I’m talking to my mom and she’s saying like “I’m upset that you think there’s something wrong with you. You’re perfectly normal and experience normal things.” Like, thank you, I appreciate the sentiment but… you also don’t know the full extent of what I’m experiencing. And I can’t tell you because I’m so afraid to say it because I feel like you will call me dramatic or a liar or just continue to make me feel invalidated or that I’m making up what I’ve been experiencing
Hell, I’VE questioned myself and what I’ve been feeling. But every time I come back to it, it checks out. I really don’t think these are “normal people things” and I get frustrated because you don’t understand, because I’ve been showing these symptoms quietly, because the extremity that I experience these things are not just “normal people things.” 50% of the time I doubt my own self diagnosis, but then I see something, apply my symptoms and compare, and then it matches up.
Plus, mater, normal people don’t have little voices in their head that sometimes take over and make the body do things. I really, really don’t think I’m “normal people.”
