#loveforboho

Its been quite some time now. somehow I lost the track. I had been a bit busy. well life happens. And its hardly like the way you plan. When i first started off on tumblr I wasn’t sure how it would turn out to be. but then I was young. carefree. lived in my own dream world. The typical of young people form any part of the world. I wanted to travel. meet new people. build a career. be anything but ordinary. Just out of college with promises to be in touch always. not change. And then Change happens -  gradually. You don’t always see it coming.But it does. At its own pace. sometimes it rushes down like a swift mountainous riverine sometimes waltzing down the lane next block taking you totally by surprise. Sometimes you hope that it is gonna come but it never does!  

No it did not go as planned for me. Had so many surprises. twists and turns on the way. some i loved. some not so much. Some turns were so stiff i barely escaped unscratched! been such a whirlwind time. Spent nearly ten years away from home family. but then it never felt out of the way. May be I am that way. Staying away being on my own. It is some kind of drug. So intoxicating . It is more intoxicating than that of the cheap thrills we ho looking for. Once you get the hang oh the life u get a hold of your life you just don’t want to let go. Yes there are times when you do feel lonely some nights are longer that others. But then isn’t that the way with everyone whether staying alone with partners or family? Some nights they too feel the prangs of loneliness. Some nights they want to run away , be on their own. So what would you name that?

There are certain feelings that may be I’ll never be able to explain to anyone. My love for free life- life without bounds is something that I just cant give up....yet. I am not saying I want to spent all of my life alone. No I don’t say that. May be we are strangers now but someday may be there will be change in my life too. But till that time I don’t want to force myself into anything. Till that time I don’t want to go chasing after something I don’t have my heart fully into. Until then I want to do so many thing that I want to. Some say there is time for everything. You need to do this in this time if you don’t you have consequences. Well I don’t believe that there is hard and fast time set for everything. We keep moving. What if I want to do something now? what if I want to go bungee jumping? I want to go scuba? There is a famous saying in Hindi “ kal kisne dekha?” (”who has seen what tomorrow holds?”) 

Am I in love? Yes I am. But I am in love with the wilderness. I am in love with the free life. I am in love. 

.................”and miles to go before I sleep.”