#loveprevails

I will have you know I'm in a perfectly good relationship already with Utowin and Luluci!

If they want me to be a house husband then I would consider it.

As a timid person— or used to be one (I'm saying this because my friends may or may not agree) I fear a lot of things. Even simple ones.

I fear confidence. I fear speaking up. I fear initiating. I fear socializing.

And because of these fears, I get easily intimidated. I almost always mistook confidence for arrogance, capability for trying hard, and socializing as an extreme sport I am in no way fit to do.

I'm sharing this because during our last lesson on Social Psychology, stereotypes was one of the topic highlighted during the activity. And it made me remember my "first impression" towards my friends.

"Akala ko maldita ka," I blurted out to my friend. My voice light and lips tainted with a smile because I know for a fact, this was far from the truth.

"Akala ko rin ganto siya unya ning ani pud siya."

I had my impressions of them even before I got to know them. And when I reflect on myself and relive every memory with them, I'd laugh at my silliness.

Had I not been strong enough to challenge these impressions I had with them, I wouldn't be this fulfilled and happy where I am now.

Sabi nga nila, "don't judge a book by its cover."

Let's try not to judge other people through the lense of unfamiliarity. Let's take time to walk with them and get to know the—

I ask my heart, “what would he have done, had I done this to him?”,

I try to remember the man who loved me

so much and so well for however long it lasted,

And I want to keep on fighting for that man, for Us,

But then again, the heart, tired and weary from holding too long, whispers back to me,

“But, you’d have never done this to him, would you? Not even in worst of your days…”

⚠️ SPOILER ⚠️

Imagine after Dean witnesses Lucifer kill Castiel with the angle blade dean starts getting nightmares about seeing Cas die over and over again, and he ends up screaming, “Cas? Cas! No!,” and Sam comes running into Dean’s room with a gun in hand, and quickly puts it down after he realizes that Dean is just having a nightmare about his best friend (lover) dying. And that when Sam and Dean saw Cas again, Sam quickly took a peak at dean and was happy because Dean would have peace and not have nightmares anymore because Cas is back, and Sam would secretly tell Castiel what would happen to Dean, and he would smile slightly.

6/15/2020