â
Neither of you move away.Â
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âBecause I love you, and I miss you.âÂ
âYouâre lying.âÂ
âOnly one of those is a lie, actually.âÂ
--
Youâve always liked being front of house during the showcase.
Youâre a familiar face to the parents of the children, to the community members who attended the event every year. Their warmth is a welcome reprieve from your nerves.Â
You make small talk. You usher people to their seats. You try not to wonder where the hell Kwon Soonyoung is.Â
Despite having his calling card, you havenât deigned to reach out. Itâs tucked away in a drawer at home; you donât quite know what to do with it. Maybe youâll actually save his number one of these days.Â
Youâre entertaining the thought when you feel a hand at your elbow. The smiling face of Iseulâs motherâ the pompous but well-meaning Mrs. Hwangâ greets you.Â
âThereâs no need for that,â she says with a chuckle as you fold into a bow. You donât miss the way she nonetheless preens at your formalities. Itâs why you keep up with it.Â
You let her link your arms and, out of instinct, you begin to lead her to one of the free seats in the auditorium. âAre you excited for this yearâs show, Mrs. Hwang?â you ask conversationally.Â
âYou know it,â she answers. âIseul has been talking non-stop about her performance, but she refuses to tell me what song to expect!â
Youâd recognize Mrs. Hwangâs baiting tendencies from a mile away. With a curt giggle, you tell her, âYouâll find out soon enough, Mrs. Hwang. I promise itâll be worth the suspense.âÂ
The older woman gives you a disapproving frown, but it smooths out as she seems to realize a change in topic. The auditorium is notably a little more packed this year, enough to have the volunteers bringing out additional Monobloc chairs.Â
âI guess people want to see what the Kwon boy has done to the showcase, hm?â she notes, speaking into existence the fact that youâve neglected to acknowledge so far.
Surprisingly, you donât feel bitter about it. People were showing up to assess Soonyoungâs choreography, to bask in the product of his labor. Thereâs a twinge of something in your chest. It could almost be mistaken for pride. Â
Mrs. Hwang tacks on, âMighty shame.âÂ
That throws you off. âPardon?âÂ
She doesnât respond immediately, her eyes zeroing in on an empty chair by the front of the stage. She practically drags you there as she continues, âItâs really so unfortunate. The whole thing about his dance studio tanking.âÂ
The whole thing about his dance studio tanking.Â
What the hell was she talking about?Â
The universe, once again, had to be messing with you. Youâre convinced this is some skit. Some buildup to a joke.Â
But the punch line never comes, and you end up admitting, âI donât think Iâve heard about that yet, Mrs. Hwang.âÂ
Your voice is surprisingly even for someone whose world was closing in. If Mrs. Hwang can sense the trepidation in your demeanor, she makes no indication of it. Youâre grateful for her obliviousness, even, because she only keeps talking as she settles into her seat.Â
âMy girls are always talking about it,â she says, referring to the group of forty-something-year-old women who like to gather and gossip in the townâs sole Italian restaurant. âThatâs why heâs back. Couldnât hack it out there.âÂ
When she glances up at you with a scrutinizing expression, you just know youâre not going to like what she says next. Youâre proven right when she says, âWe thought heâd ask for your help, actually. Isnât liquidation your specialty?âÂ
You canât be bothered to correct the woman over the technicalities. You give her a tight smile, a nod of your head, a polite âgoodbyeâ as you take your leave.Â
There are much more pressing matters, you think to yourself, as you go to greet more guests, make sure the music is all queued up, check in on the hostâs script.
You didnât spend over a month preparing for tonight only to lose yourself before itâs even begun. You refuse to let the new piece of information trip you up, even though it has your heart acting like a caged animal underneath your ribs.Â
The showcase goes by without a hitch. The children are more than phenomenal; theyâre perfect.Â
The audience is enamored. The teachers are overjoyed.Â
You want nothing more than to go home and tear up Soonyoungâs calling card.Â
As the showcase wraps up to enthusiastic applause, Teacher Kang snatches the microphone from the host for one last announcement.Â
âThis wouldnât have been possible without two of our very tireless volunteers,â she says, andâ from backstageâ you wince. Before you know it, youâre being pushed out onto the stage.
Soonyoung exits from the other stage wing.
