May 4, 2025
I plant roots so deeply in the people I love that I always lose a piece of myself when they go.
- Beau Taplin
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I plant roots so deeply in the people I love that I always lose a piece of myself when they go.
- Beau Taplin
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“I lost myself so many years ago that I hesitate to try to find myself again. I am afraid to begin. Existing so often gives me palpitations. I am so afraid to be myself. I am so dangerous.”
Clarice Lispector II Why This World: A Biography of Clarice Lispector
being called sunshine when I lost my spark is heartbreaking
I definitely lost my mind ...
Ich habe so lange gekämpft, aber mein Kopf ist ein Ort geworden, an dem ich nicht mehr leben kann.
Depression, Angst und Panik haben mich Stück für Stück zerbrochen.
Nach außen war ich immer noch da… aber innerlich bin ich schon lange verschwunden.
Es tut mir leid.
Ich hoffe irgendwann versteht jemand, wie müde ich wirklich war...
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I really need to remember that no one gives a shit about how I feel, opinions, or my life in general. It would be spare me from a lot of hurt feelings.
Sad feelings are not discussed, but let me tell you that one of the worst feelings you can go through is being lost. Sadness, loss, or even disappointment may be real and honest feelings, but at least you are able to describe your feelings, able to express them, able to live with them, and even in your heart you have the ability to change them in different ways.
But getting lost and confused is very difficult.
You can't define your feelings.
Am I sad or happy?
Am I good or bad?
Am I wronged and oppressed, or has the wrongdoer wronged me?
Am I enough for others, or am I a burden?
Continue or give up?
Have I reached it or not?
Do I deserve love or do I deserve hate?
Should I try again, or is that enough?
Am I even trying, or am I not even trying?
Am I lagging behind and my steps are slow, or is it the world that is fast?
Is what I have reached enough, or not yet, or have I not reached it at all?
Hundreds of tough questions you ask yourself every day... You're unable to determine your destination or path, and even your thoughts are lost and scattered...
And after a long journey of wandering and distraction, you discover...
that you weren't a demanding person to begin with...
and that your journey of wandering and distraction was in search of one thing...
to settle down, calm your mind, relax, and reassure your heart...
that the ultimate goal of human life is peace and tranquility.
created a such a false persona in hopes of finding myself
that I feel more out of touch with who I am than ever before