#lunaescence

it's a little sad the backup is only till 2010 but that's more then i could ever ask for

i am so incredibly grateful to sally

Discussed Lunaescence a little in a bookclub discord.

I haven't heard a thing from anyone on the team I handed it off to. Going through my documents and emails... brought back a lot of thoughts. None of them great.

While many people have fond memories of Lunaescence, many of mine are pain. I built Lunaescence as a haven for friends who lost everything when FF.net and LJ started their purges of anything even remotely considered smut.

Antis arrived relatively quickly and chased my LGBT friends off. One, posing as a much-needed moderator went through and started purging fics for reasons I didn't entirely understand -- most of them LGBT.

It became a haven for Reader Insert fics that many of you remember so fondly. And I'm very proud of holding that history and safe place for everyone.

However, it also became rife with abuse. People were abusive to me, my mods, and even my developer, who was working on the archive people claimed to love so much for free.

When he left after people ripped him a new one for making a news announcement with spelling issues, I was too poor to afford to hire someone.

And I soon found myself running the archive alone. All my friends left. The volunteer mods were saints to put up with it all.

When my father died, I needed time. He wasn't a nice man or a good man, but he was still my father. My emotions were a mess and I really needed time to sort them out. But I wasn't allowed that. Lunaescence, people insisted, had to come first. Some people went as far as to say, "Waaahhh, life is hard" when I tried to explain.

I won't lie -- Lunaescence got to feel like an abusive boyfriend. I shuddered every time an email arrived regarding the thing I used to love so much.

And I... just gave up.

I'm not necessarily proud of it, but I had zero support. If I discussed it with family or "found family" the discussion of me just deleting it came up. But I couldn't do it. Sometimes, I was millimeters from hitting delete myself. It became more and more painful to even consider working on something I used to love so much.

It felt like a relief when I received that email about a team taking it over. Giving it the love it deserved and the freedom I needed.

Only for it all to vanish with the Winter Storm of 2021.

So back to today: I finally got my hands on some of my old hard drives and computers. I've ordered data recovery tools and I plan to get digging tomorrow and Thursday.

I've already found one backup, dated to 2009 when I fled Michigan and my abusive biological family. I know there's more recent, though I wouldn't have put it past myself to have deleted things because it did feel like I finally broke up with an abusive ex.

I also reached out to Open Doors and they're awaiting my backups. They're getting the whole thing, receipts and all. Hopefully they can do everyone at least some measure of justice.

And me? Closure.

It was an Envy (fullmetal alchemist) X reader and the name was Initial impact. Does anybody know where I could find it ?

Honestly, I handed complete control of Lunaescence over to the team. I'm not even sure I have access to anything anymore.

I know it shut down, (I only found out because I had the thought to post some of my fics) but my last contact with anyone involved was back in Feb 2021 right after the winter storms swept through Texas.

If this isn't you, whoops, you have the same penname. Don't mind me :) I was hoping for the website to be archived by Open Doors, if it's never returning. Hope you're having a great day!

Hello! I am the same Penguiduck!

I'm definitely not leading the revamp, though--that is very much a rumor. lol. I haven't been a moderator since 2019, so I'm in the dark as much as you. I also donated a heavy sum of funds back in the day, so as I'm sure as you can relate, I'm very disappointed in its disappearance.

I'm sorry. I know that isn't the answer you're looking for, but I don't have any leads for you.

You might be curious to know what’s currently going on in the realm of Lunaescence.

In general, we’re focusing on planning, improvements, development of the Revamp, and the continued running of the current site. Admittingly, we’re short staffed at the moment. Because of this, there may be a bit of a delay with things such as story approvals and the Queue. But—even though my focus is elsewhere, I will occasionally jump in as needed to prevent excessive wait times.

For Moderators, you have Dia, Kerrigan Sheehan, Shade, and Goodfellow.

While we certainly do have other members of the Moderation Team, many are busy with real life obligations, and thus, should not be contacted for site related reasons. Any questions you may have should be directed to one of us four. We’re all happy to help, should you encounter an issue and need a Moderator for assistance.

If ever you need to reach a Moderator, you can do so by emailing the main Moderator email [email protected] (which is monitored by more than one Moderator, helping to make sure you get a faster response).

Alternatively, official contact emails are:

Main moderator email: [email protected] Dia: [email protected] Kerrigan Sheehan: [email protected] Shade: [email protected] Goodfellow: [email protected]

While we’re a more short staffed than usual, you can count on us to be here for inquiries or assistance.

(An upside to this is that if you’ve always wanted to be a Moderator here at Lunaescence, we will likely be having applications for new Moderators in the near future—so keep your eyes peeled to announcements if that’s something you’re interested in.)