Heâs managed to evade you the entire showcase, and now you realize why. In his arms, he holds a monstrous bouquet. Yellow acacias, striped carnations, bunch-flowered daffodils. Your first thought is how expensive it might have been, to find out-of-season blooms in the thick of winter.Â
Your second thought is that you want to hurl, but thatâs neither here nor there.Â
As Soonyoung strides in from the other side of the stage to meet you in the middle, he sees it. He sees the hint of trepidation underneath your practiced grin, sees the way your eyes flash momentarily. His own grin drops ever so slightly.Â
But the two of you are in an auditorium, on a stage in front of Namyangjuâs best and brightest. Neither of you can afford to give voice to what you feel.Â
Soonyoung hands you the bouquet. You nod in acknowledgement.Â
The two of you instinctively reach for each otherâs hands.
You hadnât noticed that the crowd had gotten to their feet. A standing ovation. It feels like an echo of the past, a cruel reminder of an alternate universe.Â
Even so, your smile never wavers. Neither does Soonyoungâs. He raises your hand. The two of you take a bow.Â
The Great Pretenders put on their best show yet.
--
âWhat was that?âÂ
A part of you is surprised that Soonyoung found you. The moment the showcase officially concluded, you were booking it out of the auditorium before he could even get a word in edgewise. Gracefully, the dozens of people hounding him for photos and small talk let you widen the gap.Â
Still, he caught up. Just as you were passing by the godforsaken playground that had witnessed the ending of it all. Oh, the universe and its jokes.Â
Soonyoung is red-faced, like youâd embarrassed him somehow despite the convincing act you both put on. Your fingers tighten around the bouquet he gave you.Â
âWhat was that?â he repeats, and what little restraint you had left snaps.Â
âWhy did you come home?â you ask point blank.Â
âTeacher KangââÂ
âDonât,â you snipe. âTeacher Kang asked you last year. And the year before that. Why did you come home now, Soonyoung?âÂ
The question hangs heavy in the early December evening. You and Soonyoung are staring at each other, mere paces away from the swing set where the two of you made your choices.
He doesnât answer right away, so you prompt him with, âIs it because of me?âÂ
Soonyoung misinterprets the question. You can see the way his eyes light up, the way his lips part like heâs just about to say something of consequence.Â
You almost feel guilty about the next words that tear out of you. âYouâre going bankrupt,â you say, and the hope on his face fizzles out like a popped lightbulb.Â
âWho told youââ he chokes out.Â
âSo itâs true?âÂ
Kwon Soonyoung is struck dumb.
Soonyoung, whose mouth ran faster than his brain. Soonyoung, who was full of quick quips and witty remarks.Â
Soonyoung, who is now staring at you like youâve told him the world was about to end.Â
You contemplate throwing his bouquet in his face. It will make for a dramatic, pretty pictureâ the petals falling onto the soft snow, the fuck you loud despite being unspoken. For now, you only clutch the arrangement closer to your chest like it's a lifeline.
âAnd here I thoughtââ Your breath hitches on a scoff, the puff of air visible in the chill. âI was a fool who thought you came back for me.âÂ
The truth cuts. Your laugh bitterly as you go on, âI guess you still did, though, huh? Because you need me. What? Were you hoping to avail of cheap services, Kwon?âÂ
âThatâs notââÂ
âThatâs exactly it!â Your tone is shrill. Soonyoung always did bring out the worst in you. âYou were away for six years, and now youâve come crawling backââÂ
âDo you think I wanted to fail?âÂ
Soonyoungâs voice rises, his frustration bubbling over to match yours.Â
âI starved out there,â he bites out. âAte cup noodles for a year so the studio could afford rent for one more month. Sold half of my stuff so I could pay my employees. It was so hard.âÂ
The way Soonyoungâs voice breaks on the last word makes something in your heart clench. For a moment, you think it might be pity, but you kill the feeling as soon as it tries to make itself known.Â
You donât want to pity Soonyoung, which is both an insult and a grace.Â
âWhy didnât you say anything?â you ask instead, even though a part of you already knows the answer.Â
A sound thatâs almost like a delirious laugh escapes him. âNot when I was the one who made it out,â he responds.Â
You never realized how much youâd prefer Soonyoungâs cocky, self-assured self over this version of him. This boyâ manâ who is defeated and resigned. Even in your anger, there is a small part of you that wants to do something to wipe that look off his face. Â
âI made it out,â he repeats wearily, like itâs taking everything in him to face the truth of being Namyangjuâs failing poster boy.Â
He continues, âI gave up everything to be there. I gave up you.â
Your grip on the bouquet tightens. Thereâs a faint prickle behind your eyes, but you refuse to let those tears fall. âYou did that like it was easy,â you mumble, your voice just loud enough to carry.Â
Soonyoung meets your gaze. He looks like heâs on the verge of sobbing himself, but his tone brokers no arguments.Â
âIt wasnât,â he says.
