I need to ramble about how heartbreaking Joel's death was from Grian's pov
Joel's despair up until this point trying to get kills, any kills, any little bit more time he could grasp. Grian yelling at Joel to kill him and give him time, only for Joel to lose another hour right after getting two kills.
Grian keeps following Joel, one who has five hours sacrificing himself to one who has five minutes. Joel absolutely panicking losing it having no idea what to do. He needed to kill someone he needed more time. Grian was offering him time but he couldn't take more from him.
Grian follows Joel as he desperately drops Tnt on other players heads and it's not working. He turns to his ally one last time in fear "Grian this is not gonna work-"
The silence after the chaos as the realization of what just happened sinks in. Grian processing that his friend's last words were calling out for him. He knew Joel was gonna die, he was just waiting for it. But when push comes to shove, nothing prepares you to hear your friends last words.
And as they caved in Grian could do nothing but close himself off, and follow the plan he had created in his mind when he wasn't mourning.
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