Jan 4, 2023
blasting my silly little music and creating my silly little daydreams so i don’t lose my silly little mind
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blasting my silly little music and creating my silly little daydreams so i don’t lose my silly little mind
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I’m not even kidding when I say that I could keep myself occupied by daydreaming for (probably) months, if not years. I have a list on my phone for all of the “daydreaming scenarios” I like to escape into whenever I desire. Anyway, there’s that…
maladaptive daydreamers of tumblr, do you also occasionally get stuck in daydream episodes where you just cant stop? no matter how hard you try. and it’s almost unwanted like, i just do it and i’m not even realizing i’m wasting a whole day daydreaming just trying to get back to reality and escape my head, but i physically cant. like the dissociation is so bad and you just kind of feel like you aren’t even living, the whole day goes by and you’re like huh
in my daydreams i am loved and cared for. i will hide in my mind
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begging people to understand that maladaptive daydreaming isnt just "likes to daydream" or "vivid imagination". no, it means i struggle to control when i daydream. most of the time i cannot listen to music or funny media without it triggering a daydream. i often spend hours a day daydreaming, and if im not at a place like school or in a car i cannot stop myself from pacing while i do it, even as im in excruciating pain from it (chronic pain). it can be physically painful when i try and resist daydreaming (though luckily that has started to get better).
it has impacted my mental health in many ways. i consume media that hurts me because its good for the daydream. it has impacted me participating in activities i want to do because its hard to stop daydreaming until it dies down on its own. it has impacted my memory. some days its easier, in some situations it can feel beneficial (though is that just the "coping skill" part of it talking?), but others it gets in the way of everything.
Love is a story I have only ever read secondhand. I know its plots from books. Sometimes I imagine stepping into the pages, pressing my palm to the paper until the words open and let me inside. Though it may never step from page to flesh, I cling to the feeling.
At night, the stories haunt me. I replay the lines, inventing myself as the protagonist. I rehearse the dialogue, whispering to no one, convincing myself I know what it feels like to love. At times I think it’s become unhealthy, this endless hunger for a life I’ve only borrowed from the experience of others. Yet still, I dream on. For in the act of dreaming, I’m closer to it than in my waking hours.
— мєяакι
this kind of pissed me off because some people who are responding to this is making it seem like maladaptive daydreaming is some whimsical nonsense and coming up with fake scenarios in order to sleep at night. while that can be true, MALADAPTIVE means negatively affecting to function daily.
like it is NOT normal.
no hate to OP! just to give my two cents