And that was that.Â
Youâve never been able to stand not having the last word. You clear your throat, attempting to speak through the lump forming there. âYeah, well,â you say shakily. âYouâre not the only one who lost something.âÂ
Itâs a shitty comparison and you know it. Soonyoungâs sacrifices dwarf yours. You werenât the one who moved away, who bore the weight of an entire cityâs pride.Â
Thankfully, Soonyoung doesnât call you out on it. He only takes a sharp exhale and turns his gaze away, his eyes fixed on the swings.Â
When he speaks, his voice is quiet. Almost like the words are an afterthought. âFor the recordâ that night?â he says. You donât have to ask for clarification. You know exactly which night heâs talking about.Â
âI was hoping youâd change my mind,â he confesses.Â
A physical blow to the chest would have hurt less. You stagger, but you try to mask it like youâre taking a step back. Like youâre walking away, even as your eyes never leave Soonyoungâs face.Â
âAnd I was hoping Iâd be worth staying for,â you say with a humorless laugh, the distance between the two of you growing, growing, growing.Â
Your parting words are the proverbial nail on the coffin: âI guess we both didnât get what we wanted.âÂ
--
âWhy did you come home?âÂ
âI didnât know where else to go.âÂ
--
For once, Jihoon and Wonwoo have nothing to say.Â
No wisecrack. No jab. No exchange of money in some backhanded bet.Â
They listen as you recount the salient points of the argument. You keep the personal stuff out of your own retelling, focusing only on the broad strokes. The biggest concern lies in one nagging question.Â
âDid you know?â you ask, your hands bracing the table in front of you.Â
âNo,â Jihoon says immediately.Â
Wonwoo chimes in with a quiet âMe neither.âÂ
You know these boys. Youâve seen them lie to their parents about their homework, lie to their girlfriends about where they were.Â
Theyâre not lying now. You know that much.Â
A shaky exhale escapes you. Itâs been three days since the fight and youâve yet to run into Soonyoung. You wouldnât hold it past him to avoid you, either by steering clear from the places you frequent or getting on the first bus back to Seoul.Â
âWhen he asked about how you were doing,â Jihoon says gruffly. âI thought it was justâ yearning or some shit.âÂ
âMe, too,â Wonwoo adds.Â
Yearning or shit. The words almost make you laugh.Â
The pinched expression on your face prompts Wonwoo to ask, âAre you upset?âÂ
âUpsetâ feels like too light of a term to describe the maelstrom of emotions within you. There are facts: You wish you had known. You could have afforded to be kinder. You are afraid that you will never stop being angry.Â
âAh.â His face is thoughtful, understanding. âBecause you expected something from him.âÂ
âThatâs not it,â you say dryly.Â
It is.Â
The three of you lapse into contemplative silence. Jihoon breaks it after a couple of moments, his tone soft and serious.Â
âI know itâs shitty,â he says. âBut I do hope that heâs okay.âÂ
That would be the mature thing to do. Even Wonwoo is nodding his agreement, willing to set aside his own gripes in favor of well wishing.
