Casualty Prompt Month
Day 4: Scar
The bathroom mirror was kinder in low light. Stevie had discovered that weeks ago. If she kept the door only half open and left the bedroom lamp on instead of the overhead light, the reflection blurred just enough that she could almost ignore it.
Almost.
She let the towel slip from around her shoulders.
The scar down her abdomen had faded from angry red to pale pink, but it still caught her eye first. It traced a line she never expected to have, a permanent reminder of the day her cyst had burst at work, of frightened faces she usually saw from the other side of a resuscitation bay.
The emergency surgery.
The mass on her ovary.
Waking to discover the surgeons hadn't just removed it — they'd removed her uterus too.
She rested her fingertips lightly against the skin.
Then her eyes drifted upwards.
The port sat beneath the skin just below her collarbone, a small, unmistakable bump. The bruising was long gone, but she still hated looking at it.
It made everything feel... visible. Like her body had become a map of everything that had gone wrong.
"You disappeared."
Stevie startled.
Mali was leaning against the bedroom door, dressed in leggings and one of Stevie's oversized hoodies, her hair curling under her chin.
"I knocked."
"I didn't hear."
"I guessed."
For a moment neither of them spoke.
Stevie instinctively folded her arms across herself.
"I know," she said before Mali could say anything. "It's stupid."
Mali frowned. "What is?"
"This," She gestured vaguely towards herself. "I look..."
The words refused to come.
Mali stepped closer, stopping just within arm's reach. "You know what I see?"
Stevie looked unconvinced.
"My girlfriend."
"Mali."
"The woman who steals my hoodies."
"They're my hoodies."
"The woman who insists coriander tastes like soap."
"It does."
"The woman who secretly cries at animal rescue programmes."
"They always find the cats homes."
Mali smiled softly.
"And the woman I happen to think is ridiculously beautiful."
Stevie's eyes dropped.
"You don't have to say that."
"I know."
"You don't."
"I want to."
Stevie swallowed. "I hate looking at myself."
The admission hung heavily between them.
"I see the scar first."
Mali nodded. "Okay."
"And the port."
"Okay."
"I don't recognise..." Stevie's voice cracked. "I don't recognise my own body anymore."
There it was. The truth she'd been carrying alone.
Mali reached for her hand rather than pulling her into a hug. "I won't tell you to love your scars."
Stevie blinked. "I'm not there yet."
"No."
"And I won't tell you they happened for a reason."
"Thank you."
"They happened because you were desperately ill."
Stevie nodded once.
"But they also happened because you lived."
Silence.
Mali lifted Stevie's hand and placed it gently over her own heart.
"This body got you here."
Then she covered Stevie's hand with hers and guided it back to the scar across her abdomen.
"This body survived surgery."
Her fingers moved carefully to the port beneath Stevie's collarbone.
"This body got through months of chemotherapy."
Tears blurred Stevie's vision. "I don't feel brave."
"I didn't say brave."
"No?"
"I said survived."
Something inside Stevie loosened.
Mali stepped closer then, giving Stevie every chance to move away.
She didn't.
Instead she let herself be gathered into warm arms, resting her forehead against Mali's shoulder.
"I miss feeling like me."
"You will."
"What if I don't?"
Mali kissed her temple.
"Then we'll learn this version together."
Stevie laughed through the tears.
"'We'll'?"
"Always."
For the first time in weeks, Stevie looked back at the mirror. The scars hadn't disappeared. Neither had the port.
But when Mali's reflection smiled at her over her shoulder, they weren't the only things she could see anymore.


















