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Happy 29th Birthday Lynx

It’s done!

It's time for more of the BBAFH AU by @bbeyondnatural feat. Lynx, and art per usual is by Lyrakoree on twt!

I'm gonna repost what I wrote on reddit, I'm honestly not feeling well enough mentally to add or fix up what I initially wrote either still. Which kind of sucks since I wrote this nearly over a month ago, but... Well, life has sure been hectic!

First thing's first! This art is by lyrakoree. You can find her twitter here: https://x.com/lyrakoree

Thank you Lyra! You've been very patient with me and my beloved L.

I'd like to ramble a bit now that this art piece is completed, I hope you'll all listen to my gushing.

I first got into Death Note over a decade ago, at the time I couldn't accept that I was in love with a fictional character for a variety of reasons, primarily since I was being heavily abused at the time and... well, it's a long story, really, but. The first piece of merch (if you can call a book merch, lol) I owned of it was the Los Angeles BB Murder Case novel (and it was the only piece of merch I had for a long time). I got it way back at Borders! (((I miss Borders...)))

Around the beginning of the year last year, I rewatched Death Note and fell in love with L all over again. This time, I had already had time to accept I can love, and be in love, fictional characters. However, I had also already deemed it necessary for me to not decide on getting in relationships with fictional characters on a whim; I often take a long time and put a lot of thought into various circumstances and outcomes before deciding on it.

This thus led to around over a year of "trial" for me before I chose to get with L, and finally, as many of you probably already saw over a month ago (although it first happened before then... it's complicated ahaha), I chose to stick by him. ((Obviously this was written with the reddit audience in mind, sorry idk how to fix up the explanation for here </3))

I get this may be silly to some people, but I truly love him. I also believe it's fate that I chose to make it official and public that I was dating him when I did, since shortly after I discovered that a man I reported to the FBI was arrested after we began dating. It truly feels like he helped push for justice and helped me in a time I needed it most.

Uhm... I'm honestly very sleep deprived writing this. So while there's so many other things I want to say, I don't really know how to put them into words, or really, do them any justice. I'm just so happy I chose to stop ignoring my feelings after all these years.