You canât bring yourself to do the same. The platitude sticks in your throat until you feel like it will suffocate you.Â
--
Soonyoung has an alibi for not showing up to Teacher Kangâs post-processing session.Â
Youâre grateful that the elderly woman doesnât go on about the details of his absence. She mentions something about him being busy with the holidays, and you take it in stride.Â
You try not to picture the way his jaw mightâve twitched before sending out the text, before lying to get away.Â
âEverybody loved the show,â Teacher Kang gushes. âIâm so proud of you, dear. I really do hope we can have Soonyoung on board more often.âÂ
An offhand joke of âweâll probably be seeing a lot more of him in the near futureâ crosses your mind, but you hold it back. You may be calloused, but youâre not heartless.Â
You nod. You agree with Teacher Kang. You hold it together, up until youâre halfway out the door and she calls you back for one last word.Â
âYou know,â she starts. âI remember the two of you when you were kids.â
Youâd been dreading thisâ the inevitable trip down memory lane. You thought you had escaped it, but now youâre facing it with one of the worldâs fakest smiles.Â
âThat was a long time ago,â you say.Â
âIt was.â Thereâs a glimmer in Teacher Kangâs eye. Something unbearably tender. âSoonyoung always made you smile a certain way. Youâve started smiling like that again. Itâs nice to see.âÂ
You donât know how you manage to laugh it off, to bid Teacher Kang goodbye and make your way back to your car. Your hands are shaking as you slide into the driverâs seat of your car.
The schoolâs parking lot is gracefully empty. Itâs a good thing, because then no one can hear you as you fold in half and screech.Â
You scream until your voice goes hoarse, until the windows shake.Â
You scream until you canât hear the way your chest is caving in on your heart.Â
--
Your theory of running into everyone but Soonyoung is proven when youâre sooner to cross paths with Mama Kwon.
Your carts nearly collide in the pasta aisle of the grocery store. Youâre already bowing, apologizing profusely, when you realize that you recognize the woman holding a can of pesto.
She says your name with the fondness that could rival your own motherâs. It takes everything in you not to bolt at the sound of it.
âWhat a coincidence,â she says with a tinkling laugh.Â
You know in your heart of hearts that itâs exactly that. A coincidence. Still, you canât help but think some higher power is out to get you. Call it karmic justice.Â
âHow have you been, Mrs. Kwon?â you ask, feeling the slight nip of not addressing the woman as you typically might.Â
She notices too, if her slightly furrowed brow is any indication. She manages to rearrange her expression into something more neutral as she answers.Â
âYou know how the holidays are,â she says, wielding her pesto bottle in an absentminded gesture. âItâs a full house!âÂ
That stings.Â
Youâve heard from your mother how the past couple of years, Mama Kwon would complain about her household feeling empty during the holidays. The seat at the dining table stayed vacant for the son that refused to come home.Â
You donât know how much she knows about the state of the dance studio, so you decide to play it safe. âIâm sure it is,â you say.Â
The small talk is tearing you up from the inside, but you donât want to be rude. Donât want to be a stranger to the woman who once cared for you so deeplyâ who probably still cares for you, if you really thought of it.Â
The question is out of you before you can hold it back. âAre you with Soonyoung?âÂ
What would you even do with that information? Would you have booked it if she said âyes, heâs right around the cornerâ? Would you have cried if she revealed that he headed back to the city?Â
Youâre not sure.Â
Hereâs what happens instead: A sigh nearly breaks out of you when Mama Kwon responds, âHeâs in the next shop over, getting some repairs for the car. Weâre meeting at Italianni's for lunch.âÂ
Still here, a small voice murmurs in the back of your mind. Hasnât left for Seoul just yet.Â
You shake the thought away as Mama Kwon delicately prompts, âWould you like to join us?âÂ
Mama Kwon is probably not inviting you solely out of politeness. Sheâs making the offer because she wants you to be there. She wants you to be at the same table as her family, sharing a pizza and whatever the restaurantâs special for the day is. She wants you to sit next to Soonyoung and play nice, even though you currently canât stomach the thought of being anywhere near him.Â
For some reason, it makes you want to cry.Â
To lose somebody in a breakup is painful, yes. To lose all the things that came with itâ like the family that you might have learned to love yourself?Â
A different type of ache all together.Â
Your smile is so painfully fake, almost hurting the edges of your mouth, as you try to let her down gently. âI wouldnât want to impose,â you say. âBut thank you for thinking of me.âÂ
For once, The Great Pretenders is met with negative reviews.Â
Then again, nothing ever really escaped Mama Kwonâs scrutinizing gaze. She surveys your expression and purses her lips. You can practically see the way that the cogs turn in her brain, as if trying to decide on the response that will do the least amount of damage.Â
It doesnât matter how gentle she tries to be. The words that she eventually extends still hurt like a bitch.Â
âHe still talks about you a lot,â she muses.Â
Oh.Â
âOh?âÂ
âNothing bad,â Mama Kwon says quickly. She laughs again, smiling very much like how her son might.Â
âJustââ She leans in. Your body autonomously mimics the action.
