#lovestay

I'm not ready for this weekend (I have way too much study and to do, I'm going to the DominATE experience to cry like I cried in the DominATE concert like a fucking baby. I'm just too proud of my boys. They've worked really hard, and now they are so big, I'm just too too too proud to the point that I almost cry daily about it, I'm happy they didn't do all the atrocious things the haters told them. I'm really glad they decided to endure it for their dream and their future. They didn't deserve the massive hate and all the people calling them failures and saying they wouldn't go big but now here we are, my big and wonderful little stars, my little boys getting brand deals and breaking records doing world tours and even getting a film. When did you get so big? When did you grow up? It seems it was yesterday that I was crying and nervous for hyunjins college entrance exam. Like, I see pictures of when I started and they look so tiny so cute so so tiny. I still remember when Jeongin got his braces off and started eating ice cream in a way we were all worried that he would have to get them on again. The first ever vlive. The first ever win with them crying a lot and hueningkai clapping as fast as he could, freaking out. The first Chans room and how nervous he looked. The making of the Changbin song and how much fun was being there. The remix. Felix going viral for his deep voice and how people used to compare him to bts Taehyung, and now people compare others to him. The hellevator as the intro of a lot of YouTube videos. They getting happy when on vlive they were getting close to 1M viewers. Hitting the vlive hearts as fast one could to send them our love. The viral Hoodie Season line. When Lee know got Dori. When they went to Chans house. The courtain. When they stopped living all together. Kingdom. Staaaa. Seungmin in the building. More recent things like shu porang porang LeeKnows. When they opened their ig accounts. Tiny hands. Tssk a hairband. Bluesung. Blond Chan. Changbins undercut. The colored pants vlive. When 3racha was out and Jeongin was left unsupervised. When Jeongin woke up late, realized he wouldn't arrive class on time to take his exam, and started a vlive. When they graduated high-school. Hyunjins and Jeongins debut as actors. How beautiful they looked and sounded while performing Neverending story. I am tree!! I'm foive. When chan changed the wall or when we started "staning" his chair. The snow and Vlive filters. When we got our name... the big hugs... I would do things and trust them things I wouldn't with family and real life friends. I have way too much to thank and a few personal apologies that have been eating me alive for the last 7 years. I just love them way more than I can express and definitely way more I can think without crying.