the end or us?

i am trying.

do you see a light at the end?

dont try.

i stopped so long ago

and you want to keep a hold on me without a leash

but im not safe to leave alone

i cant feel withtout being near you

and when i get away i am in my own land

it aint so pretty

i wouldnt ask you to visit with me.

lost soul lost soul lost soul

not trapped.

i been  out here searching for the gold within all this green and blue sky

ain’t much gold

underneath my fingertips there are glitters that come from gliding my fingers across your canvas

all that glitters aint gold

but you are

there’s a color spectrum that has my name written on it

i am everything

you are golden.

all over the place

a burst

a burst of that spectrum

i am.

a soul

i am.

i feel lost. 

keeping track of colors and sounds

seeing flowers and trees

no escape.

trying to move on

but i move backwards

am i really trying?

you see

with you and me

im not sure if i want to go further.

i want the happiness

but does it exist

for me?

you are better

stronger

without

me.

my mind i can not escape.

unless i am with you.

i read i write i sing i..

i try.

i try.