#lurking

I'm annoyed

Seeing your face gives me chills

Seeing your erratic actions

Make me wonder

Why do you keep lurking?

The fuck

You know that I know

You're lurking, boy, don't lie

I know you know

You're still on my mind

And I don't know if it's part of some twisted game of yours

Or is it just my stupid, self-centered heart

Who keeps screaming

Tearing my lungs

Every time you stick your head out for a minute

And you leave

Every damn time

I don't know if it's compassion

Thing I don't want from you

Or if it's just feeding your ego

Is my reaction entertaining for your show?

Thing that tastes sour in my mouth

Or why do you keep lurking?

Play and fall by your own hand

This can be a two-person game

And I could play it

God knows I've fallen before

By glances

And maybe it won't be the last time I fall for this

But have the courage to tell me to my face

I'm not crazy

That you were just a coward

He couldn't stop the train before it crashed

And now you're lurking around?

Dude, you don't make it easy

But you're not as cool as I thought,

You're boring, a beige canva

A personality sucker, an imitator

Go find yourself a new place

you never searched, you never knew,

i made it far too easy for you.

i begged in silence, wore my pride,

while all my worth was pushed aside.

someone else once made me shine,

though they no longer call me mine.

lurking again where your echoes grew,

helped me get over someone new.

still, losing you set my heart free

a strange goodbye that rescued me.