#making art

there's a humble bundle for 12 months of clipstudio, a ton of assets, and a permanent license to an animation program i haven't tried for only $25 right now ...

it's been much easier to art with proper tools. not that i'm any good yet.

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I showed a five minute clip of this concert I played to a family member (the concert was half an hour), and not only could they not be bothered to watch that much the only reaction I got was "Yeah, cute."

Do you know how many hours of collective rehearsal was in that, "yeah, cute"?

You can't make art on "Yeah, cute." It took all my free time and my last braincell to keep up with a professional orchestral score.

But there will always be people who do not care, no matter what it takes to make it, no matter how high you feel when you do it or how crashed out after.

I don't show my achievements to them. They wouldn't value them no matter how good or bad they were.

Which, you know, is their right - but it makes you feel very lonely. Maybe something that gives so much, but not before asking so much... is silly. "Not that deep." But... You just don't get something good on 'whatever.' Art that makes you feel something takes dedication, anything that makes people feel something takes intense dedication. And intense dedication makes you feel an awful lot. And when talking to people on Tumblr... They get it. Maybe when I get a little more into things than even other practioners will, at some point.

I also grabbed a blank journal so I can take notes or jot down ideas. And keep anything else in the creativity spectrum in one spot so it's easier to find instead of in my bullet journal or whatever.

I love the floral edge. It was an impulse Walmart purchase (fairly recently), and I'm happy to find a use for it pretty much immediately. I tend to buy things and they might sit for months or years but eventually the perfect use presents itself so I trust the process.

I also have a rainbow magic book from the same person who created the card deck, but it's in my witchy books I believe so whenever I'm feeling up to it I can grab those. And that should be everything, I think. I do want to get the other Austin Kleon books because I liked them all but only own one.

So we'll see about that maybe on the Amazon order in a couple days, if affordable. I got the first one at a garage sale years ago, totally awesome find, I'd already read them. I was so pleased to grab it. So back to today's project, which is basically to just figure out what I want to try.

I've dabbled in a million things but I've never really had a super defined art style and I'm trying to develop a base of ideas to investigate. First I figured out which art movements appealed to me, next I wrote notes about exactly WHY I liked them. Now I'm trying to figure out what methods, techniques, styles, and all that will help me learn more about how to make art in those ways I find appealing.

I do seem to have a pretty consistent vision for what I enjoy and why, so I'm hoping to develop skills to make things now. So I got out some prompt books and stuff to give myself practice spaces. And some books on general creativity to help me along if I feel stuck.

I also have a big list I've been making of stuff I like, just random stuff like favorite animals, plants, and so on. So if I need ideas I can like, see that list and maybe find something. I figured it might be useful in some way, anyhow.