Youâre reminded of being younger, of when sheâd do the exact same thing to whisper you some âsecretâ. I got Soonyoung new shoes for Christmas. The car side mirror is busted because of me. I packed you extra of those choco pies you like.Â
Today, she whispers, âI think he came home for you.âÂ
--
âWhy did you come home?â
âI had a nightmare that I visited and I couldnât recognize a thing. All the street names were different. The buildings were new. I kept running, trying to look for something familiar, and I justâ I was just lost. And that sucked. This was mine once. You know?âÂ
âIt still is.âÂ
âYou donât have to lie to me. It isnât anymore. It hasnât been for a long time.âÂ
--
âYou know, I really have missed your motherâs cooking.â
You smile ruefully at Soonyoungâs words.Â
Heâs digging heartily into your motherâs signature kimchi jjigae, and you have half the mind to tell him to close his mouth as he chews. Instead, you let him devour the dish.Â
It had taken a little bit of masterminding to pull this off. Maybe it wouldâve been easier to send Soonyoung a text of Letâs meet up, but your blasted pride was one of the last things you had left. Youâd be damned if you were going to give that away, too.Â
You enlisted Jihoon and Wonwooâs help in orchestrating this, in convincing Soonyoung that he could sneak into your family restaurant undetected. Sure, the blonde had been more than a little miffed when his friends ditched him and left him with you, though his irritation was short-lived in the face of the food he had been craving for God-knows-how-long.Â
âMaybe thatâs because youâve only been eating shin ramyun,â you point out.Â
Soonyoung barely looks up from his bowl as he shovels more food into his mouth. âLow blow,â he says in between bites. Â
You wince. âSorry.âÂ
âYouâre not really sorry.âÂ
âNo, I am.âÂ
That drags Soonyoungâs attention away from his stew.Â
His guarded expression slots right back into place, like heâs realizing you have some ulterior motive beyond feeding him. He rests his spoon against his bowl and leans back into his chair. With one eyebrow raised, he says, âThis feels a lot like the lead-in to a breakup.âÂ
A bark of laughter escapes you. Of course Soonyoung would make a joke like that.Â
You reach into your pocket until youâve found what youâre looking for. Wordlessly, you slide it across the table until itâs resting by Soonyoungâs hand.
âIâll give you a discount,â you tell him. âBut only, like, fifteen percent. Anything more than that is just pushing it.âÂ
Your calling card stares up at him. It bears your name along with your firmâs address, your phone number, and your title. Consumer bankruptcy lawyer.Â
Even now, Soonyoung canât help but be expressive. His wide eyes are fixed on the card youâve laid out. For a moment, your offer hangs in precious balance, but you donât have a single urge to take it back. Itâs entirely, wholly for Soonyoung to take.Â
He asks the question that you know is coming. âWhy are you doing this?â he says, his words like a raw nerve.Â
You almost smile. Almost.Â
In the past week that youâve mulled it over, youâve reached at least a dozen different answers.Â
Because Jihoon and Wonwoo worry about you.
Because itâs the right thing to do.Â
Because Teacher Kang talks about you like you hung the stars and the moon.Â
Because I owe you one.Â
Because I donât want you to let Mama Kwon down.
Because Iâve missed you, and I want you to be happy, even if that happiness has nothing to do with me.Â
The answer that eventually, finally comes to you is none of the above.Â
You simply say, âBecause youâre my favorite ex.âÂ
--
The call asking for your help never comes.Â
A couple of days after that lunch, you find something on your desk. Your calling card.Â
If it werenât for one small thing, you wouldâve thought that it was a stray card of yours that youâd forgotten. But then you catch sight of a doodle in one corner right before youâre about to tuck the card away in your closet.Â
A crude drawing of a tiger, with crescent-shaped eyes and a toothy smile.Â
You instantly know what it means. Sure enough, you hear from Jihoon that same evening.Â
Kwon Soonyoung has left as quietly as he arrived.Â
There is relief. There is regret. How you feel ultimately doesnât matter, because you knew it would always come to thisâ a choice being made.
