#lyric reference

Non-aesthetic yapping:

Ohhh heck yeah, that's for Nagyunn for treating Lauzun like shit!!!! >:D Oh my poor guy... he's been through so much..

He just wants something back. Just one something....

"Just one something": I believe (im probably wrong but WHATEVERRR) he knew the masked person was still Nagyunn/Najin, and was very mad he put them in this situation.

He's probably fed up with Nagyunn always taking him from granted, FOREVER suspecting him of being a spy even though he's been nothing but kind and loyal to him, and YK WHAT?? Even if he IS a spy, this is so......... This is so shitty of Nagyunn. This is unbelievably shitty of him...

I relate to Lauzun a lot. No, more like... I have been him. I have tear him open and felt what it's like to be in his shoes. Might not be accurate what I felt but I felt so many things.

Once I was told that Mitski and Lauzun wouldn't be relaistic, since Lauzun "can't comprehend all that emotion" or something. I probably misunderstood, but that's how it felt. First, I shrugged it off; people have different opinions. But later, I got soooo mad. SO MAD.

Lauzun HAS autistic traits. That's why he's called "dumb", "numb", "dense" and shit. I am very entangled with both Lauzun and autism, and it makes my blood boil that some people believe that austistic people can't comprehend or can't relate to heavy emotions bc what.

In my experience, even though it's common, it's not just either "I feel nothing" and "I feel too much" or accompanied by "I don't understand these feelings very well.....". It's more like, I can feel things neurotypical people have a hard time understanding or feeling. Metaphors and such. And guess what type of lyrics does Mitski uses.

I'm still not comfortable talking about myself, especially this personal stuff. But Lauzun is so important to me, that's basically the only reason I made an execption this time. ^^" I am still super insecure about....... many things.

But I'm not angry anymore.