He left. You stayed.Â
The world spins madly on.Â
The last of the snow is melting on an unassuming Tuesday afternoon when your phone pings in your pocket. You fish it out to find two texts from an unknown number. The first is a link to a news article.Â
Youâre suspicious, but curiosity always did kill the cat. The article loads and fills your screen.
Eye of the Tiger Dance Studio To Start Offering Child-Friendly Dance Lessons
By: Xu Minghao
SEOUL, South Korea â Eye of the Tiger Dance Studio, founded by renowned choreographer and performer Kwon Soonyoung, better known as HOSHI, is expanding its mission to inspire a new generation of dancers. The studio announced it will officially begin offering child-friendly dance lessons following a successful pilot program last month.
Parents and young aspiring dancers can look forward to the official launch of child-friendly lessons early next year. According to HOSHI, the initiative aims to ânurture the joy of dance from an early age and build a foundation for self-expression and confidence.â
The studio piloted its first all-children dance classes in January, offering a creative and supportive environment for young dancers to explore movement. The programâs success has led to an upcoming showcase featuring the children at the KB Art Hall in Gangnam.Â
HOSHI, celebrated for his innovative choreography and passion for dance, revealed the inspiration behind this new direction.Â
âThere was a time I felt lost, like I had lost my purpose for dance,â HOSHI shared, reflecting on a challenging period in his career. âI was going through the motions, using dance as a way to distract myself from everything else, rather than embracing it as a part of who I am.âÂ
âBut I realized something important recently,â he goes on. âDance shouldnât be an escape or a vacation. It should be a homecoming.âÂ
And thatâs exactly what they hope to do with their upcoming showcase. Details on the event can be found here.Â
The second text bears only a couple of words, but it changes the ending of everything.
Thereâs only one seat that will matter in that auditorium, it reads.
How to Be Delusional and Still Get Your Man - by gyubakeries (Ph.D in Delusions)
do your friends tell you that youâre âbeing too delusionalâ? or that thereâs no way that the guy who made eye contact with you actually likes you back? well, what if i told you there was a way to prove them all wrong? hereâs 13 fool-proof methods to bag the guy youâre thirsting over (including but not limited to the members of SEVENTEEN themselves.)
welcome to the masterlist for celebrating seventeenâs 10th anniversary! this mini-series will contain short fics that prove that being delusional works.
comment on this post or send an ask to be added to the series taglist! all fics for this series will be posted under the tag #carathow <3
without any further ado, here are the 13 methods that will bring your delusional thoughts to life đ
MANIFESTATION // CHOI SEUNGCHEOL
become a manifestation pro to score a date with your campus crush!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
DOOMSCROLLING // YOON JEONGHAN
do exactly the opposite of what your FYP tells you to do to accidentally summon your project partner!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
LOVE LETTER // HONG JOSHUA
buy expensive stationery to write your crushâs feelings for you into existence!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
SPELL JAR // WEN JUNHUI
collect paraphernalia that reminds you of the cute barista at the campus cafe to get him to like you!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
10:10 // KWON SOONYOUNG
convert into a tiger devotee to win the heart of your fellow tiger-obsessed roommate!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
BIRTHDAY WISH // JEON WONWOO
blow out the candles of your birthday cake while wishing for the cute guy from the bookstore to ask you out!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
ZODIAC SIGNS // LEE JIHOON
become an expert in reading your classmateâs horoscope to match it with yours!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT // LEE SEOKMIN
fulfil your rom-com fantasies by falling in love with the guy who delivers pizza to you!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
LOVE POTION // KIM MINGYU
practice borderline witchcraft to get your friend to fall irreversibly in love with you!
hereâs how to do it: [link to article]
SOULMATE INITIALS // XU MINGHAO
trust that the initial âMâ, specifically your âMâ, is your future soulmate!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
GRAPES // BOO SEUNGKWAN
hoard as many grapes as you can to make sure that you are the only person your neighbour has eyes for in the new year!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
EYELASHES // CHWE HANSOL
make your brotherâs best friend chase you for once after you teach him the magic of wishing on lashes!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
SHOOTING STAR // LEE CHAN
take your best friend out stargazing and hope that at least one star heard your wish!
hereâs how to do it: [article coming soon!]
thank you ally for your suggestions, rae for coming in clutch with a banner, and serena for inspiring me!